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“jay—”
the sentence you somehow thought you could form dies in your throat as your breath shudders in your lungs.
“yes, my love?” your roommate, jason todd, looks up from where he’s happily situated: between your thighs. his attention now divided, you’re mercifully granted a break. you gulp for air, your hands over your face.
“i just need—”
“what? what do you need?” he cuts you off, impatient that you’re pulling him away from what he’s been so dutifully working on for probably an hour..if not more. “you want me to stop?” jason teases, rubbing a warm, calloused hand over the meat of your thigh. “does it feel too good?”
“w-what?” confused, you shake your head. “i don’t—”
“i think you need someone to worry about you for once, huh?” he raises an eyebrow at you, causing your cheeks to heat as your hands fly back up to your face. “what, you don’t agree?”
you open your mouth to argue, then close it. then open it again, thinking.
“mm. that’s what i thought.” your roommate smirks at you, turning his gaze back onto the part of you that’s still pulsing with heat from his ministrations. his chin’s slick from how much time he’s spent tongue deep in your pussy.
but he wants more.
wants to feel your hands in his hair again, gripping as he draws orgasm after orgasm out of you. wants to feel your thighs tight around his head, your self-control wavering as your back arches off the mattress, again and again.
wants nothing but to breathe you in as he presses feathery light kisses to your puffy clit, watching you squirm from the barely-there pressure of his lips.
wants you, all of you, the happy, sad, messy, angry, loving, caring, beautiful you,
—but jason: dead and revived, beaten and bruised, silent and steadfast, your jason, can’t always put that into words, can he?
so he wants you to feel it, really feel it:
in the way he pats your thigh lovingly as he runs his tongue through your folds, over and over.
in the way he carries you to bed when you fall asleep on him in the living room. kisses your forehead as he tucks you in.
in the way he brushes your hair out of your face before he grabs you by the cheeks and your lips meet.
in the way he knows your favorite, well, everything.
in the way he’s always holding your hand when the two of you walk anywhere.
in the way his pupils always widen, huge and blown out, when he looks at you, making your heart pound in time with his as he holds your gaze.
in the way he washes your hair in the shower,
makes your coffee in the mornings,
buys and arranges flowers for you,
wears that cologne you like,
knows the sidewalk rule,
kisses your forehead,
laughs with you,
smirks at you,
loves you.
and yet you two are..
you two, and you both worry.
of course, you both worry.
he worries he’s not enough for you—
his lifestyle, his history..how could he ever be what you need? how could he give you the life you deserve?
—and you worry you’re a little too much sometimes.
a man like that? with his past, his present? and yet he takes care of you like it’s the easiest thing in the world. like he could do it in his sleep.
all you know is that he doesn’t have to worry, shouldn’t have to, because whatever, or however much he thinks he wants something, you want it just as much..if not more.
and what you want next? to make it official? to really, truly, make him your jason?
well.
how could he refuse you?
#yeah.. we back#��ness’s quick fics#reblog or die#—delusional as always#—ness writes#the batboys x you#dc comics smut#jason todd x reader#red hood x reader#jason todd imagine#your boyfriend!jason todd#jason todd headcanon#jason todd smut#jason todd fanfiction#jason todd fic#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#jason todd x fem!reader#red hood x you#red hood x y/n#red hood x fem!reader#roommate!jason todd#biker!jason todd#biker/roommate!jason todd#reblog this#red hood fanfiction#red hood/reader#jason todd/reader
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if zayne had any say in it, he'd have med student!reader's exams moved to another week so you can go through the brunt of your period without having to bury yourself in stacks of books and flashcards.
but he doesn't.
so zayne does what he knows best—make the pain more bearable, the challenges you face easier.
he lets you sleep in, brushing the hair curtaining your face away to plant a kiss on your forehead before he heads out. he comes home an hour later, strong arms carrying bags stuffed with menstrual products and your favorite snacks, having already placed an order to your favorite restaurant.
you're already awake by the time he sets the goods down on the floor of his bedroom.
