#the dsaf one is good too but it's just not the same

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the struggle of being a phone guy fan but not knowing anything about dsaf or dialtown

[dsaf-confessions]

I've been in the dsaf fandom for a year or two by now lol. but like I've only been lurking and...some fans take dsaf TOO seriously. Like, no hate. none at all. but,, I wish people acknowledged more often that Dayshift at freddy's at it's core, is silly. like, all three games are full of jokes (some less than others) and that's the original premise. Yeah, there's the serious lore bits and all.. but what about the SILLY bits? Can we have the silly bits appreciated? Jack can piss for 15 minutes straight, Dave ate an entire ashtray of lit cigarette butts and lost his sense of taste after, ALL the phone guys were programmed to say "darn" and "heckin'!" as a substitute for swearing, and Dee is a tickler (not ticklish, a TICKLER she tickled Dave til his springlocks went off in the premature ending, and she can tickle Jack when in the suit to set it off if you don't wind the box). Henry is the reason why they have cameras in the fazbender's bathrooms.

I love seeing the serious bits too, but I wish people spent as much time with the silly bits as the serious ones. Even when it comes to making your own silly bits!!! Like, yess!!!! Go write that Undertale!DSAF AU. Go write about Dave and Jack as kitchen appliances. Go write about what you headcannon Dee's favorite songs and movies are. Go write about Jack having magical princess half wolf demon powers. EVEN WITH THE PAINTINGS!!! I saw a drawing of Dave and Jack in sailor moon get up and they killed it. absolutely. I know the dsaf artists out here are killing it with their art, it's all amazing and I have lovingly gazed at all of them before. and yes!!!!! Go RP as Peter Kennedy having a deep carnal desire for bird watching, go RP as Harry Fitzergald enjoying himself at an aquarium, go RP as Dave Miller spending hours trying to figure out how air fryers work so he can give it a shot at building one at home.

Please do anything your heart desires!!!!! You can look out the car window with your headphones in and listen to music while imagining sad sfms of the characters and keep it to yourself. But if you wish to share, just now that there's people out there that have been wishing someone would create what they've been imagining too!!! Make your funky spotify character playlists!! Even your youtube music ones!! Because there will be someone out there who thinks the same as you and enjoys them the same as you !!

I live for the serious ones too. Please, go write that heartfelt fic about Dave yearning for his soulless friend's presence in the afterlife. Please, go write about Jack despairing that he doesn't just stop existing after death, and is stuck in a void. Please, go write about Dee speaking to the gang in afterlife about how she wishes she had a longer childhood, and how she is sad that the very few things that made her childhood a childhood is gone and that she can never truly have it back( jack, and all the friends and lovely gifts and animals and all the joy). Please, go write about DaveTrap surviving the fire in the good ending and being miserable because no matter how much he was angry and hateful, he missed Jack, he missed having a quarrel with him, he missed asking just one more time, if Jack wanted to kill kiddins' with him, and then him having to visit Jack's grave and despairing that Jack had never lied when he told him his name. And then DaveTrap sees the other graves, all the other ones, of the kids that died at fazbender's because of fazbender's. And he also sees a grave bearing his own name. His real name. And it was right next to four other graves, of people who's names rang bells in his ears, of people with a last name he recognized, of people he remembered betting on whether or not they'll die with Henry.

AHHH I think this might be too long. i just love ranting about my ideas because as much as i have a love for writing, i can never execute the ideas. they are cursed to forever be just an idea i can share to my friends who don't like dsaf but like hearing my rambles.

So, whoever is reading this, please go enjoy the games as much as you wish!! enjoy the silly AND the serious side !!!!!

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[wario-speedwagon]

The Blackjack Essay I thought up at like 3am because Blackjack is a great character if you really think about it hard enough

I had some Blackjack Thoughts yesterday night (cuz I woke up in the middle of the night and I always soothe myself back to sleep by brainrotting over characters or made up scenarios). Cuz yknow, okay:

So Blackjack is the soul, and he's a soul that was blackened by regret yeah? And not just that, but he takes the form of a his childhood dog rather than of himself (which is interesting, more on that later). I think we can agree that, while we never get to know in meaningful detail what the living Jack Kennedy was TRULY like, soulless Corpse!Jack is probably closer to his original living self in personality than the Blackjack we saw at the end of DSAF 3 True Ending, or rather, in most of what we see of Blackjack's coded/capitalized lines (more on that later too). Corpse!Jack is more chill (in a feral way of course) in that he moves on from things like grudges or regrets, which in the good routes manifests in him being able to keep going despite how emotionally hard it should be to e.g. leave his family once and for all, or to forgive his sister's murderer in favor of seeing the good in him. It's not a perfectly moral aspect, as there are things he probably should be hung up on (cough cough Dave), and Blackjack sure is. (We love some moral greyness in this household.) And then of course, in the evil route, it manifests in Corpse!Jack having a very easy time befriending and emulating his siblings' murderers and even killing his siblings himself. Obviously Blackjack could never conceive of acting in any of these ways, and he definitely lets evil Jack know.

So. I am of the headcanon that, all the trauma of Jack's death and the events leading up to it, all of his regrets from it, Blackjack took it all with him, leaving Corpse!Jack with little to none of it left. For better or for worse, Corpse!Jack does not carry the same emotional baggage from his personal tragedy that Blackjack is completely lost in. And then my point about Blackjack taking on the form of a dog instead of himself... and him not really acting like his old self compared to at least TrueRoute!Jack. At least most of the time, as we'll see soon. Because in the True Routes, Dee and eventually Peter are able to recognize True!Jack as their old brother pretty easily even despite the circumstances, but Blackjack? He's unrecognizable to all of them except eventually Corpse!Jack himself. According to her, Blackjack warned Dee about Evil!Jack's true nature in DSAF 2 (when you're doing a route with her as Legacy!Jack), and she didn't realize who he was, she only saw a Shadow Doggo; and of course at the end of DSAF 3, even after revealing who Blackjack is, Peter and Dee sure don't treat Blackjack like their dear old brother the way they regard Corpse!Jack. He's just a stranger to them now, and of course he is, because he's little like how he used to be in life, how Corpse!Jack still is in life. And after a faux eternity of being a Shadow Doggo operating behind the scenes with every opportunity to reveal himself, I'm of the opinion that he wants it to be this way, that he be forgotten in his failures while someone else takes his old role for him and does it well.

