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rayvern-sheep · 5 days ago
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Not enjoying that my life nowadays is just mental breakdown after mental breakdown
I don’t do well without a goal in life. And since I’ve got pretty much every achievable thing I wanted growing up, even things I couldn’t achieve myself, I’m just lost.
Especially now that I’m in constant physical discomfort, I can’t even enjoy the things. Like, not having a goal in life wouldn’t be as bad if I could actually just enjoy the things I have… But I fucking can’t.
Just existing is genuinely fucking overwhelming. I feel burned-out just by having to maintain my digestive system. I can’t handle anything else anymore idk why.
Knowing my friends are doing well is conflicting. I see them existing and I’m ofc happy for them. And I feel briefly inspired. Until I remember the body I was given… Aaaaand then I spiral. It’s why hanging out w/ my friends just leaves me feeling so hopeless nowadays. I’m not jealous per say, I don’t want their lives, but I want to be able to live one myself.
#shut up ray#cat? check!#abuser kicked out of house? check!#abuset DEAD?! CHECK!!!!!#came out as trans to loved-ones? check!#started T? check!#top surgery? check!!!!#…. now what?#my chronic illness is not fixable#i cant do anything abt it#and not being able to do anything abt it is just making life so hard#like whats the point of existing in constant discomfort. when that discomfort can turn to agony at any point w/ no way to stop it#just at any time my intestines could turn even harder on me and it might not even be smthn i did#i feel so fucking overwhelmed by everything and idk why#my life’s not chaotic in any way#in lucky enough to live in a country that supports those who cant get jobs (if you can prove it….)#i need a therpist but that also sounds rlly fuckin overwhelming so i just panic and stick my head in the sand#years are passing by and scared im terrified of my loved-ones dying so i push myself away from them#i need to reconnect w/ my dad before its too late and idk how to???? my friend made it sound so easy but she doesnt know him#how hard it is to talk over text w/ him#i guess i could call him? but hes not heard me since i started T and i dont wanna upset him….#ive not seen him in years.. hes in his 60s… wtf am i gonna do#i miss him but idk how to talk to him and im so stressed abt it i just cant…#ough… this got too personal even for me#i hate being in discomfort all the time#i cant take my mind off my guts for one second. i can feel everything theyre tryna do and no human is supposed to feel that#the digestive system is supposed to work in the background. but its become my whole damn life#feel like im drownig every day but i cant figure out how to vocalise it#can i just sens a therpist my tumblr and then go from them there? lmfao#vent
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slightlycharredwitch-blog · 7 years ago
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I’ve seen this meme being talked about by my sister and some of her friends, and there is a lot going on here. They were saying that something felt off about it but they weren’t sure what. What’s off is that it’s very poorly argued, and relies on rhetorical tricks. Let’s walk through it panel by panel, and then discuss the meme as a whole.
Panel #1: The assertion is that Biological sex is a social construct, which they attempt to support by saying that the motive was to create a society where one class loses out for the benefit of another.
The first problem with this argument is that biological sex does not describe our social roles. That’s what gender is. So the argument remains unsupported. The second issue is the over use of jargon. The majority of audiences are going to have a difficult time understanding what the author is trying to say here.
Panel #2: This is a logical counter-argument to panel one. There is scientific evidence to back the claim. It uses complex terms, so it could stand to be simplified for broader audiences, but there isn’t anything majorly wrong here.
Panel #3: This one appears pretty simple at it’s face, but there is actually a lot to untangle here. Let’s break it down into a simple argument pattern and work from there.
Statement 1: There are XX Men and XY Women Statement 2: Intersex people are are neither male nor female Conclusion: Human sexes are nonbinary.
With Statement 1, this one lives or dies based on how you define man/woman. If Man means “Adult Human Male” than there are no XX men. If Man means “Someone who identified as a man” than man describes a social role. Social roles aren’t a manifestation of sex. So either way, Statement 1 doesn’t support the conclusion.
Statement 2 is factually wrong. A biological sex describes the type of gamete (one of the cells needed to make offspring) an organism is trying to produce. Humans only have two gamete types, and a given person can only produce one of them. Intersex people’s bodies only try to produce one or the other, they don’t produce some third gamete or both. And all this is before the fact that calling them sexless is actually intersexist and discriminatory, but I’ll let someone who’s more well versed in the subject elaborate on that.
Since both statements are unrelated at best, and false at worst, the conclusion is unsupported again.