it's clear to zayne, though, that you don't have the strength to stand up, let alone walk all the way to the desk in his office, body curling into yourself as you whimper in pain, so he sets up a foldable table he was gifted years back on his bed. he coaxes you into propping yourself up against his headboard, a cautious hand making sure you don't hit the back of your head on the wood.
he gathers all the materials you need study and begins to recap to you the topics. his voice is low, steady as an anchor. his hand acts as a hot compress, pressed over your lower abdomen, fingers drawing circles to massage the flesh and ease the pain. he makes sure you're able to soak in every bit of information that comes out of his mouth, asking you questions in between with the promise of a reward if you get them right. he even lets you take more breaks than he usually would, incredibly lenient and succumbing to whatever you want if you so much as whine.
the rest of his day is spent in bed with you, surrounded by your notes and empty takeout containers and crumpled bags of candies and chips on the floor. and when you wake up the next morning, you're more than ready to take on your exam.
zayne can't make the world pause over your suffering, but he can and will help you bear the weight on your shoulders.
a/n: notice how med student!reader only comes out when i, too, am suffering over my course ... anyways i actually think this sucks ass but im on my period everything hurts i need to study but i dont want to study anymore so this is the best i can do for now (not proofread btw)
#zayne x reader#love and deepspace x reader#zayne fluff#love and deepspace fluff#zayne x med student!reader#deusfoundry writes!
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♡ You Tell Selene You Only Want To Be Friends With Benefits ♡
(sorry I didn't write yesterday, I got high.)
You'd been sleeping with Selene for a solid year at that point, the longest anyone had ever managed to last when it came to sleeping with her, you supposed she just liked something about you in particular. You didn't mind though, she was an excellent hook up, wouldn't be a good relationship but since it was only sex you could ignore all the other red flags. You weren't her mate who would need to deal with all her issues one day and she'd made it clear you weren't dating when you first started, she was saving all that romance stuff for her mate but you could fuck occasionally if you didn't get too attached. Despite this it seemed lately she had been the one getting attached, growling when you left bed Monday morning to return to your nearby town, seeming antsy when she finally picked you up Friday night for your weekend of hooking up. It hadn't been a weekend at first, that would be too intimate but slowly she'd pushed it in what seemed like a desperate attempt to keep you longer.
"You should sleep at my place, then we'd be able to do it more frequently." She suggested one time, not saying moving in but you knew what she meant. You turned her down of course, this was just sex, you weren't going to get entangled with her. She'd started to sound less playful each time she suggested it after that, you shut that down reminding her that you were not her mate. She didn't say it again, instead only looking sullen and agitated when she picked you up on Fridays after that. Today she seemed more excited when you met her in her car, pulling you into a big hug.
"Hey Selene, I thought we agreed no PDA." You really didn't want anyone around you to ask you about her, it was already embarrassing enough they knew you were going to her place every weekend, despite being their goddess, she was not very well liked in werewolf territory. Beyond that those humans who did sleep with Selene were mostly looked down on since she was such a sleaze and had a mate out there somewhere. Your reputation took quite a hit at first when it became known.
"I discovered something amazing today, my little dove." She grinned down at you, something about it was making you nervous. She was always intense when she looked at you but today you felt like you had to get away from her. You'd end it today you decided. She'd broken her own rule by falling for you. "You're my soulmate!"
You shoved her away, as well as much you could at least, heaving as you tried to process that information. There was just no world in which you wanted to be with her long term, she was great for sex, you loved that part but she just came off as a horrible partner to have and you really didn't even want anything serious probably ever. You weren't into relationships.
"So that means you can move in now, dove." She tried to pull you closer but you dodged her arms eliciting a growl from her.
"I don't want to, I was only with you for sex!" You shouted drawing the attention of some of your more nosy neighbors who wanted to know why their goddess and a human were fighting. She let out a growl at that grabbing you and shoving you in her car with a bit more force then necessary.
