#the answer is absolutely nothing some people man they just dont deserve to interact with idols because at the end of the day

[leenaur143]

i hope knetizens have only warm sides of their pillow

[borom1r]

2, 3, 7, 8, 9, 12, 14, 18, 20, 22 for lotr from the violence ask meme 😈

OK i have answered 2 already but lets do this thing fuck yea (thank uuuuuuuuuu!!!!!)

3) screenshot or description of the worst take you’ve seen on tumblr

look its not really a "take" but the amount of people who just post variations of "I don't like Boromir, he's the worst" IN THE BOROMIR TAG is genuinely insane to me. like have ur (incorrect) opinion but keep it out of the tag worstie

7) what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

uhhhh no one thank the gods. ive always disliked Denethor Because of canon. but i will say stumbling across the file index of an old LotR fansite + clicking on files w/ no preview only to find graphics thirsting over Denethor did cause massive psychic damage lmao

8) common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

idk 😭 i dont interact w/ the broader fandom really. i do find the way ppl reduce Pippin to Just a joke character in fanon insufferable tho

9) worst part of canon

BOOK!FARAMIR + HIS MIDDLEMEN SHTICK MY WORSTIE.

also ngl i do find the Aragorn/Arwen romance....... Weird. like I'm far from averse to "love at first sight" so long as it comes with the recognition that it's really more infatuation + true love takes work. and there's the fact Aragorn fell head over heels for an image of Lúthien, and Arwen's heart did not turn towards him until Galadriel dressed him up in elven finery. not to mention she was "not yet weary of her days" when Aragorn dies + has to die "whether I will or I nill" like she. wastes away? slowly alone in Lothlórien.

like idk [Aragorn kinnie voice] that's my sister, man but all that aside I do think.. Arwen deserved better? I like that the movies made her more active + I do wish she'd actually been there at Helm's Deep bc it would've been fun to see her and Éowyn bond but yeah. the vibes were off with that whole situation imho

12) the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

huh. does Théodred count? i feel like he's kind of a blank slate so fandom can just kinda run wild with him but i do genuinely enjoy writing him + find that there are solid implications for at least a friendship between him + Boromir (if not more). i mean, Boromir got a Rohirric shield from someone

14) that one thing you see in fics all the time

ok th implication here bein its sth that bothers me which thankfully i pretty much only read Aramir or Faramir/Éomer fics soooo theres not much??

i think the only things that RLLY get to me + they aren't THAT popular trope-wise (or ive been rlly good at avoiding them lmao) are fics that 1) make Boromir overly aggressive or 2) completely woobify Faramir

+ tbh the Faramir one bothers me more actually. that is a grown ass man and captain of the rangers of Ithilien.....................

18) it’s absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on…

HRM. again idk :3 <- blissfully not interacting w the broader fandom + only interacting w/ ppl w correct takes on Boromir + Rohan

(tentatively i need to start following more ppl i see some of yall in my notes + i shld follow. sorry im like a nervous dog u need to coax out from under the porch lol)

20) part of canon you found tedious or boring

side-eyeing my copies of the Histories. i need to finish those. eventually.............

22) your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

ignores?????? nothing i think (thankfully lmao) but i will say there is SO much detail in the films that it makes me INSANE. ik we literally just talked abt this in DMs lmao but i could sit n talk abt LotR costuming for fucking HOURS the films were SO stunning and the clothing alone reveals sooooooo much abt the characters i think its a super underrated vehicle for character analysis :3

[strawberry-nugget]

Oddly specific bnha headcanons

Characters: Deku, Bakugo, Kirishima, Kaminari, Jirou, All Might, Endeavor, Hawks, Dabi

A/N: I'm finally back from my mini hiatus and I finally finished a part of my never ending cursed head canons and I also hit a new milestone so I feel like you all deserve this attempt of mine at comedy for the love I've been getting...I'm also sorry, this is a wild ride, and as you're reading you might wonder why did I make these? And the answer is, simply, because I can 😭, no lol though true... I'm soft so if these made you laugh and you leave an LMAO comment I'll think about it forever uwu. I've talked about most of these with my dear friend @aichiin, who is an amazing artist whom should support in all platforms uwu bye

Warnings: some of this content is NSFW, 18+, so if you're under 18 DO NOT INTERACT

Disclaimer: everyone is at least of 18 years of age

• I can't explain why, and we've seen Endeavor texting shoto in canon but... I feel like probably his texts look like this: …..shoto why aren't you Answering your phone… 

….tell fuyumi to make you soba… . 

… ……are you still friends with that rude boy from school.. 

