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[positivityfortoday]

☀ PositivityForToday’s 10K Celebration ☀

There are SO many things worth living for and reasons to smile and be happy! With the help of my lovely followers/friends, I have compiled a list of 1,000 things that make people happy, for my 10,000 amazing followers! Hopefully, this list is able to help you, make you feel better, or give you a reason to smile today! 

☀ 1,000 Happy Things ☀

Seeing cows while driving

Moss on really old fallen trees 

Seeing a lil baby you don't know in public, and they smile at you!!!

Parents doing their kids hair or just people doing someone they care about’s hair

Really ragged old and well-loved stuffed animals 

When the dandelions start blooming

Spring blossom

Daffodils

Bluebells

Sharks

When you're sitting outside your house or something and people passing by wave and say hi

That feeling in the summer when you have your window open and you're listening to your favorite music

When someone does a hobby just because they enjoy it even if they aren't the best at it

Comfort shows and books

People speaking their native languages

When my brother gets something to eat and always gets me something he knows I like

When I finish a crossword 

When I see something that reminds me of someone I care about

Paintings

My best friend (I love her so much shhhh don't tell her)

My dog! I love him 

My little sisters! Adorable, creative, and very witty. I love them

Music! I get the happy shaky feelings and just,,, y e a h/listening to songs

Singing! Especially for band practice!

Sunlight beams in the morning

The moon

Eagles

That feeling when you’re with friends and you’re all laughing so loudly, and you just feel complete

Talking to my favorite people/talking to my best friend

Sunrises and sunsets

Seeing the stars

Cats

Butterflies/Moths

Snails

Warm sunshine

Purple gel pens

Hugs

My children

Sunny days

Beautiful views

Spending time with my family and friends

Playing badminton

Cycling

Playing with little kids

Playing with dogs

Whales

Animals doing daft things 

Talks and walks with my son 

Morning breakfast and coffee 

A good spicy lunch

Laying in my bed at night and just checking on current affairs and news

My boyfriend

My friends 

Art

Owls

Minecraft

Voice acting

Petting my dog

Smelling Flowers 

Feeling a cold thing when I’m warm or a warm thing when I’m cold 

Giving and getting kisses

Random texts from friends

Coffee flavored chocolate 

Singing

Moths with big white wings

Underdone scrambled eggs

A rainy night

Bubbles

That first warm day of spring

Going on hikes

Being outdoors

Candy

Chocolate 

The smell of playdoh 

Taking photos

Getting new clothing 

Candles

Birdwatching

Going on picnics

Writing poetry

Reading books

The holidays

Making people smile/laugh

Coffee

A nice warm blanket

Eating ice cream

Snow globes

Lightning bugs

Flowers after the snow melts

The smell of rain

Sitting on the steps early in the morning

Being the first to wake up

The feeling I get after running

The comfort of a favorite shirt

My girlfriend 

Family

Random acts of kindness

Babies

When I play with my dog by pretending to run at her and she goes crazy with excitement 

My cat 

Rain

Baking

Piano (playing or listening)

Small flowers

Flowy skirts/dresses

Wholesome romances

Hearing a song for the first time and loving it immediately 

Playing my flute

Horses

Listening to vinyls on a record player

When someone remembers a little detail about you

Painting my nails

Doing yoga

Doing exercise

Beating a personal record

Rainbows

Making crafts

Taking a shower after a long day

Going to the zoo

Going on vacation

Being at the beach or near water

Watching Netflix

Going to the movie theatre

Watching a live play at a theatre

Learning something new

Teaching someone how to do something 

Toasting marshmallows and eating S’mores 

Cupcakes

Seeing a shooting star

Taking a nap

When someone compliments me

Decorating my room

Picnics

My favorite band

My favorite celebrities

My favorite actors

Setting a new goal

Collecting rocks

Putting on fresh clean sheets

Seeing Christmas lights

Listening to birds chirping

Giraffes

Camping

Sitting by a bonfire

Eating mashed potatoes

Bullet journaling

Driving in the car with the windows down

Dancing

Looking at pretty pictures

Concerts

Funny jokes/puns/memes

Fireworks

Sparklers

Pretty clouds

My favorite shoes

Getting new art supplies

Making photo edits

Making gifts for my friends and family

Getting gifts from people 

Balloons

Succulents 

Playing an instrument

Drinking a nice cup of tea

Iced tea on a summer day

Eating fresh fruit

Getting my hair braided 

Eating at a restaurant 

Being on a boat

Swimming

Making new friends

Finding an animal in nature 

Pumpkins and pumpkin patches

Carving pumpkins 

Autumn and all the beautiful colors

Acting for theatre

Making video edits

Wearing a costume for Halloween

Dressing fancy

Finding four leaf clovers

Pressing flowers

Scrap booking

Handwritten letters

Stickers

Hummingbirds

Elephants

Eating breakfast 

Gardens

Inspirational quotes

Wearing my favorite necklace 

Baby animals 

Little streams and ponds

Foxes

Sun shining through trees

When it’s foggy out and you can see dew drops on plants and spider webs

Being on a swing

Finally accomplishing a goal you’ve been working on 

When a new season of your favorite show comes out

Doing my makeup

Cleaning and organizing 

Daydreaming 

Taking a bath

Christmas 

Watching funny videos

Wearing sweaters and hoodies

Fuzzy socks

Helping people 

Little figurines and objects

Popcorn 

Brownies

Looking out the window 

Wolves

Opening a window for fresh air

The smell of coffee 

Watching YouTube videos 

Getting a haircut 

Seeing a deer in the woods 

Watching birds fly

Finding shapes and objects in the clouds 

The smell of fresh laundry

When someone tells me something reminded them of me

Stepping on crunchy leaves

Animal crossing

My switch

Softball/baseball

Basketball

Soccer

Seeing cool cars/old cars

Rollerblading

Drawing with chalk on a sidewalk

Going to bed early

Stargazing

Making progress

Checking things off my to-do list

Taking Polaroid pictures

Going for walks

Jogging

Going to the library

Starting a new book

Finishing a good book

Playing board games

Koalas

Slippers

Big trees

Sunlight coming through the windows

Waking up on Christmas morning

Getting book, song, movie, etc. recommendations from my friends

Making music playlists

Finally receiving packages I ordered in the mail 

Baking desserts

When my favorite song comes on

When people make playlists for each other

Finding new characters to ship

Having free time

Sticky notes

Sunbathing

Traveling

Peace and quietness

Alone time

Meeting my step/exercise goal for the day

The people who love me

Soup

Coloring books

Getting into bed after a long day

Pillows

Fandoms

How unique and different everyone is

Getting a lot of work done

Looking forward to my future dream job

Playing video games

Being on Tumblr

Taking time for myself

Practicing self-care

Face masks

Finding money you forgot about

Holding hands

The smell of apple pie

Starting a new tv show

Getting letters in the mail

When the seasons change

Summer

Mugs and teacups

Smoothies

Breakfast food

Disney

Going into the woods/forest

Trying new creative outlets

The smell of sunscreen

Eating the food you’ve been craving

Knowing and feeling that people care

Telling a good story

Laughing so hard can’t stop and your stomach hurts

Late summer nights

Late night drives

Sparkles

Glitter

Listening to people I love talk about their favorite things and what they’re passionate about

Listening to podcasts

Turning up the volume of my music

Putting my headphones in

Blasting my favorite songs through my speaker

People accepting and supporting others for who they truly are

Wearing something cozy

Soft light

Love

Warm weather

A well-rested night

Waking up in the morning and feeling refreshed

Knowing that every day is a fresh start

Well written characters

A book I can get lost in

Sloths

My parents

My siblings

My grandparents

The feeling of sand beneath your feet

Heated blankets

Bagels

Toast

Getting something for free

Samples

Constellations 

Mason jars

Practicing a new skill

Finding a new hobby

Lazy weekends

Mac n cheese

French fries

Having deep conversations with my best friend

New jeans

Going to IKEA

Skirts 

Dresses

Doodling

When other people are happy (especially people I know and love)

Marching band

Sleeping in

Having the day off

Getting new books

Playing guitar

Playing ukulele 

Random compliments

A change of scenery

Cuddling

Waking before the sun is up

Reading old letters

Zebras

Exploring

Building Lego sets

Using photoshop to make edits

Journaling

Walking along the seafront and breathing in time with the waves

A good rom-com or nostalgic show

Writing lists

Pinterest boards

Looking back at my accomplishments

Talking on the phone with a friend or family member

Wrapping presents

A blue sky

Loving someone 

Waterfalls

Washi tape

Penguins

Donuts

The color yellow

Sleepovers

Cooking dinner

Kind gestures

Trust

Inside jokes

Songs that make you feel nostalgic

Seeing other people’s art

Comfy clothes

Wearing pajamas

Calligraphy

When someone calls you by your nickname

Going to Target

The first sunburn of the summer

Ramen noodles

Chinese food

Thrift shopping

Flower fields

Flowers growing in random places, like through a crack in the sidewalk

Writing

Sparkly snowflakes

When it snows on Christmas

Mixing paint colors together

Perfectly shaven legs

Puddles

The color red

Thunderstorms 

The smell of flowers

The ocean 

Adult sized onesies

Driving a golf cart

Fairytales

Cartoons

The color blue

Pasta

AO3

Crickets chirping

Seeing everyone’s houses decorated for the holidays, especially Christmas

Other people sharing what makes them happy

Monkeys

Being understood

When someone texts to make sure I got home safely

Iced coffee

Becoming better at communicating with others

Seeing a friend for the first time in a while

Good morning and good night texts

Drinking a cold glass of water

Deep conversations in the middle of the night

Collecting sea shells

Building blanket forts

Tan lines

Being under lots of blankets

Making better health and money choices

Getting chills from a song even after hearing it countless times 

Liking how I look

Hot chocolate

Finding new music

Buying cute things

Wearing an outfit I really like

When someone tells you how glad they are to be your friend

Gardening

Watching raindrops race down a window 

Trying new food

Finding exactly what I was looking for 

Planning my future

Finding a song that perfectly fits my mood or describes how I’m feeling

Writing little notes to people

When someone tells me I did something good

Eating ice cream on a hot day

Making friends with animals

Going to football games

Seeing people genuinely interested in something

Snow days

The last day of school

Winter break

Spring break

Thanksgiving

New Year’s Eve

Turtles

Sitting outside on a cool summer day

Watching rain

Watching the ocean waves come in

Netflix binges

A new movie release I really want to watch

Driving with a window down for the first time in the spring 

Taking a cruise

Giving helpful advice

Getting helpful advice

Doing a favor for someone who needs it

Someone referencing one of my fandoms or something I love out of no where

Learning and knowing stuff

Doing something physically challenging or scary

Listening to my bedroom fan while I fall asleep

Coming up with a new creative idea 

Finding something I wanted at the store on sale for a good deal

Finishing all my assignments on time or even early

Hugging my dog

Taking my dog for a walk

Teaching my dog a new trick

When strangers stop to say hi to my dog

Listening to audiobooks

The weekend

Finding a new flavor of chapstick

Drinking Kool-Aid, it makes me feel so nostalgic

Watching nature shows on a weekend morning

Watching cartoon shows on a Sunday morning

A good TV show, most likely something I've watched before because that way I know it ends well

A good, delicious comfort meal on a Friday night by myself 

A café in the city centre at noon when it's not filled with the morning rush or afternoon coffee breakers

The stars from my childhood bedroom because they're the brightest here

Listening to my favorite playlist really loud on a long road trip and singing to myself loudly in my car

Having an entire day to myself without interruptions from anyone

Opening the curtains first thing in the morning 

A new jacket

Going to the cinema on a first release day because it's always super exciting and full of people anxious to see a movie they've been waiting for forever