"Well now we can do that more often! Don't worry, I'll forgive you for that outburst you just had." She climbed in the car after you beginning to undress you in the backseat. The windows were tinted so no one could probably see in but they all definitely knew what was happening in there.
You may have only wanted her for sex at the moment but she was sure you'd come around to her in general if she just fucked you good enough often enough.
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i'm still standing in the same place: a sad playlist for a sad buck
good luck, babe!: chappell roan [you could kiss a hundred boys in bars/shoot another shot, try to stop the feeling] dog years: halsey [i've been a really good dog, can i come inside?] brainy: the national [think i better follow you around/you might need me more than you think you will] partner in crime (live): lucy dacus [when you asked me my age, i lied/i saw relief dawn on your eyes/it's not your fault, it's mine] you are a runner and i am my father's son: wolf parade [i'll draw three figures on your heart/one of them will be me as a boy/and one of them will be me/and one of them will be me watching you run] dust to dust: the civil wars [let me in the walls/you've built around/we can light a match/and burn them down] sadness as a gift: adrianne lenker [the seasons go so fast/thinking that this one was gonna last/maybe the question was too much to ask] i am easy to find: the national [i'm not going anywhere/who do i think i'm kidding?/i'm still standing in the same place/where you left me standing] i'm just another person oh god: daisy the great [god, tell me what to be/where is the rest of me?/in a paper boat lost at sea] almost lover: a fine frenzy [did i make it that easy to walk/right in and out of my life?] moon song: phoebe bridgers [so i will wait for the next time, you want me/like a dog with a bird at your door] lonely planet: the the [the world's too big, and life's too short/to be alone, to be alone] cheers darlin': damien rice [oh what am i?/what am i darlin'?/i got years to wait...] one: aimee mann [it's just no good anymore since you went away/now i spend my time/just making rhymes of yesterday] holding on: the war on drugs [i've been holding on too long/but you're right in front of me] triple dog dare: lucy dacus [you're dancing in the aisle 'cause the radio/is singing you a song you know/and the kid at the counter is gawking at your grace/i can tell what he's thinking by the look on his face/it's not his fault/i'm sure i look the same] no surrender (live): bruce springsteen [i want to sleep beneath peaceful skies in my lover's bed/with a wide open country in my eyes/and these romantic dreams in my head
listen
#evan buckley#911#911 abc#evan 'buck' buckley#fanmix#this is for season 8b buck he's gonna spiral and i'm so happy about that#buddie
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If you follow the new episode of one piece, i bet you know.
Law trying to get rid of phantom pain while he was dreaming or sick, he's dreaming about that day where he lose his crew
And reader trying to calm him down. Maybe Law didn't know it's them due to him still in panic and phantom pain act
You have no idea how much I love Law, and I miss him so much😭✋🏼enjoy!!
His pained moaning followed with small cries as if it was hard to breath for him became unbearable tonight; Law has been in so much pain ever since what happened; even when you both with the help on bepo managed to bring the crew to safety, the affect of that day was severe to Law.
As he slept fitfully, his body tossed and turned in his bed, followed by cries as if he was fighting to wake up. You rushed to his side immediately, caressing his head gently, "Shh, shhh, it's okay. You're safe, Love. You're safe."
His face was contorted in pain, brow furrowed, lips trembling as if trying to speak in his sleep, but unable to form words. In his dreams, the crew was fading away, like shadows swallowed by the ocean in a blink on an eye. He saw them one by one, falling; Bepo, Shachi, Penguin, all of them. His nakama, the people he’d sworn to protect, slipping through his fingers. They were screaming, calling for help, but there was nothing he could do. No matter how hard he tried, no matter how much he fought against the nightmare, he couldn’t reach them in time. "Wake up, Law. It's just a nightmare. Shh! You're saf-"
"NO!" he shot up in bed with his hand thrown at you with hard fall on your face, gasping for breath, drenched in sweat. His heart raced, his body trembling with the aftershocks of the nightmare. He tried to steady himself, but the image of his crew’s faces, their lives slipping away, was seared into his mind. He felt nauseous, his stomach twisting painfully. Unaware of the hit that contacted your face drawing blood from your nose, yet you didn't care because you knew he didn't do it on purpose. "Hey, hey" you gently cupped his face, he flinched away but the moment his eyes met your face in the dimmed lit room. He immediately went pale, realization dawning on him like a cold wave; he had hurt you.
