#then it turned into an apreciation post for 2 things I love

[the-lesbian-orpheus]

Sitting here rewatching good omens and ofmd as my parents see it for the first time and just having a complete uncontained joyful smile that I almost never have otherwise over these silly little middle aged gays who I have seen the stories of a dozen times

Such a big happy smile that I have to duck below my knees because my parents are sitting there and will get concerned

Over stuff like “you wear fine things well” and the ball in go2e5 when they dance and such and both kisses (even if one is tragic) and the ending sequence of ofmd s1 with the perfect music of miles from nowhere and Mary’s monologue and just UGH or the dramatic ass part where Crowley finds the book shop burning and ✨passive agreesion✨ and “now THATS fuckery” the bullet catch bro are you kidding me “you came back’ ‘never left’ *gets dramatically and romantically arrested to Fleetwood Mac together*” “to the world” The other fucking other ships in the shows like Jim and olu, ineffable bureaucracy or Nina and Maggie and Lucius and Pete and heartwrwching stuff like “you idiot we could’ve been us” “you got too fast for me” “la vida es dolor” and and just the look on Ed’s face for the end of episode 9 the self disappointment and iconic characters like Spanish Jackie and

“I reckon what makes Ed happy is you-’ ‘you make stede happy”

Just everything

And this is just these two shows there’s many other things

I just-

This is the power of television, and books and theatre and movies

Idk

Support writers and actors

Fuck scummy corporations

AI could never do this

And the people that can deserve the pay they need and more

And watch these shows because they’re just so UGH I just had to write it down

I want to keep the feeling of that huge smile going back into school because it’s a good reminder

[tamtam-go92]

Hey everyone, I'm turning in here to wish you all a very happy new year and I hope you've had you fair share of overeating and relaxation over the holidays and not too much uncomfortable silence or arguments with your relatives. Anyway the new year is here and it's hitting with really horrible weather were I live yet my motivation is super high to make this a great and successful year. So to keep my motivation (and expectations in myself) high, here are some goals I set for the new year (only revolving my blogs, personal ones don't belong here 😉):

Write three sentences about my day every day (not really blogging related but not too personal to share)

Play the rest of generation 2 and generation 3 of the Round Robin 2020 Summerset legacy (I plan to be finished by summer)

Continue playing and posting the Sims 4 Kay LEPacy (Look, I really love them, but my PC is crap and playing Sims 4 on it really sucks. So they'll be back once I finally get my sh*t together and buy a new PC...)

Start playing and posting a Sims 2 Decades Challenge! The 'hood is all set up and the Sims are moved in and I also already played one fam' for one day but then the game crashed while travelling to a community lot and I'm a bit anxious to return to the save xD

FINALLY set up a real downloads blog! 🤦‍♀️

Start a new sideblog for Naruto related stuff. I really got into drawing and writing 'bout my fan characters again and I don't want to post it on main. I love @pumiih's idea of a Naruto-multiverse and I have some drawings about my own different AU's in mind.

Continue my writing blog. I never really got it launched and my writing really never took off.

Related to this @dunne-ias' 2022 writing challenge to write 202200 words over the course of this year inspired me to do the same! I didn't write a single word as of now, but I hope to get some writing done tonight. I'm still actively sitting on some fanfictions and on two original stories.

Overall I wanna be more consistent with my posts regarding times, amounts of posts and most importantly tags! I'm still working on the right way to tag my stuff so reccomandations are apreciated!

I know, this sounds like so much and together with some other things I wanna do this year I don't know if I even have enough free-time to do so. xD But our moving to our new house reduces commute from over thirty minutes one way to under ten minutes forth and back! Adding up living nearer to shopping possibilities and my overall friend group, I should have a lot more free time once I'm truly settled into the house. Internet connection won't be a thing until at least three weeks from now. So don't expect any posting up until then. So I hope to come back to this post in 12 month to give an update how everything worked out for me! I love those videos on Instagram were people ask their future selves questions and answer them once the year is over so hope I remember to do this too!

So I really hope you all are well out there! May your year turn out just the way you want it to. Stay healthy and happy and when you're not remember, that things are going to be better again. Love and hugs -

Tam

[welcometotheravenclawcommonroom]

Hey, mod des! (putting this on a submission because is waaay too long for an ask) I just woke up and saw your posts about neurodivergence/ASD and they really shed a light on my situation right now, especially the stairs/ramp one, so thank you! 