And it's because he is so steeped in his hatred born from his regret, that it completely warped his way of thinking to focus on revenge against Henry, or also his hyperfocus on Evil!Jack's wrongdoings. But while that's what most people see him for in his entirety (in both canon and fandom), as it's the front he nearly always puts on, people often forget one really important scene from him that may be the only glimpse of his more authentic self, one that isn't steeped in regret or any emotions stemming from it based on it. Do you remember the little speech Blackjack gives to Corpse!Jack after the True ending in DSAF 2 after the Happiest Day? He talks about him being "proud of us" (hinting at his and Corpse!Jack's link), but then ponders the possibility of redemption and decides, if it is possible, then he is glad that Corpse!Jack has been redeemed. So still excluding himself from that redemption despite just prior finding solace in what Corpse!Jack has done on both their behalf. It's like he sees Corpse!Jack more as himself than, yknow, himself (and you can imagine that this same truth probably also leads to why he despises Evil!Jack so much). And all of this must be very good for his self-esteem /s

Very notably, this one scene is the only dialogue of his that is not Caps locked or coded, and a recurring theme among souls is that caps locked dialogue is always steeped in more powerful (often but not exclusively negative) emotions, while regular lowercase text seems to show much more human authenticity. We see it in Jacob before vs. after he calms down and comes to terms with his death, we see it in Dee always being lowercase, as she seems to always be her honest self, we even see it in Fredbear, as he is always grandly talking in all caps as the powerful entity he is except in his promise with Jack's corpse where he is entirely lowercase and talks much more sincerely like a real person to him out of honest humility. So anyway, this one scene with Blackjack in my opinion is the only scene we really get to see Jack's real personality shine through in him, a personality we see much more readily in Corpse!Jack.

And now to finally return to my point about Blackjack taking on the form of a dog instead of as himself. So lets combine all these previous points: 1) He is blackened by Regret; 2) He is in a nearly constant state of negative/powerful emotions stemming from his regret as indicated by all his his caps/code text; 3) he is still capable, if rarely, of showing his more human personality; 4) Dee and Peter seem to much more readily recognize Corpse!Jack as their brother than Blackjack; 5) Blackjack is proud of True!Jack's good actions in DSAF 2 and implies that only he (but not himself) is deserving of redemption; (and heck, let's also throw in) 6) the fact that he chooses not to hide in an unrecognizable form and seems to estrange himself from his siblings to let Corpse!Jack fulfill his role as Jack for them in his place

What I'm getting at (finally) is that I think Trauma Fucked Him Up™; I think it completely fucked up his self-esteem replacing it with deep-rooted self-hatred and shame. It might be that he simply cannot bear to resemble himself, not after all he's done (leaving his sister's party to bury their dog and drink away his sorrows, which left her to die, lowkey (highkey?) betraying both of his siblings' trust, and then failing in his attempt to right his mistakes by dying instead and making things worse, at least from Blackjack's POV who didn't have any sort of promise to turn his death into a chance at redemption).

Except, he can hopefully make his death into some sort of chance for redemption thanks to his powers born from sheer regret-fuelled hatred by trapping and seemingly torturing Henry. At least, this is how he chooses to cope with all of his feelings in a way that feels productive. But of course, they don't solve the root of his regret, or the root of his low self-worth, as he is really just indulging in and marinating in his negative emotions for a theoretical eternity. And during all this, he is also watching over Corpse!Jack in all of his parallel timelines, seeing both the best and worst versions of himself (literally). He sees his neutral/evil route selves indulging in the worst vices imaginable without care, and he must see himself in them anyway, because Corpse!Jack did inherit his vices after all, naturally including his drinking problem for a start, except now he's actually acting on them much more freely without a soul to restrain him either. He is forced to see the worst of himself played out in reality, and he's the one who feels shame for them. (Now Corpse!Jack also experiences things like self-hate and regret for his actions, but again, he seems to move on from these feelings fairly easily, coping with them instead with a "no fucks left to give" attitude, the kind of attitude someone who knows he doesn't have a future would have. A soul does not have that luxury.)

Meanwhile, though, Blackjack is also forced to see the best of himself in True!Jack; the Jack that actually worked his ass off to right his, or rather their mistakes. And also the Jack to actually be present in their siblings' lives as their brother Jack, the one that actually acts like their brother Jack, like his old self, while Blackjack seems to have either forgotten how or lost interest in doing so. It's easy to forget because DSAF is fiction, but experiencing something like what Jack has experienced is gonna leave severe trauma, and severe trauma is gonna change you pretty fundamentally whether you like it or not. Except being soulless, based on his actions and reactions, Corpse!Jack seems to have escaped much of this trauma while Blackjack is practically characterized by it. I wouldn't say Corpse!Jack is entirely unaffected by any trauma by any means (even Evil!Jack loses his shit when seeing Dee's scarf), but again, he sure seems to move on from it by shoving his negative feelings aside for later or even outright ignoring them, while Blackjack copes by feeling them and acting on them all the time. They both cope with the same issues in completely opposite unhealthy extremes.

So while Corpse!Jack is seemingly not affected enough by what happened, Blackjack is unrecognizable to himself, to anyone who could recognize him (including even Corpse!Jack himself, as Corpse!Jack doesn't realize who Blackjack is till the very end), so Blackjack takes more comfort taking on a form that isn't himself. (Instead, he takes on the form of the only family he got to send off with closure, the only family member whose death doesn't inspire some sort of Regret, hm?) He even doesn't take on his own name, preferring Blackjack over just Jack. Despite holding some contempt toward him, he still allows Corpse!Jack to keep their original name.

And he clearly does have mixed feelings toward Corpse!Jack, even toward True!Jack, as he is "proud" of him at the end of True DSAF 2, but then also spiteful toward him in True DSAF 3, and honestly that's pretty understandable, as True!Jack has done the work and reaped the rewards for redeeming himself and getting to be family with Dee and Peter again, essentially living as Jack for him, but Blackjack, despite his uninvolvement in reality or the Flipside where his family are, he is the one who faces the trauma and emotional burden of what happened to him, and it's not like Blackjack hasn't done anything either (even if what he did was misguided and ultimately harmful). It would be hard not to hold some contempt for a version of you that can move on so easily from your worst regrets and who can get to live your life where you left off for you in your name. And he's happy, and he deserves to be happy, and you aren't, and you don't deserve to be. You don't even deserve to be yourself, you've decided without realizing, because he's doing it much better than you ever could anymore anyway. He's the one who can actually save them all, he's the one who's worthy of redemption, but you? You're the only one who can make Henry face what he deserves, and by god you're gonna do it even if it costs your entire self, it's not like it's worth much anymore.

All of this is to say, yeah, Blackjack's character is perhaps a little disappointing in DSAF 3 due to lack of time to explore it after the reveal, but combined with his character in DSAF 2, he is a much more interesting and 3-dimensional character to explore than people realize. And also I think I might have ADHD. Might.