“I-I’m so sorry…” His voice was thick with guilt, his hand reaching out to touch your face, his expression horrified. “I didn’t mean to hit you… Are you okay? I'm-I'm sorry."
You shook your head gently with a small smile as you cupped his face, not caring for your own injuries at this moment. “Shh, I’m fine, Law. Don’t worry about it, come here,” you replied. You could see the guilt written all over his face, and despite the sting from the unexpected hit, you didn’t want him to feel worse. “No, I—” Law began again, his voice low and pained.
“Love,It’s okay. Really. You were having a nightmare, don't worry about it ” you reassured him before taking a napkin and cleaning your face and turning back to him. “You didn’t mean to hurt me. It was just an accident.” You held his hand, and he immediately wrapped himself around you;
Law never acted in such ways, but it seems like the dream terrified him that he needed to gorund himself. He let out a shaky breath, his heart still beating fast as if he would pass out then and there. “I don’t know what’s happening to me,” he said under his breath, his voice quieter now. “It’s like… it’s like I can’t protect them anymore. " I’m losing control. I don't know what to do."
You held him closer. “You’re not losing control, Law,” you whispered, your fingers gently stroking the back of his head. “You’re just scared. And that’s okay. We all are sometimes. We are human, and it could catch the best of us, but you need to know that you are safe, we all are. It's okay.”
His breath hitched in his throat, feeling vulnerable. lile this was not the way he wanted you to see him, “I can’t lose them,” he whispered, his voice cracking. “I can’t lose you.” You held him even closer, kissing the top of his head you spoke “You won’t. You’re not alone, Law. You have us. We’ll always be here. We are safe with you." He sighed on your chest, shutting his eyes as he wrapped his arms tightly, "I love you, I love you so much. Thank you, sweetheart. I love you." He kept repeating it until he finally fell back to a much more comfortable sleep this time. You made sure to hold him for as long as you were awake, still stocking his black hair gently.
#one peice#one piece headcanons#one piece imagine#angst#law trafalgar#trafalgar one piece#law trafalgar x y/n#law trafalgar x reader#law op#trafalgar law#trafalgar law x oc#trafalgar law x reader#trafalgar d water law#trafalgar op#trafalgar d law x reader#law trafalgar x you
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It's gonna be a good day good night
#persona 3#persona 3 reload#persona#p3 reload#there's so much I want to draw..but for now I need sleep#this song is really soothing..#doodle
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finally managed to doodle the hot rod guy from the mecha au by @keferon
He is so fun
Like I want to draw him in every fun and dynamic position possible
I vehemently think he have to jump in the most limb bending eye catching pose everytime, just because he can, it's my own very personal headcanon belief that is dear to me
I am currently in the middle figuring out how to draw his mecha dancing to bye bye bye send prayers pls ( and the lost light Titan trying and failing too if I can add him )
#tf mecha universe#hot rod#transformers#maccadam#Rodimus#i did my best to draw him as fast as possible and as recognizable as possible#i had a vision#better ti stop yapping i can't stop when u start#*when i start#but this au is giving me so much want and motivation to draw and write theory and things and au of that au it's pfydtirusoyFdhjGz#too much and too perfect all at once#doodle finished it's 3:37 am here i better sleep before continuing#amd i will#as soon as i find the time#okay i really need to stop talking now#HOPE YOU LIKE IT
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Celeste (she/her)
#she's a trans bisexual vampire who sleeps in a graveyard <3#most of the oc's i've drawn are gay for dudes i figured i should draw my ladies who are sapphic more lol#her and isabella are part of the same story#and are both trans and bi. Celeste is more of a lurker and weird and Isabella is more. normal lol.#art#oc#original character#artwork#drawing#illustration#artists on tumblr#digital art#vampire#blood#tw blood#she's also in the same story as Posie! Hes my gay half fairy dude who runs a flower shop. im trying to figure out how much they all interac#with eachother. theres also some more oc's from the story i want to draw#but so far ive drawn willow (gay dude whos technically not human) and Posie and Isabella and now Celeste#ive also drawn Farris in the past who's also gay but his ref is super old so i need an updated piece of him :3
