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this nepo baby shit is crasy lol i tried to get them off the project bc their contributions are literally a detriment to the work (THEY CAN'T EVEN FLAT. FLATTING TAKES NO ARTISTIC SKILL ITS JUST BASIC FUCKING ORGANIZATION) by drawing a test panel in 2 hours that the ADs literally admitted to liking better but this bullshit persons fucking default photoshop round brush ass lineart is like protected by corporate lmfao even though everyone goddamn hates it. get me out of here
#listen. i was dealing with the bad art when i thought the ADs just had bad taste and wanted to win the ugliest baby competition or whatever#but they HATE it and expect our colouring to make up for their incompetence#AND they won't let me make a necessary change bc it sounds like theyre backed into a corner too#fellas should i quit lol#like i said i was dealing with the uggo before but im like literally depressed thinking about continually submitting work to the ADs that#they actually hate bc the base tht i have to work with is straight trash#the pay is just insane and i have big bills coming up is the thing#i'd feel bad about leaving them to deal but tbh i could probably rec a dozen artists who would happily work on slop for this rate lol
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Kinktober Day 22
starring: ross lynch x male reader
request: ross lynch x onlyfans creator!reader, reader is recording himself for his only fans and as he is fingering himself ross walks in to his room and sees his roommate knuckles deep so reader gets an idea and stands up invites ross to come join and ross jumps on to the bed and start rimming him and fucks him like a slut and after they finish ross puts a cute little diamond butt plug
warnings: smut, cursing, fingering, rimming, ass eating, rough sex, butt plug, sucking fingers???, slight degrading, fucked silly
with the way rent was rising in you apartment it was no surprise you got into the onlyfans business when you saw how much money it brought you and how many people enjoyed you content, and with living with ross being a singer and all it got the bills paid.
and with any other day like today you had to record some sexy stuff to post, so what better content then you fingering yourself, little did you know ross would be coming home early from the recording studio, ross knew what you did but never questioned it because as long as you were paying your half of the rent it was fine with him.
but imagine his surprise when he walked in on you fucking yourself with your fingers, moaning out like a slut as you went deeper and deeper with your fingers, he immediately feels a boner come on as you lean up and see him.
gasping in shock and wrapping yourself in a blanket "fuck hey ross" you try to play it cool but the shock on his face says anything but cool "h-hey y/n" he stammers covering his slightly big cock with his hands, striking and idea in your mind.
"you don't have to stand there you can come closer" you say in a sultry tone dropping the blanket and laying back on the bed, your hole out in full view for ross too see, the way it pulses open and closes was driving him insane, he wants to fuck you so bad now.
after a little battling in his mind he walks forward and lays his head in between your thighs, his breath fanning over your hole making you let out a tiny whimper that his ear catches, wanting to hear more of it he shoves his tongue into your hole.
you back arching in surprise as he works his tongue expertly inside you, your moans becoming louder and louder while the camera caught every moment of the sexy actions, your hand instinctively rushing to grip his hair tightly.
the more you pulled at his curls the rougher he ate you out which pleased you more and more, but just as you were about to cum he pulled away from you addicting but tasty hole "what the fuck ross i was right there" you complain but are immediately quiet when he pulls out his cock.
it was the size of your forearm and it was pulsing with veins "i have something so much better for you" you spread your legs wider as ross climbs up and puts himself in between them, he shifts your legs onto your chest and pin them against you.
he rubs his tip against your hole, even after the fingering and rimming you were still tight as a virgin, ross was going to have some fun with you "you ready" he asks and you shyly nod before he deeply thrusts into you making you cry out loudly, you could feel him in your guts.
"f-fuckkk ross it's to big" you moan gripping the sheets around you as ross pounded into you deeper and deeper, only thing leaving his mouth were moans and some heavy grunts while his fingers dug into your meaty thighs, trying to go deeper than he already was.
"do me a favor and shut up, im not leaving till you take my load" he shoved his fingers down your throat to which you eagerly drooled and sucked on like a lollipop, the more he fucked you the more brain cells you lost, slowly but surely drifting down a road to pure ecstasy.
"you like that huh, i bet your fans are gonna love this video" ross laughed at your dumb look, your tongue lolling out but still slightly sucking his fingers while your eyes rolled to the back of your head and your legs somehow now wrapped around ross's waist.
you wanted his cum bad and he could tell "you want me to fill you up" he asked but all you could get out were a bunch of sloppy mhm's and a lazy nod of your head which was enough to convince ross you wanted his warm load swimming in your stomach.
so with a couple more thrusts of his hips snapping into your ass he came in you with a drawled out groan, you were to fucked out to even tell what was happening, just whining out as you felt ross pull out of you before quickly returning with something in hand.
you felt him shove a butt plug in you before he grabs the camera to show the view he gets to see, your beautiful ass slightly swollen from the rough fucking with a nice diamond butt plug to keep his load snug in you, maybe even for him to fuck you later.
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I have to talk about Chester Arthur. His story makes me go crazy. A mediocre president from the 1880s who's completely forgotten today has one of the best redemption stories I've ever heard and I need to make people understand just how cool his story is.
So, like, he starts out as this idealist, okay? He's the son of an abolitionist minister and becomes famous as a New York lawyer who defends the North's version of Rosa Parks whose story desegregates New York City's trolley system.
Then he starts getting pulled into politics and becomes one of the grimiest pieces of the political machine. He wants money, power, prestige, and he gets it. He becomes the right-hand man of Roscoe Conkling, the most feared political boss in the nation, a guy who will throw his weight around and do the most ruthless things imaginable to keep his friends in power and destroy his enemies.
Because Arthur's this guy's top lackey, he gets to be Controller of the Port of New York--the best-paying political appointment in the country, because that port brings in, like, 70% of the federal government's funds in tariffs. He gets a huge salary plus a percentage of all the fines they levy on lawbreakers, and because he's not afraid to make up infractions to fine people over, he is absolutely raking in the dough. Making the rough equivalent of $1.3 million a year--absolutely insane amounts of money for a government position. He's spending ridiculous sums on clothes, buying huge amounts of alcohol and cigars to share with people as part of his job recruiting supporters to the party, going out nearly every night to wine and dine people as part of his work in the political machine. He's living the high life. Even when President Hayes pulls him from his position on suspicions of fraud, he's still living a great life of wealth, power, and prestige.
Then in 1880, his beloved wife dies. While he's out of town working for a political campaign. And he can't get back in time to say goodbye before she dies. Because he's a guy who has big emotions, it absolutely tears him up inside, especially because Nell resented how much his political work kept him away from home. He has huge regrets, but he just moves in with Roscoe Conkling and keeps working for the political machine.
And then he gets a chance to be vice president. The Republican Party has nominated James Garfield, a dark horse candidate who wants to reform the spoils system that has given Conking his power and gave Arthur his position as Port Controller. Conkling is pissed, and he controls New York, and since the party's not going to win the election without New York, they think that appointing Conkling's top lackey as vice-president will pacify him.
They're wrong--Conkling orders Arthur to refuse--but Arthur thinks this sounds like a great opportunity. The only political position he's ever held is Port Controller--a job he wasn't elected to and that he was pulled from in disgrace. Vice President is way more than he could ever have hoped for. It's a position with a lot of political pull and zero actual responsibilities. He'll get to spend four years living in up in Washington high society. It's the perfect job! Of course he accepts, and Conkling comes around when he figures out that he can use this to his advantage.
When Garfield becomes president, Arthur does everything he can to undermine him. He uses every dirty political trick he can think of to block everything that Garfield wants to do. He refuses to let the Senate elect a president pro tempore so he can stay there and influence every bill that comes through. He all but openly boasts of buying votes in the election. He's so much Conkling's lackey that he may as well be the henchman of a cartoon supervillain. On Conkling's orders, he drags one of Garfield's Cabinet members out of bed in the middle of the night--while the guy is ill--to drag him to Conkling's house so he can be forced to resign. He's just absolutely a thorn in the president's side, a henchman doing everything he can to maintain the corrupt spoils system.
Then in July 1881, when Arthur's in New York helping Conkling's campaign, the president gets shot. By a guy who shouts, "Now Arthur will be president!" just after he fires the gun. Arthur has just spent the past four months fighting the president tooth and nail. Everyone thinks he's behind the assassination. There are lynch mobs looking to take out him and Conkling. The papers are tearing him apart.
Arthur is absolutely distraught. He rushes to Washington to speak with the president and assure him of his innocence, but the doctors won't let him in the room. He gets choked up when talking to the First Lady. Reporters find him weeping in his house in Washington. Once again, death has torn his world apart and he's not getting a chance to make amends.
