#the last post but just lucy bc i know y’all

[fairytailrenders]

[fauvestictragedy]

this isnt au stuff mb but im just so hyped someone is actually in the room fandom!!!! i recently just binged all 4 games (recently as in finished 4 like 30 minutes ago) bc of the summer sale making the bundle super cheap and it kills me how its story isnt more popular, especially for how old and iconic it is. i just wanted to say hi to a fellow room fan, and i would absolutely love to hear anything about your au you wanna share! have a good day!

Hello there, fellow fan.

Autism goes fucking insane man.

Something something random hyperfix on absolutely unspoken characters from the series: See, Dr. Beckett (his first name is Adam to me.)

The protagonist is actually just Trevor Pinerod, an old OC of mine, he just gets used as Tag because I could NOT be bothered to make a new character design. Anyways, as he is also a man with a medical degree, he’s homies with Beckett, and works with him, as the top doctor at a hospital, which Beckett now runs following what happened with Lucy Montfaucon. (fun fact: originally Trevor and Beckett were supposed to hate each other, but we got bored and now they are the best of friends. Take what you will with that. They be dropping the hardest lines of all time and oh my god they kill me ouuuuuugh)

Anyways, fun fact is that a lot of what I’m working with is built alongside @scylla-and-charybdis-posts and @balencia (Rose, and Deity.) !! We actually are just a few RPers who don’t know how we got here over the last two years.

Rose is responsible for a large portion of Dr. Beckett’s writing, and I just am the one who does the funny art. You’ll also occasionally see Rigby, Robert, or McAllister too, as I did designs for the last two like two days ago, and I just like Rigby. I also have Hirst, Montfaucon, Lucy, and Hydrus with designs, as well as Simon and A.S. Maggey has one but we actually know what she looks like 100% pretty much.

Anyways here’s your content. My asks are ALWAYS open for TR related thoughts, and I have a separate ask blog for my Pokémon AU!!

Thanks for reaching out man, I’m the only artist around the fandom 95% of the time, and I may be crazy but I gotta feed y’all one way or another.

- Les Fauves

[pianjeong]

Abby tell me about pianjeong when JJ defected,,,, the angst

:( here is the first part of the promised angst.... i literally wrote almost 1k for this ask so i rlly hope the keep reading works (also i’m going to make this canon to spark from a flame bc self promo time)

so bc piandao was army and jj was navy they aren’t actually in the same place a lot of the time so there are a lot of letters and jj occasionally abusing his power to show up wherever piandao is posted

but then. the letters stop coming. (does the fire nation postal service send return addresses? do they bounce back? much to think about. support the usps pls) and soon enough people are whispering that the admiral deserted and piandao is just. shocked. not even bc he did it but bc he never said anything about it and he reads the last letter a lot bc what went wrong was he already thinking about leaving when he wrote that...doesn’t he know piandao would’ve come with him if he asked? he doesn’t hold very much love for the army anyway-

and it’s like. the world’s worst kept secret that piandao is dating jj except he can’t be associated with a deserter bc what if jj got to him too? bc he’s still sending letters just in case they can find him somewhere and his superior comes to him and is like hey. you can’t be doing that. we tolerated your association bc you weren’t breaking any regulations but this is toeing the line of treason and we won’t be so lenient next time.

so he has to cut all contact - not that there was any at that point but now he can’t even say his damn name - and people say the deserter, the traitor in the same way they used to say the admiral, the prodigy and piandao knows how much jj hated being called that. so sometimes when he’s alone and sure that no one can hear him, he just says his name aloud, because jj was always so much more than what people said about him and he’s still convinced that he had to have had a reason for doing what he did.

i think there isn’t that much anger there, not really, at least not past the initial stages and u kno, when it happens sometimes. the primary feelings are more of a confusion, and just. sadness. bc he knows that what they had was real and he doesn’t understand why jj didn’t say anything. and he can’t really...talk to anyone abt it (except lee but lee’s only one person and piandao’s like. im not gonna dump all of this on him)

and the real kicker is...jj did it to keep piandao safe, bc he knows that if he said anything piandao would’ve been right there next to him and he doesn’t want to put him in that situation. bc he knows that in any plausible situation he’ll be running for the rest of his life and he doesn’t want that over piandao’s head bc piandao had nothing to do with jj’s own mistakes and shouldn’t pay the price for his decisions. but he’s fully aware that he’s also hurting him by doing it this way and it just feeds into the circle of self-hate and gah my boy is having a bad time of it indeed.

maybe. after piandao finishes his mandatory service and isn’t tied to the military anymore he goes looking. think roadtrip...but Depressing. and there are Two (2) angst options here and i shall discuss both bc you gave me a platform and gdi i will Use It

so 1. he doesn’t find him. anywhere. it’s like he’s disappeared and somehow it’s worse than him being dead bc he just doesn’t know anything. he starts sending letters again now, maybe under a fake name so people don’t catch onto his identity, but still no response. and he locks himself up in his villa and he’s doing what he dreamed of, just vibing and making swords, but he isn’t happy there, not really.

and 2. he actually finds him; look if the gaang could do it so could he, he’s one of the few competent adults in the show. and when he does find him he looks so different like his hair’s gone all the way white (literally at what. 29?) and instead of his fun cloaks and tunics he just has his drab hermit outfit and he carries himself differently, like his admiral bearing but also Not At All. and it’s abundantly clear that his relationship with his bending is different he doesn’t fidget with flames anymore and it’s like he’s wound up all the time with the effort of keeping them back (bc i made him so connected to his bending in sfaf and i regret that bc it’s so depressing now)

and jj’s like what the FUCK are you doing here, you can’t be here you can’t be seen with me get out get out (a la aang but worse) and piandao’s like please...i just want to talk. and jj lashes out and gdi he’s still powerful and piandao’s never been scared of him, not really, but he thinks he might be right now. but he wouldn’t hurt him, would he? so he reaches out anyway but jj does burn him (like aang did katara), and screams for him to get out. and he leaves. because what else is there to do? (and that’s why the clearing in the deserter looks like that...bc jj burned the whole thing to the ground....)

lucy is an angel and sent me another ask abt the reunion so i shall continue there if y’all weren’t sufficiently depressed...sorry about this but it lives in my head rent free

