#theme: hands

[nine-frames]

Hands

شطرنج باد (Shatranj-e Baad / Chess of the Wind), 1976.

Dir. & Writ. Mohammad Reza Aslani | DOP Houshang Baharloo

[lotrmusical]

never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

[comikbook]

The Eyes of God, 2023, Digital Painting by myself, Liz Pence

[radiomogai]

art is by @\feefal!! here's the post with it (https://www.tumblr.com/feefal/685237013825437696/hands-that-hold-the-sky)

Viostalouhanic

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[Flag ID: A horizontal eleven striped flag, with the first six stripes being a gradient from very dark purple to very light purple, and then the same gradient in the reverse order for the remaining stripes. End ID.]

[Divider ID: A divider of small lavender dots evenly spaced and sized. End ID.]

Definition:

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A gender related to the colour purple, stars, space, feeling as if you can/are holding stars, clouds, and galaxies.

Coined by Celadon, not a request.

Etymology: "vio" from violet, "sta" from star, "lou" from cloud, "han" from hand, suffix "-ic"

It could also be an imagegender related to the below image:

Image ID Loading, apologizes. Help would be appreciated.

Tagging: @mogai-starchive, @radiomogai

[aifoemo]

Wilted flowers for you

[daily-smallishbeans]

222-

a statue and a billboard

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Who is this sassy lost child?

[First] Prev <–-> Next

[dykestache]

new heart bong 🫀

link!

[lucidloving]

Isabel Allende, The House of The Spirits // Anne Carson, Red Doc> // F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Short Stories // Ocean Vuong, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous // 肉包不吃肉, The Husky and His White Cat Shizun // Bernhard Schlink, The Reader (trans. Carol Brown Janeway) // Heart Like Yours— Willamette Stone

[radiomogai]

[PT: Wrinameobsess. End PT]

✦Wrinameobsess

Wrinameobsess- gender related to being obsessive over a person or character to the point you write the person's or character's name all over your hand and arm.

✦ Requested by Anon

[Image ID; two 7 striped flags, surrounded by a border. The colours, from top to bottom, are; purple, pink, yellow, brown, yellow, pink, purple. The border is dark brown. The flag on the right has ‘name’ in red lettering all over it. End ID.]

[corvus-frugilegus]

The real tragedy of the Dellamortes is how inevitable Illario's betrayal was.

Caterina's refusal to really see either of her grandsons for who they are sets all three of them on this path. Lucanis's mother was Caterina's favourite, she was probably the person Caterina had in mind to succeed her. That loss, the loss of so much of Caterina's legacy had to have been devastating. She'd built so much and it was all torn away in a single conflict. All she has left in the wake of it is two young boys and this tenacity that will not allow her to give up on what she's built.

So she puts it all on Lucanis. The son of her favourite (bonus angst if he looks like his mother). She's unable to see this sweet boy who loves wyverns and just had his life ripped apart for who he is. She just see's her legacy. The daughter she lost. She puts it all into him, he's pushed into the role of favourite.

Lucanis responds to this by shoving down the parts of himself she doesn't want to see- his gentle heart, his love of wyverns, the little boy who needs to be loved. If he's good enough, strong enough, the perfect crow, the perfect granson- then and only then will she love him, will he be safe.

And then you have Illario! There isn't as much to go on in the text about his family or what he was like as a boy but there's a few things we can pretty confidently infer. Like Lucanis, Illario violently loses everything he has at a very young age. All he has left are the other two Dellamorte's.

But he isn't the child of Caterina's favourite. She isn't automatically putting all of her legacy on his shoulders the way she does Lucanis. He still gets the training, and what we do see in the wigmaker job and the wake and even in the codex entires in the game is that Illario does become a comptent and capable crow. He has a level of skill that I suspect is broadly expected of house Dellamorte, he was trained by the first talon herself. But the Illario we meet as an adult has this laissez-faire affect and presents himself as a seducer and a bit of a peakcock. He also very overtly refers to himself as Dellamorte-the-lesser and at the end of the wigmaker job when they're discussing the title of first talon you can feel the resentment below the surface.

For Illario it's not about the power and the prestige that comes from the title of first talon. It's not even about having the title itself. It's about FINALLY earning Caterina's love and respect. Things he undoubtly never felt as a boy.

How could he? When he's a child the only two people he has left in the world have this special bond that he never gets to be a part of. His only caretaker has a clear favourite and she shows it. He's lived his whole life in Lucanis's shadow, and a shadow that Lucanis never wanted to cast! Which if anything just adds insult to injury for Illario.

Lucanis has everything Illario wants and he doesn't even want it.

I imagine as a boy Illario tries SO HARD to win her love, her favour, he'll do anything to feel like he's loved and wanted and valued. And when after YEARS it doesn't work even though Lucanis clearly doesn't want the role he's been forced into? Illario gets resentful, he gets angry, he starts acting up. He becomes the suave peacock, the grandson who fucks up sometimes- probably not because he's bad at being a crow but because at least Caterina's ire is attention. It's a scrap of love.

Illario and Lucanis love each other. They're brothers. Illario resents Lucanis for being loved and favoured. Lucanis wants nothing more than to give it all to Illario. Illario doesn't want that he wants Caterina to love him on his own merit. At the same time (pre-inner demons) Lucanis will never actually give the title up because it means he's loved, he's valued, he matters.

The title of first talon has been synonymous with emotional safety and love for these two for their entire lives, and it's twisted them up so badly.

The real irony of it all is that this whole time Illario is so much more like the person Caterina wants Lucanis to be. Her heir, the Dellamorte best suited to be the next first talon has been right there infront of her all along, but she's so caught up in grief and legacy she misses it. She never really see's either of her grandsons for who they are.

I actually suspect that when it all comes to light, even though she's furious with him, Caterina finally starts to see what she's been overlooking in Illario all along. And Lucanis who's started to heal... well I think she's starting to see him too, and the truth of who he is is something she'll struggle to face.

When the day finally comes that Lucanis tells her he doesn't want the job, when him and Illario both accept that their lives have meaning outside of Caterina's opinion of them, is the day that the Dellamorte's can maybe start to really see each other.

[comikbook]

Forgive Me Father, 2023, Digital Painting by myself, Liz Pence

First post !

Socials and Commissions

[secretsimpleness]

Sometimes I want to bring Morrigan but then I remember I play as a face-tanking rogue and I bring Wynne. Warden Cousland, Morrigan, Wynne / Dragon Age Origins (c) Bioware

[radiomogai]

[PT: Flaphandstim. End PT]

Flaphandstim

A flag/term for anyone who stims by hand flapping or finds hand flapping stims to be part of their identity! While this is primarily for the stim itself, you can use this flag for other aspects of your identity, such as gender, if you experience this stim.

[stil-lindigo]

motherhood.

[spicyraeman]

finally finished all the companions + my tav! now its time to have fun with outfits :]