…I don't want any take out dont get any for me tell natsuo that I'm sorry and try to ask him if he's changed his mind about forgiving me.… 

• All might opens a Facebook account a month before the beloved class graduates as his way to keep on touch with everyone after they're off to fight crime and lives his life as the ultimate Facebook mom and thinks he's texting people but apparently posting on your Facebook wall isn't texting. He has probably made a thousand posts asking midoriya how it works until people just, they just, accept it, I guess, there's nothing else they can do. He uses the Facebook mom tulip emoji and writes in all cap. Give him credit for being so sweet tho. 

And probably it goes like this: "💞🥰🌷🤣WHAT AN AMAZING SUNDAY. GOOD MORNING YOUNG MIDORIYA HOW HAVE YOU BEEN" Ofc he will not hesitate to use all these emojis unironically, in fact, he doesn't know that is the ironic use of an emoji, leave him alone

(Comments on the post most probably go like this: Bakugo: I EXIST TOO YOU OLD HAG, FUCK YOU DEKU, I DIDN'T BRING YOU TO THIS WORLD BUT I SURE WILL TAKE YOU OUT. MOTHERFUCKER. 

Denki: mister al mght do we have english tomorrow ? 

Momo: @denki, no but we have literature, hello mister all might sir, have a nice day too

All might: YOUNG BAKUGO PLEASE WATCH YOUR LANGUAGE 🤣 YOUNG KAMINARI, AS YOUNG YAOYOROZU SAID YOU HAVE LITERATURE AFTER MY CLASS📜 HAVE A BEAUTIFUL EVENING YOUNG YAOYOROZU🌷

• I'm sorry for this but.... Midoriya, Denki and Kirishima probably lick their finger after they absolutely drill it in their noses but here's the deal

Midoriya inspects what he fished out like thoroughly, Denki dissociates while staring at it, and Kirishima does so straight out of his nose

• Someone told Shoto that Saiki K is based on true events and he genuinely believes it and tries to find Saiki K, claiming that he is the answer to all of his problems. Is very subtle about it tho.

• I think that in part one of these atrocious head canons we established that Keigo would willingly put effort to find the clit, right? Listen he probably asks what's the concept of the clit, like why is it outside and not inside- wait you have another spot inside, yeah? He's is so confused and for what? Won't stop for it mid sex but he searches reproduction organ anatomy later on on google because he brought some questions in his brain that need answers. On the clit. You heard me right.

• Dabi looks like he once had a break up that was so rough that he opened a Twitter just to drag the other person down. For once, I won't go into detail and will let your imaginations run wild. 

• I have to do a a cursed one for Bakugo right? Well yeah uhm, he probably was caught flexing his muscles in the mirror during vacation, totally naked too, by one of his friends in his group and screamed in a high pitched voice and picked up that little hotel room fridge to cover himself up and chased them around the hotel room until he just crushed the poor item. To the floor? Because he tried to use it as a cover up and it just slipped... It's even worse if the friend was a potential s/o. He'll scream like one of the screaming/simping TikTok sounds.

• Bakugo also really hates chairs. Idk why I have this headcanon, but I know it in my heart that this man, as an adult, only has those round weird- ish IKEA stools around the kitchen table that's all. No more chairs. Nothing.

• this is too self indulgent but Kirishima and Deku look like the people who, while washing forks, spoons etc they create whole stories about them and treat them like characters, and others would just look at them so confused as to why it takes 16 minutes to wash off a spoon and why are they also crying but you wouldn't understand. This spoon is Cinderella. Back off and let. them. finish. their. stories.

• I feel like Jirou has phases where she only wants to wear black but then she sees a nice pair of jeans and buys it, and then buys some more and then she gets mad about having blue jeans and she dyes them, but then she grows out of that phase for a few months and she tries to find ways to make the fabric paint fade away

• I also think that she, after spending a little time with Momo, spends money on a lot of clothes, and it's not like Momo buys too many clothes, but Jirou always wants to upgrade her wardrobe and ends up feeling lost on what she wants to wear

• Denki and Kirishima turn into the same person a little more every single time they hang out together. You'll listen to Denki say 'manly' all the time and Kirishima starts trying to find leather jackets that look cool on him, and just adopts Dennis speaking habits.

[akampana]

Continuation of this ask

Bedivere x Arturia - Ship it

What made you ship it?

TBH I was one of those few people who shipped it based on that like 2 second scene at the end of FSN. The Camelot Singularity just reinforced it. A lot came from the original Arthurian legend as well. Bedivere is similarly insanely loyal as he is in the game, and like in Fate lore, he’s been with Arthur longer than most.