[playmaker0810]

wow i really said this with my whole entire chest huh 😅

glad i’ve returned from the darkness and into the light 😂

for real tho, i’ve seen conversations from @into-control ‘s blog about laucy and i say, as a former laucy shipper, that Lucy is really the best choice among ALL of their PRs. i came to love Lucy while shipping laucy. she’s weird but like you can’t help liking her bc she’s an activist; she helps charities and often volunteers during relief operations esp in her home country in Puerto Rico; she’s very intelligent, she’s an artist and she’s a great daughter and sister. importantly, she always speaks her mind. that’s why i liked shipping her with Lauren before bc they have a lot similarities and also they have history together meaning they are friends before Lauren became famous. so like, excluding being a camren shipper, imagine that time seeing one of the people you admire, having that kind of relationship with her best friend that turned into something more and being publicly happy about it, it’s inspiring. so you can’t really blame a lot of camren shippers jumped ship that time bc they needed that inspiration and representation esp coming from Lauren. even tho now we all know the reality of why laucy was made, i admit, i was having a great time shipping Lauren with Lucy just for the mere representation and inspiration of it. also have y’all read lucy’s birthday post to Lauren last 2016?? that shit was so well written like ugh *heart* *heart*. that time i don’t care who Lauren ends up with bc i came to a point too where i shipped camren and laucy at the same time lol it was CRAZY. ANYWAYS, my point is, laucy is the superior pr couple. Lucy was a great choice and she deserves all the love from us bc she really helped Lauren and Camila in the grand scheme of things in the end.

[machonachos]

Tf happened between y'all???

Around September of last year, a few months after I had started talking to Sara, Jin began getting weirdly possessive of her. There’s more to it on Sara’s end, but I’m just gonna talk about what I personally saw and felt during this whole ordeal. 

Before she had even moved here, she started hounding Sara about feeling “left out” and how she felt bad because Sara was spending more time with me. And that’s not a problem in and of itself. Sometimes when someone gets a new friend that you don’t know, you get a little insecure. I understand that. I reached out to her during that time, trying to be friends, trying to find any common ground so that we could talk too. Did it make a difference? Nope. Instead she started getting more and more demanding of Sara’s time. If Sara didn’t message her every day, multiple times a day, then Sara or I would receive a guilt-trippy message about how lonely she felt and how she had no one to talk to (which btw, was very untrue since she suddenly has all these friends coming out of the woodwork). It was incredibly stressful for us over here bc it seemed like no matter how much we tried to balance school/work/errands and talking to Jin, it was never enough for her. Even when we explained exactly what we were doing on the daily (ex: cleaning the garage, going the vet, exams and deadlines), she would still try and make us feel bad about not being able to message her. With Jin it’s always, “I understand, but–” And you wanna know what it always boiled down to? Her feelings being more important than ours.

We figured maybe it’d be better when she moved here because then it’d be easier to talk and we could actually go out and do things together. That was not the case. Up until now, she had been making vague posts about feeling sad and whatnot that we felt were related to the situation with us but we were ignoring them in favor of starting fresh. You wanna know what she did like the day after she got here? Another vague post. So obviously we knew she was writing about us. But it was early in the move, so an adjustment period is to be expected. She’d told Sara that she didn’t have a place to put her computer, so we wanted to do something nice for her and went halfies on a dresser/desk that we then hand-sanded and painted ourselves. Lotta money and weeks of effort went into making that gift for her. Did it make a difference? Nope. She was still complaining about us excluding her to other people.

We soon found out that it didn’t matter how hard we tried to make her feel welcome and included. I would try very hard to keep conversations going with the three of us but it was like pulling teeth. Jin always seemed disengaged and would give me very little to go off. Still, we tried. And yet, it was little more than a week after she had moved here when things got real bad. I remember the three of us were on the couch (she had this really bad habit of physically jamming herself between me and Sara whenever we were in the living room, would always end up partially sitting on my leg and forcing me to move away), just sitting and watching a vine compilation. No one was talking, Sara was working on a drawing and I was doing homework. And yet she still stormed off into her room because we weren’t talking to her like what??? We were busy! Like she could literally see with her own two eyes that we were busy but didn’t seem to matter, all that mattered was that we weren’t paying attention to her. She ended up sending me a message saying that she wanted to talk, so I went into the room and let her vent. I tried to comfort her, tried suggesting maybe we all do something with our characters together like an AU and that seemed to cheer her up. When we came out of the room to tell Sara, she was gone. After that, I didn’t see Sara for two entire days. She locked herself in her room for two whole days, because the whole atmosphere in the house with Jin was that bad. It’s not my place to talk about what Sara did in the time she was locked in her room, but understand this: when I say this situation caused people pain, I mean it. Y’all wanna know just how bad it was? Sara has mentioned to me that this whole thing with Jin was eerily similar to her relationship with her abusive mother. And you wanna know the real kicker? When confronted with this information, Jin literally admitted that she knew she was doing a lot of the same toxic things that Sara’s mom does!

This sort of emotional manipulation from Jin went on for months. Sara and I would try and talk to each other, only to have Jin sit there looking sad in an effort to make us feel bad. It got to the point that whenever she would come out of her room, Sara and I would just stop talking to each other altogether. And before anyone asks, “well why didn’t you tell her how you felt”, here’s the thing– WE DID. We had a series of house meeting where we would try to bring up all our concerns and issues but whenever we would tell Jin that something she was doing was hurting us, she would just blame it on depression (which Sara and I both struggle with and/or take medication for!) and then proceed to not change a single thing.

But because the wrongdoings here extend beyond just our personal relationship with her and are way too much for just one ask, I’m gonna summarize some of the many other things she did while she was here:

- Didn’t pay a single month of rent in the four months she lived here- Spent all her money on video games and con stuff in the first two weeks of living here so we ended up having to buy everything for her including groceries, meals when we went out, cat food, cat litter, etc.- Would use things like Sara’s makeup and my mugs without asking, take communal things into her room so we could never find them or use them- Continued to make “vague” posts that clearly alluded to living here with us and badmouth us to other people even while we tried to make her happy- Would pull Sara’s boyfriend aside just to complain about us while we were LITERALLY in the other room- Would constantly touch Sara and I even though we’d clearly stated that we didn’t like being touched- Only started looking for a job months after she had moved here and had been living for free and not contributing- Bailed on us during the con when she had promised that she was gonna help us run the booth- Since she only cared about characters, we tried to create a new story line that could include her but instead she just pulled Chris aside on Christmas to complain about us- Was never thankful for all the things we did for her, including: paying for housing and food, paying for her cat’s things, paying for her therapy, paying for bus rides and giving her rides to and from places, any gifts we got her, taking her to Disney Springs for something only she wanted to do. God, she didn’t even really look happy when Sara made those Sinner and Lucy body pillows. There was just no pleasing her. Nothing we did was ever good enough.

[auroral-melody]

Why do you ship Lucifer/Dream ? I'm just curious.

