#there isn't a lot of actual morbid stuff happening lol

[fly-sky-high-bug-games]

You have an ex assassin, a (overly curious) doctor and a warrior/executioner in the same room, what do you think will happen?

(Willow joins the party! She's also a doctor! And funny enough Hitch loves to read about medicine thanks to Willow!)

[maliro-t]

nat 20, crit fail, prep and tpk!

nat 20: What's the most memorable RP scene you've been a part of?

I know this is technically a question for me as a player but as a DM, there was an exchange with one of my players (in blue) as this little kid NPC (in red) after they'd saved him from a pretty horrible massacre that just went:

"Have you seen people die?"

"Yeah."

"Did you like them too?"

"Yeah. But there's nothing I could do for them. And they're happier where they are now."

"I wish you could be happy too."

"Yeah."

Which just got me real in my feelings about Mr. Mumford and made me real proud of his player :)

crit fail: Have you ever had a character death? What happened?

I personally have not! I think that's in part because the longest campaigns I've been in as a player were only over about 7 or eight months, so I haven't had a ton of opportunity to be thrust into mortal peril. Although I guess you never know lol, especially at lower levels.

prep: How much prep work do you do? How far out do you prep?

I would say it varies session to session, which is probably normal. I've played around with completely homebrewing some shorter sessions, but there honestly isn't a place for that in my work life balance, so I've turned to running published material (namely Curse of Strahd). That takes a lot of the burden of prep off, since I more rarely am designing things from scratch-- although I do my fair share of modification, and there still is plenty of stuff that I have to figure out myself! For most games I will make sure I have the sections that I will need from the book marked out and available, and especially if looks like it's gonna be a sort of open-ended RP game, I'll write out certain guidelines for myself into my campaign notebook so it's easier for me to keep track of things (I also do this for combat, in that I'll usually write a few lines about major figures' goals, if they're relevant, and maybe their first move or two). I try not to prep much beyond what I think will fit in a session (because I frankly don't have time), but sometimes I overestimate, and will end up with notes that last me three sessions. But beyond sort of vague notions of bigger picture building blocks that are moving in the background, I try to only prep stuff I think will be immediately pertinent. And I do trust my improv skills enough where a lot of that will be vague sketching! For example, in CoS there's a festival that's upcoming in one of the major cities, but the book has truly no information about what the festival itself entails beyond sort of a morbid procession, so I went into that game with an opening scene, a vague thought about ring toss, and a vague thought about local card sharks, and just kind of played it by ear from there. And it was one of our most fun games! I do prep a LOT for combat though-- we play on roll20 so I'm cobbling together maps (which usually will take an hour or so depending) and will often times write out entire stat blocks so I don't have to be looking for them. I do use the dnd beyond encounter tracker some of the time, but in big, complicated encounters, I find that can actually make my life extra confusing, so I do a lot of handwriting shit out on paper.

tpk: Have you ever had a game go completely off the rails? TPK? How did you adjust?

I did in fact facilitate a TPK in my current campaign which was !!!! yeah I would say off the rails is putting it mildly! The entire party was slaughtered by dire wolves, which was a random encounter on the way to a completely different objective so. very unexpected. It was one of those games that truly makes you feel insane, and it was almost entirely down to rolls-- I was rolling very well for these wolves (I think I crit 3 or 4 times?) and they were rolling extremely poorly. It was honestly easier for me that everyone went out than just a few people, because it meant that I could make on the fly decisions for the group and no one had to sit out the rest of the session. So, once the last person went down I gave everyone a kind of solo limbo vignette where we zeroed in on some character/backstory stuff for each of them, just to kind of settle everyone (which was really fun to do, especially since there's a lot they don't know about each other's histories, some more than others), and took a five minute recess to figure out what to do next-- I was lucky that unbeknownst to the party, they were on their way to knock on the door of a hag coven, who had their own reasons to want them alive, so I ended up having them all wake up as their captives. Congrats, you made it to where you were going! Sorry, you're still fucked! And THAT ended up being one of the most fun, intense encounters we've run. And I certainly am weaving some threads in the background about how exactly they survived and what the long-term consequences of that are.

[a-tale-of-legends]

I wanna see more legendverse meeting their alts lmao

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I don't have many ideas atm, the Sonia and Leon one was pretty much how I see a lot of them going lmao. But! I'll entertain you with impromptu ideas lol.

