#the audiance is me and the act of writing is just to make me feel better

[hdawg1995]

i've been writing this dumb silly fanfic where my farmer from my first ever farm reincarnated into the farmer for my new 1.6 game and the narrative is all about how the whole world reset because someone fucked up the reincarnation ritual and blah blah it only makes sense to me.

anyway the side plot is everyone in town knows the farmer has a crush on Sebastian, even Sebastian knows and has tried to get the farmer to come out to him but NOPE! "I was your best friend in a past life, abigale remembers and is PISSED i'm back, i am NOT angering her she clearly has magic and I DO NOT" and i'm basing this whole thing on in game actions and events-

I got Sebastian for the winter star "secret friend" gift exchange and the farmer opened that letter, saw the name, and feel to his knees "the whole town knows. everyone knows. and the mayor is making fun of me..." and Maru is like "no! that would be mean! no one is making fun of you!" but no, mayor luis is 100% teasing the farmer because I HAVE WRITEN THIS NARRATITAVE LIKE EVERYONE KNOWS AND THEN THE GAME IS LIKE "hey wouldn't it be great for your fan fic if..."

i love stardew valley.

[thevampirearchive]

There’s something I've been meaning to say but I haven't had the words till now. There is something that deeply upsets me about witnessing stories where villains, who are literal killers, fall in love and somehow become good or act outside of what is expected from them. I love love, love is beautfiul, it is powerful and it can truly change a lot. But to sit, and write a killer suddenly go "actually, this one can stay because I am in love for the first time" is such a weird concept to me. Is this happening because as a sociaty we're trying to convince ourselves that deeply disturbed people can be cured by the power of love? That if they just find the right person, they would stop the masacer? or at least no longer feel the need to kill how they were or at least let their person live? And I am not mad at the love, I do belive anyone can fall deeply in love, but my issue is with how it ends. I want to witness the unthinkable — I want to see is exactly what we expect but hoped won't happen, happening. A gut wrenching truth that stays true to who we have been witnessing, despite the "I can change them" dance. And perhaps people hate this idea because they want to belive that anyone can change if only they meet the right one, or that we can change the monsters in our lives with affection, but trust most likly is that they cannot be changed. And I can understand that to some this is then seen as an illusion. "oh then this was never true love", why can the two not exist? Do we not hurt those we love? Maybe not kill them, but someone elses hurt could feel like a small death to me, and vice versa.

Examples, so that you are not confused as to what I am reffering too;

Killing Eve; I stopped watching when Villanelle was shown shooting Eve. It felt true to her character, even if it hurt. She is a killer, we knew that and so did Eve. Regardless of her love, that was what was always going to happen so why were we given additional seaons of this fanatsy of a declawed Villanelle?

Hannibal; It should have ended with the death of Will, and possibly Hannibal consuming him. Didn't Hannibal say that the consumption of Will would somehow join them in a deeper way?Something so disturbing that only could make sense to a serial killing-cannibal. And I would have watched with wide eyes, and gone to sleep staring at the ceiling.

Interveiw With The Vampire; Louis' death in the hand of a Lestat would have made sense, and despite his dramatics, Lestat would have not committed suicide but instead burried himself in deep regret untill he was too numb to his own feelings that he could return to the world of the living. He would have never forgotten Louis, nor what he did, but he would have moved on beause Lestat is not a good person. He's deeply disturbed and Louis knew this. I don't even aknoclege that beatdown episode because Lestat may be a killer, but he's a drama queen first and formost. Louis' death would have been poetic, beautiful and grusom like a greek tragedy without an audiance.

Bonus - Twilight; I could not end without adding my own favorite, and despite this path never being teased to the audiance the same way the other's were, I would have loved the book simply ending because Edward did as he said he would - drained Bella like a Caprisun on a hot summer day. Because what is love agaisnt animalistic urgase (I understand why it is much hotter that he is simply so retsrained and devoted that he resists her, but I'd pay good money for an AU)

At the end of it all, I think want I want is for sociaty to get over the idea that a good woman, love or any form of kindness can change who some people are. Love can do many things - look at crimes of passion! And to some extend I belive that these villain's love were true, possibly not the way we imagine them - which is less so "I love you too" and more so, "wow, finally someone I can manipulate and obsess over. Someone who I can mold, someone who is alone in the world like me" only to realize that is not true.

So why do we make love into what it isnt? Even when the scene is set for us to be shown the truth, writers and the audiance always make the plot lean towards whatever fits so that we can have that "happy ending".

Honorable mentions;

God should have killed Lucifer, I know the bible and christianity is not technically fiction for all, but the idea that he is forgivin but lets the biggest meanness HE CREATED terrorize everybody is evil. Take him out or let somebody else do it homie.

[when-residents-are-evil]

Entry #4

A/N: Aaaaaand, with this chapter, the Bestiary and House Beneviento’s entries updated! You don’t actually need to read them, they’re note my OC is taking to help them go through this mess. Notes that I need to organize better, too.

23th April 2018

07h47

Today's missions:

Find a doctor

Learn more about Lords and Miranda

Stack up on provisions for the day I'll escape (long lasting food, medical stuff, weapons (?), money, etc)

I think I need to investigate about Miranda. Iulian isn't really talkative, but I guess my already-dead rabbit and the two fish I bribed him with yesterday must have impressed him, because he agreed to let me know a few things.

According to him, I wouldn't be the first tourist to 'disappear' if anything were to happen to me. Villagers disappear from time to time, mostly when they want to leave the village for good. Apparently, they need to ask for her blessing so they won’t get torn up to pieces on their way out.

But tourists? Sometimes, people will end up here, like I did, for various different reasons. Maybe they heard about spooky rumors and wanted to have a good scare and brag to their friends about the place. Or maybe they just got lost and tried to roll with it. I'm case number 2, by the way. A few escape (or at least, leave the village and are never to be seen again).

Most of the time, if they get an audiance with Mother Miranda, they don't come back.

Now, if I never got attacked by the lycans, I would brush it off as some lame ghost story or hink that Miranda, for some reason, agreed to help them leave or something ike that. But then, Iulian said these people weren't taken by the woods. And it's weird, because I'm almost sure the lycans are the n°1 death cause around here, and that no one from the 'outside world' would want to stay here. But he insisted it wasn't them, and he said they didn't left. So I have two theories:

1) Miranda killing those people, for some reason. That would explain why everyone is so damn scared of her.

2) There are other kind of monsters here. Aside from the lycans, I mean. I'm also thinking it could be the Lords?

I don't know which one would be worse. There has to be a reason Miranda is feared like she is. She must be either incredibly powerful, or… All these people are brainwashed. I don’t think she’s the kind and generous protector they all claim she is. Why wouldn’t she get rid of the lycans if she truly had good intentions?

And why am I not dead yet? I'm 100% sure she knows I'm here and trying to escape, so why isn't she kiling me? Is it because she likes watching people fail or something?

Because I could understand. I ran into a tree on my way back home last night because I was too scared to see straight. I'm sure she's entertained.

Or maybe I'm too insignificant to be worth the effort. I hope it's that one.

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09h36

Okay, I need to write this down.

There's a weird old lady that's been following me around for at least 3 days. She's really sneaky, and I can't hear her despite the bones rattling at the end of her staff. The only reason I noticed her is because I'm becoming paranoid and keep randomly turning around. That's how I caugh her. Also, not a big fan of feeling observed.

She keeps lurking at the edge of my sight. It's freaking me out. I think I should comfront her, but again, I'm not good with people and don't want to be rude to an old lady. I get she's creepy, and weird, and she follows me everywhere I go, but is it a reason to call her out? She didn't technically do anything bad, in the end she's just observ

... She's hiding behind a tree again. Okay, no, it's freaking me out. I think I'm going to talk to her.