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siren
#bakuspecial#cw: nudity#cw: body horror#monster#siren! I think. they're bird to me#I think this has been brewing since that stream mim did of drawing dnd monsters only from official text description#and when the official art for the sirens were shown I was like. oh thats just a woman with wings#lmao like. granted. its an official dnd book available for all audience. you cant make it too Bad To Look At#(I do not agree with this but it wasnt about me. if its about me its gonna be about very few people lmao)#but yeah. after that I got slightly too into the idea of putting more bird into birdwoman#but I also do genuinely love monsters that are Rearranged Human Parts so. I couldnt commit too much to the bird scales Im so sorry#I wanted the fleshiness. the feel. textural experience of holding her hands and being like oh that's a human#even when ur eyes tell u otherwise. mmm#...I looked to my right as I was typing these tags and saw. the fucked up pikmin I tried to sculpt the other day along with the pin#and got startled#its so. its so fucked up. gods. dusty white naked grainy parsnip#I used to have that one doll I butchered wanting to customize in a box next to me and thats way less upsetting than this. man#its perfect actually I will never throw this thing away. anyways#now. now I go to bed. its sleep time for the baku#have a good night lads! you CAN have it both way easily you just need a big bat
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#a doodley#okkk 2022: the torture chamber....i only sparsely drew al and developed talon (he was borned...) bc my mind was occupied with other things.#2023: exiting torture chamber; it took me a tiny little bit to get back to drawing and ''interacting with'' al again but i did it even#though it was a reminder of the Bad bc he's my copium#summer 2023: i view and witness media and suddenly have like 5 fictional men i cant decide on which to focus... and september (talon month)#comes along so I decide to focus on Talon after not touching him much at all throughout the entire year#(forced this btw i did not wanna do it LOL i didnt even remember how to draw him)#september 2023 to now: talon has infiltrated the brain. but i want to swivel back to al#now: i've forgotten how to Talk to al (just like i did in beginning of 2023)#(and just like i forgot how to talk to talon for most of 2023)#so ive kind of just been replaying the smunker cow al daydreams from when they first met#so I can find my way back...retracing my steps#in doing so ive kind of also forgotten how to interact with talon but still havent gotten back to al#so rn my life is so boring without imaginary bf interactions. just the before sleep plot rehashing daydreams...#or sparse visions of em Sometimes#nobody in my brain rn just like the short period last yr and its distressing#what do i draw without a love obsession.....#how do i pass time without it....! so boring. idk what to do#i miss the me of several yrs ago when i was drawing 50 different aus with al....ive downgraded in skill and imagination and creativity#so bad since then. idk. idk. i hope they come back to me soon#maybe i shld just draw al a lot which is how i kickstarted caring abt talon again almost a yr ago ?#hoping i can get him to come back before my surgery i need my big sexy boy nurse for recovery#(complaining abt things usually fixes em for me so im hoping thats the case here)
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"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#cw blood#something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones#IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE#ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE....#THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU#do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule.#LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE#DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared#i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail#but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!!#i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time#i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS#soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz#i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss#have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES#I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn#annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE.#hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.