I’m 20 and only have been recently diagnosed (late last year), even though I suspected I was on the spectrum for a long time… you must know how this thing goes, doctors didn’t believe me, did not test me or ask me anything at all because, well, I was 18/19/20 and ���looked perfectly normal” (I was literally kicked out of an appointment one time with the doctor saying within two minutes with little explanation that my mom was crazy for believing in me and that I should look for a psychologist beacuse I must have “serious low-self esteem issues”) which made the battle harder and harder with time, until I found a real expert on the matter, my now lovely therapist, that sorted it all out, finally…  But anyway, this is not exactly what this (ask? submission? discussion?) is about, but the story is waaaaaaaay too long so I put it in detail on google docs in case you want to read it… I’ll do kind of a TL;DR just so my use of the stairs/ramp metaphore makes sense: I only have 4 friends (lets call them friends 1, 2, 3 and 4… very original) but for the first time in my life I got into a fight with one of them, friend 2, he decided not to talk to me anymore and I reached out to friend 4 to help me make amends with him… turns out I also got in a fight with friend 4, who’s also not talking to me… friends 1 and 3 have been nothing but supportive of me, and I apreciate it. It was a very new and confusing situation for me since I never fought with anyone before… and I still want friends 2 and 4 in my life… But your stairs/ramp got me thinking, I’m always trying to build wheelchair ramps for all of my friends, I’m here to make their life easier, not harder, and friends 1 and 3 are building ramps wherever I go even when I don’t realize I need it, they will push my wheelchair if I need too, while reassuring me that I can do this, I’m capable, that everybody needs a hand sometimes and there’s no shame in that, but that I can take the stairs if I want to, is up to me and they we’ll be by my side either way… Meanwhile, friends 2 and 4 criticized me for trying to take the stairs along them, denying me a ramp, saying I’m asking for too much and complaining that I have to hurry up and get to them already because they won’t wait for me… while they want me to take pity on them because “they are getting tired and stairs are hard” when I was trying to build a ramp for all of us all along… so yeah, I have no idea on what to think about the situation… but I don’t see this ending well for all of us, and the idea destroys me. Please, don’t feel obligated to read it or respond to it, as I said is a loooong story, I don’t know if I’m looking for advice, reassurance or anything, I just needed to vent, If this is not the right place, I’m sorry!

Thank you so much for this lovely submission, and I’m glad my amazing therapist was able to help you too, in a way, which is why I made the post to begin with!  I too, was diagnosed late in life, and it was hard but made so much sense, and I’m so glad my mom has been so supportive of my diagnosis and trying her best to be accommodating and learn to be better and learn about autism for me.  It is certainly a far cry from my childhood aunt, who raised me until my dad married my mom and would yell and scream at me for being ‘weird’ and ‘abnormal’ and all sorts of mean things.  and yeah, if friends two and four can’t buck up and be there for you, or at least TRY to be better and improve, then they don’t deserve you!  but it sounds like you have some good friends too, so I’m so happy for you!  and all my fellow autistic bebies and neurodivergent peeps, stay strong!  it gets better!

Love,

des

[just-josh999]

What meeting Chyler Leigh taught me:

So last night I was lucky enough to be a VIP ticket holder for the East of Eli concert in Vancouver at the Fox Cabaret. This entitled me to a meet and greet with Chyler before the show and I was incredibly nervous, as they say don’t meet your idols. These nerves got even stronger as I got to the front and by the time it was my turn to meet her my anxiety had me slightly shaking. Chyler noticed this and the first thing she does is wrap me in the biggest hug ever and says, “it’s okay, hon. It’s so nice to meet you,” while soothingly rubbing my back (picture 1). We start talking afterwards and the smile on her face never waivers while I thank her for all the thought and effort she’s put into how Sanvers has been portrayed in the show and a personal story of why that matters to me. Her expression just changes to a more serious one that shows me she is listening and genuinely cares about what I’m telling her (picture 2). Afterwards, I ask her to sign my favourite button, to which she exclaims, “SuperGay!” and laughs while signing it (picture 3). Then she even takes the time to record a personal video for my boyfriend, whom is a fan but wasn’t able to come, before I have to go.

