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Made some kinda rushed art of peinto in his lil room.... I made his whitespace look kinda like his room in Omori :DD (I also gave him a sprout mole plush and i love drawing it so much!!!!)
#omori#omori au#peinto au#omori au blog#omori fanart#soon#ill post the art soon#after school#my teacher let me on my phone btw#dw#the rest of the class is outside#except for me and my friend#we're inside#listening to music#because we don't wanna play football#:333#asks are open.....#btw....
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Prompt 181
“Hey. Hey Tuck. Tucker. Tuck look. Look.”
Tucker looked over the edge of the screen lazily, the half interested words on his tongue dying as he let out a wheeze of laughter. “Oh my Ancient Sands, dude, how did you manage that?”
Danny had, for the last near year, been trying to mix shapeshifting, thank you Amorpho, with duplication. Something he’d apparently succeeded in today, if the massive fuck-you hydra standing before him was any indication. The very pleased looking, well did it count as a hydra if it had wings too?
“You need to show Sam. Oh my Sands we need to show Val too. And Wes. You did it dude!” He floated up to look at Danny, who did a little twirl to show off. He shook his head, flecks of gold and sand falling from his hair as he laughed.
“Do you think,” Danny lost it in laughter as several other heads echoed his words, from whichever the main him was. “Holy ancients that’s great- do, do you think we can make a dragon club? Hydras are totally dragons right? Do you think we could pull a Tiamat?”
He landed on a head, taking a selfie to add to the groupchat labeled Preparations. “Dude, we should, but let me send this to the others first… But I am so down.”
They can, in fact apparently, pull a Tiamat- with a little help from Princess Dora, practice in front of Frostbite in case something goes wrong, and some advice from Pandora on controlling extra limbs. Honestly, who is going to want to mess with Amity when there’s a giant dragon? And hey, maybe they can break the barrier now!
The heads for those wondering who I was thinking of for each lol And perhaps what they might all get ((1) Kwan, Pressurized Water) ((2) Wes, Sonic Blast) ((3) Sam, Poison Gas) ((4) Star, Plasma) ((5) Danny, Ice Breath) ((6) Paulina, Acid) ((7) Tucker, Electricity) ((8) Valerie, Fire Breath) ((9) Dash, Pressurized Wind)
#Prompts#The Class Pulls a Tiamat#They’re all adults and graduated#But can’t exactly go anywhere thanks to the shield/barrier around the town#The whole town is now liminal as hell thx to the ecto having nowhere to disperse#Bounced back from the shield back into the city from the portal#Dcxdp#Dpxdc#Dp x Marvel#Whichever works for u#Amity is under an info blackout thanks to the barrier#They have no idea what’s happening outside#Hey if they can’t break the barrier themselves they’ll just combine their might together#Liminal Amity Park#The group when they succeed in becoming dragon: We are Death Destroyer of Worlds#The GIW panic and call heroes in when a Very Big THING not only approaches the ghost shield#but actually looks like it might get through#The rest of Amity might pull a Become Dragon too but honestly up to yall#Amity: Ghosts are illegal but dragons aren't!
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Two bit eats full sized meals in the back of the classroom
#“do you have enough to share with the rest of the class Keith?#u bet he does#the outsiders#the outsiders headcanons#the outsiders hcs#two bit mathews
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life-shattering misconception
#my art#osomatsu san oc#ocs#osomatsu#kiru#not gonna tag totty since hes so small here#partially inspired by my friend getting rocked by this same realization about kiru last night#but yeah :-) shes ~3 years younger than the brothers + the rest of their graduating class since she was in the same grade as nyaa#i also just think oso being a stickler wrt age/seniority-appropriate nicknames and honorifics even outside of the family is really funny#no more big sister for YOU miss nikuya
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absolutely love twogami and makis drs interaction cause it's set right after twogami comes out as the ultimate impostor so at one point maki gets really defensive about still keeping her real talent a secret and it's great
#its so funny shes like ''oh so you don't think you can be true friends if you're keeping secrets??''#and twogamis like ''? no?''#''i like pancakes'' - twogami ''so you hate waffles?!'' - maki#but i love how it shows how much maki actually cares for the rest of her class (outside of saihara and kaito‚ who know her real talent)#cause she gets defensive and upset about the idea that you can't be a Real Friend if you're keeping a secret like that from someone#byakuya twogami#ultimate impostor#maki harukawa#<- hmm how can i make Every Topic That Crosses My Mind about her - deranged individual
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drabbles about the deer imagery in The Secret History (specifically in relation 2 Camilla) because her becoming a deer/believing that she did stuck in my mind (although this post will mostly take Camilla and the other's recollection of events to be as they recount it – if i examine it in it's effect as an incorrect account, that would be in a separate post)
Obviously there's, on a meta level, an irony to it – Camilla and Charles are named to make fun of the Princess Diana scandal that was happening at the time, and so ironically Camilla transforms into an animal sacred to Diana.
