#the desire to bold nearly everything xD

[post-mortem-lullabies]

✧･ﾟ: * 𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 : 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧.

𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐄 🌊

cloudless sky / ocean waves / winter dusk / deserted rest stops / dust filled book jackets / sea salt in your lungs / open space lofts / mountainside meditation / empty ski lodges / calm before storms / electric charged air / lighthouses / road trips with no destination / desert skies / summer breeze through a cottage window / cool air against water soaked skin / seaside towns during off season / wind-chimes / big bed with lots of blankets / coming home after a long time away / a wolf howling in the distance / fingers dancing along spine / a hug from an old friend / afternoon tea / wild flowers off abandoned highways.

𝐑𝐄𝐃 🌹

wine soaked lips / internalized rage / blood on knuckles / four poster beds / barefoot on marble floor / velvet drapes / lipstick marks / murder mysteries / old barns with hay lofts / mouth full of weapons / love / dark chocolate / apple orchard visits / handwritten letters / fresh strawberry fields / cherry flavored chapstick / soft candlelight / vintage pumps / tingles over your body / strong but gentle hand around your throat / scarf tied over your eyes / fog on a rainy night / intimate bar settings / complete destruction / kiss swollen lips / scratches against flesh / sitting by a fireplace / blood orange sunsets.

𝐘𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖 🌻

community gardens / sunflower seeds / open fields / blowing dandelion fluffs / bubbles in spring / warm champagne / drafty cottages opened after winter / soft buzzing near your ear / loose braids / flaxen sundresses / handmade straw hats / warm butter on fresh toast / daisy chains / drum circles / sun on your face / maypoles / outdoor festivals / street food / car shows / pop art drawings / fruity flavors / mist on produce / running through sprinklers / cucumber water / wrap around porches / worn pages of a book / honey in tea / yard sales / freckled skin / tarnished gold lockets / angel food cake / windmills / flashlight beams.

𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐍 🍃

marshy swamps / cajun recipes / haunted graveyards / old road signs / the house people tell stories about / lights flickering / jazz music / twig snapping / campfires / ghost stories / urban exploration / vines creeping up brick / wooden flutes / quiet forests / labored breaths / hiking trails / rain on leaves / bonfires / fresh smoothies / water logged grotto / painful whispers from jealous lovers / successful business ventures / leaky cellars / park theatre productions / mint scented lotions / ambitious promises / pine needle covered floors / oil lanterns / aloe on warmed skin / crushing floral foam / forgotten towns.

𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 🦇

crinkle of leather jacket / midnight walks / bulbs burning out / black lacquered nails / the sound of bats screeching / distant marching band music / noises when you’re home alone / blood soaked knife / dark lipstick on pale skin / scent of sulfur / soot on boots / slasher movies / glint of cat eyes in the dark / oil slicks on dark asphalt / basement bedrooms / investigating a noise / grainy camera footage / black and white photos / dust filled attics / empty theatres / whistling in the middle of the night / scratches at your window / wrought iron gates / lace neck ruffles / long floor sweeping skirts / broken music boxes / needle scratching on vinyl / lost memories / disembodied voices / forgotten faces.

𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐓𝐄 ☁️

crisp scents / laundry on a line / fleece blankets / brightly lit hospital rooms / empty train stations / genuine laughter / feathers against skin / new life / cotton dresses / log cabins in winter / swan gliding through water / harp music floating through the air / plane rides for fun / mountain tops / ice sculptures / first snowflake of winter / linen freshly pressed / the scent of a running dryer / vanilla and cinnamon milk / a smile from a stranger / letters in the mail / a longing finally satiated / kiss of moonlight on skin / fresh canvas / snow glittering like diamonds / paint strokes / pretty lie told from a kind mouth / sparklers / coffee foam art.

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[egg-emperor]

I literally love watching you talk about eggman so what's your favorite headcanon for him? :)

Thank you so much! I always have so much fun talking about him here and I'm really happy that you like to see it! :'D

It's difficult to pick just one when I have an endless amount involving every aspect of himself and his life! It's easier to decide on a favorite theme, such as the way I enjoy making hcs about his personal life and what he gets up to behind the scenes. I really wish we got to see more in official media so I'm constantly coming up with ideas.

But I suppose I could take this opportunity to discuss one of my many favorites!

I love to imagine that Eggman is always delighted to talk about his interests. He's most enthusiastic about engaging in conversations about him and/or his interests lol. Tons of true love and enthusiasm show through the way he expresses his deepest passions, the most notable being robots and theme parks as his biggest interests. They go way back to when he was a child but he never got the chance to talk about them nearly as much as he'd like to.