The concert follows an hour later, which was incredible and contained the highlight of my night. In between songs Chyler was thanking all of her fans for coming out and because I was close to the stage and there was a lull of noise in the crowd, I called out, “We love you!” To which she seeks me out of the crowd, makes eye contact once she finds me, then replies, “Aweh.Thanks, Josh!” THEN FUCKING WINKS AT ME.

Moral of the story is that Chyler Leigh sincerely adores and loves her fans with all her heart. I orginally tittled this post why we don’t deserve her, a common phrase said when a celebrity does something for their fans, but realized something inherently wrong with that saying. It’s instilling in us that we don’t deserve to be adored and appreciated. Let this be a reminder that we actually DO. This amazing women apreciates us, and whether it’s a celebrity or people in your own life, you deserve to have someone that makes you feel special. You are one of a kind, you matter, and don’t let anyone make you think otherwise ❤

[stopmisogynymarvel]

About the MattxElecktra

Yeah... I know I use to do sophisticate post for this tumblr, but this is just because my own confusion. 

What the hell was the MattxElecktra on The Defenders?

*spoilers*

I was so on board for the MattxElecktra on Daredevil season 2. Like super shipping but the miss characterization of both on The Defenders is just bad. First of all:

Elecktra

During The Defenders Elecktra past from zombie ninja, antichrist, kind of stocolm syndrome, boss crime/ninja, killer to woman in love?? 

When she wake up on The Hand she has no idea of who she is or what she is doing, she only discover that she really likes killing people and that she is so good on that. When the time pass she recovered her memories and remembered that she loves Matt, but she also still likes killing pretty much, so... she became head of The Hand and kept going the evil plan to destroy New York. 

I never felt so much the romantic part of this. 

I understand that Elecktra has some ”primitive instics” that she can’t control, what I could found a little misoginyst and racist, but she wants to kill people, also New York. She loves Matt Murdock too. But she never stoped from killing inocent people because her love from Matt, or affected on any point the doing of the evil plan. Or she do not split concience or change personalities, nop, she was an evil killer master who happens to love Matt Murdock and who has no intention to change, she loves being a killer and she hate herself when she wasn’t killing. 

Was she a victim? Was she trapped for the violence? Was she a victim of god? Because she was the evil choosen one. 

On Daredevil season two she was questiong her killer desire, she know she loves killing but she choose not to do it because Matt moral code. But here...It is all lost.

 I don’t said that a killer can’t fall in love, of course they could but I don’t feel they would do it right. 

Take Ferdinand, for Orphan Black for example (spoilers from Orphan Black)

He was a dispacable killer and a important series villan who happens to love Rachel, an other villain character.  When she turns at not so evil pat the plans of him fall down but he can’t kill her, because love. That is a strong statement a character who could kill at cold blond stop himself from killing his love one and that had a big cost from him. 

With Elecktra what is the cost? her love for Matt didn’t stop her to do any thing. You can argue that stop her to kill Matt, but she never kill any other Defender, The Hand couldn´t kill any of them, she pass over Luke and Jessica and didn’t kill them. And yes when she had explicit orders to kill Matt she killed her master, but what? She get power for that. 

Why she did all of that? Why ending giving her own life from him? It comes from no where. 

Matt Murdock

I understand the try to rescue Elecktra, the lies and the shady and the fight for love and the hope to recovered some one. But, and this is the part that I didn’t buy it: The Hand get power for their ritual on brighting life to the death, Matt base all his moral and actions on catholic fate. 

I’m not a catholic expert, but I’m a mexican woman, I know about Jesus word. 

And death and resurection is a big part of it. 

The Hand is literality diabolic. Like it’s a big thing for a catholic perspective. By the Bible the black sky would be the antichrist. 

And Matt Murdock has zero problem with the zombie girlfriend? 

I expected a “you are not Elecktra” or “your life is a sin” or some bullshit like that, but nop. Matt is totally cool with the blood ritual that bright life to the death. 

All his thing about not killing is because only god can give and take the life. but fucked my girlfriends is alive. 

Like... No. 

I’m so sorry for the long post, but I don’t get this, if some one do I would apreciated a diferent point of view. 

All that “romance” was a mess, a mess. 