Panel #4: Notice the sudden shift in tone? In the previous panel, this guy was depicted as overly wordy and verbose just like the bearded guy. Now he’s speaking in plain language. His first line about “why the divide” would have been addressed in the first panel, had that panel been talking about gender. The second line makes no sense for him to ask since he already stated that biological sex was reality based on science, which would be why he learned it in school. So why would he ask that?
Because he’s been set up as a strawman. He’s no longer representing an actual opposing argument. He’s instead saying something bordering on irrelevant to set up panal 5 for an easy takedown, while discrediting the side he’s meant to represent.
Panel #5: The meaning here is absolutely drowning under jargon, to the point where it needs translation. Furthermore, this is a run-on sentence, which can be difficult to parse even when they have simple phrasing. So to understand, we’re going to need to break things down again. First, let’s suss out what the words and phrases mean:
Cishetropatriarchal Hegemony: Cishetropatriarchal implies “not transgender, straight, lead by males” and hegemony means a leadership, usually of nations, and often with expansionist goals. Binary Model: Here this means male/female biological sexes. Foregrounds: Usually used in visual arts, the antonym of “background.” It’s supposed to convey putting one group over another. Status Quo: Our society as a whole, at this moment. It has a charged implication in this instance, since it’s becoming political shorthand for “everything that’s wrong.”
We’ve got a bit closer to understanding what’s being said, but we’ve still got a hell of a run-on sentence to deal with here. Unfortunately, the phrasing makes it nearly impossible to tell how the author intended the sentence to flow. Interestingly, since this opens it up to reader interpretation, that gives the author room to claim that any given critique is misrepresenting the content. To try and leave the sentence as intact as possible, we’ll split it in two:
“Because the continuation and the success of the cishetropatriarchal hegemony relies on blind adherence of members of our society to”
Simplified: To continue successfully, our non-trans, straight male leadership needs people to follow blindly
“a binary model which foregrounds the maintenance of the status quo at the expense of minorities such as trans people”
Simplified: A Male/Female model of human biology is the basis that the status quo is founded on. The status quo is maintained in a way that causes harm to minorities, such as trans people.
That took so much breakdown and reassembly, by now it gets hard to remember what this was even a response to! But now we can stick everything back together and analyze what it actually being said. To summarize, we had Hat Guy ask “Then why is society divided in two, and why is biological sex taught in schools?” and the Beard Guy essentially says “Because to continue successfully, our non-trans, straight male leadership needs people to follow blindly (which supports the status quo.) A Male/Female model of human biology is the basis that the status quo is founded on. The status quo is maintained in a way that causes harm to minorities, such as trans people.“
With the haze of jargon cleared away, the argument doesn’t work, because it is still founded on the basis that biological sex is a social construct. The simplest test to see if something is a social construct is to ask what would happen to it if humanity lost self awareness and society. Does the presumed construct survive? 
Without any labels, we’d have one type of human who could produce sperm, and one that could produce eggs and carry offspring. You can only make offspring when you match a sperm producer with an egg producer. That is what sex is, in the most simple and basic terms. Biological sex exists in absence of human understanding. So the argument would fail on that fault alone.
Interaction Between Panels #4 and #5: This is where we get into some pretty clear rhetoric, which merits close examination on it’s own. Rhetoric can be used to bolster a well made argument, but it can also shore up a bad argument, since the purpose of rhetoric is to just “feel” true.
We have Hat Guy, who is representing the opposing argument. His shift in tone and sudden use of simpler language is used to imply his arguments have failed, and he’s only resisting out of stubbornness and prejudice. We’re meant to scoff at his ugly ignorance.
Then we have Beard Guy, who is set in place to make that sick take down that the audience can revel in. The panel has an accusatory air to it. The phrasing, where it isn’t making things murky, is highly emotionally charged. Phrasing like “blind adherence” paints Hat Guy, and by extension, the opposing side, as feverishly devoted to a lie.
The undercurrent of the argument in panel five implies that by taking his position, Hat Guy is supporting a system that’s using and abusing an underclass for its own gains. Without saying as much, it evokes a similar gut reaction to being told you’re supporting slavery. It’s framed as a brutal and just take down.
So rather than dismantling the opposition with counter points backed by accurate evidence, Beard Guy has instead attacked the argument with pure rhetoric. He’s guilting the opposition, defaming their character by implying they’re stupid and/or immoral. The evidence provided, rather than being dismantled, has been dismissed and forgotten.
To get all of that information across, using relatively few words, and in a couple panels is the power of rhetoric, context, and framing situations. It’s a lot to take in, and very emotionally charged. This is why we need to look past rhetoric and into arguments, no matter which side they come from.
