#the whole Main Incident was probably like. a few mins?? maybe??

[lovpoem]

animal harm & like, Me harm mention under cut //

(if you don't want to read don't worry me and rusty are fine!! just a lil hurt right now lol;;)

went through a whirlwind of emotions tonight. was fully prepared for my cat to get his tail amputated, but apparently he's just fine and dandy. even the vets were confused. （ ｉ _ ｉ ）

earlier there was a package delivered to my house, so i stepped out to grab it. i've gotten p good at being particularly careful about closing the door behind me (ellie's good at staying near me so i was never worried with her, but rusty's New and formerly-feral), but he must've been right under me and i didn't realize ( ´Д`)

a few moments later, i couldn't find him in the house and remembered that i went outside to get a package and went to look. after a few moments of searching, i saw one of my neighbors down the street from me were getting into their car to drive somewhere and i got a bad feeling... i ran up to them to stop them, but they already had started the car and began driving slowly... they stopped when i got there and only moved a few inches, but i heard a screech from under the car...

rusty was under there. he wasn't run over but his tail was stuck in the car's axel. like... badly. poor baby was trying really hard to get free. he kept clawing and biting me when i tried to help him, too. i eventually freed him, but in the process he got a lot of his tail hair ripped out.

part of me was relieved because when i was trying to help him get out from under the car i thought he was bleeding because there were times when i pulled my hands away they were covered in blood and there was blood on the driveway but there was no break in his skin so i guess the blood was just mine (´∀｀) also in the process of helping him get out ig i was like clawing at the metal so i lost 3 nails. yeowch.

ironically enough the package that came earlier was a cat carrier for him, & while my original plan was to slowly desensitize him to it before his vaccination and neutering appointment, i just kind of shoved his blanket and his favorite toy in there and took him to the vet. the poor baby was hurting p badly (´；Д；`)

the vet was like. "Yeah it looks broken so we might have to amputate it." but gave him x-rays and... didn't find anything?? not even a fracture. also they checked his hips & those are fine too. they're sending his x-rays to a radiologist though to double check.

well. i am not one to look a gift horse in the mouth. & even if they end up having to take it off, i want whatever's best for him. ... but i hope they dont bc his tail is cute q^q

anywyas he's fine now and sleeping overnight at the vet just in case. he's on pain meds so he's hopefully feeling much better. Wah.

[script-nef]

Compensation | Gojou Satoru

Category: fluff

3k words; Dinner date [5/6]

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The door clicks behind you as you retire into your room after another day of work. Fatigue aches at your bones and the bed is soft underneath as you flop onto it. Investing in a cushiony blanket and mattress is probably one of the best decisions you made in your life. If not the best. 

Drifting away into dreamland sounds amazing. If not for All Might.

“A text is here!” 

“Toshinori…” Even though your favourite character is Hawks, there’s no way you’re not setting Yagi as your ringtone. Groaning, you blindly reach for the phone while not moving your smushed face. Comfort prioritises over the ability to breathe. 

Gojou: Hey! T minus an hour to our reservation! Get ready!

Ah, this. Gojou has made good on his promise to make up for the dinner you missed thanks to his theatrics. Something bubbles in your chest.

Since the beach incident, which ended fine with everyone happy and well-rested, something shifted. In the relationship between you and Gojou. Tensing in the neck, quicker palpitation sometimes. Like the feeling you had when you went on that flight to Shinjuku and also at the beach. Repetition is making it concerning. Maybe a trip to Shouko is overdue.

Gojou: Wear smth nice! Me: ? What? Gojou: They have a policy about ties n dresses or smth. Or we can show up in jeans n see how they react! Me: Let’s not. Gojou: K then! C you in 56 mins ;)

There it is again, the bubbles. Shaking your head to dislodge the feeling, you get ready for dinner.

Joints pop as you rise, lazily gathering towels and clothes. Something nice. If it’s a place with attire regulations, it must be pretty high-class. Or maybe he’s just messing with you to see what you would wear. Better not take any chances. 

Thirty minutes and your muscles are much looser thanks to the hot water. The fragrant smell of your shampoo and body wash puts you in a good mood as well. You quickly slip into a dress, a present Gojou got for you some time ago. It’s a soft and flowy one with intricate snowflakes decorating the ends. It became one of your favourites pretty quickly. 

Rhythmic knocks on the door alert you of Gojou’s arrival just as you’re done drying your hair. After checking in the mirror to see if everything is fine, you open your room door.

The only thing same about him from his usual self is the hair and smile. His casual outfit is replaced with a black suit, presumably the one he bought weeks ago when he tagged along with you to buy Ken-chan a present. Somehow it looks better on him now than it did before. Probably the antique hallway lighting than the department one, it just gives him a more cozy vibe. The blindfold is gone, replaced by sunglasses. His gorgeous irises are still hidden from your view. He cleans up well. 

“M’lady.” Bowing slightly, he stretches his hand out for you to take. You oblige with a giggle. The whole gentleman thing is cute.

“You’re on time for once! No, wait, you’re early!” Time seems to elude Gojou all the time. In the years you’ve known him, he’s never come to a meeting on time, let alone early. Especially ones about him by the higher-ups. There was one time where he didn’t even bother to come but Masamichi-san dragged him by the ear. Unfortunately, there’s no photographic proof which could have been used to mock him with.

“Of course I’ll come on time. Oh, you’re wearing the dress I bought you!” Gentleman vibe goes out the window, him returning to his hyperactive self. It’s still pretty cute. Where the hell is this coming from? There’s a constricting feeling in your throat. 

“Oh, you’ve never seen me wear it. It’s one of my favourites now, and I thought you’d like to see it. What do you think?” By now you’re out in the courtyard, illuminated under the moon. Skipping up ahead, you spin a bit, letting the dress flow out. He doesn’t say anything for a while. ���Gojou?”

“You look beautiful.”

“Eh?”

“You look… beautiful.”

The softness in his voice catches you off guard. You stop in your track, the clothing falling and resting against your legs. This is a Gojou you haven’t met before, one with such sincerity and tenderness. He steps up, taking one of your hands in his. Something tingles inside your stomach, like fireflies buzzing around and lighting it up with warmth. What’s happening right now?

“I mean it. You’re dazzling.” 

Fire burns under your skin, originating from where he’s holding you and threatens to consume your entire body. The flutter in your stomach is nothing compared to this. Time stops. The only thing you can hear is his breathing and your heart beating. 

Moonlight cascades over him, showering him in an ethereal glow. Snow white hair shines brilliantly and something seizes at your throat. He slowly lowers his lips to meet with the back of your hand, pressing a light yet somehow heavy kiss. 

You're not moving. Not breathing. It feels like you're standing on a sheet-thin glass, a bottomless abyss underneath you. If you move even a centimeter, take even the slightest of breathes, the moment will break and you'll plummet down. 

Lungs scream at you to breathe. You can't. Not while he's still holding your hand with such gentle sincerity. Heat travels to every cell in your body and the flicker inside your stomach gets unbearable. 

The moment finally ends when his lips detach from your hand. Air slowly returns as he runs his fingers over your knuckles. When he peers down at you, there's just a momentary flash of piercing blue behind his sunglasses that makes your breath hitch. 

"Shall we go?" 

Shooting you a sweet smile, he doesn't let go of your hand and marches on forward. You barely remember to keep up, brain scrambled and chest exploding.

“This is an exclusive place. How did you get reservations this fast?”

“My stunning good looks!”

“Gojou.” 

“Apparently someone cancelled their reservations. Looks and luck. What don’t I have?”

“Humility.

“That cuts me, [Name].”

Stifling laughter, you look out of the window and onto the street. A few weeks ago the view would have been amazing, but now that you’ve experienced flying, nothing measures up to it. There hasn’t been another flight break as you couldn’t bring yourself to ask him for one, since he was so busy, but the exhilaration of the trip never quite left your body. 

