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chonkychornes · 5 years ago

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Open Arms Part 7 (The End)

Synopsis: You come back broken from a mission, and the one person who could barely put himself back together is the one who is trying to help you.

Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: No more warnings, other than this is The End. 7 of 7 parts. Thank you all for your love and support! This was my first reader insert fic and I really enjoyed myself! Please like and reblog!

Also, this is really for @quant-um-fizzx I couldn’t have/wouldn’t have done any of this without her help and guidance.

@broco8

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Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

Bucky POV

Things are pretty great lately and I know it’s all due to my girl who is currently stringing popcorn to decorate the giant fir tree that I set up in the common room.

The holiday season has arrived and everyone at the compound is buzzing about with excitement. It seems like decorations are everywhere, but when it came to the common room, you wanted it to be a group affair.

Wanda, Vision, and Bruce have been busy baking and decorating sugar cookies. Wanda has a steady hand, so she’s holding her own alongside Bruce using frosting and sprinkles to create miniature works of art.

Vis, on the other hand, is too obsessed with perfection so his cookies look like they came off an automated assembly line; which I guess they have. Although, I’d never say that to him.

Pepper is looking through Tony’s collection of vinyl records as he programs Dummy to roam around the room and dangle mistletoe over everyone heads at random intervals. Frank Sinatra starts to sing about roasting chestnuts and Tony sweeps Pepper up into a dance around the room as they smile and murmur softly to each other.

Steve and Natasha are wrapped up next to the fireplace, getting some last-minute wrapping in along with a few not so secretive touches. Natasha laughs so easily now and my friend doesn’t seem like he has the weight of the entire world on his shoulders. They were like the two puzzle pieces that you lost under the couch and once you finally put them together, the whole picture came together and made sense.

Sam, every the chipper and annoying guy that he is, struts over with Morgan on his shoulders and grins at me.

“Merry Christmas, Barnes,” he elbows me and when I look up Morgan scrambles down off of the bird brain and into my arms.

“Hiya Bucky.” She smacks a kiss onto my cheek and giggles when I tickle her side.

“Have you been good this year?” I continue tickling her as she giggles and squirms. “I’m sorry, I can’t understand what you’re saying.” She gives another squeal and works her way to my left arm and starts to swing off of it.

“She’s the worst out of all of you,” Tony says as he and Pepper make their way around again.

I pass off their offspring and smile to Pepper, “How does it feel to be a mother of two?”

“Well, if I have to claim these two, then I have to claim all of you,” she steps away from her tiny family and links her arm with mine. “Everyone is with someone, except for you and your girl. Why is that?”

I smile softly and look over to where you are, sitting cross-legged under the tree; you’re wearing the ugliest sweater known to man in bright fuschia with neon orange reindeer, tinsel, and little 3D gifts glued to it. Those long lean legs of yours are encased in some royal blue snowflake leggings and fluffy white socks on your feet.

“Sometimes I like looking at her,” I laugh when Pepper gives just the slightest side-eye. “Not in a creepy way, but in an ‘I can’t believe I got so lucky’ way.”

“Does she know?”

“Know what?” I turn to look at Pepp full on and she gives me a knowing smile.

We both turn to look at you and it’s like you know we’re talking about you because your tongue is out of your mouth and you’re crossing your eyes at us.

“I haven’t said it in so many words, but she knows.”

Pepper pulls away from me and brushes some nonexistent hair out of my face, “Bucky, I’m sure I don’t need to tell you this, but women actually like to hear those words. If you’re not sure what to give her for Christmas, it could be that.” She pats my cheek and runs off after her daughter who has a cookie in each hand.

I finally make my way over to you and crouch down, picking up a few pieces of popcorn and tossing them into my mouth.

“Hey, sweets.” I lean down to press a kiss to your forehead as you give me the fakest stink eye.

“Don’t you ‘hey’ me,” you mutter as you lean back to look up at me. “Those are not for eating, mister.”

“Well, I’m hungry and the Sam said the turkey won’t be ready for like another two hours!” You laugh as I whine and pull you up to standing in front of me. “You know, this would be a perfect time for Dummy to roll by with that mistletoe.”

You rise up on your toes and press your lips to mine and I wrap my arms around your waist. I could linger in your kiss forever, but there are too many eyes here, and they’ve already seen too much from us in the last few months.

“C’mon, let’s go get a snack,” I suggest and drag you across the room and into the kitchen.

You compliment the three cookie decorators and tell Vision that maybe he should just stop thinking while he’s shaking the sprinkles, but you notice that he continues to place them on one at a time.

“You want some coffee, Buck?” You’re already moving to the cabinet to grab two mugs and I take the opportunity to set up the Keurig.

I know you heard me open the holder, but when you set a mug under the drip I see you squint to get a good look at the display.

“I thought you put a pod in for me,” you look over your shoulder as I lean back against the counter.

“Oh, sorry sweets.” You roll your eyes and turn back to the machine, reach to the side to pick out your favorite flavor, and absentmindedly open the lid. When you go to drop the pod in, something catches your attention.

“B … Bucky?” Your voice is shaking as you pull the ring out and hold it up in front of you.

I have to grab you gently by the shoulders and turn you around so you’re looking at me. Your eyes, wide as saucers and already swimming with unshed tears lock onto mine.

“Maybe it hasn’t bee long enough or maybe it’s taken too long,” the tears begin to fall and I brush them away with the pads of my thumbs. “Maybe you’re too modern and I’m too old fashioned; you can keep your last name by the way.”

You start laughing and in your mirth, you almost drop the ring. I grab your hands within my own and I find that we’re both shaking.

“I love you. I think I started to love you the first moment you sat with me underneath that old oak tree. When you declared your independence and moved out on your own, I fell deeper. When you cried on my shoulder, and finally left the grounds. Every single day that we’ve spent together … these have been the happiest days of my life.”

I can tell that the room has gone quiet and everyone is either watching or has scrammed. My heart is hammering in my chest and I know at least my right hand is sweating.

Apart from your light crying and laughter, you’ve been incredibly silent this entire time.