Arthur goes to New York while the president is getting medical treatment, and he refuses to come to Washington and take charge because he doesn't dare to give the impression that he's looking to take over. No one wants Arthur to be president and he doesn't want to be president, and the possibility that this corrupt political lackey is about to ascend to the highest office in the land is absolutely terrifying to everyone.
Then in August, when it's becoming clear that the president is unlikely to recover, he gets a letter. From a 31-year-old invalid from New York named Julia Sand. A woman from a very politically-minded family who has been following Arthur's career for years. And she writes him this astounding letter that takes him to task for his corrupt, conniving ways, and the obsession with worldly power and prestige that has brought him wealth and fame at the cost of his own soul--and she tells him that he can do better. In the midst of a nationwide press that's tearing him apart, this one woman writes to tell him that she believes he has the capacity to be a good president and a good man if he changes his ways.
And then he does. After Garfield dies, people come to Arthur's house and find servants who tell them that Arthur is in his room weeping like a child (I told you he had big emotions), but he takes the oath of office and ascends to the presidency. And he becomes a completely different man. His first speech as president mentions that one of his top priorities is reforming the spoils system so that people will be appointed based on merit rather than getting appointed as political favors with each change in the administration. Even though this system made him president. When Conkling comes to Arthur's office telling him to appoint his people to important government positions, Arthur calls his demands outrageous, throws him out, and keeps Garfield's appointees in the positions. "He's not Chet Arthur anymore," one of his former political friends laments. "He's the president."
He loses all his former political friends. He's never trusted by the other side. Yet he sticks to his guns and continues to support spoils system reform. He prosecutes a postal service corruption case that everyone thought he would drop. He's the one who signs into law the first civil service reform bill, even though presidents have been trying to do this for more than ten years, and he's the person who's gained all his power through the spoils system. He immediately takes action to enforce this bill when he could have just dropped it. He becomes a champion of this issue even though it's the last thing anyone would have expected of him.
He oversees naval reform. He oversees a renovation of the White House. He still prefers the social duties of the presidency, but he's respectable in a way that no one expected. Possibly because Julia Sand keeps sending him letters of encouragement and advice over the next two years. But also because he's dying.
Not long after ascending to the presidency, he learns he's suffering from a terminal kidney disease. And he tells no one. He keeps going about his daily life, fulfilling his duties as president, and keeps his health problems hidden. Once again, death is upending his life, and this time it's his own death. He's lived a life he's ashamed of, and he doesn't have much time left to change. He enters the presidency as an example of the absolute worst of the political system, and leaves it as a respectable man.
He makes a token effort to seek re-election, but because of his health problems, he doesn't mind at all when someone else gets the nomination. He dies a couple of years after leaving office. The day before his death, he orders most of his papers burned, because he's ashamed of his old life--but among the things that are saved are the letters from Julia Sand, the woman who encouraged him to change his ways.
This is an astounding story full of so many twists and turns and dramatic moments. A man who falls from idealism into the worst kind of corruption and then claws his way back up to decency because of a series of devastating personal losses and unexpected opportunities to do more than he could have ever hoped to do. I just go crazy thinking about it and I need you all to understand just how amazing this story is.
#history is awesome#presidential talk#i thought about his story again this morning#and was once again struck by the desire to chase people down and make them understand just how amazing this story is#and instead of harassing random strangers i decided to inflict it on tumblr again#my original essay was rather too long and dry and tangled up in too many other details#and didn't quite capture the 'i want to chase you down and look you in the eye and make you freak out about this with me' vibe of this stor#this still doesn't quite capture it but at least it's shorter#and prevents me from rambling to unsuspecting family members#sorry for inflicting this on you again but what else am i supposed to do?
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Hey, Mike! Did moving to Los Angeles at the start of your career turn out to be all that you thought it would be? It’s a big step that a lot of people take, and I’ve never really heard you talk about those early years before. Did you ever contemplate quitting? And if so, I’m glad you stuck to it - we love your work!
Oh, I contemplated quitting many, many times.
I moved to Los Angeles in January, 2003. I had just graduated the previous summer from Towson University, and a group of five of us moved out together. Some wanted to be filmmakers, some wanted to be actors. We shared a 3-bedroom apartment in Glendale. The adjacent apartment was occupied by four other Towson alums. Between the two apartments, we called it "Little Towson." I didn't own a car at the start. I had no health insurance. I'd saved a few thousand dollars to get me through the first six months, but none of us had jobs at the beginning. I remember applying (and being rejected) for a job at Walmart. I combed Craigslist looking for non-union editorial gigs.
I had told myself I'd give it five years, and if I hadn't gotten any traction, I'd move back to Maryland.
People started dropping out pretty quickly. One of my roommates (and one of my best friends) had moved out here to be an actor, and only lasted a few months before he decided to go back. It's overwhelming and terrifying to take a leap into a city as expensive as LA, and you're surrounded by people who all want the same career that you want. But it feels like there is a thousand foot wall circling the industry, and it seems impossible to scale it.
I found work doing odd editorial jobs before working as a logger, than an assistant editor, then an editor on a few reality shows. I shot and cut those local car commercials you see on late night cable. And I frequently ran out of money and overdrafted my account. As more and more of our original group gave up and moved back East, I started to feel more and more crazy. A lot of my friends from school were getting married, buying houses, having kids. I felt pretty delusional as my 5-year deadline came and went, and I still hadn't found any way over or through that wall. When we started to talk about making Absentia in 2010, I had been in LA for more than 7 years. I was working two jobs as an editor. I found out I was going to be a father. It felt very much like whatever I'd wanted to happen by moving to LA was not going to happen. Absentia was kind of last-ditch effort. Ultimately, the five year plan I'd allowed myself when I moved to LA turned into a 9-year plan. I started shooting Oculus - my first "real" movie - in the fall of 2012, just shy of my 10th anniversary in Los Angeles. That movie wouldn't come out for a while after that, so by the time I actually had a career as a filmmaker, well over a decade had passed struggling in LA.
For most of that time, my refusal to move back to Maryland looked (and felt) like a delusion. Only afterward did it start to look like "tenacity." And it never felt like "persistence" or "determination"... it felt insane. It felt like constant, daily frustration and rejection. And when I couldn't pay the bills, or couldn't land a job, it felt downright embarrassing.
For what it's worth, the only difference I've seen between people who "make it" out here and don't are that the ones who made it all stayed long past their expiration dates. I've seen wildly talented people pack it up and head home. Talent helps a lot once the door is open, but really the only thing that opens the door is persistence. To the point of feeling insane.
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HEAR ME OUT SINCE ITS CHILDES BDAY TODAY RIGHT
What if we spend the entire day with him and then when we come home, we give him another surprise *wink wink* (pls tell me yk what i mean 😭😭 i dont know how to say these things withoit feeling awkward)
NS!FW. 18+ ONLY
AAAAA I’M SO SORRY THIS IS LATE!!! I’VE BEEN HIBERNATING!!!
JUST LIKE PRETEND IT’S STILL HIS BIRTHDAY DHXJHCIXJD
My fingers went nYoooooom! Also don’t feel awkward! I hear you and I shall feed you the crumbs of my brain basement
At least I hope this is what you mean otherwise I’m so sorry for your eyeballs-
warnings: ns!fw, Oral spice, lots of spicy words (I went all in for this one aaAAA), swearing, gn!reader, not proof-read.
Characters: Tartaglia (Childe is the worst name for spice istfggggg)
It had been a busy week preparing for the big day.
You could of been doing commissions, relaxing with friends, enjoying the beach and the warm summer sea, but no-
You had been practically ripping your hair out planning for you boyfriends birthday.
Tartaglia was a very… interesting character-
You knew he’d love whatever you got him but the thing is, nothing felt special.
He had the ability to buy anything he wanted, whenever he wanted. So trying to find something that would impress the ginger was becoming more challenging than his impromptu sparring “dates”.
That was until you caught sight of a small, very discreet looking stall hidden behind some crates near Liyue’s harbour that sold silk clothing that definitely wasn’t intended to stay on for long.
And so began your special birthday surprise~
“There’s my birthday boy!”
Running over to Tartaglia, you flung your arms tight around his waist.
The day In question had finally arrived and so had your mildly insane but lovable boyfriend.
“And there’s my favourite comrade! Didn’t miss me too much now did you?”
Smiling wildly, you rolled your eyes at him before the two of you started catching up on what he had been doing the past few days that he was away.
As a few minutes turned into hours, you both talked and walked around Liyue, visiting your favourite spots and giving him a giant whale plushie that you had spent the last few days seeing together, along with a extremely romantic dinner at the Liuli Pavilion.
When I say romantic I mean romantic-
The table was set with candles and silk flower petals, and not a chopstick to be seen, much to the gingers relief.