What are your favorite things about the ship?

He journeyed so far for so long just to see her smile OH MY GOD BRB IM SOBBING HOLY CRAP CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE—

I’m a sucker for intensely loyal knights and I will always be. ALWAYS.

THE ANGST POTENTIALLLLLL but also THE FLUFF POTENTIALLLL

This man loved his king so bloody intensely. So strongly that his desire to see her survived the test of time. To be loved so much, so unconditionally for a thousand and a half years? Gods, that’s just too much, man. ;-;

And I absolutely adore how much it means to him to remain her knight, even if he tends to be insecure about the limb that he lacks, and how he believes he is nothing special in comparison with everyone else. I love that Arturia recognizes his strength and his worth, even if he himself can’t see it.

THE ENTIRE CONFRONTATION IN THE THRONE ROOM LET ME TELL YOU I WAS CRYING SOOOOO HARD THROUGHOUT THAT IK NIT EVEN KIDDING

THIS, the MINDBREAK Arturia goes through when she tries to remember

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

I think that THIS SHIP NEEDS MORE LOVE AND I REALLY OUGHT TO CONTRIBUTE

All the other answers below cut!

Irisviel x Arturia - Ship It

What made you ship it?

I think I was bound to the moment I watched Fate Zero. When I was younger it was overshadowed by the feels Diarturia brought and not to mention Kiritsugu and Iri but this ship is damn good on its own.

What sold it though, is the argument she and Kiritsugu have in Episode 16, right after the last Saber and Lancer fight. Irisviel, who we all know loves her husband so much, forced Kiritsugu to answer Saber. That’s just how important Arturia was to her.

What are your favorite things about the ship?

I think they both found in each other something they themselves lack. It’s actually kind of funny. Arturia is human, and yet she’s so heavily consumed by her ideals that she doesn’t act like one. Irisviel, on the other hand, is not human, and yet everything that she does and wants to do is exactly that.

Throughout the anime, Being with Iri puts Saber into such mundane, ordinary situations that it teaches her to live. The suits, the escorting, being a passenger instead of a driver, appreciating the water by the seashore, etc. It's like the woman wants to leave her with some appreciation for the world, especially when she herself doesn’t have all that much time left.

On Irisviel’s part, I think she found in Saber the companionship she would have wanted from Kiritsugu during the last few days she remained on the Earth. Arturia had been the perfect knight in shining armor, taking Irisviel around to see the world as much as they could amidst a war. If they’d just had more time, I have no doubt Arturia would have taken Irisviel even more places, you know?

It makes me sad :( but in a good way.

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

I’m pretty sure Irisviel would wear the pants in this relationship ya know what I mean? Hahaha

Much as I love this ship, I think that it becomes all the more valuable because of how it ended. To each other, they were this brief, fleeting feeling of happiness. A love that was so short and yet so strong.

Shirou x Arturia - Don't Ship it

Hooooooo boi. Hear me out, mkay ? But this is just my personal opinion so pls no hate

Why don't you ship it?

I’m gonna start out by saying I don’t think I need to, tbh. Hahaha there’s enough content for this ship being fed to us, so my liking it or not is immaterial. But the reason is well...I watched FSN and Shirou x Saber was...not the best thing about it (the best thing about it was the soundtrack omg iconic) Shirou comes off as a bit of a misogynist, and kind of immature, and the whole time it’s like he doesn’t really listen to Arturia at all. Plus, it’s kind of like he just likes her looks at times. The final deciding factor was the date scene. That was just unbearable.

But then I go online and I see all this good stuff about them. And my friend ships them cause they’re canon, right? So, I’m like okay, what if I judged too quickly, let’s play the VN...and I did. And I still didn’t like him with Saber at all. So, I played the next route, watched the next anime, trying to redeem 1st route Shirou as much as I could but it just....didn’t happen. I think I can safely say I tried to like them. I really did. But no.

What would have made you like it?

Removing the misogyny and the immaturity and letting him listen to her. Like he should have.

At no point in their interactions did it feel like they were standing on equal ground, ever. Either he was speaking over her or the opposite. So less of that and a lot more respect.

And when you compare this relationship to what he has with like with his other two love interests, it makes this ship fall completely flat. It’s pretty...bland and honestly kind of shallow. It’s like the story just tells you they’re in love but there’s no answer to why they’re in love. Make him fall in love with her for her without necessarily forcing his need to save everyone on her.

Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it?

I may not like how they got there, but in the end Arturia was able to pass peacefully.

