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mycomfortblanket · 5 months
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The Box at the Back of the Closet pt. 2
Lin's tinny voice plays through the recording machine on Sokka's entryway table and he can't move as he listens to her cry. He's just barely able to make out a few words, but it's enough to make his blood run cold. 
Suyin.
Dad. 
Why?
Whenever he came home and hit the button on the recorder and continued to walk further into his apartment, hearing her voice shrill and heartbroken was the last thing he had expected. He really thought that he was going to come home to another night alone in his apartment, the silence deafening loud in his eardrums as he waited for the hour to strike an hour that was reasonable enough to go to sleep. 
He slowly turns to look at the machine, expecting her to be standing there. It's been a few months since he has seen either of the girls and even longer since he had an actual conversation with Toph, but he can picture them clear as day. Swallowing past the lump in his throat, he slowly walks back to the table that housed the phone and recorder machine. 
He hesitates as he picks up the phone and with dread filling his stomach, Sokka dials the number to Toph's house. 
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Honestly, Sokka should have known Lin was lying when she said her mother knew he was coming. 
Suyin is jumping up and down beside him with a tight grip on his hand, yelling about all the fun activities they are going to do. Lin is standing next to the door she just opened with a nervois grin, and Toph... Spirits, she is a sight for sore eyes. She's standing in the kitchen wearing compression pants and her top wrappings. Her hand is outstretched as if she was about to grab the fruit that was on the counter. Her eyes are wide, mouth hanging open, and her face is slowly turning red. 
After what would be considered a comical amount of time, Toph finally closes her mouth and moves towards him, punching his shoulder without much enthusasim. "Snoozles. What uh-" she wipes her hands down her front as if to smooth out the wrinkles in her shirt before realizing she isn't wearing one and just crossing her arms in front of her chest. "What are you doing in Republic City?" 
"Well," he shoots a look over at Lin over Toph's shoulder to see her frantically shaking her head, "I was put on a last minute assignment and thought I would come visit my three favorite girls." 
Toph narrows her eyes at him before calling over her shoulder to Lin, "Do you forget that I can tell when you do that?" She looks back towards Sokka, "And do you think," she pokes him in the chest, "I can't tell from the way both of your hearts are beating that a "last minute assignment" is not really why you're here." 
"Toph-"
"No, I don't want to talk about it right now. I ordered take out, which should be here in about thirty minutes." From the abrupt change of topic, Sokka knows not to breach the subject until she does. Suyin starts to pull on his hand again and drags him towards the living room, already prattling on about what she has been doing at school the past few days. 
From the corner of his eye, he sees Toph disappear down the hallway toward her room, most likely to put on a shirt. He looks up from Suyin and over to Lin, who is stills tanding next to the front door, wringing her hands in front of her in a nervous way. 
"Are you mad, Uncle Sokka?" he hears over Suyin's loud chatter. Suyin's turned away to pull out some color sheets and hands a few colored wax to Sokka so that he can color with her. 
"Of course not, Stink. You know I could never be mad at you for something like this. Your heart was in the right place, you just didn't think your plan all the way through," he says as gently as he can. She walks over slowly and gently lowers herself onto the couch. "A little heads up would have been nice, though," he says in a mock stern voice, but the grin on his face causes Lin to let out a deep breath. 
"Yeah, a hint for me too would have been nice, Badgermole," Toph says as she walks back into the living room and makes a beeline directly to the front door, opening it a milisecond after the knock is heard. 
After a quiet and slightly awkward dinner, Sokka finds himself back on the couch with Suyin curled into his side as he reads her one of her favorite picture books. The drawings are decent and the book itself must have been published when the printing press was first made since everything on the pages is slightly tilted. But nevertheless, Suyin insisted he read it to her. 
Every so often, he glances up to see Toph in the kitchen making tea with Lin when another knock at the door sounds. Toph turns her head in the direction of Lin with a scrowl on her fac e. "I told you that you couldn't go out tonight," she says, her voice stern. 
Lin raises her hands in an inocent manner, "I told them I couldn't! I didn't know they would be coming over." Toph purses her lips for a second but then lets out a breath. 
"Go ahead," Toph waves a dismissive hand and goes back to making her tea. 
Letting out a squeal, Lin kisses her mother on the cheek before dashing out the door, grabbing a jacket off the back of one of the kitchen chairs. "I'll be home by curfew!" she tosses over her shoulder as she flings open the door and into the crush of her friends. 
The silence that fills the apartment after Lin leaves is thick. The only sound that can be heard is the heating of water and Suyin's quiet snores. "Does she always get away with things like that?" Sokka asks quietly so not to disturb Suyin. 