“You know, you’ve really impressed me this time. I don’t think I could of asked for a better birthday even if I tried”
“Good thing it’s not over then~”
“Not over? Have my irresistible charms finally decided to accept that sparring challenge you’ve been avoiding~”
Rolling your eyes, you promptly paid the bill before you decide to change your mind about the entire plan.
“No, you know I wouldn’t walk out of that alive. Now just shush and follow me”
Taking his hand, you eagerly pull him along in the direction to your home, not paying attention to the endless pestering of your boyfriend who’s curiosity was doing more than struggling to stay contained.
“Is it a surprise party?? Oh wait, did you kidnap someone for me!? Babe you’re so swe-”
“SHH! No I didn’t kidnap anyone and you should know not to say stuff like that while outside!”
Shaking your head in frustration, you finally reached your door.
Quickly unlocking it, you pulled Tartaglia in with a small grunt before closing it behind you.
“Alright, stay right there. I’ll be back now- and don’t get into trouble!”
“Huh? Wait- where are you going?”
With a giggle, you gave him a kiss on his cheek before running to your bedroom and closing the door.
Laying out on your bed was the outfit you got earlier that week.
Without hesitation, you pulled your clothes off and threw them to the floor, quickly putting on the outfit, albeit with some mild confusion to how it went on.
It was made from a delicate silk, framed with lace and ribbons that hung down your body, perfectly framing your figure.
Giving yourself a quick look over in the mirror, you took a deep breath and opened the door, peeking outside just incase your boyfriend was waiting outside.
Once you found the coast clear, you took a step out as started walking to the living room where you could hear him humming while obviously nosing around your belongings.
“Finally. you were taking foreve…r-”
Dropping a book he had been flipping through while waiting for you, Tartaglia’s expression shifted from shocked to embarrassed, then to a dangerously sly grin as the ginger took in your appearance.
“We’ll, well, well~ is it just the weather or did the room suddenly get extremely hotter”
Instinctively shrugging off his attempts at flirting, you took a step closer; placing your hand on his chest you pushed him down to the couch with a smug grin before sliding down between his legs.
“W-wow, really… really not wasting any time today, are we comrade~”
“I don’t want to keep the birthday boy waiting now, do I~”
With a purr in your voice, you began rubbing against his crotch that was already straining from his… impatience~
Working your hands against the growing tent in his pants, your fingers found their way the button before releasing his erection causing a quiet groan from the ginger who was now watching your every move like it was the most important thing he’d ever seen.
“So hard already? Just for me~?”
Grinning even more as you can’t help a sense of pride rush through your body, you placed soft kisses along his tip, moving down his shaft all the way to his balls before repeating the process, refusing to break eye contact with him.
Spending a few more minutes enjoying watching your boyfriend start to squirm and get impatient under your touch as your hand slowly pumped up and down his shaft, pulling out soft grunts of pleasure from him as you do.
Finally deciding that you’ve teased him enough you start to let your mouth do the work for you.
Still locking eyes with him, you rub his tip against your lips, savouring the taste of his pre already forming a pearl.
With one swift motion you slide his length inside your mouth, making Tartaglia let out a sharp moan as he threw his head back in pleasure.
“O-oh fuck… babe that’s… Ngh~”
You be lying if you did admit that it even shocked you a little, how well you took him all in first try.
Hearing him whimper and moan every time you bob your head up and down his length, enjoying his slightly salty taste.
“Archons, babe… keep going just like that~”
Feeling his hips start to buck into your mouth, pushing his length even further down, making you gag a little bit still not discouraging you from reaching your goal.
“Oh fUuck- babe I’m going to cum…~”
Without any time to brace yourself, you felt his fingers grip tightly onto your hair as he thrust his hips harder, causing you to gag even more and grip onto his thighs for support before he finally releasing his load.
“Holy fuck yes~!”
Pulling back to admire his breathless, shaking state, a trail of white dripping down your chin-
You can’t help but feel a little more excitement for the rest of the night as you pull out a pair of handcuffs from the draw next to the couch.
“I hope you’re not too tired just yet, I’ve got a lot more in store for you yet~”
This was so bad, I’m so sorry hdicufif.
I’m back into doing requests as normal now that’s I’m pretty much completely recovered eeeeee I’ve missed it so much T-T
#genshin impact#genshin imagines#genshin drabbles#genshin impact scenarios#genshin scenarios#genshin boyfriend scenarios#genshin impact fluff#genshin fluff#childe genshin impact#childe genshin#childe#tartaglia genshin impact#tartagila#childe smut#tartaglia smut#Childe fanfic#tartaglia fanfic#childe x reader#tartaglia x reader
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of our own making
(an X-Files fanfic)
Chapter 7/34 - pocket bow tie
[Read on AO3]
She looks excited. At least, he thinks she does.
The good news is, she doesn't look like she's about to bolt out the door, and he calls that a win.
They may not be committing themselves to each other in the way a marriage is typically supposed to go, but this is a big commitment all the same. If she changes her mind now, their plans for adoption are as good as gone. The idea of family, as foreign as it has been for the last 26 years of his life.
He’ll admit he’s gotten rather attached to the idea. Perhaps a little too much so, considering how unique their situation is, and how often they've been dealt blow after blow of disappointment.
He looks down at the woman to his left. Any worries he might have had melt away at the sight of her. She's calm, her lips quirked up in a quiet, content smile as they wait to be called into the courtroom. Her shoulder brushes against his arm, and he resists the temptation to touch her, to hold her hand in his, knowing he will have his chance later.
"You look beautiful, by the way," he says, having held on to that one all morning. She smiles up at him, looking every bit the blushing bride she is, despite the absence of the big white dress and veil.
"I think Bill was intimidated by how nicely you were dressed," she teases back.
He looks down at his fine-cut suit. "What, this old thing?"
Scully has never been the kind to care how expensive one's clothes were, but even she has to admit that he looks good in Armani. And judging by his smirk, he knows it too.
"Did you have that bow tie stuffed in your pocket all morning, Mulder?" she asks, reaching up to straighten it.
"Had to look nice for our special day," he answers cheesily. "Plus, you told me to ditch the colorful ties. Figured I'd get a head start on the whole 'happy wife, happy life' thing."
Wife. Husband. Those words sound so foreign, and yet, in just a few moments time, they will apply to them.
'Excuse me, table for me and my wife, please.'
'Yes, I'm her husband. That's me.'
The insanity of it all makes him want to laugh.
"Fox Mulder and Dana Scully?" a clerk asks, popping her head out of the courtroom door.
He feels Scully's hand grasp for his, and a thrill runs up his spine. "That's us," she says, stepping forward. He gives her hand a squeeze, following after her like a lost puppy.
Here we go.
Once they’re inside, the judge gestures for them to approach the bench, and they stand side-by-side in the center of the chamber. The dark oak wood is daunting, bringing back memories of not particularly enjoyable times they’ve been in courtrooms.
This time is different, though. The judge is smiling, for one, looking down her thin, half-moon spectacles at them. And, for once, their time in court will serve to unite them, rather than split them apart.
Yes, this would be a very nice change, indeed.
“What a beautiful couple you make,” the older woman speaks, her eyes crinkling in joy. Scully smiles, and Mulder clings a little tighter to her hand. “Are we ready to get started?”
They nod, and Mulder has to focus to keep his knees steady under him. They’re really doing this. He can hardly believe it has come to this point.
“We are gathered here to join Fox and Dana in the blessed union of marriage,” the judge starts, reciting her opening statement to the mostly empty room. One clerk stands by as their witness, a camera in hand to capture their memories of the day, probably with the intent to sell them back to them at an exorbitant price.
It doesn’t matter. Mulder will pay it anyway, whatever the cost.
“This is not a responsibility to be taken lightly,” she continues. “A marriage ought to be founded on mutual respect, affection, and a desire to see through any challenges that may come your way. If you speak your vows in truth, this union will strengthen your bond, serving as a constant reminder of your unwavering love for one another.”
Mulder swallows, holding fast to the comfortable weight of Scully’s hand in his. The judge’s words only reinforce his belief that this is the right decision, that this is meant to be. Mutual respect, affection, going through life’s challenges… how else would he describe what he and Scully have? What they’ve had for over half a decade?
Unwavering love . He’s got that in spades. He feels it from her too, that fierce loyalty. “Love…” Well, he’d like to think so. At least some form of it.
“Fox,” the judge speaks, calling him to attention. He fumbles for Scully’s other hand, the way he remembers seeing at a friend’s wedding once in Oxford. “Will you take Dana to be your lawfully wedded wife? To love her, comfort her, honor her, and keep her, forsaking all others, for as long as you both shall live?”
Easiest yes in the entire world.