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10h12

She’s so fucking weird. She asked me what would I sacrifice for Miranda and I didn’t know what to answer, so I returned her question. She laughed, didn’t answer, then left and threw some ominous warning abover her shoulder. I don’t remember what exactly. What the fuck. What’s her problem? I think I need to ask the Duke about her. Not sure he’ll tell me what I really need to know, but I can still try.

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14h55

I met the doctor on my way to the Duke. He used to be a herbalist and learned the most… gruesome stuff on his own. He gave me a cream of his own making for my arm, and was kind enough to give me the ingredients. Apparently, these herbs grow near the windmills, but it’s in Moreau’s territory, so it’ll have to wait.

Now, about the Duke.

As expected, he didn’t really tell me a lot about that old lady, aside from the fact that she’s weird and old. Nothing I didn’t knew. Either he doesn’t want to help me, or he just doesn’t know as much as I thought he did. Or maybe he works for Miranda and doesn’t want me to escape ? I don’t know. I don’t know if I can trust him, I just…

I want to go home.

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21h23

I have good and bad news :

Bad news: I got attacked on my way back from Hous Beneviento’s territory. Yeah, I know. I shouldn’t have gone in the first place. I’ll get to that later. Anyways, I’ve got three huge slashes on my face, cutting my lips open. It’s going to leave a nasty scar, and it hurts like hell. Every time I open my mouth to eat or talk, it reopens the cuts. I couldn’t stitch myself up, as I didn’t have any suture and couldn’t find my needles (I used all of them on my arm). I tried putting tape instead. We’ll see how that turns out.

Good news: It wasn’t a lycan! Which means I got to observe a new kind of monster. They were after the suspended bridge, behind the door leading to Beneviento’s territory. I also learned more about this place, I think.

I know I shouldn’t have been there. I knew it was a bad idea. But no one would tell me why and I had to figure it out. The thing is, if I’m ever going to run away from this place, I need to know what I’m up against. I don’t regret going despite what happened.

The door was open. Maybe Lady Beneviento was in town ? Something tells me I’m lucky I didn’t see her on my way back. And it’s a good thing I had the map with me (knowing myself, I’d be able to get lost on a straight path). There were breanching paths, but they were closed off my vines. In any case, I kept going, slowly but surely, and at the end of the path, I could see Lady Beneviento’s house from afar. I didn’t dare come closer, just in case she came back.

There was something odd about this whole thing (aside from the monsters who chased me on my way back, I mean). At first, I thought it was my nerves, but the whole time I was in her territory, I felt… Sick. And watched. I don’t think it was just my anxiety acting up. I kept seeing things at the corner of my eyes, moving shadows and things I still think were fake to some extent, despite everything I’ve seen here.

But I kept going. I wasn’t stupid enough to go inside the house, but my self preservation senses aren’t exactly... developped. I felt dizzy, too lightheaded, and I know there was something inside. I tried looking through the windows but it was way too dark. I left immediately after sending a few glances inside, I really wasn’t feeling well. It felt like I was drugged, somehow. I don’t know. I still feel weird from that whole fiasco. Maybe it’s more because of the burning gash on my face, but I don’t think so.

I ran as fast as I could, hid behind a tree during when my asthma was acting up, and then ran some more. Then some weird ass… Monsters... Zombies things came out of the ground. I thought I was hallucinating at first, and then I felt a horrible burn across my face as my head got sent to the ground, and it got me right back on track. I didn’t even bother fighting back. My poor little knife wasn’t going to damage them, and there were too many of them.

I ran all the way down to the village, and saw the Duke here. He gave me some bandages and herbs for free when he saw me come back. He also held my hand when I told him about what happened. I don’t know if I can really call him a friend, but I’m still glad he was here. I still don’t know if I can really trust him, though. I hope I can. I need someone I can trust.

He said he’ll answer my questions once I’m feeling better, that I wasn’t in the right state for it right now. I think I’ll just go to sleep.

[skvaderarts]

How is V compelling when all he has is Vergil's backstory and mannerisms? He's just vergil and acts like him, even the manga clearly shows him. It's not capcoms fault you projected onto that character before realizing who he obviously was. it's really rude when you people try to seperate them because vergil fans have been waiting for him and his story for such a long time. maybe dont start playing the games at 5th entry and u wont get disappointed ms. fake fan

I feel like I need to clarify something for people like this anon.

I've been playing DMC since I was 10. I am almost 22. That's over half my life. This series has helped me through the darkest parts of my life, and I have spent years invested in it. I have an account on FF.N that's probably older than the person who left me this ask. Hell, I own six of the books and half of them I had to get translations for because I can't read them. I even do a satyrical historical retrospective skit in this blog. So no, I most certainly didn't start on the 5th entry. Anyone who's following me could probably figure that out pretty easy.

Ironically, I got the notification for this stupid message while I having an Asthma attack. Lovely timing. Irritation just makes it worse. As for what I care to say about V and why I find him compelling? Simple. Because it doesn't matter what his role is in the narrative. He's intriguing and while he and Vergil of corse share similarities, they don't act the same at all. They have several key differences and are about as much alike as they are different.

He would have been interesting even if Vergil wasn't in the game at all.

Since when did writing an instantly captivating character become a bad thing? That's the effect characters are supposed to have on an audiance. Your supposed to become attached to them. It's called writing a good story. I just don't get people.

I feel like I also need to point out that if you don't like someone's content or blog, no one is asking you to step in the door, hurl anonymous insults like a child, and run back to your corner. Block me, because you can guarantee I'm blocking you. Not because we have different opinions, but because I will be dammed if I sit here and take insults from some rando hiding behind the anon filter over anything. Period. I'm done doing that. I still have people saying sorry and checking in on me from the last round of idiots that wanted to attack me over something stupid on this hellsite.

So to anyone who has an issue with this being a DMC AU blog or is thinking of adding to all the hate mail people love to send me, I eagerly encourage you to gtfo and not come to my page. I don't come to your house and complain about the furnishings. If you have nothing useful to add, then don't contribute.

And stop gatkeeping fandoms. "Fake fans" are not a real thing. If you love something, you love it. Period.

[victoriasvizion]

March 1st 2021

I haven't been doing really well with keeping up with this. I tend to always have a hard time keeping in routine of writing when In start journaling, or something of this sort. But I am going to try my best to check in and write when I think of it. Or think that I have anything to say.

Needless to say, I feel like writing right now. I have class in 33 minutes and Im actually super nervous about it. We are starting to practice counseling techniques with a partner in front of the class, and professor - who is a fucking rockstar when it comes to this counseling shit! Sometimes when I email with him, I feel like I get counseled lol. So Im super anxious to do this practice with him critiquing, as well as my peers and “client”. 

The crazy thing is that I am super comfortable with the techniques we will be practicing - Motivational Interviewing Principles and OARS beginning techniques. I feel like everyone does MI everyday, they're just not aware of it. Its literally like being able to carry on a conversation of sustenance, making sure there's a balance between speaking, and actively observing and listening. Speaking with thoughtful, meaningful words, and doing much more active listening and observing. Plus, I have done just about a million trainings and certificate programs on Motivational Interviewing for my current and past places of employment - as MI is built into the fabric of our work.

BUUTT I cannot shake my sense of feeling like I am going to completely bomb this practice session. My brain doesn't work when it comes to tests or performing an act- that I do in my regular daily life- in front of spectators. Give me a client in my workplace that is struggling with change, treatment or anything having to do with substance use disorders and Ill kill it, but some make believe shit about tobacco, I just can't. I clam up. It probably has something to do with my deep-rooted low sense of self worth or some shit. Whatever. I just want to get it over with so I can move forward and start working on this weeks assignment. In peace, by myself, no partner, no video audiance and no zoom until next week. 

Thinking about class tonight, I wonder if I am even going to be able to get a word in edge wise. We sure do have a few of those “hold the class hostage types”. Like their input and insights are the end all be all. Green with their own damn recovery which fogs up their sense of professionalism and they run off ramped with their self-righteousness and connect it to every topic brought up. Which only takes away from the time that we could actually be spending learning about the counseling skills and techniques necessary to move forward.  

