#the cumback of the century

[shadysidcrs]

@lndenmeres || matt taylor & jim hawkins

there's a light frown on jim's face and it takes all your self-control to not wake him up by kissing that spot between his eyebrows. self-control and the fact that 90% of you is made up of guilt at the moment. you watch him for a little while, not in a creepy way... more like in a this is probably the love of my life and i am about to break his heart way. he turns in his sleep and you're unable to stop yourself. you lie down, your chest against his back and you close your eyes, breathing him in. he smells like home. you nuzzle your nose against the back of his neck. stealing just a few more moments with him. but it's unfair. it's stupid to pretend like you can stay here forever. you've been here before. you've been on the other side before and you can remember the hurt, the anger. you can remember how you wanted to break michael's neck the second you saw him with emily on that fucking mountain. jim deserves better than you can ever be. you kiss the back of his neck, slowly making your way to his cheek, his temple. "how do you look so good when you sleep?" you say, your mouth to his ear. "i look like drooling baboon. probably smell like one too." you pull him close, if it's the last time you get to do this you're gonna do it right. teeth dig playfully into his shoulder. "breakfast?"