Laughing through her nose, Toph shakes her head, "No," she says in an equally soft voice. "She must have had this elaborate scheme cooked up with her friends. She wasn't lying, but she definitely wasn't telling the truth. But I figured we needed to talk so..." 
"Well, can't really blame her. She did get that from you, the whole half-truth thing." He looks down at the sleeping Suyin, a soft smile coming onto his face. "I'm going to go put her down," Sokka calls as he scoops her into his arms. Picking her up, Sokka carries Suyin into he rbedroom and gently lays her down on her bed, pulling the covers up to her chin. 
He is just about to turn to leave when he hears a small voice say, "Are you going to stay, Uncle Sokka?" 
"I'm just here for a few days, Stink," he says gently, smoothing the hair back from her forehead. "I've got to go back to Caldera for work." 
"I like it when you're here," she says through a yawn. Her small hand comes out from beneath the covers and she reaches out for him. He takes her hand in his and gives it a little kiss. "I want you to stay. Mama is happier when you're here," Suyin's voice says as she drops off into sleep. 
Sokka's brow furrows and he leans in closer to her, "What do you mean, Stink?" but the little girl is already fast asleep. Sighin, he runs a hand through her hair again and kisses her forehead before leaving her room and closing the door quietly. 
Back in the living room, Toph is seated again on the couch, her legs proppeed up on the coffee table with the steaming mug of tea in her hand. Next to her feet on the coffee table, is another steaming cup. 
He pads over to the couch and drops down onto it with a sigh. Reaching out, he grabs the cup and takes a sip and he can't help but smile. It never fails to amaze him how she manages to make the tea just the way he likes it. Neither of them talk, they just sit there in silence enjoying each other's company again. 
Sokka isn't too sure how much time has passed before her head drops down onto his shoulder. The familiar weight of it as well as her smell enveloping him causes a deep ache to rise in his chest. 
"I know why she called you, but what did she say to get you to come to town?" Toph whispers into the quiet living room. 
"Well, she never has to say much to convince me," Toph snorts at that and he can't help the smile that pulls at his lips. "She left me a message. I wasn't able to make out much because she was crying, but I heard 'Suyin' and 'dad' which I figured seemed important enough to come over. Although, she did tell em that you knew I was coming." 
She doesn't say anything for a moment, and Sokka is afraid he's upset her. 
"Well, the truth was bound to come out, I guess," Toph says through a long exhale. "Not the way I wanted to do it..." she trails off, leaving the sentence unfinished. 
"I suppose you're right, although I thought one of the girls finding out would be a lot smoother than this," Sokka mumbles back to her and shifts to drape his arm across Toph's shoulder. The clock that is hanging on the wall above their heads chimes the hour, letting them know it's 10 pm. "What time is Lin's curfew?" he asks. 
"One, although she's usually home an hour early," she says and sets one of her feet down on the floor as if to feel for her daughter's footsteps. "Sometimes I wonder if I'm fucking them up as badly as my parents fucked me up. I can never read her, she's so hot and cold." 
Sokka shakes his head, "Well, remember what you were like when you were fourteen? A Spirits-damn riot. You didn't start to calm down until you hit your twenties, and even then, it was difficult to keep up with you. 
"Never seemed to stop you."
Sokka doesn't reply. He feels like that sentence could mean more than just the surface level. Toph was always really good at having a double meaning in her words, probably something she got from hanging around Iroh so much. 
Toph pats his knee and then stands up, stretching her arms above her head. "Well, you know what hasn't changed? My need for sleep." She picks up their cups and sets them in the sink and then waves her hand at him, "Come on, you're sleeping with me." 
"Jeez, Toph. I know it's been awhile for you, but I do need to be wooed a little bit," he says through a smirk. When he stands up, he feels the ground shift and throw him a few inches, causing him to nearly fall over. 
"Watch your mouth. I've got little ears around her." 