I guess I will find out shortly, as I now only have 13 minutes until class.

Anyways, on a lighter note, Its MARCH FIRST!! And I am excited about this. Lets bring on spring, I need it too bad. The weather has been on again, off again with sunshine and blue skies with temperatures that don't hurt. These few days have only made me feel more stir crazy than ever. The sunshine beaming down on my car, nice enough to keep the windows all the way down the whole ride to work. I can't wait until covid is no longer a threat to society at large. I want outside to be legal for the nice weather. 

I need to get out and explore. feed my hunger for wander and travel. HMM in a perfect world.

[riseandshinecutiepie]

Thor: Ragnarok; yet another review by me :)

I really went to town on this one so grab some snacks, go to the toilet and get comfortable! (not on the toilet of course, unless you want to I guess?)

ALSO: Spoilers! (obviously but if you haven’t seen the movie then what are you doing really) And I do not own any of the gifs used in this. Credit to the amazing owners!

I’m writing this about a week after I saw the movie, so apologies if I don’t go into detail as much or if I don’t remember everything correctly. Normally I do this the day after but I’m still in college and I had my internship so I’ve been running after toddlers and changing diapers all week. Also sorry if this seems rushed and chaotic. I've literally scrabbled out all the thoughts in my head that I wanted to share with you.

BUT LET’S TALK ABOUT THE MASTERPIECE THAT IS THOR:RAGNAROK!

First of all, I knew almost nothing about the movie going into the cinema. I love Marvel and their work but I find that they show quite a lot prior to the release of the movie (teasers, videos and such) so literally all I saw was the trailer and a few pictures. I also couldn’t help myself when I came across some twitter reviews of the movie and so I read those as well. Apparantly it was one of the funniest Marvel movies yet. AND MY GOD WERE THEY RIGHT!

After I saw the movie I did my homework of course, watching every video or interview I could find and spend quite a lot of time on the tumblr tag.

I was pleasantly surprised when the movie started. The first two Thor movies had a Shakespearian vibe and had quite a dark undertone. But when Chris Hemsworth started narrating within the first scene I thought to myself “They’ve gone down a different road with this one, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to like it.”

I loved the change between Loki and Thor’s relationship. In the previous movies (including The Avengers) Loki clearly felt hatred towards his brother and his only desire was a throne. But in this movie it seems as if their “love-hate” relationship has become almost “standard” and they can laugh and joke about it. Which Taika did brilliantly. They came across as actual siblings! My sister and I could relate to quite a lot, it was great to see this new side of their relationship. I also felt a clear change in Loki. Maybe it was because of the new sense of humor and scenes like “Let’s do “get help” or “I’ve been falling for thirthy minutes” but I really feel like Loki missed his brother and enjoyed spending time with him. I’ve always thought of Loki as a really misunderstood and interesting character. (This movie caused my 2013 Loki/Tom Hiddleston obsession to come back with vengeance.) I was so glad Loki made it back to the ship at the end of the movie (I’m not gonna go into detail for those few poor souls who haven’t seen the movie yet). I really think he has a lot more to offer and I’m so excited for his reunion with the other avengers! AND THAT ONE SCENE WHERE HE WAS LOOKING AT THE TESSERACT HAD ME LIKE “ASHLDSLHGDG BABY NO WHAT QKHQFKSHFDS” His change in general is stunning. Like, in 2012 he was running around with aliens basically trying to destroy the world and in 2017 we find him casually chilling watching theater and eating grapes. This guy I swear. Also, let’s not forget that in The Dark World, he did protect Jane?! I believe that deep down Loki has a good heart, he just has some daddy issues and he really wanted a crown.

Also, let me just take this time to appreciate Tom Hiddleston. He is an absolute amazing actor and he is so sweet and charming and caring toward his fans?! Plus he’s absolutely gorgeous ain’t he?

ALSO I JUST WANNA THANK TAIKA WAITITI FOR WHAT HE DID WITH THOR’S CHARACTER! This new, funny, charming Thor is literally what I’ve been dreaming of. Don’t get me wrong, Thor has always been an amazing character but the way Chris played him in Ragnarok was the best Thor I’ve seen so far. I also totally get why they cut his hair. At first I was like “What? They can’t cut Thor’s hair?! He’s Thor? He is the hair?!” but the more I heard Chris and Taika talk about it the more I understood. In order to completely re-create this character there had to be physical changes. And it turned out I was okay with it. (and it must’ve been so practical for Chris as well) (now I feel sorry that Tom still has to wear the wig hahahaa sorry bby) I’m really looking forward to see more of Thor in Infinity War, especially since his powers are now at their peak! I was absolutely shocked when Hela broke his hammer but eventually it made sense. With Mjölnir there Thor would’ve never discovered how powerful he actually is.

Let’s not forget about our precious baby Bruce Banner! When I first heard Hulk was gonna be in the movie I knew it would be great. His introduction was also amazing (Loki saying “I’ve gotta get off this planet” though?????) and I’m so glad I finally found out where he’d been all this time! I loved that we had a talking Hulk in this movie and that he could show other emotions besides “smash!” The scenes with Hulk and Thor in Hulk’s room were absolutely amazing! But Mark as Bruce was of course also amazing. I loved the fact how he went from “oh my god I’ve been the Hulk for two years? My absolute worst nightmare has come true omg no” to “yep imma cosplay Tony Stark for ya’ll! You see these tight pants? Ya I’m Tony Stark hi” And also, Bruce Banner has seven PhDs. Let that sink in for a moment. I barely graduated high school and I’m attempting college while this guy just casually strolls around WITH 7 PHDS.

And these new character? OH MY GOD! When I first saw Valkyrie I was like “yas this is what I’m talking about” She’s so badass! I especially loved that her battle outfit wasn’t “revealing” or “sexy” like I’ve seen with many female warriors. And Korg oh my god I absolutely laughed my ass off with this guy! I really hope we see more of him in upcoming movies! What makes it even better is knowing that Taika actually played him. And Hela? Man, I loved her! I’d seen Cate Blanchett in LORT (duh, also one of my all time favs), and a few other films and I was quite surprised to hear she’d joined the MCU but my god did she do an amazing job! Isn’t she also absolutely gorgeous?! And Hela, oh my god. I almost screamed out for the entire cinema “SISTER? WHAT DO YOU MEAN SISTER? HOLY SHIT!” she was an amazing villan. And to have her kill off the warriors three, just like that?! I thought it was brutal and I hated to see them go (Zach Levi is bae okay) but it was a great way of showing how powerfull she was and what kind of impact she was going to have on Asgard!

Prepare because I’m about to hit you with a mad Jeff Goldblum appreciation post (I’ve been grinning like crazy knowing I got to write this)

Let’s talk about perhaps even my favourite thing about this movie: Jeff Goldblum. This is my favourite person on the planet, okay? My all time favourite movie (trilogy) is Jurassic Park and ever since that movie I have loved Jeff Goldblum. Watching him in interviews, you realise that every character he plays, somehow IS Jeff Goldblum. His acting is truly amazing so is his personality. If you are not familiar with his other work I strongly suggest you catch up! I cannot tell you how stoked I am to see him play Ian Malcolm again in Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom (but that’s a story for another time)

By watching all these interviews for Thor:Ragnarok I got to know his personality more and I’ve come to love and respect him even more. The Grandmaster was a great character and earned quite a few laughs from the audiance. I loved his look and his personality in general. When he killed that one guy with his stick of disaster he made it seem so casual like “well, poof! He’s dead now!” It were lines like “I pardon you…from life!” and “Lord of thunder” that had me losing it and I want to thank Marvel for casting Jeff Goldblum, they could not have made a better choice.