Listening to live music

Riding roller coasters

Going to amusement parks

Lizards

Seahorses

Starfish

Eating fair food

Feeling an instrument vibrate when you’re playing it

Hearing my dog snore

When my dog dreams in his sleep 

Wearing a new piece of clothing for the first time

Feeling the sun on you

Eyes in the sunlight

Seeing city lights

Singing in the shower at the top of my lungs

Looking at someone and them knowing exactly what they’re going to say

Laughing till you cry

Being under a blanket

Going to craft stores

Watching boats

The idea of traveling the world

When my dogs let me lay my head on them

Listening to an old song and having it bring back memories

Candy corn

Crazy socks

Quotes

Fall and the leaves changing color and the crisp feeling in the air

Making snowmen

Making gingerbread houses for Christmas

Making videos with family

Burning a candle

Booping a dog’s nose

Getting letters/notes from people; writing them

Snow globes

Dr. Pepper

Doc martens

Fortune cookies

Potatoes

Easter

Finishing something

Skipping rocks

Warm rain

When someone opens up to you

Finding the right words to say exactly what you wanted

Animal footprints

Eating outside

Fairy lights

The smell of a hotel

Windows

Meeting a new dog

Dolphins

Getting magazines in the mail

Being in the woods as the sun starts to rise and the animals wake up

Warm days

Adirondack chairs

A warm breeze

Clothes and blankets hanging outside to dry

Feeding birds

Aquariums

The color green

Tie dying things

Going to art museums

Going to science museums

New albums from my favorite artists 

Seeing moss in nature

Finding cute little mushrooms 

When a dog wags its tail a bunch and is excited to see me

Playing fetch with my dog

Obsessing over something and having someone to talk about it with

Going on a walk with my best friend and talking about life

Looking at old pictures and reminiscing on good memories

Reading a book that's so good your brain wants to read faster than it can

Laughing with friends about the weirdest things

Being appreciated for doing small things you wouldn't even have thought about yourself because it's something you *just do*

Being creative

Watching animals

A story I can't put down

Stretching

The moment when you listen to a new song/album by your favourite artist

When you're at a concert and anticipating the moment before the band comes out

When at a concert and they play your favourite song live

The moment when someone compliments your outfit 

When you see someone wearing merch of something you like 

Seeing the sunrise/sunset 

Watching the sun rise out of the water or sink down into it as it’s setting

This ecstatic feeling in general when you're just living in the moment with people who love something as much as you do

Hugging my cat and smelling his fur

Listening to my music by myself and singing to it 

Making edits I’m really proud of 

Losing hours in a good book or fanfiction

Writing sentences that I actually like 

My siblings and my parents when they're being chill and funny

Watching my favorite tv shows and movies and yelling about them into the void 

Finding a new good song 

Fresh out of the shower + fresh clean sheets feeling when you go to bed

When I come downstairs in the morning and my dog greets me right at the bottom step with her lil’ tail wagging

Knowing that if I ever needed someone to chat with, someone would be there to lend an ear

Tigers

Lions

When you shuffle your music and the exact song you want to hear plays

When all my family is around the outdoor fire on a summer’s evening

When my nieces and nephews give me squishy kid hugs

Being home alone and being able to cook or bake in the kitchen without disruption

Driving around with a friend in the evenings and just belting our favorite songs

Seaside walks

Disney World

Seeing live theatre

The sun shining on leaves and stone buildings

Dancing when I'm alone

Color-coordinating my outfit

Floating on my back in the sea

The smell of summer nights

The smell of winter mornings

Colorful things/environments

Bunnies

Walking along lakes/rivers/the sea

Spending time in nature

Taking care of my plants

Giving affection to my loved ones

Listening to other people's stories

Reading about people I've never met before or places I've never visited before (especially if they are now just a part of history)

Embroidering

Pandas

Swimming in a river or the sea

Stargazing (my favorite moments usually happen an hour before sunrise)

White-caged-bird

Feeling the breeze when I spin and my heartbeat when I dance for an hour at a time

All the wonderful smells of flowers and colours that nature has to offer

Sharing good laughter with someone

Feeling like I belong

Travelling and discovering new customs of different cultures

Hiking or foraging

That feeling when I'm approaching the end of a really good book and I let myself be engulfed by the fact that it's a unique experience, that I'll never experience as the first time again

Observing my local fauna

Petting and taking care of an animal (double the joy if it is friendly with strangers)

Drinking a good cup of honey tea

Finding a perfume that suits me

Eating something sweet

Enjoying a meal with others

Cat paws tapping on the floor

Dipping a biscuit into tea

Trying to catch leaves falling from the tree

Having sunlight hit your face when you’re napping

Objects that cast a rainbow when the sun shines through them

Seeing patterned shadows

Ambient mood lighting

Sleeping

Wearing jewelry 

Cheese

Playing chess

Fresh air

Going somewhere new

My Mom’s cooking

Being inspired

When someone holding your hand rubs their thumb lovingly in circles

Picking strawberries

Otters

Painting the walls of my room

Wind chimes

Seeing that your favorite people are active online

Finally understanding something you were struggling with

The excitement you get when someone reblogs your writing or art

Getting a new notebook or journal

Appreciation

Validation

When someone tells you they love you and mean it

The smell of freshly baked bread

When my dog falls asleep on me

Making new online friends

Found family

Finishing cleaning my room

When someone lays their head on your shoulder

Doing something right on the first try

Finally sitting down after standing for a long time

Getting goosebumps from hearing or seeing something you love

Seeing a gorgeous view

Loving someone and them loving you back

Freshly baked gooey cookies

When a song comes on and everyone starts singing

When I’m out for a run and it’s hot and it starts raining. Nothing makes me feel more like a human than getting caught in the rain on a run

Swimming in the ocean

When people are talking about something they really love and get carried away trying to explain it all to you

Puppies

Being in the middle of nowhere and actually getting to see the whole sky of stars that you never get to see in a city

Finding people that love the same things you do

 When something silly reminds you of someone you love; like every time I see an orange and green gummy worm I think of my sister

When you’re hugging someone and they squeeze you a little bit before they let go

Weather where you can leave all the windows open in your house

Trampolines

Driving with no destination in mind

Falling asleep to the sound of rain

Hearing other people laugh

Laughing only because you hear someone else laugh and it's just so contagious

The first snowfall of the year

Disney movies

Listening to someone tell stories and they have like 15 side stories in between the main one

Romantic movies

Bubble baths

Smiling between kisses

Wearing sweatpants

A clean house

Pizza

My computer

Cheesy pickup lines

When people tell me they miss me

Cool spring mornings after a storm

My job

Butterflies

New shoes

Oversized shoes

Caramel apples

Volunteering

Meditating

Running my blog

Finding sea glass at the beach

Getting my nails done 

Planning vacation

Hot cider

Telling people I love them

Writing in my gratitude journal

Eating homegrown vegetables, fruit, and herbs

Remembering a good dream I had

Happy endings

Colored pens

Decorating for the holidays

Finishing a really good tv show

Leopards

Summer rain

Thunderstorms where I can just open my window to the full extent and just watch and listen

Calls with my best friend

Seeing a meme and sending it to my friends

Getting an email from AO3

That moment when you get an idea for creating something

Walking barefoot on the grass

Sending thank you notes

Writing events I’m looking forward to on my calendar

Dippin' Dots

Spicy food

Seeing a full moon

Eating cookie dough

Eating seasonal food

Bubble wrap

Going to the car wash and getting rainbow soap

Dark chocolate

Soft blankets

Weighted blankets

Soft drinks with crushed ice

When I get an unexpected phone call from someone I love

Wearing flip flops

Longer daylight hours

Having a BBQ

Frosting cookies

Making cupcakes in the microwave

Watching the Hallmark channel during the holidays

Taking selfies or photos with people I love

Putting on lotion

The smell of a baby’s head

The Office

Online shopping

The smell of freshly cut grass

Surprising my family or friends

Looking at the clock when it’s 11:11

Being productive

Quilts

Doing good on an exam

Someone doing a favor for me (especially when I didn’t ask)

Eating pancakes with syrup

Origami

Sprinkles

Confetti

Waving at people

Giving high fives

Complicated Handshakes between you and your best friend

Naps/feeling well-rested

Eating one of my favorite foods

Hearing good news from/about a friend or family member

Looking at nature (these days it's seeing squirrels in my neighbour's garden and looking at my plants and trees)

When make someone happy or feel like I made a difference (including a satisfied client)

Success (good grades, a gifset that does well)

Hugs from my mom

Learning new things

Chatting with my friends because they’re all amazing people

Group watches of my favorite tv show or movie

That feeling when the house has just been cleaned/when I’m freshly showered

Making jokes/laughing with people

Reading fluffy fanfics

Driving on the road to a destination far away, I love the trip as much as (if not more than) arriving at the actual place

Reading affirmations

Green tea

Getting breakfast or lunch from a nice restaurant 

Learning about topics that won’t benefit me; like Chinese history, geography, ancient flora and fauna, etc. just things that I find cool 

The jokes my girlfriend makes, especially when they’re the same ones she always makes

Stories from the past! Stories from history from people who actually lived through it

Stories in general, just hearing the life experiences of people in completely different positions from me. I love hearing people’s stories

Drawing intricate things, like old buildings, landscapes, and plants

Cooking a nice meal

Grocery shopping and farmers markets especially 

My cat! All of her weird little habits too, like how she stands in front of my feet so I’ll push her where she wants to go 

Botanical gardens

State parks

Museums

Art galleries

Listening to stories my grandparents tell

When people tell me about their life goals and dreams

Being surrounded by the people I love 

Living the best life I can

Partying hard the night away

Daydreaming

Sunflowers always make me smile

Warm tea

Big fluffy clouds in a blue sky

Friendly babies

Hearing a past favorite song

Singing karaoke 

Biking riding

Helping others

Chocolate milk

Sweets and fruits

Having fun doing things I love

Dragons

Video games

My favorite things

Writing

Affection

Exercising

Being on Tumblr

Pinterest

Looking at flowers and plants

Playing with my cats

Chatting with my friends (at the moment it’s through zoom, of course)

Finding new ways to decorate my room

Window shopping

Spending time with my boyfriend

Wearing my favorite outfit/accessory

Eating something delicious

The cool side of my pillow 

Tears of joy

Woodpeckers

Reading poems

Hugging trees

Tree houses

Airstreams/campers

Playing frisbee

Making sculptures

Puppy ears

The first day of spring

The first day of summer

Sending silly photos to my friends

Building sand castles

Winning prizes at the fair or arcade

Marbles

Cacti

Scrolling through my phone

Writing fanfiction

Seeing someone you haven't seen for a really long time

Putting together collages

Printing out photos I love

DIY projects

Sewing 

Crocheting 

Listening to steel drums

Haunted houses

Going through a corn maze

Picking fresh fruit or vegetables

Bubble tea

Starbucks

Dunkin donuts

Disneyland

Disney Princesses

Climbing trees

Finishing errands

Rewatching my favorite episodes

Scrunchies

Milkshakes

Ice cream blizzards

Listening to acoustic versions of songs

Hot tubs

Rubber ducks

Coconut flavored food

Dipping fries in ice cream

Discovering a new type of animal

Seeing hot air balloons

Frogs/toads

Splashing in puddles 

Having plants inside my house

Teddy bears

Iridescent/holographic things

Bird houses

Breakfast in bed

Crystals/gemstones

Ziplining 

Dew drops

Glow sticks

Flower crowns (especially handmade ones)

