#the tension in both trailers being OFF THE CHARTS

[mizi-sua]

bronya and dan heng having special guest appearances in their partner's trailers

[stoned-writer]

A request where chris evans fucks his assistant, reader in his trailer

so so sorry this took the longest ever but here we are !

side note- i shall no longer write for c.evans

photo not mine*

the assistant - Chris Evans

summary- after being friends with chris for years and working for him, the feelings boil over and tension breaks.

warnings- p in v unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it yall), choking, use of daddy, oral (m & f) not sure of any other pls lmk !

word count- 1,351

a/n- not totally happy with this but i hope yall enjoy.

MINORS DNI 18+

You had been friends with Chris since high school, you knew his life and all its chaos better than anyone so it only made sense when you inevitably became his assistant as his career grew. 

You did have one tiny problem with your little arrangement…

You’re unbelievably in love with him. 

It was especially hard on days like today when you’re on set with him watching him walk around like he isn’t the sexiest man alive. You don't really know when it happened, maybe you always felt this way about him, but all you knew was you couldn’t take it anymore. 

You were sitting in his trailer answering some emails when he strolls in wearing the most simple outfit, jeans and white t-shirt that is at least a size too small, almost instantly the dirty thoughts start running through your mind “his arms look so sexy, i wonder what it would feel like to have them wrapped around my-” you’re snapped out of your daze when you realize he's talking to you shit “hey pretty got a lot to do today?” he asks sweetly, tilting his head slightly, you blush and look away hoping he doesn’t notice “no actually all done for the day” he plops himself down on the couch next to you, arm stretched out behind you. He’s so close you can smell his cologne so casual like he doesn’t know he's driving you insane. 

You finally look up at him and find he’s already looking at you with a cheeky little smirk on his face he’s up to something “well what do you know i'm all done for today too.” The sexual tension between the two of you is off the charts right now you think you might explode if someone doesn’t make a move soon. 

He catches you staring, “see somethin ya like doll?”  Your eyes snap up to his - is this really happening right now ? taking a second to catch your breath you look from his eyes to his lips briefly before replying “yeah would there be a problem with that?” he laughs lowly casting his eyes over your body before making his way back up to your eyes “not at all” he leans in a little bit and you find yourself leaning to meet him halfway, his hand makes its way to the side of your neck, lips barely touching he says “are you sure about this pretty girl?” you nod your head instantly but that’s not enough for him, “words baby” he demands shit you're wet you lick your lips “yes i'm sure.” 

He doesn’t waste any more time and crashes his lips to yours. You both moan out at the new contact between the two of you. It was like the dam finally broke after years of pent up tension and pining it was finally happening. 

He brings his hand down to the back of your thigh and grabs you to sit up and straddle his lap as both his hands now slide to grab your ass, he moans into your mouth at the feel of the flesh between his huge hands. You instinctively start to grind down on him feeling how hard he is through his jeans. You slide down off of him to rest on your knees in between his legs as he adjusts himself to be manspreading looking down at you with a lazy smile on his stupidly handsome face. You reach to undo his belt and make quick work of sliding his jeans off, you can't say you're surprised when you see how big he is through his boxers, saliva pooling in your mouth at the thought of getting him into your mouth. Reaching up to slide his boxers down, he mumbles almost to himself “i can't believe this is actually happening” you almost didn't hear him but you chuckle and say “oh believe it baby.”

You lock eyes with him as you spit onto his cock “jesus christ” he exhales, and you proceed to take him into your mouth as much as you can, his eyes roll back at the feeling of your mouth working on him, he brings his hands to gather your hair in a makeshift ponytail- “look at you angel so pretty with my cock in your mouth goddamn so good honey, such a good girl for me aren’t you?’ you moan around him at his praise. His hips buck up into your mouth as you take him further down your throat, “fuck baby as much as I would love to cum in your mouth I need to be inside you right now” he growls as he pulls you off of him as he undresses you insanely fast and pulls you back into his lap. 

He brings his hand under your chin to make you look at him as you position yourself over him, swiping his thumb across your bottom lip and pushing it into your mouth, he exhales “gonna be the death of me pretty girl”

You both moan out in sync as you sink down on his cock, giving you a minute to adjust, he rubs his hands over your hips as he starts to move you back and forth. “So big daddy oh fuck-” “shit say that again baby, go on what’s my name?” “daddy- feels so good, so deep” he then takes this opportunity to stand and place you down on your back on the way too small couch. 

He then starts destroying your pussy at an alarming pace but you couldn't think past the immense pleasure you're feeling, he brings his hand up to your throat and applies just the right amount of pressure, “eyes on me angel” he growls to keep you present with him, he looks down to where the two of you are connected and spots a bulge in your lower stomach, it drives him crazy, he presses down on it and says “fuck honey feel that? Feel how deep i am in your guts, god this pussy was made for me.” you're a moaning mess, unable to form a complete sentence “uhh fuck - daddy” he laughs lightly, “got you cockdrunk already huh? Feel you squeezing me baby i know you’re close go on give it to me cum all over my cock baby” thats quite literally all it takes till you’re screaming “oh my god chris- daddy fuck i’m cumming.”

Your orgasm triggers his own and he’s twitching inside you and spilling his whole load inside you. Moaning at the warm feeling, he leans down to kiss you. 

“I’m not done yet honey, eyes on me.” 

Before you can ask what he means he’s pulling out of you and sinking to his knees as he dives in to eat your pussy like a man starved. His tongue lapping up the mess you both made has you arching off the couch and grabbing at his newly buzzed hair and your eyes rolling back. “Come on doll, you got one more for me right?” “uhh fuck- yes daddy” he moans into you, “thats right yeah you do.”

You can feel the band getting tighter and you know you’re close, he knows it too.

“I know baby, go on cum, you can do it for daddy, let go” 

And you certainly do. 

As you start to come down from your high he sits up wiping the sides of his mouth bringing his fingers into your mouth so you can taste yourself. He leans down to connect your lips to his, he squeezes himself back onto the couch with you bringing you back to sit in his lap. Before either of you can say anything there's a knock on the trailer door, “uh Mr. Evans you're needed back on set” says a surely traumatized crew member. 

You both sigh and start to get dressed, before he steps out he places his hands on your hips and says “we will definitely talk about this when I get back” with that he kisses you sweetly like he didn't just rearrange your insides, throws you a wink and out the door he goes. 

[bigswitchenergyy]

RWRB movie thoughts (SPOILER HEAVY!)

So, I watched it. Twice. And I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since.

First off, non-spoilers - I loved this movie. I loved the energy, I loved the humor, I loved the chemistry between all of the actors. Taylor and Nick in particular had phenomenal chemistry and I can't stop thinking about them and firstprince and how beautiful it all was. I miss the boys already. 😭 SPOILERS!!

I'm gonna get the (incredibly minor) gripes out of the way.

We got cornbread!! But we didn't get "cornbread knows my sins" which I was a little bummed about. But the beauty of the scene as a whole absolutely made up for it.

The lack of the emotional kiss after the fight really bugged me, because to me, that kiss is the breaking point for them both. That's the "gonna love this stubborn shithead forever" moment, and it's all of the tension and pain and heartbreak poured out into a desperate, hungry, incredibly passionate kiss. going right from "tell me to leave" to the V&A felt a little like mood whiplash, but the V&A scene is so good I can get past it pretty easily

I wish we could have had more of their emails, the phone call where Henry begins to open up about his family, and more pet names. Especially more baby, considering how much that one word affects Henry in the book.

I know why Matthew did it but fuck Miguel, I miss Rafael and Liam

WE NEEDED MORE PEZ, NORA, AND BEA

Now, for my favorite quotes/moments!!

"I'd break the sound barrier for you." when i tell you i fucking screamed into a pillow and sobbed

HISTORY HUH BEING SAID AT THE V&A, I LOVED IT SO MUCH, I SQUEALED AUDIBLY

THE CAKE SCENE, 10/10

Zahra and Amy are the absolute fucking best and were truly able to shine in a way I didn't expect, I'm so glad we got so many great scenes

"I will brexit your head from your body" I know it was in the trailer but it's SO FUCKING FUNNY

The texting scenes were done so well?? I loved hearing their voices saying the lines and I loved the way they portrayed the long distance conversations. The turkey scene in particular is fucking cinema

THE MOTHERFUCKING RED ROOM SCENE. NEED I SAY MORE.

THE SCENE RIGHT AFTER?? AND THEN THE ONE IN ALEX'S ROOM?? I'M FUCKING WEAK, MAN. THEIR CHEMISTRY IS OFF THE CHARTS

The closet scene was SO good. Watching Alex's entire perception of the man change in a matter of minutes is so well done, and Henry realizing that Alex's feelings about it all were completely valid & apologizing is so 10/10

jesus fuck, PARIS. OH MY GOD. The cafe scene, the one where they're taking a walk, and then their first time having sex. It's so beautiful and emotional and i just... I was breathless watching it. It's steamy but it's just beautiful and loving and the way alex and henry are just so enamored with each other absolutely destroyed me.

"You don't know what that's like." "I'm learning." SOBBING

the entire new year's eve sequence was wonderful. Henry's so happy when he's with Alex and Alex is just so happy he's there, and then that fucking SHOT?? The way they're just staring at each other across the crowded room?? C I N E M A

The first kiss was STRAIGHT OUT OF THE BOOK and it was MAGICAL

Nora is a queen and deserved more screentime but I LOVE her scenes with Alex. I think having her not be his ex in this version is a nice change too

And, of course, the motherfucking STORMING OF KENSINGTON. The boys acted their asses off and Nick in particular broke my heart so many times over

The leak. The leaaaaak. fuck.

"Hello?" "Baby." "Alex??" when i tell you i cried so hard

the piano scene 10/10

THE SCENE WHERE THEY COME OUT TO THE CROWD. THE ENTIRE END TBH

CASEYYY!!!!!!

So, yeah. I loved this movie. I'm gonna be thinking about it for a long time, and I sincerely hope Matthew releases the extended cut & all of the deleted scenes and bloopers, because we NEED THEM.

I also hope that Matthew, Casey, Nick, and Taylor know how much we love this film and book. How thankful we are that these beautiful characters were not only written, but then able to come to life. I will forever be thankful for Alex Claremont-Diaz and Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor (yes, i'm using his book last name LMAO) and for their beautiful love.

[williamrikers]

Favorite Kisses Poll

i was tagged by @lurkingshan a while ago, thank you for the tag darling 🥰

there are so many beautiful kisses in bl, but here are some that changed the timeline for me personally. also i'm realizing that krist managed to get on this list twice, so congratulations to him 😁💕

propaganda:

vegaspete

once again, i am making an unfair poll by including something vegas-related. this kiss is the one that truly changed my life. the tension, the desire, the sheer fucking desperation in the way pete gripped vegas... the way they're smiling during the kiss, while also being insatiable for each other... this is poetic cinema to me. why even put other kisses on this list, am i right 😮‍💨

mutrak

i have rewatched this kiss an embarrassing amount of times. this is my happy place now. the chemistry is off the charts. there is so much tongue action. their hungry desire haunts me and soothes my soul in equal measure. also mut immediately going into dom mode and telling tongrak to open his mouth in the rudest possible way, only to stick his thumb in there?? i will never recover. never. this scene could kill me and i would thank it.

pathapitamtawan

HEAR ME OUT. i know this is an outlier, this is a kiss from a mock trailer, after all, but oh my god. OH MY GOD. gmmtv has never done anything like this before, and i mean NEVER. we're getting bitter exes who are sleeping together?? in this economy?? for real??? this scene of them in bed together showed me that miracles are still possible in this world. the tension of both of them clearly still having feelings but not wanting to admit to it, while literally making out after sex... sorry but other bls could never. i've rewatched this trailer an unholy amount of times, specifically for this scene. i am obsessed.

sandray

this is, i think, the most aesthetically pleasing one on this list. the cigarette smoke obscuring their faces just a little bit while they're both breathing into the kiss... objectively terrible as an experience but it looks so damn beautiful. i literally have an art print of this scene hanging on my wall. it's so pleasing to me.

pisaengkawi

i had to put this one on the list so that i have one (1) kiss on here for emotional reasons instead of for horny reasons. this is the first time kawi is actually letting his guard down and being honest about the way he sees himself—as ugly, undeserving and unworthy of pisaeng's love. and after pisaeng gives him an irrefutable reason why he wants kawi (i have written about this elsewhere, but pisaeng naming a reason that is subjective and therefore can't be argued away by kawi is actually genius), this is the first time kawi allows himself to accept and act on his own desire for pisaeng. this isn't their first kiss, but this is the first one that is initiated by kawi, the first one where they're on the same page regarding what's happening, and the first one where they're starting to be honest about their feelings, both to themselves and to each other. this scene is so very dear to my heart.

i'm tagging @burnsuncomet @kinnbig @bisexualboysbroadcast @zhouxiangs @prapaiwife 😘

[straykidsupdate]

Stray Kids Are Breaking Records, Breaking Eardrums and Breaking Limits (INTERVIEW)

A Stray Kids track a day keeps the stress away. Though one can argue the K-pop group's energetic brand of "noise music" could possibly heighten tension, their bass-bumping, get-the-crowd-jumping songs are encouraging, vital points to Stray Kids' calling: to be the voices of their generation.

