#the creepy careful eyes

[savingthrcw]

It's him, she told herself again, and considered pointing out that he had quite an expressive face - from her point of view at least - so every time he went blank-faced she knew he was holding back on something. Even as he laughed at her words, she kept studying him with more attention than she had given to anything. It was him. It was him. She knew it, because she also knew that she had been out there for twenty years and he had found her right at her worse, when she was a grown woman leading one of the biggest camps of criminals of the Wasteland, literally the opposite of anyone would want if separated from their daughter.

"Roosevelt. We had a dog named Roosevelt. I used to give him my peas but not broccoli because despite popular opinion I liked those. My idea of a Sunday lunch with you," she continued listing without a break, desperately bringing back all those little memories so he'd understand who she was. Because if she told him 'Cooper Howard was my dad' and he called her crazy, she may end up ripping his face off out of reflex, so she had to find other sentences that wouldn't make her overreact to his sarcastic comments, and as she did her accent and ways to speak reverted into her regular, correct, speaking ways, "Was mac and cheese and nuka cola, but that wasn't great for a kid, and I tried to buy your silence offering you my drawings-except no, mom would know about that," she looked at the screen, annoyed, "She could've put me up to this, I have to find something only you and I would know, right?"

She had spent years preparing herself for scenarios when her mother may reappear in one form or the other, including getting someone who looked like her dad enough to lower her defenses. A ghoul could've fit the bill too, she couldn't very well be certain of what his face had looked like, except she wouldn't have put him in a box underground in the hope that she'd sympathize and pull him out.

Her fingers tapped on her knee fast while her mind ran, something only you and I would know, and she closed her eyes for a moment before sighing, because yeah, there was one thing that he wouldn't have had time to tell to her mother even if he had wished to, and that no one could have reported, because no one who was at that party was allowed into the Vaults.

She looked right back at him, only focused on getting her point across: "When the first bomb fell, I was the only one who saw it. You were inside the house, looking for a slice of cake for me, because it was a birthday party and I wanted some. And when you came out and you saw the smoke, you told me that was smoke, Janey, it was just a fire, but it wasn't, and we ran away on Sugarfoot." And once again she cringed, "Except that's too much detail, you wouldn't remember that after two hundred years. Hell, do you remember having a daughter?" she brought a hand to her chest, looking at him again, "Janey?"

She had been told over and over that people couldn't remember details as well as she could, and it was hard for her to tell what was reasonable to expect from people to know, because they all fell under the 'your memory sucks' category. Lee remembered everything about Rose nearly twenty years since meeting her, but that was because of trauma, and her father wouldn't have associated her with any trauma, would he? As much as he had been a great father to her, two hundred years were a lot, probably, to remember someone who had been around for ten or so. Fucking Roy didn't remember his mama, and he had been around her for eight years, because twenty-two after those were too long to keep her in his memories. That was just how normal brains worked. Maybe. Roy was an idiot. But she remembered her dad, and she had to get through him somehow. If only there was some physical proof she could show. But there were no special birthmarks or scars, just those private, shared, memories.

"I know, shut up. Stop moving, I'm not gonna hurt you."

The Ghoul gave her a look that patently conveyed how believable that unsolicited promise was, but said nothing.

...What was she doing? Why had she paused the movie?

An icy feeling suffused his veins as he finally realised what the raider was doing.

Oh, shit.

She was comparing faces.

The Ghoul slowly tilted his head further downwards and to the side, squishing his face more against the side of the tv stand he was slumped against, under the pretext of still being too shitfaced to support himself upright properly. His eyes closed slowly, as he internally cursed the universe for throwing him headlong into yet another clusterfuck of a situation.

Stop it. Don't fucking look.

He wished he was wearing his hat. Although given his old self was wearing the exact same fucking type of hat, that probably wouldn't have helped much to throw this nosy bitch off the scent.

He should've just burned that stupid tape. They were careening towards some unspeakably awkward questions that he was absolutely not willing to entertain.

"Is that you? That's you, isn't it? It is."

The Ghoul stayed silent. His expression was a slate wiped clean - carefully, utterly blank. Sunken, hooded blue eyes flicked to his gun by the couch, regrettably well out of reach, then back up to Roy and Pat, as if to gauge their reactions to this ridiculous and incendiary accusation. They seemed rather uncomfortable about this line of questioning, themselves.

"Maybe... Give him the time to answer?"

One of his gloved fingers brushed against a glass shard on the floor underneath him.

"Maybe shut the fuck up! Get out!"

At the sudden burst in angry volume, he fumbled, and lost his little shard of glass. Shit.

The boys promptly turned tail and got the hell out. Well, there went any hope of a buffer between him and Crazy.