[deggdegg]

hey! First of all , I love you to death adn I love your posts! Second, could you please link us to the tutorial you watched to do the blanket for that pose of yours? I would really apreciate it! thank you so much! ^3^

hi anon! omggggggg ;_; you’re too kind thank you so so muchhhh ;_; i did hunt for one when i first decided i needed to make blankets lmao but there’s not a tutorial out there to my knowledge dedicated to making pose blankets for sims ;_; i just did it by piecing together bits of my knowledge about blender physics lmao. i’m in the process of editing a video tutorial together but i’m just trying to summon up the courage to post it and let you all hear my annoying weird accent and my shitty laptop microphone LMAO. i’ll get the video tutorial up this week (hopefully tomorrow) which will explain everything in depth (it’s much much easier to talk through it and show rather than try and explain lmao), but in the meantime if you want to start making them right now, i’ll put together a little basic tutorial under the cut below. assumes some knowledge of object creation cos i’m not gonna go through it in complete detail here (e.g. how to make the mesh ready to use in game by adding a ground shadow, importing into tsrw, the usual checklist of things to do before importing it etc etc), just because it will take me too long and i’m incredibly tired rn lmao :’( the video will have complete detail and show you how to make the mesh ready to use in game and stuff but yeah, if you want to follow this one now i’ll link some other tutorials for those other parts

you need blender, milkshape, photoshop/gimp, dds plugin, and tsrw and all the usual add ons aka the align normals plugin for milkshape and any plugins that the tutorials i link to need

1. open your pose in blender. make sure you’ve already saved the pose as a clip file before you do this next step otherwise you’re gonna lose it forever :’(. go to file>export>export to .obj. then reopen blender, delete the cube, and go to file>import>import from .obj (or something like that) and select the .obj file you’ve just exported. you should now have weird solid body versions of your pose on your screen. you need to click on all of the individual group parts while holding the shift key (you’ll see them all light up in orange), then hit ctrl + j to join the parts together. your sim pose mesh should now be in one part.

2. follow this tutorial until about 6 minutes 30 seconds in. you need to set up the pose as a collision object, and depending on the pose, follow the tutorial and create a “ground” collision, or import a bed or sofa and set that up as a collision object, rather than the ground plane. ignore the part about the texture, although do unwrap the plane before you deform it for the sake of ease. also, be wary of how much you subdivide the blanket. you can see the verts/face count at the top of the screen, and the objective is to keep this as low as possible. too high and either your game or tsrw is gonna reject it. i personally always try and keep it under 10k verts, and even that is probably way too high. i’m just a sucker for a smooth looking blanket lmao

3. once you’ve followed the tutorial and your blanket has fallen into a nice position and you’re happy with it (you can move through the animation using the timeline to select the exact point you want), just export to an .obj file once more, and reopen blender’s startup screen. 

4. again, delete the cube, and open the most recent .obj. now the cloth is frozen and the animation is lost. now you can delete the pose and the ground/bed/chair/whatever collision surface you had on the bottom to stop the cloth falling infinitely through blender lmao. also delete the lamps and cameras in the scene so you can see the textures properly. 

5. now select your blanket and go into edit mode and pull up the UV/image tab. hopefully you unwrapped your mesh earlier, and you’ll see a nice grid in this part. this is your UV map, and now we’re gonna bake a texture.

6. go to your little world icon on the left hand side and tick the ambient occlusion box. then turn the samples up to around 20-25ish for a nice hq texture. if you have a slower computer, i’d advise maybe around 10-15 instead. tbh it doesn’t really matter so much, it’s only a blanket (but like i said, i’m a sucker for a smooth blanket hahaha) then click on the camera icon on the left and go down to bake. in bake mode, select ambient occlusion, and set the margin to 2. now in your UV/image tab, select new and just hit ok. you’ll now have a black square behind your UV map. now, once more under the camera tab, hit bake and wait as the most satisfying thing happens before your very eyes (watching this is my favourite FAVOURITE part)

7. once it’s baked and looking fab (you can check out the texture by selecting texture under viewport shading), go to save as image and save it somewhere convenient. 