As showcased on their fiery 2019 hip-pop hit "MIROH," or 2020's heavy-hitting "God's Menu," Stray Kids — often abbreviated as SKZ — are unrelenting in their journey of self-expression and their determination to push themselves, and their fans, to their full potential. A prime example? Their second studio album, NOEASY, released Aug. 23.

Source: Pop Crush

The 14-track project, the majority of which was produced by sub-unit 3RACHA (Bang Chan, Changbin and Han), exhibits Stray Kids' ability to bring the noise no matter the tempo. NOEASY starts off strong with five in-your-face tracks that blend EDM and hip-hop elements (lead single "Thunderous," "Cheese," supporting single "Domino," "The View" and "SSICK"), while the later part of the album experiments with different genres and styles, from jazz-pop to rock.

Just three years into their career — they formed in 2018 — members Bang Chan, Lee Know, Changbin, Hyunjin, HAN, Felix, Seungmin and I.N. already carry dozens of award nominations and wins under their belt, and boast chart-topping hits in both physical and digital sales. Even before the release of their second album, the group already set a new record by becoming the first artist under JYP Entertainment to reach 1 million pre-orders.

We recently caught up with the members to talk about NOEASY, the adorable SKZOO version of "Thunderous" and why touring is their first and foremost priority.

Congratulations on your second album! A studio album takes lots of work, so how does it feel to have this out there in the world now?

Changbin: We really put our everything into preparing this album and we're really confident in it, so I’m really happy that STAY can finally listen to it!

Lee Know: We couldn’t wait to put this out because there are so many really, really good songs on it, so it feels great to finally release this album.

Hyunjin: Somehow a year has already passed, and we’re so thankful to our STAY who have waited for us. The entire album is good, so we hope STAY really enjoy it.

NOEASY has already achieved the title of being the best-selling album in JYP Entertainment in history. Any thoughts on that? What other records would you guys like to break?

Bang Chan: That title was achievable all thanks to STAY! If it weren't for STAY, we wouldn’t have been able to have even gotten this far. Stray Kids are known as “the kids that enjoy breaking things." We break objects, break eardrums and break limits, so breaking another record wouldn’t be so bad. Of course, we’ll need the help from STAY!

I.N: I hope we grow even more with the next album, so much so that people will describe us as artists who are constantly improving.

What were your first impressions of the title track?

HAN: When we listened to the final product, it made me really happy that the track sounded really fresh, the lyrics were very witty and full of spirit and it clearly embodied Stray Kids’ distinct color. I wanted to hurry and work on the performance and share the song with someone!

Felix: The song is really unique and I believe that we were the only team to make it impactful.

Seungmin: One day, upon arriving at home, 3RACHA immediately played the song for me. The moment I heard it, it felt electrifying, and I really wanted it to be a title track. That’s why I voiced a lot of my opinion, too.

3RACHA (Bang Chan, Changbin and Han), you guys have made a name for yourself and were heavily involved in this second album just like past releases. What was it like with this project?

Bang Chan: Just like any other project that we’ve worked on, we just had fun. We experimented with a lot of different styles and tried our best to widen our musical spectrum.

Changbin: We knew there would be a lot of expectations as this would be a full album, so we really put a lot of effort into the process.

HAN: The process was a lot of fun. We’d ask ourselves, “What should we attempt? What should we try next?” And we looked forward to what we’d come up with while working on this album.

How was it different this time?

Bang Chan: The “let’s just have fun” part hasn’t changed at all, but the biggest difference would be the genres of music and the ways we recorded the songs.

Changbin: Perhaps because our second full album is the first album we’re releasing after [television competition] Kingdom, there was a bit of pressure to meet people’s expectations. When pondering what everyone would be expecting of us, we thought they’d definitely be looking forward to something new in true Stray Kids’ fashion. I think that’s the part that we contemplated a lot.

HAN: I think, compared to before, we had a little more fun while working on this album. There was no time crunch, and we worked with the thought of making music that best fits who we are today, so I think the end result came out really well.

What would you say were the key highlights for the album?

Bang Chan: One thing that I hope people will notice is the improvement of all the members’ recording skills. We put a lot of effort into all the songs.

Changbin: The album includes unit songs in which all of our members took part during the creative process.

HAN: I hope people look forward to Stray Kids’ distinct musical color, our wit and how much we’ve matured.

When you guys came up with NOEASY as the title, how did you define it in your own terms?

Bang Chan: This might sound cheesy, but life itself is pretty “no easy." Everyone goes through obstacles, everyone has their own downs and lows, but I feel like it depends on how “noisy” you’re going to be to overcome those hardships.

HAN: NOEASY is trying to convey that things may be hard, but we’re going to break through that difficulty with our sound! I think the best way to explain it is that even if things are tough, as long as we have the sound of Stray Kids and the sound of STAY, we can overcome anything.

You spoiled your fans with so much pre-release content, which would you say were your favorites and why?

Lee Know: The SKZOO teaser was the most memorable. I would say the cuteness amidst the power was the key point.

Hyunjin: The trailer video was a little embarrassing to film, but after seeing it all come together, it looked so cool that I hope we get to do it again next time!

Seungmin: We worked on unit songs that were included on this album, and the Song Camp teaser videos that showed the creative process behind those unit songs were really good! I think our STAY really enjoyed them, so I hope we can do that type of content again.

About the SKZOO version of the “Thunderous” video: Whose idea was it?

Felix: As we prepared for our comeback, we wanted to impress and entertain our fans with something fun and unique, so we all came to one conclusion which was wearing our costumes for “Thunderous."

Your music has become incredibly encouraging and has touched many STAY around the world. What would you say is your ultimate message as Stray Kids?

Bang Chan: At one point in their lives, people will have a moment where they feel astray from the road that they’ve chosen, and I would like those people to know that they’re not the only ones that feel that way. So, whenever you need someone to keep you company, just know that Stray Kids are here to get you back on track.

You guys pretty much owned 2020 with hit after hit, including “God’s Menu” and “Back Door." How has it been working and releasing music in the midst of the pandemic?

Changbin: There was a lot more time being spent at home, but I didn’t want to waste that time, and instead used it to consistently work on new music. I hope people listen to our songs and gain strength during this challenging time.

Seungmin: To be honest, I was really bummed we couldn’t get to meet our STAY in person, but I think we promoted our album hoping that STAY could feel our love through videos, our music and their hearts even from afar. I’m grateful because I think our sincerity was relayed despite not being able to see each other in person. We spent our time working really hard even in the unseen!

When the pandemic is over and everything’s okay, what’s the first thing you want to do?

Bang Chan: World tour, first priority!

Lee Know: The very first thing I want to do is have a fan meeting with STAY.

Changbin: Definitely an in-person concert.

Hyunjin: I want to go on a world tour to hurry and meet our STAY all over the world and experience new cultures in different countries! I also want to perform for our STAY in-person at Korean music shows.

HAN: A concert! I want to hurry and have a concert so we can vibe with STAY and sing together in the same place. I miss this so much and can’t wait until we can do this again.

Felix: World tour!

Seungmin: I would say the first that comes to mind is a concert with STAY where we can finally greet them and have fun together!

I.N: I want to do a world tour.

Congratulations on your third anniversary! Do you guys have any wishes, individually or as a group?

Bang Chan: Individually, I just wish for everyone to be safe and happy. As a team, I wish that we can reach places that haven’t been reached before with the help from STAY.

Lee Know: I really want to be able to let STAY experience our performances visually and physically in real life as soon as possible.

Changbin: I want to make music and perform as Stray Kids for a long time.

Hyunjin: I’m sad that we can’t right now, but I would really like for this time of coronavirus to pass so we’re able to make many more memories with STAY. I really miss the fan meetings, concerts and world tours.

HAN: I want to mature more and continue growing in my music and just as a person. I would like to make even better music so that I can continue to touch STAY’s hearts and give them joy.

Felix: Individually, I hope to make a lot of memories and give a lot of hope and happiness to the STAY all around the world to the best of my ability. As a team, we really want to go on a world tour to meet our STAY as soon as possible.

Seungmin: I want to show our fans an even more improved version of ourselves. My wish is to show STAY that we’ll never go backwards!

I.N: I would like to continue improving and be described as an artist of consistent growth. I want to become an artist that’s a good influence on people.

What’s something you would like people to know about SKZ if they haven’t given them a chance yet?

Lee Know: We’ve got backbone. Once you fall for us, it’s hard to get out.

Hyunjin: I hope that after listening to our diverse music and watching our extravagant performances, people will notice us a little more.

Anything else you’d like to say? Speak now or forever hold your peace!

HAN: STAY, thank you for always giving us positive energy. We feel bad because it seems like we’re always just on the receiving end, but we’ll work hard to reciprocate what you’ve given to us! We’re always so thankful for you, and we miss you so much. We love you, and please continue to watch over us.

[butterflymar]

DAY 2: FAVORITE BL DRAMA

I have quite a few... I can’t choose just one so bare with me lol

Life Senjou No Bokura

Synopsis According to MyDramaList: One day after school, the serious Ito and the child-like Nishi meet by chance, as each endeavors to remain walking  on the sidewalk`s white line. As time goes by, Ito recognizes he is drawn to Nishi in a way that is new to him. Nishi, for his part, is frustrated that they only get to meet on the sidewalk. Ito decides to act upon his feelings and kisses a surprised Nishi, who agrees they need to walk side by side for a change. The sparks between them are undeniable as their relationship blossoms in high school, survives the college years, and matures into adulthood. A deeply moving work that bears witness to loving partners, whose unchanging feelings must co-exist within a world of changing realities.

My Personal Thoughts: I already wrote a review for this so I am going to re-share some of those thoughts here. This is one that I have watched countless times already. They went by the manga for mostly all of the episodes and I appreciated seeing that. They gave more context for certain details that may have been lost while reading the manga and translated it to screen. I think they depicted the age gaps well too. For 4 episodes only, I feel that they did a great job including the most important aspects. Actually now that I think of it, I would have loved to see more of them in their early 20s depicted on screen because that was like one of there honeymoon phases and I’m a hopeless romantic lol but that’s just a personal preference not complaining. Also, the show stopped at age 40 and they could have gone on throughout there entire lives but I understand why they chose not too. The manga is great as well!!! I think that the main actors depicted beautiful true love very well. They had amazing chemistry. Japanese BL’s have that special spark about them that I love. I also loved that it showed there relationship from high school till there later years. I don’t see that a lot with BL’s. They usually just stick to one time period. The aspect about them being connected by a line in relation to there love was a nice touch as well. I am glad that it has a happy ending as well. This is a pretty quick one to watch and a great one at that!!! If you haven’t watched it yet, I would highly recommend it!!!

I Told Sunset About You 

Synopsis According to MyDramaList: Teh and Oh-aew were best friends until a boyhood line of reasoning turned them into rivals. Years later as they're preparing for university admissions, both pursuing interests in the field of Communication Arts, the two meet in a Chinese language class. Their reunion awakens complicated and unstable feelings.