There's also a parallel that I think could be interesting to make between Camilla and Taygete, who for anyone unfamiliar, was turned into a deer by Artemis to protect her from Zeus' sexual advances. Although I think that what happened in the Bacchae was concensual sexually, I think it could possible be indicative in Camilla's narrative role as the "wanted"/"desired" one within the greek class – by Charles, Henry, Richard (although he wasnt there) and even Francis, although he wants to be her more so than actually wanting her.
Additionally, outside of how it actually functions within the story, her transformation into a creature associated so closely with innocence, especially in relation to Diana/Artemis' virginity, might perhaps be tied to Richards view of her as this "pure" and "virginal" person – obviously we know this is far from the truth, and he himself learns this later, but I think it definitely ties into this flawed angelic idea of her he so covets.
I think this interpretation ties into the myth of Actaeon (in terms of "deer transformation myths") although its very interesting to me that they different at key points – Camilla, the "virginual" character, is the one transformed, rather than the sexual transgressor (Charles) or the one who introduces miasma (Henry). But, like Actaeon, she is pursued and hunted – which, another key point – Actaeon is pursued and killed by his own hunting dogs, and Charles returns from the ritual with a bite mark, perhaps tying him into the myth thurther?
#sillies sillies#gay people will really write 5 paragraphs of analysis about a book written in the nineties instead of studing#(talking about himself)#~350 words isnt much BUT i dont write much literature analysis 4 myself outside of class#so I'm quite happy with this#feel free 2 add stuff on 🫡 I'm more familiar with Homer's works (and bits of Ovid) than i am wider greek myths#so if im missing any interesting deer transformation myths let me know :D#LOVE carmilla. obviously as flawed as any character but she's so interesting 2 me#both of the twins are honestly. what the fuck was their childhoods like that made them like that#cause. we know bits and pieces about francis and Henry's childhoods#and obviously Richard's#but i feel like we know so little about the twin's...#anyways#the secret history#the kat speaks#camilla macaulay#charles macaulay#francis abernathy#henry winter#richard papen#again not tagging buns cause hes not in here#although i wanna talk about his youth imagery @ some point#he's very Paris 2 me /pos#LOATH henry (ik hes as complex as the rest of them but he just rubs me up the wrong way. dont even hate him 4 the murder) but i really wish#i could hear his opinions on the character of the iliad#WHAT DID HE THINK OF PANDARUS. my boy my love#asshole in my class civ class who's name is very similar 2 henry's called him stupid... arse#he literally ticks every box of the homeric hero whats not to love#anyways. absolutely ESSAY of a post and tags#soz guys
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once again on my one sided peril bs and i’m thinking about how darry must’ve been so jealous of paul in highschool. how easy it was for paul to forget about their class differences whenever it wasn’t front and center. how paul would always randomly invite him to parties or to get drunk and go out and cause ruckus like other kids their age do. because their just kids. (how all paul thinks of is “oh i bet darry would love to do this! he’d have so much fun! we should go here”)
but darry constantly having to think about how it’d reflect back on him and his family. the aforementioned keyword being randomly. when paul randomly invites darry to a party, he has no time to plan anything out. he needs the time to plan what he’s going to wear because no matter what he’s going to be judge and he’s going to be a reflection of his family and greasers as a whole so he needs to look and act his best. he can’t get shitfaced drunk like paul and the other boys because he needs to stay aware. he can’t go causing trouble around town like the other guys because he doesn’t have that safety cushion they have; the cops might let them off saying boys will be boys but he’ll be called a hood and a no hood greaser and probably kept overnight.