When you turn your attention back to him, there’s a lit candle on the table and Gojou’s resting his head on his hand, staring at you. The intensity can be felt over his sunglasses.

“What’s up with the candlelight?”

“No idea.”

Attempts for small talk are useless. A silence sits in the air. Not the comfortable kind that you normally have with him, working in your office while he takes a nap on the sofa nearby. Or the one when he unceremoniously interrupts a break in the garden by coming up and resting his head on your lap, enjoying a soak in the sun with you. Or when you’re eating in the cafeteria together.

Something is just off here. It might be because of… his act earlier. Just thinking about it is enough to bring the blush back. But no, it's more to do with this place. It's much nicer than your school, expensive chandeliers and tablecloths, the air of refinery that everyone else naturally oozes. But it’s distant, detached. It doesn’t suit you or him. Eventually, you break.

“Why did you bring me here?” The smile disappears off of Gojou’s face and his brow scrunches in confusion.

“I thought girls liked this kind of thing!”

"Well, yeah, it’s exclusive for a reason. But I… don’t feel comfortable here. I’m grateful that you brought me here, and I appreciate all the effort you put into this to secure a place for us. It’s just that this feels way too serious to make up for a missed meal. I feel terrible that you went through all that trouble for me. I’m fine with somewhere more casual and comfortable, not the most expensive place you can take me.”

“You think this is the most expensive place I can take you? I’m wounded.” Gojou grips at his heart but the easy-going smile tells a different story. You give him a tentative smile back, worried he might be offended underneath his smile.

“Unless you want to stay here? I’m fine with that as well, this is completely up to you.”

“Nope, it’s up to you. Wanna head out then?” He holds his hand out again. You take it without a second thought. 

“Where is this?”

“My favourite restaurant! They have the best dango for dessert. And of course, the main menus are good as well.” He’s so consistent. 

Customers and chefs alike stare at you two when you walk in. Which is expected when Gojou’s dressed in an immaculate designer suit that’s in complete contrast to the humble and cozy interior of the shop. Some avert their gaze when they realise they’re being rude, but you can see them sneaking a peek from the corners of their eyes. You’re not dressed up as Gojou is, but mortification still flushes your cheeks. It gets worse when he guides you over to a table, leading you to a table by hugging you from behind. This never bothered you before so why is it affecting you so much now?

“Here you go.” He pushes a chair back for you to sit in. A server greets you with a smile, handing over the menu then disappears again. “Is this place better?”

It really is. Spices and the smell of broth leak into the eating areas, triggering your taste buds and causing you to salivate. People chatter and yell and cheer, the cacophony of noises filling the place with livelihood unlike the cold silence of the previous restaurant. This is somehow more peaceful. A smile blooms on your face. 

“This is perfect.” 

The rest of the night is smooth sailing. Gojou knows your taste in food perfectly, expertly recommending which ones to try out. The food is impeccable and the dangos are exquisite, the perfect blend of sweet and chewy. Conversation flows easily once you’re comfortable and blocking out whatever the courtyard thing was. 

He's been away for a while due to a sudden influx in curses so it's nice to have some quality time together like this. With your belly full and warmth spreading over your body, you were ready to hit the sack. 

That is, if he didn’t offer sake to end the night. 

“Hmmm sleepy…” Alcohol doesn’t taste nice. Fuzziness takes over your brain, like thoughts are all mixing with each other and the room is spinning weirdly. Closing your eyes helps. Lights are way still way too bright and it feels like sweat is pouring off you by buckets. Someone’s calling your name but the wall is so nice and cool against your blazing skin. 

“Didn’t know you’d be this much of a lightweight. Hey, hey, you with me?” Gojou’s blurry face comes into view when you open your eyes. Giggles escape you for absolutely no reason. 

“Gojou!” 

“Yes, yes, I’m here. I think you need to stop drinking. Nanami might never let me see you again.” 

“Your cheeks are so squishy!” It’s soft and smooth underneath your fingers, like he doesn’t have pores. Maybe you can’t feel pores with fingers but his skin is just that flawless. “Drop your skincare routine, baby skin.”

“You had like three cups, how are you this drunk? I already paid so let’s go back to school. Lift your arms?” You obey obediently and something warm encases you. A familiar and delightful scent assaults your nose. There’s a click, a lot of clicks, like someone’s taking a photo. You can’t be bothered looking to check. “Can you stand?”

“Mm…” 

“Guess that’s a no. Keep your eyes closed.” 

Your stomach lurches as you’re pulled onto your feet, supported by something under your arms. Cold air rushes onto your face and makes you whine. There’s a call of “thank you” which you reply in your drunken stupor with “I’ll be back!” Laughter comes somewhere from above. 

It’s dark enough outside that you can open your eyes again. Everything’s still a bit hazy but you can find your balance now.

“You think you can handle flying?” There’s really no way to tell other than to try it. So you nod.

There’s a blank memory between that decision and the moment you arrive at your doorsteps. Literally nothing. You blinked after making that choice and now you’re standing outside your room door. You would have fallen thanks to disorientation if not for Gojou supporting you by the small of your back.

“Come on, let’s get you to bed.” 

He stands around while you get ready to sleep, helping you tie your hair and catching you when you lose balance. After washing, you stare at him and he stares right back. The stare-off continues. He finally gets the message when you point at the dress and walks out. It’s a struggle to get out of clothes in an inebriated state but after much wrestling, you manage. 

Climbing into the bed, you’re about to actually fall asleep when there’s a knock on the door. Groans answer it because it’s way too far away. The person opposite seems to get the message and comes in. You peek and it’s Gojou with a plastic shopping bag. Sitting down and making himself comfortable on the bed, he ruffles through the bag.

“Hey, you have to drink this. It’ll help tomorrow.” He helps you sit up but pauses for a second. Your eyes flicker open. He’s looking at your body. “Are you still wearing my jacket? After you’ve changed?”

“Yup! Smells nice!” You bury your face in the lapel as if to prove a point. The grip on your arm tightens and he looks down. 

“It smells nice?” 

“Mhm. It's you. I feel like I'm being protected." He lets go of you, instead choosing to cover his face in his hands. His ears look red. Flicking it looks fun. "Gojou? What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong. Drink the medicine." Even with your messed up, alcohol-ridden tongue, it tastes bad. Attempts at whining and escaping is futile because he's stronger than you. "There you go. Now sleep."

He helps you down this time, brushing your hair with his fingers and cleaning up after himself. It's nice and fluffy inside the covers. Gojou takes your hand again, pressing another kiss on the back of it. Shorter than the last time but the intensity hasn't changed. 

"Don't leave." It’s basically a whisper, but Gojou freezes immediately. There's no sound for a while and you can't see what's happening because of your drooping eyelids. Alcohol is great at inducing sleep. A rustling sound and his fingers interlocks with yours. 

“You want me to stay? I’d almost say you like me.” His voice is low as well, but still with a teasing lilt, like he's trying to help you fall asleep. So considerate. Always so considerate.

"Maybe." The word trails off into a mumble. Alcohol also gets rid of your filters and the understanding of when to stop talking.

"I'm sorry, what?" 

"Dunno… You're making me feel weird things…" Digging yourself further into the covers, you try to block out even the faint lamplight. Having none of that, Gojou pulls you out from the blanket cave, ignoring your whines.

"You'll suffocate in there. I'm fine with doing CPR but Nanami might not. What do you mean by 'weird things'?" 