I acknowledge that Shirou was important and made a change in her life.

That ending scene where they meet after so long, NGL is pretty sweet.

A lot of my headcanons happen post-Shirou, so there’s also that.

Archer x Rin -Ship it

What made you ship it?

Tsundere x Cynic has gotta be one of the best dynamics out there.

What are your favorite things about the ship?

His true identity. The fact that she dragged him all the way across space and time to return as her Servant, that’s just bloody fate at work.

The fact that he keeps acknowledging she’s a strong Master despite his later conduct in UBW.

Archer is ridiculously crass and Rin is easily riled up. In the Fifth Holy Grail War, they had the best Master-Servant relationship period. They have this explosive chemistry that just works so well.

When he smiles at her at the end of the route, and you just know that Tohsaka’s gonna be stubborn enough to make sure Shirou doesn’t end up going down the exact same path.

I think it’s sweet that he ends up going along with her whims because he secretly likes housework.

THE PRINCESS CARRY/ CATCH. MAN OH MAN.

Unlike the previous ship mentioned here, these two actually stand on equal ground with each other.

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

I don't think it's exactly an unpopular opinion, but I think they really ought to have more official content y'know? Rin is important in every route, and Archer's the actual climax of UBW and also entirely significant across three routes.

Medusa x Sakura - Don't ship it

Why don't you ship it?

Because while journeying through the routes, I always saw Rider as more of a best friend/sort of motherly figure to Sakura.

Or that Rider fulfilled the kind of relationship that she wanted to have with Rin, while Sakura unknowingly filled the void Medusa's sisters left in her life. I thought she was more of a guardian angel really, not a romantic interest. Kind of like how Heracles was to Illya.

What would have made you like it?

If I could maybe forget about the threesome with Shirou and the implied romantic feelings Rider has for him in Ataraxia that would be great.

Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it?

Sakura deserves all the happiness in the world and I really do believe that Rider could fulfill that.

This ship DEFINITELY DEFINITELYYYYYY NEEDS MORE CONTENT

Diarmuid x Cú - Ship it

What made you ship it?

oooh this probably sounds surprising since based on my content you'd think, no i dont ship this BUT I DOOOOOOO (i just happen to hc them as bros more often)

Honestly what did make me ship it is the parallels.

What are your favorite things about the ship?

IMO They have the biggest potential for hurt/comfort amongst all the ships mentioned here.

They can help each other get through their trauma. Their whole relationship would be extremely healing and supportive.

I love that Diarmuid seems to have idolized Cú Chulainn at some point and honestly who wouldn't be honored to stand beside him, no?

They could be up to the funniest shenanigans because Cú is chaos and Diarmuid would absolutely be an enabler because when he isn't angst-ing he's super damn chill.

Bros being bros hahahah...unless?

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Not really. Maybe that I think Lancer Diar and Cascu would get along better and Saber Diar and Lancer Cu would also get along better but honestly any form is good this ship is good

[a-lonely-tatertot]

numbers & i don't knows

THE FIC BREAK IS OVER

@enbies-and-felonies and @an-absolute-travesty THIS IS HOW TO NOT BREAK PEOPLES HEARTS GUYS

pairing: titz (tam/fitz)

word count: 1807

warnings: two swear words and one mention of alcohol

A/N: This is for titz week the first prompt Winnoning Gala! It ended up longer than it was supposed to whoops. I read through this exactly one time and grammarly wasn’t working so beware @titzweek

Numbers filled his vision. They didn’t anger him like he feared they would. The taunting black #21 on a yellow background only filled him with a deep sadness. The dresses, the colors, the golden numbered badges, none of them would ever mean anything to him. Fitz knew his father was watching him, eyes tracing everywhere he went, watching to see which girl he interacted with would make the perfect wife. And that, that one thought filled him with anger. The people who were labeled with numbers that came from an imperfect list deserved more than what he could ever give them. All he wanted was out. Right now, out of that room. 

Biana was trying to help, she didn’t know why it all bothered him so much but she was trying. Chattering excitedly with the other girls, trying to distract them from their goal. The boy who wandered with an unwanted spotlight on him. 

Somewhere in his masked misery, he had wandered to the bar that held snacks and punch, for once he wished it was real alcohol. Maybe that would make the night somewhat better. 

A knee-length, silky, green dress, with gold sandals and matching gold #4 clipped to the top of the dress. She was polite, well-groomed, she knew exactly what to say, exactly how to laugh. Back as straight as a stick paired with a smile as soft as cotton. He should’ve wanted to be something to her. To mean something, other than just a Vacker. Other than a number. But he knew by her eyes that she was like him. Maybe she did want to be here, but it was all for status. The enticing stare would fool anyone, not Fitz though. Because he knew exactly how to stare back. 