8. now i prefer a thick, duvet like blanket, because i’m always cold and like to be cosy all the time, but if you want a thin sheet this next part is optional. select your blanket mesh once more in edit mode, hit the space key, and type in duplicate. select duplicate, and then hit ‘E’. you can now make the blanket as thick or thin as you like by moving your mouse. left click again when the blanket is at your desired thickness.

9. finally, export it as an .obj. now you can make all the texture things. i like to open the bake in photoshop and apply a blur filter to smooth it out. then i make an alpha channel which is completely white and save it as a DXT5 interpolated alpha dds file. then make the mask and specular. if you’re unfamiliar with this process, here is a tutorial (you don’t really need the multiplier part because you already baked one, and you will probs just need a red fill layer for the mask unless you want a fancy one) (also ignore the bump map part, objects don’t often use them)

10. open your mesh in milkshape and align normals and assign joints. follow this tutorial, which should cover everything you need to know about this part! i’m v bad for saying this but i don’t tend to bother with remapping the ground shadow part when i’m making these blankets. they’re something you’re gonna use for a second and i personally don’t bother, but of course you can if you want to! save it as a .wso in order to import it into tsrw.

11. import your mesh into tsrw. if you don’t know how to do this or create sun shadows, please follow pages 44-46 of this tutorial. then you’ll need to add your textures and export the package! follow page 63-69 of this tutorial (also contains a handy overview of the different components if you still aren’t sure how to texture the blanket). you should be done! now you can pop your package or sims3pack in game and test it out with your pose! :)

if any of this doesn’t make sense or you have any questions or i’ve missed anything (i’m literally half asleep), please feel free to message me. like i said, hopefully the video tutorial will be up tomorrow, which covers things in a lot more detail. hopefully this is at least a little helpful though anon, good luck!

[spaceslouie]

1. I just recently following your blog. And I find that we have same opinion for the most part, or from your tags anyway. This by no means that you’d agree with me but can I share my opinion with you. Like I think that so many people have been too critical about his solo works. We really dont know anything. I feel like, Louis have been so appreciative about the opportunity he got, but it looks like we as fan cant even give him a chance. What if he make do with what he got. What if all this was..

2. the only thing on his hand. He said it himself, limited people to work with. Like, maybe the 5 of them dont get the same offers? I dont find it weird that H got the amount of support he got, and Louis got minimum exposure. If we can see it in a professional way, the party that did the offering have their reasons. Sometimes you dont get what you want no matter how hard you work for it. Its reality. That doesnt mean Louis dont deserve it. And people tend to forget, what you find rewarding could

3. be different from others. We want the best for him, and thats just it.. Why does it needs to be by the other 1D guys standard. I’m really emotional talking about Louis. Like, I want to respect what he do. I dont know the struggle he faced. This is the guy who hates their merch, their early music. I feel like the fandom so quick to talk but rarely listen. I dont claimed to know him, but I feel that Hes grateful for this opportunity. And I take my cue from him for the life HE live. thankyou :)

wow i . . got an ask! sorry it took me a while to answer this babe (depending on when u sent it) i dont come on this blog alot, i kinda just made a tumblr as an outlet for my thoughts and frustrations and to have a place to talk about louis lol

anyways i think we do have pretty similar feelings about the way things are going - mostly mine are just summed up by ‘idk what to think but i love louis and his music’ lol 

To be real tho, i’ve been a 1D fan since i was 12, in 2011, and i was a larrie from like 2012 to pretty much a few months ago (not that im an ‘anti’ now or anything, i just dont kno what to think). For most of my time as a 1D fan (and especially a larrie) the culture w/ us has been, for better or worse, to hyper-analyze and doubt (for lack of better words) everything we’re given and told. Tbh, since i changed my perspective a few months ago (mostly bc of solo!harry), ive pretty much just been constantly reevaluating everything ive known for the past 5/6 years and i really just have pretty much NO idea what to think, whatsoever. 

When it comes to solo!louis, ive just been trying to take it as it comes. key word is trying, bc 5/6 years of having a rock-solid idea of the “”truth”” (our ideas about the boys, management, their relationships, etc) is alot to overcome when u try to be objective. 

