#there's taco tuesday.... i haven't had a taco in a good while i need to remedy that. mutuals come get tacos with me

[numetaljackdog]

tuesday may well be the best day of the week

[theoriginalmarke]

TAKE IT EASY TUESDAY

Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy...

Yesterday was busy. The equipment company unexpectedly came to pick up the bed and such. Before they arrived I took a quick shower, wolfed down a Larabar, and got everything together for them.

One of the neighbors decided to call me (while I was in the bathroom of course), left a voicemail asking me to call, and then texted too. This is the neighbor from the RV park I suspect of being a tweaker. I texted back I'll talk later. SMH.

After the equipment company left I had about 15 minutes free so I dragged the couch back into place. I'd had to rearrange the house to make room for the bed.

I met with the funeral home, signed papers, and talked shop a little bit.

Mom had complained several times that I need a haircut. I stopped at one shop afterwards and was told the first opening is Wednesday. No thanks. I found Mom's hair cutting kit, if I can't get it done elsewhere I'll cut my own. Maybe Vernal has a Supercuts or Sports Clips or something.

I haven't been to the grocery in about three or four weeks so I stopped and got some stuff I needed. They are expensive here so I'll wait until I can get to Vernal and get most things at Walmart.

It was 2 pm and I was starting to get a little hungry so I stopped at Taco Bell to try their Cheez-It Crunchwrap. It was good though the customer service pretty much sucked.

I got home and did more cleaning and rearranging. I did a load of laundry. I hugged the dogs. I called some of her friends. I've never met her husband's children but I contacted them to let them know. Mom had some kind of falling out with them when he got sick but I let them know she still loved them.

A lot of what I need to do I can't do until I get the death certificates.

Mom had planned to have a yard sale, eventually I'll need to go ahead and do that. There's the stuff she had set aside, some of her husband's stuff his boys didn't take, clothing, dishes that I'll never use, stuff like that. She had a lot of crafting supplies. Fancy napkins and napkin rings. Yada yada yada.

And the creepy neighbor just stopped by. At least he waited until a decent hour this time.

I don't have much to do today other than more going through things, more cleaning, and more introspection. I think this would be a good day for Vernal and hunting for a haircut and affordable groceries.

For the past few days I've been wondering why my coffee suddenly doesn't taste very good. I just realized it's the cheap dollar store creamer I had to get. I need to go shopping just to get some decent creamer.

"Lighten up while you still can. Don't even try to understand..."

I love you baby. I'm so grateful for everything you do. MWAH!

Y'all have a great day.

[sophie-soliloquy]

It has been an absolutely PSYCHOTIC past two days. I'm exhausted and just barely getting a chance to catch up here.

First of all-- Company C offered me a job yesterday, which sent me into an immediate panic spiral. I would work there if I had to, but I would prefer to work at Company A 10000 times over (I get the sense I won't be hearing from Company B), and want to avoid signing anything or making any kind of commitment until Company A gets back to me. And there's still one more person I need to interview with before they can even make a call, and Company C wants an answer by Tuesday. So, aaaaaah.

Today, I got an email from Company A confirming that I WILL be moving onto the last round, which is super exciting! I know it is! And I'm trying to be more excited, except that I sent them an email asking what their timeline is looking like since I do have a competing offer and, uh, didn't get a reply. So... I don't love that. I really hope I didn't just completely fucking blow it by trying to advocate for myself. I hope I don't have to ask Company C for more time and fuck things up just to NOT get Company A. I know this is a good problem to have, but it is one I've never had before and I'm really trying not to be stressed. Not to mention that while Company C is a job and is communications-related, it would... not exactly be the return to form I'd be hoping for. Whatever. I should stop being a piece of shit and just be grateful, but I don't want to fuck this up.

I also remain hard at work in the grad school app trenches, since I don't feel confident enough to stop applying with everything still so all up in the air. I applied to SC3, and I actually think the video clips I made were pretty good. I also think it's the school I'm least likely to get into, given that they're very grades-focused, so whatever. It's not like it's my top choice anyway-- hence, SC3. Now I'm in the trenches with SC1's million essays. I meant to do 3 today, but only two got done. Ah, well. I'm tired and I'm so busy and haven't fixed my sleep problems at all. I'll get it done at some point. Tomorrow, ideally. I hope.