His father never had the time, just like he never had much time for him in general. He at least got to do something he was interested in alongside him when he'd help out with his mechanic side work and learn from him as a teenager, but his father would say he needed to focus instead of talking. And he never had the time to listen to him talk about his favorite interests in robots and theme parks but Ivo knew it was because he didn't care. He could never find anyone else willing to listen either.

He's always been an attention seeker from the moment he discovered how admirable and important his grandfather was and wanted to be like him, so his father isn't solely to blame for why he demands all the attention, importance, and spotlight. But it certainly further influenced his already existing desire to get the attention he craves and also intensified his great urge to talk about his interests and accomplishments. So he jumps at every small chance he gets now, whether people actually ask or not.

With his 300 IQ, he can be a fast learner on any subject, even when it comes to things he doesn't really care for. But it seems there's a part of his brain that's seriously dedicated to storing all the knowledge of his favorite subjects and he goes out of his way to learn absolutely everything about them. His knowledge in robots and theme parks especially are endless and always growing, and he loves to talk about his very own creations on top of that. He never runs out of information to share!

This was also one of the things that initially made him interested in getting a teaching degree. It was more about showing off his knowledge, rather than caring trying to help others learn. Also because he loves telling people what to do, of course. XD

He enjoys sharing his knowledge and correcting people when they're wrong. He'll often butt into conversations about subjects he's interested in (well even ones that he isn't but especially when he is) to share thoughts and facts. Some find it rude but it's a case where he doesn't realize because he just wants the right information to be acknowledged and to correct misconceptions. He also likes to bring his related experiences and creations into the conversation so they know his sources, and because he wants to show off and make them jealous and impressed!

Some get annoyed while others find it impressive or even helpful. But the negative reactions don't matter to him because he's delighted when someone will listen to his endless rambling and let him boast, giving him full attention and no complaints. It's even better if they're enthusiastic, supportive, and praise him for his knowledge! If someone encourages him to keep going, he'll actually appreciate it but definitely won't know how to say it. Still, they can tell by the way he lights up and explains it with a big beautiful smile on his face that he can't hide!

Basically, I like to imagine that he's just as passionate when talking about his brilliance and the things he loves as I am when I'm talking about him! He still has that same child-like wonder when learning new information about the things he's interested in and excitement when he shares facts and stories and shows off his discoveries, creations, and accomplishments. They're the feelings he didn't really get to express freely as a child and it feels great to finally get to do something that he wanted all along.

I love men that are really passionate and unashamed to be, especially when it shows through the way they're extremely knowledgeable about their favorite subjects and eager to talk about it. One of the many things that make Eggman so attractive to me is how bold, passionate, and unapologetically himself he is! It's really admirable and inspiring too. And I'd be sure to let him know that and encourage him to express his love for his passions and support him in following his dreams related to them.

I could listen to all he has to say and observe all he has to show off for hours! Then I'd ask questions to give him the opportunity to talk and show off even more as he answers and elaborates even further. Once he gets going, he just can't stop talking until he wears himself out and needs a nap. XD I'm genuinely interested as we have fascinations in common and it's even better when I'm learning from him. There's no better, more handsome source of interesting and valuable information heheh!

But the best part is getting to see how happy he is as he lights up, jumps for joy, and shakes his fists in excitement. He shares his plans with great confidence and presents his creations with pride. The excitement can be heard in his voice and there's a bright wide smile on his gorgeous face all the while. I would watch with total adoration as it warms my heart! I wish he could feel that kind of happiness much more often. I'd always make sure he feels deeply loved, cared for, and listened to. :') 💜

While it is canon that he's a deeply passionate person as there's evidently a lot of hard work and care put into his plans/creations and determination put into his goals, this is how I headcanon him feeling about expressing it outside of what we see in the games.

I imagine that he'd love to passionately monologue to someone that isn't just programmed to care like his robots. He can ramble to Orbot and Cubot about his upcoming plans but they always talk back and he knows they're often judging, so it pleases him when he knows someone's interest is genuine.

And his urge to talk about what he's excited and proud of is probably part of why he often says too much and reveals important details of his plans to his enemies! It might happen less often if he has someone to lend an ear, so he can tell them all about it beforehand. I'd love to be the one there for him! :D 💜💕💘💖💗💜💓💗

[crazyfanoffandom]

Hello everyone!

I’ve been attempting Fan Fiction since 2010. In these eight years, I’ve seen my writing grow. However, about ten months ago, a situation occurred. As a result, I hit a major stumbling block and stopped writing. I wanted to share this experience with you, and how it’s opened my eyes.

Some fan fiction readers define lines for themselves. Lines they feel Fan Fiction writers shouldn’t cross. For every reader, the line is different, and for many, there are several lines. A few popular examples include that writers shouldn’t “write a canon character in a non-canon voice” or “write a non-canon relationship.” 