NONNY I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING ME AN OPPORTUNITY TO JUST YELL ABOUT THEM

As with most of the convoluted, context-less things I post (e.g., the full-on rewritten characterization of Beelzebub in Good Omens), it started with a simple conversation between myself, @procrastinatingbookworm​, and @aqueeraphale​…and ended up in a hence unwritten fanfic that maybe we’ll get around to eventually.

Put it this way: self-written fanfiction is the answer to why I ship them. I need to actually write it on a page for y’all. I’m not really going to go into ~Oh, My Ship Is Canon~ because it’s clearly not. I’ll point out a few things in canon I want to talk about, but this isn’t a “I ship them because [] and [] in canon” it’s a “I ship them because I HAVE FEELINGS ABOUT STORIES I WROTE/MY FRIENDS WROTE”.

So how did this happen?

I’m pretty sure it started with something along the lines of generally agreeing Dream being bi, on the basis of Lucifer Pretty. Which evolved into an, “oh, that’s fun! let’s write it” RP, along with some doodles (back in May 2018. My art has improved since, and my character design thoughts, but)

Which turned into the concept that basically goes as follows

- Morpheus lonely and depressed- Death essentially brings him to Lux, to definitely set him up with Luci bc hey obvs they’re both bi disasters. Maybe see what happens- Morpheus voice I don’t dance- Death voice Okay I’m lesbian but he’s being nice and offering so I’ll dance with Luci instead- Morpheus voice [shocked pikachu meme]

Basically, it boils down to the fact that Morpheus was a very…lonely and sad person and tends to make enemies easily. Lucifer clearly doesn’t hate him, or Dream would probably be dead in a ditch, but he’s obviously engaged in their relationship as friendly rivals. Lucifer has just left Hell, and is kinda not knowing what to do with himself. He’s looking for something new and different.

They’re both incredibly touchstarved/affection-starved. Morpheus intentionally isolates himself from his friends and family, not seeking out friends, while Lucifer has spent the last billions of years completely alone in Hell.

So the setup here works pretty well. Death wants to help her brother, Lucifer is like, the one person who isn’t pissed at him, Morpheus Sad.

From then on is essentially just what we’ve written. They end up…somewhat dependent on one another for comfort because they just aren’t good at investing in any other relationships. And Death and Lucifer become more friendly.

Morpheus and Luci’s relationship is…tumultuous at best. They care for each other, but they cling so much to the One Thing they like at the moment. It’s not exactly the best thing. So the fact that Dream transformed into Daniel was pretty awful for everyone involved.

This AU fits in with the Lucifer continuity mostly based on Lucifer taking place shortly after Sandman ends. Dream is not often brought up, but allow me to go through some places where he is, and how I interpret them in context of the AU.

Obviously, this will have some spoilers. Also light NSFW art.

Lucifer (2000), issue #8.

[Image Description: Four panels of the Lucifer comic. The first is a backdrop, with Lucifer’s text saying, “But to Dream of the Endless, I imagine it would look like poaching, pure and simple. And since he’s the gamewarden he wouldn’t like that at all.” The second panel shows him holding a sword over a goddess’s son. The goddess, Izanami-no-Mikoto, looks on. She is made of stone. He says, “He’ll do it. I won’t even need to compel him. If I speak his name, he’ll come, and see what you’ve made here. So it’s your call, Queen of Death. Heads I win, and tails -- tails it all comes down.” The third panel shows the goddess holding up a hand to stop him. The fourth, the kneeling son says, “She offers atonement, Lucifer Morningstar. She offers your wings.” End description.]

In the AU, it makes a lot of sense that Lucifer would be able to easily summon Dream of the Endless with a single word. “He’ll do it. I won’t even need to compel him” is an interesting phrase. The absolute certainty in Dream’s actions – even if this is after Morpheus’s transformation (which I’m not sure of), Lucifer characterizes Dream as though he knows him well.

Oof. Lucifer: Nirvana.

[Image description: A watercolor cream and purple comic panel. In the distance, there is a boat. From the boat, Dream of the Endless says, “Bearing in mind our previous meetings, Lucifer Morningstar, might I suggest a bargain? I will ask no favors if you will offer me no gifts.” End description.]

This is the only conversation I recall in Lucifer or Sandman in which Daniel!Dream and Lucifer speak to one another. Yet Dream says,

“Bearing in mind our previous meetings, Lucifer Morningstar, might I suggest a bargain? I will ask no favors if you offer me no gifts.”

In the AU, their relationship soon after Dream becomes this version is tentative. Hostile at worst. They might be trying to figure out what comes next.

[@procrastinatingbookworm​ and I did write a fic on this! Find it here!]

Either way, they’ve talked before.

[Image description: A close picture, misty, cream and purple, watercolor, of a small boat, silhouetted. Dream’s silhouette is on the right, along with a small bird perched on the end of the boat. Lucifer is sitting, lounging on the left side of the boat. Lucifer says, “The situation isn’t likely to call for either. Your predecessor preferred a corkscrew to a stiletto. What’s your position?” End description.]

How did they end up on a boat in the middle of nowhere? Lucifer looks supremely comfortable, lounging, completely trusting that Dream offers him no harm. They’re standing, very awkwardly, on opposite sides of the boat.

Lucifer is making a metaphor here, regarding how Morpheus was not very to-the-point. He knew how Morpheus worked, how he thought. He’s asking in an almost affronting way: “What’s your position?” that could be interpreted as curious or as a thinly veiled hostility.

[Image description: A watercolor of Dream’s profile, somewhat silhouetted. He has white hair. He says, ‘By all means let us be direct. Someone has used human dreamers to stage an assault on you. I assure you, this someone has attracted my attention, too. The matter will be dealt with.” End description.] 

Dream is taking this matter very seriously. It just seems that Morpheus may not have put as much attention into random attacks, but Dream is very involved. In the AU, this is kind of because Dream is keeping an eye out for Lucifer.

This conversation just hints, to me, of much more backstory between them.

They’ve been trying to bargain, offering favors or gifts to one another – something they don’t really have a good reason to do in the comics, except maybe to secure an alliance, but that feels…?? Well, considering the rest of the conversation…

[Image description: two panels, watercolor. The left is Lucifer’s face, and he says, “Actually I intend to deal with it myself. It would be unfortunate if our investigations hampered each other.” The right panel is of Dream, with a hand on his waist, looking down. He says, “I am interpreting that statement as a threat. Very well. This touches profoundly on my interests, but you are the injured party. Your rights are paramount.” End description.]

