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[taylor-on-your-dash]

Summary Poem by Taylor Swift

In Summation

At this hearing

I stand before my fellow members

of the Tortured Poets Department

With a summary of my findings

A debrief, a detailed rewinding

For the purpose of warning

For the sake of reminding

As you might all unfortunately recall

I had been struck with a case of a restricted humanity

Which explains my plea here today of temporary i n s a n i t y

You see, the pendulum swings

Oh, the chaos it brings

Leads the caged beast to do the most curious things

Lovers spend years denying what's ill fated

Resentment rotting away galaxies we created

Stars placed and glued meticulously by hand next to the ceiling fan

Tried wishing on comets.

Tried dimming the shine.

Tried to orbit his planet.

Some stars never align.

And in one conversation,

I tore down the whole sky.

Spring sprung forth with dazzling freedom hues

Then a crash from the skylight bursting through

Something old, someone hallowed, who told me he could be brand new

And so I was out of the oven and into the microwave

Out of the slammer and into a tidal wave

How gallant to save the empress from her gilded tower

Swinging a sword he could barely lift

But loneliness struck at that fateful hour

Low hanging fruit on his wine stained lips

He never even scratched the surface of me.

None of them did.

“In summation, it was not a love affair!”

I screamed while bringing my fists to my coffee ringed desk

It was a mutual manic phase.

It was self harm.

It was house and then cardiac arrest.

A smirk creeps onto this poet's face

Because it's the worst men that I write best.

And so I enter into evidence

My tarnished coat of arms

My muses, acquired like bruises

My talismans and charms

The tick, tick, tick of love bombs

My veins of pitch black ink

Sincerely, The Chairman of The Tortured Poets Department

[satoblue]

whenever you and satoru argue, you have to resist the urge to strangle the idiot but it’s obvious you would never lay a hand on him bc at the end of the day — you love him and don’t want to hurt him. he was just being his same infuriating self, and in a few hours, everything would be fine again. but oh, how you want to punch his chest repeatedly until your hands ache because the hits do nothing against his hard chest. you wanna teach him a lesson but you’re too weak compared to that brute. often, you’ll clench your teeth and walk away to calm down. that’s a mistake on your end apparently bc you should’ve expected satoru would know exactly what you’re thinking in the moment — and you should’ve known the man you married is weird. so weird in fact that the next time you fight, he grits out “hit me” with all his chest, the words clawing their way out of his throat as if he’d been waiting to say them for a long time

[handsomesnoog]

A thought about the lords in black:

People have pointed out that In the summoning they take the forms of people that grace, pete, and steph care about (Jon plays wiggly and Richie, Kim plays nibbly and karen, corey plays pokey and solomon, etc.) but I haven’t heard anyone mention,

Where did they get those bodies?

I mean sure they could shapeshift but it’s not like they haven’t possessed people before.

Imagine Richie and Ruth’s cold corpses sprouting green tentacles and purple eyes and escaping from the morgue they were placed in. Richies skin turned slightly green and Ruths mouth sealed closed to make room for more eyes

Imagine Solomon’s fresh body oozing blue liquid from his mouth and eyes that mixes with his blood as he rises from the ground emitting a high, powerful sound.

Imagine mark and Karen Chasity sitting in their living room when all of a sudden sharp goat horns protrude from mark’s head causing his skull to crack, while Karen begins coughing up teeth and fur and pig blood, neither of them knowing what’s going on or why it’s happening.

Imagine all of them materializing in the gym with bloody clothes, their fatal blows visible on their bodies. Grace sees the bone fragments coming from her father’s head, pete notices that when wiggly speaks water spurts out from his lungs, steph sees the fracture on the back of pokeys skull.

should I get an ao3 account.

Edit: i have an ao3 account.

[yoki-loves-stars]

I really love this parallel between Gertrude and Jon on humanity (vague tma spoilers)

Gertrude "you were the one so insistent on staying human" Robinson lost everything that makes her human.

Sure, she never became a proper avatar and technically stayed human, but she didn't allow herself to love, to trust, to connect, because every time she did, she'd lose something and someone, so she became cold, she built walls, she took any risk, she'd go as far as she needed to, if it meant success.