[directdogman]

Just wanna say that I'm a HUGE fan of Dialtown and DSaF. I absolutely LOVE the storytelling and the balance you have with the plot! The absurdity mixed with logic and realism that paints something that could very well happen is absolutely stunning! I truly admire you and your teams' (assuming it isn't just you but I'm not sure) skills.

I do have a question though! At some point I saw an ask that you answered regarding writing dialogue and the differentiation of writing characteristics in different characters! I have to ask, what does the process look like for dialogue writing? How the hell do you stay in the mindset of the character? It's something that I struggle with way too much in my own writing (with way too many Google searches on synonyms for different words) so I'm wondering what your process is. Especially when it comes to a character lole Oliver, who has a theatrical way of speaking. It feels like there's too little words in the English language but you have this guy that's using all of them in one sentence!

Anyways, hope you're having an awesome day. If not, I hope things improve! I hope this wasn't too lengthy of an ask, haha.

Hey, don't think I'm necessarily a master at this! Hell, you should see how much I have to google word synonyms! Seriously, every time I sit down to write, I do the very same! Even if you become familiar with every word in the English language, you can never really store them all in your head at once! There's people out there who kinda can, but that's the thing, you don't HAVE to be insanely skilled in that way to write compelling character dialogue because I sure as hell am not!

DW, you're on the right track! It gets easier, the more you do it, but there's no real secret to writing really good dialogue (at least, that I know of) other than just writing a lot and when possible, studying writing that you really like and trying to deconstruct what others do (and it sounds like you're already on the right track, in the regard!)

One thing that helps me is being able to think like the character. Understanding how they think, how they feel about the world, what makes them tick, etc. It's easy for me since I write characters that I tend to share some common experiences with (or characters that share traits with people I know intimately), but even I don't delve as deeply into character-psychology while I write as I could. But. I feel I know enough about my characters to understand their 'vibe' pretty well! TBH, sometimes I have to go and replay existing DT scenes just to ensure it all 'sounds' correct. If you get good at this, you can pretty much hear your characters speaking in your head! That makes what you're asking about a hell of a lot easier.

I'm really more of a student than a teacher in the grand scheme of things (I have a lot to learn, myself!) and honestly, just having an interest in writing and wanting to deconstruct the stuff that inspires you is a big plus in becoming a really good writer! As cliché as it sounds, I really am just one dude standing on the shoulders of giants. Never forget that writers who inspire you are in the exact same spot you are. Hope this helps!

[l-dave-miller-l]

My DSAF Headcanons!

woof, I forgot to post these-!

also, these are all of the characters (from DSAF) that could pop up in my replies.

Jack

Jack is transmasc, gay, and polyamorous. He used he/them/it pronouns.

I interpret and portray Jack as neutral, leaning towards Legacy.

He does not reciprocate Dave’s affections. It’s more like stalking than a healthy, loving relationship.

He is a pussy haver if anyone wanted to know that. (Looking at my friend group-)

Jack is dramatically underweight and very skeletal in appearance. If the orange makeup is washed off, he has rotting green skin underneath.

He’s 5'10.

Dave

Dave identifies as a genderfawn pansexual. He uses he/them pronouns.

Dave is a very silly person most of the time, but he can be cunning and dangerous at times. Really harassing him is the only way to get this sort of behavior out of him. Personality-wise, I would compare him to a mix of canon Dave and book William.

He’s really only on good terms with Jack. The Phone Guys, Matt, Dee, and Henry are all tired of his antics.

Dave is physically a male, not quite a human, but humanoid enough to have sex with Jack.

Like Jack, Dave is underweight. The only reason he isn’t a human is because he’s a cryptid.

He has an unhealthy obsession with harassing the phone guys.

He’s 6'0.

Steven

Steven is a transmasculine gay polyamorous man. He uses the pronouns he/it.

He's going out with Matt.

Steven used to be a war medic, serving in Vietnam for a bit.

Like all the other phone guys, he has a wire tail that can plug into any standard U.S. wall outlet.

He survives after the events of the first DSAF game, now living in Jack’s basement.

Foxy is still his favorite animatronic.

Steven’s about 7 feet tall, the phone adds a foot in height to him.

Peter

Peter is a cisgender bi-curious man. He uses he/him pronouns.

He’s really just a tired older brother dealing with Jack and Dave’s bullshittery.

Peter was the second sibling to die.

He’s aware of Dee being the Puppet, and hates Dave for killing his sister.

He lives with Jack, technically owning the house but not being the one to pay the bills.

Peter owns a shotgun and is a shitty aim with it.

Peter’s also 7 feet tall.

Matt

Matt is an agender gay guy. They use they/he pronouns.

They are a banshee-human hybrid, being a Latino too.

They are physically incapable of not smiling.

Unlike the majority of the Fazbender employees, Matt is actually a living being. Well, half-living.

Matt lives in whatever Fazbender location he’s currently in.

He has had sex with some of the plushies. They bought the plushies afterwards though.

Matt is 5'7.

Dee

Dee is a cisgender aroace girl. She uses she/her pronouns.

Mentally, Dee hasn’t aged all that much, so Jack and Peter still need to parent her.

She’s about as powerful as FNAF’s puppet.

Because the Puppet itself is a male, she gets called a boy way too often. She’s very eager to correct you if you mess that up.

Dee’s box is in the corner of Jack’s bedroom. She can’t sleep without him nearby.

Dee has witnessed Matt yiffing plushies. She locks her music box at night because of it.

Dee is about 8 feet tall, but was 4'11 at death.

Henry

Henry is a cisgender bisexual man. He uses he/void/it pronouns.

Void doesn’t exactly have a soul anymore. If it did, his soul would be a lot like Mr. Shade’s - too impure to redeem.

The void that covers its body is like an infection. It has been sealed away in the Flipside to prevent the infection from spreading.

Void has an impressively large vocabulary, being very annoying about it, too. It’ll correct you on your grammar, suggest different words you could use, etc. Almost like Grammarly as a person.

Henry served in the Second World War, and this desensitized it to death and bloodshed.

Void is morbidly obese.

Henry is 5'9.

Harry

Harry is a cisgender gay man. He uses he/him pronouns.

Harry’s about the same age as Steven.

He has chased people with brooms and will do it again.

He definitely started the group chat between all of the phone guys. He’s the mom friend.

Harry served in Vietnam, so he bonded with Steven over that and being some of the first phones to be made.

He lives with Jake and Walt down the street from Jack and the others.

Harry’s 6'11.

Jake

Jake is a straight demiboy. He uses he/they pronouns.

He’s the butt of every joke about purple guys, without question.

Jake knows how to twerk and will sucker punch you if you call him 'Jack' on purpose.

He’s an alcoholic still, but he’s trying to quit for his son’s sake.