Spring rain 

Watching other people make art

Lighthouses

Finding heart shaped things in nature

Thinking of getting my own apartment

Coming up with a new recipe for food

Cookbook recipes passed down through families

Bookshelves

Making pretty yogurt bowls

Seaside houses

Flying on planes and being in/above the clouds

Flower bouquets

Looking at and learning about the planets

Fruit snacks

Palm trees

Weeping willow trees

Cherry blossoms

Eating cake

Decorating cakes with eccentric icing designs and colors

Whipped cream

Having snowball fights

Hearing Christmas music

Tattoos

Wearing rings

Green grass

A tidy organized desk with cute desk supplies

My craft room

Hammocks

Little cottages

Cotton candy (and cotton candy flavored things)

Looking at all the paint pallet colors in paint stores

Stamps

Taking silly photos in photobooths

Going to the mall

Making jam, especially strawberry jam

Reading outside

Finding a bird nest and watching eggs hatch

Looking at photos of my family and friends 

Finding old flora and art books

Eating fresh corn on the cob with butter on a summer day

Lily Pads

Icicles

Inner peace

Sitting under a tree

Not having to turn on the light in your room when the sun is shining through

When restaurants have patios you can dine at

Fishing on a pier

Seeing old couples in public

Making gifs

Trees swaying in the wind

Anime

Dying Easter eggs

Laying in the trunk of a car and watching the clouds or stars

Night lights

Flower shops 

Outer space

Kitchens

PB&J sandwiches

Toasted Cheese

LoFi music

Listening to/watching ambience videos

Turtle necks

Peaches

Looking at old maps

Figurines of the earth/globe

Honey and bees

Cheesecake

Seeing footprints in sand and watching them be washed away by waves

Anything related to the moon, stars, and sun

Reading my horoscope (even if I know it’s not real)

Archways decorated with hanging flowers

Yogurt

Pudding

Knowing that I’m not alone

Ancient roman sculptures

Macarons

When someone tells me they care about me

Weddings

Watercolour

Birthday parties 

My brother

My sister

When my dog leaves his bed to lay in the sunlight

Doing mini photoshoots with my friends

Hand making bracelets/necklaces (friendship bracelets)

When someone calls me darling or honey

Love letters

Game night

Skateboarding

Stress balls and squishy toys

Starting something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time

Playing cards

Doing puzzles

Word searches

Kittens

Ordering takeout

Stepping out into the fresh air

Creating vision boards

Getting a massage

Writing positive affirmations

Lunch dates

Standup comedy

Listening to classical music

Nature/animal documentaries

Having someone there to listen to me

Listening to someone when they need it

Accepting myself for who I am

Looking back and seeing how far I’ve come and all the progress I've made

Doing something my future self will be thankful for

Speaking up for myself

Being near loved ones

Finding time for my hobbies

Giving myself time to rest

Saturday mornings

Marrying the one I love

Discovering new things

Going to new cities

My idols

Pastries

Feeling the wind on my face on a car ride

The sensation of music in my ears and like nothing else matters

People who have my best interest in mind

Simplicity

Fulfilling my dreams

Discovering a new ice cream flavor

Knitting

Making myself a priority

Knowing that I am important, and I matter

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Baby You Were My Picket Fence [Chapter 5: Paradise City]

You are a first grade teacher in sunny Los Angeles, California. Ben Hardy is the father of your most challenging student. Things quickly get complicated in this unconventional love story.  

Song inspiration: Miss Missing You by Fall Out Boy.

Chapter warnings: Language, some sexual content (not smutty).

Link to chapter list (and all my writing) HERE

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The blue chalk moves swiftly with shrill little squeaks over the board. You’re dressed in a floral red dress, leggings, sensible sable flats, and fuzzy woolly mammoth earrings. The kids love to see what sort of eccentric accessories you wear each day; there’s even a space on the board reserved for it. Today’s flair is: woolly mammoth earrings! (Please don’t touch unless you ask first!!)

“Okay my lovely children, let’s practice using each of this week’s spelling words in a sentence. Who can remind me what the first word on our spelling list is?”

“Oh! Oh!” Brendyn—who you mentally mix up with Brayden or Kayden at least twice a day—leans out of his chair and waves his arm hysterically. Dear god, please send a plague to wipe the unnecessary Y baby name trend off the face of the planet. “I can!”

“Go ahead, Brendyn.”

“Throw,” he announces proudly, as if he’s just won the Olympic medal for elementary-school writing.

“Awesome job! That’s right!” You transcribe it on the board: 1. Throw. “And who thinks they can come up with a sentence using the word throw?”

Eli, as he’s doodling all over his worksheet, says: “If you don’t like someone, you can throw them out of a window.”

You swallow noisily as you collect your thoughts. The other students are alternately giggling cautiously or gasping, scandalized. “Now, Eli...”

“Yes, Miss Teacher?” he prompts.

“It’s nice to raise our hands and wait to be called on when we have something to share.”

“Oops.” He raises his hand.

You sigh heavily. “Could you come up with a different sentence, please? One that is more school-appropriate? Remember we had a whole talk last week about school-appropriate topics. Right class?”

“Yes, Miss Y/L/N!” they agree in unison. That conversation hadn’t, perhaps shockingly, been inspired by Eli. A chatty, beach-blond, future surfer bro named Dexter had discovered his father, a prominent cinematographer, in a compromising position with the nanny—in the jacuzzi tub, no less—and felt the need to divulge that during Story Sharing Time. Worst parent phone call ever.

“Give it another try, Eli,” you say encouragingly.

“Taking spelling tests makes me want to throw up.”

You drop your face into your hands as the class howls in laughter. “Okay, very funny, but I still think we can come up with something more appropriate. Does anyone else have an idea?”

Maisy raises her hand timidly. Oh, hallelujah.

“Yes, Maisy!”

“Always remember to throw away your trash.”

“Wonderful!” You write the sentence on the board. “No littering. I like it. Save the sea turtles. Maisy, as a reward, you may give Creampuff one pumpkin seed.”

“Yay!” Maisy leaps out of her seat and sprints to Creampuff’s cage behind your desk. It’s your third year teaching with Creampuff, and the poor hamster is decisively in geriatric territory; she’s morbidly obese and her eyes are bluish with cataracts. But the children adore her, and Creampuff has always been wonderfully sweet and never bites. You just hope that when the time comes, she has the decency to kick the bucket over a long weekend so you can dispose of the body in secret and whip up a cheery story to tell the kids about how Creampuff went to live in an organic vegan farm or a hamster sanctuary or a retirement community in sunny Tampa Bay, Florida.

“Okay friends,” you announce. “Go ahead and practice coming up with sentences on your worksheet. Then we’ll chat in five or ten minutes and see what we’ve got. Ready, set, go!”

As students’ heads bow and pencils begin scratching against paper, you circle the room peeking over shoulders and making suggestions here and there. When you reach Eli’s desk, you crouch down so your gaze is level with his.

“Hey, Eli.”

“Hi,” he replies mistrustfully, his blue eyes narrow under dark curls.

“I just wanted to let you know that I thought your sentence ideas were very funny and very, very clever. But they just weren’t the best choices to use in class. Do you understand why?”

“Yeah,” he says, smirking a little. Of course you do, you’re the smartest kid in here.

“And I really appreciated you raising your hand to speak once you were reminded.”

“Thanks.” He’s actually bashful now, his high olive-skinned cheeks flushing.

“Are you still going to help me clap the erasers after class today?”

His eyes light up like wildfire. “Can I?”

The trap’s been sprung. Clapping erasers is like cocaine for first graders. “You betcha. If the rest of our spelling lesson goes smoothly.”

“Okay!” He immediately picks up his pencil and begins jotting down sentences. The handwriting is definitely a work in progress, but Eli’s spelling and grammar are immaculate. You can’t help but smile to yourself as you walk away; you’re feeling triumphant, of course, but there’s something else as well.

I’m proud of you, demon kid.

~~~~~~~~~~

Ben is standing on your doorstep, dressed in black, a potted calla lily in his hands. And at first he’s got that unnerving veneer, he’s serious and intimidating and smoldering; but then you find his eyes and his smile breaks open like cracked glass.

“Hi,” he says meekly.

“Hi.” You point to the calla lily. It’s a vivid green, like his eyes, like the serrated continents of the Earth from space. “Is that for me?”

“Yes, actually. It’s a gift, but it’s kind of a joke too.”

“How’s that?”

“It’s fake.” He grins. “So you can’t kill it.”

You laugh and take the pot, leaning back so the silk calla lily doesn’t tickle your nose, doesn’t rub against your makeup. “Come on in, Mr. Hardy.” Ben follows you, his hands in his jacket pockets, peering around watchfully. You find a temporary home for your new plant on the kitchen counter, right next to your latest purchase; you rest your hand, not-so-subtly, on the brand new, mint green, vintage record player. “Check this bad boy out.”

“Wow!” Ben leans down to examine it, running his fingertips over the turntable. Then his eyes flick to the box of vinyl records. “And you’ve already got listening material!”

“Lots of Queen, you’d totally approve.”

“Zeppelin?”

“Naturally.”

He flips through the records quickly: The Eagles, The Stones, Guns N’ Roses, The Beatles, The Cars, Aerosmith, Cheap Trick, Fleetwood Mac, U2, Hendrix, Elton, Nirvana. “Love it. I’m pumped. How much did all of this cost you?”

You crinkle your nose in lighthearted defiance. “It’s rude to talk about money, Mr. Hardy. Not a lot. Amazon is an amazing thing. And I’ve been collecting records for years. Yard sales, thrift shops, wherever. Some of them were my parents’ before I commandeered them.”

“I’ll ask again.” He takes out his wallet and starts counting bills, the paper shuffling in his hands. “How much for the record player? Estimate the rest.”

“Ben,” you protest, dismayed.

“Y/N,” he teases.

“You can’t buy everything for me,” you say gently.

“I’m not buying. I’m renting. I get to choose what to play whenever I’m here.” He unfolds $300 and lays it on top of the record player. “Will that cover it?”

You gape at the money. Yes, that’s about right. “Ben...I’d let you request music for free.”

“I don’t want requests. I want everything.” And then he grins, and it almost rips the floor out from under you. Oh god, I love this man.

You’ve never said those words aloud. You’ve never talked about his refrigerator magnet confession. But it’s somewhere in the space between you like a circling ghost, like a promise, like shared blood singeing under flesh.

“But,” Ben says, bringing you back into focus. “For now we should probably get going.”

“Right.” You grab your purse and jacket as Ben calls an Uber. “Where are we meeting them, anyway?”

He winks at you, his face illuminated by the glow of his cellphone screen. “Not the fucking Olive Garden.”

The Uber is a BMW with leather seats and a minibar installed in the backseat. As it cruises through downtown L.A., Ben tells you about how Joe has an apartment in the city, how Rami splits his time between his loft here and another in New York, how devout Londoner Gwilym is in town for work. You down a tiny Absolut Vodka to ease your nerves. “And when do I get to see your place, Mr. Hardy?”

He chuckles noncommittally. “We’re here,” he declares, glancing up through the BMW’s tinted windows. Outside is an upscale nightclub called The Edison. Then he turns to you. “Two things,” he says, holding up his index and middle fingers. There’s a gold ring on each. “First, don’t forget about the low profile.”

“That shouldn’t be difficult since we’re...” Air quotes. “Not dating.”

“Good. And secondly, don’t be anxious. They’re going to love you. You’re...”

“Charming?” you suggest, batting your eyelashes. “Blessed with impeccable music taste? Awesome at taming demons?”

He smiles. “I was going to say perfect.”

~~~~~~~~~~

You’re three shots deep and belting out Sweet Caroline with the electric-fence kid from Jurassic Park. There’s a sentence you never thought would cross your mind.