Green eyes meet blue.
“I will,” he says.
“And Dana,” he feels his throat close, choking back a sudden rise of emotion. “Will you take Fox to be your lawfully wedded husband? To love him, comfort him, honor him, and keep him, forsaking all others, so long as you both shall live?”
It’s the ‘forsaking all others’ part he feels like Scully shouldn’t be agreeing to, but they’ve talked this over. He still can’t quite believe she picked him. Him! Out of any man she could have.
“I will,” she answers, squeezing his hands once. He nods, and feels—not for the first time—that she’d known exactly what was going through his head. They certainly are spooky like that, sometimes.
“Excellent,” the judge praises. “Now, do you have your own vows, or—”
“The standard is fine,” Scully says, smiling up at Mulder.
“Standard it is,” she says. “Fox, repeat after me. I, Fox, take you Dana.”
“I, Fox, take you, Dana.” He leans in close and adds, for her ears only, “Scully,” with a conspiratorial smile, whispering the name he gave her that first day they met. It’s the only one that feels right coming from his lips, and he needs her to know that this isn’t just for show. This isn’t ‘Fox’ making promises to ‘Dana.’ This is them—Mulder and Scully. It’s real. As real as anything she can prove with her beloved science.
The judge, oblivious to his unprompted addition, continues. “To be my wife,” she says.
“To be my wife.”
His. He would have a wife, and it would be Scully. His Scully. He runs his thumb over her knuckles in circular strokes, swallowing back emotion. She shudders under the intensity of his gaze.
“To have and to hold, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, to love and to cherish, from this day forward.”
It feels good to speak these promises aloud. For so long, he’s taken and taken and taken from her, watched her life and her dreams be stolen from her grasp, powerless to stop it. Now he can finally give, starting here and now, with his solemn vow to be there for her in every way the judge described. He hopes she can see the truth in his eyes. How much he means these words, from the bottom of his heart.
Judging by the way her eyes glisten, he’s coming across loud and clear.
Then, it’s her turn, and she looks up at him through fluttering eyelashes. “I, Dana,” she says, smiling coyly in preparation for what they both know comes next. “Take you, Fox.” His name is spoken with a teasing lilt, and it sounds just as unnatural as it always does coming from her mouth. He breathes a laugh, jostling her hands playfully between them. “Mulder,” she whispers, just as he had, and his heart melts. “To be my husband.”
The rest of her vows follow, equal to his, just as they are equal in all things. The weight of what they are promising lands squarely on their shoulders, at once harrowing and freeing. Mulder can hardly believe the ceremony is almost over.
“Now, do you have rings to exchange?”
Scully goes to answer that, no, they don’t, but movement from Mulder stalls her. He fishes something from his pocket, facing her with a shy smile.
“Merry Christmas, Scully,” he says, dropping a plain silver band in the palm of her hand. She sees his fist clenched around what must be her ring, and tilts her head in fond exasperation, a silent whine of ‘Mulder…’ that he looks forward to hearing every time they exchange gifts.
The judge waxes poetic (as poetic as city hall can get) about the meaning of rings, their significance in a marriage, symbolism—but Mulder and Scully are barely listening. All they hear is her instruction to place the band on each other’s left ring finger, which they happily do, taking their time to slide it into place. The weight feels heavy, but right, on Mulder’s hand, and Scully’s… Scully’s sparkles just like he’d imagined it would when he picked it out at the jewelry shop.
They won’t be able to wear them in public most of the time—he’d known that from the start—but for now, in this room where everyone is privy to the legal bonds being established between them, they are free to do whatever they wish.
“Well then,” the judge speaks up, beaming from ear to ear. “Having consented to enter into this union and pledged your vows to each other, by the authority vested in me by the State of Maryland and the circuit courts of Anne Arundel County, I now pronounce you husband and wife.” She reaches up and takes off her glasses, setting them down in front of her. “Mr. Mulder, you may kiss your bride.”
Blood rushes to his ears, and for a second all he can hear is the pounding of his heart.
Somehow, in all the weeks they’ve been planning this, he’d never considered this particular part of the ceremony. A startling oversight, considering how thorough he’d been with everything else.
Scully is looking up at him, the only sign of her own internal turmoil being the way she bites her lip and tucks a strand of hair behind her ear. He wants to kiss her, oh, does he want to kiss her. But this is where the line between real and fake goes gray.
‘Is this okay?’ he asks with his eyes, his hands suddenly sweating a fair bit more than they had been before. He gets an almost imperceptible nod in return, and makes up his mind.
It’s chaste, the way his lips first meet hers. His hands land on that place on her back that she thinks of as belonging to him, and he dips down to press a kiss to the corner of her mouth. She turns and catches him with her lips, her hand coming up to lay flat against his chest. It barely lasts more than a few seconds, but it leaves him feeling dizzy nonetheless, breathless. He smiles a lopsided grin.
Of all the ways he imagined their first kiss going, in front of two complete strangers at their wedding was not one of them.
The air feels awkward when they pull back, not quite able to meet each other’s eyes, but the silence is quickly filled with congratulatory remarks from both the judge and their witness. In an act of boldness, he captures her hand again as they are ushered out of the room, holding tightly to it. As he predicted, their witness-slash-photographer takes Mulder’s money, promising that the prints from their ceremony will be delivered to his address in a month’s time, and he thanks her.
Step one is complete. They have officially started the process that would have them labeled the craziest agents in the FBI.
For once, he doesn’t really mind being the crazy one.
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25 reasons Trump won’t pay a dime to E. Jean Carroll
That eye-popping $83 million judgment will not survive an appeal. A proper settlement would subtract at least $82,972,000.
In 2019, a strange woman named E. Jean Carroll accused Donald Trump of raping her in a changing room of the Bergdorf Goodman department store in Midtown Manhattan. Trump called her crazy, and a jury found him liable for both sexually abusing her and defaming her with the “crazy” talk. Last week, a New York jury decided Carroll deserves $83 million for defamation.
Here are 25 reasons why that’s nuts.
1) Carroll has said rape is “sexy”
She backs up this insane statement with, “Think of the fantasies” (which my wife and I can’t stop saying to each other). For the record, having someone forcibly violate you against your will is the exact opposite of “sexy.”
2) She’s already bragging about shopping sprees
Remember in “Goodfellas” when that idiot shows up at the party with his wife wearing a $20,000 fur coat and De Niro tells him to “bring it back”? When you run a scam, you need to lay low for a while. Carroll, conversely, is making appearances on national television telling Rachel Maddow she’s going to buy her a “penthouse in Paris” as well as fishing gear and a motorcycle for her counsel (could she pick weirder presents?). Her lawyer awkwardly murmured, “Uh, that’s a joke.”
Yeah, this whole thing is a joke.
3) The scenario she described came from her favorite TV show
She is a self-described “Law & Order” fan, and there is an episode wherein a man muscles his way into a changing room at Bergdorf Goodman and sexually molests a woman. This is likely where she got the idea. She’s also a big fan of “The Apprentice.” Would you like to watch your rapist on TV?
4) She didn’t want to press criminal charges
Being on the cover of New York magazine is one thing, but taking your BS story into an actual courtroom is a whole other level of fraud. When Bill de Blasio said he would change the law to make the case admissible, Carroll kept awkwardly repeating, “The experts told me … the time has passed.”
5) They changed the law
The case had no merit because the statute of limitations on civil action had passed. So what happened? The New York State Legislature changed the law. Is there anything that screams “witch hunt” more than that? What are we, Zimbabwe?
6) The man who backed the lawsuit is a major DNC donor
Leftist activist billionaire Reid Hoffman is the money behind this operation. His motive is obviously to bankrupt Trump so he can’t run again. Carroll denied this at first because she’s a liar, but her lawyer was forced to come clean.
7) The whole thing was George Conway’s idea, apparently
Though she denies it, it’s clear this entire plan was concocted by “conservative lawyer” Conway at a radical leftist cocktail party in Manhattan.
8) Carroll’s lawyer is desperate to fix her reputation as a rape-enabler
Roberta Kaplan was supposed to champion victims of sexual assault with her #TimesUp movement, but she used it instead to run cover for perverts such as Andrew Cuomo. She got caught and she got fired. Her comeback included representing Ashley Biden (A Biden lawyer going after Trump? Is anyone surprised?), but this case could permanently rescue her Google results.
9) Carroll’s dress didn’t exist back then
Carroll said the rape happened in the early 1990s. We just learned the particular dress she said she was allegedly wearing did not exist at the time.
10) She cannot remember when the rape happened
We’re not talking about the exact date. She can’t tell us if it was 1993 or 1995.