“All those times you thought you knew, all the time we’ve been together and you’re telling me you love me while you propose?” You wave the ring in my face and for one hot second, I worry that I have completely screwed this up.

I’m just “James, Please, sweets, I love you, Barnes” and when I shrug sheepishly you shake your head and throw your arms around my neck.

“I love you too.” your voice is muffled against my cheek and I exhale contentedly as you draw back to look at me. “Put it on my finger, you goon.”

I take the ring from you and drop down to one knee.

“Marry me?”

You nod vigorously and when I slide the ring onto your finger the room bursts into applause. I jump up and we see everyone standing around the island in the open kitchen smiling and cheering for us.

Later that night, after everyone else has gone back to their own home or quarters, we remain in the common room curled up in front of the bay window watching the snow fall outside.

“Bucky?”

“Yeah, sweets?” I look down at you, and you’re splayed across my lap.

“I have a few conditions for this marriage,” you pull yourself up and straddle my thighs and link your hands behind my neck.

“Conditions?” I grab your ass to readjust you and smirk, “What kind of conditions?”

You lean down and nip my lips and I can smell the sweet spices from the apple pie we ate after dinner.

“You have to make breakfast more often,” you say and give a little wiggle when I laugh.

“Well, then you better be making me cupcakes all the time.” I’m laughing as I nuzzle into your neck and sweep my tongue across that spot under your ear that I know you love. You sigh and shift across me again and I can feel how hot your center is through your leggings.

“Fine, you dork.” You slide off of my lap and grab my hands to pull me up and lead me out of the room. “Here’s the deal though … I’m ready to go back out.”

We come to a halt in front of the elevators and I tug on your hand so you’ll look at me. I was not expecting this. I love you so much, but I worry about you constantly; thinking about you back in the field is the scariest thing to me, but I’m so happy to hear you declare your intentions.

“Sweets, all you had to do was say something,” I grin and press you up against the wall. “I can’t wait to see you in your catsuit.”

“Take me upstairs and you can.”

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sawyernathan1991 · 4 years ago

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chaoticobservationexpert · 7 years ago

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Track within track: How Indian daily soaps are stuck in the infinite loop of the same storyline

Ever thought of the why behind the audience craving for some romantic and love scenes between the protagonist? Because more than being an art, this talent of making stories and drawing crowds to watch them for the sake of entertainment, it has now become business. Who gets more TRPs? Which actor earns more per episode? etc. etc. The makers use the simplest of the simple business/economic rule to do just that. They show so much of over-the-head drama and negativity in the lives of the protagonists that the audience is left wanting for more of the sweet and romantic scenes.

Lack of new ideas. Lack of creativity. Everyone has been so busy thinking out of the box that they forgot to look inside the box. And that is exactly why that in the current scenario of Indian daily soaps, there are certain story lines to which each and every maker sticks to. So much so that the origin of these story lines cannot be found anymore.

So here, I bring to you some of the most cliched, yes, yet most loved dramatic story lines that rules the television today.

1. Jungle mei mangal !

The forest holds some special kind of attraction for our leads. There are usually two scenarios. Either she is running away from villains who are trying to stain her purity or, love is found in the jungles.

Like someone once said, “Inside every man lives a hero who just needs a great reason to come out and show its prowess.” (I think I just made that up !)

2. Hum tum ek kamre mein band ho ...... Aur chaabi kho jaae

Being stuck in a room is yet another example of a classic love story’s initiation. This one here has, as a matter of fact, several possibilities to it. One, they both fight and then end up sleeping with their heads on each others shoulder’s somehow. Two, they have quite some romance which generally fades behind table or some official red and blue colored files. Three, he can’t stop himself from sacrificing a good night’s sleep by staying awake the entire night and watching her sleep. (I mean like, COM’MON. Who even does that for anyone anymore? Like, isn’t sleeping the most lovable activity to be done, ever? Duh?)

Well, I guess it’s definitely time to leave the world.

3. Just add a dash of feminism thought to it and lo’, behold - Your Indian daily soap is ready !!

Well, after all, it IS a world of hard headed feminists these days (irrespective of whether they actually understand the concept of feminism or not). And thereby, every maker has to, atleast once, have the heroine save the hero. Something very much opposite to the usually followed rule of the hero saving the heroine.

Since the machoism of the hero is to be maintained, therefore, it’s not necessary for the heroine to do something really big to save the hero. Doesn’t matter ! Nopes !!

4. Apne ghar aaya, main aaya tujhko lene

I know, I know, I know. A very unfateful video of Salman Khan all dressed in black and desperately trying to dance is now playing in your head against your wishes but what can I say. Hero-marries-heroine-for-some-utterly-stupid-nd-false-decision-and-then-comes-to-know=the-truth-and-falls-in-love-with-her-over-her-childish-antics-and-plans-to-marry-her-again-with-her-maayka-and-sasural-being-the-same-place-with-its-own-dose-of-shitload-of-drama thing just happened !

Too much of drama is not good for health.

5. Sakhi saiyaan toh khoob he kamaat hai ... Mehengaai daayan khaaye jaat hai

I am sure these words seem pretty familiar to you. There is a co-relation between these words and our shows.

Sakhi saiyaan toh khoob he kamaat hai as in people like Shivaay Singh Oberoi, Arnav Singh Raizaada, Aham Modi, Advay Singh Raizaada, Ram Kapoor etc. etc.

Mehengaai daayan khaaye jaat hai refers to this

Basically, Indian show makers know nothing about the concept of middle class. Either you can be extremely rich or hardly making it for yourself or your family.(By the way, they are more bent towards the former one. Just saying !)

6. Duniya mein aae ho toh jeena he padega .... Achcha, mar gae? Koi baat nhi, fir se aa jaao. Jeena toh hai he na!

Only god knows how many characters have died and come back to life within the last few decades.

Car blast ho gayi toh kya hua? Tumhaare bina villain ka kya hoga!

Matlab gun point pe he marey na? Koi baat nahi. Fir se jee lete hain na.

