#the stuff that we sell don’t really reflect as much on our checks tho I wish

[tariah23]

Finally got back home from work and I sold 3 $100 gift cards today

[yes-kassiopeia]

CALM lashton lyrics analysis

Here we go form C A L M lyrics analysis from a lashton point of view. Aka  another long as fuck post.

Few consideration first. I am really happy that all of the song are not love songs! That was a bit of a down point for me about YB and I’m really happy to see other theme in this album! Also, I think we can all agree that it’s an happier album than YB, and that’s good! I’m happy the boys feel in better place. 

Songs I won’t talk about too much about

There are very good songs that I don’t have much say about from a lashton perspective so I’ll just quickly pass them. 

Red desert. Great song, I love it, but not lashton song. It’s about going back to your roots, dive inside of yourself to find the core, the passion, and light it up. Like a phoenix rising from ashes. Let it rise in you and guide you further. Great message.

No shame. This one is a social and self critique of the way we seek for attention and fame. Very nice, but not a lashton song neither. 

Old me. A reflection on your past, owning your mistake and you strength as well. Learning lessons from the pass and find pride in your achievements. It is technically a lashton song. And I think it’s very cute that they wrote it together, but it doesn’t say much about their relationship. 

Wildflower. Such a bop! It’s the “valentine” of CALM, even surpasses it in my opinion. Feelgood, sexy, groovy, and all, but definitely not a lashton song. 

These were the happy song. All of the other song include darker, sadder feelings. And there are several ways to read them and I don’t predent to have the right way by any mean. But if you believe that Lierra is the perfect happy couple (”my parents” “goals” etc.) ... You’re probably closing your eyes on one or two things... 

Easier

As much as I looks like lyrics 5sos could have written, none of them are credited... And I had to double check that, because I though Luke has said multiple time that they, or at least, himself was involve in the writing of Easier. And I could definitely see that. But apparently not?  

This is the first song on the album which talks about dysfunctional / toxic relationship. It describes a position where you’re stuck: you’re not gonna change, they’re not gonna change, and it's not working out. You're hurting each other although it seem you want the same thing. You still love them, but is still worth staying. (And according to me the implied answer on the lyrics is yes)

Teeth

Teeth is Another song about dysfunctional toxic relationship! (insert party emoji). And this time it is written by lashton too. So what does it says. Push and pull, mood swings, lies, fake apologies. Loving someone who's always changing their face or their personality, don't know what they want from you, but they're not letting you go. But you love them, and you let them, still find their good side sweet and pretty. Small part of you still hoping you can built something, have future.

Alright... Let’s keep that in mind and adding to more songs

Not in the Same Way + Thin White Lies

Those two are very similar to me in their lyrical content.

About Not in the same way, I’m gonna take a wild guess and you don’t have to agree. But I feel like the verses, which are very short, were written separately from the rest. (the bridge is longer than the two verses together). The verses begin with the same line “Not today” meaning, “I don't want to fight with you again”. You point out my mistake, you cry, you scream at me. You're always anxious and I'm already sad, I don’t need this. (I want to escape)

Otherwise, the rest of the song is very repetitive and have this spinning sensation (I’m not sure, cause i’m a noob in music but I think it is 3/4? like lie to me, the bass rhythm all along as this three time valse-like ‘ta-da-da’ going on). To me this translate the lost balance, lost of reality. Making the same mistake again and again, even if you know it, even if it hurts you.

Thin White Lies goes along the same veins: I'm sad, I don't know how to handle the questions or my own reflection. The night comes and I make the same mistake, endlessly. In the morning  words break my heart, and I leave. But I'll always come back for one more taste of you. And hate myself for that.

BUT! In Thin Whites Lies there's the only time in the whole album where there’s a ‘she’ pronoun. A she that is different from the you everywhere else in the song. So that mean there are three people involved. There's someone else. “She said she loves me, doesn't show it.” I don’t feel you love, she doesn’t show her love neither. I’m in the middle, loosing my mind, don't know I am anymore. I am holding on thin white lies.

Okay so my conclusion, my interpretation, is that it’s Luke describing how he’ll always come back to Ashton, even if he breaks his heart, even if their both in relationship, even if he know it’s not gonna do any good. But he just can’t resist. And on the other hand it is screwing up majorly his relationship with Sierra (NITSM verses + “She”) whatever you think that might be (Friends, PR, couple, mixed, etc.) 