Joe’s trim left arm is draped over your shoulders, his head leaning into yours, a lager swooping precariously in his right hand as he gestures with it like a microphone. Ben is looking on, grinning as he sips his Sazerac, his eyes flickering in the dim, rusty light. When you first arrived, Ben introduced you as a friend; Joe had quickly shimmied over and started dropping lines.

“Joe,” Ben flared, like it was a warning. “I’m not trying to set you two up. That’s not what this is.”

“Whoops, my bad,” Joe had replied, and dialed down the saccharine charm. Yet you like Joe, you like him a lot, and within thirty minutes you’ve already exchanged numbers and compared astrological signs and agreed that he’s going to teach you how to play baseball next week.

“She’s got a thing for Jeff Goldblum, you know,” Ben says now.  

“Stop!” you cry, blushing furiously.

“Do you?!” Joe asks and gulps half his lager. “I can make that happen. I can introduce you.”

“He’s a lot older than he was in his Jurassic Park days,” you sigh, lamenting.

“But also wayyyyy richer!” Joe pitches, waggling his eyebrows.

“She’s a schoolteacher,” Ben notes. “She could use a sugar daddy.”

“Girl, I am going to hook you up!”

Rami and Lucy return to the circular booth from the dancefloor, their fingers interlaced. Lucy is incredibly delicate, even tinier and more youthful than she appears onscreen, and always smiling; Rami speaks slowly and thoughtfully and with a captivating meticulousness, and when he fixes his pale eyes on yours you feel like you’re the only person in the room, in the city, in the world, as if whatever you have to say is the most profound thing he’s ever heard. Rami shouts something to Ben over the blaring music as Ben takes a pack of cigarettes out of his pocket and lights one.

“Oh my god!” you exclaim, and Joe jumps beside you, startled. “You smoke?”

Ben takes a draw, exhales smoke through full pink lips, and smirks guiltily.

“What year is this?!”

“2019,” Joe offers.  

“Who the fuck smokes in 2019?!” you hurl at Ben. “Do you like breathing? Do you enjoy your internal organs? Do you want to live to spend all your BoRhap money?”

“You tell him!” Joe whoops, clapping. “Yeah baby! Tell him, Y/N!”

You ask incredulously: “They let people smoke in here?!”

“They do in the VIP section,” Joe chimes.

“He’s quite the delinquent, isn’t he?” Gwil says, appearing from the dancefloor and resting his hands on Ben’s shoulders. Gwilym is gentlemanly and eruditions, classically handsome, one of those people whose sincerity reads all over their face. His voice is different than Ben’s, lighter, sharper, less husky; he’s tall and slim and polished. In a phrase, he’s outlandishly lovely.

“I didn’t come here for an intervention, mate,” Ben responds, but his tone is pleasant and at-ease.

“Sorry for loving you, Ben!” Joe yells. “Sorry for caring about your longevity!”

“Sorry for wanting to grow old with you and retire together!” Gwil wails theatrically.

“Oh wow wow wow,” Rami says, shaking his head and smiling. Lucy is clutching a Malibu Sunset and trying to drag him back to the dancefloor, her polka dot dress swirling dreamily around her ankles.

“Wait,” Joe begins, “this is awkward, I definitely already purchased adjacent burial plots for me and Ben and the cemetery has a strict no-Welshmen policy, so...”

Laughing, you turn to Ben, and all at once the two of you are alone in this deafening and pulsing space. He takes another draw, the lit end of his cigarette glowing like embers, his eyes—green like envy, like a snake’s skin, like insatiable greed—all over you: your lips, your neck, your chest, lower. Something deep and shapeless ripples through you, déjà vu or recognition or desire or all of that and more; you want to reach out and touch his flushed flawless skin with your fingertips, you want to make sure he’s real. Gwil and Rami and Lucy are engrossed in some conversation about the best neighborhoods for apartment hunting in London, but Joe’s squinting suspiciously at you and Ben through the veil of smoke. You can’t fool him.

“Right,” Ben says suddenly, crushing the rest of his cigarette in an ashtray. “I’ve got to run. Y/N, do you want a lift home?”

This is just for show, just for the low-profile arrangement; of course you want to leave with him. You’ll follow him anywhere. “That’d be greatly appreciated.” As you climb out of the booth, Ben slips his phone from his pocket to call an Uber.

Joe waves, still thoughtful. “See you soon, Sweet Caroline!”

“Oh god, let’s never talk about that again.”

Rami gives you a sophisticated peck on each cheek, Lucy a spirited hug and a delighted little squeal; her oversized dangling earrings drag along your cheek as you pull away. Gwil takes your hands firmly in his own. “It was wonderful to meet you, love,” he says. “Come along anytime.”

“You’ve all been so kind!” you gush tipsily, and that’s the truth; they’ve been almost preposterously welcoming.

“Yeah yeah, you’ve stolen the show,” Ben says affectionately, maybe even proudly, guiding you towards the front of the club with his palm pressed lightly against the small of your back. “Cheers! We’ll do this again soon,” he calls back to the others. Joe and Gwil dramatically blow kisses after him as you push through the crowds and out into the windswept, luminescent Los Angeles night.

“What’s the hurry—?”

“Can I take you home now?” His voice is rushed and breathless; he’s doing that nervous thing he does where he glances around distractedly and bites his lips and shifts his weight from one foot to the other and runs his thumb over his chin.

“Of course,” you answer, your words hushed like clouds muting the moonshine.

A red Porsche rolls up along the sidewalk and Ben opens the door for you.

“I need you to do something for me,” you say when you’re both in the car and zooming through traffic towards the suburbs.

“Anything.”

Your gaze is devouring his high cheekbones—Eli’s, just like Eli’s—as the streetlights pass overhead, his messy hair and barely-there smile and all that lives under his fierce exterior, kindness and strength and wit and love. Love. “I need you to quit smoking.”

He laughs at you; that’s not what he expected. “Seriously?”

“I don’t want you to die young. I don’t want to lose you.” You can’t stand that thought. You’ve known him for three weeks and you’re hooked like a fucking swordfish; he’s in your bones, your blood, your lungs, he’s dragging you up from the depths and into blinding, open air.

This is too soon. This is way too soon. You don’t know this guy at all.

And yet somehow you do, somehow it feels like you always have.

Ben reaches over and weaves his fingers through yours. “I’m not going anywhere.”

He follows you inside when the Uber pulls into your driveway; he’s not speaking, he doesn’t remove his jacket or his shoes. He begins flipping through your box of records as you lean against the kitchen counter, your arms crossed.

“This is a test,” you say with a smile.

Ben makes a selection at last, drops the record onto the turntable, and places the needle. The music begins, filling your tiny one-bedroom house, reverberating off the walls that you’ve painted mint green and lilac and teal and pastel rosy pink. He still isn’t looking at me.

“Interesting choice.” The song is Save Tonight by a Swedish artist called Eagle-Eye Cherry; it’s acoustic and simple and soulful. “That’s not very classic rock of you.”

“Go on and close the curtains

'Cause all we need is candlelight

You and me, and a bottle of wine

To hold you tonight.”

“The Nineties weren’t all bad.” Ben shrugs off his jacket and tosses it on the kitchen table, kicks aside his shoes, lays his phone face-down on the counter as if he’s just decided to stay. Then he comes to you.

“Well we know I'm going away

And how I wish, I wish it weren't so

So take this wine and drink with me

And let's delay our misery.”

There’s no questioning whether you’re going to let him touch you; there’s no question at all. The thought of not being with him is agonizing, cavernous, unbearable. You’ve never wanted someone like this. You’ve never wanted anything like this.

Ben cups your face in his hands and kisses you like he’s coming up for air, like you’re a high he’ll never get enough of. He tastes like cognac and whiskey and cigarettes and lust. Your back hits the refrigerator, and your magnets pop off and clatter against the tile floor; your fingers are knotting through his hair as his trace a path beneath your blouse. He asks if you’re okay—not with his voice but with his searching eyes—and you nod a desperate yes, yes, yes. Outside the stars are raging through the blackness, those same stars that lit up the sky above the dinosaurs just a few blinks of their immortal lifespans ago.

“Save tonight and fight the break of dawn,

Come tomorrow, tomorrow I'll be gone...”

“Oh shit...” Ben’s patting his pockets, flipping through his wallet. His eyes are wide and frantic. “I don’t have a condom.”

“I’m on the pill,” you tell him. “Wait, I’m sorry, you’re an actor, you probably get psychos trying to have your babies all the time, I totally understand if you don’t trust me—”

“I trust you,” he breathes, as if he’s just realizing it.

“I trust you too, Ben.”

“Don’t say it,” he whispers, almost pleads. “You don’t know me.”

“I do,” you insist, unbuttoning his shirt, lifting all that separates you away, peeling back secrets like layers of the earth.

[smolboiseavey]

Pocket! Why don’t we 🥺

Inspired by @seungmin-jpeg and @jinyoungsir uwu

- okay literally

- Imagine how cute !!

- Tiny babie™️ why don’t we as tiny pocket people omg I cannot

- ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

- They could ride around in your pocket or sit in your hair and WKFKWKEKD so cute

- Anyway, onto the specifics

- You might be wondering, what would it be like living with pocket sized™️ why don’t we?

- Well, dear reader, it would be a mess, of course

- But a wonderful mess (๑>◡<๑)

- It isn’t unusual for at least one of them to travel around with you in your bag or pencil case when going to school

- Or when you’re running errands, they’ll sit in your hood or pocket

- How cute!

- It does tend to get a little annoying sometimes though...

- “Y/N!!! Look a puppy~ Can we go pet it?”

- “Y/N! Can we buy more snacks?”

- “No, we just bought some yesterday” d(￣ ￣)

- “Pwease?”

- You never really minded, however, as they’re just too adorable !!

- Daniel likes sitting on your shoulder or in your hair the best~

- He’ll sing to you quietly while you make dinner or do homework

- Gives the best advice!

- And always asks you about your day and loves listening to everything you tell him about

- He’s clingy AF, and will hug your shoulder or neck when you sleep

- Almost never lets you go ANYWHERE without him

- “Where are you going? Can I come with you?!”

- Babie™️

- Will pout and give you puppy eyes until you give him what he wants

- He always tugs on your fingers or tries to grab your pencil out of your hand when you aren’t giving him attention

- “Pay attention to me~” (￣^￣)ゞ

- Enjoys sitting down and drawing whenever he’s not out adventuring with you

- Even though all the stationary is twice his size

- Will sometimes write poems and songs for you uwu

- Has a ton of tiny instruments that he plays all! The! Time!

- “How was your day today, Y/N? Tell me everything!”

- You can usually find Corbyn sitting at your computer or tugging away your phone

- He just loves looking through your Instagram feed and playing games on whatever he can get his hands on

- Definitely will recite vines to you randomly in the middle of the night

- “Hey~ hey Y/N”

- “Corbs sweetie it’s 3am, what do you want?”

- “Road work ahead? Uh- yeah, I sure hope it does!”

- Then he’ll burst into a fit of laughter before telling you more vines lmao

- You also got him a tiny toy car he can drive around in

- It’s not uncommon to find him driving around your home with jonah in the passenger seat

- “Skrt skrt~ get in loser we’re going Sh0pPiNg”

- He likes sitting in your hood the most

- And if you’re not wearing a hoodie, he’ll usually find his way into your front pocket

- “It gives me a new perspective on the world~” he’ll always say

- Hypes you up!! So much !!

