#then again William is just a masochist but like idk idk

[springonmytraptillicomeback]

William talking about how Henry beats up him when he’s being an annoying little shit on purpose and then he adds how Henry never hurts him in a way that could kill him or get him seriously injured and he’s all like “isn’t that sweet???”

[pinkwright]

when the angels call i need u wide awake

ellie williams x black female!reader

inspiration | sex, violence, suicide by amaarae.

author's note — okay i rlly cant get this out of my head i needed to write it out but this is probably the filthiest shit i've ever written lol pls ellie just does things to me omfg (i think i'll make an ellie taglist, u can just ask to be on it)

warnings — 18+. mean-ish!ellie (yall know my game), mentions of stitches, injury, slight blood, fingering (r!receiving), pain kink, degradation kink, praise kink but also not rlly, humiliation kink, reader is a srs painslut like, dom!ellie, sub!reader, coming untouched, kinda needy!ellie, blood kink idk, masochist!reader but its like mild i think idfk, sadist!ellie, not rlly specified but i always write w black!female reader in mind so, kinda pervert!ellie i don't fucking know lol.

word count — 1042

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thinking about ellie stitching you up; the girl getting warm from the way you writhe in pain, sinking her teeth harshly into her bottom lip as she watches you with an intense, contemplative gaze. her self-control slipping at the pathetic little whimper you let out at the tug she gives when tying them off, the jolt of pain thrumming as it throbs under your skin. ellie's next movements are hazy like she's stuck in a dream; her actions are fueled by the sick need to see you writhe like that again, so her lips are parting when she gently presses the pad of her thumb into the tender skin surrounding your stitched flesh. the forest green of her eyes almost swallowed by the expansion of her darkening pupils, feeling her cunt clench at the perverse heat that thrums from her clit at the whimper of pain you breathe out, your body squirming away from her. her eyelids flutter, pretty auburn lashes kissing her skin as she inhales a shaky breath, a rush to gather her slipping self-control, the devil on her shoulder coercing her to hurt you more just to bathe in those pretty sounds, those dizzying squirms; taunting her with the images of you trying to get away while your body aches to be nearer. the guilt eating at her belly only adding to the warmth that claws under her skin. when she gazes up into your eyes from her crouched position and sees your fucked out expression, your lips bitten swollen, eyebrows furrowed, she's inhaling sharply, definitely thinking, "i'm fucking going to hell" as she gives in.

then she's everywhere, one strong hand pressing into your raw skin, the other digging into your soaking panties, her face pressed into your neck as she hums, voice soft as she breathes the words out, dragging them across your heated skin, "it's alright, yeaaah, thaat's it, baby. just let me do this." a groan tightly squeezing out of her throat when she feels just how wet you are, your thighs squeezing around her arm and all you're doing, all you can do, is writhe at the overwhelming heat encompassing your body, your skin crawling at how good the act is making you feel. just whimpering in pain and pleasure, as ellie forces those noises she loves right out of you, her breathing heavy as she sinfully regards you, sounding and looking like every one of her sick fantasies, pretty and dreamy, the bane of her insatiable desire.

your lips are parted, body flinching away from the gentle caress of her thumb across your hot, raised skin, your slick drenching ellie's hand, the searing humiliation at the pleasure the act brings you makes you so fucking wet. and ellie's just condescendingly cooing in this mean, mean voice, her lips softly skimming across your neck, "does it hurt, baby?", humming calmly at your whimpered response, "hurts so, so bad, els." your fingers digging into her shoulders, nails quarter to breaking into the skin. her fingers are carving into your walls so deeply, so fucking vicious in her movements and it makes you so fucking dizzy because her voice is so gentle. her thumb caressing so softly against your freshly stitched skin, but the act is dragging pained jolts up your spine, her fingers fucking you like it's her religion, roughly tearing you apart, guiding you to the most violent orgasm of your life in the most sickly-sweet way.

her voice is calmly, sweetly cooing through the hazy fog in ur mind, dragging her lips gently across your cheekbone as she degrades you so meanly; telling u how fucking disgusting you are, how fucking filthy that cunt is, making you listen to how wet you are for her as she uses that tone, the one she uses when she's praising you. her raspy, rough voice, sweet and low, fond in its delivery... and you deny her words frantically, fucking back onto her fingers as you pout, vehemently denying her words as your lashes clutter with tears, your heart racing as the pressure building between your legs coerces out your desperation. ellie tsking as she presses deeper into the taut skin she, so generously, fixed like she's punishing you for your denial, the pain hot and bordering on unbearable, the power trip at your cry and violent jolt away from her causes her eyes to roll back as she calls you her pretty little painslut, her voice keeping that same intonation, laced with an undertone of dripping desperation for you.