My Personal Thoughts: Same as above, I already wrote a review for this so I am going to re-share some of those thoughts here. This is DEFINITELY one of my top BL shows of the year 2020. This is such a beautiful masterpiece of a show!!! I remember when the preview trailer first came out… I was already hooked!!! I was on the lookout for it and it did not disappoint me one bit when it finally started. I looked forward to seeing it every week. It made me feel all of the emotions. I was up here sitting in my room crying over everything. I don’t think any other BL has made me this emotional before in my life. The two lead actors really DELIVERED!!! I could feel every single stare, every single body movement, and every single touch. You could cut the TENSION with a knife!!! No one couldn’t tell me that there wasn’t a magnetic true love between these two. I know this sounds cliche but it's like they were destined to be together from when they were childhood friends. Also, I would love to see them in future projects!!! The cinematography in this show is TOP FREAKIN NOTCH!!! Every single scene is just so beautifully shot. The cinematography alone makes me want to cry lol I saw somewhere that someone said the filming of the show reminded them of an indie film and I totally agree!!! The writing and directing on this show was impeccable to me!!! No cringy dialogue and every single line served its purpose well. This is movie grade writing. I also wanted to quickly just say that I loved the attention and callback to details throughout like with the tutoring book that Teh made for Oh-aew that was left empty by the end of episode 4, the flower that was supposed to be colored the same as Tan’s garment but Teh colored it red because he was thinking of Oh-aew, the rubbing of Oh-aew’s back when he sniffles, the references to Teh’s favorite actor, and the use of Chinese phrases to get meaning across. I could go on and on but wow I just loved how they really connected all of the details throughout. I can’t wait for Season 2!!!

Theory of Love

Synopsis According to MyDramaList: Third is a filmology major and a member of the Savage Team along with his best friends Two, Bone, and Khai, but he has a secret. Third has been secretly in love with Khai for years. For three years, he has kept his secret love in his heart, silently supporting and loving Khai while knowing there is absolutely no future between them since Khai is as straight as a streetlight pole and also an absolute player. To make matters worse, Khai has a "no dating friends" policy. How long can Third love Khai silently while watching Khai bring a different girl home every night? Third has tried to see Khai as just a friend. But has failed time and time again. Because as easy as it is to fall in love, to stop is just as hard.  Maybe even harder. That is until Third learns a secret that breaks his heart completely. But when Third decides to stop, Khai decides to start.

My Personal Thoughts: As sad as this show can make me feel at times, I love rewatching it. I still to this day think that it is one of the most well written BL’s that I have seen. Everything flows nicely and everything connects. Your not left wondering how you got from point A to point B. I thought the show had great character development especially when it came to Khai’s character towards the end of series. I know a lot of people had mixed feelings about his character due to how careless and dare I say stupid he acted at times but if he can make the audience hate him that much as a character... I would say he is doing something right!!! Gun’s acting never fails to amaze me!!! He really is one of the best actors I have seen. I know he had to be drained from all of that crying that he did throughout the show though lol It just goes to show that when you truly love someone you can’t just stop what you are feeling inside that easily no matter how the other person feels about you or treats you. As the old saying goes, love is blind. I also loved the friend group as well and Two and Bones side stories with the teacher and crush from school. They added to the shows greatness and didn’t take away from it. The friendship dynamics throughout the show was I feel something that really kept me engaged. The cast acted well together. There was no awkwardness or hesitation. I feel everyone bought there best for this drama. They incorporated the movie references so cleverly and I love how the title of each episode was the title of a real romance film. Just the overall theme of film was very intriguing to me. This drama left me filled with heartache and a rollercoaster of emotions but the ending is worth it!!!

HIStory3: Make Our Days Count

Synopsis According to MyDramaList: At first glance, high schoolers Xiang Hao Ting and Yu Xi Gu appear to be polar opposites: While Xiang Hao Ting is an outgoing, hot-headed extravert and some-time bully, Yu Xi Gu prefers to keep a low profile and focus on his schoolwork. They seem bound for totally different futures – the bookish Yu Xi Gu looks destined for academic success, while life is just a long popularity contest for Xiang Hao Ting. But a quirk of fate – and a crucial intervention by a female schoolmate – results in the two young men’s paths crossing. But there is more to both young men than first meets the eye. Xiang Hao Ting was not always this way. He started out as a perfect student until he discovered the joys of going off the rails. And Yu Xi Gu has a reason for being so aloof and studious: His parents died in a traffic accident while he was younger, and he is being fostered by his aunt. As such, he works hard to get good grades in an effort to win a scholarship and ease the financial burden on his relatives. Yu Xi Gu also works part-time at a convenience store, where his manager Liu Zhi Gang has developed a crush on a man he has met at the gym. Back at school, meanwhile, Yu Xi Gu and Xiang Hao Ting find themselves drawn together, and passions ignite. The former notices that he has the unique ability to bring Yu Xi Gu out of his shell – and becomes intent on melting his cold-as-ice exterior. What will happen when their two worlds collide? And can love be the catalyst that helps bring these two unlikely students together – as their high school days draw to a close?

My Personal Thoughts: I will stand by this notion for all of my days but this show is one of the best shows I have seen PERIOD!!! Not even best BL shows I have seen but just in general. It highkey saddens me that it is rated at an 8.1 right now on MyDramaList due to how it ended when other than that... it’s a top notch show. This was one that I watched as it was airing and I would get excited to see it every week. My clown self should have known by the title “Make Our Days Count” that some mess was about to occur but I didn’t pick up on it. Now, I just disregard the last episode (WE DON’T KNOW HER!!!). You can just tell that they had a great budget for this series. The production was on point. It had great cinematography, great storylines, and it felt realistic too. The main couples acting was OFF THE CHARTS AMAZING. I loved the whole opposites attract thing going on. Although the show was set in high school... it almost didn’t feel like it nor did it have those typical clichés going on. I liked how it dealt with topic of LGBTQ+ acceptance as well. I wasn’t so sure about the side couples relationship at first but I grew to love them as time went on. One last thing I wanted to point out was that even though I am always looking for a happy ending... I learned from this show that not everyone can get a happy ending. That’s not how life works sadly. In real life, there have been a lot of people who were truly in love and lost there partners tragically. Although it may be hard to accept the outcome, it is something that happens in real life. This is a drama that you appreciate even more as time goes on. It truly is a gem of a series!!!

TharnType

Synopsis According to MyDramaList: Type Thiwat is a handsome freshman with a passion for football and spicy food. Although he’s a friendly boy, he hates gay people because, in his childhood, he was molested by a man. His life turns upside down when the new academic year of college brings along a charismatic roommate, Tharn Kirigun. Tharn is a gorgeous, compassionate music major, who is also openly gay. When Type learns this, he is determined to make Tharn leave the dorm, as he won't live with a gay person. Tharn is equally determined not to give into Type's homophobic tantrums. With a gay guy and a homophobic guy that have to share a small space together for the rest of the year — what can possibly be the outcome of their story? Hatred? Or maybe love?

My Personal Thoughts: *Goes to hide in a corner* I know this drama is problematic and controversial as hell but it’s like a train wreck that you can’t turn  away from. What truly carries the show I feel is the chemistry between MewGulf. I don’t think I would have enjoyed the series as much if other actors were cast in those roles. They just exude confidence, passion, love, and lust. In terms of the storyline, I found it to be a chaotic occurrence of situations where I just had to know what was going to go on next. Everything that occurred had me intrigued for the next episode and so on and so forth. I loved Type’s character development. One quick thing I want to touch on was I know there were a lot of problematic things that happened which I will touch on at a later date but one thing I wish people were more understanding of was Type’s outbursts, thoughts, and feelings in certain situations. He was a victim of sexual assault so I felt the way he handled certain things was in response to what he had gone through as child and I think some viewers kind of missed that and were almost too harsh on him. Everyone processes and deals with trauma differently. This show went through so many twists and turns and I honestly lived for it especially the shocker towards the end of the series. I didn’t see that one coming at all!!! Despite all of its flaws, this show still holds a special place in my heart.

Honorable Mention:

Cherry Magic: As of today, this show has 4 episodes left and I think I am just going to come out and say that THIS IS MY FAVORITE BL OF THE YEAR!!! It’s a beautiful Japanese BL and I rewatch the old episodes while I wait for new ones to come out alot. It’s such a fluffy, heartwarming, and precious Bl series!!! I love it to pieces!!!

[katieamazeballs]

And how is ANY of that wrong? She doesn’t want Artem. Never has. Total Bella’s made that clear. She only wanted to be a mom. He’s out a diamond ring but good thing he’s got a job to replace the cost of it I guess. Maybe he’ll get a showmance?

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Maybe the baby was just Artem’s I don’t have a job project and now he’s happily moving on?

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Artem as deadbeat dad pro! Whoop won’t that bring sizzle?! Running out on his kid at three weeks old. Great guy.

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Nikki used Artem for a baby. He didn’t actually move in. That was for show. He lives in LA. Sorry. That anon is wrong. They don’t live together.

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Artem is putting his job ahead of his child. She should dump him.

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Nikki will so drop him like a bad habit before he gets out of quarantine. She’ll be complaining he’s not any help and she has to do it all. Actually just an excuse since she has been obvious she’d rather do anything than marry the guy. But I guess yay Artem. The most naive man waking. He bet all on a woman who will never marry him.

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Baby mini Artem is cute. Guess his meh time flies caption shows he is fine missing this and many other firsts he won’t get back. Nikki is staying put it seems in Phoenix despite no quarantine for Artem from them. Guess he’s not that into the dad thing as he led on. She should just stay put then. Mr priority made his choice.

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Man you’d not know Artem was even back in the show. He posts nothing. Stories nothing and the only pics of him are him and Nikki looking like they’re fighting and hate each other in pap pictures from Wednesday. Nikki looks like she wants to rack attack him. The tension is off the charts. My guess is she’ll not stay in LA long if that’s how things are. But if he is so glad to be on the show you’d not know it. They both look miserable.

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That article on Nikki and Artem getting married is funny. Artem has been barely interested since he got that baby. He’s only about being a dad. She had to ask him if he loved her more on the podcast.

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Well on posts fans think Artem moved into his trailer for 11 weeks because he called it house and said he wanted pics of Nicole and Matteo. Then at the end said posted missing his loves. I mean those trailers don’t even have beds. Then late Nikki screen capped her milk production text to Artem.  Wonder if he did move out to an apartment? He seemed to say things were that he had time with them. Weird. I’m sure that trailer isn’t where he’s living though.

                                                                                                                                                                           Anonymous said:                                                                

I guess Artem might get pity votes on dwts since his fiancée is liking poems about loving an ex while the poor guy thinks she’s his world.

                                                                                                                                                                                Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

I honestly will never understand why Artem got involved with someone with serious commitment issues. It’s resulted in him sitting alone in his house with his fiancée backtracking on her talk of her sacrifice of selling her home. She’s never marrying this man. His mini me is once again away from dad. Artem bet all he had on a woman who doesn’t want to be a wife, she just wanted the baby and got it. Hope he enjoys dancing. It’s all he’s got.

                                                                                                                                                                                 Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

Nikki isn’t coming back. She took her house off the market. She’s apparently decided two weeks in la was enough and Artem is alone again. I guess Brie won. Nikki is back in her home. Interesting family. Live in two different homes and two different states. Well Artem can watch his son on Instagram. He’s got that.

                                                                                                                                                                               Anonymous said:                                                                

The issue with Nikki isn’t a trip to nana and Phoenix. It’s her liking Atticus poems about loving her damn ex. It’s about not loving Artem that’s the issue. She has doubted Artem since she met him. She doesn’t want the guy. Just wanted to be a mom. She’ll never keep Artem.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

You act like Nikki wants the man. She’s praising Bryan as a surrogate dad like the baby doesn’t need one. She hates Matteo’s dad. Said it over and over to his face. Guess he doesn’t need love right?

                                                                                                                                                                              Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

It’s not my account but it’s in Artem’s tags and the podcast was today. She told Artem multiple times she hates him. He said he is trying to not be hated and figure out a way to do anything right. She didn’t remotely tell him she loves him. She seems like she genuinely hates his guts. At least he has dwts. She’s looking for the exits quicker than I even thought. She’s painted him as a man who fails her at every turn and she hates him.

                                                                                                                                                                              Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

Clip from today of him sounding defeated.    

https://www.instagram.com/p/CFxG8NZgQGo/?igshid=1om172de47w4l

                                                                                                                                                                               Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

After today’s bellapodcast maybe others will see Nikki so doesn’t want Artem. She said several times she hates him. He can’t do anything right. He’ll be single and alone before dwts is over. She also resents selling her home. He’s toast.