Gaadi khaai mein gir gayi kya? Awww. How cute ! Chalo ab aa jaao wapas. Time for some drama. Kafi waqt se show slow chal rha hai.

Bro, you didn’t give your granny and grandpa a “waaris” for their multi millionaire-ish business. Gotta come back !

7. Idhar chala, main udhar chala, jaane kahaan main kidhar chala? Arey fisal gaya .... Love triangle mei fans gaya !

Hero was trying to save the heroine. Heroine is gravely in trouble. He cannot save her. Enters the third guy. He saves the heroine and also ends up falling in love with her in the process. She is safe and out of danger and back with the hero but the third guy is there too. And apparently, our star-couple can’t even tell him to fuck off because, “Duh! He saved her life stupid !”

Well, the showmakers of Indian television really do need a lightening of creativity to strike them. Strongly. Right on the head. Atleast ten times. Maybe then they will realise that the audience can see very well that no millionaire drives a Fiat and maybe, just maybe they will start paying attention to the detail.

-xoxo

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onestowatch · 7 years ago

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Existentialism, Creative Independence, & Her Debut Full-Length: A Q&A With VÉRITÉ

An existential crisis is defined as, “a moment at which an individual questions the very foundations of their life: whether this life has any meaning, purpose, or value”--it is also the basis by which rising New York City-based songstress VÉRITÉ constructed her already highly-acclaimed debut album, Somewhere In Between.

Released on June 23 via Kobalt Music Recordings, the 13-song collection is a raw examination of the universal uncertainties associated with identity, love, and finding purpose in life--what she describes as “somewhere in between living and dying.” Yet, don’t let that fool you into thinking that the album is not meant to be enjoyed--sonically, VÉRITÉ single-handedly radiates melodic left-field pop and rhythmic undertones that keep us singing along from start to finish. It’s no wonder that the young artist has accumulated over 100 million Spotify streams to date and is set to embark on a headline tour this fall.

Listen to the Somewhere In Between album in full, and then get to know the prolific writer behind it in our Q&A below.

OTW: So tell us about how you originally got into music.

VÉRITÉ: I’ve been playing music for for a very long time. I started playing classical piano when I was six or seven, and then I started playing in bands when I was like 13, and I was in an all-girl punk cover band. We were not good [laughs]. I started writing when I was 16 so I had an overly-ambitious indie folk rock band, and then I started this project when I was around 21, 22.

OTW: Got it, and would you say you’ve reached the truest form of yourself?

VÉRITÉ: Yeah, it just felt right, and it hasn’t stopped since.

OTW: And I understand you were independent for like the longest time, if not still?

VÉRITÉ: Yeah, I still technically am. Kobalt is an amazing strategic partner-- they are handling all of the distribution in the U.S. and internationally, and so I’m really lucky to have them come on.

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OTW: Why did you chose to remain independent otherwise?

VÉRITÉ: Because I want to be in control of when I release music and what that music is. I think I just saw a trend around me of people signing away their ownership at a really early stage and then losing momentum at a point when something didn’t go as planned and the label pulls the plug or takes a step back. I just always wanted to have this forward momentum, and this has kind of allowed for me to keep that going.

OTW: So do you plan to remain independent moving forward?

VÉRITÉ: Yeah, I believe so. I mean I don’t wanna limit myself, but I like where I am at right now; it’s a good place to be.

OTW: Any tips for artists who are on a similar path?

VÉRITÉ: Yeah, get a job.

As depressing as that sounds, get a job and fund it yourself--you can do it. It’s not going to be fun, you won’t sleep, but ultimately it’ll take a very small investment from yourself to get something started.

OTW: Makes sense. So you’ve released a few EP’s out before the Somewhere in Between album. How would you say your music has evolved from The Echo to Sentiment to Living, to now?

VÉRITÉ: I feel like the themes of the EPs are all very similar--they’re all this hyper-analyzation of my surroundings and me having an existential crisis, but I think there’s a definite progression sonically. The first EP was definitely this toe-in-the-water experimentation of, “What do I want to sound like?” and then I think Sentiment was like, “Okay, I can do this,” and branching out, and with the last EP, there was more of a honing in and confident approach to finishing the songs. It was me taking control of how I wanted things to be placed, and now having all those under my belt, I’ve just learned a lot about myself and about production and composition.

So this album I is most straightforward representation of like how I want to be seen and how I want to sound like.

OTW: And what is that?

VÉRITÉ: I just wanted it to be a statement piece--I didn’t want to be shy, I didn’t want it to be drenched in reverb or hazy in any way. I wanted my vocal to be upfront, the lyrics to be upfront; it’s a lot of heavy percussion, it’s a lot of in-your-face sub-bass. I’ll probably give it a month, and then he next album will be hopefully better because I just want to keep learning for myself.

OTW: Cool, and what’s the story behind the title, Somewhere in Between?

VÉRITÉ: Well, it comes from the title track “Somewhere In Between,” and the first lyric is, “Somewhere between living and dying.” So it’s very broad in a way, but everything is about existence and the human condition and analyzing “why we are here?” and “what do relationships mean?” and “how do I interact?” and “how do I exist?” So yeah, the album exists in that broad space.

OTW: And I understand you worked with a bunch of awesome producers on this one?

VÉRITÉ: I’ve definitely worked with a lot of producers, but then narrowed it to three producers who I definitely trust and worked with on the last EP. So the writing process was really scattered, delegating responsibilities and timelines and getting everyone in line with the vision.

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OTW: So you essentially A&R’d your entire album?

VÉRITÉ: Yeah, which was much more of an undertaking than I realized it would be when I started, but I’m really happy that I did. I think that is another area that I’m much more confident in my ability to manage people and get them to see what the greater vision is and then give them precise instructions on how to get there. So I think everybody that worked on the album feels good about what they contributed, but it’s still cohesive.

OTW: Do you have a favorite lyric from the album?

VÉRITÉ: It might be, “somewhere between living and dying.” I also like the first lyrics of a song called “Better.” I just like the first two verses--start like “fixed and false” and then “tried and true.” I just like the alliteration.

OTW: I love “Phase Me Out” too. What would be your top relationship advice for someone in that situation?