I think it’s pretty obvious that I loved this movie? Taika did an absolute amazing job! There was a lot of improv in this movie which turned out great! Ever since I saw Ghostbusters I was excited to see Chris Hemsworth do more comedy. The images, colours, music (that led zeppelin though???!!) it was all amazing! From the details in Hulk’s room to the once again the gorgeous Asgard!

There is so much more that I could say but I won’t because I’m already hitting 1.400 words so… If you haven’t seen it I strongly suggest you do! It really is worth the time and money, it also provides you with a good laugh, what more could you want?

Request are of course more then welcome ! (Reviews, imagines, headcanons, whatever do have another week of taking care of tiny little humans so it’ll be a while before I get them done!

[tconilhilm]

Clyde in the Bathroom.

Lame title I know, but I’ve had this song stuck in my head for the last few days and I’ve decided since im gonna start using this blog to actually post things I’m gonna start it out with something super cliche and kinda stupid. My head cannons for Clyde at the bottom!

Clyde looked at his reflection in the gym locker room swallowing hard. He wasn’t quite sure how he got here to be honest but he knew it had something to do with his ex-girlfriend Bebe coming over at a rather bad time. He had been... having a small episode and she saw the worst of it, of course after milking him for the truth she somehow convinced him to sign up for the High School talent show to show how he actually felt. 

And he really wasn’t looking forward to everyone knowing what it was like. Especially his friends, he was the cheery friend that you always came to when you needed someone to be stupid with... not the one that always needs someones attention or they start destroying them self. 

“This is stupid, god I don’t need to do this...” He huffed turning around crossing his arms with a glare “I could walk out right now and no one could stop me!” He nodded and took a step forward before sinking on himself again with a frown “But... I couldn’t make Bebe look bad like that... It’s just one song... you can play it off like a joke and I just choose it at random. Yeah...” He choose to ignore the sinking feeling as his number got closer and swallowed before putting on his outfit for the show. “Just... go out and preform what Bebe taught you. You got this.” He said with a smirk as he snapped at his reflection, though the smirk fell as he went slightly pale when he was called on in five. “Oh my god someone help me.” He whined walking out behind the curtain to head on next.

Craig and the others had been surprised at seeing Clyde had signed up for the talent show, never seemed like something he would do. They all joked about it but were serious in going to support him. As Jimmy said if he blew it they could all skip town to north park for the night and choke down crappy fast food. Clyde almost considered doing that before Token talked him out of it. They would not buy him food if he threw it on purpose.

“G-guys he’s on next!” Tweek said looking threw the list of names of who was going, Clyde was near the end thankfully, as soon as he was done they all decided to bounce and take him out to celebrate.

“Thank god, these kids suck.” Craig said crossing his arms as he watched the last boy walk off the stage with some plain magic tricks. They all cheered as Clyde walked out, he was dressed in a sweat top that read REEPE With C on his left arm and R on his right to say CREEPER, Bebe had bought it for him as a joke once on his birthday, he wore it whenever he could. Token couldn’t help but chuckle. 

“He would wear that.” The others nodded as the props were taken for his song, a tub, sink and door. Strange but they only shot each other looks before Clyde walked out and the music started, he adjusted the mic attached to his chin and took a breath before he started to sing.

“I am hanging in the bathroom at the biggest party of the fall. I could stay right here or disappear, and nobody’d even notice at all.” He walked around the stage putting his hands in his pockets as he kicked at the floor and leaned against the sink taking a breath. “I’m a creeper in a bathroom ‘cause my buddy kinda left me alone. But I’d rather fake pee than stand awkwardly, or pretend to check a text on my phone.” 

Clyde turned and grabbed the sink looking at it with a solemn look “Everything felt fine when I was half of a pair. Now through no fault of mind, there’s no other half there.” He looked down gripping the sink before turning to face the crowd slowly sliding down. 

“Now I’m just, Michael in the bathroom, Michael in the bathroom, at a party.” He ran a hand threw his hair shaking his head “Forget how long its been. I’m just Michael in the bathroom, Michael in the bathroom at a party. No you can’t come in!” He said at the door before sliding completely down onto his ass as he picked at the ground frowning. 

“I’m waiting it out ‘till it’s time to leave. And picking at grout as I softly grieve. ”Clyde closed his eyes harshly as he looked away taking a breath I’m just Michael who you don’t know! Michael flyin’ solo, Michael in the bathroom by himself. All by himself.” 

Clyde ran a hand threw his hair again looking back over to the door, now putting on a hurt look. “I am hiding, but he’s out there, just ignoring all our history. Memories get erased, and I’ll get replaced with a new, cooler version of me.” Standing up and walked over to the door and smiled weakly “And I head a drunk girl sing along to Whitney through the door-” He spun around making a joke of it “I wanna dance with somebody!” Soon after his arms dropped as he looked towards the crowd looking down “And my feelings sink, ‘cause it makes me think: no one to make fun of drunk girls with anymore!”

He turned away and started to walk towards the tub looking at his feet. “Now it’s just Michael in the bathroom, Michael in the bathroom at a party.” He swallowed and grimaced as the mic picked it up but played it off “I half regret the beers.” Moving over he got into the tub and sat down in it leaning out of it watching the floor again. “Michael in the bathroom, Michael in the bathroom at a party. As I choke back the tears.” He slipped further into the tub just sticking his arms up “I’ll wait as long as I need, until my face is dry. Or I’ll just blame it on weed, or something in my eye!”

Pulling himself up quickly he grabbed at his hair pulling it slightly “I’m just Michael who you don’t know, Michael flyin’ solo. Michael in the bathroom by himself!”

Clyde snapped himself up and looked out at the audiance, not being able to see them from the lights though “Knock, knock, knock knock. They’re gonna start to shout soon. Knock, knock, knock, knock. Oh hell yeah, I’ll be out soon!” He said crawling out of the tub quickly and started towards the door as if someone was getting tired of waiting for him. 

He stopped as more voices came out along with the music making him pause as the light focused on just him and the door. 

“Knock, knock, knock, knock!” 

Clyde swallowed and grabbed at his sweat-shirt to just have something to hold.

“It sucks that you left me here alone-”

“Knock, Knock, Knock, Knock!” 

“Here in this teenage battle zone-” He started to look more and more panicked.

“Clang, Clang, Clang, Clang!”

“I feel the pressure blowing up-” Clyde grabbed at his throat as if he couldn’t quite breath, his face was turning red as well.

“Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang!” 

“My big mistake was showing up-” He took a shaky step back as he looked down at the shaking hand not on his neck, before turning and running to the sink as a spotlight hit it again. 

“SPLASH! SPLASH! SPLASH! SPLASH!”

Clyde practically ran into the sink before taking a deep breath. 

“I throw some water in my face! And I am in a better place.” He made the motion of rubbing his face and turned back to the door. “I go to open up the door, but I can’t hear knocking anymore...” He paused and looked at himself above the sink into a fake mirror, as if looking in a reflection. 

“I can’t help but year, for a different time. And then I look in the mirror, and the present is clearer. And there’s no denying, I’m just-” He made a choking noise and grabbed his face as if he had just started to cry. The music reflected the lyrics as Clyde shook his head and took a breath “At a party... is there a sadder sight than-” He couldn’t continue and just hummed again matching the music as he brought his hands down to look look at himself again “Michael in the bathroom at a party... This is a heinous night.” Clyde looked at the sink and gripped the edges tightly as he glared at the mirror. 

“I wish I stayed at home, in bed watching cable porn.” He threw up his hands and grabbed his hair again now violently pulling at it “Or wish I offed myself instead! With I was never born!” Clyde finally turned to look directly at the crowd as tears started to run down his face faster and faster. 

“I’m just Michael who’s a loner- So he must be a stoner! Rides a PT Cruiser- God he’s such a loser!” He threw his arm out tired of it all “Michael flyin’ solo! Who you think that you know?! Michael in the bathroom by himself! All by himself, all by himself.” 