11) She won’t let anyone test her coat for DNA
Carroll calls the dress her “bad luck dress” and told CNN she will never make a talisman out of it — as though the idea had occurred to anyone. Why did she keep it around? This could be the left’s Monica Lewinsky dress, but she refuses to let anyone analyze it.
12) She doesn’t know if Trump ejaculated
I don’t know if anyone reading this has engaged in sexual intercourse, but evidence of the male orgasm is almost impossible to hide.
13) She is a serial accuser
Despite being a 3.5, she has claimed men have sexually assaulted her at least a half-dozen times. This isn’t proof of Trump’s innocence in and of itself, but it becomes relevant when surrounded by 24 other points.
14) She said it wasn’t sexual
Carroll has said pretty much everything that you could say about this encounter, from “it was not sexual” to “it was the definition of rape.” She said she would not press charges, however, because it would trivialize the experience of illegal aliens who are being “raped around the clock.”
15) She’s not his type
Trump is into elegant Slavs. This woman is like that hysterical chicken lady from “The Kids in the Hall.”
16) The judge and Carroll’s lawyer are pals
We’re told Judge Lewis Kaplan was Roberta Kaplan’s (no relation) mentor back when they both worked at Paul, Weiss, Rifkind, Wharton & Garrison. Roberta Kaplan denies this, but it can’t be denied they worked at the same firm at the same time. That alone is a conflict of interest.
17) Carroll didn’t talk to anyone about the alleged assault, until she did
If a woman is sexually assaulted, she is morally obligated to report it immediately, so the rapist doesn’t do it again. Carroll did not do this. What’s more, she didn’t talk to any of her friends about it. At least not at first. This is peculiar behavior for a blabbermouth.
18) Even if it’s all true, the settlement would be tiny
Carroll alleged that Trump cost her a columnist job at Elle, but the magazine made it clear it ended her contract as an advice columnist based on nothing more than lack of interest. But let’s assume Elle fired her because Trump wrote a mean tweet. A good price for an advice column would be a couple of hundred bucks per piece. That’s $2,000 a year for Elle. Assuming Carroll lives as long as “Dear Abby” columnist Pauline Esther Friedman, who died at 94, that would be a whopping total of $28,000 (Carroll is 80).
So, we’re off by about $82,972,000.
19) She said women “love” being abducted
She told Charlie Rose (remember him?) in 1995 that women love the idea of a caveman knocking them unconscious with a club and then dragging them — by their hair — back to the cave. I’m no feminist, but I’m pretty sure the cerebral contusions from this kind of violence are not a turn-on.
20) She said it wasn’t a big deal
“I’m a mature woman,” she said. “I can handle it.” OK, then why does she need $83 million to recover? That’s four times the amount of money you get when your kid is decapitated.
21) She lives in a Mouse House
Anyone who doubts this lady’s mental state needs to check out her house. She calls it “The Mouse House” because it’s infested with rodents (to whom she has given individual names, such as “Terbrusky”). She has painted the trees blue. She has printed out 27 years of advice column questions and stacked them all over the place. Yes, writers can be weird. But it is impossible to look at her place and not think, “This is nuts.”
22) She is a hoarder
Hoarding is a mental disorder. You can’t sue someone for calling you “crazy” if you have a mental disorder.
23) Her cat is called “Vagina” — seriously
E. Jean Carroll is obsessed with sex and her vagina. She said she lives in the woods because if she lived in the city, she’d have 16 boyfriends. She’s 80, remember?
Her dog “Tits” has blue hair, and her cat is named “Vagina.” The left-wing media thinks this is irrelevant. “Among the stranger complaints made by the former president … was that the jury wasn’t informed about the name of his accuser’s cat: Vagina T. Fireball.” Uh, when the charge is “calling a sane woman crazy,” Vagina T. Fireball matters.
24) She writes notes to herself
Wait, doesn’t everyone do that? Not like this. “The Mouse House” is festooned with bizarre messages. Her microwave says, “Burn Baby Burn.” Her bookshelf says, “Always amused never angry.” And, in a moment of deranged honesty, she taped a note to a lamp that says, “Hold your nerve. Pursue your radical options to the bitter END!”
25) Carroll said she wanted to “rape” Trump
Apparently, she thought having rough sex with him in the changing room would make for a “funny story.” (Wait, I thought she didn’t tell anyone about what happened to her out of fear.) She also suggested she’d do it for $17,000 if he was unable to speak. Sounds awfully rapey, doesn’t it?
Anyone who takes this case seriously and doesn’t see E. Jean Carroll as a complete basket case is a complete basket case.
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But yeah this was the guy I made for my psych class and basically his deal is that (to make a long story very short) he worked for company, finds out his research is being used for weapons of war that violated several Geneva conventions so he quits but since he was under contract he gets sued into oblivion and whoops now he’s broke and just his luck, he gets diagnosed with lung cancer so he’s flat broke and dying and is in both college debt and debt from the lawsuit so he built this suit thingy that he uses to fuck over the company that he left and steal from it so he can continue having the ability to live in some dank apartment and buy food and pay off the monthly cost of the insane amounts of debt he’s in, with little to none left over cuz whoop-dee-do, healthcare still isn’t free seventy years into the future. The suit makes him stronger and allows him to inflict simulated agony upon anyone he touches with the nodes on his gauntlets. Both a benefit and a drawback of this is that he doesn’t feel pain while wearing the armor. His name is Dr. Silas Barker and he’s also half-puerto rican.
And then there’s this fucker. Kalvin Kepler. Superhero rich boy who has a sort of Batman story, minus the murder of his parents. I haven’t come up with a hero alias yet but yeah neither Kalvin nor Silas have their names public. His suit uses some fancy future ferromagnetic tech to let him do things like walk on walls and propel himself off of and onto magnetic materials. Silas and Kalvin were initially enemies since Silas was breaking into buildings owned by HeriTech (the aforementioned company) and breaking things like servers and lab work as well as stealing confidential company and government files to sell for money. But again, long story short both Silas and Kalvin get captured by a big baddie villain (who I have yet to figure out) who’s more concerned with Silas since the tech he uses is rather impressive but Silas doesn’t want to work with the guy since Silas doesn’t kill people or like people using his work to kill people. When they’re both tied up an shit, Silas and Kalvin chat a bit cuz boredom and Silas sheds light on his reasons for doing what he does and since the lawsuit filed against him became very publicized, Kalvin figured out who Silas was, Silas was not able to deduce who Kalvin was. Kalvin also finds that “oh shit this guy is completely reasonable and sane I actually agree with a lot of what he does” so yeah after they bust out they go their separate ways but then letters without a return address full of cash start showing up at Silas’ apartment, lots of it. Conveniently it’s enough to cover the medical bills and then some. Curious. Silas knows full well who’s sending them. Kalvin and Silas become sorta “you’re my archenemies but you’re also kinda cool and I’d fight you any day of the week and also like I’d never want anyone else to hurt you but still you’re my enemy but we’ve made truces before but the public thinks we’re bitter enemies but maybe we don’t fight sometimes but we never see each other outside of fighting”
And also haha Ty @mackachu1212 for taking interest!
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I enter the cyberpunk 2077 tag. I see a post about the game not being 'punk' because of all the triple A gaming company typical shit 'means it's not punk'. I roll my eyes so hard I exit the tag.
Points, context, rebuttal, whatever beloooow (I am not reblogging post because I don't want to attract hate to OP, but I am writing this cause I'm sick of seeing it).
Yeah triple A dev treatment fucking sucks. It sucks CDPR vowed to do different and didn't but that is missing a bunch of context. Here comes the context -
I've been following CDPR since about 2010-ish. They've always held onto older era gaming attitudes and respect their consumers. I guess in a way they were still made for an older era around the Cyberpunk release for the following reasons.
They shot themselves in the foot with their own marketing. Hiring a big name may have done that. If you look at the teaser trailer for Cyberpunk 2077 on announcement it basically says release date wise 'its done when it's done'. Being part of that older era they want to put out a COMPLETE game. Well tested. They came from a time where game updates were a LUXURY and that's why I trusted them to release a good product.
Marketing however got so big that it exited the realm of core fans and into the general public (derogatory). When they announced another delay, I was chill. I trusted them. Shit takes time man, whatever it takes to make it good AND treat your employees well bro. General public however was out for blood, sending death threats, pulling preorders.
There's this fine line you have to tread in marketing. Too little hype, no one knows about your product. Too much hype, you skyrocket expectations. Hype at the wrong time - you end up peaking at the wrong moment and end up losing momentum for release. You can see the conundrum here. They were arguably in the skyrocketed expectations and the losing momentum risk region.