VÉRITÉ: I think for me, all the relationship-sounding songs on the album are me basically taking a step back, being like, “I don’t need anyone.” I think my relationship advice to anybody would be to get to a place where you don’t need anyone, and then figure out how to coexist with people, which I’m currently trying to do. So maybe the second album is like, “How do I, I don’t know, talk to people?” [laughs]

I think this album is very much figuring out how to not need people, in a positive way, for my self-worth.

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OTW: What would you say makes you different from other singers in this alt-pop space?

VÉRITÉ: I feel like the alt-pop space is so oversaturated--I’m surprised that I found a little lane for myself. I don’t consciously find the differences--I just made a decision to be super upfront and involved and candid. I try and translate that to the music as well, and so I feel lucky that it has resonated with people in the way that it has, and so I’m going to continue doing that. Also, I play live, you know, I play instruments, I am involved in the writing, I’m involved in the production, and so I feel like being that creative force within the project helps.

OTW: What is your live step up like? Do you have a band?

VÉRITÉ: Yeah, I have a band--we have like drums, bass, and I have a little synth keyboard with little vocal processing. I like to be busy because I don’t dance, so I have to fill my time somehow onstage.

OTW: What were your favorite moments with the Betty Who tour?

VÉRITÉ: The Betty Who tour was great--her and her crew were so good to work with. I think my favorite moments are always the moments that no one sees...we all went a little crazy in a gas station right outside of Seattle and definitely started dancing. The store clerk just looked at us like we were on meth.

OTW: [Laughs] So what are your plans now that the album’s out?

VÉRITÉ: Touring and more touring. My goal with the album is to push it out as far out as possible and so whatever needs to get done, I will do.

OTW: Last question: who are your top Ones To Watch artists right now?

VÉRITÉ: Oh goodness. I feel like I just want to say Anderson .Paak, but he’s just so established. You guys just actually posted about Brika--II think she’s dope. And the girl SUMif who opened for me in San Francisco is also dope.

VÉRITÉ North American Headline Tour Dates:

August 23 Philadelphia, PA @ Boot & Saddle

August 24 Boston, MA @ Brighton Music Hall

August 25 Montreal, QC @ Petit Campus

August 26 Toronto, ON @ Longboat Hall

August 28 Chicago, IL @ Lincoln Hall

August 29 Minneapolis, MN @ 7th Street Entry

September 1 Seattle, WA @ Barboza

September 2 Vancouver, BC @ The Cobalt

September 3 Portland, OR @ Doug Fir Lounge

September 5 San Francisco, CA @ Great American Music Hall

September 7 Los Angeles, CA @ Troubadour

September 9 San Diego, CA @ Soda Bar

September 10 Dana Point, CA @ Ohana Music and Arts Festival

September 12 Phoenix, AZ @ Valley Bar

September 15 Austin, TX @ Stubb's Jr.

September 16 Dallas, TX @ Three Links

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wineanddinosaur · 4 years ago

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No Electricity, No Problem: This Oregon Grower Is Resurrecting Ancient Roman Winemaking Techniques

Brad Ford, the winemaker at Oregon’s Illahe Vineyards, is always tinkering with something interesting — a wine press rescued from a junkyard, a horse-drawn mower he engineered himself, amphorae he created from scratch. The need to make or restore his own tools has been driven out of financial necessity at times, as is the case for many small wineries. But it also fulfills his desire to explore every aspect of the art, science, and mystery of his profession.

In the lull provided by the Covid-19 outbreak, Ford has embarked on his biggest project yet: building a beam-style wine press similar to the one the Roman scholar Cato wrote about in “De Agri Cultura.” When finished, he expects the 1-ton, 60-foot press will be the longest in the United States.

Credit: Sophia McDonald Bennett

The 19th Century Reimagined

Ford’s father was a hobby grape grower who began operating a vineyard professionally in 2000. Ford became the winemaker at his dad’s company about six years into the new venture and now runs all the day-to-day operations. Although he attended the wine studies program at nearby Chemeketa Community College to learn the most modern information about winemaking, he felt himself drawn to the history of farming and enology. Early on, he began to experiment with more traditional approaches to creating wine.

To begin with, he bought two draft horses, Doc and Bea, to work on the property. The team cuts the vineyard’s cover crop and transports some of the fruit during harvest. Their role is limited by the fact that teamsters are in short supply today, so Ford is the only one who knows how to drive them. Even if horses aren’t the most efficient way to farm, Ford is committed to the method. “It is really enjoyable to be around horses,” he says. “It’s way more enjoyable to be working with animals than with tractors. You get a huge human benefit out of a lifestyle that’s more ancient and natural.”

Doc and Bea also play a crucial role in one of Ford’s signature wines, the 1899 Pinot Noir. Most years he makes eight to 12 barrels of wine without the aid of electricity, stainless steel, or other conveniences invented after 1900. The grapes for the wine come from a 1-acre block that is harvested exclusively with the horses. The fruit is de-stemmed with a bicycle-powered machine, pressed in a wooden basket press, fermented with natural yeast in a wooden vat, and pumped into barrels with a bicycle-powered pump.

Even transporting the wine to Illahe’s Portland-based distributor is typically done without the aid of electricity. The boxes are moved off the property by horse and loaded into a stagecoach that delivers the wine to the nearby Willamette River. There, it’s placed in a canoe. Ford and two others spend three days paddling to Oregon City, where the boxes are transferred to a bicycle for the final leg of their journey.

While that final piece has more to do with Ford’s desire to be true to his experiment, he says he’s learned a tremendous amount about winemaking through the 1899 project, including how to work with the native yeast that he now uses exclusively in all of his reds.

“Science is one way to go about things and I love science,” Ford says. And he has no objection to using modern knowledge to help the vineyards stay healthy or remove flaws from wine. But the best foods aren’t the ones that are highly processed or made in a lab, and he believes the same is true for wine.

“Every experiment we’re doing is moving us forward to more historical winemaking than modern, scientific winemaking, and more natural winemaking,” he says. “It just produces the best wines.”

