#the horrifying ordeal of being perceived

[bl00dfroma-fairy]

[calware]

you genuinely do have more jake than dirk vibes. dunno what everyone else is on about

(you do however have the hal vibes too)

thank you <3

[librarium-of-horrors]

coming to terms with the fact that unmasking both our autism and our did means we have become a lot more strange + bizarre + off-putting. and there's really no way around that.

[lawfulevilaristotle]

Just wanted to say Hi & Thanks for all the love you always share for my IFs Dereliction & Paved in Ashes ^

Hello! Your IFs both look very interesting, and you have clearly put a lot of time and effort into them. I can’t wait to read them both, and I’m glad my lurking is received positively

[lilac-multifandom-multishipper]

I HAVE JUST BEEN INFORMED THAT IT IS BI VISIBILITY DAY

TO ALL MY BI FOLLOWERS AND MUTUALS, I WISH A VERY HAPPY HORRORS OF BEING PERCEIVED

[acebean]

a youtuber replied to a comment i left on a poll they made and i threw my phone

[ink-and-fire]

I’m curious to know who I am from a stranger’s point of view. What traits do I have? What does my voice sound like? What comes to mind when people first see me? What is my reputation like? Is it a positive one? Negative? Who am I through the perceiving eye?

[scopebite]

Manny...

the hardest part is that the more I think about Boone the more he both makes me miserable and pisses me off wait hold on don't whine in Boone's defense to me because I'm already irritable plus whatever it is... consider the possibility that I've already considered it !! inside and out !! over and over and over and over !! at every angle and overly in Boone's defense too many times so reel it back on track here and wait I also know it's the writing and how it's limited for game space so whatever let me be mad at Boone('s writing 🙄) thanks anyway

and right now I'm thinking about how especially in relation to Manny... he's a shit friend to Manny and they're stuck like that in game since there's no interacting with eachother and even then like fucking step outside of Boone's perspective for a minute here with me

Manny would be so sorry horrified even if he knew any of the truth because what happened was a rotten terrible sick thing nobody wishes slavery or death on the family of their best friend regardless of anything at all

and then he'd probably feel so weird about Boone considering the weight of everything like that's so much to process and it all loops back into other parts

you didn't know your best friend killed his wife and might have almost blamed or at least suspected you for what happened just because you seemed happy she was gone while you had no idea what actually happened to her and you just thought she got sick of being with him in a town she's miserable in and left even others were sure she just left nobody else (yeah except No Bark) saw any signs of kidnapping so of course you didn't like her you thought she ditched your best friend and was hard to get along with because your ordeals* clashed with hers** whatever but you wouldn't betray your best friend you wouldn't sell a pregnant woman to to fucking legionaries and yet your closest best only friend thinks you could have done that !! your only friend !! and even after he finds out who really did it he still avoids you doesn't even tell you he's leaving with a total rando and by the way that tribe you joined as a kid with your cousins? yeah your best closest only friend killed a bunch of them even the children the sick the elderly civilians amongst them that's what nobody would talk to you about but reeling back around that friend your best closest only friend thought you could have something to do with his pregnant wife being sold into slavery to legionaries your best friend thought you'd traffick his wife your closest friend thinks of you that way your only friend sees you as a potential slaver and because why what you were according to ncr propaganda a mindless heartless raider and even to your only friend subconsciously is that it? it couldn't be that right? either way you're alone in that dinosaur alone in the world

and maybe that's why they shouldn't talk or maybe that's even moreso why they need to

Boone is both grieving and should be sorry. All Manny did "wrong" was make the mistake of reacting according to how he perceived a situation without knowing everything. Boone knew more and jumped to worse conclusions with it.

* ** I don't feel like pulling up the references but both autistic Carla and classist anti-khan Carla (booooooooo tomatoes) can be true at once and consider the classic ordeal of one person’s autism (or other neurodivergences) clashing with another's that shit happens all the time it could happen with Manny and Carla too that's right Manny too now

[fordtato]

apologies for the radio silence on my tumblr, y'all - I have been dealing with the horrifying ordeal of being known and perceived

[j-a-nuary]

Me, putting purple blush and fake freckles on before leaving the house: I'm so cute

Me, facing the horrifying ordeal of being perceived on the train: I am an embarrassment to the very idea of being cute

[lifeisabitch-butimcute]

there is nothing quite like submitting yourself to the horrifying ordeal of being perceived by applying for an internal role and then being turned down 👍

[ilaytrapsfortroubadours]

Genderfluid visibility day is homophobic tbh. What if I don’t WANT to be visible. What if I don’t WANT to be perceived. What if I don’t WANT to submit to the horrifying ordeal of being known ??????????????????

[ghoulangerlee]

i want to join that ghost writers server bc maybe it'll be good for me and maybe i wont hit so many blocks but the HORRIFYING ORDEAL OF BEING PERCEIVED.

[thedegu]

how do ur ocs celebrate their birthdays!?

Ida

Somewhat. She's older, and if her kids want to take her out, she'd be down. She'd be just as happy to have a normal night in too.

Ale

not really, sure they're always down to party, but they don't need the excuse. also birthdays tend to bring up complicated feelings the'd rather ignore

Madea

Well, she does not have a 'birthday' in the classical sense-- seeing as she was dropped off on the doorstep of a church when she was a baby. She doesn't really have a gotcha day either... as she was never adopted. when she was a kid, there probably was a designated day for her 'birthday' for paperwork reasons, and there was probably a small celebration for her and her "twin sister," but it was never anything extravagant or even guaranteed.

Now she's an adult, she wants to be perceived as little as possible so, with the horrifying ordeal of being known is a key point to bday celebrations, she'd rather not. she's happy to celebrate other people's though

Tyblin

yes!! she loves her birthday and having the excuse to hang out with the people she loves! She loves the cake! She loves the celebration! she'd def if she was in a modern setting go bowling every year even after the age that its generally seen as 'appropriate'. her mom makes sure to make it a big deal every year because she wasn't supposed to make it past her first year. like its not just a birday its like a birth week in her household

Rossien

Literally does not care in the slightest. Birthdays were not a big deal in Ficoria, and he's like 400 years old now, so it's just a day that ends in 'Y' for him. Also, it's not like he has anyone to celebrate with anymore. he's not beat up about it either it's just a day and sometimes people might say something, but beyond that, there is nothing different

Rupert

He enjoys a good bday shindig! Now he's an adult he'll go out and have a nice dinner and/or a few drinks. He's not a partier, but he won't turn down a good time if offered. tbh his idea bday is just a nice picnic and a bottle of wine, but he's not picky.

Hunt

not super big into b-days, enjoys a bit of debauchery but is a bit too serious to do anything grand. always gets SUPER flustered if/when Roosa does anything for her but that's about it.

[oasisofgalaxies]

Instead of choosing the wallow in the horrifying ordeal of possibly being perceived as annoying or worse in addition to pondering the inconsistencies of the self I will instead think about Rhodes because she is so cool and I have so many feelings about her . Ohhh this Spartan can fit soooo much survivors guilt in her . Hrhghfh she <3

[lemoneychicken]

wanting to ask my friends to help me with a project vs horrifying ordeal of being perceived