#the fact the song is abt a tommy

[reyesranch]

hey do you ever cry abt the fact that one of buck and tommy’s biggest moments (so far yet so early) is tommy showing up for buck after fighting a fire overnight, no sleep, not having cleaned up, dropped right off at the hospital because he said he’d try his damndest to make it to the wedding for buck, and they kiss in the middle of the hospital with a beautiful jlh cover of one of the best love songs ever (imo at least) playing over it. like they really fucking did that. oh my fucking god.

[nats-revival]

𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙞𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙗𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 / 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙝 𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙪𝙥 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙨 | 𝙚. 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙢𝙨

pairing: ellie williams x afab!black!reader

tags: told from readers pov and ellies pov, alternates between third person and first person, sorta angsty, fluff at the start, basically ur dina lol, jj isnt here tho, one use of y/n, one description of reader (just hair?? i think that’s it), ellie has ALOT of inner turmoil, reader lowkey knows that tho, great music/artists (not to toot my own horn but the songs and artists mentioned are BANGERS!!!!), sorta canon typical universe, mentions of abby and tommy (not really any actual involvement in the story.. well, sorta ig), ellie refers to reader as ‘she’, and i think thats it!!

a/n: lowkey thinking abt making a part two but everytime i start a series i always end up stopping at the second chapter. 😭 anyways, ill get to finishing those other requests diligently! 😇🙏 also ignore the fact i added hella tags, its prolly like random stuff but just trust me bro its in here!!!

Ellie was acting weird. Like, really weird. After Tommy had come and gone, something shifted inside of her. Like he’d altered her brain chemistry in some strange way. She was much quieter and she was biting her nails — a habit she’d picked up whenever she was thinking or nervous. You stand in the kitchen cleaning up some dishes as a Lauryn Hill vinyl plays softly. Ellie didn’t know much about your music taste but god, did she love it. She loved lots of things about you, your cooking, learning about your culture, how you helped her broaden her outlook on the world with the lessons instilled into you by your parents and grandparents. It was something she valued above all else. You found yourself humming along to the tune of the music and occasionally mumbling the lyrics. The stairs creaked as she walked down them rather slowly. The sound of the record player being on made her wonder what you were up to. She picks up the sleeve the vinyl had been in and she reads it. “‘The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill’? You’re always listenin’ to this record. It must be your favorite then, I presume.”

She walked over to you while you were drying off a plate. “It’s a classic, Ellie. Who doesn’t like this album?” You ask as a small smile creeps onto your face. She’d always made you smile, but it now just seemed like she was trying to deter you from the fact that something had obviously been going on in her mind. She leans against the counter, looking over her shoulder at the setting sun. She hadn’t said anything as she alternates between looking at the sunset, you washing the dishes and nodding her head to the beat of the songs playing. Once the dishes have been washed, you rummage through the cabinets for a small candle. It was one Ellie liked. It smelled like some sweet citrus scent and the label had been rubbed off. You reach into a drawer and pull out a box of matches. You strike it until it burns and you light each wick, then putting the match out. 

   Then, you stop the record and put it back in its sleeve. “I should get you another vinyl. Who else do you listen to?” Ellie asks as she steps behind you. You shrug. “In the old world, I listened to a lot of music. I had a Walkman but yknow, someone stole it.” “That sucks. I had a Walkman aswell at some point. Never saw it again.” She pushes her hands into the pockets of her worn jeans and you nod in response. You let out a little yawn. “I think I’ll go to sleep soon.” You mumble to yourself as you turn to Ellie. “Yknow, for my birthday, you could get me like a.. New Edition one if you could find it.” You suggest with a smile. “You got it, babe. I’ll search as hard as I can.” She smiled softly and kissed your cheek. You return the kiss and begin walking up the stairs.

    You head for the bathroom to shower. The water never got as hot as you preferred but you couldn’t complain. At least you’d been getting some water. The water was lukewarm. Your clothes had been discarded on the floor. You step into the shower and your mind begins racing. You were there the entire time Tommy had been talking to Ellie. You’d opened the door to him. You watched him limp into the dining room. You let him in! You were starting to think that wasn’t a good idea as you washed your body. Ellie tended to rethink her actions and doubt herself a lot. You couldnt like, literally see inside of her mind, but you knew she had lots of inner turmoil. Killing people and the undead coupled with trauma definitely wasn’t an easy task to balance. You could see it in her. But she was addicted to that sense of justice. She felt compelled to protect the ones she loved even if it meant it was self destructive. 

   As you exited the shower, you found Ellie sitting on your shared bed awake. “Ellie, are you not tired?” You ask softly as you dress yourself. “No, well, yeah. I was just.. waitin’ for you.” You nod in response. You wore a pair of shorts and a shirt with some faded graphic that appeared to be from some Mortal Kombat game. You sat next to her and you grabbed her hand gently. Your thumb runs over her knuckles. “Yknow you can talk to me. I’ll listen, Ellie. I’m here for you.” She mumbled a soft ‘I know’ before she leaned her head against your shoulder. The moonlight shines through the windows, gently illuminating your features and Ellie’s. You could hear the windchimes outside swaying with the wind. “Cmon, let’s get some rest.” You suggested as you walked over to your side of the bed. You knew Ellie had a hard time sleeping most nights, and some days it was visible on her face. You just wanted her to sleep for one night. In a way, you knew why she couldn’t sleep. Maybe because she wanted to protect you from whatever may stumble in here while you’re in your most vulnerable state, or maybe because her self-decapitating thoughts were  eating her alive. You laid in the bed, facing Ellie as she settled in the bed. 