Lucifer is certainly difficult to make an alliance with. (Tangent, but I love this issue’s art style.) Dream still seems surprised – “Very well.” He is respecting Lucifer’s somewhat “bugger off” statement.

[Image description: A watercolor landscape shot of Lucifer on the left, with black wings spread, and Dream on the right, turned away from both the camera and Lucifer. Dream is saying, “I will conduct my own inquiries, along avenues that will not intersect with your own. Whatever I discover I will pass on to you. Via an intermediary, of course.” Lucifer replies, “As you like. But somewhere discreet. No white ravens.” He is referencing the bird also present but off-panel. End description.]

At this point, Dream turns mostly away from him. In my eyes, I see this as hurt/deflecting, supported by the fact that he says he will pass information via an intermediary – unnecessary, it feels, considering they’ve been talking, they’ve had multiple conversations before...it’s very sudden. Feels like it was based off of what Lucifer said. Which was a threat, but still, Dream knows how to not cross boundaries and get himself killed from a threat.

Lucifer doesn’t seem to have a strong opinion on this, or rather, he says, “As you like.” Letting Dream do whatever.

I don’t really have much to say on that part. It’s just a really fascinating conversation.

The Sandman (1989) Issue 72:

[Image description: Mazikeen and Lucifer sitting on what looks like a bench or stone beside one another. Mazikeen is to the left. She has an arm around Lucifer’s shoulders. Lucifer has his hands steepled in front of his face and his expression is unreadable, eyebrows furrowed and lips pursed. Mazikeen is almost leaning on him. She is wearing a red dress with no sleeves. Lucifer is wearing a blue suit. Both have curled hair, and Mazikeen is not wearing a mask. Overlaid, there is text from Matthew the raven, talking about Morpheus’s death. Matthew says, “I mean, Despair may be the thing that comes after hope, but there’s still hope. Right? When there’s no hope you might as well be dead. What’s in my heart?” End description.]

I find this significant in the AU because, firstly, it’s a point where Mazikeen shows affection to Lucifer. She has her arm around him. It feels...comforting, to me. Secondly, it’s the one panel of Lucifer I can find in the Wake -- and it’s when Matthew is talking about how he cares about Dream, and he’s figuring out his relationship with this new Dream.

Overall, Lucifer clearly respects Dream as just...another individual. He attends his funeral. He speaks with him multiple times.

In our AU, he and Dream are happily married, and their relationship post-Morpheus is settled, loving, happy. Because I love happy endings!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you enjoyed reading!! Feel free to shoot me a question about my thoughts on this AU. Because I have a LOT.

[sistersofthemoonn]

howdy, y’all!! @sourcherryscones tagged me to do this fun thing woohoo thx

rules: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people

nicknames: feel like i’ve answered this a lot of times lmao. wil, willie, mijntje, willa, mina, plus more

zodiac: leo sun, pisces moon and idk what my rising is?? gemini or smthn?

height: 6’/182cm

last movie i saw: the highwaymen on netflix!!

last thing i googled: the definition of something for my econ exam today

favorite musician: rn im in luv w lucy dacus, but my all time favs are the districts and hippo campus

song stuck in my head: juniper by katy kirby and don’t swerve by annie dirusso

other blogs: @morningsoaked, @fuckingpapercut, and @renownedorders are the ones im using most atm

following: 662 which is surprisingly lower than i thought but i’ve unfollowed so many blogs oops

followers: 415

do i get asks: sometimes!! send more yall it’s FUN

amount of sleep: usually 8 hours

lucky number: 8

what am i wearing: black mom jeans, orange old skool vans, this shirt i embroidered, a huge beige cardigan, and my usual necklaces, rings, and earrings

dream job: ever since i was little i’ve wanted to be a fashion designer and i still would love to be one lmao

dream trip: i want to go to bilbao again so fucking bad. im hopefully going with my mom after finals!!

favorite food: my sister’s spinach risotto <3 she’s a great cook!!

instruments: guitar and uke! i have a soprano uke and a baritone (baritone is my fav)

languages: my first language is english and i speak fluent dutch and (almost) fluent spanish

favorite songs: get ready for a long list!! defeated by bad suns, love in the 4th dimension by the big moon, silver streets by BOY, cold cold cold by cage the elephant, wrung out and hanging (on west coast time) by the districts, airplane by the districts, 4th and roebling by the districts, boyish by hippo campus, traveler by hippo campus, why even try by hippo campus, on call by kings of leon, sister by the japanese house, like a child hiding behind your tombstone by slothrust, the couch incident by slothrust, you by the 1976, and i think this list is getting too long but i could go on and on and on....

random fact: i love birds so much. somehow everyone knows this about me and it’s GREAT bc my friends took me to a bird zoo and another friend gave me a bird vase... amazing i love my friends

aesthetic: if u wanna know my aesthetic then just look at my room. old furniture that’s been painted pink or yellow. dried flowers in empty wine or gin bottles. walls covered in post cards, pictures, posters, and lil memories like gum packaging from 5 years ago and a wrist band from a festival i went to with my sister. an ‘I ❤️ GIRLS’ mug my brother gave me. empty perfume bottles. gold jewelry hanging from a jewelry stand i stole from my mom. a dish on my side table with all my rings and earrings.

im supposed to tage 21 ppl but. im lazy. sooo :) im tagging @starsham @iamacleanfrog @oldrecordplayer @warmglowed @kissontheeyelid have fun !!

[spartanguard]

I could be wrong coz it's been a while since I last watched S1, but I don't think Henry recognized people from the pictures in his book? Like, he had that vision of MM as Snow, but other than that, I think it was more about characteristics, looks, names, jobs? I remember him "recognizing" Cinderella coz she was a maid and Hansel and Gretel coz they were homeless orphans? He only knew Graham was the huntsman after Graham told him about his dream in which he almost killed "MM"? He equated cont

cont Archie’s job with being a conscience and that’s why he thought he was Jiminy?I’m not sure how he knew Regina was the EQ, I guess it depends on what exactly the story in his book was, but I’m pretty sure he just thought Emma was the Savior based on her name and the fact she was found as a baby. So, basically, he knew the stories and had that revelation about Snow and started putting together the pieces from there, but the pictures are only for the benefit of the audience, not the cont

cont characters. What I find more surprising is: Lucy wasn’t part of the curse according to the S6 finale. So you’d assume she’d grown up knowing Regina and Hook and Tiana, and that’s why she knows Henry is her dad. Why doesn’t she recognize them based on her own memories, that’s what I want to know? Are we supposed to believe she didn’t know any of them before HH? That’s way more confusing for me. Thoughts? 