Best Years + Lover of mine

Before any Lierra stan starts to gushing over Best Years, let me remind you the first verse. “I wasted so much time on people that reminded me of you”. This means 1) being together 2) break up or cheat 3) trying to get redemption. So that’s not the ideal relationship they sell. AND, this proves this is about long relationship. Like very long, years obviously. And I personally don’t think Lierra has this kind of story... Lashton does tho. But you’re entirely free to disagree of course. 

Here’s my interpretation "We had a burning passion, that burnt us. I made mistakes. I have been with other people but I still about think you. Now that we're older and wiser, we can build something out of the mess and broken piece, a future together, the best years of our lives."

Luke said about it : “The song is a beautiful love note, something I felt I needed to get off my chest.” And yes it is a promise, but I am the only one who feels like it’s also a request ? like : “don’t you see what we could be? Don’t you want us to grow together?” and that’s it’s not directed at Sierra. But hey, what do I know?

Lover of mine. Completely unproved, but I feel like the verses and pre-chorus where is written by Lierra. And it’s about accepting your partner mistakes, past and flows, and embarrassing all of them. And the chorus is Ashton's addition and response to best years. It has the same theme of redemption and promises.

“I'll never give you away 'Cause I already made that mistake. If my name never fell off your lips again I know it'd be such a shame. When I take a look at my life and all of my crimes you're the only thing that I think I got right.” and this last sentence especially sounds a lot like Ashton to me. But that’s subjective I guess.

Also I feel like Ashton would the sassy guy to place his love confession in the couple song, just to screw it up x)”

Lonely heart

Lonely heart has an interesting point of view, as I feel like it is place on the side who’s holding back someone, while the other song are viewed from the one feeling held back. “We've been together, I know I hurt you. But if you go, I'll be lonely, you'll be lonely. So please can we have a second chance?” So I’d say it’d be Ashton answer to the other song (also I feel like he wrote some stuff from his heart in not in the same way too)

There a lot of theme that have already been exploited in the previous song so i’m not gonna go over them again. It doesn’t really bring much new content. Correct me if I am wrong. 

High

High is about being selfsish... in a good way? Trying to put yourself first when you still think so much of the one who hurt you. There this implied thing with the line “ my heart is built to last more than a night” that really ties with all the love in dark/ love at night / same mistake every time, we fuck/we fight, etc. that goes on from the all album. There’s another line that I want to point out: “I know I'll never meet your expectations.” which very sadly sound to me like: I’ll never the girls you can hold hand with publicly. And I might be reading way to much, but that just imposed itself to me. And it’s followed by “the picture that you paint of me looks better in your mind” which, once again, sound very much like something Luke could say about Ashton. 

I know this song my seem like their relationship is dead, and Luke’s trying to move on, but it’s not because it’s the last on the album that it’s the last in the chronological order of the real life even. I would personally place this as an really 2018 song. 

So yeah Lashton fucks! But they still don’t know how to handle it... And Sierra in the picture frame now. Woohoo. 

Leave you own comments and thoughts. I’d love to hear that :) 

And If you read till there, congrats, you’re a real one. 

Lots of love <3

[dailythranduilproject]

DTP Interview #6 Elbenherzart

Hello to all our friends and followers of Daily Thranduil Project!

Today it’s @elbenherzart‘s turn for our fandom interviews. She is a really talented professional illustrator, who has produced many beautiful artworks inspired by the world of Tolkien. She works with traditional media as well as with digital ones and has a lot of other creative talents, like sewing awesome cosplays. I hope you are curious to find out more about her, so without any further delay, I present you here with her answers to the questions we had asked her:

General Questions: 


Username(s) we can find you under: 



Either ElbenherzArt or my real name, Christina Kraus. :)




What Media do you create? 



For digital paintings I use Photoshop and for my traditional stuff mostly inks or ballpoint pens. I almost never use pencils, because I find myself erasing all the time. 

Are you self-taught or did you go to art school? 



I am mostly self-taught. Tho I have a bachelor degree in Intermedia Design. This gave me a few design and composition fundamentals I can apply to my images, but didn't teach me to draw or to paint. Also I have a lot of other professionals as friends who help me with critiques and reflection of my art. I always wanted to go to Art School but the programs in Germany are pretty shitty for it. All you learn is like drawing with a pencil bound to a stick, drawing with your not-drawing hand or drawing with a blind fold. It's complete garbage and I envy people who can afford programs such as the Swedish Academy of realistic Art where you actually learn useful drawing and painting fundamentals instead of fooling around. 




Which artists have influenced your style?



