#therefore i won't talk about it

[spookythesillyfella]

Thank you for everything you have done on this account I want you to know from my perspective that I care about you not just for your incredible artwork or your High Voltage AU.. but for who you are as a person. I’m not here to sugarcoat things or throw out empty compliments because I know it’s easy to think words like these are “overused” or “cliché” but honestly you’ve been someone who’s made me feel like it’s okay to open up and vent. You’ve seen me completely unload on my own blog and that sense of acceptance means more than I can express since at least when I feel my lowest to a breaking point on some other end there's another person who understands me somehow. I’m not saying we’re exactly the same since our lives and situations are clearly different but I can see a lot of your struggles, just as I’m sure you recognize some of mine. Ever since I started following you I’ll admit I’ve been nervous (still am) I worry I might say or do something wrong that could upset you or drive you away.. It’s a constant fear of making a bad impression but I really do wish I could get to know you better! I’d love to show up here more often, talk about your day, your interests, or anything you want to share. Even if you feel like you don’t stand out you’ve made a meaningful difference in my life and that’s something I’ll always appreciate. I know things are getting tough for everyone right now though I want to remind you that your life is valuable and you’re worth so much. I care about you deeply Spooky and I truly hope things start to feel better for you soon - 💌🩷 (You can figure out who this is by the emojis) P.S don't feel you need to EVER reply to this inbox or anything I send you. This isn't a message to tell you to "stop venting" either. In fact, Your venting again is what helped me realize I am allowed to express myself at times even if I do delete it all haha. Stay safe and I love you /p

oh . thank you deary

ill admit that i dont exactly have the capacity to answer thiz ask – my sad excuse of a vocabulary paired with my constant struggle to find the right wordz

i totally get why you're scared but . truthfully . and i mean every word . you could probably threaten my safety and id still love you incredibly much – you've genuinely helped me overcome a lot of my troublez . not just through your fantastic au . but through you just being a person

ive felt a little less hezitant talking about whatz bothering me on the internet – a sort of echo chamber doez feel nice to scream into every now and again to blow off steam – and . while you're right in saying that our strugglez are definitely different . i still feel genuine support whenever you talk about your own strugglez ; in my eyez . i see thiz az solidarity . i suppoze

and . though it might not eaze you . i do have to say that you shouldn't worry about making a bad impression around me – if anything . i have the same fear regarding all my friendz too ; wordz are so hard to work out and phrazing can be such a hassle . i certainly know that much hehe

itz quite alright if you can't bring yourself to come by more often – i don't expect people to show up in the first place – but i do want you to remember that im alwayz thinking about you ; you're such a wonderful friendsibling and talking to you makez me feel at eaze . so no matter where i go i alwayz have you in the back of my mind . much like the rest of my online siblingz

take care . and know that thiz too shall pass eventually – "I know it's storming now; that the puddles made up of your own tears are expanding. But you should remember that, once the rain is over, greener pastures will bloom. I hope you'll be there to see them blossoming, instead of remaining hung up in your room..."

[hakusins]

ngl i can never understand when ppl look at mydei or gilgamesh and go 'omg daddy!!!' because these two are the most womanly looking women i've ever seen. feminine little princesses. pampered spoiled brats who never worked a day in their life. the kind of feminine woman that brings out the misogynist in you and makes u want to get them pregnant with quadruplets-

[sincerely-sofie]

TPiaG AU be like:

“You get some trauma! You get some trauma! You get some trauma! EVERYBODY GETS A TRAUMA!!!!!!!!”

*points at Opal* “Except you.”

Opal's trauma is finding out about all the visceral suffering that stitched her happy family together :)

[idolsummons]

I should update my pinned to say I'm an rp blog but I also talk about reading and writing generally

[theoreticalli]

I put 30 tags on that dear evan hansen post. for the love of god don't click to expand the tags I'm so fucking sorry I just hate that awful fucking show so fucking much. oh fuck I've done it again in the tags here oh god

[babacontainsmultitudes]

[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.

[match-your-steps]

just read a review of the lego movie from 2014 and it is genuinely a horrible piece of literature and through perusing the comments underneath the review, I have gained an intense dislike of the reviewer. it's not even that I liked the lego movie and he didn't it's just that a lot of the stuff he says is factually incorrect, really stupid-sounding, or he doesn't provide any real reason, and in the comments, he reacts to even the friendliest and politest constructive criticism as if it's a personal attack on him.

[thatscarletflycatcher]

I have been trying for days to find a topic for the "paper" I need to turn in for this Philosophy of History course on Friday, and I got nothing.