The Meme Overall: Alright, so we have a meme here that’s absolutely loaded with poor arguments, logical fallacies, falsifiable facts, and searing rhetoric. So what? Memes aren’t essays, they’re jokes, you aren’t supposed to think to deep about them right? Glance over it, laugh, maybe glance again as you share it and see it again as it passes through your group of friends.
But this isn’t really a joke, now is it? These claims are currently being asserted as facts in long-winded, even harder to digest essays, and trickling out into more mainstream activism. It’s more akin a snippet, a quip, or a piece of an essay that’s easier to swallow. It’s the same ideas, but repackaged in a format that’s easy to understand. We know how this meme goes, who’s right and who’s wrong, and why it should be funny. We know that we don’t need to think hard about what it says.
We have an image here, one that has a clear point of view that it wants the viewer to agree with. One that misrepresents facts, and hides that with buzzwords and jargon. One that paints it’s opponents as blind, irrational supporters of evil. And we have all of this wrapped into a pithy and familiar package for that asks us to take it at face value, don’t think to hard about it, and share it widely. It’s propaganda in meme form.
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ewingmadison · 4 years ago
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Can I Have Reiki When Pregnant
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mallorytaylorblog · 6 years ago
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The real reason I created this blog.
I want to tell you how much writing this blog means to me.
I’ve been trying to articulate exactly what my ‘why’ is and the simple version is “I just want to help people”, but it’s so much deeper and much more meaningful to me than that. And I really want to get that across to you because my desire to be of service and share what I know is so much greater than myself; than anything I could ever imagine. I envision this blog helping millions of people (yes, it’s that big for me) and I’m confident that it will, but as it’s in its baby stages I realise this may just be ‘some blog’ to a lot of people. So allow me to try and explain to you why I think this could be of benefit to us both.
And by the way, a lot of you know how much pressure I put on myself… if I’m completely honest this project is going to be a labour of love - I’ll be pouring my whole genuine self into my writing. That scares the shit out of me because I know I’m going to say things that will piss people off, that will rub you the wrong way, that may polarise others… but I also know I’ve got some profound stuff to share, maybe some not so profound and more “common sense” reminders, and I’m still learning as I go. To be succinct, I truly believe this work I’ve chosen to undertake is my divine purpose.
When I think about writing this blog, I think about all the times I’ve been hurt and all the times I’ve reached out for help and have healed. Every single time I’ve gone through a rough patch; some sort of trauma, mental health issue(s), loneliness, any sort of challenge, the quickest way I’ve healed was due to connection of some sort - real, walls down, totally honest connection with another human. This says a lot about me because I would consider myself a loner in a lot of ways; I had few to no friends at many points of my adolescent (and even adult) years, I prefer to isolate myself and spend time alone, big parties and loud crowds of people easily overwhelm me and zap me of my energy (ever wanted to take a nap in the middle of a concert?) and even now one of my favourite acts of self care is sitting alone in complete silence. Admittedly a lot of my favourite ways to self care are solitary activities. I love being alone and consider myself an introvert that has mastered the art of extrovert-ism. But think about it - if we’re smart enough we reach out for help when we need it, and can find it in so many places. Therapists offices, your mum or best friend, heck I’ve ever cried and just let everything out to my totally adorable yet unresponsive cat before. All the times I’ve grown and healed and felt the most loved up were times where I’ve connected with other people (or cats) and were completely vulnerable and open to sharing my emotions. A scary endeavour for anyone to consider.
For me, it all comes down to authentic connection. No pretense or expectations, just sharing the most honest, raw, vulnerable version of myself. No walls to hide behind, no judgement, no fear. I want to share myself through this blog because I want to connect with you - yes you, a real person. All my favourite people, lay and famous, all have that in common - they’re emotionally vulnerable and put their whole selves on the table. “This is me, and I have value in this world whether you like it or not”. They didn’t let fear or circumstance stop them from sharing themselves, and the things they offered to the world gave me something to relate to. And knowing that other people from all different backgrounds, ages, sexes, socioeconomic statuses, privileges, you name it went through the same things that I go through was (and still is) SO VALUABLE to me and my experience. It made me feel less alone. It’s one of the reasons why I love reading self development and educational books, they allow me to authentically and vulnerably connect emotionally with people, even when I don’t have someone physically in front of me to talk one on one with. The connection’s in the stories we tell. I believe no matter who we are we all crave and desire connection. In the end we’re a species evolved to thrive in communities - we simply can’t do it alone.