"I don't know… There was like… this thing inside my stomach when you did the thing out in the uh… place. My insides felt itchy and weird thanks to you. Take that!" It probably could not have been more easier to catch your fist. "Noooo, you deserve to be hit! You did something to me… That's why I feel so weird when I'm around you. Ever since the beach trip… I sometimes get heart thumps when I see you… It doesn't make sense why I'm feeling this… I don't feel it with other people…" 

In an attempt to show how annoyed you are, you try to flail around on the bed but it comes out more as a tiny jiggle. Like a caterpillar. Gojou lets out a chuckle. It sounds like he’s laughing at you. Smacking him comes to mind but you’re comfortable right now so you’ll forgive him. By now you’re just mumbling into the blanket.

"Because like… it's the same. You know? This, this… whatever this is… Like in the movies, the fluffy ones. When the girl falls in love with the guy. They show like the whole thing with like the thingies… The close up, the blush, heartbeat getting quicker in the background… Thump thump, yeah? Do you understand what I'm saying?"

Silence is his answer. You know he's still there because his hand is still connected to yours.

Sleep addles your mind. There's a whole lot of words popping up, like "Gojou" and "dinner" and "date" for some reason. But it's too late and everything is shutting down. Softly, slowly, you sink into slumber.

"Gojou?" Still nothing. "Hmmm you're asleep as well, huh? That's fine, that's good. You do so much to save everyone, you deserve a break. Like a hero… So brave, so selfless… Really stupid as well, so immature… Hn, maybe I do like you…"

"Say that again?" Oh, he's back. And he's gently shaking your hand, trying to keep you awake. But your consciousness is slipping away and soon everything turns into a pleasant hum.

The last thing you feel is something soft pressing against your forehead.

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[snorlaxlovesme]

full thoughts on the chaos walking movie? I want to hear more about it lol I haven’t seen it yet

it just...it felt like TKONLG but without EVERY GOOD PART, you know?

scene-wise, the closest individual scene we had to anything in the book was maybe the scene where Viola read Todd’s mother’s book to him? (even that wasn’t the same bc that was also the scene where we find out he’s illiterate, and he lets her read it right away, so there was no deep-rooted embarrassment about not being able to read). also it happened in Farbranch. BUT, like it captured the emotion of the OG scene a little, where Viola is reading to Todd and he’s hearing his ma’s words and getting emotional about it.

but all the stand-out scenes from the book, i.e. saying goodbye to Ben and Cillian, meeting the girl and getting hit in the head with a branch and bandaging her anyway, ALL of the Aaron fights, the bridge, the massacre of Farbranch, the song of Here, the Spackle, Todd’s illness, the waterfall scene, Haven, NONE of that was in the movie. so imagine all the really important and powerful moments gone

also all the overarching themes? those are gone too. todd becoming a man is  HUGE deal in the books. even in his horrible awful town he just wants to feel like he BELONGS and he’s the one person in the entire town being ostracized. two of the biggest secrets in Todd’s whole world are kept from him for the majority of the book because he’s “not yet a man”. it’s important to him. and once todd realizes the connection between Prentisstown maturity and murder, he spends the rest of that book WISHING he could be a killer. wishing he could have that kind of strength and seeing himself weak for not being able to kill. 

all of that?? gone. movie!Todd often chants the familiar “I am Todd Hewitt” (and sometimes “be a man”) when he’s nervous or trying to cover something in his Noise, and has a little tiff with Ben and Cillian at the beginning of the movie bc the Mayor sees Todd as a man while Ben and Cillian do not. (that’s a weird little bit though bc the movie never really explains why the Mayor had such an interest in Todd). but that’s about it in terms of coming-of-age material in the movie. and about murder. seeing as he doesn’t. kill. the. Spackle. let that sink in.

also like. the Noise is shown as a CONCEPT but not as a theme. the THEME of Noise is that, and I quote

“In this world of information overload, the ability to feel, my boy, is a rare gift indeed.”

or perhaps

“Knowing a man’s thoughts ain’t knowing a man.”

or even

“Knowledge is dangerous and men lie and the world changes, whether I want it to or not.”

in this movie, Noise would be described as like. a nuisance at worst and a superpower at best. you can hear most of every man’s thoughts in the movie, though not a constant, never ending stream. just just bits sporadically at either plot-convenient or comedic times. the Mayor (and at one point Ben, and at one point Todd) uses his Noise to construct illusions around people kind of similar to that Jake Gyllenhaal villain in Spiderman: Far From Home. 

but neither of these two main examples really SHOW the themes that Patrick Ness showed us in the books. that Noise is powerfully ANNOYING; that it can quickly break down relationships between groups of people; that it can be manipulated making large lies still possible.

like, remember when in the books, Todd and Viola get to Farbranch and poor Todd is absolutely GOBSMACKED that 1. the women are ALIVE and 2. the men and women are living together?? in harmony?? what the eff?? and you see Hildy in Tam’s Noise and just how much they genuinely love each other and Todd is like “damn we ain’t in Prentisstown anymore Manchee”. and you can just see based on the contrast that Prentisstown people are a whole different breed compared to the kindness of Farbranch?

in the movie Todd has a few moments of inner dialogue where he’s like “oh man that’s a woman. that’s nuts” and then we move on. his world should be turned upside down here and its not. and the difference between the two towns is that they kinda just made it seem like, yeah, Noise is annoying so we have the men sleep separately from the women so we all get a little peace, and it’s fine. that’s how Farbranch deals with it. it all just feels very blasé 

(i can’t remember specifically where this happens, probably either in Farbranch or cutting back to the Prentisstown men getting ready to march, but at some point a leader ends up saying something to a crowd of people and you can see how just one sentence spreads through an entire group of men and how they all start amplifying it and getting more and more panicked and i did think the mob mentality was cool. it reminded me of the beginning of The Ask and the Answer were the Mayor is addressing the citizens of Haven and you get that moment where the whole crowd flinches over the words of one man.)

and in all of this I’ve barely mentioned Viola. my wonderful girl. how they’ve massacred her story. god.

all of Viola’s development for the first half of the book is tanked from the start bc you SEE the crash, you see her stealing food from Ben and Cillian’s house (that’s the inciting incident of the movie), she talks to the Mayor in Prentisstown almost immediately after Todd finds her and his Noise helps everyone locate her, she talks to Todd a lot before getting to Farbranch after they escape Prentissown. the book does a LOT of work for Viola by having her mute and scared for the beginning and slowly showing how she comes to trust Todd. and how even after their incessent bickering in Farbranch they still choose to escape together because they know the army is after them specifically and they’re all the other has. that progression is really important in the book, as well as afterwards when we see how snarky Viola can actually be when speaking, how she thinks this entire planet is BACKWARDS and she can’t wait til her ship comes and shows them a thing or two about how to live.

movie Viola, well. she wants to find a way to communicate with her ship. she’s under the impression that since her scout ship crashed they’re gonna assume she’s dead and leave her behind. even though the Mayor brings up the settlers a lot after he learns about them, Viola curiously never really brings them up in any other context besides they need to come and get her. like it really made it sound like she planned on calling them, having them scoop her, and then they’d all just fucking leave, i guess. i don’t know what her end goal was besides CALLING HER PEOPLE which became the main point of the movie. the Mayor trying to find Todd and Viola so he could....use her to contact the ship?? that was also kind of unclear. and Viola trying to get to a communicator possibly so she could get the hell out of dodge. idk if that was her actual plan, but it was certainly what Todd was thinking, enough to where I was wondering if he was going to sabotage her mission in order to force her to stay (yeah. yeah. he had that energy about him and it was grosss)

and quickly, since all the animals couldn’t talk the way they do in the book, Manchee was more of a cute prop than anything. i could have gotten over it if he was useful in any way, but he never even like attacked a dude to save Todd or anything like that. so when he died it was sad on a dog-level but not a character level, since besides sitting next to Viola like twice while she cried he really added nothing to the story. also the shock of animal death was greatly reduced already since Todd’s horse that he used to escape Prentisstown from got a broken leg after he rode him off a cliff, so Todd used the knife (off-screen, thank god) to put him down. so Manchee getting killed was kind of lessened a little since my man Whiskey got nixed like 40 min earlier in the film.

this is getting long so I’ll cut it here since I’m gonna probably post about this a thousand more times. but yeah. if you watched it completely divorced from the books you would probably think “that was a cool concept but also what was the point of any of that” which is basically what most people thought based on the review headlines i’ve read. and if you are an avid book fan you’re gonna think you’re watching something else entirely.