The girl was good at carrying the conversation and annoyingly enough couldn’t pick up on the fact that Fitz just wasn’t in the mood. Maybe he was too good at hiding it. His thoughts wandered from one topic to the next through her ramblings. Counting the minutes she talked referencing the giant clock on the far wall that was behind her. Around three minutes he mused again that his father would be happy if he chose her. She knew her manners at least. When five minutes had gone by he rethought that because there was no way he was choosing her. By the time seven minutes had passed he started wondering if he spilled the punch on himself he could leave. At ten he prayed for the sweet release of death when he finally heard her voice falter and felt a presence behind him. 

Never in his life had he been as happy to see the silver tipped hair and vaguely threatening face of Tam Song. “Hey man you made it!” he yelled way happier than he should’ve been.

“Pretty sure you would’ve killed me if I didn’t,” Tam pointed out. They had gotten closer, bonding over shitting parents and being vaguely annoyed with the constant PDA from Sophie and Keefe.

Fitz winked, “Anyway, Tam this is Mika, Mika this is Tam.” The two shook hands, Mika giving her full smile while Tam gave only a nod. 

“Nice to meet you, if you don't mind I need to steal him for a bit,” Tam said and Fitz was flooded with a wave of relief. Mika nodded and walked off to go bother someone else and he didn’t have the heart to feel bad for them. 

“Oh thank the Ancients,” Fitz said spinning back to face the smaller boy after Mika was around the corner. “I thought I was going to have to fake a heart attack.”

Tam chuckled quietly, “Yeah Biana thought you might’ve needed some help.”

They stared at each other for an awkward moment, and Fitz thought that might be it. Tam would go back to shadowing Biana and he would be left alone to face the masses.

Fitz didn’t notice he had started fidgeting until Tam reached up to grab his hand before it ran through his hair for the fifth time. “You wanna get outta here?” 

“I think there's a rule against leaving your own Gala,” Fitz said sadly.

Tam shrugged, “Biana can deal with them. Plus you look about a minute away from a panic attack. We could head to my house, Terigan wouldn’t care.”

“Please.” It was Tam’s turn to wink. Wrapping his hand around Fitz’s he dragged them both to a corner and quickly covered them with shadows. They stuck to the walls, moving quickly and quietly. It was nerve racking, Fitz Vacker was the Golden Boy. The Golden Boy wouldn’t leave his own Gala, this was a tradition. This was a birth right. He should’ve been honored, excited! Yet here he was, one hand against the wall, the other wrapped in Tam’s. In that moment he was the farthest thing from The Golden Boy he once was but he had never felt more alive. Every inch of his skin was on fire. With nervous and fear, excitement, and he couldn’t stop the grin that spread when Tam raised the crystal out in the courtyard. 

Tam didn’t let go when they arrived. Fitz practically held on tighter. Neither commented on their interlocked fingers.

“So,” Tam said, creaking the door open and falling behind Fitz to the marble gray kitchen. This wasn't his first visit. “Why did you hate being there so much?”

A take it or leave it question. It was his decision to answer or not. That was something he knew with Tam. Somehow he had earned the boy’s trust, and there was a unsaid contract that said Fitz didn’t have to explain himself ever again. But Tam deserved to know, know that Fitz wasn’t normal. That he was wrong in ways that wasn’t just his family. He pulled out ingredients from the cabinets as Tam took a seat. “I dont like girls,” he said with a shrug. “Guess I’m broken like that. Romantically or sexually.”

Fitz was too caught up in his head to notice Tam had moved. It was easier when he was across the counter. Farther away, he could focus on his recipes, on what he knew. Tam was a whole new type of he didn’t know. But there he was, next to him measuring out dry ingredients like he had commented on the weather. There wasn’t a tension in his hands he stirred, nothing about him suggested he was angry. Another thing Fitz just didn’t understand. “Hello?” he asked finally, partly out of annoyance. He just spilled a deep secret and Tam had the audacity to ignore him.

And he continued to. It was like he wasn’t there entirely. Going through the motions of baking (even though Tam didn’t actually know how to bake) without actually thinking. 

“Are you going to at least look at me?” Tam said nothing. Tam did nothing except continue to stir. At this point Fitz was angry. Angry and tired and scared and he just wanted to be yelled at. That he knew. That he understood. 