Hey nonnie! I’m assuming this is in relation to this post, stemming from discussion on the sneak peek released yesterday from 7x06.

It’s been quite some time since I watched Season 1, too, so my memory is also fuzzy, but you bring up a very good point, which definitely explains why Lucy wouldn’t be certain. At least in regards to art, it IS pretty hard to get Josh and Ginny from this:

(Josh isn’t even ginger!)

It makes perfect sense that Lucy is following the same pattern and seeing the parallels in the stories themselves. High five to you!

BUT that leads us into your last point, and a question that was bugging me (and others) yesterday: What is Lucy’s cursed status?

The end of Season 6 would have you believe she escaped it, especially given her insistence thus far in Season 7 that Jacinda is Henry’s True Love and they’re a family. Also, the only part she mentions of that story being in the book is Henry meeting Jacinda (aka the beginning of 7x01), so how else would she know the rest?

But if she’s not cursed, then yeah—she SHOULD recognize Roni and Rogers (and everyone) for who they actually are. The only possible explanation I could see for her not knowing them is that she didn’t grow up with her extended family (which I doubt would happen, but I guess we’ll see).

However, she also seems pretty savvy with the ways of this world and the situation with her step family, so either she was straight-out cursed, or Tiger Lily made sure she was cursed like Regina was in Season 1, with knowledge of this world. Hopefully we find out when we see Tiger Lily again in 7x10.

tagging @unfolded73 @optomisticgirl @gusenitsaa @killian-whump and @j-philly-b bc this is possibly relevant for y’all

Thanks for stopping by, nonnie!

[grammarkid]

bruhh, i almost forgot. @atonguetiedwriter tagged me to do that wip challenge thing? the post the last sentence you wrote in a wip and tag as many people as there are words in the sentence thing. so, legit the last thing i wrote was:

“yeah, okay, i’ll ask lena out when you ask lucy out.”

but my brain is so scrambled that i honestly can’t think of 11 ppl to tag so i’m just gonna tag @poppyssupergirl bc i know she’s writing rn and i want to see!! 

but, like, y’all should drop me an ask & tell me what ur writing bc i’m curious.

[aliensaucers]

92 Questions Tag Game

I was tagged by @ghoulpunks (heck eeeyeah thanks friendo)

Last:

1. Drink: think it was water (but i rlly want some orange juice rn)

2. Phone call: my boyfriend bc we havent been able to talk in school

3. Text message: i usually use skype to message but my last text was to my friend gillian

4.Song you listened to: i’m listening to take her to the moon by waterparks rn

5.Time you cried: i think it was because the cover from my light on my ceiling fell on my face the other day??

Have you ever:

6. Dated someone twice: nope im still in my first relationship so thats kinda impossible rn

7.Kissed someone and regretted it: never had a legit kiss yo

8.Been cheated on: nope

9.Lost someone special: heck yeah, a lot of times

10.Been depressed: absolutely

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

12.13.14.List three Favourite colours: blue, red, and yellow

In the last year have you :

15.Made new friends: yeah!!!

16.Fallen out of love: nahh

17.Laughed until you cried: i’m pretty sure??

18.Found out someone was talking about you: no i don’t think so

19.Met someone who changed you: yeah

20.Found out who your friends are: absolutely

21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: see number 7. (answer is no)

General:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them??? (i dont use facebook, my mom manages it pretty much)

23. Do you have any pets: yes!!!!! I have a dog named Chito and i love him very much

24. Do you want to change your name: i used to, but now im comfortable with it

25. What did you do for your last birthday: i cant remember? I think i went to church that day?

26. What time did you wake up: 5:30am (i slept in)

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: bitch i was asleep for once

28. Name something you can’t wait for: the school year to be over (i know it just started like a month ago but shhh)

29. When was the last time you saw your mum: like an hour ago?? idk

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my mental stability i guess??

31. What are you listening to right now: waterparks

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah my grandfather

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: idk im pretty chill atm. Maybe the fact that an old friend lied to me the other day like .. multiple times even tho i knew the truth anyway

34. Most visited websites: tumblr i guess? And rabb.it

35. Elementary school: ye??? Idk what this is asking

36. High school: i am currently in high school yes

37. University: yeah im gonna go to that one day

38. Hair colour: blonde

39 . Long or short hair: mine is rlly short but still a longer than it was the last time i posted selfies on here

40. Do you have a crush on someone: idk how to answer this question?? Not really i guess??

41. What do you like about yourself: my eyes, hair and my ability to help others i guess?

42. Piercings: nope

43. Blood type: lol i forgot oops

44. Nickname: ughhh okay. Amy, ames, millie, mill, macklemore, chihuahua, egg, etc.

45. Relationship status: taken

46. Zodiac sign: scorpio (i think????)

47. Pronouns: she/her but i dont really care so y’all can call me whatever

48. Favorite TV show: idk?? I cant remember when i last watched tv

49. Tattoos: uhhh no i dont want one

50. Right or left hand: left

First

51. Surgery: nope

52. Hair dyed: no

53. Sport: t-ball lol

54. Vacation: florida

55. Pair of trainers: they prolly had dora the explorer on them or smth idk


More general

56. Eating: nothing but i had a boiled egg this morning

57. Drinking: nothing rn

58. I’m about to: take a nap bc im Sick

59. Waiting for: the weekend so i can take a break

60. Want: idk?

61. Get married: wait what’s this asking? I wanna have just a chill marriage ig???

62. Career: idk, im thinking psychologist maybe

63. Favorite artist: waterparks and those who dream

64. Place you want to travel: New York

65. Favorite subject: art or english i guess? im not in pe rn but thats pretty alright at my school usually

Which is better

66. Hugs or kisses: depends on the situation

67. Lips or eyes: eyes i guess?? certain lips are Good tho

68. Shorter or taller: it doesnt matter to me; no preference

69. Older or younger: once again no preference

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: hhhh,,,, arms

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. Hookup or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: both? I guess??