That is a tough question. I admire a lot of artists but I guess my digital work is mostly influenced by Magic-the Gathering or Dungeons & Dragons artists, since this is the direction my work is heading too. 



Which are your favourite artists? 



I'd say Peter Mohrbacher, Jana Schirmer, Cynthia Sheppard, Jason Rainville...but hell, there are a lot. I can't pick a favourite.



Where can we find your work? 



On my website, Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, Deviantart, Artstation and on Behance. 



What would you say you are best known for in the fandom? 



I'm not even sure I'm known for anything in this fandom. XD But the work I did based on the Silmarillion so far sells the best on Conventions and I get the most comments on it.  




Do you have a favourite pairing? 



Yes of course, but it's kind of controversial I'd say. ;)



Do you have a favourite creation of yours you are especially proud of? 



I'm kind of proud of my latest piece, Celebrimbor's Smithy. It was a tough one, since interior scenes are very hard in general for me. The work on this piece took a whole month with a few breaks of course. 



Do you have a favourite fictional character, besides Thranduil of course?



That would be Kylo Ren/Ben Solo from the Star Wars Universe. 



What other fandoms are you part of?

 

The Star Wars Fandom, tho I'm barely active there. I have a Tumblr blog dedicated to it, but I mostly just reblog stuff and did only one Star Wars related painting so far. The fandom is kind of toxic with its stupid ship wars and anti culture going on.



Do you do commissions?

 Yes. :)

Any advice/words for others in the fandom? 



That is such a general answer, but stay true to yourself, do what you love and don't give others shit over characters/pairings you don't like. Treat people the way you want to be treated. Be kind and respectful, you don't know what people are going through.
If you are an artist, or want to be one; only self reflection, critiques and hard work will get you moving forward. You need to be able to see your own flaws.  For that you need to seek out people who can give you an honest opinion about your art. (Not your friends or family.)
Vanity is the downfall of every professional artist. You can be proud of your work, but never vain. 
(You can always ask me for porfolio reviews or advice if you want by way. :))



Personal Questions: 


Favourite Book? 

The Silmarillion. 



Favourite movie? 

Currently Star Wars-The last Jedi.




Do you have a pet peeve? 



Littering. When I see people throwing their trash onto the walkways or streets I get furious. Take it to the next trash bin or home! It's not difficult.



What country are you from? 

Germany! 



Who do you think you might have been in a past life? 



Probably a cat. Sleeping and eating is all I want to do. :)



What do you like to do in your spare time other than create the media you work on?



When I'm not drawing or painting I'm either binge watching series on Netflix (currently Outlander <3)  or I'm with my friends/boyfriend. Sometimes I write Fanfiction, but mostly I'm reading it. I also try to travel as often as possible and sew my own costumes when time allows it.

 

When did you join the fandom?



I think back in 2007. Not really sure actually.  Definitely more than 10 years ago.

Follower Questions:

@floranocturna asked: 

You are a very versatile artist and I have been admiring your very cool cosplays already for a while, especially your Celebrian and Celeborn are amazing! Do you sew all the cosplays yourself?

 

Thank you and yes, I sew them usually by myself :).

What inspires you to cosplay a specific character? 



Honestly it's mostly the robes. If I like the aesthetic of a character, I want to cosplay him/her. XD Of course I also have an eye on the character and need to like him/her.



You are very ardent about being vegan. Will you tell us a little bit about your reasons and why is it important to you and should we maybe all think about how can we help to preserve nature instead of destroying it? 



