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suratan-zir · 11 months ago

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Plyam update that no one asked for.

His spinal cord tumor is growing so fast that he went from a little weakness in his hind legs to full paralysis of his lower body in just over a week. All I can do is manage the inflammation with hormones to buy him some time. The good thing is that he doesn't seem to be in any pain, he is very active and acting completely normal, maybe a bit pissed that he can't climb and run as usual. I give him all the cuddles, skritches and treats and spend as much time with him as possible because every day could be the last.

This type of tumor, although possible, is not as common in rats. So Plyam is really unlucky… He is only a year and a half old. Hind leg degeneration occurs to some degree in most old rats (by "old" I mean anywhere from 2.3 to over 3 years old), but when it happens to them their abilities usually match their desires, they just want to sleep and chill for most of the day, so legs not working properly isn't such a big deal. But Plyam wants to run around, chase Skritch to show him who's the boss, dig in the dig box, climb on stuff…it's so sad. Even his little tail is fully paralyzed and limp. My poor boy. He is still somehow more active and mobile than his lazy chonky brother, lol.

#my rats #Plyam the rat #personal #on other news - went for a nice walk on a beautiful sunny day only to walk to the accompaniment of explosions. i hate it so fucking much.#but it seems that all the missiles were shot down #the mood was ruined but at least just the mood??

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valeriefauxnom · 8 months ago

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Dragalia Lost Team, presumably: Okay, we wanna use that song of yours, Daoko, but the lyrics are maybe a little bit...suggestive for Nintendo. Can we just make a light and happy instrumental tune of it that players can enjoy as they play (we can still have the vocal tracks, but we'll hide 'em a bit so they're not quite as in Nintendo's face when they're testing it, 'kay?)

Daoko, presumably: Mh-hm.

(Insert many instrumental tracks)

Also Dragalia Lost Team: Okay, we need something happy for the summoning song. We think we found a good tune, and even a good lyric segment. At least, we heard the localization team overseas working on it was bopping to it. How's this sound?

The lyrics highlighted in question (not even a joke, these are actually the lyrics in the summoning song):

Bang, bang, bang, bang, love and die, A boy and a girl, lovers' suicide, Bang, bang, bang, bang, love and die, Shoot with a blue gun, ....(repeat first 3 lines)... ...I'll dye you blue!

...So yeah, if you didn't know, that's the section of Bang! Dragalia used, lyrics and all, for summoning. Honestly have no idea why they chose that one or got away with it, with Nintendo's name in the mix, but it sure was funny when I found out some years ago! Rather funny to have such a 'wholesome' game have some very unwholesome lyrics in probably one of the most played songs in game!

Bonus round:

This isn't actually verified despite my attempts, but I am 95% sure in my amateur ears that have enough trouble trying to understand what people are saying in English to begin with, that in the Greatwyrm theme, Crasher, at about the 1:55 minute mark, there's a random interjection of, 'kick my ass'.

Please check this one out for yourself, here. Maybe it was just the me of a few years ago projecting my will to finally beat one of those fights when they first released when you basically needed the entire 5min fight scripted in your head+3 other people that also knew their specific role and the fight, but I still cannot unhear it nor process what else it might be.

That is all.

#dragalia lost #hopefully I didn't ruin anyone's innocent hopes of happy bop with the summoning song!#But darn dragalia songs were sometimes mood/tone whiplash #Sometimes they seemed designed for the event in question...others just something they threw in.#Or at least I think so. Otherwise I'm very concerned about the sibling whose perspective would be described in 'It's All Fiction'!