Not everyone does this. Some readers don’t have any lines, and read everything. Some have several lines! Neither is wrong. Readers are free to decide how many lines as a kind of guidelines to decide what they’ll read. It’s, in a way, similar to how some people decide what books to read! And some people will read whatever they get their hands on! It’s the reader’s choice.

However, this in and of itself comes with it’s own “line” so to speak.

Back in November, I started updating a story I entitled “Sage” for the How to Train Your Dragon franchise. The story was/is about a teenager who inches her way into the lives of the dragon riders on Berk to spy for Viggo at the end of Rider’s of Berk, and eventually transitions into some of the events during RTTE. It was an idea I went with because I thought it was interesting. I didn’t care if Viggo never heard of the riders that early on, or if it didn’t make sense with the original timeline. I felt I could sell it well enough, and that if I really liked the story, I could pull it off.

So I set to post the first chapter, then the second and the third. I was proud of the story and ready to set a course. Several chapters in (I can’t remember how many) I received a nasty surprise on fanfiction.net.

The story, and it wasn’t the first, broke canon relationship. How to Train Your Dragon pairs Astrid and Hiccup. I’ve showed courtesy to people who ship it, but I’d never been a fan of Astrid and Hiccup for my own reasons. This isn’t a post to start a debate about what’s better. Honestly, I know some of ya’ll like it and i think it’s absolutely wonderful! 

This wasn’t the first story. Another one, The Bridge Between Worlds, explored the possibility of an OC x Hiccup relationship.

The "review” was really really frustrating.

My response was like a roller-coaster. I was literally like:

And then:

To add a little more detail, I’m a very very sensitive person (working on that, i was worse as a child omg LOL), empathetic and compassionate to the point where I literally take on other people’s stresses, I get anxious if I think I’ve upset someone and I’d never gone through something like this before. So, summary: I care wayyyyy too much about other people’s thoughts.

I really didn’t give two craps about whether I could create someone for Hiccup that worked well. I was more concerned with enjoying myself through the process, but the little greasy wheels started turning and turning. I got upset briefly, shrugged my shoulders and kept going.

But it didn’t stop there.

This kept going when I updated again a few days later. I got more “reviews”. Someone (i’m not sure if it was the same person) went as far as stating that I “didn’t care about HTTYD because I didn’t ship Hiccup and Astrid” and that “without Hiccstrid there was no story” twice. (I mean, c’mon guys. It’s a story about a guy and dragons and Hiccstrid is a small sub-plot. To make that claim is to ignore 95% of the franchise content xD). I received more reviews like those, and some leaked on to the other Hiccup x OC story I wrote. By this point I’d had enough. So I stopped updating, ticked the option to moderate guest reviews and took Sage off of fanfiction.net. I feared if I continued, the same person would continuously post big bold reviews. I went as far as trying to like Hiccstrid, and for a while I might’ve a little. But I never did. And I felt somewhat dirty for liking something other people didn’t, and for having the “nerve” to post content that went against the canon grain.

My brain is starting to fade because it’s late, so I’ll wrap it up. People have a right to not ship canon just like people have a right to ship canon. The professionals have created solid foundation for the canon, but fan fiction exists as an endless extension of the canon. And it doesn’t always have to make sense. It’s unofficial content; stuff not officially part of the franchise. Just people’s imaginations, driven by that person’s desire to write or draw or create. If someone is posting content for a non-canon relationship, or perhaps for canon relationship and you don’t like it, if you’re going to act like a bully, please don’t comment. We’re all free to express opinions, but writer’s have feelings too. Some people handle this crap well and others don’t. Some author’s like CC, but comments meant to bash the writer or hate on the pair they’re writing about? No. Please don’t hate on people who, as creators, choose to write something out of voice or pursue a non canon relationship. 

However, this has opened my eyes a little. As I mentioned, this situation is nearly a year old. I’ve spent the last year writing a little. But, only recently did I discover a few things. 

First, I rely too much on other people’s opinions of my stuff, and cling too dearly to the negative. 

Second, not everyone is a jerk. Since the incident on fanfiction.net, I’ve posted both Sage (I did change it to Snotlout x OC because later, I guilted myself into doing it during a convo with a friend) and A Bridge Between Worlds, plus other stories, on Quotev and have received a lot of support for both stories. If I ever receive CC, I’ll be happy too! And i have received CC for other stories. But the fact remains that not everyone is going to deliberately go to a story that pairs people they don’t like and write REEE NO LIKEY YOU NO GET IT REEE.

Third, and this is recent, I shouldn’t allow other people to take my writing joy. If I want to write non canon stuff, I should feel content in the joy. It’s nice to get comments, of course, and subscribers, but I should remind myself daily why I started this story and that I love to write.

I’m hoping that, eventually, I remember why I loved fanfiction. I’ve been updating my stories off and on, but one never knows what the future might hold.