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months
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#i never really thought about a person being a finite thing. you can see the effects of a person after they die. in the unfinished projects.#in the rooms of clutter. in abandoned closets. in pictures and in mermered phrases. and you can see time#chipping away at those things. eroding away the evidance that a person existed. clothes move into other people's closets. projects are boxed#away. and a person becomes confined to photos and memories. and thats existentially terrifying but its not a bad thing. time erodes away all#things. that's how life works. matter and energy transforms.#we arent made to last forever. i dunno. i guess im still just rattled from being home even tho ive been back a week and a half.#and my brain tends to fixate on the wrong things. nearly 27 years of knowing someone eclipsed by a visual sequence lasting less than a day.#bc i just cant get over how scary it would be to die like that. to start losing control of your body. to not be able to feed yourself or get#to the bathroom. to have your mind be overcome by the toxins building up in your mangled and broken body.#and it could have been worse. it could have been a lot worse. but its still not fair. theres no good way to die. i dunno. i guess i just#miss my mom in some abstract way but i find it more viscerally upsetting to think about the people that have to deal with her absence.#it makes me sad that my dad is alone now. i dunno. grief doesnt feel like i thought it would. most of the time i dont even know what im#crying about. its undirected. it doesnt feel like: i miss you. it feels like: youre gone. how can you be gone? why does everything feel the#same? and its not that it doesnt make sense. its that nothings changed. the terror of that.#and im walking around in an acumulation of my dead mother's clothes. and no one knows. theyll never know.#and there's nothing to be done about it. so it goes.#i guess im just sad. and its hard to breathe at the thought of returning to school at the end of August.#unrelated
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coincasual · 1 year
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when they were dating lizzie made them custom coordinating accessories so they could wear them together 🥲🥰🥰🥰💔♦️🤍
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bishicat · 1 year
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the PG aftermath of this
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freebooter4ever · 1 year
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omg yes hi i love him (thats a serious accomplishment those cube fuckers are tricky!!)
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Maybe THIS time the tumblr queers have finally found the REAL Privileged Invaders who Don't Belong. Maybe this time they're REALLY actually harming the Actually Oppressed members of the community by trying to discuss the issues they face. Maybe this time the horrific troll blogs and disgusting anons harassing others while claiming to be from this group really ARE from individuals in this group, and maybe this time the indefensible and atrocious actions of an alleged member of this group justify making this entire segment of the community an acceptable target, and justify nearly identical harassment that has also been thrown at them, but ignored because, "well actually these other people have it WORSE".
Maybe. Possibly.
But this website also thought the same when non-binary people were the Privileged Transphobic Interlopers harming the Actually Oppresed Trans People. When bi and pan people were the Privileged Homophobic Interlopers harming the Actually Oppresed Gay People. When aspec people were the Privileged Cishet Interlopers harming Actually Oppresed same-gender attracted people. But people on this website have no pattern recognition, the memory of goldfish, and a love of "justified" lateral aggression so this has to happen every few years.
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starfleetwitch · 6 months
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Been sat in my wardrobe for the past 20 minutes just staring at the wood...
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Is the move over yet?
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tj-crochets · 1 year
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So I did not have a specific quilt in mind to work on next, but I rearranged some fabric to store the faux furs actually next to each other instead of in like three separate places, and in doing so I found my box of scraps from the rainbow triangle quilt!
20 half square triangles, one square, and a bunch of leftover fabric, so I think I’ll do some ironing, cut out some more HSTs, and see how big a quilt I can make with the scraps. It won’t be twin sized, but I’ll be able to make at least a baby quilt and probably a throw sized quilt, I think?
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mercymaker · 7 months
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the worst thing about moving to a new house is that i have no idea where half of the things are
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sodrippy · 1 month
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if i had the budget and the self confidence for my dream wardrobe id be unstoppable
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theheroheart · 9 months
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As an adult who celebrates (heavily secularised) Christmas, including now actually inviting people over for dinner and stuff, I now understand the reason behind going overboard making the house look nice.
It's not about appearances or upholding tradition or anything like that. We're only inviting people who don't really care, and I only care about traditions that make me happy.
HOWEVER
A) It's fun to decorate and do something a lil fancy once in a while!
B) It's a good fucking excuse to actually make yourself clean the house properly, after putting it off all year.