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seventh-district · 4 months ago

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#Seven's Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #can i go more than a fucking week without having my cptsd triggered again? pLEASE???#me and my haywire nervous system can't ever catch a fucking break i swear to god #at least i managed to get the Matt fic posted before that happened and ruined my night #literally three minutes after i hit post. something has to happen IRL and ruin my slight good mood. sigh. anyways #my chest still feels tight but my focus is coming back i think. lets hope the rest of the night is uneventful #anyways. uh. positives. got the Matt fic posted on here And Ao3! yay. after working on it the last two evenings it's officially done #i know i put way too much effort into my fics especially ones that will get very little readership but eh i can't help it #time spent doing something you enjoy is never time wasted or however the saying goes #uh oh. the stress injury in my neck is starting to feel tight again. that's probably not a great sign #i should try to relax. been sitting at my desk too much recently and my back's mad abt it too #i would unwind with some Genshin exploration grinding or smthn but that's just more desk sitting time #so hm. animal crossing in bed it is then #watch me say that then spend the next 3 hours on tumblr #i cant help it i want to update my pinned posts and fill my queue up some more #and i have some drafts to work on... still need to finish that Sun & Moon appearance guide for ES #maybe i'll pull an all-nighter. i need to fix my sleep schedule again. like badly. but then i risk a migraine. aaggghhhhhh #anyways this has been Venting and Bad Decision Making 101 thabks for coming to my TED talk #oh hey look at that i got a like on the Matt fic. mood slightly improved. thank u whoever u r <3

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roboyomo · 7 months ago

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an important reminder that i probably shouldn't post my art or be active with posts on other social media besides tumblr (someone told me to shut the fuck up on twitter because i made 67 comments under a post with adam, which is very fair, probably deserved. but being the sensitive person that i am, i want to curl up into a little ball as i regret ever talking)

#i take everything too close to heart even the slightest bit of judgement is enough to ruin my mood or worse: send me into tears #i could never handle consistently posting on tiktok or twitter. the constant toxicity would break me #not saying that tumblr is a saint #considering everything wrong with terfs and bullies and other awful and mean. but at least i don't fear of being judged 24/7 on here #i just have this circle of people i follow. just very cool and silly people and we all share stuff #tiktok and twitter could never #yomoposting

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months ago

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took a modern japanese history class just to flex on everyone that the only reason why i know so much about the meiji period is because im mentally disturbed about a franchise about criminals and they just so happened to make a game specifically about the meiji period

#snap chats #the funniest thing is on my exam today there were only two (two) meiji period related . vocab.#The Meiji Restoration and Saigo Takamori so you know i wrote essays about those #i legally had to mention tokugawa. of course. bald bitch #cause my exam was like. prof gave us twelve words but he only graded ten and you had to tell him who or what it was #why it was important and when it took place. or when they were most relevant yeah #ACTUALLY the easiest exam of my life- i mean it was bullshit the study guide he gave us had SIXTY-ONE FUCKING WORDS #like of course i studied them all because you gottaa be prepared but my man what the fuck #anyway i hate the bitches in that class theyre annoying as hell and always make me feel like shit. they dont even talk to me #i just hate how they talk and what they say it ruins my mood instantly #but at least i got to sit and daydream about ryuji for like twenty minutes and yk what that almost makes it worth it #cant wait to go over the horror japan committed during ww2 next week bye guys

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languri · 2 months ago

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Honestly considering changing my career to a school bus driver after whatever happened in the local news yesterday

#tw csa mention #tw csa #for context yesterday the discourse in local internet was a user brings up that thete was a creep on tiktok-#uploading vids of minors riding his bus #and the caption is very very gross like one of it said “today my crush is doing her homework” like what the fuck dude #and there's literally one video of him where this girl sleeps and he tries to wake her up by kissing the girl in the forehead #and touching her body like literally gross gross gross you need to go to hell #whats more upsetting is that theres 600k following this creep and the comments are enabling this guys' behaviour #saying shit like it was just light teasing and woke ppl ruins everything and say their relatives does that when they were-#young and nothing happened like what the fuck what the fuck what the fuckk #it's really really really upsetting for me that people really back up groomers #like not sorry at all fuck you this is so personal to me #i dont want to say more but like this really affects me and I legit cry for this ugh #but Im really glad at least theres people with brains who vehemently objects this and brings this case to the law enforcer #and the creep's acc got banned just today and got arrested #im so sorry im a mess ive been in this stupid depressive mood for weeks but this one just really takes the fucking cake #i want to be a van driver just so kids dont have to ride van with creepy man #i dont think thay sounds so bad at all i like driving