Have you ever

74. Kissed a stranger: nno

75. Drank hard liquor: nope never gonna do it either

76. Lost glasses/ contact lenses: i lost my glasses a couple times throughout middle school i think??

77. Turned someone down: uhhh a couple times??? but more often i notice where the conversation is going and shut it down somehow before it gets awkward

78. Sex on the first date: no, thank you very much

79. Broken someone’s heart: dont think so

80. Had your heart broken: i guess not?

81. Been arrested: nope

82. Cried when someone died: for sure

83. Fallen for a friend: ….yeah…..

Do you believe in

84. Yourself: sure i guess… to some extent

85. Miracles: yes

86. Love at first sight: i have an unusual opinion on this. i feel like you can see someone and think “that person is special” and find out later on that y’all are perfect for each other, but thats it

87. Santa Claus: uhhhhhhh no

88. Kiss on first date: uhhhh it depends on how well you know the person before the date imo

89. Angels: yes

Other

90. Current best friend’s name: carolyn my dude my buddy my pal my friend (also blake !!)

91. Eye colour: a confusing mess (they’re hazel)

92. Favorite movie: Sing Street is a 2016 musical coming-of-age comedy-drama film co-written, co-produced and directed by John Carney. Starring Ferdia Walsh-Peelo, Lucy Boynton, Maria Doyle Kennedy, Aiden Gillen, Jack Reynor, and Kelly Thornton, the story revolves around a boy starting a band to impress a girl in 1980s Ireland. It is an international co-production from Ireland, the United States, and United Kingdom.

im sorry i dont feel like tagging anyone so if you wanna do it, go wild pals

[alucywarner]

~♥ PRIVACY PLEASE ♥~

[So, Happy Easter, right? Chris is risen and all that good stuff. Easter means one thing in the Warner family. (Well, two things, because candy af.) But ONE THING, and that is Mass with Nana, y’all. Every year since probably forever, Clover liked to pretend she was a good Catholic, and went to Mass, and this included her children eventually, which, in turn, included her grandchildren as well. (And her great-grandkids, probs, but who are they? Parrish doesn’t know. Bryant has no kids. I’m sure Zelda has no kids. Maltilda maybe. Anna and Booker. Maybe. Lane, I’m sure has some kids. Anyway, this isn’t the point. Moving on.

The point is that significant others were always, always invited as well. Being as this was the first time that this was a relevant thing for Lucy, she was badgered to invite Jordan along. (Probably by Boo, but that’s not up to me ya know.) So, yes, one Mr. Jordass Harper has joined Easter Mass. And no. When he was introduced to Nana, there was no last name introduction. Because that is safest right now. 

Nana Clo was polite, and Jordan, of course, was his smarmy, overly-polite self, and everything seemed to be peachy. Luckily, this meeting was more about sitting and listening to a priest talk for an hour rather than Jordan actually talking to Nana, or Lucy or anybody else. Hallelujah to that. 

But then Mass was over. oVER, and now the real fun had to begin. The fun of LUNCH TIME WITH THE FAMILY. And now it was definitely time for people to begin talking, and Nana seemed way too overly interested in making sure she’s sitting beside Jordass and Lucy, and asking all sorts of questions to the both of them, and really getting to know the character that is Jordan Harper.

Nana is all smiles as lunch is over, and everybody gets up to do their own thing, and probably Jordan is hanging with Cooper and Boo, and probably there’s a soccer game starting to happen, and a lot of people have fallen prey to the post-holiday-lunch nap, so it’s gotten quiet. (Or, as quiet as it can get in this particular family, because lunch probably includes people that don’t give a heck about going to mass, like Maiven.)

SO, Lucy is getting ready to join everybody else in doing their own things when Nana stops her and pats next to her to get Lucy to sit back down. No gifs, bc who df is old Nana Clo? Who knows. Not me.]

Your boyfriend seems nice.

He is. 

He’s very... not the type I would’ve imagined you with, dear.

Whaddya mean by that, Nana?

Oh, just that he seems to be kind of-- how do I put this kindly...? Into himself?

[Lucy’s like ‘yA U BET NANA.’ on the inside.] Jordan? Into himself? Oh, I think you’re just reading things the wrong way. He’s really great.

A-ha. Well, if you think so, then he must be great. I think maybe you can see some things about certain people that other people don’t notice. [Nana head nod.]

Yeah. That’s it. I just see a deeper side of him, is all.

People just don’t get to see the side of him you do, right?

Exactly. [She shrugs.]

There’s just some sort of connection you can’t shake, hm? Even if you can’t explain it?

[Nana, stop confusing your grandchild.] U-Uh, well... I-- yeah, I suppose that’s how I feel.

It really feels like there’s something there-- something good, and you just don’t get it.

-- Yeah.

It’s a good feeling, isn’t it?

... It scares me.

It usually does. Especially with the troubled ones.

Troubled? [An awkward-sounding laugh.] Nana, he may be a little overly-confident at times, but he isn’t troubled.

Mhmm. [CLOVER EYEBROW RAISE OF DOOM.] You know... you don’t have to put on this face for me, sweetie.

-- What are you talking about?

Lucy, you don’t like that boy.

Wh-- of course I do. I’m dating him.

[Clover lets out a laugh, because oh boy, yeah, in my experience (with his Gpa) that totally means you like them.] If only things in life were that simple.

They are in my life.

So, I’m to believe my granddaughter’s taste is in stuck-up airheads, am I?

Nana!

You think it too, dear. [She waves her hand to dismiss Lucy’s clearly fake offense.]

What makes you say that?

You. I watched you while he was talking. It looked like it took everything in you to stay awake. When you want to be with someone, you look like it too. 

Why are you telling me all of this?

Because just now... when I asked you about having a connection with someone-- and you said it scared you to feel that way... That was real. I could see it in the way you looked. 

Oh, you can tell by a look, can you? [A lil irritation at Nana’s perception.]

Nana’s been around the block enough times to be able to tell, Lucy.

Right.

So, the question is... if you don’t like that boy, but you clearly feel a certain way about someone else... Why him?

... It’s complicated, Nana.

Try me.

You’ll tell--.

I won’t. Nana’s honor.

It started off as a... well, a game, I guess, for lack of a better word. Just a way to make... someone else... well...

Jealous? 

I guess so. Because, well, he’s not...-- the other one... he’s not-- the best kind of... family... friendly type of... I mean he kept insisting that I was jealous, so I... guess it’s a taste of his own... game?

Oh, dear... You are my grandchild.

Thanks?

If you think it’s a compliment, I suppose I’ve done well? But did it work?

I think so, yeah. 

So, why are you still with the airhead then?

I think it’s because of my parents. I never really meant for Jordan to meet them, and they love him, and Cooper’s his best friend now, and-- well, they would not approve of the other guy. Believe me. If I just ended things with Jordan out of nowhere, I’d get questions that I can’t answer, and I just--... [Long sigh.]

[Tiny Nana smile.] Being fifteen is hard, isn’t it sweetheart?

Hmph.

This other boy... the non-approved one... Have I maybe met him before?

uh.

[Another Clover eyebrow raise.] I knew it. I knew it as soon as I walked up on the two of you. That’s why I asked the questions I did earlier. 

Seriously? How could you tell anything from that?