Every April Fools, Jake is the main reason everyone’s on edge. He’s a major prankster.

Jake lives with Harry and Walt down the street from Jack and the others.

Jake is 7 feet tall.

Roger

Roger is a cisgender gay man. He uses he/them/it pronouns.

He’s married to @owlthehybrid and a father.

Roger met Owl when he was crying under a party table.

He’s terrified of Jack, to the point where he’ll completely shut down and obey his boss blindly.

Roger has a generalized anxiety disorder.

He lives with Owl and their daughter Iris.

Roger is 6'8. The shortest of the phones.

Walt

Honestly, I got nothing on this guy. He’s just here for the vibes.

[nannyan]

I want more of Dave and Legacy Jack.

Hear me out

Their dynamic would basically be Henry and Dave's (obviously the psychological abuse part not really the experiments one) but honestly kinda worse in some ways.

I imagine deep down in his subconsciousness Dave knows that at least some of the stuff that Henry did to him were wrong and/or undeserved. But he doesn't allow himself to think about that or in that way. 'Cause he still idolizes Henry so much because (in Dave's eyes) Henry did so much good for him.

And Legacy Jack acts quite similar to Henry in the way he talks to and puts down Dave in the moments we see him in that state. A.k.a (from what I remember) at the end of "An Ending" (the evil ending) in DSaF 2, several times in DSaF 3 and of course the Evil ending. I've seen people interpreting Legacy Jack as basically being possessed by Henry. But I don't really see it that way. More so Henry influencing Jack and this influence getting stronger and stronger as time goes on.

And we see Dave/Davetrap acknowledge the change in Jack a few times. But that doesn't really deter him. Because that's his Old Sport! He is so obsessed and in love with him that by the time of DSaF 2's end Dave would go and do whatever with Jack no matter how he gets treated. I mean we literally see this in the Evil route in DSaF 3. I very much believe that this route is a continuation from "An Ending" in DSaF 2.

Dave starts seeing more and more of Henry's behavior in Jack. That starts "opening old scars" and making him think more and more about all those past times. Something bugs him about that though. He feels like he's reliving bad memories. Things he doesn't want to remember. Although they're all of Henry and shouldn't those be good?

And he doesn't really feel okay about the way Jack treats him. But he can't leave him. He can't go trough the same pain he experienced when Henry was taken from him. He's not strong enough to do that. Not again. So of course he'll stay by his Sportsy's side. No matter what Jack does to him.

(Okay I'll stop this got very fanfiction-y haha)

I read two fics of their dynamic a bit ago and omg now I need more.

More of Dave's one sided crush and obsession and Legacy Jack's definite hate (probably some sort of psychological and verbal abuse idk) of Dave.

(Don't take any of this in a weird way please.. I swear I am normal and I also adore fluffy and cute Davesport too. But what can I say I just need to see my favorite characters suffer 😌)

[germaaaaaaaaaa]

I like your headcanons and want to know if you have any headcanons for charlie the cursed phone guy

(They may or may not become canon [totally not Charlie's mod])

also! I'm wondering genuinely in the sense on how you think dsaf Abel would interact with Dialtown Abel

and speaking of Dialtown Abel do you think he and bunny are bitter Ex's?

GOD I HAVE SO MUCHHH TO SAY ( also hello totally not charlie's mod its good to see you hehe )

Charlie is DEF an It/He to me, it like to see himself as an critters to others as much as he like others to see it as an human yk what i mean? But i also think that he dont rlly care what you see him as, in the litteral way but also in an pronouns way. "I dont Care what you refer me to I AM STILL eating your shoes!!!!"

I think if you offer it an pin it would either eat it or just take care of it preciously in his own way! Thats all i have to say at the moment for him ! May coming back to more hcs but for now, yeah!

AS ABEL, I think they wouldnt like eachother AT ALL LMFAO, even though they r the same person they dont have exactly the same things going on, same personality ect... that i find REALLY funny.

Though, Abel is the same pathetic man in both universe, AND IM PRETTY SURE DD himself talked about this, similar question, in one of his ask box, i dont have the thing on me atm but i remember that he did talked about this once. If anyone have IT or wanna share it that'll be pretty awesome.

I gotta Say, i fucking love abelbunny, they def giving exs vibes, but like in a they got into divorce 4th times in a row way. They giving toxic old men yaoi, but not in the too toxic way. Just divorced old couple way, and the Roger dlc do gave us this exact same vibe and i love it a lot

[therewillbenoromance]

ETHAN'S ECCENTRIC ELECTRONIC EMPORIUM: AN INTRODUCTION

hello!! you can call me ethan and apollo. mutuals can call me mind. but honestly idc much. call me a slur [i've been called worse /ref]

i use he/it but in the sense of only using one of them in a sentence. like don't mix and match them in a single sentence if that makes sense trans man + aroacespec

mind fictionkin

i am a minor!

feel free to use any of my art as a pfp, just make sure to credit me [and don't steal or repost it!! that's a loser move!!] my time zone is EST/EDT, so be aware that if you expect a quick response for anything sent at like 4am, i can assure you that is not what you will get

here's my strawpage!!

anyways. onto the other things people put in these. possible eyestrain warning at the bottom for userboxes, i guess

INTERESTS

in order of what comes to mind [ha], my main interests that have me in a chokehold are chonny jash [duh], will wood, ut/dr, homestuck, rain world, the stanley parable, the glass scientists, and mlp

some other things i enjoy are lemon demon, cult of the lamb, miraculous [don't @ me i know it's shit /j], sonic the hedgehog, tmnt, jekyll and hyde, sanders sides, cattails, dsaf, dialtown, regretevator, hamilton, and probably a lot more. essentially, if i reblog something related to it, you can assume i have at least some interest in it

MISC INFO

i'm diagnosed with adhd and am self-diagnosed with autism and apd [audio processing disorder], though there could be more neurodivergencies hidden somewhere in there

my favorite characters ever are mind [cccc] [obviously], dirk strider [homestuck], berdly [deltarune], gregoriah [regretevator], and donnie [rottmnt]

i will call anything and everything a reference to something [reference? like vampire reference in a minor? will wood???!!!]

my most used emoji's are 🗣, 💥, and 👍. i think this is important to mention

i tend to have a hard time remembering pronouns if you use multiple sets and/or neos, so if i use the wrong ones or use one set too often then don't hesitate to tell me!