thinking about darry who’s jealous that paul doesn’t constantly have to think about class division. darry who wishes he could be blissful sometimes and forget that he’s a greaser and half his friends are socs
#man poc curtis brothers is actually so real to me and me only#like ?? this is just the thought of a poc hanging out with their white friend and suddenly remembering they aren’t the same#one of these days there will be black curtis brothers#and i eagerly await the day because the analysises (sp?) i’ll give will be legendary#yall ain’t ready#the outsiders#outsiders musical#darry curtis#paul holden#oh also i specificied one sided peril bc#paul only really forgets the class division bc he’s in love#his entire inner monologue is just#blah blah blah proper name place name backstory stuff#he interacts with darry for one minute and instantly has heart eyes for the rest of the day#he’s just thinking of ways to get darry to hang out with him#if darry says hi to him he’s had a perfect day
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a closeted 20 year old that comes from a conservative rural family falling in love with a openly gay 18 year old on spanish prime tv
#a bit of background:#this is operacion triunfo a spanish tv show about sing! there are 16 contestants and they have to sing every monday a song#so they live in like a school academy where they have each day classes related to music (and they also rehearsal the song the have to#perform the mondays)#okay and like they have 0 connection with the rest of the world (they have phones but with no internet) so they know nothing about#what’s happening outside#SO there’s a youtube channel where they show each day what these contestants are doing (like big brother but related to music)#so um u get really attached to them cause u see them 24h!!!#so one of this contestants is juanjo (the one with the 🧢) and comes from a rural village and his fam is a bit conservative so he never#speaks about his sexuality - all the opposite he’s a bit ashamed of what he is bc he’s now used to act like himself#and then there is martin who is 18 and openly gay and like super open about all this topic super comfortable with himself etc#so this show has been going on for 3 weeks now okay? and in the first week u could see something was going on between these two#but since juanjo is so ashamed of this he rejected every type of touch that came for martin#martin got all ☹️ and he kinda told his friends there that he was having something with juanjo and he wasn’t receptive#(WE WERE SCREAMING IN TWITTER)#well since that moment it has been a fucking rollercoaster but juanjo is now a chiller and they cuddle and flirt in from of everyone#(they even have showers together cause rip they have 0 intimacy)#okay but today has been!!!! PUNTO DE INFLEXIÓN#juanjo has fallen in love so deeply with martin that oh god he needs to be by his side all the time omgomg#and yeah this vid happened tonight while their friends were singing and all twitter cried
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the longer i sit with it the more it really gets me how nobody ever really mentions obito and rin before obito's reveal in shippuden. kakashi vaguely mentions his old friends and i think other characters allude to the tragedy of kakashi's past but rin and obito themselves are lost to time. something about that is so fucking haunting and so gutting. you would think it would be a pretty big deal that two kids from the same class died within a year of each other, but the nine tails attack probably wiped so much clean that nobody could really carry the grief... still, when we see their class in flashbacks, we recognise almost everyone else, so... there's something really sad and hopeless about their absence...
there's a lot a LOT to say about it from a lot of different angles and i don't really feel like going into meta posting territory i just have big feelings about it you know? and to me i guess obito encapsulates a lot of the anger. for the people who get left behind and forgotten. and that can mean a lot of things
#two of my classmates died on separate occassions in short span of time in high school and i wont claim that grief because#i didnt know either of them well but i did feel a lot of anger and overwhelming hopelessness. that life keeps relentlessly going on#even when people get left behind#it feels so unfair and so painful... there are so many more aspects to it though as well#like people who are left behind in other ways due to circumstance or class or race or etc etc- often a combination of those factors#and obito as a kid reminds me a lot of a good friend i had when i was little who was late to class every day#because of those outside circumstances#and again someone in high school who i was late WITH every day. because ya#and i feel very big about that. and about rins death as something so fucking preventable#the tragedy also of baby teacher minato who was so so not ready to be in charge of anyone. but. that's something else#anyway i guess i just really feel a connection with that anger and despair#sorru was watching niji and felt fucking insane about it#obito and rin are like two sides of one thing. maybe of one person. of one concept#part of why i'm so so crazy about obito being trans is because i see him as also using rin's memory as a conduit for#his anger and grief about his own lost younger self. hence: baby obito is also a little girl#i think they are best friends. its so important. idk none of this is wider narrative meta#its just my feelings about them in particular#haunting dead girl and the ghost who has to carry on and can't rest
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can my history teacher please shut the fuck up i get it’s a college class!! i get that! you don’t need to keep telling me i’m gonna fail!!