The fact that you didn’t slap him for it helped.

Why would I have??

The fact that you are clearly my grandchild. And it was clear that wasn’t the first time you met, if I’m basing it off the way you two spoke to each other, and the way he looked at you.

Doesn’t matter, Nana.

It does, honey. Because you’re obviously not happy, and you’d clearly like to end things. 

Again, doesn’t matter. 

Can I give you some Nana advice, Lucy?

why not

Don’t worry about everyone else’s feelings. You’ll never be happy trying to make everybody else happy. You’ve got to go after what you want without thinking about what everyone else is thinking about your choices, because you’re gonna look back at your life eventually, and you’re going to realize how what seemed like a good idea-- listening to someone else instead of what you want- you’ll regret not taking a chance. 

You sure do know a lot about this, Nana. 

[Another soft smile.] I’ve been in love before too, dear.

Well, duh. I know that. You and Grandpa. But there’s no way you two had this kind of situation--...

I’m not talking about your Grandpa. Though, I did love him very much. I mean, I’ve loved someone very unapproved before as well, and I listened to other people instead of myself. I can’t regret it now, because of all that it’s brought me... My children... my grandchildren and great-grandchildren... but sometimes I do wonder what could’ve happened if I listened to my heart as a teenager, and not what someone else thought was right. Don’t let that happen to you, Lucy. It scares you, I know... I’ve been there. But-- you have to take a chance with it. Who knows what could come of it if you just try?

[Lucy is contemplating this all, and now thinking about how, yes, apparently she is a bit more Clover than she ever would’ve imagined. And most certainly, she is thinking about a Maddox Bravo.] Thank you, Nana.

Of course. You’re welcome.

 [So Nana is giving a hug now, and that’s when Jordass walks back in, maybe messy, because a rough soccer game, or something. Idk. The two ladies pull back, and they take in the messy boi.] Jordan Harper, look at you. 

-- HaRpEr?? [Clover drops her head on the table, because boy does that figure. The end. Decide for yourself how Clover responds to this lol.]

[survivordivergent]

EPISODE 4 - “I WANT TO REACH MY GOATENTIAL” - GEO

Welcome to Survivor Divergent, where's it's 14 inactive people and 6 people actually playing

I'm pretty damn busy today grading final assignments, and I'm pretty sure my frustration yesterday was enough to paint a target on me going forward, but I don't much care. This tribe's work ethic is for shit. I don't belong here. I can't just sit back and not do things. Ed can't, either, because it's such a deep-seated belief of mine that it permeates through him too. Not submitting things is just not my speed.

What pisses me off more than anything is that so far, I've been the only one to put in any concrete work. Percy got the theme based on a writing prompt. Payton's been offering suggestions. Dani's offered to do both the poster and the write-up. Meanwhile, I did the poster (deliberately at a level below what I know I can do, because I've been saying all along that I'm not good with Photoshop.) I did the write-up. Last time I felt so alone in one of these creative challenges, my tribe lost and I was the one sent packing at the next tribal council.

It's bullshit. I hate it I hate it I hate it. And while I love the people on this tribe based on our limited interactions, Peter can fuck off back to the inactivity pool from whence he came. Lucy can find a clue while she's busy finding a last name. And Geo... man, Geo is the biggest disappointment of all, only because we've SEEN what he can do. And it's like he's choosing not to do it. I get that we all have lives and that we're all super busy. I'm running myself so ragged that I'm going to hibernate clear through the holidays.

But that's the key difference: you make time if it matters to you. And if this game doesn't matter to anyone else, why should it matter to me? More importantly, if I get to jury, where's my motivation to vote for any of these people who couldn't — or wouldn't — step up when they're needed?

This is frustrating. I miss Megara Tribe. I miss Bondoso Tribe. I even miss Drohend Tribe. I like tribes that work hard, like each other and trust each other as a result. And this tribe fits maybe one of those three criteria. It sucks.

Six: The amount of posts in our tribe chat per day. God damn.

I'm pretty sure the hosts hate six. Like.

On 12/18/16, at 12:09 AM, Payton Rodriguez wrote: > also, y’all are rigging this against the 90% inactive tribe

On 12/18/16, at 12:10 AM, Payton Rodriguez wrote: > its not mine and ed’s fault that the rest of them are flops like if we went offline for three days the world would fall apart and you know it

no, i dont think they're actively rigging. i think my tribemates are sabatoging and we're not gonna have fucking numbers going into merge. sluts.

Okay so it's been a while, let's see if I can catch up. Last time I made a confessional I was stuck on trying to find the Erudite idol. I was so frustrated, and then we lost reward. I didn't want there to be a chance that someone from Six would find the idol, since the clues stack, so I panicked and asked Melissa for help. She figured it out in 2 seconds bc stupid me doesn't know the alphabet or how to count. Ugh. So we work through the next few pages, and then we get stuck again. But after looking at it for a few minutes, I realized I needed to use the keypad on a telephone to get the next word, and I figured it out. To show some good faith, I tell Melissa right away, but the next page.... whew. I looked at that page for a good half hour and couldn't figure it out. Then I'm reading what's on the page and it looks like song lyrics? So I decided to google them. I copy and paste it into google, and i noticed in the search bar are words I did not see before. So I go back to the page and highlight everything. Sneaky Jenna hid the link to the next blog in white lettering on the page. Very clever. So I go to the next blog, and I need another password. Crap. Well, I'm hoping that whoever is looking for this idol on the Six tribe gets stuck at the password too, so they wont be ahead of me. I decide to not tell Melissa that I figured it out. I want to see if she comes to me with that information. And she does, the next day. So I know I can actually trust Melissa. Like, I know I'm in an alliance with her, but I wanted to like, test her trust? I guess? So there's where we are on the idol journey...

I've been talking to Jill bc, you know, former Candor, and she brings up starting an alliance with Kyle. Me, already being in an alliance with Kyle, am completely down for this. Jill's plan is to have a former Candor/Amity alliance with me, Kyle, and Will, and bring in Melissa as a 5th so we have majority. Kyle and I, already being in an alliance with Melissa, are completely down for this. We decide to tell Melissa about this alliance, because we want Ugly Fruti to be our core, our majority within the majority, if that makes sense. Melissa seems fine with it.

So then we wind up winning the Battleship Immunity, and I am really enjoying not going to Tribal. If we can keep it this way until merge, that would be fantastic. Things have been really quiet around the tribe lately. I haven't been on much because of things irl, but I'm going to try and be around more. I dont want to be first boot from this tribe for inactivity, even though there are people who are way less active than me. I'm just hoping our movie poster is enough to win reward so we can continue on that Erudite clue...