- Helps you with your Instagram feed

- ~tries~ to help you take pictures

- But usually your phone is wayyy too big for him to hold up （ ; ; ）

- “They should make pocket sized cameras! Then I’d be able to take Instagram pictures for you.” ~_~;

- Jonah is like, the dad of the group

- He’s usually put in charge of the house whenever you’re gone

- Big uwu

- Once tried to drink coffee from a normal sized mug and almost fell in ∑(ﾟДﾟ)

- So from then on you gave him his fix of coffee in those tiny porcelain mugs that usually come in tiny doll tea sets

- Loves when you read to him

- Like, so much

- Sometimes he’ll read too

- Everyone will sit around the book and you and him would take turns reading chapters

- Zach doesn’t really stay for long though, he has such a short attention span lol

- This man has NO shame

- He likes sleeping on your chest the best

- Will snuggle up in your boobs without warning

- Almost always trying to persuade you to wear low cut tops so he can just plop down on your chest

- “It’s so warm and soft here though~”

- If he can’t be on your chest, usually climbs into your back pocket

- Will sometimes try to help you cook

- But the most he can do is make tiny eggs and MAYBE mac and cheese

- You always let him help though uwu

- Jack is one of the rowdier ones of the bunch

- Is usually belting out lyrics or screaming about something

- If he’s not yelling, there’s either something wrong or he’s asleep

- Likes to pull pranks on you and the other boys

- Nothing harmful though!

- Loves sitting on your shoulder and braiding your hair

- Sometimes will get tangled in your hair when sleeping and stuff though

- “Y/N! Help!”

- “Are you stuck in my hair again?”

- “...maybe”

- Prefers the pocket™️

- Will snuggle into your hoodie pocket whenever he travels with you

- Likes to go watch movies with you~

- Will go with you to the store and ALWAYS asks for snacks

- Legit no matter what, he’ll ask for candies or a bag of chips or something

- And 99.99% of the time, you cave and buy him whatever he asks for

- Dramatic AF

- Sometimes will fall off the table (don’t worry, he’s okay!) just because

- “Stop doing that! I swear you give me a heart attack every time.”

- “Sorry Y/N! It’s just for the extra pizzazz I swear”

- Jokes around a lot and loves to make you laugh

- Loves sitting in your hair in the morning and helps picks out your outfit for the day!

- “Definitely wear that with this top! You’d look so good in that fit”

- Sometimes play fights with Zach ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

- Nothing too violent tho !

- Zach is the babie of the group

- Will pass for nothing but traveling in your hand

- And if he can’t be in your hand, usually is just as comfortable chilling on your shoulder with Daniel

- But he just loves snuggling into your palm

- Will sometimes cling onto your fingers too uwu

- A big jokester too

- Helps jack with his pranks a lot !

- Likes it when you play with his hair

- Unless it’s one of those days when he’s spent hours and hours on his hair

- Then it’s no touching !! At all

- He loves putting on little plays and shows for you

- A tiny actor™️

- Will sometimes force the other boys to take part in his productions wheeze

- Sings a lot too !

- Never not singing along to the music you play or harmonizing with the other boys

- You can usually find Zach doodling next to Daniel

- Or watching tv in the living room

- Or cuddled up in your palm 🥺

- They’re super cute and take care of you !!

- Even though they super annoy you sometimes you wouldn’t trade them for anything else

- In conclusion, pocket why don’t we needs to be real and I love them

Oh my god, Sammy wrote something?! And it’s about Why Don’t We?!?! Yes, dear reader, you heard that right! I’m back bitches ٩( ᐛ )و I wanted to try out the bulleted list style of writing and honestly it’s super cute and fun~ I might do it more often uwu

taglist uwu: @gracenadinelimelight, @katie-avery​, @seaveyssparkle​, @kvd963, @dagmara-mae, @jennasgolden, @helloatomicshadow, @sfx-bands, @only-stan-mendes, @whydontwenorway@boredombesson @fratnielluer @seaveylicious @daliseavey1 @aquigley24 @thisgrlrocks03 this taglist is super outdated please let me know if you want to be removed or added :))

[90sgrungelouis]

ALL 65 QUESTIONS please

OH JESUS FUCK OK HERE GOES 

im gonna put this under the cut because ohhhhh lord 

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

like in a matrix-y, were all living in a simulation and nothing is real kind of way, or a youre actually living in a coma dream state and ur body is in some hospital right now, OR in the youre actually dead and living a purgatory world and you just dont realize it kind of way? Because yes, all three 

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

mmmmmm 3.5, bonus points if its outside

3. The person you would never want to meet?

for the first time? maybe trump, or satan cowbell

4. What is your favorite word?

what are you trying to do huh? thats like making me pick between my children, i refuse to pick

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

oooo maybe a cherry blossom tree that would be nice

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

i look a mess 

7. What shirt are you wearing?

this tank top my friend designed 

8. What do you label yourself as?

sexuality-wise? uhhh jurys still out tbh but im pretty sure im somewhere on the asexual spectrum, and im 90% sure im gay

9. Bright room or dark room?

one lamp

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

crying because i couldnt focus on writing my essay 

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

ehhhh

12. Who told you they loved you last?

the ot5 gc :’) 

13. Your worst enemy?

grapefruit

14. What is your current desktop picture?

its the default mac one, it used to be a picture of the womens march but my computer fucked up and reset it, ive been too lazy to change it back

15. Do you like someone?

i like many people

16. The last song you listened to?

irresistible by one fuckin dee boi

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

too many people

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

see above

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

nooooooo

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

my jazz hands

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

i have no idea bro

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

being the radical gay feminist in my family, its a tough job but someones gotta do it

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

those grates on the floor in the street, i always step around them

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

something vegetarian idk

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

concert tickets

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

can it be a one way ticket i want out of this shit country 

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

jose cuervos tequila yasss

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

no bois 

29. What is your favorite expletive?

fuck is always a solid choice. i like using really pg curses too tho like heck or dang 

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

my sick ass memes 

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

all of middle school LMFAO 

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

sick! that wasnt a question my dude ;)

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

my pet gerbil

34. What was your last dream about?

idek man

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

no

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

yea

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

kind of

38. What is the color of your socks?

theyre pink and brown fuzzy bunny socks

39. What type of music do you like?

i used to think i only listened to indie but its a really varied mix of punk indie and top 40 tbh

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

both

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

cant go wrong with vanilla

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

yikes

43. Do you have any scars?

yes

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

haha

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

ehhhh

46. Are you reliable?

maybe?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

where do i end up bro

48. Do you hold grudges?

ohhh heck yea. i tend to them, like little pets 

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

a UNICORN DUDEEEE

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

ur asking a person who has a memory of a goldfish

51. Are you a good liar?

not really 

52. How long could you go without talking?

probably a couple days

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

i think ive been ok so far

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

ofc

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

im terrible at those

56. What do you like on your toast?

anything you got

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

halloween doodles

58. What would be you dream car?

maybe a jeep? idk 

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

ehhhhh

60. Do you believe in aliens?

who do you think i am

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

sign me up for that astrology shit

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

u (hehe see what i did there)

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

dragons

64. What do you think about babies?

theyre cool i guess

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

idk what to do with this one soooooo tada!! i finished it woop

[zanytimetravelenthusiast-blog]

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abrupt ♡ M.T.

♡ reposted from my wattpad

♡ character: malia tate

♡ word count: 1.2k+

♡ warnings: malia body checks a twelve year old

        (Y/N) doodled on the margins of her notebook with a bored expression, drowning out the teacher's full lecture on the civil war.

        It was just the same information again and again, and the same multiple choice for test at the end of the unit. She didn't need to take notes.

       However, it was apparent that her long-time crush, Malia Tate, did not share her mentality.

      In the desk diagonal from her own, the girl was scribbling down notes like her life depended on it, the graphite pressing down on the paper darkly.

      (Y/N) jumped out of her Malia-induced daze as the girl's pencil snapped, and she let out something that could be compared to a growl.

      (Y/N) smiled to herself, retrieving her extra pencil and leaning forward.

      She delicately tapped the frustrated girl on the shoulder, who turned around, ready to snap at whoever was touching her, but her gaze softened at the sight of (Y/N) holding out a pencil with a bright smile.

      Malia grabbed the pencil from her and turned back around to continue her notes without so much as a smile.

      She blinked at the girl's abrupt response, but let it go, returning her focus to the cactus forming on her page.

♡

      (Y/N) expected that to be the end of it, and to return to being ignored by Malia as she had been all year.

      However, this theory was proven false as Malia followed her out of the classroom when the bell rang, and stayed right by her side the whole way to (Y/N)'s locker.

      "Uh," (Y/N) cleared her throat, an awkward blush dusting her pale cheeks, "you can keep the pencil. I don't mind."

      "I know," Malia spoke simply.

      "Oh," (Y/N) frowned in confusion, but refrained from asking any more questions, "alright."

      Malia stayed silent, observing the girl curiously as she began exchanging her books.

      She stood behind the girl, blocking her from the view of the rest of their peers.

      Once (Y/N) finished at her locker, she was certain Malia would leave her alone, but the taller girl simply proceeded to walk her to her next class in silence.

      "This- this is my class" (Y/N) jerked her thumb in the direction of her A.P. Psych class, confusion still prevalent in her mind.

      Malia simply watched her as she awkwardly backed up into the door, staring at her until she sat in her seat, and then leaving.

      At the end of class, Malia was right by the door, waiting to take her to her next class.

♡

      This pattern continued on for almost a week, and (Y/N) was too afraid to ask her what she was doing, because she really didn't want her to stop.

      Malia was walking the girl to A.P. Bio in complete silence, as was the protocol for the two, when (Y/N) spotted Isaac Lahey from across the hall.

      She beamed at him, the two having been friends since middle school.

      "Hey," he grinned, waving from across the hall.

      He started making his way over to the two girls, but stopped at the sight of Malia glaring at him, the girl's body rigid.

      Isaac furrowed his brows at the girl, but then he took in the way Malia was stood protectively in front of (Y/N), and he smirked in realization.

      He threw his hands up in the air and continued past theme, Malia's glare piercing his back until he was out of sight.

      As soon as he left, she relaxed again, lightly grabbing (Y/N)'s wrist and tugging her forward, continuing their journey to A.P. Bio and leaving a flustered (Y/N) with a confused expression.

♡

      This behavior was odd enough, but (Y/N) knew Malia was eccentric. It was one of the reasons she had fallen for her in the first place.

      The real trouble came three days later, out on the lacrosse field.

      (Y/N) came to the game, as she did every game day to support Isaac, who, by the way, was very unsympathetic to her situation.

      Sure enough, Malia Tate showed up soon after she had settled down on the bleachers, and proceeded to sit very, very close to a flustered (Y/N).

      Still, this didn't seem out of the ordinary, given her odd behavior recently and the fact that she had friends on the team.

      The "incident" didn't occur until after the game was over.

      (Y/N) hopped down the bleachers and went to see Isaac like always, laughing and shoving him away when he tried to hug her before taking a shower.

      Scott, Stiles, and Liam exited the locker room with freshly washed hair and clean clothes, seeing (Y/N) and Malia standing on the other side of the field.

      " (Y/N)!" Liam screeched in a high pitched tone, running towards her with his arms out to give her a hug.

      "Oh dear god," she laughed, but held out her arms in anticipation.

      The hug never came.

      She jumped back in shock as Malia slammed Liam to the ground before he could reach her.

      "What the hell?" she yelled out as Scott and Stiles began bolting across the field to reach them.

      "Sorry, sorry," Stiles rambled as Scott tugged Malia off of Liam, "nothing to see here. Just some playful banter. We'll be going now, have a great night!"

      (Y/N) stood, her mouth agape as she watched the three boys drag a struggling Malia off the field and away to the parking lot.