                                                                                                                                                                              Anonymous said:                                                                                                                                            

Well, it’s obvious Artem loves them and she and the baby are his whole world. She’s still not said he’s her this year. She obviously isn’t remotely all in and he will het his heart crushed. She just knows it’s too soon to ditch him.

                                                                                                                                                                            Anonymous said:                                                                

Has anyone ever thought the reason there’s negative comments all over about Nikki Bella is they’re deserved?! Did anyone actually watch Total Bella’s and how she treated Artem? Hello? Telling him to F himself on a sidewalk. Saying she didn’t want to be engaged. Then ok but I’m not wearing the ring. Then liking Cena pics and tweets still and love quotes about an ex. Now returning to Phoenix with the baby and taking off her ring. Just maybe it’s not crazy to think the woman isn’t in love with Artem....look at her treatment of the guy. She doesn’t want to be his wife. I doubt he’ll get to be a dad if it’s up to her.

                                                                                                                                                                           Anonymous said:                                                                

Kinda sad seeing baby Matteo and how much he looks like Artem given his mom hates his dad. She’ll not stay with him the season. She always complains about Artem. Not like he didn’t send her two dozen roses for no reason right before she trashed him to Brie as not paying her attention. He cooks for her and posts that he loves her but it’s never good enough. She still hates him. Too bad he wasted money on the roses after she ignored them. Just said on the podcast she needed affirmation. Hello? Two dozen roses. After that she still said she hated him. She’ll dump him.

Y’all are all welcome for my askbox dump.......

[ladyproserpinas]

2, 11, 17!

shows up two weeks late with wine.

2) talk about three of the most important ships throughout your life

river/doctor (doctor who): it’s literally the time traveler’s wife but in space … and the wife is also a time traveler. like literally the episode they first meet she dies, but she comes back because time travel. and they kind of keep circling each other and keep meeting out of order, it’s literally a fourth-wall break joke that you need a flow chart to keep up with how they know each other. it’s so angsty because on one side literally the day he meets her she dies, which y’know super makes you want to have a relationship with someone, and on the other side she knows she’ll get to a day where he won’t recognize her in some way. and god the flirting, i miss the flirting, they had some of the best flirting any of my ships have ever had. they were so unnecessarily affectionate and flirty with each other even in the early days on both of their ends. and now it’s supposedly officially over and has been since christmas 2015 and i’m so mad because there just wasn’t enough of them and sad because i’m probably never gonna have river back on my screen again and she is quite literally probably my favorite character of all time. literally my love for her/them is so bad that i saw .02 seconds of matt smith in the morbius trailer and i just went feral and spent $90 on a whole bunch of doctor who

hades/persephone: so like… beauty and the beast is my favorite favorite fairy tale and like if a relationship ends up in any way under this trope you bet your ass i attach myself to it and don’t let go. and hades/persephone do so much mainly because of the negative connotations of hades being lord of the dead, which we all know is wrong because he’s more the god of wealth and plenty than of the dead but y’know. but it does have so many of the same beats as beauty and the beast. a young and beautiful goddess goes to live with the scary lord of the dead, and she’s held prisoner as most retellings say, and then she eats three-six pomegranate seeds (again depending on the retelling), a tree sacred to the goddess of marriage and becomes bound to hades, and she stays. the fact that it’s widely accepted that hades was a faithful husband when both of his brothers are the first fuckboys of the world is also amazing. persephone additionally being considered equal to hades in her role as queen of the underworld, whereas hera and amphitrite are pushed aside in their roles as queens. there’s also the fact that their story is one of life and death, persephone leaves and the world blooms while the underworld grows cold, persephone comes home and the earth dies while she’s in her home. 

philinda: so like i actually don’t have many marvel otps in the mcu at all. but when i watched agents of shield what drew me in was their dynamic. they were mom and dad of the team and watching them be in love but not admit it for like five seasons was so great. and i will probably never ever forgive the writers for taking it away like right after it happened. like what was even the point? i don’t know, but thanks for the bone marvel. it lasted literally an ep.

i literally just realized that all of the ships i talked about are out of sync in one way or another and i’m like …. yeah my type are middle aged couples who have communication issues but would literally die for the other.

11) talk about your favorite first kiss

i have literally just now forgotten all of my otps first kiss…. technically river/doctor have two first kisses ….. and philinda’s actually was like really good….. ummm harry/ginny’s actual first kiss in the book is Iconic tbh. ummmmmmmmmmmmm 

y’know let’s talk about hanleia’s actually. because han and leia’s first kiss is still *chefs kiss* 

i loved it so much when i was a kid (and now i’ve realized that hanleia has been my otp longer than i’ve even known what shipping was and i’ve loved them since i was like 3-4 lmao so that’s actually my first otp whoooops) but now that i’m older and i understand the tension and frustration between them it is just so much better. because leia and han play with each other. no leia’s not concerned or angry that han is leaving at all even though she’s the one who chases after him when he’s just about to leave. no han doesn’t get all sappy eyed whenever leia enters the room… except he does.

so when they finally have that moment in the falcon where he’s not trying to impress her (he still acts like his wannabe smooth self tho) and she’s not trying to be in control. it is just. so. nice. like honestly i don’t think anything will ever and then jj had to try to cheapen it by making their son a fuckhead and no i will never not be mad about that THEY HAD TWO GOOD CHILDREN IN THE BOOKS DAMMIT

17) talk about a pairing you’ve stopped shipping romantically

this one was really hard because i’m normally like someone who doesn’t let go of ships????

and i literally just can’t think of one??? at all??? i guess like i’m gonna go with olic*ty because yeah i liked them like at times but the fandom really turned me off to them with how they treated …. basically every other female character who even breathed in oliver’s direction. acually olic*ty isn’t a good example because i always had my issues with them. but i did ship felicity with barry allen and they were cute af but i’ve moved on from that. so yeah felicity/barry. 

[theangriestpea]

Mercy Killing

A/N: This took so long to come out but it’s finally here! I might wrap this series up soon and take a break for a bit, then come back with a sequel? There’s some plot lines I haven’t tied up yet and I don’t want to pull a RAS and just abandon them completely. I’m just a little burned out?? I also want to work on Compersion (polyamory fic).

Combined in this fic are two anon requests! Enjoy!

Warnings: some smut. A bit of dirty talk. Possessive Pea??

Cross-posted on AO3.

Chapter Fifteen: At Last

Lavender scooped up another mouthful of rice with her chopsticks, stuffing it into her mouth. Toni finished off the last piece of her sweet and sour chicken. “So, you and Sweets are like…together?”

Lav swallowed before drinking some of her Old Fashioned that Toni had made for her earlier. Her throat suddenly felt dry and she wasn’t sure what to say. She and Sweet Pea had decided to keep their newfound relationship under wraps while things were still tense with the Ghoulies. It was just something new for both of them.

Things hadn’t changed too much since that night at the Wyrm. It had only been a few days but they had seemed a little more at ease with one another. The tension was gone, finally. It was very obvious to the other Serpents and especially to Toni who had been manning the bar that night.

“It’s um…” She mumbled, not really knowing how she should respond. “A little complicated?” Her voice ended in a question. Was it really all that complicated? She had basically asked him to be his girlfriend and he (in his own Sweet Pea way) said yes. By all accounts they were “official”.

“So you’re just boning in the supply closet then?” Toni asked jokingly, putting her now empty container of food down. “Because I know it’s more than that.”

Lav bit her lip, “we promised to keep in on the down low.” She said in a soft voice. “But yes, we agreed to be exclusive.”

A grin broke across Toni’s face. She didn’t even try to conceal her excitement for her two friends. Her smile faltered slightly though, unsure of how Lavender was really taking everything. “But you were okay with this? After everything that happened with James? I mean, that relationship just ended…”

She put down her rice as a small frown formed on her face. “Yes, I’m okay…” There wasn’t much confidence left in her voice now as she looked at her lap.

Toni reached out to grab her hand, “Lavender, tell me the truth.” Her voice came out like an older sister trying to pry information out of a younger sibling. Lavender’s eyes lifted to look into Toni’s.

Tears lined her lower lids suddenly as emotion overwhelmed her suddenly. “I’m so scared.” Lavender said, her voice wavering as she tried not to sob. She felt like she had just cried so much the past month that crying more just seemed moot.

Toni smiled softly, her thumb rubbing against the back of Lav’s hand to help soothe her. “The Serpents will protect you, you know that, right? No Serpent left behind.” She wanted to make sure that her friend knew that things would be okay, these threats would blow over eventually.

“No, it’s not that.” Lavender stated, feeling calm enough to speak. “I’m afraid that I’ll ruin things between me and Sweet Pea.”

Toni’s brows furrowed in confusion, “why do you think that, baby?” She asked, not knowing what the reasoning behind Lav’s anxiety was. “Sweet Pea is kind of a brute but he’s not going to hurt you on purpose. You know that, right?”

Lav wiped her eyes with the hand that wasn’t in Toni’s grasp. “I’m so fucked up, Toni. I don’t want him to leave because he can’t handle all of my baggage. I don’t even think I can handle it. It’s so heavy. I’m so tired. I don’t know what to do.”

Toni moved closer, wrapping her arm around Lav’s shoulders to hug her. Her friend was shaking from holding back tears, her previously unspoken fears now bared to the world. “Pea is the strongest boy I know. Strong enough to carry you and your baggage.” Toni said in a reassuring tone.

“You really think he can bench all that?” Lavender asked, her tone a little less depressing and a bit more playful.

“You’ve seen those arms, girl.” Toni replied with a laugh, squeezing her shoulders one last time before pulling away. “And you won’t get rid of him that easily.”

*~~~~~~~~~~~*

Sweet Pea sat with his girlfriend in the examination room of the orthopedic clinic. Lav was finally getting her cast off after having it on for six weeks. Things had been going slow with Pea but not unbearably so. They were connected and nights with him were sensual but there felt like there was a block between them.

Perhaps it was just her that felt that way, but Sweet Pea hadn’t even attempted to have sex with her again. Though things had gotten hot and heavy a few times, there was always something interrupting him. Usually it was Kitty, calling, texting, knocking on the door to Pea’s trailer.

Because they still weren’t open about their relationship, Lavender had been reluctant to simply tell Kitty to fuck right off of her territory. The only ones who knew for sure were Fangs, Toni, and Cheryl. Even the Joneses had been kept in the dark, though Jughead had pretty much figured it out already.

The doctor came in, looking at his chart. “Alright, Miss Rhodes. Let’s get this cast off.” He flashed her a smile before picking up the saw. “You’re going to feel some vibration, okay?”

Lavender nodded as he slowly cut off the cast that had kept her bones in place for six weeks now. After the doctor removed it, she flexed her hand a few times. It almost felt foreign to not have the cast in the way of her thumb. There was a small smile on her lips that caused butterflies to flutter in Sweet Pea’s chest.

“We’re going to do one last set of X-rays just to make sure everything healed properly. The nurse will be in, in one moment.” The doctor said after looking over her wrist, making sure she had a good range of movement. Once he was satisfied, he left once more.

Lavender looked at Sweet Pea, noticing that he was staring at her. “What?”

Sweet Pea shifted uneasily in his seat as he felt a little called out. His neck flushed in a slight red. “You just look happy.”

She looked down at her freed wrist. “I’m glad to finally have that thing off. It was the last evidence I had of anything being wrong with me. Now when people look at me, they won’t wonder what happened. They’ll start to forget.”

Pea let out a soft sigh. Sure she was physically healed but he knew that mentally she still was struggling more days than not. Before he could say anything further the nurse came in to take Lav to the X-ray room.

*~~~~~~~~~~~*

Once Lavender was given a clean bill of health, she and Sweet Pea went to the Whyte Wyrm to relax with the fellow young Serpents. Lavender was shooting pool with Fangs while Sweet Pea sat on the sidelines, waiting to play winner. Of course they all knew Fangs was going to win because Lav was such a terrible player.

They were actually tied when Lavender saw a girl with dark hair fried from too many dye jobs, walk in. Her eyes narrowed slightly and she felt Fangs’ elbow gently jut into her side. “You’re shot, babe.” He said, knowing fully well what was distracting her.