i am a leo [august 19] and my mbti is intp-t. do with this what you will

i can take a bit to respond to messages or really anything direct and/or private, so if i end up taking a while to respond to anything, i don't hate you! i tend to forget to respond, be busy, or just end up too nervous to say something regardless of how good of friends we are. same applies to asks

speaking of communication, i tend to elaborate on what i mean often, and use tone tags even when probably unnecessary and sometimes repetitively. /srs

please don't bring up sex or anything really nsfw. jokes are fine but even then don't do it too much because it weirds me out

i swear a lot. i've been trying to not do it as often recently but. yeah

TAGS

#ethan's yapping again - General Talking™ tag

#ethan's romanceless art - art tag

#ethan's asks!! - ask tag #ethan's saved sillies :3 - save tag

#ethan's on the dumb pony game again :3 - abandoned ponytown tag that i haven't gotten rid of yet

#friendship truly is magic <3 - interactions with @irusanw4

#zilly friend :3 - interactions with @c0smicallyk1ssed

#rizzful friend - interactions with @adhdrizzy #harmonic friend - interactions with @concordiawhole

now to the userboxes with no organization whatsoever [again, possible eyestrain warning]

[sincerelyang3l]

Rating My Obsessions/Hyperfixiations:

(Going to try going oldest to newest but it might not go so well bc #traumablocking)

2019/2020 (can’t remember):

My Hero Academia: 1/10 (it gets one point for being my first ever hyperfixiation, but I was a foul human being during this time of my life)

The Chronicles of Vladimir Todd/Vampires: 7/10 (I’m sure if I went back and read these books now, they would be subpar and honestly childish, but at the time, I loved them with every fiber of my being, and the memories associated are good so..)

Death Note: 1/10 (Ew I’m foul. I’m a foul creature. I deserve to be put down.)

Dr. Stone: 4/10 (I honestly remember jack about this show but it gets a 4 for being anime.)

Undertale: 5/10 (This game made me happy for awhile, but it was introduced to me by an ex best friend, so it’s getting a solid 5.)

Detroit Become Human: 6/10 (Minus points because of the time of my life this was during, but this game is an absolute masterpiece <3)

Hellsing: 5/10 (The obsession was unhealthy, but this one was pretty great too. Now, it’s sort of a sore spot, but at the time I was living the dream.)

BATIM: 9/10 (This hyperfixiation is honestly older that what I’m giving it credit for, but it’s going here because I don’t have a category for before 2019. Anyway it’s pretty great. It came back in summer of 2023 when I finally watched Dark Revival, which I liked better than the original <3)

FNaF: 8/10 (High score because this is one of the only hyperfixiations that has lasted so many years and can still bring me joy. It’s also older than I’m giving it credit for. Now, Was I cringe about it at some point? Definitely. Do I care? No.)

DSAF: 10/10 (I might be jumping the gun by giving this one my first 10, but I absolutely love this game. It’s only ever brought me joy, to this day I still love it, I based so many of my usernames and characters on it..and just ugh, I love it Fr.)

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure: 7/10 (Admittedly, I haven’t stayed that up to date on it, but I love this anime. It doesn’t have that many bad memories and it’s just, great.)

Dialtown: 8/10 (In the same boat as DSAF but it didn’t bring me AS much joy. I still love it though and honestly I need to finish it.)

Hamilton: 5/10 (At the time, again, I loved it, but now it’s honestly one of my least favorite musicals.)

Borderlands: 7/10 (oh god to experience this game again for the first time would truly be a beautiful experience. Although I was cringe with it for awhile and this wasn’t exactly the happiest time of my life when I enjoyed this..so..)

LA Noire: 8/10 (I honestly loved this game, it was a big turning point in me and my brother’s relationship, and I remember staying up late on countless nights playing or watching him play it.)

Curses Cosplay/The Acklam Ashes: 9/10 (This creator doesn’t make content like this anymore, no hate at all they have their reasons and I still love them, but this YouTube show was a pivotal point of my life and I love it so.)

2021:

Creepypasta: 2/10 (Low score just for the sake of the fandom, and the fact of who I was associated with during this period of time.)

Marble Hornets: 6/10 (Was I cringe? Yes. Absolutely. But this show is so amazing I’m willing to put that aside. I’m also rating this separately from creepypasta for obvious reasons.)

WitchCraft: 5/10 (I had a whole witchy thing for awhile? It was mostly just tarot cards and shirts with the phases of the moon on them.)

DND/Divinity Original Sin: 10/10 (I have zero bad memories with either of these. My love for fantasy and DnD was awakened by playing Divinity Original Sin 2 with my older brother, and then that stemmed into more love for fantasy and the genre in general.)

SCP: 8/10 (This hyperfixiation is somewhat still alive? Not really, but I do still enjoy some occasional SCP content. It’s not a higher score because this was 8th grade year and that’s embarrassing.)

The Glass Animals: 9/10 (Less of a hyperfixiation, more of just, man they made some banger music.)

Elvis: 6/10 (Literally what was wrong with me. For awhile I only listened to music from this era, especially Elvis, and forced my family to buy me a bunch of Elvis merch I didn’t need.)

Noir: 6/10 (Okay so, this stemmed from the above mentioned LA Noire earlier and basically was a time period of my life where I was obsessed with watching old detective/murder mystery movies from the 20s. Honestly, they were bangers. But also, wtf was I doing.)

Tv Heads?: 5/10 (I had a weird thing for robot TV heads for awhile? It’s hard to explain honestly.)

Queen: 7/10 (Another one of those weird band obsessions I guess. This one was definitely bigger than the glass animals.)

2022:

Good Omens: 10/10 (Absolutely love. Loved it then and I still love it to this day!! Holding out for season 3 Fr 💪)

Clover: 7/10 (not many people know what this is, so for context it’s an electroswing album by OR3O. I loved it at the time but it doesn’t hit as hard now.)

Phantom of the Opera: 10/10 (Another 10. This wasn’t technically the first musical I ever watched, but, it was the start of my love for musicals and broadway. And it’s just a great musical Fr.)

Ghostbusters: 7/10 (If you asked me why I suddenly had a ghostbuster hyperfixiation during this time, I couldn’t tell you. But they are iconic movies so…)

The Steve Saga: 8/10 (I had watched FavremySabre several years before, but never this series. Anyway I loved it, still love it.)

Supernatural: 7/10 (A bit of a lower score because I was cringe, and my obsession with Castiel was unhealthy. Not to mention Supernatural isn’t exactly the best show on Netflix? It got dull later on, but..did I watch it start to finish anyway? Yeah. Absolutely.)

Twisted Rainbow: 10/10 (FavremySabre Masterpiece.)

Doctor Who: 6/10 (Two words. Season 13.)

Ghost: 6/10 (Low Score because I can’t stand to listen to them now, and because it’s associated with an ex bestie. But. Can’t lie. They had some bangers.”

Steam Powered Giraffe: 4/10 (Also associated with an ex bestie. They’ve got some good music but I don’t listen to them anymore.)