Naomi isn't the one for knocking people out, she generally tries to be more friendly and ease her alt( whether it's an oc, Gloria, or an actual alternate version of herself that doesn't have to deal with all the stuff she went through) in. Carol can just as easily do this, but if they get annoyed or the alt isn't cooperating ( if this is an alternate version of themself, then that would definitely happen), they would just. Momentarily stop their soul from working to get them to a place/ person who can better deal with the alt. Again, Carol is very good at talking,but they're also not the easiest person to befriend.

Jude would choose violence cause they can't be bothered lmao. Especially towards a Serena/Calem, they literally do not give a shit. Dante is nicer, but mostly for the sake of balancing Jude out. He, too, can be a bit...snippy, though he carries himself gracefully. The sand with Ames, though tbh, I wouldn't be surprised if she would try to just. Push the alt into an ultra wormhole and hope that they get home safely. Like it would be very dumb and very bad for her to do so, but modern problems require modern solutions ( Rotom Dex and Poppy stop her before she does anything too stupid, thankfully).

Alexis would be....too fucking tired man. He'll help, obviously, but he gives off the air that he rather not. Believe it or not Elliot wouldn't choose violence unless the alts choose violence first, partly because she wants everyone to be at ease, and partly because she's making sure they don't become Eva's lab rats/j ( I kid, Eva isn't like that. But she IS curious about the alts world and who they are as people! She tends to come off strong though).

In terms of canon characters in the Legendverse, you already saw Sonia and Leon lol. Cheren and Bianca are kinda similar, though with Cheren being more of the Sonia in this situation. He's not too morbid, he's a teacher and so that natural urge to help is there, but ah. His bf has a Hoopa that is known to do the type of shit regularly so. He's kinda apathetic to most of it really. Again, this is Cheren, he has a big heart and wants to help in anyway he can. It's like he goes " damn, that's crazy. Anyway, either I knock you out to get you somewhere else confusing, or you can cooperate with us for a bit to figure out how to get you home,". He's very blunt, as you can see. The only real exception to this is if the alt happens to be a child, or someone noticeably younger than him, but I'm just assuming this is like. An alternate version of himself. Bianca is equally as used to this type of nonsense, but she's not as blunt about it.

Aaaaand yeah. That's all I can think of right now. If you want me to come up with something regarding your verse, I can try!

[nerves-nebula]

haha yeah she lied to adopt me. It was a foster home for quite a while until they stopped doing that (they sat me down, told me it was expensive and that I no longer wanted a sibling, right? and then just stopped) and she'd test the various kids to see their proficiency in the field, so to speak? There used to be a lot of circle chanting but an older kid reported her. I never could report since my social worker was a noshow lol. Also when I told my social worker that I didn't want to be adopted to them my mother told them that "I thought adoption meant I'd be taken away" and they believed her so. That was destined too xD

I was the chosen child (it was fate) and got special privileges because I could do things for her, but also never got to have a birthday party with friends or hang out with people after school like some of my siblings because of that whole logic of ""the more time I spend with humans the more human I'd get""

She had to lie about her whole deal, but also like. so people kept trying to kill me and other stuff, WHICH LIKE sounds morbid but meh that's just what it's like? I'm quite good at wiggling out of those situations, BUT each time it was just further proof to her that I was ""a star child destined to be on this planet"" and ""I was born to be with them and the rest of the world would've killed me"" sorta stuff.

She also was really big on that "as a star child you were destined to be born, but you already chose your destiny when you were a star" sort of idea so like, if anything happened to me I'd pre-chosen/pre-destined it into reality so it was all my choice/fault. She's built weird.

And idk about how smart the whole percentages thing is. Honestly I was expected to have full back and forth conversations about the human subconscious and what compels people's behaviours by the time I was 7 or 8 (dEFINTELY by 9) instead of playing games or age-appropriate things so I was very used to how she thought and just.. used not-quite-lies as cover. They key is to take something that's true and leave out whatever amount of details you need and maybe through in something that sounds right.

ex: if you're expected to make the wind stronger to push the flag over there and the flag isn't moving you can say "Due to the lack of pre-existing wind patterns there is less wind to channel into creating a moving flag" or "The speed of the current wind is technically moving the flag with the current power it has available, but if given enough time the wind force will grow". They aren't technically lies nor are they real truths. they're like "yeah, that sounds about right" sorta statements

BUT YO if you want any funky stories I can give you vague words and you can pick a story, but totally no pressure lol. I promise they aren't extremely bad, mostly humorous with a "wtf" twist

Ginneapig

Werewolves

She Listens

A guide of things to do when you die

The Angels

The last in person conversation I had with her

AND ALSO YOOO REALLY COOL ART FOR YOUR OC. I really like your art style btw, it feels unique and it strikes a good mix between detailed and simplistic and can really add depth when it's needed. It's very vibey :]

OK I READ THIS WHEN YOU FIRST SENT IT BUT. COllege! So now i am FINALLY respondingfsdfds (thank you for the compliment about my art style btw)

FIRST OF ALL. It is so DEPRESSINGLY stupid that you told your social worker you didn't want to be adopted by them, and then they lied to your social worker in a very provable way, and your social worker just? what??? didnt look into it??? im fucking fUMING.