This is a loaded question and I'm unable to answer it with just a few words. Feel free to ignore this text if you are not interested. 
As I learned that raising livestock for meat, eggs and milk generates 14,5% of global greenhouse gas emissions, the second highest source of emissions and greater than all transportation combined and that it's the leading cause of deforestation, biodiversity loss and water pollution, I knew that I had to act and change my diet, because I simply couldn't live with that knowledge and not doing something about it. And of course the killing of millions of sentinent animals every single day. The meat industry is the most powerful industry in the world and they try literally everything to make us continue to buy meat, to make it cheaper and to leave people in the dark about the consequences for our planet and our health. Here the Pharmaindustry comes in. The meat industry is their biggest customer (80% of their money is made from antibiotics they sell to farmers and animal factories) and sponsor, feeding billions of pills to animals each to day to alter their flesh. It's all about money, control and very fucked up. Like always.
 If the grain that is used to feed our first world country livestock would be given to people in Africa or other third world countries where children starve to death, no one on this planet would need to suffer from hunger anymore. It's all pretty messed up and a paradox. 
The only way of preserving nature in the long run is going vegan actually. I know that a lot of people don't like this thought, but that's mostly because they are misinformed (I was too, everyone is in the beginning) and fear either deficiencies or they think they can only eat vegetables and fruits. But that's not true. There are so many vegan dishes and sweets out there people are not even aware of. Oreos for example are completely vegan. A lot of junk food is. Cake, Ice cream and chocolat can be vegan too. It's all just a matter of replacing the eggs and there are plenty of alternatives. When people think about going vegan, they think about all the things they can't have anymore. Instead, think of the things you gain from it. You support the environment, save lifes and it's beneficial for your health. You are less likely to get cancer or diabetes. You don't have to give up your beloved sweets or junk food. I mostly eat the same things I ate before, just with egg replacement and almond or oat milk instead of cows milk. The only thing you have to keep in mind is B12. I take a pill everyday for it and you should too if your are vegan. If you do that you are completely safe and won't suffer any deficiencies if you live on a wholesome diet. 
This wall of text may imply that I try to preach or what ever, but I simply state facts. It's up to everyone if they choose to act or not. I don't judge people for not going vegan. It takes a bit of effort, research and people will judge you for it. If you want to have more information I recommend the Netflix documentaries „What the health.“ and „Cowspiracy“. They are all based on researchable facts and explain a few statements I've given here. Also you might want to take a look at „Why we love dogs, eat pigs and wear cows“.




@beelovesbutterfly asked: First of all, thank you for sharing your lovely artwork. What is your favourite art medium?

@themirkyking asked: Which method of creating do you prefer? Digital or traditional, and why?

For my personal taste and fun I prefer traditional mediums. It's much more relaxing than digital art where I have to stare at a screen all day. Also I love the smell of paint and texture of paper. But for client work I definitely prefer digital since it's easier to change mistakes and I'm able to finish something faster. What makes the pay a lot better. 

Thank you so much Christina for taking the time to participate in our series of fandom interviews for @dailythranduilproject. It was a pleasure having you!  

Please check out Christina’s blog and her page at DeviantArt for all her awesome artwork! And if you happen to be in Cologne on May 12/13th 2018 you can go and visit her booth at the RPC Germany!

@floranocturna ^^

[monster-just-want-to-be-loved]

Friday the 13th (2009)

Rating: 🌟🌟🌟⭐⭐

Kay: In celebration of the friday thirteen we watched the movie of the same name….but because we are useless we are posting about it just now...

Daaé: Because I am useless

Kay: Wasn’t going to say like that but yeah…. Anyway, board with us in this story about motherly love, friendship, Supernatural and….lots of blood.

Daaé: We started it without having the faintest idea of what we were getting into.

Kay: Yes, we just knew that there was a guy named Jason that used a hockey mask and killed everyone….and for our shock it starts with a woman killing the people and he doesn’t even use the mask at first…

Daaé: The first group of young people was also gone very quickly… Well, we expected them all to die so we didn’t get attached anyway.

Kay: Important lesson we learned during this movie: Don’t go for the marijuana….it’s going to get you killed by Jason.

Daaé: Also never have sex. You won’t even live enough to get pregnant you will only die.

Kay: Don’t do sex or drugs...is like your parents made a horror movie to make you don’t do things like they used to do on the medieval times

Daaé: I’m pretty sure there is a name for this… Anyway, the deaths were predictable but the way they happened was sometimes surprising. Or maybe it’s because the only other movie of this kind that we’ve watched had a murderer who always used the same weapon…

Kay: I don’t know what you have against a chainsaw...But the biggest problem I think was the fact that we KNEW they were all going to die, so anything they did we were like: “That’s it. It’s now.”

Daaé: It was funny though.

Kay: Yes, it was. The moment I saw Jared Padalecki on the screen I started laughing, because of course we would have a Winchester to take care of things, and let me say he was the most useful...even if he didn’t save his new girlfriend at the end.

Daaé: As useful as one can be when facing an overpowered maniac serial killer…

Kay: I was really sad when Lawrence and Chewie died….Trent could’ve died sooner. Let’s be honest tho, Trent invites his friends to his father camp house and doesn’t expect that they mess everything on the house?

Daaé: Trent didn’t tell his parents that he would have friends over and it’s canon.

Kay: Lol, true. And honestly, you put young people+isolated place you can have only one result: someone is going to die. That’s what college parties taught me.

Daaé: I never went to a single college party but I believe you

Kay: It’s true, we even think about putting it on our curriculum: Survived the college party...