Mushrooms/Indie: 7/10 (This one was a bit odd but it did result in me redecorating my entire room to match this aesthetic.)

2023:

Faith The Unholy Trinity: 10/10 (Awesome Game, honestly one of the first things that sparked by interest in religious media, so points for that.)

The Exorcist: 9/10 (An odd thing to hyperfixiate on, I know, but this was also a result of my growing love for religious media.)

Mandela Catalouge: 6/10 (This was an odd one. I, at the time, had this raging fear of analog horror in general, so watching the Mandela Catalogue was sort of like..immersion therapy in a way. But it’s a pretty good show none the less 🤷‍♀️)

Be More Chill: 5/10 (Loved at the time, but low points for having been introduced to me by an ex bestie.)

Every Man Hybrid: 8/10 (A certified banger. Genuinely one of the better takes on the Operator and the whole creepypasta fandom in general. It’s great fr. Highly recommend.)

Grease: 4/10 (Ew. I’m only putting it here because I was in a production of it, and it was kind of a part of my life, but also, ew.)

Greys Anatomy: 8/10 (A banger show, but it doesn’t get a 10 simply because of how long it is.)

Slipknot: 7/10 (I don’t love who I was while listening to this band, but that’s kind of just something metal music in general will do to you.)

Aliens: 10/10 (This was short lived but strong enough to have bought a “I Want to believe” poster and hung it up behind my bed.)

Beacon Pines: 10/10 (Amazing game, very underrated. Also resulted in good bonding time with my brother.)

Gravity Falls: 9/10 (Another Amazing series that I’m probably a little cringe for. Whatever. It’s awesome.)

2024:

Ace Attorney: 9/10 (I eat, breathed, and slept this game series for months. Nuff said.)

The Ocean/Sea Animals: 9/10 (if I could keep an orca as a pet, I would.)

Midnight Mass: 10/10 (HOLY GOD. Another one of my favorite bits of religious media out there. It’s not exactly prime catholic propaganda but it’s not meant to be either.)

Baldurs Gate 3: 10/10 (This game brought back my DND era, which was much needed. I’d been without fantasy nonsense for a long time and I was ready for it.)

[the-acid-pear]

Something that always pissed me off about DSaF is how it acts like your physical exterior is a moral failing, which is echoed by the characters but only ever reinforced instead of subverted. Biggest L from the writing imo.

[lyngleantonial]

Finnaly, lady & gentlemen, pals and bubs, MY DSAF/DIALTOWN-SONA HAS RELEASE. ((Informations below the picture MAY be offensive, containing a LIL' swears and suicidal contents, those stuff, just not gores and sexual content.))

WOWZERRR!!

Well actually this guy is just me and nothing esle. With Dave's suit. Yay.

+Details:

- He has eyelashes, well, yeah it looks like one but no, it's not. It's actually just beams or blast or whaever coming out his eyes.

-Wings instead of ears cause HE IZ ANGEL YAYAYAYAYAY I love angels. Not because they're good, who said angels are actually good? They're just more and way polite than sinners, and polite does NOT mean they're good. And the reason I love angels because: They hide their truth behind their shell. C'mon, it's easy to be fool by an angel's angelic look. So, why not? Angels' not really that suck, both demons and them are as good as I think.

+About him:

-He's a dude. And sometimes I misgender him myself. Haha

-His sexualities are polyamourous and both pansexual.

-He is just about 23 years old, and he'll never grown up again cause he died at his 23. Why? He fking hang himself to the roof after a "slight" despression. Funny right?

-You can only meet him on 'Paradisic .co' in some uncanon game idk i don't think there'll be him in the damn game cause who cares about him and I made him but he'll only appear after you died and revived too much (about 50 times), then WILL promisely lock the game forever, because he said you're fking breaking the 'rule' all this time, way too much (this guy work as a death for living and foods).

-His personality/behaviour: Me. Yeah.

((⬆️Extra hyperative, then can switch into menloncholic mood in 1 sec; silly goose hwehwehwe; can listen to the same song 1078 times; steal 6 years old sister's toy and go flex them with 'friends' [they didn't even care, and he thought that was cool as shit]; play cooking mama every single nights, then can't go to work because of sleepless; act cool [But what everyone see is a crazy stupid man], but is a sensitive vulnerable sweetheart [I truly am ik i'm cringe tetoteteto 😔], those fucked up autism ADHD moody whatever is going on stuff.))

-He iz an angel. Yep. Again, I love angels.

-His true from is actually a simple goose. Or a swan, if he likes to? So he can attack people without getting arrest??

-His favourite food: CHEESE. YEAH CHEESE, SAY CHEEEESSEEEEE.

-Anything esle I haven't figure out yet.

+Backstory:

-He's just too despressed from how life treated him ok?? So he hung himself up roof [I MEAN THAT] ok?? Leave him alone! Why do you care?!.

--The End, cause I have no idea what esle to add in.--

[fictionkinfessions]

canon deets!!

dave's love language was very much physical touch. it was kinda funny because i was not a touchy person at all meanwhile every time we slept in the same bed down in vegas (which was. every night, basically) he'd curl around me completely. but for the first few nights i just laid there completely stiff. eventually i got used to it and started actually cuddling with him instead of just letting him cuddle me

his fashion sense was also very much like. scene style, which is funny because i don't think that came into style until like, the 2000s

he had a fuckin terrible diet. every night was buffalo wings and pizza. and he had the NERVE to tell me I had bad taste in food the HEATHEN/silly

all of his teeth were really sharp, he also had a split in his lip and the outside of his ear

he covered up his scars with foundation like i did, but he typically didn't whenever we were just staying in

he was actually really good with kids! there was one time i remember where i walked by one of the party rooms and he was sitting on the floor, he wasn't in his spring bonnie suit, but he was reading to a bunch of kids who were kinda crowded around him. he didn't even seem to mind whenever they climbed on him. he was really good at entertaining them

he liked picking me up and holding me, i think there was at least once when i came back into the flipside and he picked me up and spun me around

he put a lot of effort into his appearance! he liked painting his nails, he had a full skincare and haircare routine, i think he specifically made sure to style himself in a way that made him look disheveled but still good

his handwriting was surprisingly neat when he put effort into writing

he was good at helping with overstimulation and panic attacks and stuff

there's. so much i remember about him but this is really long and i'm way too gay i think so i'll leave it off here. love my husband <33

-jack kennedy (dsaf), #☀🌵🎭

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[thygoddessouijathicc]

DSAF EYE DILATION THEORY LETS GOOOOOO

Ok, so you may have noticed my essays becoming more and more unhinged. I would just like you to know: the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell. That will be all.