Kitty sauntered over to Sweet Pea, sliding into his lap effortlessly. “Hey Sweetie Pea.” She breathed.

The anger that had slowly been building inside of Lavender for six weeks now finally boiled over. It bubbled through her veins and something deep inside of her snapped totally.

Lavender moved so that her back was to them and leaned over the table. She glanced up at Fangs with a devious smirk on her face.

Sweet Pea stiffened in his seat, not knowing exactly how to react to this situation. He didn’t care about Kitty in the slightest, in fact her constant pining towards him was starting to grow annoying. She always interrupted him when he was about to get laid and Lavender would be so angry afterwards that the mood would totally be ruined.

Lavender lined up her shot in a way that seemed very confusing to Fangs and Sweet Pea. The angle of her stick was all wrong, even for her. Suddenly she jerked the stick backwards, the end colliding into Kitty’s nose. The sound of bone cracking rattled the bar.

Kitty let out a loud shriek, jumping from Pea’s lap as her hand flew to her now bleeding nose. Blood and tears gushed down her face. “What the fuck?” She screeched so loud that the two boys flinched.

“Oh, I’m so sorry.” Lavender said. “I didn’t know you were right behind me!” Her voice was so superficially innocent that it really didn’t fool anyone.

“You bitch!” Kitty lunged at Lav, claws out to scratch at her face.

However, when Lavender wasn’t been blindsided by alcohol, darkness, and multiple assailants, she was actually a pretty skilled fighter. She stepped out of Kitty’s line of fire, grabbing Sweet Pea’s empty beer bottle and breaking it across the back of Kitty’s head.

Kitty stumbled forward and Fangs had to catch her before she fell to the floor. Lav was staring into Pea’s wide eyes. Her own gaze ripe with freshly burned fury that was released as she dropped the neck of the now broken bottle. She grabbed Sweet Pea by the lapel of his leather jacket and pulled him into a deep and fiery kiss.

Her display of dominance was an incredible turn on. Sweet Pea grabbed the back of her head as he kissed her back with the same ferocity. Suddenly he needed her and she needed him, but another romp in the back room didn’t seem good enough.

Fangs was holding a very dazed Kitty, an amused glint in his eye as he watched his two friends kiss passionately. Kitty tried to get her bearings straight but she was seeing stars from the second blow to the head.

“Let’s go, baby,” Lavender said, her lips still lightly touching Sweet Pea’s as she whispered. “I need you. Now.”

Sweet Pea stood up from his seat and wrapped an arm around her waist to lead her outside. As they were walking to his bike, his hand slipped down to grab her ass playfully. Once at his bike, he handed her his spare helmet, “Better prepare yourself, doll. You’re in for a ride.”

Lavender smirked at him, putting the helmet on and getting onto the bike behind him. She squeezed her front tightly against his back, hand dangerously close to the crotch of his pants.

Pea sped off to his trailer where he knew they were less likely to get interrupted. Plus he definitely had a stash of condoms there and he wasn’t sure if Lav had any in hers.

He parked his bike and Lavender tore off her helmet. She leaned into him more to kiss the snake on his neck teasingly before he could dismount. Her hand finally venturing to between his legs to grope him.

He let out a possessive growl at her touches, “Better get your ass inside before you make me fuck you on this bike.” He warned her, making Lav laugh. She withdrew from him and got off the bike. Pea followed after, sweeping her up into his arms to throw her over his shoulder so he could carry her inside.

Lavender let out a squeal of surprise when he picked her up, but didn’t fight him. Laughter erupted out of her as he quickly made his way into his trailer and threw her down onto the bed. She sat up to meet him in another passionate kiss as he crawled over on top of her.

His hands traveled up her legs, thumbs roaming the inside of her thighs. Sweet Pea’s lower lip caught between her teeth and she sucked hard on it in the slightly chapped skin.

Pea greedily tugged at her underwear, nearly ripping them at the seams as he pulled them down. Lavender released him, letting out another laugh. “So, you’re not even going to take my skirt off first?”

He let out a small groan of frustration. “You started this, not me.” He pointed out, referencing to her attack on Kitty since it was probably the biggest turn on he’d ever experienced.

She grinned at him innocently before lifting her hips up so she could discard her skirt as well. “Take your clothes off, sweetheart.” She cooed as she tugged off her own t-shirt and bra so that she was completely naked underneath him.

Sweet Pea admired the view before making quick work of his own clothes. Now that they were both naked, Lav could see how rock hard he was. She gave him a look of pure anticipation. He dove down to capture her lips once more.

He left a trail of wet, sloppy kisses down her neck and down between her breasts. His thumb rubbed over her clit teasingly, causing Lav to let out a whiny moan.

Her legs spread for him eagerly. “That’s right baby, spread your legs for me.” He growled against the skin of her breasts.

A finger ghosted her entrance, producing another whine from her. “Damn, you’re this wet already?” He asked, looking up at her with a very proud smirk on his face.

Lavender shuddered as he moved back to rub her clit again in slow circles. She reached down and grabbed his cock to stroke it slowly. She smeared his pre-cum across the tip, sending pleasure through him that equated to her own.

He reached over to his bedside table and grabbed a condom out of the box just lazily sitting on top of it. Boy had nothing to hide, apparently. He ripped open the gold foil packaging and took it out.

She took it from his hands, “allow me.” She delicately rolled the condom onto his hard penis. Sweet Pea groaned at her touch, his head tilting back slightly.

He regained his train of thought and ran his tip against her slit. Lavender moved her hips to try and get him into her. He shot her a disapproving look before slowly inserting his tip.

She bit her lip at him, “Please, Pea,” She murmured to him. He grabbed one of her legs and brought it up against him so that it was against his shoulder. He kept a tight grip on her thigh and he pushed all the way in.

Lavender let out a moan, finally feeling some relief from all the pent up frustration she had been feeling the past few weeks. At last no one was interrupting them and they could just be.

Sweet Pea stopped when he was deep inside her, simply letting himself enjoy the feeling of being engulfed by her warmth. She looked up at him with pupils blown with passion. The same look always had whenever things started getting intense. He loved it. He wanted to capture it on film and just look at it any time he was feeling low.

He slowly started to thrust, taking himself almost all the way out before slamming back in. It was slow but hard, and every time he went in to his hilt he heard a delicious cry of pleasure come from his girlfriend.

Eventually his speed picked up, thrusts becoming a bit shallower in order to move faster. Lavender’s moans grew with his speed. The fabric of his sheets were bunched in her hands as she couldn’t touch him due to the position they were in.

Sensing that she wanted more to hold, he leaned down. Her leg bent at the hip to allow his body to be closer to hers. Her hands shot up and wrapped around him, nails digging into his skin. Sweets groaned at the sensation, always having loved to feel a bit pain while buried deep inside of her.

He started to pound relentlessly into her, wanting her to hit her peak and knowing that he could get her there quickly. “Sweet Pea,” She mewled, her leg still draped over his shoulder so that he was hitting a deeper angle than he normally did.

“You like that, baby?” He asked huskily, “you like being fucked by your man?”

“Yes!” She cried out, feeling her climax rising just as he wanted it to.

Sweet Pea didn’t let up, he kept moving his hips furiously until she was screaming out his name so loud that anyone outside the trailer probably heard it. A few jagged thrusts later, he came as well and moved her leg to the side so he could rest on top of her.

Lavender tried to catch her breath, feeling overwhelmed with a mass of emotions. Pea’s forehead was resting on her shoulder as he breathed deeply as well. Once he could see straight again he slid out of her and took off the used condom.

After tossing it into a nearby trashcan, he rolled over to lay beside her. They were cramped in his twin bed but it was comforting to be forced to be close together. His arm rested across her waist and he held her tight in his arms.

“You’re going to fall asleep, aren’t you?” Lavender asked once she could breathe normally again. Her tone was light and joking, not caring if he did fall asleep for a nap.

“Hmm,” He hummed tiredly, “considering it.”

She chuckled lightly and turned so her back was against his chest in a spooning position. “Get some rest. Then we can go for round two.”

[hellyeahomeland]

I was fully prepared to write a recommendation of the first season of You as a show that wouldn’t ruin your life. This is a show that Netflix first recommended to me about a year ago, back when it was all anyone could talk about. I watched the trailer and learned it was about Penn Badgley, Gossip Girl himself, stalking a woman. And I was supposed to find this sexy and/or dramatically compelling. Pass. 

(Mild-ish spoilers follow but I’m sure you can glean it all from a trailer. This show is really not about the ending but the journey.)

And pass I did, for about a full year. Last weekend, I finally caved. Penn Badgley plays Joe Goldberg, a New York City bookstore clerk (sorry, manager) who meets Guinevere Beck (known just as Beck), an aspiring poet. They hit it off because they both read books. This is literally the reason they hit if off. Oh, then he begins stalking her. Like, truly, breaking-and-entering, panty-sniffing, creeping-on-the-subway-level stalking. HE DOES IT BECAUSE HE IS ~*~IN LOVE~*~ WITH HER!!!!! This is all narrated drily and tongue-in-cheek by Joe. The show wants us to like Joe. Or, they want us to feel for Joe. Or, they want us to understand Joe. We are in his head via this narration almost 24/7. The dramatic irony in this show is off the charts! 

But, NEWSFLASH, Joe is a fucking creep. Penn Badgley plays this very well. If you didn’t think Dan Humphrey was a creep, I don’t know what show you were watching in 2007. Very quickly, You picks up. Joe digs himself deeper and deeper into his obsession with Beck. The show grinds with this narrative force as Joe crosses any and all lines for Beck, all in the name of love. 

What is more remarkable--dare I say, addictive--about this dumb fucking show is that Beck starts to fall for him too! We are actually witnessing their “love” story. Is it romantic? Fuck no!!! Is it sexy? HELL NO, HE STALKED HER!!! Can I stop watching? ALSO NO.

I want to stop watching because this behavior goes against everything I believe and yet I physically cannot. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him! And yet....fuck I hate myself, I literally looked up “joe beck you” YouTube videos when I finished the season. I only watched one. It was set to “Toxic” by Britney Spears. I’m sorry! Did I mention I am trash? 

(PAUSE to just acknowledge, yeah, I fell in love with another codependent mess of a female character SO WHAT. Beck, I love you!!!!) (And that is at least 85% of the reason I became obsessed.)

This show has a bizarro meta layer that sits on top of all the plot and characters and is sort of breathtaking. It’s what takes it beyond a run-of-the-mill thriller and into real “wtf did I just watch,” “I can’t stop thinking about this” territory. Like, we hate Joe. We really do. We know he is a creep and a psycho and a killer. (Although apparently some viewers truly find him attractive in a real way and to those people I say #FindGod.) The show knows this, too. The show knows that we know. We are in a Friends “they know that we know that they know that we know” realm. 

I don’t like Joe. In fact, I hate him. But I do enjoy watching him. I enjoy watching him and Beck together. I love Beck, and so I want her to be rid of this fucker. But I understand why she stays (again, mess. Also, daddy issues). Do I ship them? No, I don’t. I don’t want them together because I know he’s gonna fucking murder her! That is not an exaggeration. But I also don’t not want them together?????? (Again, I am  t r a s h.) I want to know what will happen next, even as I know that the thing that will ultimately happen is he will hurt her and kill her. In fact, the ending feels so set in stone it’s actually miraculous that the show builds up so much tension and suspense as it hurdles toward what is largely a predetermined conclusion. This sick, twisted fuck, waste of a man will end her life. And then move on to the next poor codependent, desperate mess of a woman whose life he can infiltrate and ruin. 

The conflict that this creates inside me--of being a person who said “no thanks!!!!!” for a year to a show about a man stalking a woman and then watched the whole first season in 24 hours--is something I don’t know how to deal with. The best way to describe it is “mindfuck.” 

There is a line toward the beginning of the series where Joe is talking with a few of Beck’s vapid friends who are basically uniformly terrible and in voiceover he says something like, “God, am I the only feminist here?” It’s a hysterical line. This show is often hysterical. But thinking back to it now it has this whole new meaning: what does it say about me (and my feminist values) that I find this horrifying and horrifyingly violent show entertaining--no, thrilling? That I can’t stop thinking about it? The show doesn’t endorse the violence and abuse (of all varieties) that take place. And I know it’s fiction. I know the show is saying that our romantic ideal of Prince Charming doesn’t exist. I know that people we want to see as heroes are actually villains. I know this. I did not need these reminders. But I still let it ruin my life, didn’t I? 