Clyde looked away from them all not bothering to hide the tears as he smiled at the other side of the stage, before promptly falling to his knees 

“All you know about me is my name. Awesome party I’m so glad I came.”

The music ended with a flourish as the stage went dark, everyone was speechless before the applause started. People started to scream for him the voices were almost deafening considering most of the kids expected all of the acts to suck.

Craig and the others on the other hand, were completely silent in shock. Of everything that Clyde could have done and he chose... that? They all looked at each other before nodding and standing up as they hurried off to the gym to find him. 

Bebe cut them off at the entrance with a frown. 

“He bailed after his performance, too scared to talk to anyone after it. He most likely went to his moms grave.” They all looked at her as Craig frowned and crossed his arms. 

“How do you know that?” She looked at them and sighed crossing her own arms.

“I’m the one that pushed him to do this, but why he got so emotional he needs to tell you himself. Good luck, you’ll need it.” She said before turning and walked off leaving the others to watch her go in surprise and shock.

Token looked at the others before stepping forward and motioning with his head. 

“Well, lets go then, we have our friend to find.” Tweek, Craig, and Jimmy and looked at him before smiling slightly and nodded as they all hurried off to find Clyde.

End of Part 1, yeah I was gonna just do the song but I didn’t want to drag this on for too long so I’ll write the rest in a few days if I remember XD. But first real post on this blog besides a bunch of reblogs. Nice. 

Anyways head cannons! I see Clyde as the one that grows up always trying to make others happy but ends up leaving himself open and hurt, never asking for anything because he’s too afraid to hear the refection. Bebe ended up coming over for something and saw him in the middle of a panic attack like how Michel is having one in the song.

So after breaking down from how close the song hit to home Clyde bailed before anyone could see or stop him. 

Also I do not know much about Be More Chill! I’m gonna listen to the audio this weekend if I have the time but as of now I do not know much! Thanks for reading and I will work on the second part. No promises though!

Edit: Forgot to mention, the song is Michel in the bathroom!

[alanakalanian]

Cenk Uygur’s Non Denial of the Armenian Genocide... Hoax or Fact?

Well hello fellow Warriors!

I just thought it would be appropriate if I came out of retirement to speak again on the those many articles from years ago on two subjects, Cenk Uygur, and his side kick Ana Gasparian, that were so not worth my time and effort, but simply Genocide deniers and supporters.  I even managed to retain a reply from Ana herself, so I did touch some nerves.

Why, you may ask, did these two, of all people, a Genocide denier, and support of that denier concern me with their most recent suspicious activities, well, fellow warriors it appears our recent AG denier, and cohort, are in the mist of twisting what they previously claimed.  Now, the game plan has changed, and warriors best to keep you informed on this slippery duo..

Ironically, as my warriors recall, I ousted these two for the denier of the Armenian Genocide and supporter of a denier that they were.  There was no denying it then for they were exactly what I have claimed.

Through intelligent, and incredible intel, I had thought I successfully exposed this duo for what they exactly stood for years before anyone even knew they existed or cared they did, but yet today, several years later it appears as if maybe their audiance has widen, and so now through sites such as these it appears his denial has only just been exposed.   Also the ANC, (Armenian National Committee) a powerful Armenian organization has also spoke about his denial less than a year ago..

Well, negatory, newsflash,  Cenk and Ana, the infamous denial and supporter duo, that our warriors ousted years ago, have only recently started making videos exposing them self as not “really” Genocide deniers any longer.

For those who had not heard of them before, now may not just know them but may find some iota of empathy for them..  Their videos IMO appear to have an extreme need for their audience’s sympathy, even pity.

Please don’t get me wrong, as I respect, and appreciate the facts when ever they surface, but I can’t help wondering if my 6 year old ago articles were taken seriously back when they did not care what others thought of their denial,  a couple of  freedom of speech violators would no longer be able to be making videos, “I almost recognize”.

Now, folks like ANC write about them as they were the ones to expose the duo to the world. What I do think is they did have much to do with him thinking twice upon his thoughts, also Ana’s.

Only difference is now, after all my plugging to seal the leak of denial when it was the biggest kind of denial on file, with side kick Ana defending that denial, I had no avail but for years, these guys, Cenk and Ana, have used the time to regroup, and find their own ways of beating the wrap, the Armenian Genocide denial wrap that is, without actually in Cenk’s case actually acknowledging it.

Even Ana has resorted to making videos pleading, and begging her audience to believe her recognition of the AG, and her non support of Cenk’s denial.

Unfortunately, Ana had not that to prove to me, I always believed she acknowledged the Genocide, after all,  her ancestors she claims had escaped from it in 1915, but she fudged it all up by taking a job from a well known AG denier, and in some cases through his videos has shown a bit of racism towards Armenians as well.

About a year or more ago the ANC (Armenian National Committee) also dabbled on this subject.

For me, I have always stood for the facts, and the ones I had were, Cenk was against Armenians, and Ana his side kick did what she had to do to keep her job.

I also believed Cenk only kept her around mainly because she was Armenian, and no one not even astute warriors like AlanaKalanian could see through the Armenian blinders.  Having an Armenian as a “young Turk” maybe he perceived others would believe he had nothing against Armenians, thus winning the Armenian audience, which I hear is pretty large there in California.   Armenians are protestors, vowing to  “never to forget”, the kind of people who form large peaceful groups, and can make a difference if need be.  Cenk IMO, believed his career was on the line.

So years later, and many articles from this blog denouncing him for the  infamous “You Tube” talk show host, Cenk Uygur (well at least in my world) for his denial of the Armenian Genocide, has almost ceased to exist till today as I realized what should of been exposed over 6 years ago is finally being recognized, but at what cost.

As my fellow warriors know, deniers in my experience just don’t see the truth, even if presented all the evidence and should by all that is justifiable miraculously sees the light, but no, many, how many ways the truth is served what you learn as I have, the truth is not what they lack.   Actually, most are just heavy duty nationalists who know the truth but are just in denial of it and preferably want to stay that way.  In which case this is what I had believed about Cenk.

It is worth mentioning that in the past I had an opportunity to speak to 2 non- nationalistic Turks out of I’d say a rough guess, give or take a 100 nationalist Turks, that I was able to speak rationally and prove successfully the Armenian genocide was a historical fact, the others mostly became very angry and had no crucial feedback on the issue..

Recently,  Cenk made a public statement as did his co host Ana, the “Armenian young Turk” as I always fondly mentioned her, claiming that he no longer denies the Armenian Genocide, and her to me was a bunch of blah, blah, blah, which I will explain why I feel this way.

Ironically, all done rather recently.  Perhaps a red flag…

As the statement so in consistent of a controversial talk show host, that as a matter of fact he no longer knows what he believes, but graciously asks that we, the public have patience with him. 

What? Red flag, red flag, red flag…..

Either, you know right from wrong or you don’t.  Yes, it is just that simple.

Since when do we allow our friends, family, and worst of all our “You Tube talk show hosts” the opportunity to continue having us believe in them and what they stand for when they won’t take a stand one way or the other in something we strongly believe in?

Is this how humanity feels when it fails?

We don’t know, we only know right from wrong..

What we discover is that these folks have chosen to take the easy way out.  Yes, they have found a way, or so they thought to get truth awareness seekers like myself off their back and have tucked them as far back to the back of their closet shelf as possible -never to be heard from again.

Problem is they have allowed Uygur to achieve the best of both worlds, not me of course, or any of my warriors.

See, on the surface, he claims he is confused, ” still gathering facts”, but he claims he has come a long way, from being totally in denial, that is.  As if to say, now he is simply unsure, like he is almost sure the Armenian Genocide did happen, but without actually saying the exact words..

So now from what I can see, Armenians, and non Armenians, are taking a lap of victory…  As if they have won his acknowledgement.