#the same thing happened when i took ap world except that teacher ended up actually being really good#this guy just won’t shut up about how i’m gonna be ‘put on academic probation no matter what college i attend’#like okay? your class is only relevant if i’m gonna stay in new york#idk i think that’s how these credits work#i’m so gonna end up nkt okay this year jus preparing y’all now#we got two college history college spanish college physics and the rest of my core claaaes are all honors#and i’m taking two art classes and choir every other day because that’s the only way that fit in my schedule#with no lunch or study hall save for every other day for the latter#and if i do get to eat it’s gonna be at 7 in the morning every other day#yippee!!#i did this to myself i have no right to be bitching#idk i’m not gonna take the deep dive into why i did this to myself#least ill have enough creds to graduate lmfao#also science counts as an elective for me since in ny you only need 3 science creds to graduate and i have all 3#idk why i’m doing this#the outsiders will be my reward#for getting through a month and a half of this shit#i have no right to be complaining that isn’t that hard of a schedule#anyway!#alaska’s bitching#it just bugs me when he says i’m gonna be out on academic probation like yes colleges will see i got a b in college history in my junior#<year and crucify me on campus#totally logical#regents
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- *yawns* I could use a nap.
- How can you even think about sleep at a time like this?!
- *shrugs* I dunno, dudes, but this serial killer business has me drained.
Day 6 - The Sacrifice/Fool
"We care about them, they're funny and relatable. Usually ridiculed by The Jock and The Bad Girl. As much as we care about them, they typically die a gruesome death, ultimately warning the others of just what kind of danger they're in."
from @windbrook's Slashed Challenge.
#i love him too and i reeeaaallly feel bad that probably dies a gruesome death#he's the dude that just kind of hangs around campus#no one knows what his major is and the classes they see him in don't add up to any degree they can think of#he sleeps through what classes he attends#and is very much the shaggy from scooby doo/stober stereotype#he's a pleasant dude to be around though so he has a lot of casual friends#most often he can be found loitering around the various buildings on campus#on this night in particular he was chilling outside the berkley building#most unfortunately#because he only went inside to use the bathroom before getting trapped with the rest of the cast#then serving as the comic relief of their group#i would totally write him intk another story though so he can live long enough to get a full plot just because i think he's neat#fredrick peterson#day 6#the sacrifice#the fool#windbrookslashed#sims 4#ts4#sims 4 screenshots#ts4 screenshots#tw bruises#tw injuries#tw death mention
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one of these days i'm going to write up all that i've changed from azzarello's bullshit era and the one (1) piece i've kept from milligan (and also changed) and the only thing currently stopping me is that it is going to be so, so inside-baseball incomprehensible. and i almost never want to go reading/screencapping azzarello and milligan to add references but i Want to add references.
canon is goop, just know that we continue to ride the bus down "hellblazer ended at #250 and looks like swiss cheese before that" street.
#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#i'm doing page maintenance before i fuck off to work rip it's got me thinking#anyway i think i said WAY back on this blog that a side goal of mine is to make hellblazer lore accessible to non-comic readers where i can#bc it's such a Heavy comic & i love it so much & i always felt Terrible recommending it to people only for them to be disgusted#and like. @ past me that particular goal is NOT as easy as you thought it would be lmao#esp because i have a habit of getting VERY detail-oriented when it comes to talking about hellblazer i think#but by GOD it's still a goal. i can put in some motherfucking references here and there when i talk about The Lore#like. azzarello's writing style never translates well for me in synopsis bc he Loves to put the audience in the outside perspective#where we are bystanders/with the rest of the bystanders to constantine's actions and not to his motivations/inner monologue#and i HATE that. hellblazer has ALWAYS been about what this guy has going on underneath the masked exterior#all the things you can't say out loud when you're queer and working class trying to survive in 70s-80s-90s england#but that you FEEL with your WHOLE fucking chest. how that feeling drives you to enjoy little rebellions wherever you can get them#(also azzarello just fucking Sucks LMAO but i'm talking style rn)#so i end up relying on frusin's art to tell the story a little more bc i think he understands the Theatre of constantine's public persona#and when that theatre is Absent then it's really REALLY noticeable. so frusin keeps me in it most of the time#and if i'm digging into frusin art then i'm Going to want to compare it to older panels bc i like body language consistency#milligan on the other hand has NOTHING to save his sorry ass bc his writing is drop-jaw fucking terrible AND the artist seems to like it#but the loss of john's thumb being tied to his mental health (ignoring the bullshit with shade) has always felt. important to me somehow id#anyway MUCH thinking about my favorite loser on this about-to-be-annoying day shdjksd he has been done so dirty#hellblazer brain go brrrr
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i MIGHT survive public high school
#i have spoken to people now#which is progress ig#on the first day i basically didnt speak to anyone outside of the icebreakers in geometry class#second day however i had some good conversations with the people i sit with in graphic design#and one of them was on my bus so we sat together on the way home and chatted#idk if that counts as making friends but im closer to it than i was before#i think my classmates in geometry think im a know-it-all though#i finished all my worksheets faster than the rest of them#which was weird because a) they are ALL older than me and b) it wasnt even HARD it was reviewing basic algebraic equations#and also i got way further than all of them in the math puzzle the teacher gave us for fun at the beginning#which might have scratched away some of my social standing#three pigeons in a trench coat
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Gencon is very busy...!!!