Another part of the reason why I created this blog is because being vulnerable and exposing ourselves - our whole selves - is 100% absolutely terrifying, and I want to show you that it can be done and show you why it’s necessary that we do it. We judge others even though we’re afraid to be judged; we omit truths or keep secrets because we’re afraid of other’s reactions; we put on a mask every day to allow us the courage to face a world we feel like we don’t belong in; we carry values and belief systems that were taught to us and don’t necessarily align with our truths because we’re scared of change. Do you relate to any of that? Probably. If you’re anything like me you’ve faced feelings like that at one point or another. At the end of the day I’m writing this blog because I want to expose my vulnerability to show you there’s an immense sense of power and fulfillment in doing so. You might laugh at this, but even in Avengers: End Game (don’t worry, no spoilers here) there’s an exchange between two characters where one says to the other “Everyone fails at who they’re supposed to be. The measure of a person, a hero, is how they succeed at being who they are”. We’re supposed to be our authentic selves, we’re supposed to take off the mask and shed the shitty belief systems and open up to people. In my experience we will be miserable in one way or another until we do. The universe has gentle ways of pushing us towards our authenticity (and sometimes forceful as I’ve experienced). I know for myself, and I’ve heard it from others close to me too, that being vulnerable is painful - being completely honest with ourselves and others, changing paradigms we’ve grown up with, moving on from the things that don’t serve us so that we may walk towards what truly inspires us is absolutely painful, scary, and can make us feel like we’re losing more than we’re gaining at first. There’s a level of uncertainty in being vulnerable. But I honestly believe vulnerability is our greatest super power, and when we tap into that the universe provides us ample encouragement and life just seems to flow better.
We ALL have that super power, we just need to find it and nurture it. I feel lucky enough, worthy even, to have been given the challenges I’ve had to overcome so that I can realise emotional honesty is where my super powers lie. I understand how overwhelming and daunting being vulnerable is and, as I see it, I have a gift in writing (whether that just be the way I write or simply because I enjoy it - or both). I also have a deep desire to help and serve those around me. To me, it absolutely made sense to write a blog on sharing what makes me vulnerable, on personal development and growth, and to give myself the opportunity to share my authenticity publicly because I SEE the power in being emotionally exposed. I KNOW how overwhelming it can be. And not everyone is as comfortable as I am sharing their emotions, let alone on a public forum, let alone with the greater community and let me tell you it takes practice. The way I see it, if I can help give someone that light bulb moment with one of my posts; if I can show someone that perhaps all that pain, fear and growth is worth pushing through; if I can inspire someone to fight through their own discomfort and find ways to be their more authentic self through emotional vulnerability, then I’ve done exactly what I came here to do.
Not everyone wants to or has time to sit down and read a 300 page book on how to get over their shit. I realise we’re busy, fast paced people and I see the value in bite sized blog posts. I want to give you easy to digest tid bits that will help accelerate your growth and be a catalyst to breaking the paradigms you’re holding on to that simply don’t serve you anymore. I want to remind us we’re all human and none of us are perfect, and we’re all basically just fumbling through life doing the best we can. I just want to help you and myself become the best versions of ourselves possible.
I said it before, but honestly writing all this scares the shit out of me. As little as a month ago I stood in front of my boyfriend and cried as I shared something with him, something I shared in the spirit of crystal clear communication, feeling like every single nerve I had was raw and exposed. It was terrifying and the only way I could get through that feeling was just to cry it out. But that’s emotional vulnerability, and it brought us closer together. I’ve spent weeks trying to write this ‘why’ post because I wanted to be sure I could convey just how meaningful this blog is for me. I’ve dealt with thoughts of feeling insecure, unworthy, like I’m not the person for the job, of being judged, ridiculed and criticised, of having my whole life open to being torn to shreds by those that don’t understand how important I think this work is. But at the end of the day that’s what being vulnerable is about. I’m choosing every day to push all that crap to the side and just do the work that I think it’s necessary. Being more compassionate, loving and kind are some of my greatest values and I believe this emotional authenticity thing I’ve been raving about goes hand in hand with those values. One begets the other. I just want to help others be more open as well.
So, yeah. I hope that’s given you some sort of idea as to why I created this blog. It’s going to be an honest account of my life, and I want to share it so that it can help you connect some of the dots in your own and encourage you to be more open to receiving the lessons life is trying to teach us. I want to spread more love and kindness and this is my way to give back to the world that has provided to me so much. I really, truly hope this blog helps you in some way!
Please leave me a comment on my socials if you get anything out of this blog and the content I create. It would mean the world to me knowing this has made an impact. And if you think someone could benefit from my content, please share it with them!
Thank you!
Love, Mallory 
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