[theluckyyyoneee]

Guise

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader (ft. Namjoon)

Genre: Angst/Fluff

Word Count: 1.3+ 

part 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 |

SoulmateAU! Where he hides his soulmate tattoo from everyone, especially you.

You released an irritated exhale as you ran a hand through your what you were sure was an unattractive nest of hair as you once again went over a problem you just couldn’t figure out.

“You should try substitution,” Namjoon’s low voice sounded from behind you and nearly sent you flying from your chair as he tried to contain his laughter to a minimum without getting thrown out as he settled into the seat next to you in the otherwise silent library.

Slapping his arm with a bit more force than necessary, you rolled your eyes as he hissed in pain and took his advice silently, mumbling to yourself in excitement as you finally figured out the problem you were stuck on. Namjoon flinched back as you held your hand out for a high five.

“Thank you,” you sang, all smiles while he continued to gaze at you with what looked like a mixture of nervousness and fear, probably due to your drastic switch of attitude in the last short minute. 

He eventually waved you off as he took a long sip of his coffee, handing you your own iced coffee he graciously picked up for you. He tiredly took out his laptop and a few notes and sighed heavily. “I’ve been up trying to finish my thesis and I am almost done, thank the heavens.”

Guiding the plastic straw into your awaiting mouth, you leaned closer to him, not noticing his form stiffening up with your sudden close proximity, to catch a glimpse of what he had written so far. You quickly skimmed the contents and nodded in approval. “It looks really good, you’ll get a hundred for sure.” Smiling widely in thanks of the coffee and in a nonverbal effort to ease his worries. 

“Thanks.” His voice was a bit gruff as he shook himself from whatever daze he was in and dived right into his work. 

At least the library has air conditioning in this wretched heat, you thought to yourself-your confusion only growing further as you spotted Min Yoongi sat a few tables away, a pale grey baggy sweater embracing his slouched figure, sleeves pulled up to his elbows as he scribbled something down in his worn out notebook, earbuds offering him something to bob his head faintly to.

How was he not dying with a goddamn sweater on when it was scorching outside? If he was hot, why didn’t he just take it off?

You didn’t know if he could sense eyes on him, but the next second you were suddenly gazing into his own dark ones, brows furrowed as he sent a glare that sent shivers down your spine, hurriedly tugging the sleeves of his sweater down to his wrists as he went back to his writings and ignoring your existence. 

It wasn’t as if you and Yoongi were enemies... but you weren’t friends, either. You two weren’t really anything. 

Sure, you would see each other in the halls and maybe in the cafeteria and the library, taking this instance in account, but you two have never spoken a word to each other unless it was absolutely necessary for a project or awkward hangouts outside campus grounds. 

The first time you two had officially met still rang clear in your head, embedded in your memory. Your classes were done for the day and Namjoon had bugged you to drop off his notebook that you borrowed from him before you went home. You hadn’t really wanted to, but understood that he needed them and trudged all the way to the other side of campus, breathing a sigh of relief as his lanky form came into view. 

He was standing in front of the main building, talking to three other attractive men around your age and you felt a bit shy going over there, but you tried your best to remain nonchalant as you sauntered over and greeted the strangers as you returned the notebook. 

Everyone could have been models, especially the one’s who introduced themselves as Seokjin and Taehyung, but your eyes and heart were strangely drawn to the shorter and silent gentleman closest to you, pleasantly surprised when you found his eyes trained on you that gave you hope that he found you as equally, or even the tiniest bit entrancing. 

Your heart skipped a beat as you took in his dark hair that contrasted well against his pale skin, his strong and sharp gaze silently hinting that he noticed anything and everything, and as intimidating as he was... you also just really wanted to pinch his cheeks. 

He was simply mesmerizing. 

Shyly ducking your head in greeting, you saw as he awkwardly did the same as he introduced himself in that deep and slightly husky voice of his. You smiled and committed his name to memory in your head as you brought your hands up to put your hair into a ponytail. This heat was killing you and walking across this giant campus did not help one bit. 

You saw his eyes flicker from your own to your left, you could feel the heat of his intense gaze on your mark on your left wrist before his previously narrowed eyes turned to the size of quarters as he suddenly crossed his arms in a flurry and made his escape, ignoring the protests and questions of his friends. His abrupt departure somehow made your chest tighten with baffling hurt. 

After that incident, it seemed like he was avoiding you like the plague. You convinced yourself that you were being silly though, you had only met him once and you were thinking way too much into things because you felt this weird connection towards him. 

It was really strange. You wouldn’t dare call it a crush or just simple attraction... you couldn’t explain it. Feeling as though you were drawn to him, how you had the most peculiar urges to get closer to him-both in a relationship and physical way.

Wanting to know the thoughts that were running through his mind while you ran your fingers through his dark strands, pushing aside the ones that dared to cover his expressive gaze. How your stomach would knot when you would see him standing impossibly close to another girl, curling a lock of her hair around one of his fingers, further puzzling and frustrating you. 

Which was definitely not the norm for you. 

Absentmindedly running your fingers over the tattoo on the inside of your wrist, you examined the black blotches that made an abstract image of a music note, lines connecting it to some intricate design around the note that you couldn’t understand with a slight sneer.

This whole soulmate thing was bullshit.

You were supposed to trust some tattoo that you got on your eighteenth birthday to decide who you were supposed to spend the rest of your life with with someone who adorned the exact same tattoo as you? 

That was a bit much for you to depend such a gamble on from something that was just slightly bigger than a mere inch.

“What are you doing?” You were jostled on the shoulder by Namjoon, who observed you worriedly as you struggled to bring yourself out of your inner thoughts and musings. “Are you not going to do your homework?”

Nodding, you replied quietly and sighed deeply as you willed yourself to forget anything and everything that did not concern the formulas in front of you, not catching the careful and calculated glances Min Yoongi sent you, all the while mimicking your earlier actions as he ran his fingers over his identical tattoo in the exact placement on the inside of the wrist over the thin material of his sweater, cursing in annoyance at how and why it had to be you for his soulmate.

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[parkminijiminie]

I actually want Jungkook to see how shitty the fandom is. To see what the TKers say. I know Jimin sees it, but I honestly want JK to see what happens. I know JK doesn't give af what ppl think of him but I wonder what he'll do when he sees what they say about Jimin in regards to him. lol I'm sorry but I actually hate how they love the fandom so much when it treats them and their friendship like shit.

Hey, Anon. 

I know your  ask was in regards to the “Jimin not being GCF main model” situation and the storm it brought with it, so I’m sorry for being late.

I think you got your wish a few days later when Jimin forgot to write Tae’s name and all hell broke loose. Hate tweets, hate hashtags, death threats.. you name it, Jimin got it all. Mostly from solo Tae stans but sadly from OT6 “ARMY’s” too, many of who t/k shippers. A quick disclaimer here: I know many many many Tae and t/k stans are respectful and love Jimin and would never harm Jimin but let’s be honest - all ships have some nasty bad apples and in this particular case we really got to see exactly how nasty some of the t/k and Tae biased ones can get. 

