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bad gene double mutation donnie concepts that im sharing since I dont think i'll finish the comic cause i lose interest with it.
I was trying to make the second mutation as thing that should not happened, some sort of mistakes. No one is built to handle the second mutation, which is why I tried to make Donnie second mutation look nasty
#tw body horror#my art#bad gene comic#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#donatello#donnie#double mutation#good gene#also i hope he looks a bit like raph because he made contact with him before being bit#sorry not sorry but i was trying to jumpscare you guys#like there was gonna be a false comforting blanket that you guys will hold onto#that is it will be standard mutation sick monster thing#then boom aw fuck he is actually suffering in the horror but still a sick cool monster
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ok itās clown movie fanfic time
We Go On
(you can read on ao3 here)
Itās been three years now and Derry, Maine is a nice town, anybody will tell you that. Thereās been a little boom of people moving in, who knows whyā getting away from the city, enjoy the suburbs, commuting in to work. Itās a nice town. The people are nice too. There were someā¦ incidents, quite recently actually, but who wants to talk about that. So some madman who once killed his father busted out and killed some kids. Well, he died. (The cops never found out what happened to Henry Bowers, his skull split open, but they werenāt investigating too hard). So that one poor man got thrown off a bridge. The town had a nice little candlelight vigil. It made the local news, and those boys all went to juvie. Nobody talks about these things anymore. Sometimes itās as if theyāve forgotten entirely. Itās a nice town. Sure thing.
(The five of them will never, ever go back.)
Billās new book is coming out, finally, and the preorder numbers are higher than theyāve ever been. The New York Times gave the ARC the best review theyāve ever bestowed upon him. Something about āfundamental humanity in the face of terrorā. Something about āthe agonies and joys of growing up and facing your childhoodā. They still think the ending is shit. Thatās alright. Canāt win āem all. Anyways, he doesnāt love the ending either.
He and Audra got divorcedā a month after the movie project heād split from came out. The critics loved the movie. (Loved the ending especially, though itās not his ending, itās the work of some guy they yanked out of nowhere to āfix things upā). Everybody said the directorās an auteur, Audraās a genius, that if the academy didnāt hate horror itād get nominations for sure. All the buzz drove him crazy while he meddled around in his office. He screamed once too often. She left him. Itās probably a good thingā he didnāt know how to cut the chain. Three years later and sheās doing prestige stuff now, sheās engaged to that pretty boy actor boyfriend of hers. Heās happy for her. He really is.
Heās left California for Oregon. Itās cool, northern, but with a touch of that west coast freshness. Everything back east is so old. He doesnāt date, heās taking time to āwork on Billā as he tells any interviewer who asks. One day he might try againā find some nice woman. A blonde or a brunette. Somebody who doesnāt remind him of anybody.
Richieās still in LA, and heās started dating, really dating, for the first time in his life. There were some half hearted attempts at having girlfriends in college, and a few hookups with men here and there, but heās never done the whole romance thing. He feels awful pathetic, dating for the first time in his life at over forty, but itās alright. The men heās gone out with have been very understanding. This latest oneās real niceā a clever, tidy sort of guy, doesnāt care for stand up and had never heard of him before a mutual friend introduced them. Theyāve been going for a month maybe. He doesnāt think the guyāll last, but heās hopeful someday someone will.
He took a long break, after Derry. An unexpected and abrupt hiatus. There were a few months were he wanted to die, a few months after that where he went to a lot of parties and snorted a lot of coke. That ended, and he started visiting this therapistā some beaky little woman his manager recommended. He still wanted to die a little bit, but he decided it was probably better to live. The tour after that crisis was the āCome Out Comeback Tourāā he wrote some of his own jokes for the first time in a long time. He told funny stories from when he was a kid. It was strange, he reflected, that he had funny stories to tell. Rooting around through his memory was like running his tongue along a line of rotten teeth. It ached, almost unbearably. But there were pleasant moments, and he was glad he hadnāt forgotten them.
āI guess my first real crush was this kid in middle schoolā heād been one of my best friends forever, but about seventh grade I started having all of these feelingsā and I decided to do something nice for him, something discreetā I was going to give him a popsicle. Like a literal popsicle, you perverts! Cāmon! Anyways, at lunch one day I bought a bomb pop, I went to our lunch table andā¦ I chickened out. I stuck the popsicle in my pants pocket, because I was 12 and a fucking idiot, and I went on my merry way. It was only after my next class was over that I realized the popsicle had melted through my jeans. It looked like I pissed my pants. But I pissed my pants for love, and how many seventh graders can say that?ā
The divorce was a messā Bev had expected it to be, but it still made her panicky. She didnāt so much as want to see Tom again, much less have a legal battle. For months, sheād wake up crying, miserable dreams dripping out of her mind like water. She won, in court, testified and showed pictures of bruises and witness reports and described how it was all her work, and wound up getting a restraining order against Tom and full ownership over Rogan and Marsh fashionā now just Beverly Marsh fashion. She thinks about changing the name to something modern, anonymousā but she doesnāt. Itās nice to know she has something hers. That she can be just her, and be alright. āYouāll be nothing without meāāā well haha, she is something. Sheās Beverly fucking Marsh, and thatās something.
Itās nice to be loved, though. Divorce is as sweet as a summer's day, and remarriage is as sweet as honey. She and Ben got married less than a week after itās all finalized, in a courthouse, in their everyday clothes, a couple of her friends as witnesses. They bought rings on the way home, simple little bands. They split their time between Chicago and Nebraskaā Benās used to working remotely, and she doesnāt mind it. Heās started talking about maybe building them a house of their ownā she says maybe New Mexico? Itās so warm and dry and safe in New Mexicoā and all the artists love Santa Fe.