It doesn't help that all of her actions lead to other people, servants and avatars to either despise and fear her or hold a great respect towards her. Either way it gets her what she wants.

You could forever argue about what kind of person all of that makes her, yet she was a person. Good, flawed or bad, she was a person and she was human. At least in the most technical most polished way.

But to say she never cared? That would be completely wrong. She held a cold demeanor and a strong confident facade, but deep down she cared.

To speak with such fondness of someone you've never properly interacted with? Is it not human? Yes, Agnes was her anchor, but still. There is something so warm about the way Gertrude talks about her, is curious about her.

To worry about the effects and ethics of your power, to refuse to embrace it, wouldn't that too be human?

And Gerry was probably the last person she genuinely loved and cared for. Gertrude's last tie to humanity, her last anchor and her last reason.

So when he died, when there was nothing left, her tasks, her goals became just some mundane things to take care of. Yes, for the greater good, for the sake of the world, but after you lose everything to care for, to come back to, what's saving the world you already grew so cold towards? Is it really driven by love, dedication, loyalty or connection? Or is it driven by revenge at best, and muscle memory at worst, simply because there is nothing left, but yet another task in your life?

Gertrude, undoubtedly, was human in this very technical, almost artificial way, and she tried her best to remove every ounce of humanity she had, even if she couldn't truly succeed.

On the other hand, Jon stayed so human, it's killing him. Sure, he became an avatar, he stopped being human in a literal sense, but he loves, he cares about people. He has anchors, he has people he mourns, he has people he loves, he has a reason. And that at the same time gives him power and weakens him enormously.

Him choosing to lose his humanity, to wake up, is the most human thing he could do. It's a choice to keep living, to keep fighting, to keep loving. A choice that he would regret over and over and over again as he thinks that he doesn't deserve to exist anymore, that his mere existence causes pain and suffering. And in a way it does.

So when people tell him that he's a monster he believes it. Maybe even more than they do.

It would be so much easier if he was a monster. If all the bad things he's done were driven by some power he was beneath of. If he was, he could just brush them off cause he can't help it, it's in his nature. "Is a thing evil when it simply obeys its own nature? When it embodies its nature?"

The thing is, he's not. He's not evil, he's not a monster, not a vampire, not a doll came to life, not the distortion. He did not come back wrong.

His choice to keep feeding is his own and that horrifies him so much. This choice not to starve, to keep living and to keep enjoying is a very human choice, it is not an instinct. The same way it was his choice to keep reading, to keep being involved. Yes, it's not fair. It's not a fair price for curiousity and it's not a fair price for living. But it's the reality of things.

Do you think he ever regretted setting a person free, even though that could easily kill him? Do you think that he ever regretted setting his foot into that coffin to save someone, who tried to kill him? Do you think he ever regretted choosing to save his loved one over finally getting a chance to kill the man, who ruined his life? Because I sure don't.

All of his mistakes, his sacrifices, all of his choices, all of it was caused by his humanity. Curiosity, love, hatred and fear, but never instinct. And that's what makes him human in all the ways that truly matter.

So when he finds out that there's a chance it all could be just a setup, it scares him. Because he thinks that it strips him of his humanity, of his choices and his whole life.

[hellodaekko]

all of the characters have smth abt them that makes them attractive but Morgan Kyne is like sickeningly attractive. The most conventionally attractive, borderline angelic, looking pretty boy. He’s the type to be almost irritatingly humble about it too.

He’s not insecure by any means, if he is he certainly hides it well, but there's a glint in his eye when he's being self deprecating, like he knows consciously or maybe subconsciously that he is indeed very beautiful.

“I still look like shit, mind you, but I'm up“ he says, and hes got the gall to wear the softest tired smile and his eyes crinkle when a breathy laughs escapes him, with the prettiest beauty marks dotted across his stupidly smooth skin while the golden backlight from his apartment illuminates him in a warm, halo glow. Seer Obscura makes an earnest effort not to roll their eyes when they process what he says because of course he would say something like that. A laugh, they will not give to him for the sheer sin of acting as sweetly and as earnestly as he had been that night. And still a smile slips from their lips, maybe its a chuckle. The offer of a breakfast only to find he can't make anything more than a heaping bowl of cereal is one reminder that despite his ethereal features, he is, infact, still very human (thats almost worse isnt it?)