Hmm..  not so fast..  Is he just appeasing all of us?  As his side kick pats him on the back for all he has achieved.  Between the Armenians and the Turkish nationalists, he is winning in his want for more, success.

Although, where I come from acknowledgements need to be said, with great compassion, it is called being sincere. Plain and simple.

In 1915 over 1.5 million Armenians were brutally murdered by the Turkish government, dubbed the “young Turks”.

No matter how or how many which ways Anna Gasparian tries to justify the name by claiming “young Turks” has several meanings unlike “nazis’, even an idiot knows that when he named his show he was a full fledged Genocide denialist, which can only mean they were obviously his hero’s.  Murderers…

Here Ana claims in a video statement made recently,IMO was a pure act of desperation in defense of her own reputation,.

Did she mean any of it, IMO, not a single word..

Known her just a little too long, remember,

I was the one in 2012, where she defended Uygur’s denial in a reply to me.

In her own words that reply she claimed in her getting the job, that it did not come from a soul searching urge to get Cenk to recognize or to “chip away” at his denial.  More like,  her success is what we all Armenians should be grateful for.  Complete opposite from what she claims in her recent video on the subject.

What happen Ana?  A “Playboy” writer, found out you were not fooling anyone, as you had not fooled me years ago.

Now, faced with humiliation and lower ratings, there is more effort put in by you to see the Armenian Genocide gets the recognition it deserves, what it had always had deserved, but only now, out of the blue, it finally gets it.  I might add that Cenk is not even in the AG tribute video.

Ana claims she took the job to chip, chip, away at Cenk’s denial, and yet she has only just begun. How long have they worked together?  At least over 7 years…

Believe me, I don’t dislike these people, as hate is by far an issue, and being late is better than never, but their sincerity, that would even be a bonus.

In the mean time they need to stop the farce.  When the denial that lurks discriminately in Cenk’s heart is fully gone, that is when he not Ana should claim it.  Otherwise, it is just a stall process for higher ratings in my book.  “Hey, look I maybe believe in the Armenian Genocide,”  6 million views…

Again, Uygur if you are reading this, the Armenian Genocide, means so much more than you just exploiting it for your insignificant ratings.

Just scroll the internet and what you’ll find is more than a handful of videos titled in some form about Cenk speaking on the AG.

Sadly, with no conclusion, all a waste of the actual people’s time who actually care deeply about this issue,  for those that don’t, not really care, this not exactly making them awful people but just Cenk die hard fans, who want to see just a smidgen of hope that he truly is not not the dreaded Armenian Genocide denier he has been accused of being for years, and those of course, hard core Turkish nationalists, who grunt miserably towards Armenians, and want to believe Armenians are all bad in general.

In conclusion, if Cenk and Ana just may have gained more fans by their ill attempts to convince the public they need your patience when it comes to Armenian Genocide recognition, IMO, very easily could be conceived as a hoax, some others, not AlanaKalanian Warriors of course would suggest this is fact.  If any truth is to be found here is they are taking a very sensitive, historical fact that has brought suffering to so many, and exploiting for what appears, IMO their own interests.

[curious-shadow-cat]

The Heartache Pg3

Bendy's eyes were wide when she said this. In love? With Boris? How? He was confused. He shook his head and laughed.

Bendy:"What? Me? Nah, nah, nah, that can't be doll, you've seen me going after women." She gave him a look."What?"

Molly:"Bendy, you obviously care about Boris more than anyone else. You love being around him-I've never seen you so happy! He's so sweet to you too! You both really seem to care about each other, so why not?" She shrugged. Bendy frowned and rolled his eyes.

Bendy:"That's crazy." He stood up and walked away. She quickly followed him.

Molly:"Bendy, you just told me you couldn't focus on your dancing, your eating or anything else!"

Bendy:"So?" She began to skip.

Molly:"That's how you know when someone really loves you." He shook his head.

Bendy:"Yeah right. I can't be in love with him, what would he think if I told him I loved him?" He shrunk a bit more. Molly shrugged.

Molly:"Maybe give him hints." She said. Bendy looked away from her. He was quiet for a while as they walked through the park.

Bendy:"What's the point though? He's already in love with someone else." She shrugged.

Molly:"Yeah...actually...he broke up with her, so you have a chance to find out if he loves you more." He stopped and she skipped past him. This didn't seem like a bad idea. Might as well give it a shot and see if he really was in love with the wolf or not. He quickly caught up to her and she stopped.

Bendy:"Okay, what do I gotta do?" She smiled brightly.

Molly:"Just be you Bendy. He's still here isn't he? If he didn't like you for you he probably wouldn't have came back to see you." She had a point there. Bendy slowly smiled. Maybe this wasn't such bad plan after all.

Bendy returned home feeling a little calm. Boris was cooking up dinner for the two of them. The two ate together.

Boris:"So, got any plans before Abella shows up?" Bendy chuckled.

Bendy:"Nah, I wanna spend all the time just being with you. If this plan works, I have a feeling she won't let us see each other much again." Boris frowned.

Boris:"Aw, I'll be sure to write buddy." He said with a small smile."Oh yeah, did you ever find out what happened to my letters?" He asked. Bendy shook his head.

Bendy:"Nope. Whoever was suppose to deliver them must've got lost or something." He shrugged.

Boris:"Hm..." The two continued eating."Hey Bendy?" He looked up at the smiling wolf."Thanks for being such a good friend. I couldn't ask for a better pal." The demon chuckled.

Bendy:"Well don't go saying that, Abella's got all the money and she can get you just about whatever you want." He shrugged.

Boris:"Yeah, but she can't get me anyone better than you." He said as he touched his hand. All of a sudden Bendy's face heated up and his tail curled. He looked in Boris's eyes and smiled softly.

Bendy:"Heh...come on, save the charm for her buddy." Boris chuckled. He looked down at their hands. Boris's hand was still on his."You know I'm really gunna miss you when you leave again."

Boris:"Well, do I have to leave right away if I'm with Abella again?" Bendy shrugged.

Bendy:"I think she'd like that. She can't seem to stand being around me." Boris smiled a little.

Boris:"Well maybe if you had a chair with ya she probably wouldn't mind." The two laughed.

Bendy:"Boris, really?" He laughed. He didn't seem to notice that he was holding Boris's hand now.

Boris:"Haha, yeah....but really I'll try and keep in touch with ya, and if I don't get any letters from you I'll just come back here and see what's going on. How's that?" Bendy nodded.

Bendy:"Yeah...okay. That makes feel a little better. I just hope Abella doesn't get too mad at ya." Boris rolled his eyes.

Boris:"Well then, that's her problem. I should be allowed to see people I love right?" Bendy's eyes widened and he could feel his face getting hotter."Golly, you alright there Bendy?" He chuckled."Your looking a little heated up." Bendy tried to hide his face.

Bendy:"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. It's just a little hot in here is all." Boris let his hand go and picked up his plate to put it by the sink.

Boris:"Wanna watch some T.V?" He asked. Bendy shrugged.

Bendy:"Sure." He put his own plate in the sink and the two went into the living room and sat down on the couch. They were going through channels trying to find a comedy show. Then their show popped up. Their very first one. Boris grinned.

Boris:"Oh! I remember this! It's been so long since we've watched our shows huh Bendy?" Bendy moaned.

Bendy:"Aw, this one? I never really liked this one. You were good in it though! I was just not in it that day." He said as he shook his head.

Boris:"What? Come on buddy, you were great!" He nudged him a bit. Bendy chuckled. The two watched some old episodes they did together over the years. Bendy and Boris had some good laughs together. Then one of their musical shows came up and Bendy frowned. Boris was still smiling though.

Boris:"I remember this one, I think this is the first love song you wanted to sing." He leaned back and put one leg over the other. Bendy crossed his arms and leaned back .

Bendy:"Yeah..." He shrugged. Too bad the cigar box was empty. He would've loved one right about now. He thought. Bendy, on T.V., was standing on the stage wearing a bow tie that sparkled.