So maybe theyāll move to New Mexico, or maybe theyāll stay here. It doesnāt really matter where they go. Theyāll be together. It feels so good to be loved like a person. It feels so good to know sheās a person. She still has bad dreams, but she has nice ones too. Lovely onesā a boat on the ocean with the sky clear and blue. A litter of puppies she can hold. Her husband kissing her. A group of children, laughing children, playing little kid games. Thereās seven of them, the children, all splashing each other in a lake, like theyāve never suffered and they never will. She wants to have children, though sheās getting older now. She wants two or three of them. She likes to think sheād be a good mother.
Ben thinks sheād be a good one too. He adds plans for childrenās bedrooms to his favorite piece of mental drawing paperā a building titled āthe dream homeā. Heās been working on it for a decadeā the dream home had a double bedroom before he had anybody to share it with. He was so used to loneliness it took him a while to get used to another personās rhythmsā how sheāll get into bed and just then remember to brush her teeth, hopping back out again, how she sings in the shower and refuses to acknowledge it.
Heād once thought heād be lonely forever. Now, at 43, heās trying once more to make friends. He goes to dinner parties and makes meaningful conversation, he takes up fishing with a man from work. You might never love your friends as brilliantly, as totally as you do at 11, but there's a comfort in the easy, mild talks about the weather, about work. He lets himself eat ice cream, now and then, and a social life means less time for working out. Nobody really noticesā Bev says heās still hot. But of course sheād say that, she loves himā And oh, it rushes over him sometimes, she loves him, she loves him, she loves him.
He used to write poems, but he hasnāt since college. He feels like heās getting rusty with words somehow, and heās always been better with his hands. Heās fixing to unveil this stunner of a municipal building in Chicagoā itās maybe the best thing heās ever designed. He takes Beverly on a private tour a few days before the ribbon cuttingā thereās some last minute things being put together, furniture and lighting, but she still tears up when she looks around. āItās so lovely,ā she says, āthis is the most wonderfulāā and cuts off, moved. He thinks, looking at the light caught in her hair āIāll build you something even better, darling. Iāll build you a future.ā
Mike heads down to Florida, like he used to dream about. On the way there he made a stop in Atlanta to see Patty Uris. She was very polite, pleased to meet one of her dead husbandās old friendsā hungry for stories of a childhood he never spoke of. The mirrors were still covered, and she tangled her hands in and out of knots. Mike still felt guilty. Heās been trying to not feel guilty. He told her anecdotes about Stan as a childā he didnāt know him as long as some of the others, but he knew him enough. He knew him when it was important. āYour husband was a brave man.ā He told Patty, who closed her eyes. āHe was, he really was.ā
He contemplated, for a moment, staying in Atlantaā befriending Patty, telling more stories. But heās a little sick of playing historian, of being a keeper of ghosts. He heads down to Florida. He gets a job in a small town library, makes acquaintances, meets a woman. If he wants, he can go anywhere in the world. The freedom shocks him, the lightness. Anywhere in the worldā Rome, Tokyo, Sydney, Helsinki, Cairo. Places where it never rains, places where it rains all the time. He keeps a framed photo of his parents on the counterā his parents as he never knew themā young and just married and laughing to each other. He likes to think theyād be proud of him for leaving. For having the world at his feet.
He has two dogs and a cat, eats vegan, takes up biking. The children at the library call him āMr Mikeā and climb over his arms like a jungle gym. Eventually, his neighbors start calling him Mr Mike too, which is funny. Most people donāt look at him like an intruder, and when they do itās easier to shake off their stares. His hair starts greying at the temples and he relishes it. Heās made it this far. He hopes to keep making it.
Itās almost always Mike who send the emails, a tradition at this pointā āHey everybody!! Want to meet up? Where, this time? Kansas? Colorado?ā And the others will replyā yes-yes-of course-yes-letās go to Denver-lets get Greek food-I know this really great spot-how about Mexican-July-maybe August?ā And he amalgamates their suggestions into plans, sends off the group message, mark his calendar. He sits back and smile, types out āI canāt wait to see you all againā. Presses send.
So itās been three years now. And here they are, in a Mexican restaurant in Denver (they never get Chinese). Theyāre chattering about their lives, the five of themā Mikeās girlfriend, Richieās boyfriend, Bev and Benās fertility treatments. Billās a little quiet. They look at him. He pulls the new book out of his bagā four copies. They coo dutifully over the cover, flip through the pages. Get to the dedication. Stop. To six that made my lucky sevenā Stan, Eddie, Richie, Beverly, Ben, Mike. All my love. The loserās club rides forever.
āThe endingās still awful.ā Bill says, to stop their tears with laughter. They shake their heads and say theyāre sure theyāll love it. He thinks they probably wonātā even he thinks the ending isnāt great. Heās bad with endings, heāll admit that now.
The friends in the book, they all go off. They kill the bad guy, get their tidy endings, resolve their trauma, end up with their sweethearts or happily alone. He wrote it, and yet it still rings half hollow to him. No one can walk off the page happily ever after. Theyāll still have nightmares. Theyāll ruin relationships, try to pick up the pieces. Things are always going to be difficult. But theyāll keep going. And thatās the other thing heās always hated about endingsā the finality, the never-see-you-again. Thatās the worst thing of all. Heās lucky, he thinks as he looks at his laughing friends, his best friends, the loves of his life, heās lucky that life isnāt a story. That it goes on. That theyāll keep going on.
The loserās club rides forever.
#it chapter 2#richie tozier#bill denbrough#reddie#benverly#ben hanscom#beverly marsh#mike hanlon#mine#it fanfiction#my writing#speech#sk tag#it
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