    In one hand held her switchblade (she went to sleep holding it most nights.) She looks at you with a tired smile as one of her hands comes up to gently caress your face. “When this is all over, ‘m gonna give you the whole goddamn world.” She mumbled as she leaned forward to give you a soft peck. “I’d do the same for you. I’d get you everything you could possibly ever want.” Moments like these were your favorite moments to have with Ellie. Her words of affirmation, love and even her promises were all you could ever think about whenever you couldn’t sleep. You knew she meant everything she said because of the sincerity in her voice. You smiled to yourself. Ellie saw you and she smiled too. You turn to her. “Ellie?” “Yeah?” “Don’t leave me. Not ever. I can’t lose you, I still have so much to show you.” There was this kind of.. expression on her face. Uncertainty. Worry. Compassion. Her response was small, as if she wasn’t sure if she’d ever abide by this unspoken promise to you. “I won’t.” You smiled softly before you got a little closer to her, holding her in your arms as you drift off into sleep. 

(Ellie’s POV now lol)

She was so close. Holding me as if she’d never let go. Thoughts were too much. My mind is racing. I keep seeing him. Tommy did something to me. I couldn’t just.. leave my girlfriend. The one who’s been with me through thick and thin. A woman like this wasn’t easy to come by, especially during an apocalypse. The moonlight was always my favorite light to see her under. She’d been glowing, god, she was beautiful, ethereal even. The way her braids sprawl over the pillow, her soft breathing, the soft thumps of her heart were all I would’ve needed in a perfect world. The draft coming through the window gave my goosebumps. We’d been laying here for a few minutes. It was amazing how fast she could fall asleep. The switchblade I hold has a reflection from the moons light. I see myself in the blades reflection. I look away.

  Something inside of me screams ‘Go get her. Go kill Abby. Finish the job like Tommy suggested.’ Slowly, I slide out of the bed. Standing in the middle of the room, I realize that there are some windows open. Shuddering, I go to close them. I made sure to keep my footsteps light so the floor didn’t creak. After closing the windows upstairs, I go into the room my art was stationed in. There was a box under my desk containing my journal. I know she never looked through it because I didn’t want her to and she respected that. I flip through the pages of it, looking back at my entries. There’s an entry in my journal. ‘Sometimes, I hear people talking. They tell me to do bad things. I know I shouldn’t. But how do I ignore a voice so loud? I should tell (Y/N). I can’t tell her. I don’t want to ruin this for her. She seems.. happier when she’s not constantly running for her life.’ The note was next to a few sketches of her and moths I’d roughly sketched. I was tired of the voices. I return the journal and walk downstairs to close the rest of the windows downstairs. I stop infront of my guitar. 

  I sit down, strumming a few cords before I stop. ‘Go get her. Go kill Abby. Kill Abby. Show her what pain feels like. She killed Joel. Finish the job.’ The voice was repeating. It was driving me insane. The voices came after we left Seattle. I want the cycle to end. Nothing ends if I just ask it to. That’s in some.. nonexistent world. My skin crawls with this need. Not the kind I feel when I look at her and her beautiful face and body. It was bloodlust. A vicious cycle never ends, that’s what makes it so vicious. This is the continuation of a cycle I can't break. “I have to do this.” I mumble. I move mindlessly as I gather my things and get ready. I have to kill Abby. I feel like my only purpose in life is to protect, sacrifice, and suffer in silence. Killing Abby seems like.. my magnum opus right now. She tells me that ‘violence isn’t the answer’ and to ‘control my urges’ but I can’t.      As I stand in the kitchen, putting the last of my things into my backpack, the stairs creak. She’s awake. Fuck. She wasn’t supposed to wake up. God, don’t look at me. Don’t do this to me, I need to do this— “Ellie? What’re you doing?” Her voice makes me freeze in place. I don’t move. I stare at her. Her tired eyes. The longing in her eyes for some sorta.. normality in her life. Our life isn’t normal and has never been normal. Was anything normal in this life? Who knows. Nobody knows. Matter of fact, I don’t know.

[breathe-2am]

118 Blunt Rotation Headcanons

Bobby: does not partake, but the ultimate trip sitter. Keeps the chaos generally controlled, but finds everything very funny, in a i-will-tell-you-about-this-tomorrow-and-you-will-cringe kind of way. Disappears for an hour and come back with homecooked food, everyone is beside themselves in gratitude. Starts telling a funny story about this one time he Smoked Pot, but about halfway thru he along with everyone else realizes its not funny and is probably something he should talk to that twink priest about.

Hen: laughs at EVERYTHING. Finds a random object like a ballpoint pen or a half full bottle of water and its THEE most fascinating thing shes EVER seen. Gets up to go to the bathroom, doesnt come back, when they go looking for her shes just staring at herself in the mirror. Very in her feels abt how she loves her friends. Says she needs to change shirts at one point bc she hates the fabric actually. Comes back in an entirely different outfit.

Chimney: a yapper. Every thought in his brain is out his mouth. Running commentary of the happenings. Jokes make less and less sense but hen finds them funnier and funnier. Talks with his hands to a dangerous extent. Eating whatever bobby made w his fingers, which is not a good combination when he gestures too wide and flings it at bucks face. He thinks this is the funniest thing that happened all night bc buck doesnt even react.

Buck: Out of everyone here, hes got the most experience in a blunt circle (youre going to look at me and tell me that im wrong? He had frosted tips and lived in a FRATHOUSE dawg) but hasnt been a smoke weed everyday bitch in a while so when he does he thinks his tolerance what it used to be. It isnt. Man is FLAVOR BLASTED he is SCHWASTED. Cant talk bc hes giggling while staring vacantly at the ceiling. Zones out, resurfaces to drop a random fact related to a conversation that was happening ten minutes ago, and hes gone again.

Eddie: Eats bobbys food and cries bc its delicious. Laughs at chinmeys jokes and cries bc hes so funny. Stares at hen and cries bc shes so beautiful. Thinks abt chris and cries bc he loves him so much. Buck is absentmindedly petting his hair to calm his tears and cries bc his best friend is so kind. Has to get up but doesnt want to bc the floor is so comfy. I love you bitchessss this is the year im gonna get my SHIT togetherrrrrrrrr what r these floors made of theyre so niiiiiiiiiiiice.....

