#thehollytree

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entry #10

why is it that when the trees decide they cannot possibly live any longer in this world and lose their leaves it is considered beautiful yet my own personal self destruction is not i just want to bloom in the spring

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i SHIP YOU WITH THE TREE.

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entry #9

my mother used to collect seashells she said she kept them because every single one was different and that they reminded her of people and how it is important to remember that every single person is fighting their own battles and going through something different be kind and remember the seashells

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entry #8

the cold winds returned today my mood quickly drops along with the temperature gloomy days remind me of the days after the darkness reminds me of my worst days but even following those the sun comes up the next day

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entry #7

my sister always told me my body is a temple and i am the god it was built for that my heart's home was a sacred cathedral and you should not allow anyone in it that does not worship you as such

my body was disrespected once i did not listen to her advice

now i live by it

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entry #5

the dreams where you make your appearances are not always horrific sometimes we're back at our place at the tree intensely discussing how many kids we wanted where we wanted to go when we were finally done with school our future what a concept

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entry #4

sometimes the ones we love do not understand how to be there for us and that's okay they're trying be patient with them being patient with you the love of my life is not always sure how to be there for me when I wake up crying and screaming my sleep constantly haunted by dreams of what you did to me he does, however, understand that words cannot possibly reach the misery i endure night after night again he holds me until the shaking stops and smooths my hair back from my face until the tears cease and rocks me back to sleep

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entry #3

on one of our adventures we found a holly tree on the edge of town that became our special place you used to say "my Holly Rose and her tree" your saying soon turned into "this tree was made for my Holly Rose, and Holly Rose was made for me" i still drive out there sometimes wondering if you take other girls to our tree wondering if you ruin it for them just like you did for me

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entry #2

i had the whole world ahead of me it was mine to conquer i had plans and dreams and things I aspired to be i was the girl that had it all together and kept it together when you said "i love you" i had the whole world ahead of me but god, did i desperately want you to conquer it with me

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entry #1

you held my hand while we drove around i laughed at you trying to sing along to the radio that is my first memory of us

that is what I held onto those nights i cried on the hard, cold ground