Daaé: Young people are a danger to themselves. Specially if there is a young people hating psycho nearby.

Kay: Yes, always check if there is a psycho nearby when you have your sex-drug-party...

Daaé: And maybe stop the sex-drug-party if people start dying.

Kay: And maybe believe when someone says that there is a psycho dude killing people. The movie wasn’t the worse we ever watched but it’s not the best one either because it was very predictable and the end just made me mad even if I knew it was going to happen the moment they threw him on the lake (I learned some things from The Ring).

Daaé: I didn’t see the ending coming but I should have. I enjoyed some parts of the movie but it being predictable was a problem. I’m also proud of myself because I’m handling the bloody scenes much better than when we started watching this stuff.

Kay: I don’t have problem seeing blood and I am definitely glad that we finally got to see it on a terror movie after so many blood-less ones. I got scared like the first two times he appeared out of nowhere but then I was just guessing where he was going to appear. We were watching with our mother and she screamed everytime and that made me scream and then I laughed because she was scaring me more than the movie.

Daaé: Me in every horror movie ever: I get scared but I never scream, so it’s funny watching with people who scream.

Kay: I don’t usually scream...I get little heart attacks every time something scares me….and believe me, I get scared easily.

Daaé: I know. Anyway, I think this movie opened some doors. Isn’t there a new Texas Chainsaw Massacre movie coming out soon? I think we can go.

Kay: Hell yeah! You know I love this movie….It’s like the more bloody version of Friday the 13th. I also want to say that nothing brings people together like the investigation of a missing sister.

Daaé: Then I know why I didn’t find a lover yet…

Kay: I am kinda of scared of where this conversation is going so let’s see what we have on our gallery:

Kay: If you touch the drugs you gonna die

Kay: Selling house with lake view. Very cozy. Interested look for Crystal Lake, 13.

Kay: Because everyone knows that Jason’s hobby is playing the piano.

Daaé: Never take something old with a picture of someone who looks like you in it. The owner may want it back. Be they alive, dead, half dead...

Kay: They always come back...

Kay: Dude, he sleeps on a kid’s bed... he’s like 7 feet tall

Kay: OH NOO IT IS THE BAG KILLER

Kay: *Timmy’s Dad’s voice* Trent

Kay: Look, the best people in this movie being bros (on the right)

Kay: Trent on the background: “Oh my God, he is so hot! Must show my masculinity”

Daaé: We found the gay subplot

Kay: Sam, you already lost Dean?

Daaé: Welcome to Crystal Lake! We have marijuana and psychos! If you taste one you will meet the other!

Kay: Already having cop problems, Winchester?

Kay: “Wow, I feel so welcomed”

Kay: “I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be”

Daaé: “Who is this hot fella?”

Kay: “When will my reflection show who I am inside?”

Kay: She has seen things

Kay: You can see the light of life leaving his eyes

Kay: He’s dead, right?

Kay: WROONG!!!

Kay: Under the sea~

[re-renewed]