I politely disagree with you, Anon. I never ever want Jungkook or anyone from BTS to see hateful messages, especially because of something as dumb as ships (don’t attack me, I’m a shipper/supporter too). With Kookie and Jimin I’m even more sensitive considering the amount of insults that these two had gotten through the years from “ARMYs”. When I said that JK might have had a little too much faith in the fandom saying that “not main model” thing, I didn’t mean that he is naive or oblivious but that maybe he thought he had already made it perfectly clear how special JM is to him and believed people woudn’t actually turn this into another “I don’t like Jimin” charade. Unfortunately he was wrong.

Nevertheless, Jungkook is (hasn’t been for a time now) blind to the way twitter can be. In fact, I would say he is the one who has suffered the most from it (well, with the recent hate for Jimin they might be tied now). Maybe some of you don’t know but it is not without a reason that JK left twitter and now posts only once in a blue moon if it’s a major event and even then it’s not a given. For those of you who don’t know, we may say Jungkook was basically scared off Twitter with the way how ARMYs acted towards him. Let me give you some infro on one (of at least two) particularly gruesome instance: the hell that happened after BTS “Rainism” special stage.  Bangtan bomb behind the scenes here. Jimin’s tweet about it here.  

Kookie was very excited that he got the chance to be center the entire perfomance and he did a tremendous job, yet lets just say what he received from the fandom was far from nice. People started calling him “selfish”, “arrogant”, they tweeted how he should leave the band, OT6 tweets were everywhere. There were mean hashtags trending how BTS will be better without JK.. a complete mess. And all because he was happy to be at the spotlight the entire time once.Just once. How would this people support him in his solo projects if this was their reaction to one performance. It’s no suprise he left twitter after that and was radio silent for half an year. He rightfully decided he didn’t need that type of negativity in his life and I can’t say I don’t understand him. Everyone should be thankful to Jimin for feeding us pictures and videos of him otherwise we would have died from starvation. 

So you see, Anon, he is far from oblivious to the hate.

When it comes to ships and ship wars it’s a little different:

Do the members know about ships? Absolutely. Most likely from the get go. This is common in kpop and it’s something that is used and promoted to gain popularity so of course they know. Also, they see comments saying “Jikook” or “T*ekook” everywhere - in the youtube comments, under their tweets, in the vlive comments, so they know. In fact how could they not know when people keep bringing ships up to them at fansigns for example? 

Do they know about the ship wars? Yes for all, maybe to a different extent. At the very least when they scroll through the comments under vlives they see people saying “Where’s ta*kook”, “I don’t like Jikook”, “Bring t**kook” and etc. Such comments Jimin and Jungkook for sure saw in their last vlive together when they were scrolling though them at the beginning of the video. We can safely conclude that they know there’s separation in the fandom between the the main Min and Kook ships (you know which ones). 

To what extent do they know? Debatable. We know Jimin monitors twitter and fan cafe a lot, he has said so himself. He must have seen the many many comments there about the ships even if a lot of them are in English. Jimin has also notoriously shut people up a few times when it comes to ships with his tweets so he must know. 

Does JK monitor twitter? Probably yes to a lot smaller extent. Even if not, we can guess he knows from Jimin with which he is very close and apparently has no secrets from. Also, I assume he read at least people’s reactions to GCFo which sparked some shipping controversery on it’s own. 

Do they care about ship wars?  I would guess they care more about the state of the fandom than the hype every little thing gets but I believe from time to time they care if people are being particularly mean (as with the recent Jimin hate). 

Do they act in certain ways because of ships? Well, they as well as the company know we like certain pairing more than others which influences photoshoots arrangements and such. Also fan service is still a thing even though BTS fan service is largely very genuine. If needs be (like at musters) they amp up the skinship but they care a lot about each othe rand are very close so nothing is “fake” just amplified. 

What I mean with this long ass answer is that the boys know probably about everything - the ships, the reactions to them, the hate. They know. Even if they didn’t know about the “problematic side”, after the recent Jimin and Jin hate incident they must know for sure now. So there’s no need to wish for JK to see the hate as he is probably well aware of it currently. Once upon a time, when he was younger, he genuinely didn’t know people thought he hated Jimin, hence why he was so offended when asked if he really liked him. After that I believe he made sure to inform himself what that “hate JM” issue is and haven’t been that oblivious ever since.

There’s also no wondering how Jungkook will react to the hate towards Jimin. JK can’t stand seeing any of his hyungs getting hurt, let alone Jimin, let alone because of himself. He is always silent when people are teasing his “Jimin-ssi”, he’s the first to defend him even from his own bandmates, he made a whole ass video about him to the song “There for you”. It’s no news: Kookie would be pretty distraught to see Jimin’s name through the mud especially because of something he did. He would probably feel very bad and guilty.

I really don’t want that. In fact I don’t get why anyone would want that. Is it because you’re wondering about JK’s reaction? Becase there’s no need, we can safely guess he would be very unhappy. If you kind of want him to see the hate as a sort of “punishment” for his wrongdoing (I doubt that’s the case) then I think that’s going overboard as there’s no need for a “punishment” to begin with. JK didn’t do anything wrong. Even if he seriously meant it that Jimin’s not the main model, it’s his right and it’s not that big of a deal. No-one even claimed that Jimin should be the main one in the first place, I for one would understand and find it completely normal if Jungkook’s work doesn’t include Jimin every time. So, basically JK did nothing  to be punished for. Sure, if he was teasing maybe he could have worded himself better and Jimin didn’t seem very happy but it’s not like Jungkook can monitor every single little thing he says or does all the time.

It’s not his fault that the fandom can take even the littlest things and turn them into a sh*t storm nor is it his responsibiltiy to always predict and prevent everything. 

Even if we assume JK did or potentially one day does something downright unjistice or hurtful to Jimin, it is still not our place to meddle or want him punished. By now they for sure know how to settle conflicts so even if JK hurts Jimin’s feeling (or vice versa) it is between them to deal with it in whatever way they find fitting. We are merely observers, we don’t have the right to dictate their behaviour. 

Which leads me to my last point: if perhaps you wished JK to see the hate in order for him to change his behaviour, I find that a little problematic. Firstly, because as I said he didn’t do anything wrong and basically never does anything to hurt Jimin in pulic let alone intentionally. Secondly, because it is not our place to wish how they should be towards each other. We get what we can, we don’t make demands. Third and most important: I don’t want Jungkook to think he can’t be himself because of what people might say. Sure, he should be respectful but that he already is. Once upon a time he was confused people thought he hated Jimin and since then he made sure to change how he acted in front of the cameras: he no longer pushes Jimin away or puts him in last place in looks. Jungkook did his homework and corrected himself, even though even back than anyone with eyes could see he cared a lot for his hyung. Now he is so gentle and thoughtful. One can say he even tries to prevent problems by always choosing Jimin for everything when he has the chance, always staying near his side, sitting next to him. He is careful both in words and actions and I believe he is that away not just in front of the cameras but privately as well. 

He doesn’t need “corrections” because the problem is not with him. It’s with the fandom.

I’d hate for him to think he can’t tease Jimin (or his other hyungs), be honest about something with us or have interactions/take pictures/hug/laugh with Tae (or another member) because of what people might say. Having to monitor every single little thing JK (or any of the other members) does or says takes away from the relationship the group has with the fans. It also puts extra stress on them to be careful, further disconnects them from ARMY and contributes to them feeling like wearing a mask. 

I don’t want Jungkook or Jimin or any of Bangtan to have to feel the neccesity to change how they act and how they present themselves in front of us, especially because of hateful comments and toxic shipping. They are already concerned with their image enough as it is, they don’t need to worry about it any more. It’s us that should change. The fandom should stop overreacting over every little thing, shippers should stop hating on a member because he “comes between their ship”, people should stop being hateful and mean to the members in general. 

It’s the people who write rude and hurtful comments that should feel bad and not Jungkook reading them because he is plenty considerate, nice and genuine as it is. 

