#the wound i carry is my own creation so its stupid to be upset with someone i only ever burdened

[wilburs-hibana]

i think if i were able to get closure from them directly that would fix me

but i made myself to goddamn unapproachable and get to sit in misery and was left with "its not worth the effort to even be friends" so its not like im a position to ask

if i could stop fucking up that would be wonderful

i cant even uninstall a stupid computer program correctly and now its completely brocken and i cant even reinstall it

what if i ended it all

i cant make anyone mourn me tho so we persist

even if im wasting every breath i take