Every single day, I feel myself slowly becoming someone that I am not. And honestly, I kind of like that.

I think Payton is pretty set on getting to know who I am but I'll keep bouncing that carrot in front of her face because the longer I keep her focused on my identity over the game that I want to play, the better it is for me in the long run. Payton is a threat because shes so talkative (albeit annoying as hell) and has Percy in her back pocket. She even came to me and said,

[10:14 PM] Payton Rodriguez: So I think I kinda decided Percy would be safe if we went to tribal again, at least from my vote? He really did help with making that poster look good

Of course that's a valid excuse but you should be willing to vote off anyone at any given moment in time. I don't care who we're going after, but I kind of think that Peter does need to go next. He's just going to do whatever people tell him to do later and he contributes almost nothing to my game, except acting like a little pawn for the time being.

I still have my Abnegation idol, so I'm going to hold onto it as long as possible. I think this is an idol I need to use on myself only because if I try to use it to make a huge move, like playing it on the target to get rid of a threat, then it could backfire and if my own target ends up getting saved, I could go out on a revote. If I just had the regular old thing, then I'd be more willing to be #dauntless and whip it out to save someone else and *ciera voice* make big movez.

Also I'm being really patient with myself and trying to make a lot of spelling/grammar errors and ignoring most forms of punctuation. I want to, in addition, have perfect grammar, spelling, punctuation on my regular account so that people are somewhat confused about my identity. I'm still going with my "pretty, spoiled girl" image that I'm adopting so that everyone thinks that I'm two completely different people. Maybe its working, maybe its not. But I need to start cutting the bullshit and start being as realistic as possible. No more talking about the unrealistic life I don't have, but being real. I have to adopt true parts of my own personality so I'm not looking like a bullshit artist. I have that tumblr blog, so maybe i should share it with the people so they choose to follow me and understand that maybe this is something i'm committing to. we'll have to see how that works out for me, of course.

ok i know im not supposed to but i cant help but get uncharted flashbacks rn im sure its not but lake is giving me ari vibes

Gosh it's been a long time since I've made one of these.

Nothing has really happened. We've been winning immunity and I haven't really helped at all.

I've been trying to staybtalkative with the most active members of the tribe and I feel like there's at least 2 or 3 people that could be voted out before me.

I feel so bad cause I havent done one of these in a long time. Im usually good with confessionals <.< sorry hosts.

I feel like im wadting time with the amity idol but oh well ill keep chugging along

Dani scares me. Theyre really smart, they know who i am, and i feel like theyre not playing with abnegation (obviously they werent from thay tribe) and theyre gping to use it against me. I want to get her oyt, but i think shes better connected to people, therefore attempting to do so will get me oyt instead, and i want to play with loyalty, i dont want to ve a flipper again and again. Dani is in an alliance with me so that wont be good as the others may be wary of me.

Im concerned as well as people arent actually talking that much to me. They dont message me, only dani and payton. I love payton or logan if it is them and i believe theyre going to be a bigger target ahwad of me in the future.

I want to play a very goat game. Previously my competitors and friends viewed me as someone who cant win and is very well aligned and a flipper. I havemt made ftc, and thats my goal. I dont care about anything else. If im loyal and very nonthreatening, people will want to take me as they view me as a goat and i could potentially use that strategy to win? I want to reach my goatential, and see whether i can lose at the end or not. Hopefully i dont.

Im typing this on my phone and i didnt put the heading, sorry for all my messiness. #Goatential #Geoat #loyalty #noflippers #mystrategy

I want to conspire to vote Dani out. I think that might be too risky right now but I don't trust her.

I'm glad we won tribal! But I really, REALLY want to send Dani home. Like, yesterday.

I'm tired of people outside the game talking to me about this game. Stop.

Um, it's been a confusing past few days. The biggest things to come out of them:

1. Six won immunity! Woo hoo! Payton was trying to argue that they were throwing it, but I refuse to believe that. We cam together as a tribe and we showed how much more effective we are when we work together, and that's that. So I guess another way of saying it would be, I don't care what they did. I care about what we did. And we crushed it. And frankly, as great as Payton has been for moral support and activity, her frequent willingness to couch thoughts with 'if's and 'but's really rubs me the wrong way. That's not the way winners think.

1a. That said, Payton is still my #1 for now. She's got a tremendous grip on the tribe socially and is realistically one of the shot-callers around here. The longer I can stay under the radar and vote with her, the more likely I can make merge. And then we're golden.

2. Danielle approached me with 'evidence' that Payton took the advantage, but it was very... sketchy. Which is not to say I don't believe it. I had my suspicions. But I wonder if Dani is trying to throw Payton under the bus for something. There seems to be some bad blood there for reasons I can't fathom.

3. Payton approached me with 'evidence' that Danielle or Geo are fabricating receipts, but it was very... sketchy. Which is not to say I don't believe it. It seems like something both would do, based on what little I know of them. But I wonder if Payton is trying to throw Dani under the bus for something. There seems to be some bad blood there for reasons I can't fathom.

3a. Déjà-vu is the sensation of seeing something you feel like you've seen before.

4. This Erudite idol is maddening. 'Center from the start?' What the hell is that??? I've tried everything – the letter a, the titles on each of the blogs, the word 'hosts' which is the 'center' block on the 'start' page, every past clue in every single blog... I know the clue points to a page on one of the blogs I've already visited, as opposed to the latest one. But I'm so stuck and it's so frustrating and I can only hope others are as hopelessly irritated as I am. I need that next clue, and hopefully this time it'll be something new rather than something I'd already been trying. Talk about bad luck.

5. Peter has been very quiet, but at least he showed up for the comp.

6. Lucy has been very quiet, but at least she showed up for the comp.

7. Geo has been very quiet, but at least he showed up for the comp.

3a. Déjà-vu is the sensation of seeing something you feel like you've seen before.

I will make a longer confessional if I survive tribal, which honestly, I think I will. Me, Kyle, and Melissa are in alliances with pretty much everyone on the tribe, so I think we are fine. The vote should be for Amanda, which is a relief for more than one reason. One, she's getting on everyone's nerves, and two, its so weird for people to be talking about Amanda and to remember its not me. There's only room for one Amanda in this game, hun! Ahhh anyway, after this tribal, we are supposed to be on a holiday break for a while, but I have a feeling before that happens, we are gonna be split into 3 tribes of 5. I'm really hoping not, but if so, I have Kyle and/or Melissa with me, or that I end up on a tribe with a Four Tribe majority. Ahh okay, I'm out til later