January 21, 2017

It's 1 AM. I am tempted to label this as the 20th, but that would be a lie. Alright so I already failed at the attempt to post every day but I'm not gonna feel bad about it. Lots of things have been happening, lots of good things, and I won't apologize for participating in them. I mean I'd only be apologizing to myself but still, I don't want to apologize for things I don't need to. Nobody needs a sorry person around. Anyway, things have been good. The Daniel's fast my family was on ends in two days but I definitely broke it today. I ate so much crap and I feel awful. Definitely going to watch what I eat this year because these 21 days did a lot for my health. I've been trying to tune more into God lately. Probably not enough, really, but I want to. It's just hard... and really, it's not supposed to be. I'm a bit mad at myself for knowing what's right and doing the exact opposite. I just found out my manager is moving to another store. Steve hired me when no one wanted to hire a 17 year old with no experience. He believed in me and trusted me when hiring other people as well. To know someone who has changed the lives of so many people is truly an honor, and I am forever thankful for the friendship I have with him. I applied for a new job at the rec 7 cafe today. The manager is so sweet. If I get the job, I'll still be at Longs, so I'll be working 2 jobs and in school full time. But yeknow, I want things to happen, therefore I need to go out and make it happen. Good things happen to those who know when it's wise to wait, and when it's wise to move. Speaking of school, it's been eventful. Stressful. I lost my check for my semester 2 student loan so pretty much I'm a load of crap. I enrolled in oceanography, endured the worst "first lecture" of my life, realized the course didn't actually cover my science requirement (so rude), and dropped it faster than I dropped my cup of coffee in the movie theatre tonight. Then I dropped psychology, and realized I was behind in credits to be full time, so now I'm back in Delucchis class with a bunch of scary upperclassmen. They're not scary but they're super aggressive, and honestly it's more annoying than scary. I'm trying to get extra credit here- stop yelling out the answers and raise ya damn hand. I'm excited for second semester. It's redemption for the first. I mean I have a 3.5 but I think I could do better. Plus I have friends now which is great. Like, friends you go out to get Jamba Juice with in between classes. That's pretty awesome. Also, I'm taking a music class. Sure it's beginning piano, but the sound of the metronome is so close to home. I missed it. Hmm what else is going on. We got the carpet shampooed today. The floor is damp and the night is loud; every single fan we own is scattered throughout the house, and many of them are full speed. My overhead fan is on, even tho it's a cold night, because the last thing we need is stinky carpet. I've been going to the gym and that's pretty awesome, too. Everyone there is still stronger than me, but I'm getting there. My endurance will increase and I'll be better every single day. I also (finally) practiced driving during break. My goal is to get my license before my permit expires in March. I want to be able to drive to my new job if I get it, because if not that means I'm bussing it. Which is fine, just not to my parents. Anyways I'm not as awful as I thought I'd be at driving. It's still not totally comfortable to me, but it's not as scary as I expected. I'm learning, and everyone else had to too. I'll learn and it'll be okay. These things take time and I'm okay with committing to that idea. I just need to keep practicing, and I wish I had more to practice with. I feel bad for asking, but hopefully some of my older friends will have it in them to let me practice a bit with them. Fingers are also crossed that Kellen will sell me his car. Or I'll find one just like it for cheap. I'd ask Justin but recently his cars been overheating. That means no AC, and it starts bubbling which is really scary. So now we're using his mom's Acura. If anything, it makes me feel more and more like we're an old married couple. It's almost hilarious how sometimes we resemble the most youthful of ages, yet others you could swear we've been wedded for years. He's a beautiful person. Simple, yet complex, but not complicated. I love him. Sometimes I just wish he wanted more from life. To explore. To experience things and people and life before we're 25 and have to be adults. I wish he'd let loose a little, but at the same time I wish he'd shape up. Nevertheless, his life is not mine to live. I'm just here to clap when no one else does and keep cheering him on in whichever direction he decides to go. And me. Let's see.. well the tattoo thing is still definitely a thought. I had another hair idea but yeknow... something is so nice about virgin hair. Heaven knows it's the only part that can convert back to virgin if you just cut enough off, ha. I guess my style is... indie? If that makes sense. Yet hella basic because I'm lazy. But I'm trying not to be. I'm looking for ways to up my style without being vain or too time consuming. I'm thinking about buying this teeth whitening kit and colored contacts. Just things that our fun and not as expensive as dyeing my hair ($150 is just not something I can pay, not including touch ups!!). I mean I want to but I also want to save my money for a rainy day or yeknow, sophomore year of college. Speaking of "rainy days (but not really)," friends and I want to go on a trip this year. So far, the winning pole is Canada. I'd love to go to Tokyo but I think any experience is a good one. I have to be sure to get my passport. Will this actually happen? Eh not sure. My parents might not be down for it, but again, I'm 18. I want to experience the world before it's too late. But of course I don't want to be stupid either. I get that it's a big deal. That'll just take convincing, I guess. Today was a good day. I'm a total dork but it was alright still. I cried for a good 10 minutes over Gabe the dog dying. He was such a good meme. Then I forgot my bag in a restaurant after eating with Justin's family. Embarrassing but happens too much to phase me. The worse has to be when I put my arm rest up in the movie theaters without realizing my drink was still in the cup holder.... yes, my full cup of coffee was catapulted/splat into the floor behind me. I still feel pretty bad about that one. Also, La La Land was amazing. My new favorite movie. Truly life changing. I am still pondering what exactly I'm taking away from it because wow, it sure gave me a lot to think about. I feel like these first few weeks of 2017 have already made me realize a lot. I am learning a lot about myself. I'm remembering a lot, too. How much I love music, and how much more I need to love myself. I want to be so comfortable in my own skin that I never wish to be in anyone else's. And so far, I feel like I'm close. I feel like I've grown a lot already. Putting in the extra effort to feel good has really paid off and I'm proud of myself. This is something I want to keep up. This is nice. I must remind myself to keep writing. It's good mind exercise and it's good reflection time. It's all good stuff. Goodnight.