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br1ghtestlight · 3 months ago

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realistic nightmares about almost getting murdered or dying are the worst. just experiencing what its like to realize you're about to die. those final moments knowing there's a gun to your head and there's nothing you can do to stop it and that you'll never experience another thought or memory. and then u wake up and it wasn't real so you cant even feel bad for yourself even though you've experienced literal death 😭😭 i have those dreams all the time

#ptsd nightmares are weird cuz i never care about the nightmares after i wake up but they still ruin my mood for the rest of the day #like subconciously just negative vibes #at least last night i didnt experience ACTUALLY DYING with a bullet to the back of my head like a few years ago #i can still remember what it felt like to get shot through my head and experience death #it was painful and warm and bloody #then it was over!!!!#txt

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apocalypticdemon · 4 months ago

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y'know. it really sucks to feel yourself back-sliding, mentally, when you know you've been doing pretty alright for a while

#i can feel it coming scoob. frankly i think it may already be here.#i am always so tired. frustrated. having really fun mood swings.#and my job is deeply taxing and deeply stressful. ao i never get any fucking reprieve.#and i literally don't have the energy to care for myself at home reliably.#so my whole fuckin day got ruined today bc my landlord visited with some people to measure the place.#and i spent hours cleaning. and he ended the call by trlling me my apartment was dirty.#so. i cried. bc i have no emotional resilience anymore on account of the constant stress #and then i cut someone off in traffic today despite trying really hard to Not do that #but despite checking my mirrors and blind spot 4 times i still managed it!#and they sped past me. so i screamed at them from the safety of my car with the windows rolled up.#and then immediately burst into uncontrollable tears that lasted the better part of 30 min #and nearly made me puke.#so now. i am hollowed-out and exhausted. just barely making it through.#and i can feel how close the absolute meltdown is. and i can't fuckin do anything about it bc i can't miss work! fuck!#it's been an exceptionally stressful two weeks and I've had it. but we keep trucking i guess.#idk im sad and frustrated and just going through it rn. and it sucks bc i remember being happy.#and i'm just not anymore.#i ramble #sorry this was long and rambly and unasked for i'm just having a really really bad day #and will be having them every day until at least august!

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eggmeralda · 5 months ago

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I need a massive sudden hyperfixation shock to happen again

#that era when i'd just got out of the onceler divorce of summer 2021. and then listened to everywhere at the end of time in october #and it was ruining my life and i couldn't sleep and there was nothing really good happening #like it wasn't Bad bc at least i wasn't depressed anymore like i was in the summer but it was still just dead. and i couldn't get #the last 6 minutes of eateot out of my head #and then. suddenly. got shot with the *blurry screenshot of stan and kyle as adults* beam #south park post covid trailer released. everyone who had ever been in that fandom was awakening from their graves #it was like 'future episode??' 'why have they got noses' 'what the fuckkkk' 'is anything real anymore?' etc #it was such big news that it instantly shocked me out of my existential crisis and reawakened that hyperfixation for the 9347384th time #and i vividly remember going on tumblr the morning after it aired and trying to avoid spoilers bc i hadn't watched it yet #but i accidentally saw a sentence something along the lines of 'kenny's a billionaire philanthropist now' and. ok i had to see a picture?#so i did and he looked like the epitome of a cool uncle #and then i was walking to uni that morning probably looking like i was crying or something bc like. kenny successful future #and the whole thing just brought my general mood up so much?? so by the time it was 2022 i was absolutely fine #and then 2022 was so good. up until like august and september #and things got a bit dangerous again like my mood was alright but the slightest thing could bring it down #and then my best friend/housemate got a girlfriend and it was that whole drama and her existence basically ruined my last year of uni #and since then i've become so bitter and cynical and all victimy and it's so annoying and i don't even realise i'm doing it #so now i only ever notice negative things happening and have done since like the end of 2022 #and i just need one of my old hyperfixations to do something insane again. like sp post covid.#i need. idk victor hugo to come back to life and publish notre dame de paris 2. or something #or for pip to come back to south park. that would actually fix me forever tbh #or the golden ratio to announce they're touring the uk for free. okay no ykw that would fix me #orrrrrrrrr idk. secret history made into a film but it's actually good #anyway. the south park kids as adults with noses set off an entire like 8 months of Pure Optimism in 2022 and i need her back more than ever #ramble

