#the thign ever

[venomgaia]

if you know, you know

[dakotac0le]

god the thing is. even if i dont even care abt 'going nonverbal' , even if i find the discussion about it nonproductive and annoying , even if i think it takes up WAY to much space in nonverbal nonspeaking communities , and is just stupid whatever terminology discourse. it literally doesnt matter. "nonverbal" as a word has been taken and twisted so much by speaking people that it literally doesnt matter if im exhausted by stupid terminology debates . cause the impact of it is always there ! ! ! !! i cant talk about my experiences without 700 speaking people taking my thoughts and words and making it about them. i cant use the label nonverbal without the disclaimer that i mean !! ALWAYS ! FULLY !! and its frustrating because there ARE similarities between speech loss and being nonverbal, there ARE similarities between being semiverbal and nonverbal and etc etc. and i WANT to be able to celebrate the commonalities and solidarity and everything !! but its so frustrating trying to talk about very specific parts of my identity !! who i am !! my life !! and always having to over explain and justify and im just very tired of online disabled spaces its so disheartening and frustrating

[ganondoodle]

i am being so brave trying so hard to hold back writing a rant about that 'minimizing narrative noise' comment on totk sage concept art bc its actively flying around in my head like the worlds most annoying fly

[thelaurenshippen]

Just wanted to say thank you for writing Chloe the way you did. I have adhd and I have been able to relate to her in a way that I never thought I could any character. Her talking about how her mind feels like its going to explode, how she's constantly blurting out things because they just keep coming, and she's struggling with her studies - it all felt too close to home. Her explanation of people having shortcuts in their thoughts helped me make sense of the hoops my mind jumps through in a matter of seconds before I had a diagnosis and knew what it all meant. I'm glad she found a safe place and people she's comfortable to be herself with. "At least I have my mom, and dr bright, and Frank, who's too focused on getting better to notice that I'm a little weird" will always be my favourite line

thank you so much for this message!!! I'm so glad that her story resonates with you and it means so much to me that her character helped you make sense of a part of your own mind!!!

[skopostheorie]

Oh yeah everyone look at the Palestine mug some little kids were selling them at the Eid prayer for like $4 to send to Gaza. #doYourPart

[xxplastic-cubexx]

DID YOU SEE THAT TARGET IS GONNA START SELLING COMBAT SUIT CHARLES FIGURES SOMETIME NEXT YEAR?????? HE LOOKS SO GOOD

https://marvelousnews.com/252-36312

a little birdy DID tell me and i cannot wait to stare at it for half an hour in the aisle when i should be getting cereal.......

[microwave-core]

I think every game should end with a fist fight like P5R

[sweet-potato-42]

I sometimes cant tell if streamer is joking or not and trying to build up the tubbo lore as a relatively new viewer is quite difficult

[eurrdyce]

bc why is it just muscle memory at this point

[alienglowgarden]

A Shepard In My Garden, theoretically wouldve gone something like this:

Chapter 1: Earthworm

Chapter 2: Sugarbug

Chapter 3: When The Garden Was Young

A chapter that pulls the focus away from Sol and the current happening in Year 19. Jokey Working Title "The secret lives of plot devices". It would start with the very first moment of Sym's existence. It would follow the path of his incredibly long life, as he would eventually grow into a fully sapient, self-aware person. Cus I wanted to make him a bit less Edward Cullen and a bit more toaster hooked up to Alexa and given a touch-screen all of a sudden. Yknow, like a Zima Blue type scenario, but with an organic machine. So first off, the moment of his 'awakening' as an individual wouldnt even be 20,000 years ago. But it would still be some undisclosed incomprehensible number of lifetimes before the canon story. He would start out as simple things, growing accustomed to a singular sensation, to the exhilarating power of decision-making, even when that decision is "turn left". He would accumulate senses, understanding of the world and of himself, following our theories of what consciousness is, growing into a full fledged one. Ultimately remarking with terrible wonder, how grateful he is to have eyes to see, when the first ship crashes down on his home. But before the colonists, extrapolating on some of the game text, he wouldn't have even had language, a need to communicate in the same way human being do. So, language, is a first. Having a need to express himself is a first. To desire things above simple animal wants, because it is language that elevates our thoughts, it is our ability to communicate with the world and each other, to share complex ideas that make the world itself more complex in turn. And sometime before that, he would have learned the future vision as an attempt to justify his continued existence as an individual. Because even in Sol's time, there is a mere handful of gardeners like him.