[localocksmithnearme]

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Frustratingly beautiful

Officially back from NY and into work. My trip to NY was an escape into a bustling world. It felt different from my other travels because I went there with the intention of imagining my life living there. I had gone there with my friends in 2014, but as a tourist and we hit up the main attractions. This time, I stayed with Matt in Brooklyn and we did more lowkey nontouristy things. 

The evening of my flight, I talked to Matt on the phone during my drive to downtown to pick up my friend S for hot pot in Alhambra. When I reached downtown (5-10 min before I was supposed to meet my friend), he snapped at me because he felt annoyed at me for answering a question with a question, one of the things I do that he says annoys him. I got pissed off by this because we were on the topic of his personal statement, which I spent hours helping him rewrite and edit and thought, this outburst just cancels out any appreciation you had for my helping you. He apologized but I still wasn’t very happy with him that night. I was “exhausted” by excitement prior to that and couldn’t wait to see him. This incident calmed me down in a way. I thought about what I wanted to discuss with him regarding this argument once I saw him and was still slightly mad by the time I landed.

I took a red eye flight- left LA at 11:25 and arrived at 7:55am. The plane was really cold and uncomfortable, so I only got to sleep maybe 2-3 hours. Once my plane landed, he called me and just stayed on the line with me til I met him at the howard beach station. This required me to take the airtrain out of the airport and meet him at the end/start of the subway station. As I got out of the airtrain, we hung up, and I started getting shy/nervous about seeing him again. I walked over to the subway station where we had to buy tickets to exit. He gave me a metrocard with money loaded in it (from the other side of the turnstile), but we were both kinda awestruck and were idiotic, being that we couldn’t figure out to get the card to work. Turns out I needed $7.50 instead of $5.00 so he went to load more money. But once we did do that, we couldn’t figure out why it still wasn’t letting me through. We just needed to flip the card around. It was funny being so close yet so separated from him at the same time for a few minutes lol. I couldn’t look at him because I was shy, and once I went through, I gave him a side hug lol.

We held hands again and it was kinda a weird feeling. We then walked down to the subway station and he asked for a peck. I gave him a half peck out of shyness. Then I started warming up to him again and gave him a real hug as we were waiting for the train. Once we got on, he motioned for another peck, and I gave him a real one this time- he was like bursting from happiness lol. We were slowly warming up to each other again. When we got back to his place, I went to go use the restroom and he laid in bed waiting for me. We started snuggling and cuddling, and then it led to sex. I thought that it would feel much better given that we hadn’t done it in months, but I think our sex is better when we “train” and do it consistently because we lose our skills without practice lol. It was more like “ahh, so this is what it feels like again” to me. We both napped for like an hour or two before heading out to Manhattan. Our day went like Dian Noodle (his hometown food) -> Chinatown (coincidentally there was also an Italian festival) -> hui tea/boba -> central park for rowboating -> hatsuhana sushi -> murray’s cheese shop -> wine shop -> home.

I could tell he became a more serious/burnt out/tired person after starting residency. He was less energetic, and was exhausted from our day of exploring, which he never was when we traveled together in the past. It was always him pushing me to do more and to stay out longer. I planned our NY trip and chose all the restaurants/food/drinks spots (minus one or two). It was rewarding to bring him to dian noodle and eat his hometown food with him. The last time he sat down and ate in a restaurant was 1.5 months prior when his family visited. Otherwise, it had been uber eats/chipotle/grocery market food all day every day. The food we ate at Dian fit his palette exactly and he really enjoyed it. When we got to central park for rowboating, there was a line. He was a little reluctant to go and was for some reason, dreading rowing (I think because he feels tired and doesn’t want to do more work). However, I said to stick it out. We ended up having a lot of fun. HE ended up having a lot of fun rowing although he initially didn’t want to. The cheese shop was great, but we accidentally got sparkling wine instead of regular. We had planned to watch the farewell, but couldn’t find it streaming online, so we watched terrace house. Although it’s not a show he’d normally watch himself, he got pretty into it.

Sunday, I felt much better after having a good night’s rest. Our day was Brooklyn bagels -> minksoff theater for lion king -> matcha -> Italian food for dinner -> hot chocolate -> home. Bagels were interesting- we were expecting the classic lox and bagels, but we got something with avocado instead lol. Lion king was good, but more fitting for children/family I thought. Some parts were slow and the acting wasn’t great- it was just the music and props that stood out. The jokes were also kinda childish. They did a good job at incorporating African heritage into the show, though. Matcha was a relaxing experience although my spot in little Tokyo still wins. While killing time before our reservation, we sat at a park and he called his mom about something. The conversation turned into a 30 min heated back and forth. Italian was probably the best meal we’ve had. We were both quite blown away. Hot chocolate was alright, but ambiance and presentation were nice. They also had a yelp check in for BOGO so I got two hot chocolates for only $6.

By the end of sunday, i felt like he was returning to the old relaxed and fun matt. he was feeding off of my energy. i tend to find funny moments throughout the day to laugh at and dramatize it to make it funnier. one time, he realized right before the subway doors were about to close that we were supposed to get off at that stop. so he ran for the door and pushed a guy with a backpack standing near the exit to the side. i started cracking up because the guy wasn’t even blocking our pathway. i laughed to the point of peeing my pants and kept teasing him about it. 

Monday, he had to go into work for 5-6 hours. After dropping him off at work, I took the opportunity to go to flushing, queens for the first time. It was my way to test my independence and travel by myself. I think it was the first time I explored on my own in an unfamiliar place since Taiwan in 2014. The ride to queens was about an hour, and I had to walk another 25 min to get to this xiaolongbao place I wanted to go to. i was literally eating by myself, as I was the only one in the restaurant for a good 70% of my meal. I had the entire waitstaff catering to me LOL. I ordered crab xiaolongbao and a hot soy milk, which were both bomb. I felt really full afterwards. I also took my time eating because I didn’t really have anywhere to go, and also overstayed my welcome by taking a crap after eating in their restroom lol (had to take advantage of the restroom). I then walked over to a closeby park ~ 15 min away. The park was really quiet. I feel like in LA, if you are in a quiet area you feel obligated to acknowledge or say hi to people you come across (like during hiking). But in NYC, people just exist amongst each other because it’s so commonplace to be around strangers from all walks of life that you become desensitized to it.

I felt more confident that I could be by myself after my trip to queens. Even in LA, I feel like I’ve become a pretty dependent person. I need someone to accompany me to the places I choose to go. Even something as simple as returning something to the mall, I’ll try to make it a hangout with friends or family. 

I met him later that day in Chinatown for hot pot. It was funny to have a text exchange of “let me know when you exit the subway” vs “let me know your ETA” as we used to in LA. He gave me a hug when he saw me and wanted a peck as we sat down at our table. So it was cute that we got to semi experience the whole, seeing your SO after coming home from work type of thing. The hot pot was pretty bad, coming from a spoiled LA native. At least he enjoyed the AYCE portion. We ended up watching the farewell at a nearby theater. I liked that we got to view it in NY because the protagonist also lives in NYC. Their family dynamic was pretty similar to Matt’s and I had fun drawing comparisons. He ended up shedding a tear at the end.

We went to a rice pudding shop after, which had many reviews on yelp but it was just a place (we felt) capitalizing on ethnic dessert lol. Here, he got an email offering him an interview for a categorical position in palm desert. Once you are offered an interview, you must schedule it immediately in case someone else claims a spot and you become waitlisted. He had four options, all were on a Monday. After 20-30 min of deciding which one he wanted, one spot was already claimed. He chose 12/8. He’ll be home for “2 days”. I was happy for him but also became kinda selfish because he started becoming selfish lol.