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this is a formal apology for every time i've read ur fnaf theories, gone "ah... of course! yes!" and then forgotten to respond
This is a formal apology for every time I've read one of your asks, not immediately had a TQ&/E, and forgotten to respond
#The box can wait my questions that need to be answered are why there is already a body in a Fredbear suit before the Bite#and what can 'I will put you back together' mean solely within those four games#like yeah it's robot kids but it wasn't then#that isn't 'four games; one story' that's using the next game in the series to elaborate on the previous one#(and the then new addition of books)#also what the hell was Fnaf World on about but I think I'm the only person that's thought about Fnaf World in years#yeah yeah Happiest day it's about CC I got that WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE PLAYER WAS ONLY CREATED FOR THIS PURPOSE!!!#Okay yeah that's probably just an explanation for why the game exists but what the fuck is glitchy Fredbear#and why do *we* need to be told to rest#It's fucking important that they're clocks goddamnit#As of the Halloween update the story of Fnaf 4 still remained 'completely hidden'#So (I think) what Sister Location (AND THE SILVER EYES) tells us about it is the version of Fnaf 4 that the version of it that the communit#''''would accept''''#But the pieces didn't vanish into thin air after the custom night update for sister location dropped#And I think their being put together is reliant on the constant separation put between the GF kid and the rest of the MCI#And the body in the parts and service room#Could not tell you what CC saw though since I should hope that that kid's body hasn't been there for weeks#When I was talking about 'what if this isn't the first time CC had died' I mean basically dream theory with extra steps#I don't think I'm right but in literally every part of this franchise what is hammered in over an over is going into memories#and setting past events right to rest their soul#Happiest Day + Into the Pit being the biggest examples#And tangentially spirits not being fully anchored or aware after death#and reminding them of what happened to them involving crayon drawings and/or being shown their body#(The Fourth closet + Coming Home + the movie)#(and maybe Give Gifts Give Life....? it'd be stretchy)#Regardless of whether the Fnaf 4 gameplay and minigames are CC reliving the events leading to his death over and over as a wandering spirit#or pre-mortem nightmares or the effects of sound illusion disc gas on Micheal(/CC?) or any combination of the three or whatever else#I don't think the Crying Child's spirit was settled and aware until Happiest Day#(that being the first and only time a spirit is shown wearing a Fredbear mask and the kid has to put it on while the other four are already#And if for some godforsaken reason I am right about nightmare spirit journey Fnaf 4 then post Silver Eyes/Fourth Closet
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trooly-ticklish · 2 months
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Guess I’ll huff. And I’ll puff. And I’ll blow that door down~
-🐺♠️
Oh fuck no, THE DOOR—
*I'm hiding in the closet*
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pupkou · 3 months
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i’m literally going to **** ******
#i’ve been without T for a month or so because my doctor forgot to prescribe it again when my last prescription period was over bc she could#only prescribe it a year at a time. so i went in to do bloodwork because ive been having health problems like getting a light period and#PMDD a year and a half into being on T and it happened to be when she was supposed to represcribe which iwas like ok nice!#but she forgot to represcribe it so I was 2 weeks without it before I realized that hmm something probably happened#so I called her and she fixed it. then the pharmacy told me that they're out of stock. so I called them to find out when it'd be in stock.#then they said it's in stock but she prescribed me the 10mL bottle when my insurance doesn't cover that. so I called her again to fix that.#and she said that she didn't prescribe me that because why would she when my shots aren't even close to 1 mL? so I called the pharmacy#and they said yeah idk who said that it's wrong. your T will be ready later today. I go to pick it up and quite literally the moment I pull#up to the window the pharmacists pull down the shade that says they're closed on lunch. so ive had horrible mental health and physical symp#oms for the past month because I've been without t right? so I thought okay when I come back home from moving out of my apt#because my pharmacy is in my hometown; then ill get my T. and then once I get my T I can start my new medication because I want my levels t#stabilize before we introduce something new into the ecosystem. and im cleaning my apartment today and going through bags and shit and lo a#behold? there are four fucking boxes of T sitting in a bag in my closet JUST LIKE I THOUGHT! I JUST COULD NOT FIND THEM so ive been going#through hell for fucking nothing. for literally nothing. and I was like oh my god okay I have my T I should go and pick up my new medicatio#and I go to get my shoes on and look at the clock and it's 5:01. they close at 5.#and I have my appointment with my psychiatrist on Wednesday where shes going to ask me how it's been starting my medication and im going to#have to tell her I havent started and im not better at all and im so new to her im nervous what she will say. sorry for being crazy. im not#good at this or medication. sorry. do you want me to kill myself ill do it in front of you if that would help. AUGHHHHGHHGHGHHHHHHHHHHGGHGH#NONE OF THIS HAD TO HAPPEN. I JUST HAVE SO MUCH SHIT IN MY APARTMENT BECAUSE ITS SO SMALL THAT I COULD NOT FIND PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION#I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME OUTTTTTT (in my brain)
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2kmps · 3 months
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I'm at a profound stage in life where I feel enormous regret, shame, guilt, and fear for the things I did in my 20s bc I spent most of it (until like 28/29) in a lesser state of delirium and mental distress. I think back on it now as someone in their 30s, mostly emotionally smoothed out, and I'm just like big ick, y'know?
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flammedoudoune · 1 year
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Please look at my new bookshelves that I lovingly hand painted.
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