Edit: well.... season two is not it. We stay stanning Guinevere Beck though! 

[mtvswatches]

Wynonna Earp 1x05 Digging Up Bones

Spoilers disclaimer (please read before sending messages or writing comments.)

Stray thoughts

1) Does Wynonna have prophetic dreams like Buffy? I mean, she’s obviously haunted by her dad’s and sister’s deaths, but I can’t help but think there must be some underlying meaning to her nightmares…

2) #same

And something about the camera angle and the lighting gives this scene a dream-like quality? Is she still dreaming?

3) Ugh this dude is still there?

Well, I guess not any more…

4) 😊

I love how distracted Wynonna is by looking at Dolls because, let’s be real, who wouldn’t?

5) I’m guessing Wynonna has some kind of history with this judge guy.

6) What do you know, Purgatory is as corrupted as Sunnydale or Neptune. But at least Dolls knows how to play the game.

7) See? They are a Scooby Gang!

DOLLS: Waverly will stake the place out during the raid and photograph anyone she sees. Doc will come down, see if he recognizes anyone - from the old days.

8)

WYNONNA: Aw, there's a little rebel in there.

DOLLS: Not that little.

9) The creepy-crawler dude has it out for Doc, but like, Doc only did what Bobo ordered him to?

10) I feel Wynonna not playing by the rules is going to be both her saving grace and her downfall in this journey. For instance, she pushed the situation at the trailer park until she got what she wanted – she got Bobo arrested. But Bobo saw Waverly taking pictures, and we know Bobo has a special place in his heart for Waverly…

11) I agree with Dolls, though. Wynonna will have to learn when to play by the rules and when to break them. She needs to learn to walk that thin line because if she doesn’t, it could backfire.

12) Holy shit, this scene!

My heart was thumping during their whole exchange, it was so tense and scary. For the first time, I was legit terrified of Bobo and what he could do. I mean, I don’t think there was much he could do (although I suspect he could’ve broken free if he’d wanted to, he was probably just being smart and trying to play nice.) But just the way he stared at Waverly and talked to her and pointed at her? CHILLS.

And this?

WAVERLY: Why, when I was little, did you choose me to manipulate? Huh? Because I was gullible? Weak?

BOBO: Weak is something you've never been. I chose you because you were angry.

WAVERLY: I wasn't angry.

BOBO: You sure?

WAVERLY: I'm not, OK?

BOBO: You've got depths that neither of us know the bottom of yet. Trust me.

What will be these depths Bobo is talking about?

13) WHAT THE FUCK!!! HOW DID HE DO THAT!!!

Like, he couldn’t use it, but damn if he didn’t prove a point! And what type of superpowers does he have? And WHY? What makes him more special than the rest of the revenants? Is it the fact that he knows the name of the Stone Witch?

14)  Miss Stone? Is she the Stone Witch????

15) Wynonna just got kidnapped by a revenant and guess which is the dynamic duo coming to the rescue?

16) If it wasn’t the judge the one who tipped Bobo off about the raid, then who was it? There were only so many people who knew it was going down, right?

17) So this guy conveniently knows who The Seven are? He even has photographic evidence? And he’s Doc’s bestie, apparently?

18) Is Bobo being… abused?

19) She’s definitely the Stone Witch. Constance or Clootie or Miss Stone.

20) Okay…

This was some twisted fifty shades of weird stuff. What type of relationship do they have? He’s suggested he has some power because he knows the Stone Witch’s real name, which is why he’s the only one who can leave the Ghost River triangle limits. So I assumed that gave him some power over her, but it seems he’s totally submissive in their relationship? And what did she mean when she said that she could “hear them”? I don’t think she’s talking about the revenants…

21) How did Wynonna not realize that this dude was gay? Like, he was drooling over Doc. Then again, who wouldn’t be? Also, I really love the implications that Doc probably knew about his sexuality and was supportive of him? That’s some progressive shit for the Far West…

22) She keeps staring at his lips as he talks and I’m here for this shit…

23) “Earps. Always trying to cut filthy little deals whenever it suits them.” Is he talking about Wynonna’s father? And what type of filthy deal did he cut? Will we find out?

24) Oh, this fucking dude is channeling her father’s voice! That’s messed up!

25) This reminded me of Buffy in When She Was Bad…

26) Creepy Crawler Dude was the photographer! Does this mean that Doc knew who he was when he pushed him over the limits and tied him up? Like, he met up with his old buddy and knew that he’d given his soul mate a death sentence and didn’t say anything?

27) Did this dude really think he’d remind Wynonna of what they’d done to her sister and she’d let him live?

28) Ha!

It’s science.

Favorite out-of-context line.

29) Hahaha I died! The boobs didn’t work, Doc had to flirt with the ladies!

30) Dolls stopped playing by the rules when the judge insulted Wynonna. And is the judge a fucking child molester? I hope someone gets to cut his dick off.

31) I couldn’t take this scene seriously because of his fucking face hahahaha!

Did she put a spell on him or something?

32) Okay, Doc didn’t know that Levi was Fish’s partner. That makes me feel better about him chaining him up.

33) Eeewwww he chewed off his foot????

I thought he’d just cut it off!

And I just realized maybe that was barely any better.

34) Will this give Wynonna a different perspective on revenants?

I mean, how can it not?

I really love this idea that not all revenants are psychopathic criminals, and that some were people who made poor choices in life. It cannot be all black or white, and I think this will probably be one of the toughest lessons Wynonna will have to learn.

She’s gonna kill them and I’m not ready for it.

35) What the fuck is her deal?

Who are her boys? What is this “lead” she’s promised Bobo? And why is she scared of Doc? It didn’t seem that way when they met earlier…

36) holY FUCJJLASLDJLAD

I literally spent 5 minutes rewatching that scene… It really caught me off guard, and I was so caught up in what they were talking about because it felt like a defining moment for both of them, you know? Wynonna coming to the realization that she cannot be driven only by revenge, and that she needs to face the fact that not all revenants are demons; Doc defining himself as a monster and embracing his thirst for revenge, even though it seems he’s blaming Constance for a choice he made? And then Doc saying that he and Wynonna are exactly the same… and then… yeah, that was a defining moment for both of them, alright...

Damn, that was hot. I think it’s going on my Epic First Kisses list. Damn. I need to watch that again, excuse me.

I really didn’t expect them to go there this soon into the show? Like, the chemistry between Wynonna and Doc was obviously off the charts, but I thought the writers might want to milk the UST for a while before getting them together? Or maybe they would keep the sexual tension unresolved?

And now I’m freaking out because I fear it might be a one-time thing? Please don’t let it be a one-time thing.

37) Why was Doc in that well, by the way? Did I miss it or hasn’t it been explained yet?

38) Oh shit…

That’s probably the last picture of the Earp sisters together, isn’t it?

39) OH FUCK

So it was the fucking child molester the one who tipped off Bobo!!

40) Now that was some an episode alright! The plot advanced A LOT: we saw the face of the Stone Witch and learned a little bit more about her relationship with Bobo – although I still have so many questions! Waverly confronted Bobo and he hinted at her having some powers, we’re learning more about the involvement of the authorities in covering up the revenants and their dirty deeds, Wynonna learned that she cannot be driven by revenge and WYNONNA AND DOC FUCKING KISSED.

Also, I died!

This really felt like a pivotal episode, and I truly can’t wait to see the next one!

41) Hope you enjoyed my recap, and, as usual, if you’ve got this far, thank you for reading! If you enjoy my recaps and my blog, please consider supporting it on ko-fi.Thanks!

[haltandcatchfiretothemax]

FEMSLASH FEBRUARY 2019 #8: In which Cameron tries to give herself a break

[CW: food, alcohol]

Bringing up the realtor had made things awkward, and Cameron felt guilty about it, even though it was a weirdly comfortable discomfort. She and Donna had dealt with their share of tension, it was entirely possible, Cameron had thought to herself while driving to Donna’s, that they were more acclimated to being slightly agitated with each other than not. Cameron imagined what that pie chart might look like: if you could tally up the number of days they’d worked together at Mutiny, and divide them into ‘days spent in some kind of disagreement’ and ‘days in agreement with no awkwardness’, the number of days spent in some kind of disagreement would probably be much larger. The chart’s days in agreement would make up a healthy slice, but, only a slice. Not a half, or even a third, or a quarter, even. They’d disagreed more often than they’d agreed, and they were working together again, Cameron tried to reassure herself. It would be okay.

Donna had been a little quieter than usual for the rest of that week, thought still eager to work. They suddenly weren’t as chatty as they had been, as if they’d both suddenly become too conscious of how easily they went back and forth. Cameron hadn’t slept on Donna’s couch all week, and had stopped lingering after they decided to stop for the evening. Donna noticed it, but seemed to take it okay. Every night she would walk Cameron out, and trying hard to sound casual, she would ask, “Are you alright?” Cameron would always say, “Yeah, I’m fine, I just wanna get home before it gets any later.” She let Donna hug her, and say, “Get home safe,” and Cameron would say, “I will, I’ll call you.” She would leave promptly, and then she’d get home 45 minutes later, change into her pajamas, and call Donna’s house. “I made it home,” Cameron would say, and then Donna would say, “Good, I’m glad to hear it. See you tomorrow?” “See you tomorrow,” Cameron would nod. They would say good night and hang up, and then both go to lie awake in their respective beds and think about how weird things had been.

They were both uncharacteristically relieved to make it to Friday that week. Saturday had become their day off, and as Donna walked Cameron to her truck, she said, “So. Any plans for tomorrow?”

“Dinner with Bos,” Cameron grinned, “I’ve been slacking on our weekly schedule. He wants to go somewhere fancy, some upscale hibachi place? I usually make him go to a diner, so, I’m humoring him. How about you?” After a slightly nervous breath, Cameron asked, “Got a hot date planned for tomorrow night?”

Donna chuckled lightly. “I’m gonna try to make myself get out of the house, despite not having anything resembling a hot date. I’m spending the day with Haley, and if I’m feeling up to it, I don’t know, maybe I’ll get dressed up and go out tomorrow night?” They stood by the truck now, and Donna put her hands in her pockets. “It’s been awhile,” she said, “it might be nice.” 

“Oh, okay,” Cameron said. She wasn’t sure if this made her feel better, though it didn’t seem to make her feel worse.” When Donna hugged her, Cameron said, “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do tomorrow night. Be careful, okay?”

“I will,” Donna had promised.

The restaurant was close to Cameron’s property, and she was only a few minutes late. She was relieved to find that it wasn’t too large or too busy. When she got there Bos was already sitting in a cozy circular booth and looking at a menu, a large bottle of sake on the table. When he looked up to see her, he said, “There she is! And a half hour earlier than usual! I was prepared to enjoy this entire bottle of sake by myself while I waited!” 

“You’re exaggerating,” Cameron smiled as she sat down next to him. “I’m not that bad. Also,” she grabbed the bottle of sake and looked at it, “this would have you under the table if you drank the whole thing. I’ve had it, it’s very affordable, but, extremely potent.” 

“See now this is why I need you here with me kid,” Bos laughed. “You can rate how authentic this hibachi experience is for me!”

Their waitress, a short young woman with very black hair and very brown skin, placed a plate of fried tofu on the table in front of them. When she asked if they needed another minute, Bos insisted that Cameron order for the both of them, so she looked at the menu and asked for the steak, the vegetables, and the salmon. As soon as the waitress left them, Bos smirked, “Well I’m sure Diane will appreciate that you went with the vegetables and the salmon.”

Cameron had grabbed and begun to munch on a piece of tofu. She swallowed, and unable to resist, said, “Well, if authenticity is important to you, technically, this isn’t hibachi. The actual name for food cooked on this kind of grill in Japan is teppanyaki. Hibachi grills are a little different, and they use charcoal.” 

Bos smiled warmly at her and then teased her, “Yeah, yeah, we get it. You lived in Tokyo, you’re a woman of the world now.” Sincerely, he asked, “So what’s doin’, kid? How are things? How’s Donna?”