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A new era
#now you know why i needed the original video#1) i was looking for a potential pose i liked better so i can switch it up but at the end this still was the best moment#2) i also wanted to check which platform the person who took the video is on so i can tag them in IG for example#anyway this is probably the best thing i drawn like.. ever#obviously not perfect but nothing ever is and i did forgo some details at the end (like the chains)#but like.. i honestly love every part of this the way it is which is a new feeling#if you like this even half as much as i do i'm happy#i'm also keeping the detail shot thing i stole from Misha because i like it a lot TmT#sleep token#vessel iv#iv sleep token#sleep token iv#iv#sleep token band#sleeptoken#levynn tries to draw
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They're so lovely, your Honour. Dadmare is king, his boys forever goofy. I refuse to stop complimenting your art-
The one where Nightmare, he HIGHLIGHTED concerning lyrics that he PRINTED OUT to show CROSS. It's so wholesome- he's such a dad and I love it. I love your art, it's so sweet. I love it.
Asdbkjbfjk STOP I'M GOING TO DIE hello 911 somebody's being nice to me on the internet help
Thank you!! <3 You are FAR too kind, I am sending 1 million good vibes directly to your home as revenge >:3c
He just worries! He wants his sons- I mean boys- I MEAN UNDERLINGS to be happy and when he hears one of them absolutely wailing about feeling numb and disappointed he wants to check in. Also he finally learned to use the printer without help and he's taking advantage of it.
It's also important to note this is all Pigeon's fault for having such amazing cool ideas and going feral with me about them, which is how we get things like this
Smooth.
#UTDR#UTMV#Ask#Thelunarsystemwrites#Pigeonstab#Tagging you because you're responsible for this motivation!!#But for reals alhdgdkks thank you so much!! This was way too nice it made me squeak when I read it <3#Also these are so messy I'm sorry#I just really badly wanted to draw something for this#And with tonight's thoughts I was inspired#Don't notice that I forgot my own tattoos in that first drawing#Genuinely hearing that I make the boys goofy is such a high compliment to me#I am always striving for goofy so thank you very much <3#Okay now I need to sleep for reals goodnight gang!!
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ok im normal again
#not rly but i love this guy^ so much that painting it is like . :-)..#i got him likee .. either last yr or two yrs ago i forget now#this combined w toby cat watercolor i bought from a rly kind old man at a farmers market >>>> fav things#i thnk i am eager to see this thru now .. i want to draw rhe pirate cat so bad but i need 2 sleep#and i want to give him more texture .. i like the patchiness of the heart ykwim . like that#i srsly wish i painted more than once or twice a yr .😔 nothing stopping me rly but it takes so mch energy esp the cleanup omfggggg#and i rly wish i could use oils but im stuck w acrylic and even w thinners and slow dry mediums it still dries so fucking fast#whcih like it works 4 this type of painting but otherwise its a mad dash 2 get ur colors right#anwyays#i repurposed this canvas . rhe whole bg was smth else but i hated it . ans now it gets 2 have fun cat on top yay🙏
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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Soooooooooo I finished the weapons :D
I don't have much ideas for what to write in here so imma just drop the designs and continue suffering in school skkskskksk
First we gooooot
Bear Axe 2
@beartitled (apologies for the puns I couldn't help myself)
Then we have the comically large hammer
Le Bonker 1000
@insomniphic I'm kinda curious to see how would you lift ot ngl
And then we have the last weapon for Captain! :D
Captain's Staff
@braisedhoney
The staff was the most fun to draw tbh
Also I was this 🤏 close to fully shading the axe and the staff lmao
Anyway time for me to skedadle back into my cave before COL finds me /silly
- CR2868
#hmmmm what do i write in tags- eh imma just drop something and maybe add some later#hhhhhhh brain empty >:[[#fun fact: the staff was the most pain in the ass to make cuz i couldn't figure out how it would look and then when i figured it out it was#very fun to colour so imma probably draw few other weapons with this kind of hardlight blade#also very pretty#hmmm i dont have much time and i dont want to risk that tumblr is gonna post this twice-#tags speedrun time#i need sleep#my art#amari art#digital art#artists on tumblr#weapon#hive#now that i think about it ill try to doodle some hive sona shenanigans cuz why not#though i didnt draw anything for my Narrator lmao#also i was thinking about drawing attack variations for the weapons so i might doodle it later if brain won't go empty lol#hhhhhhh time for me to suffer again-#i hope yall like the weapons
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