her smoldering green eyes pin you in place as she breathes against your lips, smirking as your eyes clench tightly, her words travelling into your parted mouth while her fingers press harshly against that tender spot inside you, her voice dripping with unbridled sweetness as she drags out repeated, "just like that, baby"'s your hips canting up as you uncontrollably fuck back onto her ruthless fingers. your fingernails drag into the tatted skin of her forearm trying to slow her merciless pace, but she doesn't relent, angling her palm to graze your clit just right, and the action makes you shake, thighs trembling as you jolt so hard you push further up into her; her fingers grazing against the taut skin of your knitted flesh forced to shallowly dig into the little gaps between the thread at the violent movement, your blood soaking the tips of her fingers just as you drench her. a heavy agony-laced, pleasure-filled sob wrecks through your throat, the tears spilling down your cheeks and ellie's mind blanks.

you're trembling in the aftershocks, clenching tight everywhere, as your mind surges with just ellie; ellie, ellie, ellie, your pussy feels hollow from the way she positively carved through your walls, the tender muscles clenching tight, pulling her impossibly deep, your juices sliding down her forearm making her tattoo glisten in the low light, ellie letting out the filthiest fucking whimpers at the site, your pussy sucking her back in like it knows her, like it owned her and ellie's hungrily devouring your ruined image, the blood on her fingertips smearing across the skin of your hipbone, your blood, her cunt is relentless in the way it tightly clenches as she follows you, untouched, the devil on her shoulder cackling at the pathetic way her hips thrust into the air, ellie's lungs punching at the perverse release, whining when thinks about how much you've ruined her.

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ஜ .tags { @abenomeiiii }

[thebluewritingbench]

fic writer review!

thanks @inkedroplets for the tag!

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

Seven at the moment! Gearing up to start posting a longer multichap I've been working on soon, though. ;)

2. Whats your total ao3 word count?

35,678 - though I have an additional 198,658 on my old fanfic.net account lol

3. How many fandoms have you written for?

Four or five, depending on whether you count ATLA/LoK as one fandom or two. My old account had PJO and Harry Potter, and Supergirl most recently.

4. Top 5 fics by kudos?

I mean, that's most of them, since there are only seven rn but:

lucky i'm in love with my best friend - supercorp, kara goes on a date with william and then interrupts it by realizing she's actually in love with Lena.

and rain will make the flowers grow - supercorp, a 'what if lena only found out kara was supergirl as kara was dying' (it's sad)

rhymes with monopoly - supercorp, same as this tumblr prompt idk i wanted to try cross-posting one of my tumblr fics. Not sure I'll do it again, tbh.

Missed Notifications in Your Chat: ‘operation expose kyalin - lok, kyalin/korrasami - university au text fic where they're convinced their profs are dating and are overall insufferable about it

we're all in the mood for a melody - lok, korrasami - asami plays the piano a lot it's very domestic fluff

5. Do you respond to comments? Why/why not?

I do! Usually not all of them, though, depends on the mood i'm in I suppose. And what the comment says. I read them all multiple times though!

6. A fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending

I'd say the wrong side of a second, which is just essentially just: what if Lena didn't manage to turn off Lex's mount norquay kryptonite canons on time in 5x8 and they hit Kara. The fic is the conversation where Lena has to tell Alex. It's one of two fics I've written where Kara dies, though I'd say the angstier of the two because they don't get time for love confessions and last kisses in that one. You may ask, helena, why do you have two oneshots in which Kara dies? Is this the name you're trying to make for yourself? I'm not sure, honestly. I'll just say i was enabled on discord for the second one. And that angst is kind of thrilling to write. And Kara is (masochistically, perhaps) a great character to kill.

(I tend to reserve tragic endings to oneshots I can knock out in an evening, though. If I'm investing major time into something, I want that happily ever after, please and thank you.)

7. Do you write crossovers?

I haven't, no, though that's not to say I never would.

8. Ever received hate on a fic?

I mean, not seriously. I've received the occasional negative/nasty comment but nothing I couldn't delete or disregard.

9. Do you write smut?

I have it was very scary. I'll probably do it again tho.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of?? I hope not. I think someone asked me if they could post a fic of mine to Wattpad once. I said no.

11. Ever had a fic translated?

Once back on ff.net! A lovely person translated a oneshot i'd written into french. It was very cool.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Not really, no. Though I had a friend that added so much in her beta-reading that it may as well have been cowriting.

13. All time fav ship?

All time fave? Oh idk. But supercorp has my whole heart at the mo

14. WIP you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

mm well I started a (modern) Pride and Prejudice Supercorp AU but I got stuck trying to keep both Kara and Lena in character and the general plot structure of P&P. Maybe I'll go back to it if I ever figure out a way around that. Otherwise, i try to only post things I know I can finish.

15. Writing strengths?

Uhhhhhh gee idk. I like writing descriptions. Also dialogue.

16. Writing weaknesses?

Overuse of ellipses and M-dashes, perhaps? Repetition of certain adjectives and adverbs? Mostly lots of small things.