Without thinking he grabbed Tam’s shoulders and spun him to look at him. Forcing himself into the boys mind, breaking a few laws in the process, he screamed as loud as he could into the boy’s head, LOOK AT ME! 

Tam finally did, but there was stone in his eyes. Get out. Fitz did, he even stumbled a foot farther. 

“I-I’m sorry I didn’t mean too, just you were kinda freaking me out,” Fitz rushed out.

Tam’s face softened and he stopped fearing for his life. “So you don’t like girls,” he said slowly, “do you like guys?”

It hit him like a slap. Could he like guys? Hell he didn’t like girls that was already breaking some unspoken rule might as well go the full nine yards. That sounded like his luck. But Tam didn’t sound angry when he asked, only curious. (And maybe hopeful but Fitz didn’t want to have more things he didn’t understand.)

“I-I’ve never thought about it,” he admitted. It wasn’t a no. An unsaid maybe. Tam bit his lip. Fitz watched transfixed, he didn’t want to move because the thought of this all shattering and Tam getting angry was too much to bare.

Tam held his gaze, his eyes were strangely challenging. Whatever he was about to ask he was daring Fitz to say no. (Fitz wasn’t going to say no to Tam, whatever he was going to ask.) “Do you trust me?”

“Yes,” Fitz didn’t know how that fit into this conversation, but he didn’t think about it. He didn’t have time to.

In one move Tam wrapped his hand in Fitz tie and yanked him down. He only stopped to look Fitz in the eye before smashing their mouths together. Fitz stilled, not quite wrapping his head around what was happening (and because ow), but quickly he moved with the other boy.

Neither really knew what they were doing, and it definitely wasn’t perfect. But Fitz had three realizations in that moment. 

Tam’s lips were softer than he ever thought they could be, even if they were cracked and torn. 

Finally he understood why so many people made such a big deal about kissing girls. If he could Fitz wouldn’t have stopped for the world.

He only knew this one because a loud cough came from his left. Terigan had walked into the room.

“Hello,” he said politely. Tam had jumped feet away from him as if he’d been shocked; Fitz was very pointedly not looking at either of them. The counter had become very very interesting in that moment. 

“Uh, hi,” Tam responded. “I thought you weren’t going to be home for another hour.” For a fleeting moment Fitz wondered if Tam had planned this. 

“Got done early, I was going to make dinner but I guess you two had different plans.” He tried not to choke on his tongue as he remembered how Tam’s mouth felt on his. How he tasted like the chocolate from the snack bar, realization 4. These numbers were better than the black numbers on gold that would decided his future.

“Ha, uh yeah,” Tam pulled on his bangs a desperate attempt to hide his furious blush.

“I’ll tell Linh to find a place to stay. Goodnight boys,” Terigan said with a small wave. Fitz waved back more out of habit and panic and the fact that Tam was too busy wishing himself away to wave. 

When he was gone a heavy silence filled the room. Both boys tried to look anywhere that wasn’t each other. At some point they looked at each other. At some point the silence broke and they laughed. At some point they kissed again. And at some point Fitz realized it had been a better night than he ever thought it was going to be.

[bxstiae]

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Opinion on;

Character in general: I honestly can’t answer this without talking about you so. Let me try first opinions/at first glance. Forgive me cause this might be an arrow to the knee. I…. Actually didn’t care much for Hector. Note I said DIDN’T!! But I mean he’s from a game that I know nothing about? That being said, from the screen shots I’ve seen from mostly you, I’ve come to notice that Hector is very much a mood. I really do like his no filter sort of attitude. That being said, before I met you and witnessed your hector (and idk how i even found you tbh), he’s a character that… I paid little to no attention to. I apparently! have a Hector in my FEH game. I never knew. But that’s how little I really cared for him. It sucks to say that, but he’s from a game I didn’t know soo… I mean, its not hard since, I don’t know many of the older games, but still. I’m relatively new to Fire Emblem. And Hector is one of the rare muses that I’ve come to love because of how somebody portrays him and not because of a game. Anyway…..

From your writing though, I find him to be boisterous kind of guy. He’s like a big old Teddy bear! A Muse I can stand by to be honest. I mean most of the time at least. He isn’t without his flaws for sure.. but stil I want to think that he’s a great man. I always say that Muse A is somebody that the world doesn’t deserve because of XYZ, but honestly, I think for hector? He’s definitely somebody where I’m like. Yea, the world is deserving of you. Hes def a man that I will defend for sure. I think I stan Eliwood just a little bit more! But I also stan Hector too! and yes, I stan him cause of you! Anyway, lets move forward.