~Someday when I'm awfully low, when the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking of you... and the way you look tonight.~

Boris was nodding his head as he listened.

Boris:"I was so focused on listening to you sing, I almost forgot to play my clarinet." Bendy's arms lowered onto his lap as he watched himself on T.V. sing."I wanted to hear you sing like this for a long time when we were working together. You weren't really out of your shell much those days." Bendy didn't answer him, nor looked at him. The memories rushed back to him like a bolt of lightning. Just one of those things you wished you could forget and stay forgotten. Boris looked at him, his smile faded a bit."I was really scared that day." Bendy clenched his teeth. He remembered."Heh, I thought this was going to be the last love song you would ever sing. You weren't too interested in singing these songs. "

~Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm and your cheeks so soft, there is nothing for me but to love you, and the way you look tonight~

Bendy stayed silent. His tail curled around his legs. He looked at Boris and frozed when their eyes met. Boris almost frowned when he saw the look of guilt in his eyes.

Boris:"Bendy? Are you alright?"

Bendy:"You don't remember that day do you?" He finally spoke. He raised a brow."Oh come on!" He yelled angrily which surprised Boris at the sudden change of mood."You really don't remember all the things I said to ya that day? How I treated you for the last two weeks during those days?!" He was on his knees trying to look down at the wolf but they were at the same height. Boris struggled to remember anything else that happened that day."I was a major jerk! I treated you like you were suppose to do everything for me no matter what I did! I was acting like a selfish jerk, you really can't remember all that?" The things he said, the lies he told him. Boris seemed to slowly remember some things. He itched his head.

Boris:"Yeah, I remember now." He said simply. Bendy laughed but not happily.

Bendy:"How are you this kind to me after all that?!"

                                          ~Flashback~

Bendy was smoking a cigar as he walked back and forth behind stage. Boris was walking towards him. He looked up and shot a glare at him.

Bendy:"There you are! About time! I thought I was going to have to cancel this how thing!" Boris frowned.

Boris:"Oh no! You don't have to do that Bendy-"

"Don't be late again, ya hear?" Bendy said as he pointed the cigar at him."This is suppose to be my big day! We've got over two hundred people wanting to see me on stage tonight. I can't have them thinking I'm some fraud! Do you?" Boris shook his head.

Boris:"No, of course not!" Bendy crossed his arms.

Bendy:"Well then why are ya goofing off somewhere else instead of being here prepared for the show?"

Boris:"I'am prepared. See?" He held out his clarinet."I'm even dressed up in the outfit you told me to wear." He was wearing a black and white dress. Bendy buried his face in one hand.

Bendy:"Boris....I told you to wear a suit and tie." He shot a glare at him."Just stay off the stage okay? They're gunna think this is all a joke to them!" Boris's ears lowered and he frowned.

Boris:"Gosh, I'm awfully sorry Bendy." He said a bit sadly. Bendy sighed heavily.

Bendy:"Just...don't let this happen again. I know we're all for fun and all every now and then but this is not that night. This is the night where I finally show the world just how important I'am." Boris raised a brow at him.

Boris:"I thought this was about 'us'?" Bendy looked at him.

Bendy:"Well....yes? But no?" He shrugged."You're not the one on the stage tonight." He said with a smirk. Boris's shoulders dropped as Bendy turned around and heard the audiance cheering."Remember, I'm counting on you to make this show happen! So is everyone else!" He quickly walked away.

Boris:"Golly...."

         ~End of Flashback~

Bendy:"For two weeks...I treated you like garbage. I didn't understand why you still stayed, I thought you were just an idiot." He looked down and was shaking his head."But I was the idiot. I always have been. I didn't see how much of a good friend you were. I broke that promise I made all those years ago."

Boris:"Bendy."

Bendy:"No, no. I can understand if you hate me Boris."

Boris:"But Bendy-"

"I DON'T wanna hear lies!" Bendy said a little loud."Just tell me how you really feel! Be honest!" He said as he grabbed his shoulders. Boris gently took his hands off and looked in his eyes.

Boris:"Bendy, you don't remember EVERYTHING that happened do you?" Bendy blinked looking confused.

Bendy:"What...?" Boris smiled a little.

Boris:"You already apologized. Don't get me wrong, I actually...was planning to leave. Until Ched almost ran me over with a train.You don't remember that day?" Bendy shook his head.

Bendy:"Not really. All I remember was treating you like garbage." Boris shook his head as he chuckled.

Boris:"Bendy, I left that show because we got into a big argument. We already talked about this. You were going on about how it was my fault that you forgot your song you were singing for the last three days. All day and all night. I left and you were going to start the show with someone else. I was going to take a train home but Ched showed up and we got into an argument about money. Telling me that you owed him a hundred dollars or whatever that greedy rat was going on about, and shoved me into the tracks. I hit my head hard on the metal bar and was knocked out. Next thing I remember, you were trying to get me to wake up and we were off the tracks. The train was ruined. You wouldn't stop apologizing to me for three days after that. " Bendy was quiet.

~With each word your tenderness grows, tearing my fear apart... And that laugh that wrinkles your nose, it touches my foolish heart.~

Bendy:"So....what do you think of me now?" He hesitantly asked. Boris chuckled and shook his head. He raised a brow.

Boris:"You really wanna know?" Bendy swallowed. After a minute passed he grabbed Bendy's arms. The demon gasped as he was pushed down on his back on the couch and the wolf gave him a mischievous smile.

Bendy:"B-Boris?" His face felt warmer than before and he was unprepared for what happened next.

~Lovely, never, ever change. Keep that breathless charm. Won't you please arrange it? 'Cause I love you...Just the way you look tonight.~

The wolf slid his hands down to the demon's sides and began to tickle him. The demon burst into laughter. He tried to get away but Boris kept pulled him close and tickling him.

Bendy:"Oh yeah?" He threw himself onto the wolf and began tickling him. The two began to laugh as they tickled each other. Though Boris seemed to be able to tickle him the most."Okay! Okay! I give! I give! Hahahaha!" Boris finally stopped tickling him.

`And that laugh that wrinkles your nose, it touches my foolish heart. Lovely, don't you ever change. Keep that breathless charm. Won't you please arrange it? 'Cause I love you...just the way you look tonight.~ ~Mmmmm~

Just as Bendy was catching his breath, Boris licked his cheek. Bendy looked at him with wide eyes. Boris was smiling warmly at him and the look in his eyes, he's never looked at him that way before. Bendy slowly smiled and chuckled.

~Just the way you look tonight.~

Bendy:"....Boris."

Boris:"Mmhm?"

Bendy:"....I-" There was a loud banging on the front door. The two sat up right away. Boris got up and quickly walked towards the door. When he opened it, his eyes widened.

Boris:"Abella?" Bendy's heart dropped when he saw her. She was smiling brightly at the wolf and threw her arms around him. Bendy clawed the couch leaving scratch marks on it and clenched his teeth.

Abella:"Hello my sweetest flavored pie! It feels like it's been forever since we last saw each other!" He took a step back but she took a step closer quickly."When I read all your letters I felt like I was falling in love with you all over again!" Boris's ears lowered.

Boris:"Oh...really?" She nodded.

Abella:"Of course my precious love pup!" She said as she cupped his face in her hands and pulled him in for a smooch. Bendy's jaw dropped along with his head. It bounced off the floor and rolled away. The body slowly fell backwards and fell on it's back on the hard floor. Boris gently pushed her back.

Boris:"Uhh, Abella, you actually came?"

Abella:"Yes! I just couldn't wait any longer. My heart would not stop singing your name." She threw her arms around him again and began to kiss him over and over. Bendy, in the corner, watched them and he growled low. He never felt this way before. His body walked over to him and picked his head up placing it back onto his shoulders. He wanted to speak, wanted to tell her to leave, but he waited for what Boris had to say. The demon crossed his arms. Boris gently pushed her back and tried to catch his breath.