So they did crunch time for release. In a way they had to. I mean sure they could have been 'punk' like OP suggested and said fuck you to the non-core fanbase but unfortunately punk doesn't pay bills. It doesn't keep the lights on. It doesn't keep your employees employed. It doesn't stop them from getting sent death threats for a delay.
So they rushed it out, it bombed. That sucked BUT it brought them peace. Because while everyone was making fun of them and quickly forgetting about it to go laugh at the next bomb of the month - it meant they could actually get onto fixing/finishing their game because people like ME knew them. It wouldn't be left as is. Also let them work at a less insane pace.
I started playing it (I finally had a PC that could handle it) right before the Edgerunners release and the public reboot. It was a fucking. Solid. Game. I studied game design and if I didn't get sick and had to stop this game would have been my goddamn final paper. There are so many good choices narratively and mechanically to the point you can't separate the two. It was everything I expected.
They worked hard to get there. We currently live in an era where entertainment is treated like fast food and people can be fucking incoherent when they're told to have patience. Why do you think so many games release in a scuffed state? Why do you think this new 'redemption arc' story in the game industry has become increasingly common? Because Devs keep getting sent DEATH THREATS just for doing work. That's fucking insane. No wonder they're working overtime and sleeping at the office because the general public has turned gamedev into an industry that basically uses psychological torture as a whip to get your game out 'on time'.
Yes there are absolutely horrible triple A gamedev companies, usually under the stable of a larger company (EA, Activision etc. take your pick) but CDPR ain't that. In my eyes their hand was forced.
You know what is punk? Going with a little, 'unpopular' (basically not DnD) ttrpg written by a black man and building a new IP and experience from it - AND having him on board and getting his active input during development. Because dear lord current media in general seems to be allergic to taking risks and new IPs.
You know what else is punk? Releasing free DLC updates that would be a micro transaction otherwise (no I am not talking about Phantom Liberty and I argue that's an 'expansion' though I guess no one uses that word now) and putting the goddamn pdf of the ttrpg handbook they based it off with the game download. Putting stickers in physical releases (going by my witcher experience), giving you goddamn HIGH RESOLUTION IMAGES of in game posters to print for yourself FOR. FREE. No one DOES THAT anymore.
Also arguably putting out Cyberpunk is punk just in the narrative it tells in the goddamn first place - especially in the current climate, but I think I've made my point here.
Also my last point, in big letters because it's driving me fucking insane:
CYBERPUNK. IS. A. GENRE. A GENRE. THEY DID NOT INVENT CYBERPUNK. BLADE RUNNER. NEUROMANCER. ALTERED CARBON. IT'S A GENRE. THE PUNK ELEMENT IS IN THE NARRATIVE. IT'S NOT SOME KIND OF 'STATEMENT' ABOUT THEMSELVES, IT'S A GENRE AND ALSO THE LITERAL TITLE OF THE TTRPG THE THING WAS BASED OFF IN THE FIRST PLACE.
Anyway I'm sick of seeing CDPR being thrown under the bus and being treated in ways that will actively end up affecting future development. I really, really hope they haven't been too affected but if they end up feeling forced into modern day gamedev cycles and all the bullshit that goes with it ... well I know why.
And it starts with people who spout shit like this.
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Thanks pal!
4. I'm looking forward to a bunch of things I guess, although also everything makes me so nervous that anticipation is never untainted! I'm looking forward to my book coming out, even though it has all sorts of little flaws that I can barely prevent myself from spontaneously defending/confessing. I'm looking forward to a blu-ray commentary I'm gonna record soon (can't announce yet) plus a bunch of writing I got assigned, all really cool things but I know how much work they are and I wonder if I'm going to survive it every time! I'm looking forward to a horror event I have to host in a couple weeks; it's insanity, I'm paying $$$ for travel and lodging to be on a stage for probably ten minutes to just sort of be the face of the event and provide "support", but that's what it means to me apparently. I think that I should try to find some longer term things to look forward to, but that will be a whole project, I've always had a lot of trouble with goal formation. I'm always doing one short-term thing at a time and feeling like I barely got away with it.
7. 2023 was really insane. My mental health was crumbling really badly in tandem with our tiny, ridiculous apartment where we had lived for ten years. There were huge ups and downs with the big TBA project I basically gave my life to, that I may never be able to "A" but hopefully some day someone will tell me if it is officially cancelled so I can at least talk about it a little. I also wrote my book and I got a chance to go to London to record my first blu-ray commentary, which was a huge adventure and it happened amidst a bunch of really complicated dramatic events I don't have the space for; it was like, we moved out of our apartment, and somebody died, and I had to get on a plane to another country immediately, and I still have this feeling like I went through a portal to another dimension and when I landed at home again it was in another universe and that's where I've been ever since. I got to do some major writing projects that kind of felt like, well OK I did THIS, maybe it will be alright if I die now. I got to be on the jury of the local horror film festival and that was really awesome...and I'm starting to realize that this roundup makes it sound like I'm an incredibly ambitious and busy professional person who is fulfilling her dreams, but none of this stuff pays the bills and I am chronically unemployed, and I seem to have a lot of cognitive and intellectual problems, and I'm just terrified that I'm going to have to starve to death eventually. Toward the end of the year I tried to go back into therapy (round 3) and the search itself was really frightening, but when I finally picked someone I had made a really bad choice and the ~3 sessions I had with her fucked up my mind so badly, I wasn't OK for like two months. I still need to figure that out though, there's a lot of stuff wrong with me.
15. Personality description, wow. Maybe it would be fun to do one of those Marvel cards with all my "stats". How do I answer this? My instinct is to list all my pathologies, but then I think I should say what I'm like socially, but then I remember that I'm pretty different from one situation to another. I have incredible anxiety and I'm always tired from a lot of heavy duty masking, but the masking is 1 part survival instinct and 1 part compassion for others I would say. Almost all of my relationships are these intense one-on-one bonds, I don't do well in groups or with people who can't sustain a long conversation about one thing. But even with people I really know and love I have trouble being spontaneous, I have to script all my phone calls just in case I suddenly lose my mind. I think a lot of people perceive me as like really tough and self-possessed and even ambitious, which blows my mind; I've had a number of relationships that fell apart because the person came up with the fantasy that I was this bad bitch and then they were disappointed that I'm actually really vulnerable and nervous and incompetent. I'm not completely sure what that's about, but I think it could be partially a "social cues" problem; like sometimes I don't realize that I'm being inappropriately harsh until it's too late, and other times I'm like daring myself to be more honest and frank because I think that I'm too meek and it's not normal and people don't like that and I should practice having more self-confidence...and then I'm mortified when I find out the hard way that I was being inappropriate. But the one thing I can probably say without reservation is that I have a great sense of humor. It's like my prized possession, an incredible survival tool, and it keeps me entertained even when I have nothing else.
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Who is she?
Dark stalker Natasha x reader
*warning stalking pregnancy
*summary you always feel like somebody's watching you are you paranoid or just insane
I felt soft long fingers tracing against my face before pulling away I woke up in a small panic I looked around thinking somebody was in my apartment. I let out a heavy sigh of groan from getting so fast I checked my phone to see that I was late for work I got out of bed walking in the bathroom taking a shower and brushing my teeth. I put on my work clothes and walked to my job I work at a coffee shop until night time. Where most of the customers are assholes but this is the amount I can handle until I get paid. The door ringed as a person walked in I looked up to see a redhead with green eyes a leather black jacket and black pants along with some piercings and rings on her ear and fingers. Hello ma'am how can I help you I spoke with a smile on my face.
I'll just take a black coffee detka she replied with a raspy voice and a smirk, I handed her the coffee and she tipped me a 20 dollar bill. I was about to call her name but she disappeared before I could call her name. Just then my boss walked up to me and told me that I finally got my paid day. My face lit up with a big smile, I thanked my boss and left work early since she gave me a free day off. And the rest of the day I spent some of the money on food and clothes I am now heading home after the day I had but I have decided to call a cab to go home since my feet began to hurt and get sore from walking and running all over the place.
I saw a black car pulling up and I thought it was my Uber so I hopped in the car greeting the driver not paying any mind to her red hair I felt my self dozing off in my sleep I felt a soft hand going up and down my thigh the last thing I heard was the driver's voice speaking another language as my vision blacked out. My eyes opened to see myself chained up to a bed I started pulling myself against panicking hey hey it's okay I saw the same woman from the coffee shop she kissed my face and told me to calm down and she'll Remove the chains. I agreed with her my name is Natasha darling and I have been watching you for so long but I got tired of watching and now I want you to love it. And don't worry I have your clothes from last night here . She took me by the hand to cook me food
She pushed a plate of food in front of me and just smiled at me I can't this is wrong I got out of the chair and walked away to God knows where. Just then I felt a strong grip on my hair . You will sit here and eat the food or I'll fucking make you! I whimpered at her grip as I sat back in the chair and ate pieces of the food. Will I ever go home?!