I’m gonna put a read more cause its getting long!!

How they play them: Nox, man. Where DO I START? damn, I really don’t know??? I’m also extremely biased too. You’re a wonderful writer in general and your portrayal is honestly one of the best portrayals for any character! I mean this too. I mean, I can say that about a lot of people but.. Honestly, there’s not many that when I see a character, I don’t instantly think of a specific MUN. I’ve done it for a few characters already in various situations. I won’t go into depth about which characters, but I can tell you that it’s less than 10. (as in less than 10 muns – not characters ) These people, while most I’m friends with or talk to (but there are a few in there that I don’t talk to!), have been able to create such great metas and have done a wonderful job at characterisation that it leaves me amazed. I’ll admit that somebody even made me go from hating that character to loving them because they managed to fix the plot holes and bad characterisation that the canon had made him to be. What I am trying to get at though is there aren’t many people that can do that! To make me fall in love with a character? And Nox, I am honestly really happy to tell you that you have that honour. You really do.

I cannot look at hector and not think its you. I know that you say you try, but by the gods, you have. You’ve done so well on him that I think it’s YOUR character. I’ve honestly begun to start reading your other threads/answers that you do for others because I can’t get enough of him. While no i don’t normally read other people’s threads, there are a few that I’m like, yea I wanna see what nox wrote today. It has nothing to do with my interactions with you. While I love and adore our interactions, I love seeing hector outside that sappy/shippy stuff we do! I know this is getting long but you sent me this, I want to tell you. I only wish that I had better words to tell you.

There isn’t any word to tell you how wonderful you do with him. As I said before, I only wish to see him in situations where he’s forced to be OOC. I want to see him in situations that push him out of his limits. You already have to an extent in one answer I’ve seen, and this was since I last told you that. And really? It’s absolutely wonderful. Sometimes I feel like I’m bothering you too much, but sometimes I feel like I want nothing more than to grab a bowl of popcorn and read all of your content. And God, Nox please let me tell you that its really hard for me to fall in love with a character like that. It’s hard cause I end up playing favourites, and I don’t mean to. I want to be fair to everybody. I know I’m supposed to give you concrit, but seriously? I think all the concrit I have for you is nothing but good stuff to be honest.

Like I want to see him at his weakest, where he’s on his knees. I want him to admit he needs help. But then again, I’m sure you do to. He’s a frustrating man. But you do him so much justice to him. Honestly? I just want to say this one last thing. THANK YOU.

The Mun: wELL now that I gushed about how you are as a writer? And how you write him? Perhaps I should go to you! as a person! cause you are a person as well. And you have a heart and feelings, just like me! And honestly? You’re a really great pal! I do hope that we can continue to talk! And talk more often. You got me to play a game if its any consolation. Only 2 people have been able to do that. one of them I have known since High school. He’s been with me through some really rough patches. the other? Hell, I would die for her. I know we aren’t close & that we’ve met not too long ago. At times, I’m still very careful/afraid to step on your toes because I know I can be a lot, but I do care about you! Not because you’re a good writer! but because you care! I do appreciate the fact that you took the time to check up on me. We really should talk more! And we don’t have to talk about our muses either! Hell, you obviously play League, while I don’t play that, I play Smite so I’m sure we can find common ground with that! And I’m sure you will be hearing from me more often as I play the game. If you want I can try to stream it on Twitch! Hell I don’t mind doing that. I’ve been in calls with people and watched anime. While we don’t have to do that, we can still chill and talk. I’m honestly down for anything you wanna throw at me. And please, just cause I’m a bit shy about approaching you at times, don’t hesitate to bother me at any hour of the day. I’m normally really good about responding but sometimes I’m a potato. okay wow tangent but anyway!

You? Nox? I appreciate you! And yes I do wanna talk to you more okay? I’m trash with small talk, so you gotta like… get right into what you wanna talk about. You’re a passionate person for your muse though! and I hope you’re not too bothered by me and my wild antics.

Do I:

RP with them: Yes I do! Just not on here. I do on Emmeryn and honestly, thats become more of a Emm/Hector loving blog than anything. But hell yea, I don’t care. You are what keeps my muse for her alive. I just sometimes wish I had more people want to interact with her. But if its just you on the blog? then alright thats fine too! I’ve made muses only for certain people before. That’s actually how Emm came to be. I didn’t intend her to be wih Hector but my look at us now.

Want to RP with them: Of course! All day every day. And yes! I do actually want to RP with you on Link too! Please dont be afraid to send prompts for him! We can talk about it too. Aside from the hec holding dog boi. But you know! Nox, I will always want to RP and interact with you.