Not that the social stuff of the last two days hasn't been fun! Last night, I went to the Halloween party at Flash, which was actually way more fun and chill than I thought. I was perfectly crossfaded-tipsy, it was busy enough to be fun but not too crowded to dance, and the music was awesome. I finally wore my Jinx costume, and despite the fact that the top of that wig looks ratchet as fuck, I think I did a great job. And I had Keri to help me tame it. We did a pretty good job, considering. It ended up being a surprisingly lovely night, and I'm getting to know Shane's roommates' whole crowd better, and I had Taco Bell on the way home, teehee.

Today, Ellie and Shay were kind enough to drive all the way out here to spend the day with me! They gave me a lot of great advice and comfort on the work situation, and we boiled in the hot tub for a good, long time. And then we watched the Shawshank Redemption, which reliably made me cry, and Ellie really liked.

After that, we went to San Matteo for dinner, which was absolutely bomb. I ate way too much, but all of it was worth it. And then I grinded out those two essays, and now I am here. I'm supposed to go to Rocky Horror tonight, but it's all the way in Fairfax and I am sooo sleepy and I've been cold all day... but a bitch can rally.

[minilpark]

So I'm 22, I'll be 23 at the end of August, making me a virgo. I use she/her pronouns. I would like to be with someone who I can wear heels with and still be the shorter one (I'm 5'5) but that's not an absolute deal breaker for me.

I am bi, but i do lean more heavily towards men then women. I work two jobs so free time is a commodity that I don't have a ton of but what I do have is filled with drives by the river (I live in a city on the Mississippi) lots of music and reading as well.

My apartment is a cozy, colorful place, but it is a bit messy. I do my best but I have never been an overly neat individual. It also has my two cats in it, so really it's their apartment. I am a bit of a homebody and an introvert but I don't mind going out with people that I know are not going to leave me stranded while they socialize. I have a core group of friends and we get together to do taco Tuesday and drinks on Saturday, normally no partners aloud. They are people who's approval is not easy to get but is certainly something I want when it comes to the person I date. I would also like my parents to like the person. (I don't think I could settle with someone that my mother did not like, but I've never introduced her to anyone I've dated.)

I also have some pretty serious ADHD so I utilize games on my phone alot while I'm in conversation (I promise I'm listening but this number game is my new fidget toy right now, please keep talking). Because of my ADHD I also talk alot. I'm a wordy woman and i'm not sure i want that to change so someone who can stand that is important. When I'm nervous or uncomfortable I either talk way more, which shouldn't be possible, or I don't talk at all, which is way worse because then everyone knows I'm nervous/uncomfortable.

I really like to travel when I can. My favorite place I've even been is Dublin, but I haven't been to so many places on my list. Last summer I went to the beach for the first time and I fell in love with the idea of living on the coast. I also love to take pictures. There was a good few years where I was convinced I was going to be a photographer for some sort of travel magazine, yes I am that good, but I stopped finding joy in it and had to step away. It's still a hobby for me and my favorite thing to photograph is people.

I like nice clothing and shoes. So I own alot of nice clothing and shoes. I would love a date where we get all dressed up, take some pictures and then do something totally inappropriate for the clothing we're wearing. Actually, my ideal date is being able to drive in the car listening to music and talking about everything and nothing. Later in the relationship it would be turning on some good music and dancing around the living room in our underwear/pajamas.

I hate dating people who make me feel dumb and I swear to go if my partner trys to coddle or baby me, I will not stick around. I want someone who veiws me as an equal. If I need something explained, I'll ask. That being said, I'm not confrontational. Every time I have been, people have walked away so I don't like doing it and if I do I am either super sure that the person will stick around or I'm so mad that I don't care if they do.

I'm hesitant to settle. I've never had a person that I could envision myself with for the rest of my life, but I do think that once I start to see that happening in my head, I could get on board with it.

My love language is gift giving and quality time. I love getting flowers even if I kill them.

This is really long, I did say I am a wordy woman. Do me justice honey. You seem to be a pretty good matchmaker thus far.

i think phoenix could be a cool person for you.

i think nat would find you to be a pretty interesting person to get to know. she'd come to see how talkative you can be, how introverted you are, and how you like to seek approval of your choices from both your friends and parents as you trust their choices. phoenix would definitely be there to reassure you about things especially if she notices you are nervous or uncomfortable. i think you two would travel a lot when she's not working but besides that, she'd definitely love to share her travel stories with you. i think a fun date idea for the two of you would be dressing up really fancy and just staying home, ordering takeout and enjoying each other's company with drinks.

[pbandjesse]

Today was great and Im only frustrated that my lip has gotten worse again. I think from the friction from my mask and the heat all day made it worse. But my whole mouth area hurts and it sucks. Honestly, I am also just very sore. We did a lot of walking in the sun today!!