      It could have just been her mind going crazy in the chaos, but she could have sworn the girl's eyes were glowing.

♡

      "Okay," (Y/N) plopped down in a seat at the picnic table with a huff, "what is wrong with Malia?"

      Malia's group of friends - Scott, Stiles, Liam, Mason, Allison, Kira, and Lydia  froze at her words, looking at her with wide eyes.

      "What? Nothing's wrong with Malia," Stiles began to ramble from the seat beside her, "She's fine. Why are you asking? What's wrong with you? I mean-,"

      The spastic, flannel clad boy was cut off by Malia shoving him off the bench and taking his seat next to (Y/N).

      "Ah- ow," Stiles began to groan dramatically, "oh god."

      Scott jumped out of his seat to help his friend up, and Lydia rolled her eyes in exasperation.

      "Why do you always do that?" (Y/N) demanded.

      "Do what?" Malia frowned, digging into her mac & cheese.

      "Aggressively keep me away from other people," (Y/N) elaborated.

      "Oh," Malia shrugged, "I'm protecting you from other possible mates."

      "Oh god," Lydia groaned, pinching the bridge of her nose.

      "Other mates," Malia said, "oh, right, Stiles said you called it girlfriends and boyfriends."

      "What the hell are you- what?" (Y/N)'s face was distraught.

      "What?" Malia wrinkled her nose, as though she were asking a ridiculous question, "You gave me a pencil, I accepted, and now we're dating. I have to protect you, that's how this works."

      "Malia, no," Allison spoke softly, "you can't just tell people that you're dating them. You have to ask-,"

      "I'm okay with it," (Y/N) cut her off quickly.

      "What?" Stiles blinked in confusion, having fully recovered from his fall.

      "She said she's okay with it," Malia rolled her eyes, "how are you all not getting this? Honestly, and you say I'm the clueless one."

[aliciavspinnet]

💫 🌻 🐝 ✨ (natalie) (lol) 💛 (okay so i was greedy & i want them all) (also ur choice of emojis made me giggle) (wtf is the middle one omg omgmgmgmg) (also pls forgive me pls for being the worst person in the world on kik) (i stg my love for you has not changed one bit i'm just The Antisocial Queen) (also i love you did i mention that?)

(natalie? rly? i never knew?)(lol it’s not like i have a tag dedicated 2 ur beautiful existence or anything)(also it’s a bee!!)(i luv bees)(and ahhhh i love u no matter what (also messaging can be stressful so plz never do it when ya don’t wanna do it))(also so sorrry this took 5eva u were literally the last one in my inbox and also i had to do it right) 

it’s all under the cut (cause i mean it’s long) 

trash aesthetic ratehumor category thing: memes / dad jokes / sarcasm / awkward pauses and rambles one of these: …wtf / *cries* / m8 / fight me a piece of kiwi slang (this is mia’s fault): chur / shot gee / yeah nah / cuzzies / GC one line of trash: when ur on a road trip with ur friends and the music is blasting really loud like super loud and ur singing to each other and the windows are down adn ur having a rocking time and the music isn’t exactly main stream it’s more like this is a fun lol (like mamma mia or something idk) and then u pull up to a traffic light and ur keeping on at it and then someone comes up next to u and they stare at u for a bit cause they r like who are these crazy people? and u don’t realise it but then one of u points it out to the others and ur all like oh my heck nooooOoo and it seems like forever until the traffic light turns green ur super embarrassed but also dying of laughter aesthetic rate water / fire / earth / wind silver / gold / rose gold / bronze merfolk / faries (well pixies but yeah) / dragons / witch or wizard stars / moon / galaxies / constellations dawn / noon / dusk / midnight natalie: fruit ciders, road trips, seeking adventure, beanies and blankets, the embodiment of the word cozy, over-sized pajama tops, tipsy giggles, secluded pieces of nature that look like pixie hollows, well worn favourite pieces of clothing, quirky doodles, tipsy giggles, the soothing warmth of the sun on your back, clowning around in public with friends (because when your with them you feel like you’re in a movie and everything is magical) compliment: w o w where do i start? natalie honestlyyyyyY ur amazing and i have said it a zillion times and i will 4eva say it over & over cause u r first off ur blog is increasingly and forever stunning honestly (i love) it’s just too damned beaut for it’s own good (so i visit it a lot)(hehe) and i just love all the effort and the unique themes and the pleasing aesthetic (and i will forever love the little emoji u have by wonderstruck)(they make me happi!!) and ur creations r OH MY heckity heckheckheck how do u hecking do it? (always makes me emit a woahhh) (sooo good) also ur always doing soemthing always interacting (how?)(it’s amazing)(i cry) and then UR personalityyyyy is honestly the bestt (i love) ur like the embodiment of soft & cozy but also with bubbly & giggly and probably the right amount of (i’m trying to think of the word - i wanna say inappropriate but not necessarily dirty just like almost morbid and cruel but not AH I CANNOT EXPLAIN)(u have the right amount of the humor i cannot explain okai ty) and basically it is my eternal dream to one day go on a road trip to a far away place and cross a bridge (u have to hold my hand cause i hate heights)(*disclaimer i would love them on a broom hence the quidditch love cause i trust that i can control it*) but we would cross this swing bridge into the fairie relm where we can live as pixies in an apartment that is super aesthetic and we make rly nice breakfast food and sometimes i shall drag u to edgy pixie punk rock concerts cause i bet u they exist and we dance away in the mosh pit Playlist for natalie:

(largely consisting of songs i love to dance around the house to)-don’t stop –> (fleetwood mac) -knee socks –> (arctic monkeys) -i guess that’s why they call it the blues –> (elton john) -rock N roll suicide –> (david bowie) -mAria –> (green day) -give me a Try –> (the wombats) -i’d do Anything for love –> (meatloaf) -mr. brightside –> (the kiLlers) -bohemIen rhapsody (duh) –> (queen) -naive –> (the kooks) E moves in her own way -dance floor anthem (i don’t wanna be in love) –> (good charlotte) -hold the line –> (toto) extras: friday i’m in love (the cure) // 1985 (bowling for soup) // year 3000 (busted) // come on eileen // (along with many other 80s songs cause i love them a lot & should make a playlist for u someday of them all)

no more please

[tinyolsen]

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o 1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? Sort of level but if anything more milko 3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? Post it notes, traintickets, bus tickets, anything tbho 5: are you self-conscious of your smile? Yes if my mouth is open/ showing some teeth cos idk it feels weird but to quote my mate I have “a cheeky lil smile” so o 7: do you name your plants? I have a mini cactus called oucho (see ed and oucho from cbbc) o 9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? Yes if no one is around, I was singing in the kitchen in my uni accom and the cleaner walked in, I nearly diedo 11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends? Bert box, hughhhhhhhh and hades without any of the weird shito 13: what’s something that made you smile today? I went to a talk by sunny Jacobs and peter pringle and when they said we have 4 goats and live together, I beamed they are sooo cute (btw look them up their story is amazing)o 15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! Venus is 462 Co 17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? I wont dye it but like dark blue/ black like gabriella in hsm 2o 19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? I do I have three, one for cute memories, one for random facts and one that has doodles in it mainly of my dogo 21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. My fav bag is no bag ever, cos effort to carry but my mufc hold all, has been to football tournaments, dance shows, America and back and its now under my bed at uni with spare towels and tea towels ino 23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? Play guitar, catch up on tv just chill, don’t think about work, go to the park and just sit and take pictures, dance in the kitchen (opps thing)o 25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into? I have never broken in anywhere o 27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor? Cherry o 29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? one of them does a sideways smile when you say her nameo 31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. I love patterned socks, football socks, trainer socks, slipper socks, but I have to wear just plain black trainer socks otherwise I think someone is judging me, but I really love my monkey and banana ones they are burgundy I also just got iron man, spiderman and captain America ones from my mateo 33: what’s your fave pastry? Puff, comes ready rolled, is vegan and I use it to make cheese straws for my flatmates (I have just been told that this means pastry thing, in which case cheese straws) o 35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? Yessssss! I just bought purple and blue highlighters cos I had to get rid of my old ones (long story) and they are awesomeo 37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? I like it lived in but not messy, and clean o 39: what color do you wear the most? blacko 41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? Les Miserables by Victor Hugo, its just inspiredo 43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? Someone who I dated for a bit but id like to forget that plsssso 45: do you trust your instincts a lot? lol noo 47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? Custard o 49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? Not really cos I often don’t like full albums, unless its Rumors – Fleetwood mac but I bought when you love someone (acoustic) – James TW on itunes if that countso 51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? My brother and little things cos we have a funny joke with it (funny to us)o 53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? yes, no, no , yes/ loved it, n/a, n/a, and loved it.o 55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? eaten a tub of ice cream to prove that I could bite ice cream for more than just one bite, I stared the girl in the face and bit every spoonfulo 57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? Awake, course, you are lying if you say you don’to 59: what’s your favorite myth? The Trojan horse was the first one I ever learnt in year four and it will always be my fave, but Icarus and Daedalus comes closeo 61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? This all happened this Christmas, I gave my dad a mug saying “im retired (emphasis on the tired)” and my mum gave me bin bags (im an excellent gift giver just ask my family, I out do them all every year) o 63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?  As long as the books are upright with small in the middle, large at each side idm, and my music is on specific playlists on my phone (i.e fast walking playlist, chill walk playlist)o 65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? Quite a few people from school, and the three awesome people who made my dance class epic (going to uni and leaving them sucks)o 67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? Awesome, if im okay anyway cos its so prettyo 69: what are your favorite board games? Monopoly cos I rule at it, block us and scrabble with my grandparents cos they like to use non English words/ made up oneso 71: what’s your favorite kind of tea? Good ol’ cuppa (Yorkshire tea bags) o 73: what are some of your worst habits? I isolate myself, blank out, cant react to other peoples emotions and I pop my shoulder in and outo 75: tell us about your pets! Omggg, Alfie the cute lil puppy is my bae, hes the light of my life, hes a cavalier king Charles spaniel and he’s the best boy, the only guy bar my lil brother I trust. And then my rabbit, leon the lion lop, died just before xmas, I miss the lil fluff but he was the cuddliest thingo 77: pink or yellow lemonade? After learning that this probably means American style lemonade, yellow. But uk style, lucazade pinks one is pengo 79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? My best mate gives my the best handmade cards all the time, that and a date gave my guitar picks with my name on onceo 81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. grey pebbles imagine if you put the clearest water blue stripped though out it or a grey and blue stepsil mushed together o 83: what’s some of your favorite album art? Idk tbh not gonna lieo 85: do you read comics? what are your faves? On and off, and probs the one amazing fantasy ive reado 87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? Dead poets society, 50/50 and some others I cant think ofo 89: are you close to your parents? Ish, um naho 91: where do you plan on traveling this year? Back home and idk where else yeto 93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? Side parting and just brushed, nothing fancyo 95: what are your plans for this weekend? Do uni worko 97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? Infj, Aquarius and ive had Hufflepuff, ravenclaw and Gryffindor in recent weekso 99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. Scars to your beautiful, facing west cover and halo- lewis Watson

thank you :)

[tacticalpain]