When u say that ppl have been too critical of louis and his stuff, im not really sure which ppl u mean or if u just mean in general - ive definitely seen some ppl who seem to be critical just for the sake of it, or bc they actually dont like louis, which, ya, thats definitely too critical. But for some of the ppl being critical, it seems like theyre coming from the same place i was before i changed my perspective - if i hadnt been so put-off by solo!harry, i probly would still be just as dedicated to the fandom “”truth”” and i would be critical of solo!louis like i was/we were of everything else. 

Basically, at this point, i think its just habit for alot of ppl to be critical and cynical. Or, even more, its generally more comfortable (especially when weve been telling ourselves for 5+ years that we know the “truth”) to be critical (in an all-knowing way like when ppl say “those stunts are so transparent” or something) than to admit that theres alot we dont kno. Or to admit that louis hasnt had the opportunities we thought he would have/we think he deserves, and theres not really anything to do about it.

Are they right to be critical? I honestly totally dont kno. But basically im done being critical just bc other ppl are - if something strikes me as wrong and worth being critical of, right off the bat, then ill criticize it. But if everything seems ok to me and i have no reservations and i see someone else complaining and making a big deal about it, i guess thats how i decide when someone is being too critical. Thats when it seems to me like theyre being critical just for the sake of it or bc thats what theyre used to. I think its important in our culture (1D fan/louie culture), at least for me in the place im in now, to just trust ur own instinct instead of looking to others to see if things are good or not.

At first i was a little confused by ur ask(s) bc it seems a little contradictory - u talk about how louis didnt get the best opportunities, and then u say ppl are being too critical. But i think i understand (maybe im projecting tho, bc this is how i feel about it). I think what i (and u, if im understanding ur ask rite) am feeling is that ppl want to place blame - we all want the best for louis, and we’re upset that it doesnt seem that he got it. We all love and appreciate louis, so it can be hard to see how other ppl wouldnt and how he wouldnt get all the opportunities we think he deserves. So we go off on his team, simon cowell, his record label, the other boys, etc., and we criticize them and everything louis puts out bc its through them/connected to them. 

But it really all comes down to the fact that regardless of what we think louis deserves, we all know that what he gets probly wont match up to that. Youre rite, he literally said that he didnt get that many opportunities, and we have to accept that. No matter how much we love and admire him, we have to realize that for various reasons the rest of the world doesnt (at least not yet). He wasnt the most famous member of 1D, or the one pushed as the most talented, and the fact that he has a unique voice makes him kindof an acquired taste. 

We have to realize that he is, like u said, doing the best w what hes got. We dont have the power to give him more, so from my perspective im just enjoying what we get and supporting it in every way i possibly can. Bc thats what being a fan is about - enjoying what u get, and supporting it so u continue to get it. We can wish he had more opportunities available, and even ask for what we want from him in polite and lighthearted ways - like tweeting him about his album, or nominating him for awards (like teen choice and stuff), or posting/tweeting about how we wish we had a video/photoshoot/etc as long as its nice and not demanding. But ya basically we are not in a position to give him opportunities so our only job (if we want it, which, being a louie, i do) is to support what he puts out. 

You said: “Like, maybe the 5 of them dont get the same offers? I dont find it weird that H got the amount of support he got, and Louis got minimum exposure. If we can see it in a professional way, the party that did the offering have their reasons. Sometimes you dont get what you want no matter how hard you work for it.” Basically, i totally agree w this and i think its totally ok to just enjoy what we get from louis w/o constantly worrying about how were getting it/what we ‘should’ be getting.

I am frustrated, and always have been, that louis doesnt get what the other boys do, but thats just the way it is. We have to accept that there isnt always someone to blame - for various reasons, louis has had less opportunities than the other boys, and theres nothing we can do about it. I would even go as far to say its not necesarily an injustice - like u said, he isnt the other boys, so we cant expect him to have the same situation as them. All we can do is support him and his music as much as we can/want to. 

anyway im SO sorry for turning this ask into a literal essay, i guess i had a lot to say and honestly im not sure how much of it is coherent or even on topic, it took me like an actual hour to write this all out and when i reread it… it didnt make as much sense as it did in my head lol. anyway i do think we hav some similar feelings and stuff and i really apreciate hearing ur thoughts! I hope we both get to enjoy bty (im so fuckin excited!!! from the teasers hes shared already its gonna be SO GOOD!!!) and i hope more good things happen for louis! tysm for sharing ur thoughts w me! 💙