Ummmmm highlights of the day..!!!
I maybe bought 4 Naruto figurines. Thankfully not individually expensive (though perhaps a little expensive all together...) see I wanted Sasuke but I also wanted Kakashi and I couldn't have Sasuke without Naruto and well it would feel wrong to have the 3 of them without Sakura and so I somehow. Got all 4. Haha. I'll most likely post pics later, whenever I end up opening them. I'm still at the convention center rn lol
(Putting the rest of this under a cut bc it got a little long lol)
I was on the field of the Lucas Oil Stadium, aka the stadium that the Indianapolis Colts play at. I've attended all of One game here (not professional football, it was a high school game lol) so I've felt the size of it, but it's still fucking crazy being on the field. It's so BIG...... and obviously they've got the grass covered rn, but it's still pretty cool!!!
I maaaade dice!!! Pretty precise process it seems, & definitely would require a Lot of work (after the sanding and the painting etc etc). I do still wanna get into it, but if I wanted to spring for stuff like the vacuum chamber or the pressure pot...
Yeah, it'd get expensive. Add in the fact that I don't have a good place to do this away from the cats & it really is not feasible to start rn. But!!! Eventually!!!! I think I'd really enjoy it. I just need a dedicated workshop space where I can spread out without worrying about poisoning my cats lol.
Here's some cool game set stuff I saw in the event hall. This picture is maybe... hm... a fourth of the event hall? And then when you consider that the vender hall (connected to the event hall, though it's closed right now) is maybe 1.5 times as big as the event hall?? Give or take a little...
Aka just imagine booths upon booths upon booths... I'm gonna have to take a pic of it tomorrow. I was there too briefly to think about taking a pic. Honestly I maybe managed to get through like a tenth of the whole vender hall in an hour of wandering. It's fucking huge. And So Many Dice... I bought one set of 14 (I think it was) dice. Aka an extended set. And then I got a random set bag of dice (just a basic 7). And then a d20 with a cat on it. And a dice of LETTERS. Aka I guess a d26 (I totally did not have to double check that there were 26 letters in the alphabet)(I have 702k words written & posted to ao3)(😂😂😂 I'm very tired) but with letters instead of numbers. And it's glow in the dark!!! And I found some hxh buttons, and a mighty nein poster, and uhmmmm. A cute lanyard. And that's all I bought. Which really is such restraint for me. (Omfg I just saw a dragon cosplay)(someone just dressed as a dragon)
OH YEAH I saw a fucking. Persona 5 Ryuji cosplay. Hanging out with the biker lady from Durarara. Featuring the Ryuji holding her scythe hfksbfmd which was such a funny image. I was too shy to ask for a pic but just trust 🙏 i saw this
Anyways yeah the only real big thing I bought is the naruto figurines. I'll show pics later once I got the stuff again (I dropped it all off in the car earlier)
Omfg literally as I've been sitting here (on a bench at the side of a main hallway) someone stopped by and gave me a handmade bracelet !!!
DND's 50th anniversary!!! So cute!!!!