Maddie: obsessive abt the Vibe, keeps getting up to turn on or off a lamp bc it was too bright but now its too dark. Perched in a mountain of pillows and blankets, keeps readjusting bc she has to b Maximum Comfy. Changes the song a minute in when its 'not the vibe'. Pulls out the most out of pocket story about buck as a kid but hes not even absorbing whats going on so she doesnt feel bad. Shes trying to rest her head on chinmeys shoulder but hes moving too much and shes getting annoyed.

Karen: the funniest bitch in the room. Monologuing abt space, which segues to robotics, which segues to government, which segues to capitalism, which segues to how they need to go to the beach RIGHT NOW. Hens looking at her like that twink boutta pounce meme. Sings along w the song playing, starts bitching at maddie bc she skipped it. Talking abt the sanctity of the playlist and respecting the music, but then says 'wait i hate this song' and commanders the spotify, she and maddie have a tug of war over the phone.

Tommy: touchy feely bitch. Started sitting next to buck but at some point graduated to trying to sit in his lap but now hes just sprawling across him like a weighted blanket. Voice has no inflection. He and chimney start excitedly talking abt a bad movie only they have seen and it goes on for way too long bc he starts chattering abt two characters he thinks should have ended up together. Eventually is just laying there curled up with buck, he realizes he loves his life and the people in it, has a little Moment.

Athena: does not partake, remind them that drug testing is a thing in their line of work, has Choice Words when the phrase California Sober is dropped. Taking pics for blackmail. Despite all that, she makes sure everyone is alright and helps bobby clean up. The next morning she makes coffee for everyone, and when people complain abt their backs or necks hurting she says 'thats what you get for sleeping on the floor'.

[neapeaikea]

I could write a novel about this one.

It started as a hot and heavy oneshot abt Tommy seeing Evan on a heaving dancefloor, and it bringing out Tommy's inner beast and them having mad sex.

Then I (as always) started thinking abt "what next?" and ended up with 10k+ words abt Tommy figuring himself out and his journey out of the closet. What started as a story without that many feelings became at times almost introspective? Which is so not my thing to write. But challenging yourself as a writer is a thing!

Obv, this fic is inspired by A R I Z O N A's song "Feed The Beast" which is a fucking banger and has been in my Top 10 for a few years running. I think this might be my first songfic! When I saw people making playlists for BuckTommy, I kept expecting to see it! But alas...

I had so much trouble with the timeline, and finally decided to disregard canon and go with what worked for me and, hopefully, the story. I suppose this fic is as loose with passage of time as canon is! But seven years passes from the start of the fic to the end. Tommy is 30 at the start of the fic, and Evan is 23, but you can imagine them as any age you want.

Finally, I debated with putting something in the tags on A03 about it being less than romantic and it being about two adult men with a (mostly) healthy appetite for sex. So yeah, don't expect too many love declarations. They're kinda factual about sex and what they expect from each other. They're also not together for most of the fic, in fact they're involved with a number of other people.

But of course they end up happy together.

[dremieblur]

Give me like how many random facts you wanna give abt paras

Hmmm, okay let’s see… I’ll tell you about the family members since I’ve been thinking about them for a while!

Barbie's mom (Margaret) is a technical middle child since she is the younger twin to Millicent and the older sister to Adele. She is also her mother's (Barbie's grandmother) least favorite daughter.

Millicent has a daughter (Kristen) and she has no idea who the father could be, not that either of them care tbh.

Adele has mutism.

Adele adopted two children (twins), Tutti and Todd.

Tommy bullies Ken because he had to deal with his brother's pining before he actually got together with his partners.

Alan's mom's whole thing can kinda be summed up with the song: My R (which is also a song she shares with Alan)

Alan has his mom's face and his father's anger issues.

Midge and her sisters (Lila and Melody) have multiple birth certificates because their mom also has multiple birth certificates.

Skipper constantly wears headphones and has learned how to read lips because she hates taking them off unless she has to.

...and I think that's it, I might expand on this at a later date, but it's nice to talk about them!

[byllsbytch]

About Me!

Hey y'all this is byllsbytch,

I’m 17yr old and from Australia!

I'm a pretty mediocre writer n suckkk at writing smut.

I’m gonna be cheesy - music is my lifeline and what keeps me going. My Spotify playlist is 110hrs and 17mins 🙈

I listen to a lot of hip hop, soul and rnb (especially females rap, because that makes me feel like a bad bitch) because that’s what i’ve grown up with but love to change genres over time specifically to rock, indie and punk music.

I’d always known of Tokio Hotel but like most of you, my fixation with the band really kicked off because of that one Tom edit that came out around last year that went viral. (Admiting is the first step 😭😭)

Speaking about them my favourite songs from them are

- Reden

- Wo sind eure hande

- Dark Side Of The Sun

N of course the basic schrei n monsoon

Other than Tom being a smoking hot BEAST, I’m deeply in love with their music and HAVE to listen to it at high volumes. (sometimes the highest volume isn’t enough though. I need that shit to be INSIDE me)

Some facts abt me:

My favourite food would have to be Burritos, hand me one and I’d be fucking that shit UPPP.

My favourite colour is purple.

My favourite song atm is "Overnight Celebrity" by Twista and Kanye West.

I play guitar and have been playing since I was 9/10

I LOVE piercings! I currently have 9 piercings which includes my septum (but I need MOREEEE!!!)

I froth over:

- Tom Kaulitz

- Johnny Depp

- Heath Ledger

- Skeet Ulrich

- Tommy Lee

- Dave Grohl

-Nicholas Chavez

-David Casteneda

- RODRICK HEFFLEY 🤘

My favourite artists are:

- Steve lacy

- Lil Kim

My favourite tv shows consist of

Freeks and Geeks

That 70’s show

H2O

Underbelly

The end of the fxxing world

Sex Education

Skins

My all time favourite movies are Scream and Ten things I hate about you (Any 90s rom com tbh)

[cleanfm]

(   +6   )   two   wanted   connections   have   been   added   !