When Cameron frowned at him, he said, “Oh come on now….”

“It’s nothing,” Cameron shook her head. “I’m sure it will be fine, I just, I made it awkward, and we’re both just trying to get over it. I think.”

Feigning only slightly more aggravation than he felt, Bos looked at her sternly and said, “Catherine, I have already had one heart attack, alright?” Shocked, Cameron started to laugh, but Bos pressed on, “No, now listen to me! My ticker has been through it, alright, you can’t fool with me like this! What did you do, Cameron?”

He was joking, mostly, but Cameron suddenly felt very nervous. “I didn’t do anything, I just, I brought up something that happened a long time ago.” Bos narrowed his eyes at her, and Cameron said, “Not a fight or anything like that, I know better than that. When I bought my first house here, Donna went with me to see it, and the realtor treated us like we were a couple. She clearly thought we were buying the house together.”

Bos looked at her for a moment, and then with a mischievous grin, he said, “What happened? Did the two of you fight in front of her?” When Cameron responded by stuffing a whole square of tofu into her mouth and looking down into her plate, Bos let out a howling laugh. When he finally settled down after a full minute, he said, “Well okay, so she got confused. It’s a mistake anyone could make! Especially back then.” 

“Someone else said it recently, though,” Cameron blurted out. “We ran into Simon Church at a conference last month and then we had him over for dinner at Donna’s and when I walked him out to his car, he said we made a great couple.”

Eye brows knitting, Bos asked, “Why do I know that name?”

“He’s the industrial designer we brought in for the Giant,” Cameron said, still looking into her plate.

“Ah ha,” Bos’s face relaxed. “So did you two fight in front of Simon?”

“No,” Cameron sighed. She propped an elbow on the table and rested her chin in her hand. “We had a very nice evening, we were the perfect hostesses. Honestly, it was the best wifely performance of my life.” 

“I see,” Bos said. “And what did Donna say when you told her that Simon had mistaken you for an item?”

“I didn’t tell her,” Cameron said. She looked at Bos, and saw that he was looking at her. “What? Why are you looking at me like you know something I don’t?” 

“I don’t!” Bos insisted. “I just think that it’s interesting, is all. That you didn’t tell her.”

“I don’t know, I think I was in shock,” Cameron said, wrinkling her nose. “I mean, it took a minute for it to sink in. And we’d had a really nice night and things with the navigator were going really well, so I didn’t say anything.” 

“Did you maybe think it would upset her? No? Did it upset you?” Bos pressed her.

“No,” Cameron said. “Not exactly. I wasn’t offended or anything. It’s not the first time people have looked at me and, you know, assumed.” 

Bos struggled to suppress a smirk. Then he said, “So something about it did make you feel some sort of way.” When Cameron frowned at him, he said, “Sounds like you got some figurin’ out to do, Slim.” 

Their waitress and two of her fellow servers brought out their food, which looked and smelled delicious, especially after that particular conversation. “You know what, it’s fine. It’s gonna be fine,” Cameron said. “Let’s talk about something else.”

“That’s the spirit!” Bos said, reaching over for the steak. “Stay positive, don’t make a big deal outta something silly, some thing someone said that’s actually a compliment to the two of you.” 

“Exactly,” Cameron said, apprehensively reaching for the salmon. “So, what about you? How’s Diane?” 

For the next two hours, they talked and laughed as they ate and drank, and Cameron managed to forget the quiet panic she’d been in all week. But then Bos reassured her out in the parking lot, as they said their good nights, that she’d be alright and that some things just need time to sort themselves out. By the time Cameron got back to her trailer, she was back to feeling the weird, existential-feeling nausea she’d been fighting off all week. 

[fionnfanatics]

Request: could I request something where the reader is like Harry or Fionn’s sister and Barry’s girlfriend and she gets taken and like hurt or something? Then they all find her and comfort her n stuff, and they are all protective of her? Include the rest of the cast if you want, thank you so much! X

A/N: some depictions of violence. ——————–

“Hey, guys? I think I’m gonna head back to the trailers. I’ve got a migraine starting.”

You were currently out to dinner with your twin brother and some of his co-actors on the new film Dunkirk. Fionn often dragged you along with the guys, if only so that he wasn’t the youngest there.

You went to University only 30 minutes away from where they were filming, so you often spent your weekends on set watching Fionn act and hanging out with him and his friends.

You had grown really close with the cast, especially Barry Keoghan. The two of you often hung out when Fionn was busy, and eventually the two of you had started dating. Neither of you had told your twin yet, fearing he would become extremely over protective. He had a tendency to do that.

Sometimes it was hard to hide it from your brother, but you were planning on telling him soon. You just didn’t know how.

The dinner group tonight consisted of Fionn, Barry, Tom, Harry and Aneurin. The other guys had flown home for the weekend, spending time with their families.

“Are you alright?” Fionn asked, looking at you worriedly as you stood from the table.

“Yeah, I just want to go back and get some Motrin in me before it gets worse.” You replied, not even attempting to put some money on the table. Every time you tried it ended up right back in your pocket with a scolding from one of the boys.

“Do ye wan’ me to walk with ye?” Your boyfriend spoke up, already beginning to rise from his seat.

“No, I’ll be fine. You all stay here and have fun. It’s been a long week for you.” You smiled, placing a hand on his shoulder so he’d sit back down.

“Let me know tha’ you’ve made it back alrigh’, ok love?” You merely nodded, noticing that Fionn was staring in between the two of you suspiciously. You quickly said goodbye to everyone, leaving the restaurant.

The trailers weren’t too far from the restaurant, only a 10 minute walk. When you were a little ways down the street you noticed you had forgotten your purse. Quickly sending a text to let your brother know, you continued on your walk.

A moment later two men approached you, grabbing your arm and pulling you into an alleyway. You screamed out, but one of them quickly covered your mouth.

“Give us all your money girl and no one has to get hurt.” One of the men growled, turning you around to look at him. He was holding a knife in his hand, his face covered by a hood.

“I don’t have any money with me.” You replied timidly, trying to back away from the men. Your hands were shaking violently, heart pounding against your rib cage.

“Liar!” The other man shouted, slapping you across the face. The force of the hit sent you stumbling to the ground, head bashing against the asphalt. Stars danced before your eyes, pain exploding from the back of your head.

It was safe to say that now you definitely had a migraine.

“Come on man, let’s go! I can hear a car coming!” The first man shouted, sending more pain through your head.

“Little brat.” The second man spat angrily, sending a kick at your stomach before he left.

The pain from your head and stomach became too much, quickly sending you into a world of darkness.

“Jesus Christ, what happened?” A voice spoke, breaking through your consciousness an hour later.

“I don’t know, I had just finished parking the spitfires and I was driving back to the trailers when I saw these two guys run out from an alley. I slowed down the car and saw someone lying on the ground. You can imagine my surprise when I got out and saw it was Y/N.” Another voice spoke, the two men oblivious to you as you opened your eyes.

Squeezing your eyes shut briefly at the light, you opened your eyes again and looked around the room. You were in a hospital bed, only two others were in the room with you. Chris, and one of the stunt pilots on set, Jeff.

“Thank you Jeff, for finding me.” You spoke up, making both men snap around to look at you. Chris immediately rushed towards you, taking one of your hands in his.

“Of course sweetie. I’m gonna go let the doctor know you’re awake.” Jeff sent you a quick smile, before exiting the room.

“Are you alright Y/N?” Chris asked, his eyes glancing at the bruise on your cheek.

“My head and stomach are a little sore, but it’s not anything I can’t handle.” You replied, wincing when you moved your head slightly.

“That’s to be expected, you’ve got a concussion and a broken rib.” A voice spoke, surprising you and Chris. You hadn’t heard anyone walk in. “My name’s Doctor Schwartz, I’ve been taking care of you. Would you mind if I checked your vitals and asked a few questions?”

For the next 20 minutes you were checked over, also explaining all that had happened. Chris was pretty angry, leaving the room saying he was going to go talk to the police. The doctor stayed with you, giving you some medication for the pain.

“When can I get out of here Doc?” You asked, already a little antsy from being here. You never were good at just sitting around and doing nothing.

“I’m going to keep you over night, just to make sure everything with that concussion is ok.” He told you, hanging your chart over on the wall. He then turned to you again, a smile on your face. “Now I’ve heard you have a few visitors out in the waiting room. I can send in three of them if you’d like some company.”

“That would be great Doc! Can you send in Fionn, Harry and Barry?” You asked, knowing those three would be the most anxious to see you. Harry had easily become your best friend over the past couples of months, you both just got along so well.

“Anything for my favorite patient.” He said, before disappearing out into the hall. You sat yourself up slightly, holding your side to support your rib.

A minute late Barry was rushing through the door, Harry and Fionn following behind him. Your boyfriend was instantly at your side, pressing a quick kiss to your lips.

“Ye had me so worried love. Don’ ever do tha again.” He told you, brushing some hair away from your face.

“Sorry for worrying you Bar, but I’m fine.” You assured him, taking his hand in yours.

“What the hell?” An angry voice spoke, causing you and Barry to jump apart. Fionn was staring between the two of you, and accusing look in his eyes.

“Let them be mate, it’s not important right now.” Harry told him, placing a reassuring hand on your brothers shoulder. He then turned to you, sending you a wink and a cheeky grin that made you blush.

“You’re right.” Fionn said, shoulders slumping as he calmed down. He moved to the other side of you, siting down in a chair. The other two boys followed suit, each looking at you. “What happened sis?”

You once again found yourself explaining the events in the alleyway from earlier, wincing every once in a while when you moved wrong.

When you finished, the boys were all looking angry.

“If I ever get my hands on those boys…” Fionn trailed off, making a crude gesture with his hands.

“Fionn Whitehead, don’t you ever do that again!” You shouted in outrage, causing everyone to laugh. The tension was instantly abated then, leaving everyone in a calm silence.

“I knew I should have gone with ye.” Barry said, voice filled with guilt.

“It’s not your fault Bar, stop that. I’m fine.” You spoke sternly, taking his hand in yours again.

“But-”

“No ‘buts’ Barry.” You interrupted, staring up at him. “I’m fine.”

A throat clearing broke you two out of your stare off, jumping as you suddenly remembered Fionn was still in the room.

You turned to look at him, a sheepish smile on your face. His look was hard as he stared at the two of you, but there was a twinkle of amusement in his eyes.

Harry was chuckling behind him, watching as Fionn crossed his arms over his chest.

“Don’t think you two are off the hook. We’re discussing this as soon as you’re out of the hospital.”

[magenta-fantasies]

Two Season 8s: Game of Thrones and Winx Club

Game of Thrones and Winx Club couldn’t be more opposite, but they share one vital similarity: both have a Season 8 that premiered in April 2019, and I was psyched for both.

Game of Thrones ended a couple weeks ago (incidentally on the same day as Kids Con—more about that here.) I was astounded by the amount of controversy, ambivalence and outright bile online, to the point that nearly a million people signed a petition to redo Season 8 (like that will ever happen.)

Perhaps I don’t feel the negativity because I haven’t read A Song of Ice and Fire (though I plan to now that Game of Thrones is over.) I’ve met several book readers who enjoyed Season 8, so it’s hard to say. All I know is that people will be talking about Game of Thrones for a long, long, looooooong time. It will go down in history as a classic, like I Love Lucy, Star Trek, The Sopranos or The Dukes of Hazzard.

It’s not my favorite season, nor is it my least favorite season. Overall, I enjoyed Season 8, though I recognize its faults. The plot was rushed because there were only six episodes (I expected eight.) The first two episodes are slow. Though I enjoyed the plot twist where Daenerys snaps and becomes a villain as she torches King’s Landing, it feels unearned and needed more build up to be believable. She didn’t just jump the slippery slope into villainy; she triple somersaulted off the high dive over it. Even though I like her as a character, I enjoyed her death scene and couldn’t have envisioned a better end for her. On the topic of endings, I found the final episode to be anticlimactic and completely implausible. How in the world was Jon spared after killing Daenerys? It’s hard to believe her armies would allow everyone else to meet peacefully, and that Jon’s men would tolerate having their leader/former leader taken prisoner.