#speculation nation#not Too much anime stuff. tho i clearly found some stuff. no trigun yet unfortunately 😔#which i already walked thru the artist area (as much as i could)(i was getting a little stressed by how crowded it was)#so idk maybe i missed a booth or smth but it'd definitely be less likely to see elsewhere in the vender's hall#but WHO KNOWS it's a wonderful massive world in there.#im actually sitting outside it rn and staring longingly at the closed doors. tomorrow... i will be able to Actually peruse it more...#and i will quite possibly wear some ear plugs next time bcus i was getting Stressed Out!!! overstimulated!!!!#pulled in a million different directions!!!!! aaaaaaa!!!!#anyways yeah my events are all done for the night. just kinda hanging out now waiting for my sister's game to be done.#gonna collapse into bed as soon as we get back. so i should probably eat some more.#i had an overpriced and underwhelming sandwich. but there is pizza somewhere. maybe i should eat pizza.#i actually... still have the keys lol. from when i dropped the stuff off at the car earlier.#which is weird. I have the ticket to home with me. but i still wait. bc it would be a dick move to leave with them lol#and also. while i Can drive. i do not have my license. so that would be. a bad. idea.#my shoulders Huuuuurt but thankfully i dont have any combat classes tomorrow#hurting shoulders is more just from my bag bc my shoulders fucking suck. but it makes me glad i can rest more tomorrow.#oh yeah i did the sword knife and longsword today. might get bruises from that knife one. it was very focused on parrying#swords. swords. swords. swords. the longsword class made me really want to own a longsword. i dont own one. yet.#i could. i could. i could. sometime. eventually. i want a longsword. i think i technically just own uhmmm um um#a rapier? a machete? a uh. i dont know what that cheap anime convention sword is actually. OH YEA AND CANE SWORD#no longsword though. i really want to own a katana too. someday i'll own both. someday.#real swords are unfortunatelly really expensive. thats why i only have uh. uh. uhhh. oh yeah i do have those 2 swords from mountains trip#i dont really know what those are either. you know i really should know what bladed weapons i own. i dont though.#i own cool swords and knives bc oooh fun pointy things! wheeeeee!!!#i'll study up on it later. lol.#anyways i guess i should go look for more food. i have rambled enough. bye!
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...every conversation for the next three years was about how it must be a big change being in Oxford after working on the fells each day. I had a good evening talking to [a professor] and at the end he said, 'Oh well, I imagine you will miss it.' I told him that I hadn't stopped doing it, that I was going back. He seemed quite confused by this.
- The Shepherd's Life, James Rebanks
#the shepherd's life#james rebanks#this quote is a little more personal b/c tho my dichotomy is not as extreme as his#there is a general assumption when i'm in my phd classes that we are all going to eventually quit our day jobs and go into academia#and i want to finish my phd and then go open an outdoor school or something similar and work outside the rest of my life#which is not what ppl expect
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Being masked Autistic and trying to unmask is complicated.
Today my class took a field trip to a museum in my city but because we're adults and my university is overly concerned with getting sued we were all responsible for getting ourselves to the museum. I don't own a car so I was riding with a few other people in my major who I don't know super well but they've been really friendly to me in this class recently.
Anyway, we're driving and chatting when one of them brings up this guy in our class who I'll call James. James has a habit of speaking in class without being called on, not realizing when the professor is trying to cut him off so the lecture can continue, and cutting people off while they're talking. It's clear that he's not the best at reading social cues but all in all it's pretty harmless stuff. But out of nowhere they just start ragging on him for being "disrespectful." They said things like "I wonder if he's going to be disrespectful while we're in the museum" "probably" and "normally I appreciate people who speak up a lot in class, but he's just so rude." And even when I tried to speak up for this guy, cause I've talked to him outside of class some and he's nice. They just kept going and laughing about it.
That's when I realized that even though these were cool queer alternative people who almost certainly have ADHD, they only liked me because of my mask. If I was more visibly Autistic like James, they wouldn't be treating me as well as they have been. They would have seen my social failings and judged them to be moral failings as well. They are not safe for me to unmask around and one of them keeps calling me their friend
But having that realization only made me slip further into the mask as a fear response. I didn't get to educate them, or tell them off. Actually I was even nicer to them than I had been.
The whole thing makes my stomach churn
#actually autistic#It's unfortunately too late to change where I sit in class so im gonna have to deal with these people for the rest of the semester#but I think I'm gonna stop talking to them before class#or outside of class#I did ditch them when we got to the museum but they were also my ride home#god i really wish i could tell them to go fuck themselves#but they think they're so open minded#uuuuuuuughghfhfjfj
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