*       ♡ .      ꒰   barbara  palvin  +  platonic  ꒱  a  little  birdie  told  me  april  winslow  is  looking  for  their  high  school  best  friend who  went  to  new  york  first  !  according  to  them,  they  kinda  look  like  any  fc, twenty  six  or  older  and  are  about  twenty  six  or  older    ╱   they  were  thick  as  thieves  in  high  school  and  briefly  lost  touch  when  april  drove  down  to  los  angeles  right  after  graduation.  they'd  likely  be  the  reason  april  went  out  to  new  york,  probably   crashed  on  their  couch  or  still  maybe  live  together.  you  can   contact  this  player  @  ohaprils

*       ♡ .      ꒰   barbara  palvin  +  romantic  ꒱  a  little  birdie  told  me  april  winslow  is  looking  for  their  late  night  radio  crush !  according  to  them,  they  kinda  look  like  tommy  martinez,  oliver  jackson  cohen,  rege  jean  page,  manny  jacinto,  jonah  hauer  king,  aaron  taylor  johnson,  yahya  abdul  mateen  ii,  ask  for  more  and  are  about  twenty  eight  or  older    ╱   april  hosts  a  late  night  radio  show  in  brooklyn,  and  this  muse  likes  to  call  in  to  almost  every  show.  they've  developed  an  on  air  flirtation,  and  it's  very  cute  and  playful.  we  can  definitely  plot  out  more!  you  can   contact  this  player  @  ohaprils

*       ♡ .      ꒰   oscar  isaac  +  platonic  /  romantic   ꒱  a  little  birdie  told  me  balthazar  cordovés  is  looking  for  their  ex-spouse !  according  to  them,  they  kinda  look  like  jessica  chastain,  pedro  pascal,  dhanush,  katrina  kaif,  lee pace,  contact  for  alts  and  are  about  thirty-five  to  forty-five  years  old.   ╱   balthazar,  during  his  travels  here  and  there,  woke  up  in  las  vegas  suddenly  married  to  this  muse.  despite  the  fact  that  they  had  every  opportunity to,  they  never  really  bothered  getting  a  divorce,  both  of  them  claiming  they  were  simply  too  busy  to  deal  with  all  the  paperwork  that  comes  with  undoing  their  las  vegas  wedding.  they  do  possess  a  certain  fondness  for  each  other  —  and  now  that  they  found  the  both  of  themselves  stationed  in  new  york,  they’ve  been  hanging  out  more  and  more  often.  there’s  a lot  we  can  go  with  this,    and  i  don’t  wanna  ramble  on  for  too  long  so  please  contact  me  for  more  info!  you  do  contact  this  player  @gazedivine.

*       ♡ .      ꒰   sobhita  dhulipala  +  occupational  /  romantic   ꒱  a  little  birdie  told  me  devarakonda  radhika  is  looking  for  their  workplace  rival !  according  to  them,  they  kinda  look  like  brenda  song,  shay  mitchell,  ayça  ayşin  turan,  any  woman(-aligned)  of  colour  and  are  about  thirty  or  so  years  old.   ╱   radha  has  a  coworker  she  has  a  ‘rivalry'  with,    but  basically  the  whole  floor  has  a  betting  pool  abt  how  long  it  would  take  for  the  two  of  them  to  end  up  together  for  the  longest  time  now.   they’re  both  feisty  and  accomplished  and  always  butting  heads  against  each  other,    verbally  sparring  every  time  they  cross  one  another  in  the hallways.   yet,    at  least  on  radha’s  end,    there’s  no  denying  that  there’s  some  thing  brewing.  only  time  will  tell  if  the  pot  will  just  keep  on  getting  bigger  and  bigger  with  no  end  in  sight  or  if  someone  would  eventually  cash  out!  you  can  contact  this  player  @gazedivine.

*       ♡ .      ꒰   oscar  isaac  +  familial   ꒱  a  little  birdie  told  me  balthazar  cordovés  is  looking  for  their  siblings !  according  to  them,  they  kinda  look  like  jade  eshete,  gong  yoo,  jesse  williams,  khadijha  red  thunder,  can  yaman,  any  person  of  colour  and  are  about  twenty-five  to  forty  years  old.   ╱   fernando  and  miriam  cordovés  always  wanted  to  have  several  children  and  so  turned  to  adoption  after  having  balthazar.    with  fernando  being  an  astronaut  and  miriam  being  a  movie  star,    the  large  cordovés  family  snagged  headlines  wherever  they  went  for  their  highly  glamorous  lifestyle    —    not  helped  by  the  fact  that  both  fernando  and  miriam  seemed  to  overindulge  their  children’s  every  whims.    aside  from  that,    literally  everything  else  about  balthazar’s  siblings    —    their  personalities,    occupations,    fcs,    etc    —    is  utp.  you  do  not  contact  this  player  @gazedivine.

*       ♡ .      ꒰   seo  yeji  +  familial   ꒱  a  little  birdie  told  me  michelle  hwang  is  looking  for  their  younger  sibling !  according  to  them,  they  kinda  look  like  any  korean  fc  and  are  about  twenty-three  -  twenty-eight  years  old.   ╱   the  hwang  siblings  were  originally  born  in  atlanta,  georgia,  but  tragically  lost  their  parents  shortly  after  the  birth  of  michelle's  younger  sibling.  the  pair  was  quickly  sent  off  to  live  in  new  york  with  their  maternal  aunt  &  uncle  who  took  them  in.  the  family  was  very  influential,  so  they  never  wanted  for  anything  from  an  outsider  perspective,  but  were  expected  to  live  accordingly  so  as  not  to  “shame"  or  “embarrass"  the  family.  most  details  are  completely  up  for  discussion  because  i'd  like  to  give  as  much  creative  freedom  as  possible,  but  i  definitely  picture  a  them  vs.  the  world  type  beat  because  they've  really  only  ever  had  each  other  you  can  contact  this  player  @solandiz.