I've actually heard of that whole "Before you were born you agreed to everything that happened to you" thing and frankly, it is one of the most horrifying mindsets I can imagine. Thank fuck you're ok now (i'm assuming) cause that shit would've really fucked with me.

*rubs hands together* now for the FUN PART

ok ummm hmm can I choose more than one?

cause I'm interested in 1, 3, 4, and 6, but I'd love to hear all of them. idk if that's like. A LOT for you though. so if I had to pick one or two I think I'd choose 1 and 6.

[souvenirsofsurgery]

a few of my favorite disturbing horror movies

morbid and gross stuff <3 this isn't the worst of the worst, I think most of these are probably safe for people who are just getting into more disturbing horror. You're not gonna see, like, Vomit Enema Ecstasy or anything on here, lol. Still, tread carefully! Blanket TWs for things like suicide, self harm, and sexual assault, I'd look into the individual films more closely if you're worried about potentially upsetting material.

Also, most of these are not in English. I noted what language each of them are in, but they all also have English subtitles available!

Anyway here you go:

1. Martyrs (French)

A young woman's quest for revenge against the people who kidnapped and tormented her as a child leads her and a friend, who is also a victim of child abuse, on a terrifying journey into a living hell of depravity. (via IMDb)

Why I find it disturbing: Deeply depressing. The gore might be bad but the crushing of your soul is much worse. Extreme depictions of trauma, guilt, and GRAPHIC self harm.

I've seen objectively more fucked up movies since I first watched this one, but I honestly don't think anything has hit me quite like Martyrs. It made me feel hollow and empty inside lol. Excellent film, if you can handle it I definitely recommend it.

2. Ichi the Killer (Japanese + a little English)

As sadomasochistic yakuza enforcer Kakihara searches for his missing boss he comes across Ichi, a repressed and psychotic killer who may be able to inflict levels of pain that Kakihara has only dreamed of achieving. (via IMDb)

Why I find it disturbing: Gross! Nasty! Vile!

This one is much more comedic in tone than my last pick. It probably won't upset you emotionally, but it'll gross you out and shock you, and show you some borderline unacceptable content.

3. Eden Lake (English)

Refusing to let anything spoil their romantic weekend break, a young couple confront a gang of loutish youths with terrifyingly brutal consequences. (via IMDb)

Why I find it disturbing: Children doing terrible violence. Grim, bleak nihilism.

The ending of this movie cemented it deep in my soul and hurt me very bad :)

4. Inside (French)

Four months after the death of her husband, a woman on the brink of motherhood is tormented in her home by a strange woman who wants her unborn baby. (via IMDb)

Why I find it disturbing: Gore and blood! She's stabbing people with those bigass scissors and you see ALL of it.

Probably my favorite home invasion movie, it's got great tension. It's also just so so nasty <3

5. The Sadness (Mandarin)

A young couple trying to reunite amid a city ravaged by a plague that turns its victims into deranged, bloodthirsty sadists. (via IMDb)

Why I find it disturbing: Like the description says, lots of sadistic violence.

"Zombie" action horror, but nastier than anything else I've seen in the subgenre. They really go all the way.

6. Art of the Devil 2 (Thai)

A group of high school friends reunite after two years when one of their fathers' committed suicide. They all spend the night at their friend's place. When darkness falls, strange things begin to happen to them one by one. It is as if someone is using the black arts on them in revenge for an act this group of friends committed together back at high school. (via IMDb, but specifically someone named Ploy P. bc IMDb doesn't provide an official description. Thank you Ploy P.!)

Why I find it disturbing: Nasty and gross, very visceral to me.

This is actually from a popular Thai horror series, but you can watch it as a stand-alone (it's the best one IMO). I love anything about curses and black magic and the repercussions of using them, so this is just right up my alley. And it's got an awesome atmosphere!