It's been months and here I am sobbing at the site realizing I'm pregnant only a few weeks and it was positive. I heard nat open the door and saw the test in my hand your pregnant darling. I couldn't get a few words out as Natasha pulled me into a soft and warm kiss on my lips hugging me in a comfort grip. I rested my head on her chest knowing I'm pregnant by my own stalker. I figured I had gotten pregnant due to the many times to come inside me which was either as a punishment or with my consent and it was mostly my consent. It's okay detka you'll be a wonderful mother.
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phumpeem future hcs go!
omg yaaaay thank u for the ask 🫶🫶🫶
so i know that everyone is like "wow, phum only knows how to express his love through money 😔" and don't get me wrong - he absolutely needs to learn other ways of expressing it as well. that being said... girl, he's literally a rich trust fund baby. peem comes from a regular family and he's gonna be an artist. let phum shower him with gifts ok!!! so my hc is that in the future phum will continue spending a lot of money on peem and that's just how things are gonna be. in fact, he's gonna be paying rent, he's gonna be paying bills, AND he's gonna be throwing everything peem could ever want at him as well. and then peem will have a separate bank account with his own money that he'd mostly just be saving. i don't care what anyone says, this is equality. this is the way.
we can clearly see that phum is really babie with people who love him and i think in some ways this will be a thing for phumpeem in the future as well. i'm imagining phum pouting a lot and acting really cute, and peem would indulge him. peem would also definitely get used to phum's plushies and gift him a lot more new ones. (and apologies to the old plushies, but the ones peem gifts will definitely be phum's favourites immediately).
i think peem will eventually actually learn how to cook, because i believe phum will continue insisting on eating things peem makes, and it will rapidly become a health hazard 😭 so he'll need to figure it out before he poisons his boyfriend for good lmao.
phum is going to constantly give the energy of that "have you seen my boyfriend? no, he didn't go missing, i just want to show everyone that i'm dating him" meme. he is going to effortlessly pull compliments out of nowhere and the name peem will rarely come out of his mouth without some sort of a complimentary adjective.
peem will forever be staring at phum. he is my cringefail little guy and he will always want to just spend minutes staring at hs boyfriend. phum will try to tease him about it the same way he did in episode 5, but peem would already be used to it, so he'd whip out something like "yes, i find you handsome" and that will be enough to send phum into a three second coma. like, i think peem will get over being stunned by shit phum says pretty quickly, but never the other way around. phum will always giggle and kick his feet at every little affectionate gesture and flirty line.
phum will be incredibly passionate about supporting peem's art. like "i'm buying you a spot at a museum" level of insanity and "i am coming to every exhibition of yours ever" level of passionate. and he would buy him all art supplies that have ever existed in the world. peem will have every shade of oil paint you have ever and never heard of.
peem will be bossing phum around a little bit and you will not hear a single complaint from him. everyone in their friend group will poke fun at him a little for it, but phum will not care. he will be happy to do whatever his boyfriend tells him to.
phum will love taking care of peem via small gestures. we already see that with him picking him up and driving him around everywhere, and that will just extend to many other things. like, the second peem falls asleep somewhere like the couch, phum is there with a comfy pillow and blanket. he will always insist on carrying anything heavy for peem. he'd always call after work asking if peem wants him to pick up food. things like that.
in the more distant future, i imagine them buying a house and phum specifically looks for something with a room that would make for a good, spacious, well-lit art studio. i'm imagining them with some big cute dog like a golden retriever and a cat or two as well. and i think they would get married. not sure who would propose just yet though.
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So like the jock/cheerleader kross au, to sum it up, is cross is a big softy with a motorcycle, and killer is every gender on the planet in a skirt!!! And the plot of it was like the cliche thing, where like killer slowly learns that cross is more than just some nice guy at school, and he's not actually rich
There's like a thing where killer finds out that cross works at a fast food joint where he barely makes enough to pay off his motorcycle maintenance bills and stuff, and killer also discovers that cross's like smile that he always has is like, always tinged with sadness in some way, like a forlorn kinda melancholic smile, and the first time killer gets cross to actually smile, they like, make out in a closet
Anyways the idea for that au that I was gonna share!! (copy pasted from my notes and from a convo with paper'd because I'm so in love with the idea)
theyre in some run down abandoned school!!! And killer is playing around on the rusty bleachers, and cross is like, trying to blow up a deflated basketball and killer is like " so. Have you ever done graffiti?" And cross like, drops his half-blown basketball and stares at killer like they're insane
And killer like, grabs their cheerleader duffel bag off of Cross's bike and unzips it to reveal a buncha bottles of spray paints and stuff and cross is like "killer-- wait, hold on--" and killer is already shaking up some neon red paint and cross watches, a lil stupefied as killer starts vandalizing the gym, spraying paint everywhere and making just a horrid mess of red and killer eventually stops to grin at cross and they use their foot to kick a bottle of green spray paint towards cross and theyre like "cmon, tough guy, lets draw some dicks on this rotting floor" and cross is like, shaking in his boots at the notion, and killer comes over, takes his hand, and like, presses their own spray can into Cross's hand and they like, guide him into spray painting the floor and cross is like, staring at it in wide eyed terror, but just the littlest bit of curiousity and killer nudges him, and is like "give it a whirl." And cross shakes the can a bit and hesitantly sprays a sloppy smiley face on the cracked floor and he grins just a little
and then it hardcuts/time jumps to killer on cross's shoulders, spray painting flame patterns on the backboard of the basketball goal and that room is just a mess of obnoxious colors and designs
and like, they're not even good at it, theyre just being goofy
Cross draws one singular dick shape, and killer insists on taking a picture, and cross obliges, and they take a selfie beside cross's masterpiece before they dip
and they nyoooom away, and cross drops killer off at their house and killer is like "you did good, crossy" and cross is like. [LOUD STARING] and killer watches em drive off and they're like "im so gonna ruin his reputation"
and cross gets home safely, avoids his shitty dad, and flops onto his bed and just kinda. Goes all soft and dorky thinking about killer and then it ends :]
cross just kinda, does a really slow crooked grin and flops an arm over his face and huffs a tiny little laugh and is like "...i GOTTA get their number."
Meanwhile, Killer has Cross's phone and is disappointed at the lack of anything on it
Killer takes a few selfies, and the next day, they run up to hug cross and casually slips his phone into his backpack before strolling away to find horror for their first period and cross is like "wait- ah. Nevermind" and he discovers his phone and suspiciously takes it out of the pocket he never puts it in and opens it to find a picture of killer and their smug, self-satisfied grin, and he's like "oh of course they would" [he totally makes it into his background] and THEN he finds a new contact in his contact list of like, three people and its !literally just titled 'call me <3' and its totally killers phone number
Because the dork put their number in before giving cross his phone back
And they totally send each other silly memes all through the night and chat about fuck all and that's all :]
The bit I specifically like the most is killer on cross's shoulders spray painting the basketball goal, like thats such a silly image, theyre so dorky and in love
HI I LOVE THAT SO MUCH WHAT THE HELL HELLO???
LIKE OH MY GOD DUDE IM. AUGHH THEM
Losing my shit over all of that that is SO good holy fuck dude
I don’t even know what else to say that’s all just. Yeah absolutely fuck yeah
#That’s such a nice mental image good lord#THEM UWAA#answering asks#chair asks#chair!!#Cross x Killer#legitimately love that SO much my god#thank you for sharing I’m obsessed with that now wawawa
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https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/glen-powell-doesnt-think-hed-appreciate-his-breakthrough-year-if-it-had-happened-in-his-20s-good-things-come-to-those-who-wait-193258591.html?guccounter=1
I'm sorry if this seems like a dead horse comment rn to make, but the decent to.last question and answer is what some fans of Tom need to hear, lol. "Good things come to those who wait." Both fans of TZ need to listen to this cause this worrying is so low iq. But rn we're focusing on Tom's fans cause those guys are doing too much.
They won't because they're not really fans but because they have blogs and make snide comments of other blogs/fans for not being as "passionate" of a fan because most ppl are not angry where his career is lol and are not black and white thinkers. They get mad when ppl use him being wealthy as success but desperately need him to do indie movies to get awards cause, according to them, those are the ones that pay bills? We might celebrate his wealth, but you guys are never going to get his awards, so I guess we both ain't shit. Sorry if I'm a toxic fan who wants their faves to be financially good as well as awarded cause being awarded when you're broke is most of hollywood post strike rn. Luca Guadagnino is in talks to do a DC movie despite doing Challengers and now Queer this yr. Is he washed?