[rotisseries]

sorry abt to infodump tlou2 soundtrack shit lmao I just LOVE music soundtracks idk why I can understand them better than shit with lyrics (probably the tone deaf and takes-everything-literal problem kfmske). ANYWAYS--

"eye for an eye" is played during the Manny and Abby vs Tommy scene and it's so interesting because it has the pulsing effect that I've related to Abbys trauma, her revenge and such. THERE IS THE LITTLEST BIT OF GUITAR, which guitar always reminds me of joel and this IS his brother, tommy. AND THE FACT THE SONG IS NAMED "eye for an eye" WHEN TOMMY SHOOTS MANNY THROUGH THE EYE, AND LATER WHEN ABBY SHOOTS TOMMY HES SHOWN TO HAVE SCARRING OVER HIS EYE. JUST. OH MY GOD.

The song that has muchhh much more pulsing is "the cycle of violence" I'm sure it appears in other places but it's what's prominent in the theater fight. "the cycle continues" is the end fight and holy SHIT yeah its fucking nuts. The pulsing sounds like a clock to me like its really ticking down to the end. I'm going insane over it.

"All gone (the promise)" IS SUCH A SAD FUCKING PIECE ITS JUST SOME SLOW STRING INSTRUMENTS BUT TIED WITH THAT NAME. WITH GUITAR TOO BEING PLAYED NEXT TO A VIOLIN. LIKE ITS LITERALLY ALL IN THE NAME. JOELS ALL GONE. ITS A PROMISE. ELLIES ALL GONE. ITS A PROMISE. FUCKING HELL

"beyond desolation" follows a guitar more. It is the end song of ellie leaving the house it makes me sick. It just confirms guitar is always for joel and the fact other pieces have HINTS of guitar, but THIS gets to lead the song is maddening.

If I listen to it longer and if you want me to ill share more lmao I'm not really GREAT with music but I'm so interested in it regardless

OUGH NO I LOVE HEARING ABOUT GOOD SOUNDTRACKS GLOOMY I'M SHAKING YOU I AM LOSING MY MIND MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER IF YOU HADN'T TOLD ME ALL OF THIS

[idontliketomatoesleavemealone]

Im not from 196 either ive been here for over a year

Name? Blue or Tommy whichever u prefer :3

Pronouns and gender? She her, girl tho gender is an illusion 

Sexuality? Very gay

Country? Germany 

Top 5 fandoms? Uhh Disney descendants the hunger games Percy Jackson the locked tomb i dont fucking know mate

What is your Most forbidden snack? Anything that i didn’t ask permission for is forbidden. Noodle soup

Would you pet a bug? No i might hurt it :(

Share a weird fact/story about yourself with the class. A kid once hit me w/ a stone when I was 8. I still have bumps on my skull from it. Also a camel once kicked me (in the same side of the head that i later got the stone in). Also also my parents once let me sleep in a cat basket when i was a baby and a bunch of books fell on me. I don’t fucking know why they did that

What does the color blue taste like? like frosting but not overly sweet

What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? Five two-day-old baby guinea pigs running around screaming. You could pick them up (they were not scared)

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done? Mixed up the sentences “he’s just my friend” and “I’m not in love with him” and ended up saying “I just love him” (I was four and talking abt my best friend) 

Stupidest thing you've seen/heard someone else do/say? Stand off between a friend thinking you made bubbled water by shaking it very hard and a classmate throwing a calculator out of the window

Hyperfixation song? None atm

Is there any meaning behind your profile picture and/or username? username? I dont like tomatoes and i have guinea pigs, those are the gay ones (they are cuddling)

Dream career as a child? I wanted to be a nurse, then a midwife, then an author, I don’t know why

Dream career as an adult? I am a kid but i don’t want a career

Thoughts on cilantro? Don’t know what that is tbh

Have you ever been banned from a location and if so, why? No I am a good kid

What is your cursed food combination? I refuse to eat foods that have been combined

Trans rights? Obviously 

@panthera-tigris-venenata, @shouldwemaybe, @lilicohirukoma, @chronically-unlucky, @rainbowangel110, @bloodied-dagger, @hecateisalesbian​, i cant think of anyone else rn, open tags

“I just came from r/196” ask game

Saw another post. I think I should invite y'all to one of our longstanding traditions. Answer the questions then tag 10 (or more) people. I'll go first.

Name? Call me whatever, just dont call me late to dinner.

Pronouns and gender? he/him Guy

Sexuality? Hetero

Country? USA

Top 5 fandoms? Im into a lot of different things, but i would say im more a casual viewer in general. Some things i used to follow on reddit were gravity falls, AtLA, Pathfinder2e, stranger things, etc.

What is your Most forbidden snack? Probably erasers. Rubber makes good stim.

Would you pet a bug? Depends on the bug, but sure.

Share a weird fact/story about yourself with the class. a weird fact about me would be that i have a slight notch in my left ear. Noone knows where it came from. Mom joked she bit my ear as a child. *shrugs*

What does the color blue taste like? The color blue im thinking of probably has a sweet vanilla taste.

What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? My wife on our wedding day. I cried.

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done? I threw lemons at stop signs when i was a kid?

Probably not the stupidest thing, but the easiest one to think of.

Stupidest thing you've seen/heard someone else do/say? I knew someone who used the phrase "don't take the little things for granite"

Hyperfixation song? Probably Death by Melanie Martinez, but honestly the whole Portals album slaps.

Is there any meaning behind your profile picture and/or username? I just yoinked my pic off the internet cuz i like dnd, but the name is dnd related too. I love necromancers, im mexican, i love churros, i like being silly. So i mooshed it all together.

Dream career as a child? Actor.

Dream career as an adult? Sugar baby. I just want to live comfortably with my family and spend time with them and doing odd hobbies..

Thoughts on cilantro? I could take it or leave it.

Have you ever been banned from a location and if so, why? No, never. Ive definitely banned some places from me though.

