#the kind of masculinity i hold in myself isnt one of force and power and strength its moreso a gentlemanly kind. i love being a gentleman | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

darlingspup · 10 months ago

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when i think about how i want to Look within my gender, the image of a lot of transfem people comes to mind, and that worries me a little, im not sure how to feel about it. im afab transmasc, but i think a lot of transwomen are really beautiful and id like to look like them in some ways. i worry that means subconsciously i think of them more as men than women because that's how I identify myself. Or maybe it means im not as masc aligned as I thought. I think the way transwomen style and carry themselves is really pretty, I like their voices a lot and wish mine sounded like that, I appreciate the more masculine elements they may have a lot too. I guess I worry thats wrong of me, im not sure

#maybe im just really genderqueer idk #i dont align with cis masculinity at all and when i do feel feminine i know for a fact its not in a cisfeminine way. its different somehow #the kind of masculinity i hold in myself isnt one of force and power and strength its moreso a gentlemanly kind. i love being a gentleman #i can still be strong but more emotionally than physically #a strong foundation for the people i care about to lean on. i think thats what it means to be masc to me #and to be fem? when i feel fem i feel even more powerful somehow. i feel physically attractive and confident #i know i pass as fem so when i lean into it its almost like drag. im not a girl but i look like one and i can play one real good #and i love performing. that makes me feel powerful so being fem is like a fun thing i can choose to do sometimes #long tags... oops

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