"You are him."

The Ghoul flopped his head back against the trolley, and wheezed out a rasping, bitter little laugh, edged with disbelieving hysteria.

"You step on one o' them syringes?" he enquired acerbically by way of reply, leaning heavily into the slurred drawl.

"Bump your head a few dozen times on the way here? You need to get your fucking eyes checked, swee'heart."

@savingthrcw

[krekee]

[literalfuckingfreak]

also while im on it i dont care how magic a character is not everyone needs to have colored eyes. its like. fine to give people dark brown/ black eyes even if theyre "magical" or some shit.

[creepyscritches]

Ouuugh fuck yes the opthalmologist said I appear to be a strong candidate for LASIK :3c gotta coordinate with my other doctors for their opinions, but just this year my eyes finally stabilized enough to even HAVE these conversations in the first place!!! It probably wouldn't be something I pull the trigger on for at least another year, but very exciting to not be eliminated as a candidate bc of my autoimmune stuff :') it was also super cool as always to learn how providers explain some of these conditions + procedures on a patient level then a clinical level. Eager to talk shop with the opthalmology SME on my team :3

[omgafhsfanin2024]

It's him!! The guy with the inconsistent design!!! (I'm bored as fuck)

I'm still not done with the redesign I have no idea what to do with her clothes

[count-doodoo]

why is openness about disability and illness trauma dumping?? like fine maybe it's traumatic but it's not like. Trauma (tm)???? it's simply Life??????

"i have [disability/illness]" is not trauma dumping and i will die on this hill. i'm sorry that you see every disability/illness as a Terrible Traumatic Tragedy Requiring Emotional Labor but this is in fact simply part of life, sir.

people are allowed to be in pain in public ffs

[theultracharmingladynoire]

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[akabloom]

natsuyuu dream moment

(read in tags if you want, kinda long)

[thebigqueer]

literally all i can hope for is that shes thinking about me as much as im thinking about her. cuz otherwise this shit is so humiliating like why am i spending this much emotional energy on her

[sukugo]

But anyway all that flirting Gojo does when he fights Jogo and Sukuna never fail to crack me up. He's shameless and unapologetic and doesn't care if he exposes his kinks for everyone to see. And the way Gojo and Yuta are both cursefuckers? This got me thinking like is there something in the water, how did the two Special Grade descendants of Sugawara Michizane happen to be into freaky shit.

it just runs in the sorcerer families. they're all freaks. tho i'd argue literally everyone in jjk is a freak. but if u're part of the families, then u're extra freaky. also strength is directly proportional to freakishness, so that explains it i think

[shanxpennywise]

"O be careful little eyes what you see,

O be careful little eyes what you see,

There's a Father up above, and he's looking down in love, so be careful little eyes what you see!

O be careful little hands what you do,

O be careful little hands what you do,

There's a Father up above, and he's looking down in love, so be careful little hands what you do!

O be careful little mouth what you say,

O be careful little mouth what you say,

There's a Father up above, and he's looking down in love, so be careful little mouth what you say!" - Father Loutermilch.

Thanks for looking! ♡

[rottencoreflesh101]

genya is 16. he should not be thought of that way. way creepy

Ik someday this would happen, look I became super attached to Genya and months later I found out he was 16 when this whole time I thought he was 18. Now, I just aged him up and ik aging characters up is a lil’ problematic but I don’t have a problem with it as long at you make the character look like a grown up and as long as you ain’t visualizing them as minors, ofc that’s just my point of view.

Every character I use, I use em from my au, they’re all grown ups. If you cant see my point, you can just leave or block. Hopefully later on I can explain it better but for now it’ll do.

Going to point out I do not support artists who create content of minor characters and use the “well I aged them up 🤓” while they still look like minors(same case as the lolis). Im fine with it as long the design looks like an adult.

But sincerely other than that, I don’t have a problem with aging characters up.

[logically-asexual]

this is from the previous channel update video thomas made, back before roleslaying with roman was introduced (he just hinted at it here) and i watched it once then and forgot about it. now i watched it again and im wondering what this is supposed to mean? they never did this did they?

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

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[theriverdalereviewer]

to the anon who suggested I watch yellowjackets WELL GUESS WHAT?

[kyeterna]

"Sashimi", from Glow's poem collection

"Lyria is fish"

"With big round eyes that look at me weird"

"Lyria is odd"

"With strange smell"

"Lyria is scary"

"With black sword and black armour"

"Lyria is old"

"and she looks at me like she knows me"

"But she does not know Glow"

"So I make sashimi with fresh fish I find in dirt water"

"I make sashimi to forget Lyria"

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