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clonewarsahsoka · 2 years ago

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There is a version of me that gave up uni after first or second year and didn't return to the city and just lives at home and works a min wage job or smth and maybe she's happier maybe she's not but she is definitely less stressed but also she doesn't have the friends that I do

#i like to ponder who i would be if made different decisions than the ones i did make #like in narritive games when you can look at the branching paths #there is 100% a path where i never came back after my gap year and just stayed at home #i think staying home would be way less stressful but i also think that i would feel stagnant way too fast #at uni i am so busy and overwhelmed all the time but i have more friends and more interactions with friends and i feel more fulfilled #because i am learning and am involved with stuff in the uni so it really does feel connected and like a community #and like you can 100% do that in my town too i know like a dozen ways i could volunteer there (half of them i wouldnt tho) but even then #i think volunteering and working retail or whatever wouldnt be enough yknow?#maybe that version of me has the mental energy to become a writer and i get really into essay writing that i post or smth #and maybe i find fulfillment there or i get really into gardening fr and hiking and whatnot i mean i was already on that path but left it #when i went back to the city because i simply cannot do those things #regardless if i stayed home id 1000000% be a family person and there would be a near 0% chance i ever date someone because i KNOW the #the people who are my age there i went to highschool with them im GOOD like im sure new people have moved there maybe but most people who #move there are like 40+ and are planning to retire so idk how many new young adults are there that didnt grow up there and i mean young adu #adult as in 20 smths not teens i am NOT talking about dating teens no thank you #the main thing to note here actually is that i wpuld be mentally ill regardless and so no matter what no choice is ideal

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