Credit: Sophia McDonald Bennett

Remaking Cato’s Wine Press

The extreme end of Ford’s desire to return to old-school winemaking is his latest project: a beam-style wine press that will be 60 feet long when it is finished. Millennia before today’s electric presses were invented, Cato and other winemakers juiced their grapes by lowering a heavy object such as a beam onto a wooden basket full of grapes. The next innovation was a screw press, which allowed people to twist one or more handles to apply force to the basket.

Ford had seen a hand-carved wooden screw press at Château du Clos de Vougeot in Burgundy. “It’s one of the things I really remember from that visit,” he said. “The wine is something I remember quite a bit, too, but coming to a place and seeing that press was an important experience for me. So if we can recreate a little bit of that experience, I’d like it.”

Despite his fascination with the Burgundian screw press, Ford decided that Cato’s beam press would be easier to build. He also knew it would be more authentic than what he was currently doing with the 1899: moving the pistons on a modern-day basket press with hydraulic auto jacks that two people had to pump by hand. (“They’re filled with hydraulic oil. Did the Romans have that? No. But are they electrical? No.”)

Ford’s closest friend is Erik Jensen, a physics instructor at Chemeketa Community College. Ford asked him how big a beam he would need to operate a basket press that could handle his current grape production. “He did his math and said it needed to be 60 feet long. He’s since retracted it but it’s too late because now I’m building the thing.”

To begin the press, he cut down a dying 130-foot Douglas fir tree on his property. He called a local lumber mill to see if they could transform it into the beam. The answer was a resounding no. Log trucks can only move trees up to 50 feet, and most mills can’t handle one longer than 24 feet. “I said, ‘What would you do if you were trying to build a big beam that’s 60 feet long?’ and they said, ‘I’d use a chainsaw,’” Ford said. His next stop was the local logging store.

It took a 7-ton excavator to stand the tree up on two smaller logs so he could cut it to size. Ford built a carriage for the chainsaw that runs along a 2-foot-by-8-foot length of timber attached to the top, and is using a string line to trim off the curved sides of the log. When finished, the beam will be 14 inches wide at the narrowest end and 2 feet on the opposite side. (The cut-offs from the log will likely go to the tasting room, where they’ll be finished and turned into tables.)

At some point, Ford will also build a wheel that can be connected to the beam with a rope, then cranked to lower or raise the beam manually. It will operate a press about 6 feet wide, which will give Ford about four times more pressing capacity than he has now. It will also work faster; given the beam’s incredible weight, the press cycle should only take about an hour.

The disruption caused by the Covid-19 outbreak has given Ford extra time to work on projects around the winery. He hopes to have the beam cut and moved to the exterior alcove where the presses are located later this year. It will take years to fully finish it. “If we really like it, we’ll build it a little house,” Ford says fondly, looking at the log. “It will be so fun for people to go outside and have a glass of wine and see the press.”

He acknowledged that building this modern wonder makes no economic sense. “You can easily buy something so much faster that already works and that’s controlled by a computer and that does a great job of pressing the wine,” he says. “But it’s so much less fun to just buy a brand new press.”

It also wouldn’t teach him anything about winemaking. As he stands in the clearing where the log is undergoing its transformation, Ford talks about the Japanese craftsmen who adopt an art form at a young age and spend the rest of their lives refining their skills and understanding their art. “They make their own tools,” he points out. “You make your own knife, you make your own saw, you make your own pots or whatever you’re going to use for your craft. You have your tools and you know those tools are always sharp and those tools are the ones you need for the job.”

A beam may be slightly bigger than a carving knife, but Ford believes it will help him further shape and hone the medium he’s dedicated his life to.

The article No Electricity, No Problem: This Oregon Grower Is Resurrecting Ancient Roman Winemaking Techniques appeared first on VinePair.

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isaiahrippinus · 4 years ago

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No Electricity, No Problem: This Oregon Grower Is Resurrecting Ancient Roman Winemaking Techniques

Credit: Sophia McDonald Bennett

The 19th Century Reimagined

“Every experiment we’re doing is moving us forward to more historical winemaking than modern, scientific winemaking, and more natural winemaking,” he says. “It just produces the best wines.”

Credit: Sophia McDonald Bennett

Remaking Cato’s Wine Press

A beam may be slightly bigger than a carving knife, but Ford believes it will help him further shape and hone the medium he’s dedicated his life to.

The article No Electricity, No Problem: This Oregon Grower Is Resurrecting Ancient Roman Winemaking Techniques appeared first on VinePair.

source https://vinepair.com/articles/oregon-grower-ancient-roman-winemaking/ source https://vinology1.tumblr.com/post/624084776416100352

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johnboothus · 4 years ago

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No Electricity No Problem: This Oregon Grower Is Resurrecting Ancient Roman Winemaking Techniques

Credit: Sophia McDonald Bennett

The 19th Century Reimagined

“Every experiment we’re doing is moving us forward to more historical winemaking than modern, scientific winemaking, and more natural winemaking,” he says. “It just produces the best wines.”

Credit: Sophia McDonald Bennett

Remaking Cato’s Wine Press

A beam may be slightly bigger than a carving knife, but Ford believes it will help him further shape and hone the medium he’s dedicated his life to.

The article No Electricity, No Problem: This Oregon Grower Is Resurrecting Ancient Roman Winemaking Techniques appeared first on VinePair.

Via https://vinepair.com/articles/oregon-grower-ancient-roman-winemaking/

source https://vinology1.weebly.com/blog/no-electricity-no-problem-this-oregon-grower-is-resurrecting-ancient-roman-winemaking-techniques

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financialinvestingradio · 4 years ago

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FIR 84: How to Make MONEY (what oil??) !!!