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

Not sure I'd trust myself to do it accurately, tbh. Maybe with a beta who spoke the language?

18. First fandom you wrote for?

Percy Jackson!

19. What’s your fav fic you’ve written so far?

how do you possibly choose? I'm gonna say my road trip AU (still in the works, but upcoming soon) to drum up some hype for anyone who actually read this to the end. (Because i'm not sure i would, tbh. So if you did, hi here's a cookie don't tell anyone.)

i'll tag @mike-wachowski @mssirey @janusa @tsunderegirlfriend @smileymikey if y'all feel like it idk

[unproduciblesmackdown]

lihn asks: 1, 10, 15, 26, 30, 31, 37, 41, 46, 49

thanks for the asks and thanks for creating the ask list in the first place

1) Favorite song(s)? i especially like three failed escape attempts of sheila nail. it does A Lot re: like, introducing a character, but probably the biggest reason it is a fave is b/c It Is A Banger

10) Favorite line(s)? this is a tough one, i've been Thinking on it and there's no immediate standout answer coming to mind for sure......how about "she asked us to, so we did." great stuff

15) A minor character(s) you love? hmm i mean i guess clearly susannah and sheila are the main and next most main characters but from there it's like, is Everyone equally a minor character........well kitty is my favorite of course so i guess that's an easy answer, i also just like immediately enjoyed rat and i wish she had more content even though definitely other girls didn't have a world of Content either

26) Solitary or Masochist? well i think probably solitary Musically, seeing as i def actually remember it more for that reason, but maybe i gotta say masochist b/c a) you know, kitty is the fave, and b) even if i don't remember a ton of details i still enjoyed it and i enjoyed the scene overall a Lot and what role it has in the story / susannah's arc.

30) Scene(s)/concept(s) you would like expanded upon? hmm i do like dorothy and kitty's Thing being like. never really brought to the forefront / made Crucially relevant or anything but it also was not too Apparent at all lmfao although yknow, maybe it was more clear in person. i think i'd like it to have like. at least more Textual implications of the existence of the pairing. s/o to kitty again

31) What you would like changed if another production of the show happens? uhhh i think in its immediate aftermath i was sort of thinking how it's a bit weird that like. sure you can easily take some textual material in lihn and interpret girls as Not Nt informed by that, but clearly the focus is how their response to external societal factors is Pathologized (especially based on their identities, e.g. susannah as a black girl and kitty as a trans girl), and while of course miss asp having this extended breakdown basically over the course of the show lol *is* about her own Attempts To Cope With Society have failed her and are failing her, and she's having Bigger messy reactions as the show goes on as the girls sort of get themselves even more together, it felt like she was being given behaviors that are more like. "cues" that are associated with Mental Disorders like, her thinking the girls could be aliens is sure involved with the Metaphor in that, but from the perspective of her character being fairly earnest in that belief, that's like, More of an interfering Symptom than we've seen from any of the girls........idk like, feels like either her character could become at least Slightly more subtly handled or like, in the same way that the girls are here for different things and yet The Same Thing, it could be made more explicit that one or more of the girls is nd and that Just Might manifest in ways that are seen as going beyond "standard" "weirdness" like yknow. miss asp out here like "yeah she has delusions now" while with the girls it's like. yeah they have "undesirable / inappropriate Behaviors" but, not of that kind

37) Favorite fanmade media related to LIHN?

this fic by soph, this drawing of kitty by al, this drawing of kitty by an artist i know does other nicher iconis-content art, this drawing of kitty talking to susannah by an artist who i know i’ve Appreciated other lihn art from, and your galaxy brain video juxtaposing “i was a teenage delinquent!” with vimh

41) An anecdote about your experience with LIHN? lmao well i don't Personally have any great anecdote i don't think. i watched it along with soph which means i had to keep messaging them like "hang on pause, i'm Buffering again" every 6-13 min or so, and a fun coincidence was that 99% of the time the video paused at a timestamp wherein the Seconds ended in _9. someone else's anecdote: al's story of having gone to an actual lihn performance, having had been made to miss the intended train to the theater and needing to wait for the next one, and ending up sitting right in front of jason sweettooth williams on the ride / getting to make conversation lol. rights

46) Stupidest quote from the NYT review? lmfao fuck you i haven't reread this shit since it came out and it is SO hard to pick a stupidest quote. rereading it now i'm freshly Amazed at how stupid a quote i'd forgotten is. but ofc i Have to go with "...[Susannah]'s very much an everygirl. She is the black child of white adoptive parents, which she knows (ask answer editor's note: "????????? what aspect of this would she Not know"), and a lesbian, which she quickly discovers, but..." like lmaoooo never gets old. alexis soloski, everyone!!!

49) Bruce the Ocelot or Harriet II? well, again, Kitty, and i do like ocelots, they're cool, so: bruce. and it’s a really fun scene where the whole concept is introduced lmao