Now onto the stuff that actually matters, the topic of today’s theory being the glowing eyes possessed by Dave, Jack, and Henry, and how they seem to work in terms of sprite changes. This may seem innocuous. And it is. Very much so actually. But so was my strong Jack theory. It’s it clear enough now that I just like making dumb theories and WILL do so.

Spoiler warning:

As stated, and as I’d hope everyone reading this would know given that you all probably have at least SEEN the DSAF sprites, Dave, Jack, and Henry have black cornea and glowing white pupils. Dee also has this but it seems to be for an entirely different reason so it will not be in this essay.

Now I’ve already given my theory on why they all have these and even if I weren’t entirely correct with my Fredbear Henry connection with Fredbear apparently being a Tulpa (which is awesome FYI) who while he does contain the more humane parts of Henry’s soul, he also contains other souls, this doesn’t discount the fact that this means that the only three characters to visibly have these eyes are the only three characters confirmed to have any separation in their souls. This of course led me to speculate that this, and not being undead, is the reason for this strange appearance because Henry never died prior to DSAF 3s good ending.

Now, would these eyes work? No probably not. I assume everyone is unaware but to state it for the sake of this essay, in essence your pupil is a pit in your eye that you see through, with the iris mostly functioning to adjust the light intake and focus of the pupil. However these glowing eyes COULD presumably work if it were only the iris were white, the cornea just happened to be black, and the pupil was as per usual, however we don’t see this as if I recall, the core of the eye is always white. So I have come to the conclusion that since this actually couldn’t work, it’s probably just magic and for once I’m going to leave it be, perhaps I’ll touch on it again when I’m less sleep deprived.

For now I want to go over some misc details before getting into the juicy bits of this theory.

First of all, Dave doesn’t have the same eyes as Henry and Jack. We see this in the tapes. I drew him with lizard eyes but this is not canon and was probably the least canon part of the design because for everything else I tried to follow canon to the T as best I could (actually Jack has more cat/lizard like eyes which I find interesting). Dave generally appears to have the same eyes but if you look closer in the tapes he very clearly has a duller second ring around his glowing pupil. My belief on this specifically is that it actually has to do with whatever he is as Jack and Henry are only portrayed with either Jack’s on and off slit pupils or regular circles, the extra ring is unique to Dave, so my belief is that the ring or slit is a human thing and since Dave is so clearly not human (like that cow from ADSFMovie kinda not human) it must just be his species’s equivalent.

Now JUICY STUFF. Why do their pupils dilate? Although we have not seen Henry with many different expressions Dave and Jack both have a specific set of facial expressions. Most don’t show too much aside from the fact they have faces and they can squint their eyes, but through a few sprites we can clearly see that the pupils themselves can grow or shrink depending on mood, with Dave’s even being able to take up his whole eye when panicked.

Pupils expand and shrink in order to take in more or less light however this can’t be the case for the characters of DSAF because since their eyes glow and are white they clearly aren’t there to ABSORB light. It also can’t be linked to affection because Dave and Jack don’t immediately do the panicked Dave Sprite whenever in the same room/j.

This leaves one correlation that seems to be common across all occurrences of eye expansion, some level of elevated stress or frustration tends to always be expressed when the eyes expand. I believe it’s linked to something LIKE (but not actually for obvious reasons) heart regulation, potentially adrenaline output causing rapid eye dilations because since their bodies are in a state of disrepair due to either being dead or missing vital parts of their very existence causing adrenaline to fire off in massive quantities to decidedly less intense than average situations for adrenaline. Which is fancy talk for their bodies are fucked up and minor levels of stress cause an effect that does happen in the real world but in far less dire circumstances than it would tend to happen in the real world.

Basically when Dave, Jack, or Henry is stressed their eyes rapidly expand, if this stress becomes panic they overtake the entire eye.

So what does this say about the eyes shrinking. The only time that is seen is with what looks to be disappointment, so I’m assuming with full disappointment and acceptance of the bad situation stress increases but in such a way that adrenaline is somehow not released but instead ejected causing the eye to shrink. Unlike the eye dilating because of increased adrenaline I don’t think there is a real life precedent for it but it’s my only explanation.

To touch on one final thing, Legacy Jack. Legacy ALWAYS has dilated eyes. This implies that Legacy is in a constant state of stress. Although I believe it to be different than the average stress that would cause DSAF’s eye dilations. Where most are caused by the person having negative experiences Legacy is always like this because he’s always stressed, not because of anything specific happening to or around him, rather because Legacy is paranoid and prioritized killing and preserving his well… legacy over most things causing him to stress often about things not happening and where to find his next victim so his murder streak will not end, in case of DSAF 3s bad ending specifically Henry’s presence in his mind might also be elevating his stress because his body is well aware that it’s a non-native presence in his mind that is really not supposed to be there.

In conclusion, the eye dilations seen in the colour gang are a result of elevated levels of adrenaline due to their bodies misfiring it at times it’s not required. This causes varying degrees of expansion from the average eye expansion seen to Dave’s panicked sprite.

Also Legacy might want to get some fucking anxiety pills to help deal with his chronic stress.

Of course as always this essay is for entertainment purposes only with me speculating on a meme game.

THIS POST IS NOW OVER BEGONE.

[botherbug]

Stimboard/gif REQUESTS

I have the right to deny/ignore any requests. Obviously. Because this whole thing is for fun for me.

Also i take forever to do requests :3 youve been warned. BUT requests are always offically OPEN. So thats the cost.

WHITELIST:

BUGS, INSECTS, FISH, OTHER CREEPY CRAWLIES, FNAF(all games/books/movie), Better Call Saul, PVZ(mostly game 1 but any other games too), Spongebob Squarepants, Portal (1+2), Minecraft, Disco Elysium, Pokemon, TF2, ShowBiz/RockAFire/CEC, Slime Rancher(1+2), MLP G4(mostly familiar with early seasons tho), MLP G3, Flight Rising, Half Life(all games), HLVRAI, ihnmaims, Winnie the Pooh, Sesame Street(and adjacent), Sprout kid shows (goodnight star and chica and pajanimals and such), Metal Gear Rising Revengence, Dan Vs., Most Don Bluth films, DHMIS(web series+TV) Death Note, Hermitcraft, Life Series, GTA5(though maybe that games too explicit for this blog. Idk. This one might change), Beastarrrs????(same considering warning as before..)

i guess, ok now we are getting in territory where im listing stuff based on mostly just familarity and not invested enjoyment

Greylist???: ace attorney, roblox in general(idk most games now adays but i will do boards), SCP, Magnus Archives, Deltarune, Undertale, Animal Crossing, The Walten Files, All Tomorrows(?? Be the first person to request that. Thatll be shocking. In a good way), DSAF, Sonic(and friends), Mario(and friends), mmmost fnaf-related youtube series, Owl House (my sibling infodumps about it to me, so im qualified), Cult of Lamb(same as before), Steven Universe (same as before... to a lesser extent), stardew valley. General themes such as colors, animals, vibes. Music.