I didn't sleep great last night. I had weird nightmares again and I woke up with my lip all covered in dry blood. I was pretty upset about it and it would only get worse. I tried my best to baby it but there was only so much I could do.

I got washed up and dressed though. I was super excited for costume. I would end up wearing my corset open because it was a lot warmer then I expected. But I felt so cute. I loved how I did my hair, with two twisted braids under my headband. I was very pleased. My makeup would mostly wear away half way through the day but I still felt really good about it. James put on their costume so we could see how it looked before we left, just in case something had to change. But I think they looked great. The new shirt is so good and loots great on them. They would wear a regular shirt for the drive, so I put all our accessories and their costume in a tote bag to bring with us.

I was in a really chill mood overall. Jess was texting me all upset about feeling rushed and things not working the way she was hoping but I was chill and tried to give her some of that energy.

We left here and went to Mcdonalds before we drove the hour and a half to the ren faire.

And it was a good drive! The way there we made great time, we listened to a few episodes of the story podcast we listen to on long drives. We had lots of laughs because I kept saying dumb shit and James would tease me but in the best way. It was a good ride.

Jess was worried about the parking line but we got there a little after 1030 and there was no line at all! And they pulled in minutes after us!

It took us all a few minutes to get our costumes right and get ourselves together. But Jess and her brother and sister-in-law would come over to us and then we would all go in together.

We got in really fast. And for real it was barely crowded. Like there were crowds but nothing like Ive experienced in the past. We barely had to wait for anything. When we first got there we got lemonade and played with some photo opp things. I had a great time walking around and was for sure the leader of the day.

I would just lead us to what I thought was good. James was there for whatever and Jess didn't have anything specific. We didn't know what any shows were so we only ended up going to one. Which was the mud pit show. Which I always love. We caught a little of a few other shows but we should have probably planned that better. We did get to see the mermaids which was very cool though. She even had fangs.

I loved seeing people's costumes. And we ate a lot of different things. I had a smoothie. Me and Jess shared a pickle. Jess and James each had turkey legs. I had a baked potato. We would have kettle corn and I got a little sandwich. They got coffee and James shared an apple muffin with me. It was such a food day and it was great.

We didn't buy much beyond food. I did get to do things I never got to before. I got to do the gemstone panning thing. I have always wanted to do that but it always seemed expensive but it was $15 and I got some awesome stones and really had a great time. And James got me one of those copper roses and I always wanted one of those. So it was pretty great.

We would do a lot of walking. A lot of people watching. Going in shops. Enjoying the company. We watched the glass blowing demo. We got James sized for a kilt and the men who ran that place were so excited that were getting married. They apparently also do rentals and gave us their card so we can get something for James that we know is nice. I think we even know the color.

I really had a great day. I was tired but like in a good way. We went to the dungeon and read about all the scary things people did to each other. James found someone's wallet?? So we gave that to the woman at the front. I hope it made its way back to the owner.

We did see a poor girl who was wasted wasted and an actor came to check on her because she was double over on her self, looked asleep, but then security staff and first aid came and checked on her to get her some water and find her friends. I hope she is okay.

We surprisingly didn't see to many embarrassingly drunk people, for being Octoberfest. It was fun seeing people in all kinds of costumes though and I was having a great time.

Jess was moving very slow because her feet hurt and we kept losing her. So to keep James slow I held their hand and to keep Jess with us I held her hand and we were a little train. A man at a booth laughed at us and said we needed a leash when I told him why we were doing this. But it worked!!

Jess got a precious hat. And then we bought honey products. We ran into her brother and sister in law and it was decided we wouldn't stay through the end and instead leave at 530ish.

So we got our last snacks and headed to the front to wait.

Me and Jess talked for a while while James filled our water bottle. And then we went out to sit in a gazebo and take some costume pieces off. It was just a wonderful day. I am so glad we got to go. Lookign through my posts we haven't been there together since 2014, me and James went to the Maryland one ins 2018. But it has been forever so this was just the best. And I get to see Jess again next Tuesday so it wasn't even that sad saying goodbye.

I was excited to go home. But we had some issues. We ended up going on the wrong exit on the turnpike and had to go twenty miles out of the way to turn around. And then we had another wrong turn and it was another 20 minutes added.

But we stopped for donuts and tacos after that. Donuts for James and tacos for me. And we listened to more tanis and enjoyed the sunset.

We got home around 830. Washed up and now were in bed. My lips are hurting really bad and have split open again. Im going to get actual neosporn tomorrow. Auquafore just isn't cutting it.

But now is time for rest.

I hope tomorrow is beautiful for all of you. Goodnight everyone!!