What is your cursed food combination? I like cheese on my pb&js? I get weird looks for that one at least.

Trans rights? Fuck yea! Be who you are, beautiful people.

@allurasiren @schermit @dyinggoosenoises @happy-peppermint @aphr0dyke @calicostorms @wolfenchant

Sorry if yall have got hit with this already. :P

[doctorwhoisadhd]

tommy england

HES LITERALLY JUST SOME GUY HE DOESNT DO MUCH. ALL HE GOT WAS JOKE LORE ABOUT BEING A TEABOO WHICH IS FUNNY BUT LIKE HE DIDNT EVEN GET TEAM DYNAMICS.

soemtimes im like damn i need to amke more Thomas England content cause if i dont Literally No One Else Will and then i remember i literally Did Write An Wntire Song About It

[enderspawn]

♫ with dream?

OOOH okay this has a lot of options, especially if you wanna go sympathetic or not. I’m not sure I can choose 1 so here’s a few:

SYMPATHETIC-ISH SONGS:

To My Enemies - Saint Motel

Royalty - Conor Maynard

Blow My Brains Out - Tikkle Me

UNSYMPATHETIC-ISH SONGS:

Welcome To The Circus - Skittish 

Bad Bad Things - AJJ

Discord - The Living Tombstone

[batz]

Honestly?? Tommy would fit so well into spongebob's character arc in the musical

hero is my middle name song and its tommy & benrey trying 2 convince gordon 2 help them save the World!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

[louscartridge]

serenading is like

singing to someone right? like when asking them out at night and u sit in their garden like a creep nd they listen to ur little song from their balcony

i've only seen that shit in tom & jerry when i was younger tho and that mf tom was a simp

also could you please write anything abt tommy eaton im dying fr

when im going on his # on here i imagine an empty wallet that u open and little flies come out of it (or those little dust balls things in movies that roll around in the wind lmaoo i hope u know what im talking abt)

btw im not the person who requested that serenade thing. i havent heard that word in years tho

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN I LOVE YOU SM

— 💌

OHH OK LMAOOOOO.....NOT TOM AND JERRY PLS OMGOMG. OFC OFC IM TRYING TO WATCH THE MOVIE I SWEAR LMAOOO. NO I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN IVE BEEN OK IG IDK CONCETERING THE FACT THAT I HAD AN INTIRE VENT IN A GROP CHAT IM IN ID SAY I FALLING BUT I LOVE YOU SM TOO

[honeycowinnit]

interview with a fic writer ! tagged by @halorocks1214 THANKS BESTIE <33

1. Your favourite fic that you’ve written (or the one you want to give a shout out to)

my favorite fic that I've written is DEFINITELY everyday every hour turn that pain into power, which is my BABY and a vigilante Tommy fic that's i've been working on for Five months now. I've put a lot of thought into plot and character and relationships and am trying my best to get as many dsmp characters in it <3

another one would definitely be Sinks Her Roots bc I adore magical realism and found family and platonic soulmates....its basically just a bunch of self indulgence that a lot of people seem to enjoy ❣❣😞

2. Your favourite fic title that you’ve come up with 

my favorite fic title that I've come up with would have to be labors of love bc it's just a cute bit referenced from the fic that makes me really happy ^-^

the bit in question: The assignment wasn't just an assignment- it was a labor of love. A collaborative effort. Definitive proof that Tommy's friendship was much more than just an obligation to Wilbur. 

3. How do you get inspiration to write?

I get inspiration to write from specific words or phrases or song lyrics that I hear that make me think of whatever my favorite character is atm ! that's why a lot of my titles are song lyrics, because those are the vibes I'm pulling from.

I also get a lot of fic insp from poetry and other people's stories that I read ^-^ I always try to link to the fic that inspired it if I can remember bc I want more ppl to read the original <3

4. Your favourite genre/subgenre of fic to write

like halo said, DEFINITELY hurt/comfort bc it's very comforting and a nice way to vent <3 also I love action comedies which works really well when writing a character like Tommy who is VERY active and very witty!

and of course, magical realism has always been very high up there for me bc I get to stretch my description writing legs :D

5. Do you have other hobbies?

other hobbies include writing poetry, painting, singing, the occasional friendly debate and baking <3

6. A fun fact about you that a lot of people may not know 

ooooo ummm my favorite color was purple for a while but only because a guy in fourth grade wrote down his dream girlfriend and every aspect matched with me except for the favorite color...obviously I grew to like the color on it's own, but now I think I really like the color orange/ yellow. character growth I guess 😭

7. Pick one character to self-project onto 

oh there are a lot, but I can break it down into a certain type. in every fandom I've ever been in, I've found a character (most times it's a guy) who makes a habit of hiding his true feelings behind snark or jokes. they're often misunderstood by the people around them and could be determined to deserve better .... someone somewhere is filling out a psych chart on me I know it ....

8. Favourite genre of music

any variation of pop music, but recently it's been pop-rock like bad bad hats or instrumentals, mainly scores from movies !

9. Your favourite singer/band

bad bad hats, the band camino and Ellie goulding :)

10. How have your experience in fandom been?

it's been alright! a bit of a mixed bag. some fandoms are super chill whereas others are more intense and make me reel back a bit haha. but I've met really cool and fun people in all of them and that's one of my favorite things abt fandom spaces ^-^

tagging: @wednesdayyevening @ferverdream @bellfort3 @noorahqar

[straighttohellbuddy]

now i’m thinking of htlgi!corpse saying that line to tubbo in the game but demon!reader is like “hell says no, not today. he’s too precious. you on the other hand….” and tubbo is just giggling because whilst he loves the joke he secretly enjoys demon!readers protective nature around him when they’re gaming. -🐈‍⬛

The idea that htlgi!reader & corpse have lowkey adopted half of the clingy duo each is delightful because all I can think is considering their online personas

"My son Tubbo is getting tested for the gifted program at his school, and Corpse's son Tommy thinks his toothbrush is haunted."

Tho it could very easily be the other way around too lol.