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edelorion · 6 months ago

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#edel vents #disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh...#so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!!#today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today #and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go #i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with #aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there #and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to #discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual.#had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore)#so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood.#went home tired. can't really do anything right now.#at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks.#...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone #worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..?#i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed #as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them.#when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness.#to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth #and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her.#she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred #i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many #i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating.#i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin.#i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that”. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out.#i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it.#and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved.#i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something.#maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now.#sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.

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braceletofteeth · 1 year ago

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Post 5 QL Songs / OST

@scarefox tagged me 🥰🥰

Rules of the Game:

🎶They do not have to be custom-made for the series.

🎶Non-western tracks only. Let's support Asian music and languages!

🎶Feel free to tag anyone who may be interested in participating.

🎶Add #5qls tag to your post for others to find the new favourites!

》 Follow by Roce (Utsukushii Kare OST)

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I feel I need to say this... P'Fox, I'm not copying you! 😂😂 Technically, I was already thinking of this song while reading the rules of the game the first time, and then when I found it in your list it was just like the pointing spidermen meme.

Now, about the song itself—I simply LOVE how the lyrics of the intros and outros from Utsukushii Kare were written from the perspective of the characters. Most OSTs are so vague and impersonal! They could be about anyone! But it's different in this case. The song is tailored to the nines. And the best part, it's a lot of fun to listen to!

》 Over the Moon by Khaotung (The Eclipse OST)

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Admittedly, right now I've been listening more to Khaotung's new release, Let's Try (Only Friends OST). I never had the intention of putting two bad bitches against each other, but, in the end, my heart didn't hesitate. It's Over the Moon all the way.

SECRET TIME: I skip about 9 out of 10 intros, but I never skipped The Eclipse's. Not even once. The song is just that good, to me. Puts you in the right mood immediately.

》 Fallen for U by Gongchan (Unintentional Love Story OST)

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GO GONGCHAN GO!!!!!!!

(we go way back) (I actually just had the worst time trying to choose just one (1) song from the OST of Unintentional Love Story. Why do I keep putting myself in these impossible situations...)

》 Free Fall (Love 2) by Slot Machine (KinnPorsche OST)

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PhiangWaichai is the main theme of KinnPorsche, and is a total banger! But it also has several instrumental versions of it included in the OST, and one of my favorites is this one. It's the most evocative among them imo.

》 Ruin by Isaac Hong (Strangers From Hell OST)

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Trust me.

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And for my last trick, I'll be tagging a few people, who will ignore this if they don't wanna do it: @agendratum @saturnskyline @leporschespam @supernovasimplicity

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#5qls #tag game #the moods of these songs are all over the place lol #still. I'm happy I could include OSTs of at least three different countries :)#(I just wish I could have used a lyric video with a better audio quality for Ruin but there wasn't one available with eng subs :()

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0nlyyangel · 8 months ago

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i’m so tired of being sad all the time

#i think i’ve made this exact post before but the feeling is once again overwhelming #like i just want to feel safe and loved and good enough #i haven’t felt safe in any relationship of mine recently #(like platonic or familial)#and it’s not anyone’s fault it’s just my mental illness coming to mental ill me but it sucks #and like my friends that i’d usually talk to when i’m feeling crappy are also going through shit #so i can’t really talk to them about it without making the problem worse #because then i’ll feel burdensome for not being able to be cheery or silly at all because i’m just SO sad all the time #and when i actively talk about it or thing about it my mood is ruined for #pretty much the whole day #or week at least

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dancing-with-stars · 9 months ago

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guys. guys !!!!