Chapter 4: Structural Integrity

Would have been various scenes portraying Sol and Dys' relationship as it culminates in him blowing up Engineering after finding out about the plague being cooked up, and ultimately getting to become a Gardener like he'd always wished. Starts w them as kids, unlikely duo that loves to do reckless things and go out exploring. In their teens Sol starts to notice the inevitable clashes between their personalities. The jealousy, the careless acts that culminate in fights, their philosophies eventually drifting apart as Sol is unable to make Dys believe in the colony prospering. As relationships between their peers start to change and develop, Sol starts to more consciously recognize themself as an outside element. They see all these people who fit together perfectly, as if they were made for each other, and they see the exact path to take to ensure that spot for themself. But they know they are only taking away somebody else's rightful place. Their future vision starts to alienate them, intensifies their sense of feeling responsible for the colony. What makes is worse is Dys. For the simple fact that he loves Sym. And Sol knows exactly how to take that away from him. And they find it very, very difficult to resist. They feel guilty for it, and for the special sense they share with Sym over Dys, how they have greater things to discuss that seldom include Dys, but which must be done anyhow. When Sym dies, Sol has a biit of a meltdown abt it and kinda goes through those two months being unable to tell which reality theyre in and if Dys is dead or not. A few memories are recalled. The most relevant is the day they snuck a pair of bikes out of the colony and trekked all the way out to ocean. To see open waters for the very first time. There is the lapping of the waves, unlike anything they've experienced. The sand teeming with life and out in the waters, they spot what at first they think must be structures. Wading in, seemingly endlessly still trapped in the shallows, they take a closer look and find them to instead be enormous coral growths, eerily reminiscent of crashed ships.

Chapter 5: I'll Be The Shovel, I'll Be The Stone, I'll Be The Grave, I'll Be The Soil...

So here's the deal they're willing to cut: They will offer Noctilucent a feat the Gardeners have been unable to accomplish in all their 20,000 years. Humans, unlike them, utilize metals, hardware instead of wetware, tools instead of bioengineering. They can crack through the obsidian fields and make the wresting ridges habitable again. Sol thinks they may be able to do it in as little as 20 years. Unfortunately somewhere in the middle of everything, Sol is forced to undergo the surgery to cut out their dreams. After a brief disassociative period, they decide they have more to ask of their better selves. Where the aforementioned scene w Noct kinda nursing Sol back to health happens. Where Noct gives Sol further leniency after being convinced of the value of this trade. Yes, the gardeners are eternal, yes, eventually the fields would be buried under layers of newer soil, but what if they could be more efficient? What if they could start on this new expansive project right now? It may even breathe new life into all the stagnating sleeping gardeners. Another time, or perhaps, taking advantage of Sols still somewhat concussed state, Noctilucent deigns to show Sol something. They take them on their back and bring them to the shore of the ocean. A large structure? Cliff? Juts out of the shallows. It looks just like the crashed Stratospheric if it was overtaken by 20,000 years worth of coral. Noct wants to show them something inside it, so they follow. Another strange worm like creature. They have to pause and give it a name before they can give it over to Sol's awaiting hands. Sol laughs brightly, experiencing something for the first time. This feels different. Saturated. Wild. New. Noctilucent has never done this before, nor has Sol. "They are extinct," they say. Sol thinks they understand what Noct means. Everywhere, but here. The director of eradication of invasive species has deigned to keep them alive, confined to this place where nobody will ever find them, but these creatures can live in peace. Continuing to recreate Convergent Domain structures through coral growths, erecting eerie monuments amid the salmon hued oceans. "so you CAN be reasoned with," they joke, grinning. Noctilucent does not appear as amused bearing this callback to their own words. When they take them back, Noct puts a finger to their lips. The winds hiss drowns out their retreat. Sol understands. A secret. Its the gardeners conflicting feelings abt the cd. Love and hate in equal measure and no hope of reconciling it after 20,000 years. The ache is clear in everything around them, now that Sol is open to it. They miss their creators. Everything is both monument and admonishment. They think, maybe even Noct in some small corner of themself, thinks a sapient life form is just what the planet is missing. to breathe life into it. Sol has convinced them of it. They can be of use. They wonder if sym is capable of dishonesty after all. If when he says Im not at liberty to divulge that information, what he really means is, It hurts too much to talk about.