Tactical Pain Episode 014 End Endometriosis

This week Jeni Mc interviews Tessa, who was diagnosed with Endometriosis.  Tessa discusses the great pain and difficulties this condition can bring. Over 200,000 cases are diagnosed in the United States each year.  It is a chronic condition that effects can last for years and among other terrible side effects, it can result in infertility. Endometriosis is also highly hereditary and Tessa discusses the health implications for her daughter and the methods they use to keep her healthy. This episode is sponsored by DiPSy Doodle Productions Voice Talent Dave Holly https://www.dazzleshows.com/dipsy   [su_spoiler title="Machine Transcript"] [0:56] What's the matter with nerd herd tactical pay hide cat in your house jenny mac. We are here today to talk about real mean and real strategies for a better life. Today i am going to be hanging with my dad has the about living life with and me three of the. I have to thank you for joining me today for honeymoon were talking about, no because other than the air regulator time there earning in march which and me through the where next month and you how are history of being aware of and for every month, i did not get one month for. What what about your little background on what no is if you would please. Go in israel is. To not be done around the to make it easier to understand doing so i. Take your address on her the scar tissue and adhesions in her, i'm usually on the red on on the ovary is on a cul-de-sac. Can i attach itself to your bottom of your abdominal wall on your bladder number of course goes on and on because it and my great. [2:33] I'm fred. Is affected by the hormones in your body who you really are. I'm not seeing the average woman by tuesday morning hand liters of your period. On me after i was done to like two three days in my home like every other all the other days not. Now they basically it. We are under dash unit at the right level did you can cause your skin to bleed on the card presented to play not. Dr martin are you okay and wherever it detached i'm not your cramping from your your body lying. Let's have a break down a bit to make it easier to understand. [3:37] And is there something that from your very first period you are experiencing or the something that. Increase over time. Well no usually with your first period is not gonna be an issue because you buy and how do i need to check other places. Okay thank. Are you here for college either okay hold does a guy was trying i'm so i didn't really notice anything and how i was about. I have had for at least control of your mind ibuprofen and. You ready for my mama what are the women who are you die. No need to pay something for and she used more colorful language than that i'm. Hello i was just thinking for a dealer for around it was never something that you look deeper until entire nineteen. And that's something we we talked about the idea that women are free programmed to believe this is archer and period and it will be and the bad. That's the one of the bed that is really awful and where were programmed to believe it should be bad. [5:14] Right exactly because. The for our parents you know the answer in fact i'm fourteen and i'm with daniel sixteen whatever the hair the knowledge that yeah that series about the stock is there he informed us that. So your saying. [5:35] And and we always been told to hide it i know were not talking about that you don't talk about that right and. We don't talk about and how to let you know that how that. I have model for an old i have had in the nineteen you need to get that checked out because around me like you have no and. You and i talked about you not wanting to get serious times look like you have the right. There are not educating them how else are we supposed to change it rain even if we. The leader bay i'm on my period and we don't talk about water period is or what it's like even for women with other chronic pain conditions i know that with my fibro. The dealer of god and in depending on the days i'm in with my fibro some period are are much worse and and now i'm lucky enough to know the difference between a mild an average. Normal period birthday to when things are really bad and if we don't talk about it. How does anybody know what the standard for my own use of year is exactly yeah road to the whole period what is available and then back to normal. [7:05] You should be able to function. And what could be able to have a life who should be out of work or school speaker children whatever it case maybe. What color crown seventy one throw up and die. [7:23] And i think there's a lot of times and you gone through that where you even when you probably should have been bed ridden you don't have to put your responsibility you going to work or money did all those thing. [7:39] Yeah you do this part of your life like you said you only had two good days a month you can be a mom just for today i am on. Oh nice lol not that i did a woman learn to live with and how real level of pain that is not normal. Lol alright volume money and exactly there. If you're not hot you're a pain in your friend in your doctor you have roof top. Play comparable hockey your spouse for you know sir friends are fine. Do you have to be local you have to talk about it need to try a doctor degree from nobody else just character. They don't listen to you complain entirely do you find a new doctor. Find me a doctor what about let's talk about how you can hear that i know that you notice in your late teens early twenties the years your period where. Working for margaret then they probably should be holy and not all like this directly. The first thing that means anything goes. Get past theory out that wasn't my mom had a hysterectomy at twenty seven she kinda forgot that part was required to the nearest my first app and nineteen. [9:14] I'm horny dollars because i'm a. I have to have a period of time where i had to lay down if i didn't lay down the minute i saw that i had to change my clothes. And i can work in time to the job and during the period i was really glad to much lol that and the whole job like that way. [9:42] I have forgot you forgot about her period she anything because she didn't see that there are really bad storm so far but the chain you down too often. Hello i placed in a group member control am. Can you deliver with the birth control usually the first line of the first line of medical defense most doctors will that have irregular difficult period regardless of the condition. Yeah hello. Yeah there and give me shouldn't matter calling in birth control doesn't stop our ability to get pregnant if it's a hormone replacement therapy where were dot org asking arm on. Exactly and you know it didn't at first yes help i don't recall having issue is set. Tell me the time of nineteen very twentieth. I'm here if you need my grandma lot about being a lot of pain and. Shoe me that i have not so she of course you know hey calcium magnesium and zinc in thailand was your prescription. And it didn't help him and then get virgil i'm not backing ibuprofen and tylenol that my tried to adjust the person. [11:12] I am in my twenty years i have been and when i wake two am bunny because it hurt so that. Replace that i was emergency room. And this pregnancy has it was live with me i heard on their contact the. I need after your mom in the morning it is morning on it every time my now ex husband was military so i had a few days after first. Alright we now go to your closet in the year date of my neck you can you give me ideas and birth control. I'm. And before and after that can we were home for ninety days and in my general doctor let them in for a great year. And you can not giving dr in the parking lot. And the wonderful colonel back is he wanted to remove my left ovary because it looks. In that time are you had for diagnostic measures was a physical path did they do an ultrasound profit from. [12:43] And i can't be diagnosed from just no sound no no i'm. Something to think hannah and i don't know how that's possible because i see pictures i have my pictures i think it is on line you know i do my research i follow up on that it was a black shirt. Late there is no way you can see the on off around. And always i pictures because the camera and have been and will be removing some scar tissue. [13:22] And the water looks like black shirt is leaking pee office on. [13:30] So dr wanted you take one of your ovaries and your in your mid twenties and have a child yet no. [13:38] I'm in a client that. What could be allowed to when civilians go to the medical doctor and they say i have to have it back nothing in before doing anything like that. Room in back is unity do not present i was a civilian they had to help pay to this terrible terrible man. No my daughters middle name is his last name and not have to pay and. I mean just wanted to set up for one year old girl with the bacterium so he's on it i grandpa. Of course she had in mind that it's a push heating were here shut up and take something and that. Is it a lot but it just made me cry just through there is nothing wrong and that's when i found. [14:41] And after that. Regardless of the physical pain that you had to go through what. What was it like in motion to get an idea like that with where you relieved because finally happening answer where you. Here are all. I don't know what to do after everything freaking me now you now i'm a after paying the diagnosis no idea what they were talking about when it was and. And where were annual little on how to share palate. On the right you know i yesterday research history but you you don't look for answers and. [15:35] And can there answer was one thirty two trillion chemical menopause. On in the home front and me and is it a long way in the last year on fifteen years by. Back then it was shot but i got one from on high thank god for health care for the military because one shot was five hundred dollar. [16:05] And now something in the that occurred to me is that. Even the diagnostic experience if you had not been ensure heard was you gone to the doctor at all or if your insurance is not covered the. Things would you have gone at all because again women are supposed to have a period. Right exactly no absolutely not i mean is insurance for the kind of insurance or the ability to pay that much for coming on so they can tell me what's wrong and i can't fix it. Rain at our lady mean in the year period. Yeah it's me again and the little girl i'm so if you don't have insurance or the right insurance or the insurance absolutely i'm. Personally i do know that right here in washington state medical will cover after the and it says your. Surgery is out. I have a friend to how to had insurance and he was capable of being on the diagnostic so you know there are ways around it but i highly doubt it up for five hundred. Right i'm so i didn't run which was in a coma. [17:37] Which was how i thought my god i hope it doesn't happen again. [17:46] What time is good for the baby is come along way i do research for luke bryan i found out that it could be used as a chemical castration. Your man and dramatic that it is it is how long will. Absolutely it's not pretty hard is not for me that is it is heavy duty. And anybody how you did anybody give you any insight into how that could be before you get. Now not reading any information that you are happy and then say that you know i forget where the numbers were back then dies it work and i was like seventy percent of running. React well to run the fact that they don't have pain after a on and i was enrolled to the fact that and put them in canada enterprise, i made my body hurt after it has been shot, yeah yes i hate when the wind last for the rest of your life because i know you said is expected and i'm on treatment. What's happening monday ten. Hi i'm money penny was sitting three and there was a person is me pain free for the next five to seven years. [19:21] Any where that at all the case hold on now i'm not is freaking leisure nine months. I say green and it back shot which are the nicest flat on. And the two worst one now here in the winter when being in ninety eight with a fan on me. I didn't ask you for anything and it is so bad. No add me any insight on any of that and again your still in your twenty your. Not yet a mom. No the name between prime and and later on you you did get pregnant what were they. Lower the running the tried and and what is the matter talking about your risk of infertility and. And i really want you have to take the test for you unable to conceive. Right i'm not really happy that any of that eventually they did say hey there are you in three days i can't incorrectly but it was hysterectomy. [20:57] Not at the radiator twenty seven. Right on dr pushed in place in history hysterectomy and you have to understand around and like now i refuse to not willing to. And so i you know justin account now so we're talking universal control. Because your friend. And then you know just how it is ibuprofen and tylenol whatever the case maybe i can hear the pain and then just suck it up buttercup. [21:42] How old are you when you did finally become president. Three i lower the longer a woman. [21:55] I don't wanna wait to the twenty seventh baby whenever they want but but there are different as you get older determine your own house arrest the so you had. What the what would happen to the and when you finally do become pregnant. What happened to carry her nolen and i was lucky i'm coming having the entire page is entertaining lol a. And the lucky i have the entire time i was pregnant and how about tells you about nine months old so i had but he month being pain free and it was marvelous. [22:40] Can you have dan dealing with. What year you work twenty days of paying per month for fifteen years at that point right. Hello after that and started to return and read her. Looking back with a vengeance if you like test at me because i got pregnant i only plane. It didn't gradual thing it came back on for one apple on like. Yeah like that yeah it worse before it was hard function. [23:29] And that's how you came to making the decision you made in the last couple years because it was just the pain anymore it with your quality of life, right now i have this the little girl that i have to i mean on the that have helped but the little girl that is the amount of roasted garlic r and you feel trapped and you clean and. Not be why are canadians had enough time right. [24:00] And you did to go for the full hysterectomy yet ready for gym forty. That is what can and at that time they decided that. [24:16] I need a container one more time but it didn't hold because of course means i'm at that point i was thirty seven. Turn it on it hold on we decided that probably having another one wasn't really feasible low on a high breast cancer so for. United we go ahead and how do you correct me to come to improve my quality of life and. [24:52] Garrett very misconception of public bed and hysterectomy is the cure for endo that not go. [25:03] We are not all the hair did you can be totally separate from the years and bread and other parts of body. What are the speeding ticket away evening still be there. Absolutely girl who we chose to remove everything ovaries uterus and cervix. I am a manager not to do so hormone replacement therapy because now in the in the into surgical menopause. Are there any that was not to do the hormone replacement because we want to be be in jail. Because that's exactly what you're doing on your hormones back in and tightly removing everything from the farmers burn that. I'm so it didn't. I mean for me i live in relatively it but if it's not attached to the nearest but cannot attach to. The back side of your bladder am to hear. Can you please turn on backend know that he is working with the police on an employer out at the hormones back in. [26:24] Thirteen that we had a hidden monster. I wanna be taking a vacation that the source away. And there can still be some hidden somewhere navy inadvertently for the growth of it again. Yeah and it still grow in your uniform on and you don't even have to do hormone replacement if you are month i'm out our beef are chicken at four hundred one than. Why why one and when and how it is because our society comes from on an two or three. [27:10] And you tried to go up. Is the surgery the side. Knowing that be you potentially still could have and o-o living in your body you were diagnosed with secondary pain condition. Yeah i'm looking to buy them out and. [27:41] Probably with dealing with that and didn't realize it in addition to the end of the end or very overwhelming. I'm doing so how did you handle. [27:58] How do you handle being told oh by the way here's hoping to be in pain for the rest of your life. [28:06] You know after the paper so i can just take the gran fondo okay well mercury six figure the chocolate one i. [28:17] The quality of life why is it better saying it is definitely. How can you be that i get to learn and have to legacy hacker change because we both know that's not gonna happen to deal with that is just a newbie that i have to learn to fight. [28:44] What is the one piece of advice that you would give to. The one in the back he has and i'll go talk to dr. And the doctor always says you can't manfully do and if they don need to find a doctor. There are good ones out there are resources to help you find one doctors if you have the means or the insurance on i was like enough to stumble upon one. Buy the there are good doctors out there they are compassionate and caring and. Their dad have forums where they actually you know post stuff think he lived there pain about about window and how they're treating that and they do take me. Personal. Take personal care unit they don't just say okay we're here we're going to destin you never talk to me again do you research it means travel to the doctors because it is lower. And your motivation beside your on how is your daughter's house. Yeah there's a there's a very high chance thank you rewind up with in the process. [30:10] What is your plan as a mom when she reaches that age where is time to start talking about the joys of womanhood. How do you do will definitely. Hello is only definitely because i know from my own personal story as well as i have all these friends that painful periods are normal. So since his on after we were looking at acupuncture and you know the right supplement to make sure that you know we are meeting her body hopefully with. This relation really picky eater so i don't think the diet lower my me. We will definitely be looking at you know okay told replica free range chicken rather than monitor pumps her mom let nature that we are looking at a rate that way how. I'm interested in those hormones that make me hurt worse and give her a hand. Yeah you're a chance to have another eighteen three because was no there's a lot of them were not right. Oddly enough her godmother leaving it at that time i had a windows well i am. Hello he has a resources and i forgot mother is forcing. [31:45] Like a healthier food for him so he can you will be a huge help as your helping your mind who is you like that may help reduce some of that information. [31:59] What do you think it is your great support system throughout. [32:07] All of this. You know in the morning there they're probably very little support and you didn't even know what hundred needed belt but now what do you think is your greater support system and how did you come to find it. God bless facebook i'm no my story dan doesn't feel out of in my he is huge for a four wire. He has done history homework she knows enough about not to be intelligent when you speak doing it hamper experience after dealer that he will that i have i done it as well. This is him, friends and facebook there are so many support groups out there the women are caring and compassionate and full of, it is only taking mine off then how to help us at the. [33:11] Yeah i'm good personal friends family are visiting fam was not. A house for six then i'm very well how that problem think we will find that really. We talked about this when our program you'll be at the pilot about her period not talk about that. That the growth that you know. Yeah absolutely i think your brother wanna hang out have fun talk with you absolutely not yo people. He just laughs you know what is in the process like you they think ten google at the door looking for pictures and i cannot help but yeah. I have a sister are here and there's people, i learned that one over time because i tell people and then it would look it up and the other half it because it is disgusting, i'm. No not like blood glory just testing it just when you looking at the entire human being right will never leave and we have there can you call at seven hundred four and. Ab absolutely absolutely send going forward. [34:42] Now you find it does the same support system that you reach out you are there for you with the fibro or is there a little bit of a fifty gal we're where your support system. There's only so much we can do right mom happy always to adapt that part of your life. Yeah again um offices and a homework me when i complain about something you understand what i'm saying i'm. I want the interviewing new director of dollar foreign in is you resource. I never was like it on line and lost my friend. [35:31] Are intelligent enough to look it up before they tell me old you now. Try to log in to their i hate hate on the oh yeah i think that you might. Yeah i'm sure you wanted the data from any you later have and or you don't have to that i need to live my. Not ready for the way. And no way to know the rpm power and nothing changes i'm. Solution pressure we don't know my friends are really gonna lie you know okay passage you really doing that i was in a. [36:19] Well i appreciate you talking with me you have a video of us talking a little bit about the history and on facebook as well i am. Where does it. For all of our listeners ami jamaica your mission if you are woman and you lose that you're going through something like that or you suspect someone in your life is. Don't be afraid to talk about it and if you are a man don't be afraid to talk about it you know what you think your wife or your daughter or your sister your mom. If you think they are going through something like that don't don't be afraid they will what can i do to bring a six pack of cupcakes. And for early one because now living yeah acknowledging that you me even if i don't know what to do you know if there is a huge. I think any painting this and having someone even if they admit that they don't know what to do they don't want to say that the reason there kinda stunned silence is because he was happening to. Absolutely not huge help to know that i'm not in the ball bad that you can hear that i'm in pain and struggling is a huge help. [37:46] Absolutely what i think you and i think i earn this year and. We live it up in the five that how that is their website to report on p three on and remember that over three and as always compassionate i was, go home and do your research go and enroll and and. [/su_spoiler]