Once he got this notification, he became spacey and he was just thinking of all he had to do, schedule wise, how to coordinate time off etc. We had planned on going to trader joes after to pick up tea for me, but he led us in the wrong direction. After we realized we walked 15 min the wrong way, he said wanna just go home? It seems like it should have been an insignificant moment, but I think in that moment my resentment surfaced. Yet again, his needs are more important than mine, and his career will always come first. In my mind, I asked for one thing. I told him I wanted to go to TJ to get tea and go home, but he suggested we go to a dessert shop first. Then at the end, we didn’t even accomplish what I wanted in the first place. As one person commented online, being a partner to a resident means you are third priority. Career = first priority, resident himself = second priority, you = third priority. After me throwing a tantrum, we stopped by a different TJ on our way back home and got my tea lol. We were both babies that night.

I didn’t feel well emotionally or physically that night, and had diarrhea. As we were lying in bed on our last night together, I ended up crying out my frustrations to him. I am supposed to get my period in 6 days, so I wondered if it was PMS talking, but he said I sounded rational and just kept apologizing. The next morning, we talked more in bed. I think this is the life I’d have to accept as a resident’s partner. If he could barely tend to his own needs, why would I expect him to tend to mine? 

Our goodbye wasn’t emotional, as I was still frustrated with him and I know I would see him again in a few weeks. I went by myself to the airport and made it exactly on time as my plane was boarding. My parents picked me up at union station- I felt like a little girl again at home. Last night, I toyed with the idea of living in NYC and pushing myself to do what I’ve always wanted- live in a new city. Why am I holding myself back? Once I make friends in NYC, I’m sure it will be a lot of fun. LA wins in weather (maybe) and certain cuisines, but NYC is wild and the place to be at when you’re young. If I had the option to choose whether matt comes back to the westside or stays in NYC, I think I’d prefer him to stay in NYC after this trip. Then it’d give me a reason to go/move there.

[carlosbriganti74]

BIGFOOT lives, no honest it really does - and here's 10 reasons why

Deciding whether or not to put this feature together was a tough one. Its something which I've had to keep on the low, bar telling a few friends that is. Those who I can just about handle laughing at me for making such a wild claim. But its after 5 months or so of much on-line research (or rather listening to Bigfoot sightings on Youtube podcasts while on smoke breaks at work) that my whole thinking and out look on the world, man and life itself has been turned upside down, big style! Leaving me with no other option but to share my findings and either turn your world upside down too or at least give you and your friends and good laugh, like my mine did. So here it is - Bigfoot really does exist, and the United States Government do not want you at all to know anything about this, never mind talk about it. Below are even more reasons why its time to maybe start believing in the existence of what we know as Bigfoot.

1) Bigfoot History

First of all... what exactly is Bigfoot? The missing link, sub-human or pro-typical primitive primate, who knows?. A popular theory though is that BF is in fact 'Gigantopithecus' . An extinct genus of ape that existed from perhaps nine million years to as recently as one hundred thousand years ago in what is now China, India and Vietnam. Many Scientists claim these human-ape like creatures originated in the Caucasus Mountains/Central Asia, which would explain their easy accessibility to the new world and surviving the Ice-Age by crossing  over the land bridge.

But it was actually the legendary Nordic viking Leif Ericson who wrote down the first recorded sighting of Bigfoot. In which the feared viking chief, who was the first to land in N,America in 986 AD came across Sasquatch and described them as "horribly ugly, hairy, swarthy and with great black eyes". Adding that they were also "loud, foul smelling and towered over his men" scaring the vikings away from their discovery of then new world.

Aside from the rather comical 'Finding Bigfoot' series shown today on US TV where so called 'experts' go 'Squatchin'. Which if anything mocks the whole research around Sasquatch with its daft attempts to lure them out in the open in front of a TV camera crew as they paint the creature as the gentle giant of the forest, which it definitely is not. Sasquatch history in the US in fact goes back many centuries with the native American Indian culture being the most familiar with the being. With their history recording many gruesome tales of their battle to live alongside Sasquatch (the very name Sasquatch comes from native American culture also), even today Indian reservations are sighted still as major BF hotspots. More than that there's a list of old time Bigfoot sightings and incidents which can still be found written up in old United States newspapers, some going back as far as 150 to 200 years ago. But aside from this the research going into finding Bigfoot today is now bigger than ever. Our ability to share information, and more importantly the sightings and experiences of hundreds of every day Americans has very much sparked what is with out doubt the biggest search ever staged in the US to find Sasquatch.

2) Bigfoot Sightings through the Ages

Many sightings come from those who obvisouly spend much time in the woods. Deer hunters probably spend more time in the woods than anybody, so it's no wonder that every year reports of Bigfoot sightings come from hunters as well as hikers and campers. Also in the southern states many sightings have come from the weed growers, who understandedly prefer to keep their experinces to themselves so not to bring attention to why they were in the forests in the first place. But with multitudes of sightings, almost weekly with many sightings give the same defining descriptions as each other. With a foul smelling odour in the forests, howling noises never heard before and the feeling of losing all sense power over themselves. going weak at the knees, unable to speak never mind the ability to run away.

The effects on people who have come across Bigfoot have ranged from people losing control of their bodily fluids to all out panic, some have gone on to go to pieces like one chap from Canada who ended up losing his wife, kids and job, hitting the bottle then sadly committing suicide, though many also go on to become researchers themselves with Bigfoot taking over their whole life's. In terms of the area's BF lives in its now believed that migration roots from Canada down both sides of the US coasts are the main stomping grounds of BF with most sightings happening around the summer months. With the more aggressive Bigfoot species in and around Texas and Louisiana where they have been known many times to of attacked, even kill people who live in the main hotspots of the state. Sasquatch, also known to the people of Texas as 'Buggers' are said to be quite aware of the 'man of the woods' which is believed that if you leave them alone they will you alone. But they're also known to keep it to themselves rarely sharing their experiences with 'outsiders'. An understanding which has stayed the same within southern state folklore since the first pioneers set foot in there around the late 1600's.

3) Video Evidence

Yep, there's a stack of phony so called live videos of Bigfoot out there and most of us have seen them. Many of them nothing more than a joke with some guy in a hairy costume leaving what could be just a handful of films as the read thing, but if one video is in fact the real deal then surely it must exist? So make your own mind up and watch the video below showing some of the more popular and trusted Sasquatch sightings out there today. Including such sightings as the 'Harley Hoffman' and the 'Marble Mountian' video and the 'Minnesota Red', shot in 2011.

Though while there's plenty of video sightings out there on line today there's also meant to be many more video sightings which have never been seen by the public. Some reportedly clear as bell, full of detail showing what looks to be the real thing owned by researchers all around the US. But researchers themselves have become so cautious over releasing video evidence of Sasquatch down the years due to the hassle which has gone hand in hand with releasing such videos.

TOP 28 Bigfoot videos

https://youtu.be/ld7y3R7BW-4

But still classed as the most compelling BF video evidence ever filmed is with out doubt the famous 'Patterson/Gimlin' film of 1967, shot at Bluff Creek/C.A (known as 'Patty' due to the beings visible pair of breasts). A film which has been proven time and time again to be the real by a wide range of experts who claim its walk, bone and muscle structure as well as its length of arms and legs are much different to those of a human being. Making them the main deciding factors why Patty is believed to be the real deal. Its a video today which is still being very much worked on as well talked about, in fact more than ever as the net has given the people their own chance to brake the video down, edit it, blow it up and really study it by coming up with new and clever pieces of evidence all the time. Supporting the fact that the Patterson/Gimlin film is in fact genuine and by far still the most referred to Sasquatch footage ever filmed. While there's plenty of video sightings out there on line today there's also meant to be many more video sightings which have never been seen by the public. Some reportedly clear as bell, full of detail and showing what looks to be totally real thing owned by researchers all around the US. But researchers themselves have become so what cautious over releasing video evidence of Sasquatch down the years due to the hassle which has gone with releasing such videos, resulting in them yet to be released for the world to see. But its until an actual body/specimen is found, or unfortunately killed that the question of 'is it real' stays unanswered.