Season 8 also had many strengths. The production values are off the charts (honestly, movie quality if not better). I wouldn’t be surprised if the budgets for The Long Night and The Bells broke TV records. There were many dramatic and well-executed character deaths. The death scene with Cersei and Jaime was one of my favorite death scenes in the show. Like with Daenerys, I couldn’t have envisioned a better way for them to die. I really hoped that Jaime wouldn’t be the one to kill her (rumors about this floated around the fandom for years) and I don’t think they could have had a more emotionally compelling death. I cried when Cersei and Jaime died, one of the few Game of Thrones death scenes where I did so.

And onto that other Season 8…

As I said here, I was psyched for Winx Club Season 8, more because there was a Season 8 after a three-year hiatus with almost no news than because of the actual trailer. Actually, I had reservations about Season 8 based on the trailers, and some of these held true.

From the impression I had from the trailer, I didn’t think this would be one of the better seasons. However, even the “worst” Winx Club seasons (Seasons 2 and 5 are my least favorites) are still very enjoyable, so that doesn’t matter much. Granted, my opinion of Season 8 is skewed by the fact that I’m watching it in Italian and I don’t speak the language. The plot is easier to follow than I expected and I understand what’s occurring about 80% of the time.

Like with Game of Thrones, I’ve seen considerable ambivalence, controversy and hostility directed at Winx Club Season 8. Most of this is directed towards the new visual style. While I will never like the new visual style as much as the previous seasons (Seasons 5-7 in particular), it grew on me more than I expected. It aggravates me that the main characters were regressed in age, but at least the new art style is tolerable. The characters look less doll-like in animation than they did in the promotional images. I’m displeased with Valtor’s portrayal this season. He lost almost all of his menace and charisma from Season 3 that made him the most popular Winx Club villain aside from the Trix. Also, he no longer marks characters who ally with him.

Winx Club Season 8 has several positive qualities. The theme song is fantastic. I liked it from the moment I heard it. It has an extremely catchy tune, like Season 7’s theme, but the lyrics aren’t as childish. At least, that assessment is based off a snippet in English I heard on the official Winx Instagram. The animation is spectacular, as expected for Winx Club. Riven returns after he left at the end of Season 6, and his and Musa’s passive-aggressive behavior towards each other is amusing. I also enjoy the building tension between Bloom and Sky.

The new character Orion is great so far. He’s charming yet weaselly and overall fun to watch, as well as being handsome. He may have unscrupulous ways of solving problems, but from what I can infer from the animation, his intentions are ultimately good. It appears that he wants to revive his planet, and he doesn’t seem to know that Valtor is evil when he allies with the wizard. Twinkly and the Lumens are more endearing than most of the “cute mascot species” introduced in past seasons. They appear to hide great power, and I’m curious to see what direction this takes the plot in. Even the villainous purple blobs (I’m not sure what they are called in English) are oddly endearing. Obscuro is a somewhat entertaining “comic relief sidekick villain”, although he can be annoying. In those times it is satisfying to see Valtor sock it to him, usually by warping him into painful places, for example making him fall into a patch of deceptively cute spike creatures.

I’m not going to let internet reactions get me down over two Season 8s I’ve been looking forward to for a very long time.

[crazyscotsmanthe1st]

Mary Queen of Scots

This isn’t a review as such, it’s been a couple of weeks since I saw the film and I don’t have the knowledge and passion about Mary Queen of Scots to write as detailed a piece as I did for Outlaw King. But I thought I’d hammer out a few general thoughts.

The thing everyone remembers about Mary is her death – even if you don’t know anything else about her, you’ll know that she was beheaded. That’s the earliest thing I can remember knowing, long before I studied history at school. So it’s an odd sort of story – everyone already knows the ending, and the task of the storyteller is to explain how we get there.

The film follows this pattern – in the trailers we hear Saoirse Ronan, the actress who plays Mary, repeatedly asking “how did it come to this?” And the film itself starts with her walking to the executioner’s block, before rewinding to tell the story.

The filmmakers choose to begin that story with her return to Scotland in 1561 – a logical place to start. But if we imagine her eventual fate as a jigsaw puzzle coming together, a lot of the pieces were already connected even then.

She had the misfortune to be born female, and have her father die when she was only six days old. An infant queen in an era of aggressive male monarchs – not least Henry VIII of England, who demanded she be betrothed to his son, Prince Edward. This was a naked attempt to absorb Scotland through marriage – national sovereignty would be the dowry.

When the Scots refused to surrender their young queen, Henry invaded Scotland in a campaign known as the “Rough Wooing” - a strange sort of name for a murderous rampage.  Terrible damage was done to Edinburgh and southern Scotland as the English sought both to punish the Scots and to force their submission to Henry’s will.

Scotland was no longer safe for Mary. In 1548, at the age of six, Mary was sent to France to be betrothed to the heir to the French throne.

So right from the start, Mary’s life was one of turmoil and upheaval. Fate was dealing her a cruel hand. Ironically, one of the cruellest cards in that hand was Mary’s rising importance.

Elizabeth I became Queen of England in 1558. She was the daughter of Anne Boleyn, who Henry VIII had broken with the Catholic Church in order to marry. As a result, she was considered illegitimate by Catholics throughout Europe. Meanwhile, Mary had a solid claim to the English throne because her grandfather James IV had married an English princess.

So Mary was now Queen of Scots, Queen Consort of France and, in the eyes of many, the rightful Queen of England. Dynastic dynamite.

Cruel fate struck again with two explosive events in 1560 – the Scottish Reformation, and the premature death of Mary’s husband, the young king of France. Mary was now a widow with no role at the French court, and faced the prospect of returning to a country that had just rejected her religion.

This is the Mary we meet in 1561 – a young lady whose name and connections give her claim, in theory, to immense power and authority. But also a young lady whose life has been chaotic and tragic even to this early point, who has been buffeted on the cruel tides of history and is suffering the second great upheaval and leap into the unknown of her short life.

The task she faces is daunting – to deal with a fractious pack of ambitious and aggressive nobles who are used to jostling and sparring for position in the absence of a monarch, and a church that is fanatically opposed to the faith she’s known all her life. And somehow, to rule Scotland while also furthering her own ambitions towards the English crown.

In a sense, this is the first time Mary has an opportunity to chart her own course. She can now make decisions for herself, but the odds are against her and the stakes incredibly high. A tall order indeed for an eighteen year-old.

Mary could have chosen to convert to Presbyterianism. It would have been the most sensible and pragmatic thing to do. But to do so would be to deny her whole understanding of the world and who she was. It’s not surprising, given the sudden plunge into the unknown, that she chose to cling to what little she could of the life she knew before.

But she also reassured the Scottish nobles and clergy that she would make no attempt to interfere with the Scottish church – she would keep her own faith in private, but her subjects could worship how they so chose. This is quite a modern and progressive attitude towards religion, and quite unusual for the 16th Century. To modern eyes, it should have been enough. But alas, the world she lived in was too suspicious and intolerant to let that stand.

John Knox, played in the film very well by David Tennant, raged against her from the pulpit. The tension was being steadily ratcheted up from the moment she stepped back onto Scottish soil.

One of the strange things about the film is its portrayal of Holyrood Palace. Mary is seen arriving at what looks more like a remote windswept castle, and holding court in a hall which has been partly carved out of a cliff. In reality, Holyrood would be recognisable to those who know it today – essentially half of what’s there now, an L-shape with one of its distinctive double towers – the other was added for symmetry in the 17th century.

Throughout the film, Scotland is depicted as rugged and remote. I have mixed feelings about this – it shows off Scotland’s breathtaking natural beauty very well, but it’s also a misrepresentation of what was an advanced and civilised European country of the day.

Now that Mary can make her own choices, she can also make her own mistakes – from now on the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle will be placed by her own hand.

First, she marries Lord Darnley. She appears to have genuinely loved him at first, but she very quickly regrets her choice. Darnley is a vain and arrogant young man who drinks heavily and is very unpopular with the Scottish lords.

Nevertheless, Darnley also has a claim to the English throne so Mary is strengthening her own ambitions in that direction. One of her faults was that she was constantly looking south, rather than over her own shoulder.

She and Darnley conceive an heir – something Elizabeth will never do. But one of the great ironies of Mary’s life is that each victory only ratchets up the tension and the danger even more. It’s another step towards the executioner’s block.

One source of tension was David Rizzio – Mary’s personal secretary, a handsome young Italian she’d brought with her from the French court. The two were very close and would spend a great deal of time together. Many modern historians reckon Rizzio might have been gay, but the “gay best friend” relationship was not one that was well understood at the time. Many of the Scottish nobles, including Darnley, suspected they were having an affair.

The reasons for Rizzio’s murder are portrayed slightly differently in the film, but the brutal deed itself did happen more or less as depicted. Darnley and several other lords burst into Mary’s chambers, dragged Rizzio away from Mary and stabbed him a reported 52 times.

Mary retreated to the safety of Edinburgh Castle, where she gave birth to her son – the future James VI of Scotland and I of England.

The next major event in Mary’s life is an ongoing point of controversy to this day. In February 1567, her estranged husband Lord Darnley was lying ill in bed at Kirk o’ Field, on the site where Old College is today. In the middle of the night, the house was rocked by a massive explosion. Darnley actually survived the blast and staggered outside, but there were assassins lying in wait. His strangled body was discovered outside the smoking ruins. This is portrayed accurately in the film.

The question is, how much did Mary know? What was the extent of her involvement in the murder? It’s almost certain that the Earl of Bothwell was the leading conspirator - but was he acting on Mary’s orders, or with her consent or knowledge? Historians argue at length about this.

The dramatic nature of the murder makes it clear someone was making a statement. With Darnley ill in bed, the simplest thing to do would be to poison him and say he’d succumbed to his illness. But to use gunpowder – that’s the tool of someone who wants to demonstrate his power and send a warning to his enemies. From what we know about Bothwell, it fits the bill.

Personally, I think it may have been a “who will rid me of this troublesome priest” moment. Mary may have expressed a wish that Darnley was dead, and Bothwell took that as his green light.

What Mary does next is probably her worst ever mistake – she marries Bothwell. Some accounts say she was abducted and/or raped by him, but all we know for certain is that she ended up marrying the man widely suspected of  her late husband’s murder.

This was too much for Scotland’s nobles, who rose up and deposed her. The rising of the nobles and deposing of Mary are kind of fudged in the film, and her imprisonment in Loch Leven Castle is not shown - which is a shame.

Mary escaped and fled to England, hoping to enlist the support of Elizabeth. This is another massive gamble – Mary has spent her whole life talking up her claim to Elizabeth’s throne. She is throwing herself on the mercy of a woman whose crown she has always wanted.

What happens next in the film is something that has had chins wagging ever since the trailers were released – a face-to-face meeting between Mary and Elizabeth, which definitely never happened.

After all the anticipation, it feels like a bit of an anti-climax. But I did find one thing Elizabeth says very interesting – she says “I see now that your strengths have been your downfall”. I think this rings true. Mary was by all accounts more beautiful and more charismatic than Elizabeth. She married and produced an heir, which Elizabeth never did. Yet Mary ended up deposed and at Elizabeth’s mercy. The two monarchs are polar opposites of each other.

The next part of the story is the one we’re all familiar with. Kept a prisoner for nineteen years in England, Mary is sent a letter from an English Catholic called Babington informing her of a plot to assassinate Elizabeth and put Mary on the throne. What human being, after all those years in captivity, would pass up a chance to kill their captor and achieve their life’s ambition? Of course Mary gave her consent.

But her mail was being intercepted and read by Elizabeth’s spies. Mary has put the final piece of the jigsaw puzzle in place. Her fate is sealed.

The actual execution is not shown, and I suppose it would be out of step with the feel of the film. It was a botched beheading – it took three blows of the axe to sever her head. When the executioner held her head up, it was discovered she was wearing a wig and the head fell out and rolled away. More like Game of Thrones than a Hollywood romance.

The one-time Queen of Scots, Queen Consort of France and asserted Queen of England, who if the cards had fallen slightly differently could have ruled half of Northern Europe, gruesomely butchered to death in the final cruel twist of fate of her tragic life.

So was Mary a feminist hero, a strong woman in a time dominated by men? A helpless victim who was dealt a cruel hand and was ultimately doomed by forces beyond her control? A scheming and ambitious monarch who murdered her husband? Or a foolish young lady whose decisions were her own undoing?

All of the above.