[artistsofaustin]

 J. Sam Frankel

“Don't live life as an artist, live life through the eyes of an artist. Even if your purpose in life is to be an artist/creative/visual story teller, life doesn't always call for paint or pen.”            

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What triggered your initial interest to make art?

I was around 6 or so when I showed my initial interest in art - it would be heavily inspired and fueled by my grandmother, Kaye. Or Neenaw as we called her. She was involved with Art Therapy at a rehabilitation center in Lexington, Kentucky. There is a small doodle I did at this time while visiting her, its my first still life done on a pharmaceutical company post it note. A boot-shaped looking vase with a couple sad flowers in bic pen. From then on, I was doodling in the margins of dog-earred notebooks, from kindergarten with Inspector Gadget/Get Smart-esque spies to middle school textbooks. 

I don't remember a time I was not doodling or ideating on anything I could get my hands on. I was a fan of coloring books when I was much younger, but I just wanted to create my own cool things. A lot more so to escape a troubled and tumultuous childhood. Small Rural towns don't provide a lot of artistic inspiration, I looked to comic books for both inspiration and escape.  I had this one issue of Amazing Spiderman circa 1997 that I copied the pages from over and over again, getting caught dozens of times by this hellish Social Studies teacher. 

Yet, again my fated location didn't provide opportunities for great art supplies either. Using what i could - typically an art box kit my mom bought from the Sears Catalogue or an assortment of Crayola Markers/Crayons. Not getting a hold of a paint brush till I was twelve. Neenaw had set me up with oil painting lessons with an old, country-lady version of Bob Ross named Edith King. 

From then on I attended a magnet program for the arts in High School - which afterward it was non-stop art, sketching, doodling, painting, creating. 

What have been some of your main sources of inspiration?

My grandmother played a major role. Not just in the facilitation and access to the arts - but in a love of color and making your own thing. She always added a bit of her own personal flare or touch to everything she owned: clothes, furniture, home and so forth. Creativity was something you lived not just did.

Of course, my favorite teachers - with few exceptions - were my art teachers. I had some amazing, and patient, professors while attending Northern Kentucky University (NKU). At that time, I was very interested in graffiti artists - mainly mural and poster work. I was in college during the early days of GIANT by OBEY/Shepard Fairey and Banksy, but it was Sam Flores out of San Francisco who got me going - he plays with a lot of confluence between humans and animals, touches of his Asian-American roots aesthetic. 

Overall my love of comic books and graphic novels opened up the desire to be a comic book artist in my own right. I was a fan of mainstream names for sure - but it was the one-off Superman/Batman stories that grabbed my eye, those with unique artist/writer mashups. Frank Quitely & Grant Morrison for one - their work on All-Star Superman and New X-men was phenomenal. It was the art of David Mack in Kabuki and Daredevil (also an NKU Alum) that got me on the style of work I aspired to make - watercolors, ink washes, and just a free style of art. It was because of him I wished to attend NKU itself. More recently, finding Rafael Grampa as a newer artist I am inspired by. (Frank Miller's DK is a must)

My travels to the Middle East and connection to Judaism has played a role in my work. Religious imagery and subjects; and an eye for the architecture. There is a lot of color palette, iconography, and lighting being used in all kinds of interesting ways in religion. I have fun combining it with surreal subjects to add this holy aspect of the scene. 

My other Artist inspirations: Winsor McCay, Geoff Darrow J.M.W. Turner, William Stanley Haseltine. 

Lastly, music - I grew up with an 80's mom who loved Fleetwood Mac, Prince, Robert Palmer, and Madonna - with a grunge rock brother to follow.  I feed off a lot of visually strong artists these days - Arcade Fire - Queens of the Stoneage, The Decemberists, TV on the Radio. 

What’s your purpose as an artist?

I always baffled my art teachers when I would explain that my art was just for fun. It was difficult for me to express my feelings through art that read well to others. Art's purpose for me was an escape, something that doesn't exist, a new idea or place. Away from life. 

The want to tell a narrative stems from the dream to be a comic book artist, but I want my viewers to come up with their own narratives. I want it to be a snapshot of a moment or from another world that has different stories to tell. Much of my art is derived from an idea I had about a comic book series that went from conceptual character to a series of mutated vegetation. 

Art is definitely therapy or a healthy distraction for me. I wear my emotions on my sleeve, painting it down helps properly express myself. Diverting that energy into something I control, followed by a sense of accomplishment. There is nothing like having a finished piece(s) having been made during a time of turmoil or emotional distress. I am one who thrives in chaos and under pressure. It took my mind of my deployment to Afghanistan, a small sketchbook and plethora of sharpies. 

What would you recommend to other artists that seek for inspiration?

Don't live life as an artist, live life through the eyes of an artist. Even if your purpose in life is to be an artist/creative/visual story teller, life doesn't always call for paint or pen. You have to be in the moment in-order to enjoy it; that enables you to take the full experience and translate it on paper/canvas with that much more vigor.  But always bring something to take notes with - I have mountains of notebooks from my military days that I jotted all my ideas for work and comics, it kept my creative side engaged while I did my job at the same time. 

For me - the experiences I had where I couldn't be knee deep in art are what defined me as a person, later deriving what I learned from those experiences to my art. From the Army I understood that if you want to succeed you have to lay those pounds of flesh down - special forces guys are good because they dedicate their lives to being proficient with their craft. If you want to be a big bad artist, you have to start somewhere, from one sketch a day to one sketch an hour. No one starts out as good artists, even those with natural talent, only that can carry them so far. 

Curating your Instagram is a good way to have a non-stop flow of inspiration. Follow new and up-coming artists to see what the trends are. Follow artists who do the kind of art you wish you could, they share techniques and advice. Follow other visually strong people, not just the popular people. Don't follow artists who have more photos of them "thinking of the next big piece" or have huge numbers of followers with very little work to show. 

If you are nervous about a new medium but dying to dry it out, do an experimental phase with it. Grab your favorite CMY relative hues, just the basic colors Blue Red Yellow even, plus a black of the same medium. This is a low cost investment. Use the colors in the new medium to create small pieces in your style and usual subjects. Experiment with techniques, tricks, and process. If you like the results or feel the potential - then grab a few more basic colors. The scary thing about new mediums is that artists feel like we have to take a header into full kits - when just the basics are good enough. 

Embrace your fear of all things in the creative world - for those who are afraid of using colors there are those afraid to use black in their work. For those who are afraid of putting their work in shows there are those who are afraid of going bigger with their work. We learn more from our mistakes than our successes, if art was so easy of a win - every five-year old kid that parents say could do a Jackson Pollack would be rolling in Instagram fame.