[ghostfiish]

Good things from today

- I made myself some spam onigiri that fell apart a bit but tasted pretty good

- I had some yogurt in a new brand that was even better

- managed to draw two art fights

- Kitty was affectionate and liked when I brushed her

- The firework noises from my new apartment are an improvement over the ones that our neighbors will fire off next to my parents' place

[marjorierose]

some favorite bits from the Conclave novel before I let the audiobook go to the next library borrower

After Lomelli's homily at the opening mass, when O'Malley tells him people are already muttering about it:

"What did I call for? Three things: unity, tolerance, humility. Are our colleagues now suggesting we need a pope who is schismatic, intolerant and arrogant?"

Bellini to Sabbadin when it's clear he's losing, showing a greater disgust for the political process than he ever does in the film:

"Enough!" Bellini made a cutting gesture with his hand to signal that the conversation was over. Lomelli had never seen him so angry. "We must all accept the collective wisdom of the conclave. This isn't one of your father's political caucuses, Giulio, God doesn't do recounts."

And from the penultimate election:

He was not so solipsistic as to believe that a bomb had gone off merely because he had written his own name on a piece of paper. But he was not so prosaic that he did not believe in the interconnectedness of things.

[adhdo5]

I shouldn't be mean bc "I mean, WTF?" is a prose choice for POV narration but it is... uh... a prose choice

[beauzos]

In Nebraska visiting family and I have once again brought my laptop for no reason. Thought I could try using my phones hotspot for internet (because my laptop is too old for the WiFi here) and I think it’s too old for the hotspot too lmao. Oh well

[altschmerzes]

drive the wedge chapter 2 flashdraft is done :) which means i am VERY CLOSE to finishing and posting it

[wayward-sherlock]

pov you Experience something so now it’s time to Project (2am edition)

[keeps-ache]

i think i tapped on the explore page by accident some minutes ago, i've been scrolling for a good sec like 'why is this on my dash. i don't know any of these people. what's going on' lmfsvh

[dreamersdwell]

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[free-luigi-mangione]

I'm so sorry you're being bomboarded by trolls. I hope you don't leave tumblr; as it is, most luigi blogs have stopped, and there is hardly any discourse about luigi on the internet anymore. There seems to be a toxic undercurrent in the luigi community. His support is imploding in on itself, and it's not pretty to watch.

the toxic undercurrent isn't brought about by any of us tho. it's brought about by anons who're so terrible i don't even know how to describe them in one word. i don't care about the actual trollish anons – the ones who might pick fights but will never do things that would make you want to deactivate. in fact i wish i could say that the actually problematic anons can be brushed off as easily, but that's the point of those anons i guess, they're there to make people have an emotional response (eg.– panic after getting doxxed, shock at graphic details of violence, both shock and fear at rape threats against the blog owner or subject of blog and after getting death threats) and they definitely succeed at getting the emotional response from us at least. a lot of people have deactivated because of these second sort of anons and since it's pretty clear they're incels and quite probably a single anon, i don't even know what to say.

[beauzos]

i'm a bit embarrassed to admit it but it's for a good cause. i've been watching some South Park compilations on youtube and isn't it telling that virtually every video has the same clips regardless of who uploaded it. the show has been on the air for like 30 years surely there's more than 10 good jokes in the show

[runebears]

okay ❤️ yay ❤️ (giancarlo interview)

attempting to transcribe under here

giancarlo: “you said you had jeremiah bitsui on the show. i really love jeremiah, i love victor. and i wanted to display a couple of different things so i did some alternate takes, which i know they didn’t use, that had some vulnerability and sorrow for victor. because see, victor made mistake. his mistake was a big one and i could not let it go by, but i wanted to display that i didn’t want to do it. i really cared for victor. i know they went with the more nefarious takes but at least jeremiah felt my love for him.”