What does it mean to make money!!?? That's That's a big question on a lot of our minds, right? What what does that actually mean, especially for all this going on with COVID-19 and such? Wow, small to medium businesses are just getting hammered. I'm sure a lot of you have been seeing the small to medium business loans, the SBA loans that are coming out. And obviously, some of those are even grants, if you will. What I wanted to talk about was some of the secrets that we've learned in terms of making money or earning more money in our businesses. It actually kind of goes back to some of the things that we've done with our kids. So, so quick, quick little story here. So we have a large family. We have six kids. And we basically have started each of our children with running their own business in our home. I call it the yard manager. So as each of our children were growing up, they each took turns being the art manager, and over the years well, first of all, I should probably explain why What What it means is they're responsible for getting the work done in the yard. Now, that means they have the opportunity to hire their siblings that have budgets, they'll have cost of goods sold requirements. But in the end, they ultimately have to send me an invoice. And one of the lessons they've learned over time is no invoice no money. And so there were times when I went without paying them for weeks and they'd be like, Hey, Dad, where's you know, where's the money? It'd be like, you got to send the invoice. And so they would do that and they'd get into the pattern of that and help them to start tracking and finding some independence but I noticed a pattern over many years of doing this as each child took on the role as they came into the role they are crowned you know, with with this crown, your crown is the art manager anyway, the pattern that I noticed is that is it they almost always Start projecting into the future. So as they start to see the flow of the money coming, right, and they start to get into the pattern of that, and they start collecting the data. Now, of course, the data in this little operation is very simple. It's, it's, here's the work that was done. Here's the data was done. Here's the amount and of course we come up with with what those mounts are ahead of time. And here's who was involved with it, if any, mostly it's down, but like, like I said, sometimes some of them hate doing weeding, right. So they, they want to hire that out to their siblings. But in any event, they almost always start projecting into the future because they see the money flow, and they start looking at ways to optimize it. Alright, so maybe there's another way they can figure out to get the work done faster or cheaper. And of course, like I said, they're looking at the cost of goods sold. Some of them may have even looked at patterns like, Well, okay, when it's storms or rains or whatever it might be, they realize that there is Come reduces, right? Well, it's interesting when we look at our businesses and we look start looking at the data that we have available to us, it actually becomes a critical activity to monetize our, our data, right to commercialize it. There's a couple obvious ways, of course, for companies to commercialize data. One of those is the data, of course gets collected, and it's analyzed for product development purposes, right or to make better products. And of course, that can translate into improve sales and, you know, products with higher value and so forth. That's the first sort of obvious way. The second obvious way is, of course, the data gets used to identify problems and bottlenecks in internal processes, which of course then can eliminate or improve, you know, business bottlenecks and improve the efficiency and profitability. Right. So those are two obvious ways. I saw that with our kids in the US Manage payroll. Again, I've seen it many years over over time with small to medium businesses.

So I wanted to look at some examples of some companies on how they've used data like, there's a search and discovery service called Foursquare, and they sell its data to retailers. So they can optimize their outdoor advertising and online marketing to match you know, the routes that people use to navigate the city. Right. There's other groups, media companies that collect digital data on people's interest, and then they sell that to online advertisers. Certainly weather forecasting companies like freaka can, you know, they also help advertising match weather conditions? Those are certainly some examples. There's other companies and this is of course, in some cases, it's their own data, or its data there that they're intentionally collecting from others or for others. Certainly An example would be Facebook. Right. So the you know, the question is, you've got Facebook, right? Would Facebook really have paid $22 billion? And you know, for WhatsApp in 2014? If if, in fact WhatsApp didn't already have data on 600 million consumers worldwide? I mean, they probably wouldn't have done that. Right. So it wasn't the fact that what's apps revenues were massive. I think at the time, maybe they're around 10 million back in 2014, or 2013. You know, Microsoft, what did they pay over 2 billion, I think is two and a half billion. They did that for from Minecraft, and that the time Minecraft had very little actual revenues. It was the data that the Microsoft was after, which is a key valuation. So, fact of the matter is, even as a small to medium business owner, if we're not cognizant of the data and information we're tracking, we're actually leaving money on the table and now ends up hurting us rather than helping us. And in today's technology world, it actually becomes more important for us to do this to take a moment to get our data strategy together. Doesn't have to take a lot of work. We got to take some effort to do that. Well, I'm sure you've heard the phrase, hey, data is the new oil. Right? And there are some people that certainly say that, and I think that while at a surface level, you might say, Yeah, that makes sense. But there's some challenges with that with that metaphor. Turns out in reality, I think we're the oil in the metaphor, right? It's humans, right? It's the footprint, the digital footprint. The transactions that we do, the places we go, the people we see how we interact. That's actually the data. And that's actually where the money is. It's tracking that. So we have to be much more cognizant of how we of course give our data but also as business owners We need to be more cognizant of, if a consumer is sharing certain kinds of data, and they're open to that. It's important for us to also understand the opportunity that's available there as well. I think when Zuckerberg you know, Facebook when he was testifying before Congress, he explained a bit about how Facebook makes money, right? He said something about, Hey, you know, it's we're taking data in terms of what's happening, you know, where the people are clicking what they're doing, who they're interacting with. And then ultimately, they sell that, you know, off to advertisers, right? I think they do over 200 billion a year annually, right, basically, by selling our information. So to get started, it's really important that you know, as a small to medium business owners that we start with the data that we currently have, we have to look at it and say, what's our business, what's my role in the business, and then there's typically at least three things to get through. are no one is we got to look at the patterns of our data, right, we should analyze it. Look for patterns and trends that certainly present themselves. But number two, we got to look for what those patterns mean, they tell a message, right? There's some information about it. And the key to this is to figure out what's actionable and what's not. And number three is to focus on the big picture, where are we trying to go as a business? What are we trying to get done, and then use some tools to help us get there. Now one of the things that we do is we apply artificial intelligence to do that. So because after a while you realize you go mind not looking at all this information, number one, number one, right take so much time number two, the AI is proving to help see things that we can't see very easily with our eyes. And so given the fact that we believe that there's money on the table in our data, that we don't have to do a lot of extra work to go harvest it. We just got to go mind for it. Pull it out, leveraging technologies like AI helps us to do that. One of the things that we've seen that comes out of this is the ability to make better decisions, right? And so I'm not a fan of saying take AI and hand it off, and we just go blindly do whatever it says, I'm more in the line of thinking that this is augmented intelligence, use the intuition that you have as a business owner, but then augment it with what AI insights are providing. So, you know, these days, as I'd mentioned, you know, the more that we have data at our fingertips, the more important it is for us to leverage some kind of techniques that will help us to, you know, understand and get the insights from it. Now, recently, I was applying some AI for a company and was evaluating patterns and the predictions and as I reviewed it with the business owner, he made the statement simply, I had no idea I had no idea that the patterns were existing in my business, and that if I did more of this and less of that, I actually can, you know, increase my sales as well as you know, reduce some of my losses. And that's just as important to know ahead of time. You know what this is actually, uh, you know, historically and predictively a losing venture on these particular set of activities. Therefore, let's stop doing that. So whether we'll see improvements in you know, making more money or reducing losses, both are certainly benefits to our business. All right. So there you have it, the How To Make Money, it's in our data. Let's go after the data. And quite frankly, there's enough tools and services out there today, that even if we don't have the skill sets in our small to medium business, reach out to someone such as ourselves that click AI and talk to us about it or find someone else but nevertheless, go harvesting for that data. My name is Grant Larsen. Thanks for joining us. Next time, go find the money in your data.