[golbrocklovely]

my overall reaction to the first episode (i guess we can call it that) of snc's season one attachment series.

aka their newest video "Demonic Attachment at Canada's Most Haunted Fortress"

maybe this is just how i feel, but personally, i wish they wouldn't spend almost half the video just explaining the place they're at. i get it, it is necessary, but 9 times out of 10 it feels like filler and not interesting at all to me. unless there is some deep lore or something really terrifying happened there, i'm not interested.

maybe i was less enthused bc war history is like the boringest history you can tell me about. i just don't care lol

nonetheless, i give props to their tour guide. she definitely sold the story of fort henry well.

also as a sidenote, if someone could explain to me why ppl used to watch public hangings as entertainment, that would be great. is it like the same reason why ppl watch liveleak videos now? just morbid curiosity?

i think celina was a really fun addition to this video. i used to follow her on tiktok, but then her sleepwalking videos kinda got annoying so i unfollowed. but she seems lovely. and her brother was nice too, just chilling and coming along for the ride lol

so after them taking over 20 mins to finally get to the actual investigation part, here are some of my thoughts:

all of their equipment just immediately dying was definitely strange. but i think they have to also take into account that while it could be paranormal, it could also be from the fact that it was fucking SNOWING and batteries don't do well in extreme cold. so... again, something to consider.

also the cat ball... please stop using it. it's SO DUMB lol

kat freaking out and getting sick was honestly so sad. i've been in situations like that, or felt really anxious bc of something that (possibly) was paranormal and i know how overwhelming it can be. she should really go see a psychic (that for the love god isn't amanda) and get in touch with her spiritual side.

also as a side note... how come no one cared that kat was feeling sick? they literally were like "oh you don't feel well.... anYWAYZ" lmao

and that loud ass breath HAD to be one of them. i will not believe that that wasn't one of them. sorry. lol

also again side note.... how come sam never comforts kat when she's freaking out lmaoooo like, at least hold her hand dude. she's going THRU it and you're just staring at her sksksksks

so the stuff with the ovulis: it saying "laaadyyyy" was really funny. but then when it said sallie, i basically made the same face as colby. i was so surprised. that is very strange.

the radiator, while being super loud, definitely wasn't paranormal. it was just a loud ass radiator lol

so the flashlights... idk how i feel about them. while i do find them interesting and i'm not entirely sure how you would be able to control that type of thing going on and off, idk. it's not like the craziest evidence to me tbh.

haha sam said the name of the series. roll credits.

so during the estes method, i will say a lot of the answers they get are very creepy. and overall, i wouldn't be surprised if they had something attached to them from the sallie house. they definitely pissed something off there and taunted it more by sitting in the pentagram.

i also love snc do this bs all the time; hell, sam is the one that constantly tries to get a rise out of the spirits they communicate with... and NOW he's scared something got attached??? what did you expect? you don't protect yourself, and you try to get a reaction from things that are dark. i'm surprised they didn't get something attached sooner.

okay, so my overall rating of this first episode is gonna be like 2.5/5. i think it was definitely interesting, had some good moments, but overall didn't really feel scary and kinda just left me feeling bleh. it was fun to watch regardless. hopefully the next one is actually spooky.

[the-blind-geisha]

If you’re sad or upset, do you still turn to your comfort character or do you do other stuff instead? If you do, is that person Demiurge or is it someone else at the moment? And What are some things you like to imagine with that character that help you get through everything? Demi is always my comfort character and I feel a lot safer when I close my eyes and think about him. I was wondering what you or others do? If this is too personal tho then you don’t to answer

To be transparent a bit, anon: I have such severe depression that I almost died from an eating disorder years ago when I was 17. I went from 120 lbs to 100 lbs and my adopted mother threatened to throw me into a mental ward as a threat to make me 'get better'. She was behind a lot of my mental decline in regards to my appearance and my depression being she is fatphobic and narcissistic. I still very much have my eating disorder—I only eat one thing a day if I can get away with it and will sleep till like 2 PM if I don't have work. But I do my best to not let it slip too far out of hand.

My escape? Honestly, it's always been my vivid dreams, video games, writing or artwork. Daydreaming helps massively too when I have to be at work or some place I don't want to be.

I've had those vivid dreams ever since I was a child and documented every single one since I was in 5th grade. They actually used to scare me whenever they would trigger, because I would be alone someplace I didn't recognize and wake up in a panic. After a time, I learned to just deal and let them ride out no matter how good or scary they were.

Funny thing is? Demiurge has showed up in them from time to time when I got into Overlord heavily in late 2019. In the beginning, those dreams were very intense in a morbid way, but eventually, he became a well rounded family man. He did cause a random resurgence in my rape night terrors, but he did also save me from them too which is what inspired the image below where he was taking my chain to be my new 'master' just to save me from sex traffickers (who he murdered and saved me and other women lol).