Patterson/Gimlin film

https://youtu.be/Us6jo8bl2lk

4) Sound

  Apparently many people who have come into contact with Sasquatch become the victims of the creatures massively powerful screams, whaling's, calls and overall presence. Enough to actually vibrate your guts, literally. Which is put down to the fact some people lose the power to flee leaving some of them stationary and totally overwhelmed. Listen to the high quality recorded sounds of Sasquatch on the video above 'top 28 Bigfoot video's' @20:10 mins, Some of those calls are unlike anything you've ever heard before...a sound you'd expect from some sort of 10ft human/primate perhaps. A researcher called Ron Morehaed amazingly caught on tape the sounds of both a supposed male and female Sasquatch actually communicating to each other, apparently arguing with each other. Which is described a 'samuri talk' by researchers it almost sounds like two Russians speaking but speeded up, or something similar. Sent to a speech language expert and found to be natural sounds, in other words not man made or technically created leaving these recordings part of some of the most interesting finds ever made of Bigfoot.

5) Physical Evidence

Rick Dyer's Bigfoot Hoax - Toy Maker Makes Fake Bigfoot Body

With no actual complete speciman ever found the Bigfoot physical evidence is manily made up of footcasts, casts which run into 100's taken from almost every state. Though again not all peices of evidence can be taken as genuine but even if one foot cast is real it would  obviosuly mean Sasquatch really does live. One famous cast, the 'Skookum' cast was said to be off a Sasquatch lying down on a mud bank reaching over to grab some fruit which was left out by researchers. For some time it was held up as one of the finest casts ever taken until it was strongly believed to be fake. Just another example of how far people will go to produce BF evidence. Though no actual bones of Sasquatch have ever been found you've only to ask a hunter who has spent most of the their lives in the woods if they have ever found a bears bones, which is 99% of the time 'no'. Reports also believe that Bigfoot actually take away and bury their dead, something which people who have professed to have shot and killed Bigfoot before have testiefied to. Other evidence includes hair samples which has meant to of been found some years ago in which hi-tech labs could not name the bones actual DNA, though mimicking human and primate DNA looks like nothing thats ever been tested before.

6) US Government

Homeland Security is on the case, and they're not messing around. With many reports, and complaints by US citizens who have made sightings and have then gone on to receive visits from the 'Men in Black'. Who its been claimed that they've even threatened sight seers and reporters of Sasquatch, being repeatedly told in these home visits that 'you didn't see a Bigfoot'. Those who have gone on to make more noise over their sightings have even been either mocked or sternly warned by authorities, some have even gone on to lose their jobs. Though it hasn't stopped some who have given their claims and experiences undercover. Including sightings by FBI officers, soldiers and even state officials who have felt compelled to let their story be known, much to the displeasure of the US authorities. As well as Homeland Security making home calls to people who have dared talk of their experiences, many Bigfoot researchers have also been known to have been not only pulled over but harassed by government officials/federal agents. Being ordered out of national parks and forests with some researchers even arrested and later banned from entering BF hotspots. So why all the fuss? the US Government know whats going on and for some reason are happy to contain it while troubling law abiding visitors to US forests. So if the US government are busy trying to shut BF research down you know somethings got to be going on.

As well as the government interest there's also the issue of the media, who rarely show anything BF on the news despite that is when they are openly mocking the subject as just a farce. So very much like the Kennedy assassination was ignored by the press only for the 'people' to take it on. Its the same story with Sasquatch as its the American people, not the authorities who have researched this subject ever since the Patterson/Gimlin film of the late 60's. And they carry on to do so even more in this age of the Internet where they've collectively made massive steps in the search for Bigfoot within the last 5years.

7) Missing People of the Woods

A very worrying issue indeed, Over 4000 mpeople have disapeared in the last decade in US National Parks and the US Government still refuse to release any information on it at all. Dr David Paulides paints probably the most worrying factor about Sasquatch/Bigfoot which we're aware of today, yet thanks to the US authorities keeping a tight lid of anything Sasquatch related if you haven't done your home work on it you'll of never of heard of the high numbers of missing people who travelling through the US national parks only to disappear into thin air, or so it seems anyway Listen to this talk by Paulides on the work he's done on trying to get to the bottom of one of the US's biggest outdoor mysterys of today.

8) Washington State acknowledges Sasquatch -

In 1975, the US Army Corps of Engineers actually included, and more importantly acknowledged Sasquatch as a unknown species in Washington state. One of Bigfoot's most renowned spots in the U.S.A which has accounted for many latter day sightings of the creature (check the sightings map above). Written up in the 'Washington Environmental Atlas' it made it actually illegal to shoot or kill a Bigfoot as a unknown/unrecognised species. But this acknowledgement infuriated the FBI and refuted their 'verification' of existence, backing-down the Army Environmental Atlas Editor on making such a claim the following year in 1976.

9) Bigfoot murder

Without doubt the most scary and gruesome thing about the whole Bigfoot question are the multiple accounts, stories and official reports of Sasquatch killing visitors to the national parks and forests of the US, its almost like a real life account of your average gory horror flick where the hunter, trekker or .... gets taken off their feet and ripped apart. But this time its all meant to be true, really happening

The reason why the Government are not so much acknowledge Bigfoot/Sasquatch very...1 is that they are actually involved in the breeding of the being, for what?, who know, another is that old issue of money...the effect on the timber industry if Sasquatch was actually confirmed as a living being in the national parks, Federal land and private land of America would mean a mass loss to the US economy due to the most probable outcome of declaring these lands as 'untouchable' and to be left to the Sasquatch to live in. This has been worked out to have an 4% drop in the US economy, mainly hitting the timber trade and the other industries which work alongside it

US wont release records.....David Paulides reports on missing ppl...over 4,000 people have disappeared in US National Parks in last decade. They simply vanished, no trace, no tracks, nothing. Though there have been some that have been found. These are confirmed reports which state some missing people have been found, mostly stuck up in trees...and it gets a lot worse. There are also matching claims that people have been found with their heads twisted all the way round. Yep, sounds like a standard horror flick doesn't it and I for one at the beginning of discovering all of this info was not having one bit. But again these are claims/reports which have been repeated too many times by too many people to be written off as lies.

David Paulides - Missing 411 & Bigfoot DNA

https://youtu.be/CeT2FG88PIM

10) Witness Accounts/Experiences

Something which we can all listen to, think over and come to our own conclusions whether to believe in the hundreds, now probably thousands of accounts and sightings which are made by the average American and are now all over the net, or not. For me personally its these accounts on the podcasts which has turned me on to the whole notion of Bigfoot and its existence...these people sound just too true, sounding either shook up, over-whelmed or just plain mystified for all of them to be making it up. A favourite and trusted source of sightings, information and theories is the 'Sasquatch Chronicles.com' with hosts Woody, Wes and Will, or there's the 'Bigfoot Hotspot Radio' also on Youtube with a quality BF podcast show. Check them out and listen for yourself, because right now there is just too much activity going on whether it be from the US government, activity being caught on tape (now we all have a camera on our phones), the people talking about their own experiences as well as the scientific progress being made with actual unidentified DNA being discovered and strongly believed as belonging to Sasquatch  -

listen to the sighting below which features a delivery driver who accidentally nearly ended up as Bigfoot's supper, obviously still very shaken from his experience its hard not to believe this poor guys account. At the end of the day Sasquatch is either the greatest con of the era of in fact really happening right now, as we speak - you decide...?

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