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tempestuous-cosplay · 4 years ago

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Flower Asks

Alisons: Sexuality?

Demi-romantic poly-pansexual.

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

They Them non-binary

Amaryllis: Birthday?

July 20!!!!! Gunna be 25

Anemone: Favorite flower?

Can’t choose. But its something blue, purple, or red. I really like Hydrangeas and Narcissus flowers.

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

Brooklyn 99, Avatar the Last Airbender, MeatEater

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

Depends on whats needed.

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

ah, man, i don’t fuckin know. Probably the line “Change IS nature, dad, the part we can influence. And it all starts when we decide.” from ratatouille

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

Water, milk, then sprite. Unless we talkin booze, tequilla.

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ABSOLUTELY

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

Yup. Would love to have that again one day, but not now.

Baneberries: Favorite song?

Under My Skin by Jukebox the Ghost at the moment, but consistantly its Pierre by Rynn Weaver.

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

Better than some but has its issues.

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

I have 5 closest friends whom i LOVE and talk to with any regularity.

Begonia: Favorite color?

PURPLE

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

DRAGON

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

I like being awake in the morning bc then it feels like i have so much time to do stuff, but my sleep schedule always shifts to being a night owl.

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

a Kite or a hawk for all that fancy flying.

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

A veterinarian, a puppeteer, or the next david attenborough.

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

I eventually want ONE, just one, of my own when I’m living with a community who will help me raise them. But really, i think too many people are having children who just should not be parents.

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

Being in love again bc the last times its happened I got traumatized.

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

I always used to say i would never get tattoos and now i have one and plans for more. Ain’t gunna stop till im covered.

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?

I would travel up to my friend @b-oredzoi and spent the day with her. She ain’t got a choice.

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

Single but with some FWB situations goin on.

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

anywhere outside continental US. Im not picky. Top choices Kyoto Japan, the french countryside, p much anywhere in africa.

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

when im tripping on acid or when my friends are hugging me real tight.

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?

YEAH, got one on my thigh.

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?

YUP, lobes and one cartilage

California Poppy: Height?

5′4 and hating every second of it. Wish i was taller.

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

100%

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?

skill boxers stolen from an ex-friend and a shirt that im not 100% sure is mine??? but I’ve had it for a year and wear it all the time soooooooooooo. Mine now

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

I used to sleep with the closet light on until i was, like..... 14? 15?

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?

myyyyy mom prolly.

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

my pal Eli

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

something swoopy and pretty. Or the one thats just emojis.

Columbine: Are you tired?

always

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

getting top surgery and corona being over.

Coneflower: Dream job?

philanthropist actor/ director.

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

ambivert.

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

We did this with balsom fir. anyway, yes i have been!!

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

depending on who they are, as far as they needed me to. I don’t THINK i would kill anyone, but there are a few people i would willingly die for.

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

A green and purple dragon named Puff, who i still have. He’s always either in my bed or on a shelf in my room.

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Cancer

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

Didn’t die. Helped stop my grans house from burning down.

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

so far its getting my associates degree. Either that or dragging myself out of a horrible depressive, self destructive spiral in 2018-2019, getting the help i needed, and doing better for myself and those around me.

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?

figure out why and wither resolve it or dump the partner.

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

my dad prolly.

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

Crafty stuff. and animal trivia.

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

organizing anything, remembering dates, statistics.

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

Got okayed for top surgery

got surprise money!

Got a sentimental piece of art from my grandparents (at long last.)

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

p solid. Helped my dad with some yard stuff, made a yummy dinner, saw most of the supplies i need for a new project shipped.

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

mmmmmmm not really, but im getting there.

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

Graduate, move out, get a good, fulfilling job. Travel some more.

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

The friends who stuck around

my plushie collection

my tarot collection

my print collections from cons

finally having a queen sized bed

books

my pets (wow, almost forgot about them)

my fursuit making skills

my hair

my gently rising self esteem

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

petting soft things, reading, watching Ghibli movies.

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

all them love languages bro. Every single one. I tailor my affection to the individual and what love language they receive most. Mostly, I cook for people.

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

We’ve done this one too!

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

Its a nice balmy 72 degrees with a nice breeze. The sun is shinning with some clouds here and there. I go to the zoo with some friends/ a friend and we just share random facts about our favorite animals. we get some cute plushies at the gift shop and then go to a wonderful meal, either greek or korean bbq or Pho and we go back to someones house to watch movies and vibe, sleepy, warm, and content.

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?

read, craft, organize my room, draw, garden, swim.

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

I dont have a singular “Best friend”. I do have my Inner circle tho!

Laura- we met my freshman year of collage, first day and we click INSTANTLY. She’s my soulmate and I would go to hell and back for her (RIP to Orphius, but im different)

Bly- we met, like, back in 2014/2015 at house parties but didn’t really start getting SUPER close like we are now until, like, 2017/18/19 ish. Really the only person I actively talk to every single day, my mood twin. We share a braincell.