But, to be frank further—I do have moments where I do just want to think morbidly of how to 'hurt myself', and to prevent that? Yes, I think of my latest obsession to heal and chase that insanity away. Demiurge is that guy.

There are moments I think of him in the modern day as a loving husband who takes care of his kids and wife, moments I daydream of us in another world that's not here, and so on.

I've always done this. I even have fanfics I've written and illustrated as a child pre-internet days to take myself away from the craziness of the world that I've still kept to this day and age. They were all my fixations at the time and me leaning on those characters to feel better. The funny thing is, I read through them sometime ago, and I realized I always wrote myself with an eating disorder when I was a kid and even one scene where I was being lusted after by a woman before I even laid a hand on my sexual identity. Hell, the lesbian succubus OC I have, Irie, constantly comes after Oreana in a lot of stuff I've done just to torment her sexually or mentally. I even have an entire pencil drawn comic of Irie that I did in high school. So I guess the back of my mind just always kinda knew these things.

But there are times I will sit and just write and or draw in private, to myself. Writing these cringy fics to myself regarding Demiurge / Oreana is what makes me smile. They don't have to go anywhere. I just get to sit and enjoy them for me, myself, and I. Even Demiurge being in Oreana's canonical story where he comes across the brothel she's trapped in? That image that's my banner? I often wonder what would happen if he saved her from the brothel instead of her canonical husband.

And while I have gone out of my way to say Oreana isn't me, I've self-projected in her so much that her pain is my pain, and her pleasure is my pleasure and so on.

The problem is, my mind is a madhouse. I will play a game and try to take my mind off of him for a second, but then here comes that idea out of nowhere to pester me. lol The Demon King of the Desert? That's actually more inspired by an LOZ BOTW/ Demiurge crossover thought. I'm basically imagining him out in the Gerudo Desert but trying to lightly paint it over. lol There is another I want to do where he is actively in the LOZ world but formerly part of the Sheikah tribe with a wife. He was the royal family's torturer who goes insane when Ganon takes over in the OoT timeline.

So yeah. Demiurge is very comforting for me right now too. When I'm actively not thinking about him, I do try to watch streams or old Youtube videos I love(d) to take my mind away from the pain of whatever is going on. It does help but near as much as the other stuff. ♥

I am glad he can be there for you too, anon. Having a character that's your comfort character is so wonderful.

[toxicshipsincorporated]

Why are antis so into using individual examples of pro shippers supporting IRL incest to say all pro shippers are bad? I'm always up for a good philosophical discussion on IRL incest or other hot topics because I like a good morality or law debate, and I think it's pretty important to understand the hows and whys of what is illegal and for what reasons beyond "it feels bad" (gut feelings do not make either fair or effective laws, I think, and in a lot of cases definitions and logic will differ from person to person and culture to culture), but the morality of IRL stuff is completely irrelevant to the core pro-ship belief which is basically bad things in fiction do not automatically equal bad things happening IRL. My stance on IRL murder plays no role into whether or not I think depicting murder in fiction is okay because those are entirely separate debates unless you're an anti who believes the morality of the IRL thing is tied to the morality of the fictional depiction

Yeah...idk I guess its because thats the only leg they have to stand on? Because making this 1:1 connection between fiction and reality is at the core of their belief so even if it is only based on anecdotal or completely bunk logic, they will go as hard as possible.

And like...listen. Incest in real life is often really bad because it results in the suffering and trauma of real people. The kind of incest that often happens in real life is between generations, meaning father/mother/uncle/aunty/grandma/pa with a younger person where the dynamic is almost certainly abusive and harmful. And as someone who was a victim of CSA I understand and for the most part apprecite the rage and anger feel towards that kind of abuse. However, only when its directed at ACTUAL ABUSE. Like there are a myriad of reasons why ppl might want to read fiction that involves those types of dynamics. Morbid fascination, trauma, etc. and it isn't any of my business. I don't care about thoughts or fantasies or what kind of fiction (FICTION now. Its ENTIRELY different when it comes to CSAM) they consume. What matters are the actions that they take against other ppl.

Like whatstheirface earlier. They suicide bait people. That's an action against real ppl. It is fundamentally different from a philosophical discussion or a fictional depiction. Oddly enough its kind of similar to the difference between pictures or written fiction about fictional characters and actual kids and people being harmed. The difference is harm. That person from before didnt hurt me (I actually had a good laugh lol) but they've probably hurt people before and they will continue to hurt real people for the sake of hypothetical people or fictional characters. And they use victims of CSA and rape and abuse as their scapegoat. Real people are being harmed there.