But also reader tweeting this to Ranboo during his first mcc

I firmly believe the reader does not have an alt twitter account. It's because they're from the era of the internet where it was kind of all or nothing, but also their pinned tweet "no alt accounts you WILL read my 2am rants about cheese and them watch me self promo in the next tweet with no middle ground we die like men" (I love the chaotic stupid htlgi reader)

But back to reader & tubbo, can you IMAGINE how hard they'd hype that kid up after hearing Life By The Sea???? THEY'D BE SO PROUD!!! Absolutely on the STREAM LIFE BY THE SEA train.

Also, we've established that Corpse and Reader teaming up in games is terrifyingly competent or chaotic stupid, but if Reader and Tubbo were ever teamed up they would probably be absolutely unstoppable. Like the reader is v protective of anyone younger than them, especially teenagers because they know what it's like to be online and in the spotlight at that age, but teaming up with Tommy or Ranboo for games isn't the same as it is with tubbo. Reader works well with them and there's good BantzTM but I feel like with tubbo, and yes I'm projecting here, the reader unlocks like, a new level of competency from Sudden Onset Opposite Cain Instinct. The reader doesn't really play enough minecraft to be considered for MCC, but there's a joke that surfaces after a few streams with Reader and Tubbo on the same team for various games, that if the reader was teamed with tubbo for MCC they would somehow win out of spite.

But also I love the idea of the reader being their friends' biggest hypeman. Unashamedly supportive on every platform, incredibly outspoken. YouTubers and traditional celebrities alike.

tweets posted within 24hrs:

Reader tweeting "ITS NOT A TATBILB SOUNDTRACK IF I DONT ABSOLUTELY GO OFF FOR AT LEAST 3 MINUTES WHILE @NoahCent AND @lanacondor MAKE ME BELIEVE IN LOVE 🥰🥰🥰" during his Always And Forever live blog. The chain that follows:

@NoahCent: ITS NOT TATBILB WITHOUT YOU

@YourTwitter: YOU KEEP SAYING NICE THINGS IM GONNA WRITE A SONG ABT U MY DUDE

@NoahCent: 👀 don't tease me like that

@YourTwitter: next time I'm in Miami I'll serenade u

@NoahCent: that better be a promise

AND THEN THE READER TWEETING "@slimesicles first dsmp stream is the only thing that matters actually 🥰💚" at 3am and then immediately replying to themselves "he has bones of dubious origins and I love him"

Then tweeting at 2pm the next day "sometimes I think about the fact that I just got to watch @Corpse_Husband stand in the middle of his kitchen and eat cereal out of a saucepan because neither of us can be bothered to wash dishes and I'm genuinely overwhelmed with love." and then "Its so dumb and sappy but I feel like I've got more of a crush on him now than before we were dating. Hes so cool and talented, do you think he likes me? 😳👉👈" (and three minutes later they post "he read my tweets and muttered 'we are in the timeline god abandoned'. I think he likes me. We're washing the dishes now 😍")

The reader just having so much love in their heart but absolutely refusing to be normal about it. I could bang on forever about the reader not understanding how big they are in the real world and somehow always being shocked when celebrities they haven't directly worked with respond to their tweets ---

@YourTwitter: @TheRock notice me senpai

@TheRock: 👀 You called?

@YourTwitter:

Reader is peak "pure of heart, dumb of ass" when they want to be. They play up some of it, as it's almost always been a part of their persona when they're not actively spiralling. But also they're not Stupid; chaotic is often mistaken for being stupid, but they're smart enough to have gotten where they are.

The reader casually and precisely tearing apart and disproving malicious rumours about their friends on stream without looking away from whatever game they're playing. offhandedly alluding to the fact that they havea scarily detailed understanding of how and why their friends are successful, both from a YouTube and a general entertainment industry standpoint. Hearing their friends in an Among Us lobby talking about old YouTube trends from around 2013, and the reader going quiet as they start talking about a very specific one that everyone else nostalgically remembers watching, and the reader quietly pipes up "I started that one" and the way every else remembers at the same time that theyre Old YouTube Famous, like "I've been on this site longer than Markiplier, only by a month and a half but still" Old YouTube Famous, "I've forgotten more collabs that I've been in than you have had collabs" Old YouTube Famous.

If they could bother having an ego, they'd be insufferable. I love them. Very Choose Joy mentality instead 🥰

[appleflavoredkitkats]

What about other ppl in the smp, like Eret, Niki, Jack? Do they go to Las Nevadas? Are Eret and Fundy still friends?

HEYO THANK YOU FOR ASKING MORE ABT THE AU BC I DEEPLY APPRECIATE IT <33 /g

tw: gambling, drinking, self-neglect, slight eating disorder, mentions of past violence

/dsmp /rp

i'd like to this this au is set in a period after wilbur's resurrection and dream's prison escape where the entire smp is like. well, we're fucked— time to get wasted now!

quackity would originally look down upon eret, puffy, h, and punz because of the entire monarchy fiasco, but after knowing how rich eret was, quackity would let them slide. they don't seem to be a threat of power anyway, so why should he care? i also think eret might've helped supplied las nevadas too, maybe just simple materials here and there thanks to fundy's requests.

fundy has talked to eret multiple times whenever he visits. eret is good at stopping themselves from getting too addicted to alcohol or gambling, so they would be sober or healthy enough for fundy to have conversations with. eret has even probably had sleepovers with fundy because eret is still genuinely concerned about his wellbeing, you know? because to eret, it feels odd that fundy doesn't seem as lively as he used to be, even if he is still quite enthusiastic when he works, it still isn't the same.

eret often asks fundy about family. i think that's the main thing they always talk about— family, and found family. eret has found a family with the knights he's hired and giving shelter to all of the ex-members of the eggpire. eret's main concern is fundy, and if he could ever forgive them for missing the adoption. and fundy doesn't really know actually, because he is still quite hurt about it, but he's definitely moved on. he still values eret as a good friend, and eret reciprocates, and i guess that's what matters to him.