Some blogs justifying their hate as opinins due to "pmsing" is crazy cause you all sound insane lol😭😭😭
I'm sorry Anon, I haven't had a chance to read this article yet because I'm at work rn. But thank you for bringing this article about Glen out. 🙏🏾
I DO agree with him that good things DO come to those who wait!! 😊 I also feel too that a lot of actors who get fame later on in like probably do tend to appreciate it more and have a totally different perspective on it because they've had to struggle and struggle for years. So their view (and their fans views) on fame, money, projects, etc might differ from those who got super famous at a young age.
Their fans also might feel a little differently and may not be so hard on their faves with regards to what films they should be doing, because they remember when their fave was just doing bit parts on TV shows and films, so maybe their expectations for their faves aren't so high and they may not get as angry by what their fave is doing, or NOT doing. 😅
Look, when you've been a fan of various actors over the years who are in a wide range of different places in their career like I have, you learn not to get upset or take things like an actor's "career" too seriously. You learn to chill. 😎 You're just happy to see your fave in smthg new, and you don't have all of these unrealistic or demanding expectations on them and their career.
You support them just because it's THEM, not because of what movie role they have lined up next.
Imo, more of Tom's fans need to be like THAT. But at the same time, I'm not going to invalidate anyone's feelings or judge what they choose to post on THEIR own blog. 😅🤷🏾♀️
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my love……..tell me a california across the ocverse………..
HI MY LOVE!!!
lucky for you i am insane so i had already typed something up...
this all started with california dreamin' (mamas & papas) and i am biting and shaking things and people. so with CIFL. it's so. well it's on the level of having santa monica (everclear) on my donny playlist. and the conundrum of 'do i have him and ellie go to california at some point'... nevertheless. the whole [noah kahan voice] 'i would leave if only i could find a reason' of it all and yearning to go. sure it IS a reason to go if he's truly going to pursue his dreams and makes some damn films, but clearly there's still something holding him back. whether or not that's a false hope/optimism that ellie will come back, that ends up not being false, who's to say. but nevertheless the glitz and glamour and being more than what he already is (being someone people want) are all contained in the california.
meanwhile for RtHT, it's the opposite ideal. well opposite ideal for Bill. he grew up there and while he's fond of it in That way, and by proxy his friends and family who still live there, HIS need to get out and be someone people want was so much stronger than anything that could keep him tied to california. not that he doesn't love his closest people, and not that he wants to undermine them as people or undermine his love for him, but !! the independence issues and in HIS own way wanting to be more than what he is. and of course he's not going to bat an eye at the place once he's met lucille and harry and making a life with them on the other side of the country becomes more enticing. that is until visits become a part of that life since bill can't crawl away from his past, nor his loved ones, so he has to pay extra to take that emotional baggage on as a carry-on. though he's certainly not going to deprive hannah of her family or even opportunities to further herself (if she so chose) just because he needed a change of scenery and loved what it became.
and finally california is not even a blip in anyone's radar in down on palladium. yeah maybe in an ambiguous gray space way where it's something the pachyderms know of and maybe it's somewhere where their creative endeavors Could thrive, even have other artists of their kinds collaborate. but they're too rooted in new york as a physical geography and a part of their identity. even when they get the chance to move when they're older, they're choosing to move upstate so they're at least in the same state (as much as it pains them to leave the city). and it's not like they have any point or any one moment where it crossed their minds since they have no need for a self-initiated exile or anything. sure, they've run in with some assholes plenty of times— including having the judith & the holocene girls and even lucy on their asses all the time— but never enough to get up and leave. maybe that makes it a good thing that they're self sufficient (roughly) so there's never an issue like def jam and becoming people they don't want to be to the point they need to find themselves again and reinvent themselves across the country. maybe for any of the sisters they'll consider a trip but there's no chance of moving for any big dreams or anything and they'd probably be complaining the whole time anyway. so in essence california and its whimsy (or what have you) is so far removed from them that honestly and frankly donny and bill would probably be jealous that it's never created an issue or two for them
#mhac.txt#beloved tag#CIFL#RtHT#down on palladium#mhac's original characters#i am getting eepy but on the morrow if you want more of anything... big eyes#also sorry it's the ENTIRE verse-to-verse cross comparison. it's the anthropologist in me
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Georgia Lawmakers To Rein In Aggressive Home Owners Associations After Hearing Homeowner Horror Stories – Atlanta Georgia reporting
You can be up to date on your mortgage, never missed a loan payment, and lose your home to foreclosure by your Homeowners Association.
▶︎ Each month Karyn Gibbons mailed a check for HOA dues on her Gwinnett County condo to the address provided in writing at closing. But she said she never knew when or if it would be cashed.
“It was just random. I mean there’d be two, three, four, five months go in between checks being cashed,” said Gibbons. Then out of the blue she was served with a notice of foreclosure by her Home Owners Association, with late fees and thousands of dollars in attorney fees.
She owed more than $30,000.
“Did you even know you could be foreclosed on by an HOA?” Gray asked Gibbons.
“No. Never heard of it,” Gibbons said.
▶︎ “It’s totally insane. It’s totally insane,” said Tricia Quigley, a former Cherokee County homeowner.
She learned it can happen the hard way.
When Quigley’s Cherokee County home of 18 years was sold at foreclosure on the courthouse steps for about the amount of spare change on her coffee table as Gray interviewed her.
“It went for $3.25,” Quigley said.
She admitted she did not pay two of her biannual homeowner association dues payments totaling $800.
She ended up paying more than $10,000 trying to get right with the HOA but the late fees and attorney fees kept growing.
“I kept thinking I paid all this money; how come it’s not stopping?” Quigley said.
A big reason is attorney costs.
Every email, every inquiry, every attempt to contest, fix, or even pay the overdue bill adds to the bill.
Channel 2 Action News checked foreclosure records and found that ▶︎ just two metro Atlanta law firms that specialize in representing HOAs have filed 279 notices seeking damage and foreclosure notices in just the past three years.
By the time Juliet Graham finally sold her downtown Atlanta condo her HOA bill had reached $250,000.
“You broke us. We’re broke,” Graham said.
“I can’t imagine the mafia having been any worse than what my experience was with this,” Graham said.
State Senator Donzella James, a Democrat who represents South Fulton County, introduced multiple bills this legislative session trying to reign in overly aggressive HOAs.
“People need to be protected and safeguarded against foreclosures,” said State Senator James.
“This is where I resodded the whole thing,” said James McAdoo, a homeowner in South Fulton County.
The only way he could stop his HOA from intercepting his paycheck was by filing for bankruptcy.
“They garnished my wages,” McAdoo said.
He owes $36,000 and counting predominantly because of weeds in his front yard.
They were garnishing $600 from his paycheck every two weeks until he started the bankruptcy process.
“What way do you see out of this?” Gray asked McAdoo.
“Selling my home and just getting out of this neighborhood,” McAdoo said.
That is what Karyn Gibbons did earlier this year even though she still does not believe she did anything wrong.
“I just said enough. I can’t do it anymore,” Gibbons said.
She paid $34,000 in fines, interest, and attorney fees to end the nightmare.
“I don’t know how it’s legal,” Gibbons said.
And it’s not just happening to homeowners. Gray also spoke with a couple who said just because they were renting a home, they were not safe from an HOA.
Jasmine Latson and Jaquan Hunter said their HOA in their South Fulton neighborhood came after them over the condition of their yard.
They ended up hiring a lawn service to take care of everything. But that wasn’t enough for the HOA.
“I was like, maybe it’s me. Maybe I’m not doing good enough, I don’t know. So I went ahead and just hired an outside resource that my neighbor used. He’s been pretty consistent and good, but the fines keep happening,” Latson said.
Last year, they received a foreclosure letter saying the home’s owners owed fines and fees of more than $23,000.
“Never, never in a million years would I have thought that I would have would be dealing with this. You know? I pay my rent every month,” Latson said.
First Key Homes, Latson, and Hunter’s landlord negotiated down the fines to about $12,000 to prevent foreclosure. But the company has now passed that bill onto the couple along with an eviction notice.
Latson has fired an attorney and has a court date set for Friday.
Now, these renters are hoping state lawmakers can do something about these aggressive HOAs.
▶︎ A bipartisan bill sponsored by state senator and Rules Committee Chair Matt Brass, a Republican representing Newnan, did pass at the Gold Dome this year to create a study committee examining how to change laws to better protect homeowners.
Brass told Gray the No. 1 topic on the study committee’s agenda will be HOA foreclosures that he said are taking families’ generational wealth.
“To have some outside group come and take that away from me is again, it’s un-American. And we’re not going to stand for it in this state,” Brass said.
Several states have put in place laws limiting HOA foreclosure.
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