I so intensely dislike this subject you cannot imagine.

[coockie8]

do you ever think about unblocking the person who made the callout about you?

Sometimes, yeah, but then I remember I'm above willingly opening myself up to a brain cell-killing argument with a troglodyte who thinks what a person engages with in fiction indicates in any way, shape, or form what a person's real-world morals are.

[archersgoon]

the thing about their information on gargarin right. is that yeah eighteen years ago he was the king's favourite advisor. but no one checks where he was thirteen years ago even though those answers (in the dungeons/who fucking knows, depending who you ask) would seem to imply that perhaps it is not so clear cut that he was responsible, and instead assume this based on that letter he sent the belegonians

[wookgerine]

Love that they take Bella with the gym with them all the time

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

something hellish about living with my mother is that if i were to take the nice, long soak in the tub my pussy severely needs and deserves right now at this here 5 AM, she would throw a fit.

[slimyenemy]

your fish has lost all her charm i think like almost two months ago now when i freaked out because something really weird may or may not have happened after i said something about her being abusive. and it pretty much became clear at this point too anyway that my consent means nothing to her or both of them i can't even remember what i had in my head exactly. if you want to know.

[bijoumikhawal]

you do realize that actual Scottish and Irish people have in fact, criticized how people talk about the Fae, and done so specifically on Tumblr

its fascinating how very very surface level 1920s-ish jazz age inspired aesthetics are very popular (see: hazbin hotel and electroswing and the endless wave of bowtie pinstripe character designs from the 2010s) but the vast vast majority of people who are into that seem fundamentally disinterested in actually engaging with actual jazz age art and culture because that would require engaging with black art

[medicinemane]

It's just a fact that nothing I do matters or has any impact

I can prove it, and I do mean that

I wouldn't want to because I think it would bother people, but I have... endless proof

[prokopetz]

Something that pops up in my notes from time to time is folks thinking I'm being excessively kind in my criticisms of Dungeons & Dragons, and I'm going to spin this off into a separate thread to address that without putting anyone on the spot.

First, if your own critique of Dungeons & Dragons is rooted in the idea that it's the Worst Game Ever, that speaks more to the limits of your experience than it does to anything else. Dungeons & Dragons in any of its iterations is far from the worst the tabletop roleplaying hobby has to offer – like, you have no fucking idea!

Second, I tend to be even-handed in my discussion of D&D's rules because, fundamentally, the rules are not the problem – or, at least, not the principal cause of the problem.

In many ways, the indie RPG sphere has never escaped the spectre of Ron Edwards, sternly pronouncing that the mechanical process of playing traditional RPGs causes actual, physical brain damage, and that this brain damage is responsible for the bad behaviour we often observe at the table. We don't say it that way anymore, but on some level a lot of us indie RPG designers still kind of believe it.

This is understandable. As game designers, we're naturally inclined to think of problems at the table as game design problems. When we see a problematic culture of play, our impulse is to frame it as something which emerges from the text of the game, and which can therefore be mitigated by repairing the text of the game.

Confronted with the obvious toxicity of certain facets of D&D's culture of play, we go combing through its text, looking for something – some formalism, some structure, some piece of rules technology – which we can point to and say: "this is it; this is where the brain-worms live."

The trouble is, this is not in fact where the brain-worms live. Certainly, the text of a game, particularly a very popular one, can have some influence on the game's surrounding culture of play, but that text is in turn a reflection of the culture of play in which it was written. The Player's Handbook isn't an SCP object, spewing infectious infohazards everywhere when you crack open the cover – hell, I'd go so far as to say that many of the problems of D&D's culture of play operate in spite of the game's text, not because of it!

Basically, what I'm saying is that I don't see any contradiction between being the sort of pretentious knob who writes one-page indie RPGs about gay catgirls talking about their feelings (which I am), and speaking favourably about this or that piece of rules tech from whatever flavour of Dungeons & Dragons is in favour this week (which I do), because I recognise that you can't game-design your way out of a problem you didn't game-design your way into.

The fact that one of the biggest problems facing the tabletop roleplaying hobby is something that can't be repaired by fucking around with dice-rolling procedures is a bitter pill to swallow for a lot of indie game designers, and I won't say I wasn't resistant to it myself, but it's something that's both useful and necessary to accept.

(None of this means that the text of Dungeons & Dragons in any of its incarnations is beyond criticism on other grounds, of course, and I've never been shy about highlighting those criticisms where they're warranted. The only way you're gonna arrive at the conclusion that I'm some sort of D&D apologist is if you're starting from the presumption that The Real Problem Is The Rules.)