Chapter 6: The C Word Embargo

aka Sol going through it after peace is newly established. Where there should be relief, there is only the emptiness and the fear that everything that has ever mattered in their life has come to an end. Some kinda meta sadness n also just typical momentary loss of your place in the world after a momentous task has been completed. Sol starts staying outside colony walls ignoring curfew, hanging out more w Sym, staying with him for longer and longer until they decide they just need a break from the colony altogether. Which keeps extending and extending... until it seems instead of making Sol feel better, its just making them worse. They feel too guilty to come back after so much time has passed. Sym struggles to help them through it, it kinda gives him bad dreams, already something that was far less frequent before Sols arrival, which also stressed him out. Eventually he lets Sol go and be on their own for a little while. The title is a reference to one scene where Sol strings together a truly remarkable chain of insulting words to call themself, all starting on the letter C, which shouldve made the whole thing feel comedic, but instead Sym is just deeply hurt by Sol's diminishing self-confidence. N bans the use of anything start on C. Thats where the thing w Sol venturing out back by the sea comes up, sending messages back to the colony and slowly starting to "come back" to it by observing the holonet, catching up on their friends lives. Eventually finding that it is alright if the people around them dont understand every little bit of them, that each person loves them in their own way, which does not diminish the fullness of that love. That they dont have to feel so alienated. This is how all families are. Cus theres a few tiny scenes I had where Sol is hurt by the realization that no one can truly know them, because it only makes them believe in Sol less, making Sol less able to save the people they love. That no lover they take can be a true confidant, that even the people who knew only grew to detest them for it, how it broke their friendship to know too much, how it drove a rift between their parents. One scene where Sol admits they're kinda afraid of loving anyone at all because it may cloud their judgement, which sym tries to pacify by admitting having had similar concerns but all of it being overpowered by the sheer wonderment at everything Sol is capable of. Of an unyielding conviction that this change can only be for the better.

Anyway maybe by the time I write my 5th story I'll be able to put everything I want together in a coherent sequential tale lmao.

yeah,, uhh, thats my ramble on my little fic that had been bouncing around my brain. It wouldve ultimately been about accepting that the love we give and receive will never be all-encompassing, but it is love nonetheless. You cannot make sense of all you are, of what others hold within them. Whether it be the colony, those that gave birth to you, your friends, your lovers... And maybe, that sometimes you will not even know that the love is there, like the way the Gardeners themselves may not even consciously realize how their creators still center in their work.

It's like Frank Bidart once said:

"WHETHER YOU LOVE WHAT YOU LOVE OR LIVE IN DIVIDED CEASELESS REVOLT AGAINST IT WHAT YOU LOVE IS YOUR FATE"

[the-gayest-show]

consumed by thoughts about cedric the sorcerer, forced to be a normal high schooler

[miles336]

hello

its me >:D (witheredforgetmenot)

OH MY GODDD���WOAHH!! THIS IS AMAZING!!

This is EXACTLY how I imagined the scene to look! And your art is absolutely BEAUTIFUL!! thank you so much—this really made my day!!!

[loftwinglullaby]

wow thank you so much

[patchesjam]

NEW CAT STREAM PERHAPS ON MY DAY OFFF

[arvoze]

the power i will receive in a matter of days will be astounding. watch out

[bitchoftruth]

the thing about my handle here is that i feel like if i saw it in the wild id assume the worst of myself like id think its one of those misogynist umi fans who likes erika for epic memes bud idk if i want to change it at this point honestly