but in terms of family, fundy doesn't really know if he wants to label anything as family due to his trust issues. he often vents to eret about these problems, especially in the earlier stages of las nevadas. he's scared that if he ever labels something as family, they'd just leave him anyway, so he prefers not having a family. but eret still insists its important for fundy to have some type of support system, but this is where fundy tends to change the topic, and eret can't do anything but hopelessly nod along.

but there's a time that definitely changed! there's a time eret did hangout with fundy, do a simple sleepover like old times, and they woke up once to quackity and schlatt entering fundy's room with a tray of food. eret asked them what the food was for, especially since this didn't happen last time eret was here, but quackity replies that he kind of got used to it out of habit, especially since fundy doesn't really notice that he skips meals every now and then.

and eret is kind of surprised they care?? in a good way of course, because they're all. oh, fundy HAS found a better family to care for him. quackity and schlatt bids eret a good day before leaving, and eret approaches the tray of food quietly. there's a note placed atop. on the note, there's a to-do list for fundy with simple things like “remember to eat” or “remember to take breaks” or “lessen your cigarette intake”, and on the back, there seems to be a long note left by quackity. eret didn't want to invade fundy's privacy too much, but they did remember glancing at a small note that said “you are loved. take care of yourself, and never forget that” written somewhere on the paper.

NOW FOR NIKI! niki does visit, she visits a LOT, and she loves the upbeat vibes of las nevadas, anything with popping colors and enthusiastic moods are such a turn on for her, and she just loves to stay there for multiple days on end. the syndicate would be often concerned about her wellbeing, but niki ensures she doesn't really get too drunk or gamble too much.

(the drinking statement is debatable because, surprisingly, niki has a high tolerance for alcohol, so she drinks a LOT. where was this when she was having her villain arc?)

she's honestly just happy to be there, and she just likes to dance and groove! there's a thrill in las nevadas she never really experienced much in her life, and she's happy she can basically vibe here without worrying about betrayal or death every five seconds.

on the dance floor, she has danced with a couple of people. the first one she does dance with accidentally is schlatt, who seems to be Very Awkward when it comes to dancing. he honestly wasn't even supposed to be there— niki thinks he might've lost a bet or something? but niki still tried to make do with what she was given.

the most interesting conversations niki has had in her life has got to be the ones she has on the dance floor. when it came to schlatt, he was mumbling a lot, very awkward and tense knowing the state of their relationship during the manberg era, but niki puts that aside. because there's no point on lingering on the past for too long— she's talked to puffy and the syndicate about this far too many times— so she grabs schlatt and twirls him around like nothing has happened. he never really got to apologize, but he did give niki a fun dance, and you know what? it was fun! so that's all that matters.

quackity was the second one she's danced with, and quackity is the opposite of schlatt. he was charming, enthusiastic, extremely extroverted, and niki definitely enjoyed it! but to niki, she knows quackity isn't always this upbeat, or this loud and obnoxiously in your face, so when a slower song plays, she asks quackity if he can just shuffle alongside her slowly and follow her mellow footsteps. he calms, and she calms, and the conversations had dwindled into something more familiar. after a certain while, quackity admits that he's missed this, he's missed being vulnerable, he's missed being genuine, he's missed being soft and laidback, so niki tells him thst he's allowed to be that way for the rest of the dance.

and last person she's danced with was fundy. and fundy, she's definitely talked with before the dance, but she also calls in eret to join them. they boogie to an upbeat rhythm, dancing as if this feeling of euphoria and happiness was something they've experienced all their lives. niki knows that, often, whenever they meet up, there's always something that reminds them of their past faults, so they never got to be the way they were before the wars. so now, niki tries her best to make it different. that fun they had when they pranked tommy in the past, or find foxes together, or build weird statues— she will try her best reincarnate those feelings of pure happiness through stupid dance moves and stupid jokes because she misses it, and she will try her best to fix the friendship so that it'll be same, perfect thing it once was.

jack is pretty complicated, because i don't know much about jack, but i'd say he is one of quackity's... less responsible business partners. knowing jack, fundy and schlatt try their best to not get quackity to jump on his ass because quackity often gets mad at the ridiculous deals and offers jack gives.

i'd say that jack is just... having a pretty rough time. fundy and schlatt denote that he's kind of lonely, and his demeanor is very similar to quackity's wherein he uses irritation and/charm to mask the hurt they experience. and quackity... does soften up to that. he knows what it's like to feel alone and be left alone by people out of nowhere, so quackity decides to give jack another kind of offer: jack transfers ownership of their hotel back to tommy, and quackity will give jack a job offer to work at las nevadas' hotel. in that way, quackity doesn't need to make multiple exchanges with jack's business; he just needs jack to work for him lmao

so yeah, it's kind of a lax job. the hotel isn't the most booked all the time, but jack does enjoy managing the front desk since quackity actually allows him to get mad at shitty customers lmao. jack doesn't stay there 24/7 of course—if he wants to leave, he can just depend on fundy's redstone to do the work—but he does like working there because nobody looks down upon him. he feels like he has something he can do that he can do well, and nobody is looking at him as if he was inferior. sure, quackity and him are still not on the best terms, but jack doesn't feel like he's being belittled at all.

i'd say jack and sam kind of are friends too? because while schlatt, quackity, and fundy have their own thing, sam and jack manage las nevadas more on the sidelines, but they relate at the fact that they just casually do their own thing in las nevadas. it doesn't feel too awful or violent or belittling— it just feels normal.

sometimes, jack would visit the bar right after it closes to just. drink and talk to sam about... well, anything, really. these talks would typically last through the day, and they're kinda just glad they have found someone to talk to about, well, anything. it's hard to find a feeling of normalcy in the dream smp, let alone a feeling of peace and serenity, so even if they find this chill ambiance in a bar or a casino, they both still revel in the feeling of peace. they're happy with it, so they'll do whatever they can to maintain it.