I'll also be happy to make gifs of just a specifc topic/type or from a specific video if u send it over.

OH, and ill do joke stimboards but I'll take it too seriously and try to make it decent. Challenge me.

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BLACKLIST:

Fandoms that are heavily focused on sexual things, Fandoms that are based around yandere tropes, Probably more to be added here.

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I made my list very long and annoying on purpose but feel free to send a request for anything not listed on the white/greylist!!

[bitronic]

14, 21, 24 !

14. Fandom you keep returning to?

ohhhh i think its gotta be star wars, fallout new vegas, or just slashers in general. all of them were there for me during some of the toughest crap in my life so its like theyre always my safe space. and vinland saga to an extent but not to the point of those 3 ^^

21. Favorite fic trope?

i dont read fic that often bc i forget and when i do its usually pwp/shameless smut lol ^^; what can i say i enjoy what i enjoy. i guess i also do enjoy a good hurt/comfort fic now that i think ab it (i actually wrote one n i think its my magnum opus)

24. Funniest fandom-related story?

i met a friend of mine through a five nights at freddys fan game fandom (dayshift at freddys i was so obsessed w it when i was 18) and we shared a lot of the same interests outside of dsaf and we were around the same age and freshly outtve highschool so we got along quick :) but then they added me to this gc with a few other friends in the fandom as well and they started mentioning things from around where i live and i was like "wait. you live here too" and theyre like "YOU LIVE HERE TOO?????" and a con was happening soon so we got to meet there in person it was the first time i had met a friend that started online irl and it was so fun! AND THEN i found out apparently they were like. good friends with a friend of mines best friend? and they had been for years???? and they knew them for almost as long as i'd known them, longer even??????? blew my MIND we hadnt met before because id frequently attended cons w older friend and id NEVER met online friend b4 until this moment. i know this is a long meandering story but its still very funny to me that we met each other thru fnaf fan game instagram when we were LITERALLY a bus ride and friendship away from each other the entire time hehe

[meetthesoldier]

hi sorry this is outta nowhere but i would love to hear ur thoughts on harry (phone

SORRY ANON I LEGIT FORGOT ABT THIS ASK and im too lazy to draw her fr so heres some fanart i drew of her dying in a glue trap

this time i have a bit more thoughts on her as an actual character so ill start w that before the headcanon dump ... also, throughout this post ill be referring to her w she/her pronouns because of a personal headcanon im VERY attached to. all i ask is any rbs or further questions abt my specific vision of her use those same pronouns... in others posts i do not care obviously. also, this post is specifically abt her in the dsaf universe since shes far more substantial there.

firstly, i should say i ADORE harry. she is one of my biggest comfort characters in a series where almost everybody is one for me. so when i give any criticisms, know its out of love and a wish for some more expansive writing rather than any malice. being critical of media you love is important, etc etc.

my biggest issues with her character really boils down to the lack of acknowledgement abt her being physically disabled. she mentions having a "bad leg" during 3, but its ONLY mentioned that one time, during (i believe) missable dialogue. i understand her not using, like, mobility aids for it since it may be difficult to find suitable stock images (+ all the phonies in that game use the same photos for their bodies, and its totally possible its not something she feels she needs), but it probably shouldve been mentioned or expanded upon more.

i dont believe were given any explanation on how her leg ended up the way it is, or in what way it is. we dont know if she was born with her disability or aquired it later. we dont know if its paralyzed, we dont know if its because of a muscular dystrophy, or anything else. i just wish we were given more info, bcus as it is, it is REALLY easy to look over in favor of, say, her ptsd.

speaking of which, i have some mixed feelings on how her ptsd is portrayed. on one hand, the joke in the restaurant reviews abt her having flashbacks and a subsequent panic attack feels very distasteful, though thankfully this is (i believe) the only instance of this kind of joke at her expense. im glad elsewise it isnt some huge , controlling part of her character - however, again, it IS missable. while one can assume she has it when she discusses her past, i dont believe its explicitly stated UNTIL that review.

tldr; her disability feels poorly handled, mostly from lack of expansion and discussion.

thankfully, though, she is elsewise a very enjoyable character; shes got some really good and funny dialogue, the exposition we get from her about the original managers is really fucking good, and i really wish we heard more abt her experience working with rebecca (and presumably roger)... again, her biggest issues are just not having as much of a spotlight on her as she couldve, but considering the employees arent really the main focus of the game that may be fine actually...

(as an aside, i think about this post every day and cry audibly.)

thus ends the longform musings, onto the silly headcanons;

standard fare queer headcanon dump: trans woman + demisexual lesbian. also, polyamorous. fuck yeah baby steak (ref)

was in a queerplatonic relationship with joe while he was alive, and a romantic one with both tango/terrence (who has some gender fuckery going on as well) and rebecca because i am not immune to homemade lesbianism.

has ptsd in canon, but im adding a "c" in front of that cause aint no way she lived through all of her coworkers (and presumably FRIENDS) dying in such horrific ways and was only affected in the short-term.

autistic! specifically also has the thing i do where i need the time to be a multiple of 5 before i can start doing anything. also has generalized anxiety i think, with a tendency to catastrophize and compensates by insisting to herself everything is toootally fine. definitely NOT going to have a breakdown rn because shes not totally sure that that vending machine is 100% not going to fall on her specifically

probably didnt have many friends as a kid (L) so now she overcompensates by trying to be as charming and polite as possible. wether or not this works in her favor or makes her seem pretentious is a coinflip. (its certainly working on me though!)

has a real soft spot for random niche animals. probably a big salamander and gecko girl. her favorite is the marbled salamander because its cute as hell

slightly off topic everyday i think of how fucking horrific it mustve been for joe to come into work one morning and his best friend just has a phone for a head and extreme memory issues now . literally what the fuck. thats so fucked up

to do a tonal 180... if she was a pokemon trainer shed have a herdier or stoutland as a sort of service dog for walking shorter-medium distances when she rlly doesnt feel like whipping out the cane :.-)

shes so pale its actually ridiculous. bro looks like she hasnt seen the sun in 5 years ... jake pokes a bit of fun for it sometimes

thanks for asking, anon! i love getting excuses to talk about dsaf. i have a lot of thoughts, you know... dont ever friend me on discord my ass will randomly drop either the goofiest or angstiest headcanons at random intervals and i have no real control over whichor when it will be