Syd- we met at, like, Momocon 2014? 2015?? something like that???? bc we roomed together. We started getting close in 2016 by bonding over fursuit stuff. My go to roadtrip partner. I kinda owe my current joy for life to her bc she helped me through my hell time in 2018 but kicking my ass and teaching me how to make fursuits.

Eli- we met at Dragon-Con through a mutual friend in 2014, but didn’t really get close until may of 2019. Now we’re p much partners in everything but title bc we just don’t have romantic feelings for eachother. We share a therapist and hang out at least 3 times a month.

Shane: We’ve been friends since, like, 2010 but started getting close in 2017 when they helped me get a job. Then we just,,, stuck around. They kick my ass to get out of the house and do stuff, or did before corona

Sammi : Friends since 2010 when we were in highschool together. Our friendship was super rocky until we were in different schools and smoothed out as we aged and matured. They are the reason i got into conventions and cosplay as a whole, so they have only themselves to blame for how I am now.

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

Eli and laura.

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

my inner circle is, like, 6 people, but friends as a whole like.... idk.... 20?

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

“Your gender vibe, is, like, primordial. Its a perfect blend of masculine, feminin and things that are just indescribable.”

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

I hate myself, to be perfectly honest. But Im trying my best to be a good person and a good friend, so I don’t have to like me, as long as the people who matter do.

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

I love my hair. Also how much better at communication i’ve gotten.

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself?

my adhd and the social symptoms of that.

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

i liked swinging and listening to the sounds of shoes on carpet. Good stim time.

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

I never really had a best friend for more than 2 years. They would always move away, So i don’t really have a solid “best friend as a kid.” Why yes, I do have abandonment issues.

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

How my last relationship ended. I pulled some STUUUUUUUPID shit and never got to own up to it or hold the other person accountable for the harm they did to me. It was just overall horrible and never got any type of closure. Likely never will. But it be that way sometimes.

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?

My grandfather died last week and i feel........ almost nothing bc I honestly really did not like the man. He was horrible to me growing up and horrible to my mother while my grandmother was sick and dying. But he did a number of good things too. But I feel guilty for not mourning him more.

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

I chose Sawyer bc when I was younger, I was very good at wriggling my way out of work and my mom and aunts would call me “Tom Sawyer”. I also just like Mark Twain and the name Sawyer in general. Feels good

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

In the suberbs of atlanta in a nice house on the Chattahoochee river. I’m actually still living there while I finish school.

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

Rosey wall paper and gross maroon carpet until 7th grade, when we painted it all blue and put in blue carpet. It was, and is, very VERY blue. Im gunna be painting 2 walls different colors soon.

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?

Miserable, tbh. A lot of shit happened when i was 16 that left me with a lot of trauma and issues that I didn’t really have the maturity or energy to deal with while in highschool on top of being queer and dealing with that. So it was a lot of fighting with parents, self loathing, and struggling in school. It had its beautiful wonderful moments that I love with all my heart, but for the most part it was just kinda rough.

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

Georgia born and raised. She tries her best and is a wonderful mother, but we clashed a lot growing up bc she’s fairly neurotic and likes everything to be precise and orderly and perfect and im... ADHD so sometimes close enough is all you’re going to get. Growing up, i couldn’t communicate what was going on with me or happening in my head very well at all, and it caused a lot of tension.

Onions: Tell about your dad.

Hes from Bogota colombia and im almost a carbon copy of him. That means our issues with ADHD have a happen of blowing up at eachother. He’s horrible and constructive communication, but overall is sweet and funny and very very clever. My relationships with both of them are p okay nowadays with a few spats here and there that I will deal with when I don’t live with them anymore.

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

I never met my paternal grandparents. My maternal grandfather died when I was 6 and i hardly remember him.

My maternal step grandfather was.... not a good man but he was interesting and incredibly smart and fairly liberal. So there was that at least. But, to be honest, I hated the guy.

My maternal grandmother was one of my favorite humans in the world. She spent her whole life a highschool science teacher. She was funny, witty, elegant, a fairly talented cook who always encouraged me in everything I tried. Im still dealing with some emotional stuff regarding her passing, but Im just always so glad i got to spend as much time with her as I did.

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

haha shit. Maybe my 21? A bunch of friends and i went and hung out at a park then got hammered at my house after.

Peony: What was your first job?

Working at the summer camp i went to as a kid. Debating going back if I ever can.

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

I want my future partner to be a friend where things just, grew and blossomed.

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

Emotional? I try to be constructive and communicative about who or what caused it and doing something productive to help deal with it.

Physical, i just ignore it until it goes away.

Pink: Where is home?

Wherever Im going to sleep that night.

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?

When my ex broke up with me, I would have cut all ties all together instead of try the whole “we can stay friends” bullshit. I would have just “I don’t hate you, but If we aren’t going to be together, I can’t be friends with you until I’ve had some time to heal.”

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

nope

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

I’ve made my fortune and when I say things people listen, but I can also run away to my beautiful little homestead with my queer friends and wife and all our animals and children living together in a wonder queer commune. I get to travel twice a year and i never have to worry about money.

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

hmmmm. No idea.

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

can’t pick one person.

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

wind chimes probably.

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

oh man, too many to choose. I’ve lived a wonderful life so far.

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

Too many to choose. THe night I got dumped, my grandmothers funeral, my friends funeral, some others that I don’t wanna talk about due to triggers. bleah

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?

I want..... soup dumplings.

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

Depends. really intense or personal feelings involving my depression or emotions is almost impossible to talk about. But my feeligns about films and stuff i have 0 issues talking about.

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

Laura

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

idk, like 7 hours?

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

School

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

im.... technically self employed/ unemployed. I want a job tho.

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

My killstar hoodie.

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.

Disaster gay.

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

A tarot deck

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

Corona virus. and money.

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

The entire Heros Of Olymus series The lightning thief and Sea of monsters The trials of Apollo The last unicorn.

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

ideally living with friends and one year away from graduation.

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

*sweats* yea

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

im a witch

#Just felt like it #long post #all about me

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