Boris:"Uhm...that's good and all....uhmm....oh golly..." He itched his head. She frowned.

Abella:"What's the matter darling? I thought this was what you wanted." He made a look of guilt and looked at Bendy. The demon blinked. He rolled his eyes and walked up to them.

Bendy:"I'll tell her then." She furrowed her brows at Boris.

Abella:"Tell me what?" She asked as she crossed her arms. He smiled sheepishly. Bendy smirked at her.

Bendy:"Look, you two had fun and all but Boris already found someone." He said this as he walked her to the front door.

Abella:"What?! Who?!" He grinned at her.

Bendy:"Me!"

Abella:"Wha-" Bendy slammed the door shut and he walked away feeling better. Boris's ears were down.

Boris:"I kinda expected you to do...something else. That seemed a little harsh don't ya think?" Bendy shrugged.

Bendy:"Who cares? She shouldn't have kept ya waiting for so long right?" He sat down on the couch. Boris couldn't help but stare at the door.

Boris:"I think we should check on her just to be sure she's okay." Bendy sighed and looked at him.

Bendy:"Boris you sweet, sweet wolf, she'll be over it in no time. Now come on over here and watch T.V with me." He said almost sweetly as he held his arms out to him.

Boris:"Uhh....I dunno, I'm getting chills down my spine-" The door flew open and he spun around only to see Abella glaring at him. She stood in front of him with crossed arms.

Abella:"So that's it then? You're leaving me for that thing?" She pointed a finger at Bendy.

Bendy:"Well, I never!" He kept himself from smirking.

Boris:"Well...I was going to...well I mean....you see..." He wasn't sure what to say. He already felt bad enough that she found out this way.

Abella:"You know, I was really hoping you would of kicked him out by now." Bendy gasped.

Bendy:"I knew it!" He said out loud.

Abella:"But instead you fell for his lies and trickery! He's a devil hun! Of course he's going to lie to someone so sweet and innocent like you." Bendy glared at her."What makes you think he's changed? You told me he's hurt you before!" Bendy frowned and looked at Boris. The wolf crossed his arms.

Boris:"He's a changed demon, he's always has been." Abella stomped her foot.

Abella:"Why are you being so stubborn? It's happening all over again! I'm trying to help you from making a big mistake! He's evil! Look at him! The horns and the tail!" Bendy waved his tail around like a cat.

Bendy:"What's wrong with having horns and a tail?" He asked with a smile.

Abella:"He also has a floating head!" Bendy shrugged."Please don't do this to us Boris." She took his hand."Please, just get rid of him, for me." She asked sweetly as she looked in his eyes with a warm smile. Boris looked at Bendy who was giving him a pleading look.

Bendy:"Bori?" He said. The wolf looked away and they were quiet for a long time. She gently lowered his head to make him look at her.

Abella:"Everything will be just fine without him. I promise." She whispered. Boris swallowed. He sighed and picked Abella up bridal style. Abella smiled triumphantly. Bendy's eyes widened.

Bendy:"B-Boris?!" He heads out the front door. Bendy jumped over the couch and followed them outside."Boris!" He walked to her car parked behind his truck.

Abella:"I knew you would make the right choice my sweet." She said as she kissed his cheek.

Bendy:"Boris! Don't-don't leave me buddy! I'll change! I swear! I won't smoke so much anymore! I'll come home earlier! I'll stop chasing women!" He dropped to his knees."I know I'm a screw up! I'll do whatever it takes for you to stay!" He begged. Boris had placed her in the driver's seat. He leaned down with his arms leaning on the door so they were eye-to-eye.

Boris:"Drive safely okay?" He said with a sweet smile. She frowned and gave him a wide eyed look.

Abella&Bendy:"WHAT?!"

Abella:"But I don't understand!" Boris shrugged.

Boris:"Well, me neither. I'm not like everyone else, Bendy is a good guy. I actually try to understand him. He's a good friend most of the time. He makes mistakes, but so does everyone else. I'm being a good friend by helping him out when he needs it and he does the same for me. He's a devil, yeah, but not like any devil I imagine he would be. He learns from his mistakes." He walked over to Bendy and helped him up."Bendy, I love you just the way you are. There's nothing wrong with a little mischief every now and then." He winked. Bendy smiled and he laughed.

Bendy:"Aw! I knew you wouldn't leave!" He threw his arms around him.

Boris:"Bendy, you don't have to stop doing all that stuff y'know." He said as he hugged him back. Bendy looked up at him.

Bendy:"Oh good, I'm not ready to give up my sweet cigars Bori." He chuckled."But I WILL stop chasing women. Who needs em eh?" He giggled. Abella sighed heavily and started her car. She drove away after giving one last glare at Bendy. The two watched her leave until her car disappeared."Glad that's over huh buddy?" Boris looked at him and nodded.

Boris:"Hey Bendy?" He said hesitantly as they walked back into the house.

Bendy:"Yeah buddy?" He said with a smile. He almost frowned when he saw the look of guilt on his face.

Boris:"I, heh....have a confession to make." Bendy raised a brow.

Bendy:"Oh?" He crossed his arms and smiled."Shoot."

Boris:"....I was kinda....trying to get you jealous at first." Bendy gasped giving a dramatic pose."When I first met Abella? I just wanted to get your attention. But I just thought you weren't interested in me like that. You just saw me as a friend." Bendy walked over to Boris and put one arm around him and pulled him close.

Bendy:"Aw Bori, I can't be mad at ya. I was actually planning on trying to get you to forget about Abella anyway if she ever did come around." The two laughed and Boris hugged him.

Boris:"So Bendy. Got any plans for tomorrow?" Bendy grinned.

Bendy:"Well I was planning on taking a certain wolf out on a date tomorrow night after we spend the day having a nice picnic at a park, or go to the beach with Molly and him." Boris grinned.

Boris:"Sounds like a good plan to me!" He kissed his cheek and his bow tie began to spin as his face grew warm. He began to giggle.

Bendy:"Aww."

Abella was sitting at a bar taking a few strong drinks. She sighed as she buried her face in her hands.

Abella:"Oh Boris....what if he's got you in some kind of spell?"

"Sorry, did you say; 'Boris'?"

The sad poodle looked up and saw an old rat holding a cup of wine.

Abella:"Yes? Do you know him?" She asked. He nodded.

Ched:"I know he likes to spend time with that devil on his shoulder." Her eyes widened.

Abella:"You know Bendy?" He nodded.

Ched:"Yes. He causes more trouble than you think! I can't stand him!" He growled."He causes me so much money! He's a bad influence on my niece too!" She gave him a look of worry.

Abella:"Goodness..." She said softly.

Ched:"I know a way to get rid of him for good though." Her eyes lit up. He grinned. He took out a bottle with the words PURE WATER on it."With a reasonable price, you'll get rid of that devil for good and you'll have Boris all to yourself. She hesitated.

Abella:"But...Boris really seems to care about Bendy. To go far to even say he loves him." Ched's eyes widened and he made a disgusted look.

Ched:"Come on! Don't be ridiculous! A devil? In love? He's just using him for his evil plans." Abella blinked.

Abella:"What evil plans?" Ched looked around making sure no one was listening and then he leaned closer.

Ched:"Everyone else may have fallen for the devil's charm but I'm tellin' ya the truth here sweet heart. He wants the souls of the innocent." She almost didn't believe him but then again, he was a demon."I'd go after him myself, but I'm old and not quick enough as I used to be." She stared at the bottle for a long time. She pulled out her purse and pulled out a hundred dollars. His eyes almost popped out and he started to drool. He took it and grinned."Pleasure doing business with you." He gave her a whole bag of PURE WATER. She took it and left without another word. She looked down at the bag and sighed.

Abella:"Don't worry honey. I'll get you out of this mess." She said to herself. She got in her car and drove off.