What is my;

Overall Opinion: I’m trash with gifs and I’m running out of time cause I have work soon but I’ll quote my favourite guy MythyMoo: DEN/DEN

**NOTE: Mun’s answer are all to be completely honest. Don’t send url if you don’t want brutal honesty

[niixell]

"lets get personal." answer as many as you wanna! if thats meands allof them tn go for it!!!

Hell Yeah imma do all of them!!!! ty!!!!! sorry some of the answers are really boring or short

1. you and Jennifer-bulow, Chlorine-twenty one pilots, missing you-all time low, water fountain-Alec Benjamin, blame it on my youth-blink-182. It was difficult to choose 6 songs cause usually i just put a playlist on shuffle, but this is pretty good representation of whats in it

2. uhhhh, probably Phil Lester cause I look up to him alot and I want to know what’d he’d be like in person

3. ofc it was “this book is gay” the line is “wowsers, this whole gay thing is a lot more complicated then Glee lead us to believe”

4. ngl, how fucking gay i am for certain people

5. pretty boring, it’s “yeahhh”

6. not completely naked, but not in full pajamas

7. i can pop 3 of my fingers completely in and out of their socket

8. Girls, guys, and non-binary pals are fucking attractive and pretty and nice and im rlly fuckin gay.

9. yup, one of my ex’s did, it was rlly sweet

10. no clue, air drums woulda been yesterday though

11. not rlly, nope!

12. probably, not that i remember though

13. don’t got one

14. wanting to go inside or im at the ocean

15. behind behind behind, i hate being on camera

16. currently...uhhhhhhh......P!ATD probably

17. How are you? “I’m ok”

18. not rlly nope, do believe some people defiantly deserve it though

19. its extreamly complicated. Toby’s my name, and I’m bored

20. Weakness is probably my anxiety. Strength would be...... I can pick up new talents up pretty quicky i guess

21. don’t have one. got people i admire, but not a crush

22. yup, in the lake during the summer once

23. Now that I think about it....I don’t know

24. so, so, so many things. I am an absolute gremlin

25. depending on the people, only time im on the phone is playing mc though so. phone ig

26. maybe? im still “becoming”

27. love: the crunch of refrozen snow. hate: the bus engine which sucks cause i gotta ride it every day

28. what if I fail

29. Ghosts yes, 99% sure my house is haunted as it used to be a doctors office in the 1920s. Aliens 100%. youd have to be an idiot to think that theres not some sort of other life in the entire universe

30. My computer that im typing this on with both arms

31. apple pie filling that I made

32. alberta

33. west west west west west

34. i don’t have an opposite gender

35. the meaning of my life is to study some fucking orcas

36. creation of something new

37. sometimes!

38. pretty grey and boring. maybe rainy, im not sure, im not by any windows

39. 4:28, though it feels like 7. today has gone so slowly

40. Yes and yes. though i only bumped someones truck while learning to park so it wasnt to bad

41. the book needed for # 3!!

42. enh, kinda?

43. not rlly. 

44. film? idk but watching something? im watching bnha right now for the 3rd time

45. ive broken my arm and sprained my ankle but im not sure what was worse

46. yeah!! i was in mexico and they would come land on me!

47. well. Orcas. Bnha. thats pretty much my entire personality

48. Panromanic Demisexual

49. that I cheated on my ex which is compleate bullshit

50. yes!!!

51. sometimes and depends on the situation

52. Aquarius!

53. i need to save it but i spend it. im sucky at saving

54. some food cause im a hungry bitch

55. love<3

56. nope

57. 3 as of current

58. yup!!

59. at school and at work. glad thats over

60. a pan flag hanging on my ceiling

61. yeah. my feet are cold

62. ORCAS

63. i dont really have one. i just hang out with people who like the same stuff and we bond over that

64. shes probably at her house while talking to me on discord rn. hey look @krarshadow, youre part of the asks I told you about

65.  @seriously--fuck--you @krarshadow @official-lucifers-child @thatsthat24 @kitkatthegaybean

66. no clue

67. having a shower i think

68. morningstar

69. nah

70. some of the time. other times im an annoying little shit who shouldn’t be allowed to interact with anyone

71. save the dog and run to work on time. then get fired for refusing to get rid of the dog

72. tell certain people, hang out in my friends classes and not bother with my own, enh, id just be sad I wouldnt see my friends again

73. love as love builds trust

74. I really dont know. I have a playlist called “calming???” and that helps make me not sad

75. ***-***-2083

76. communication. this goes for any kind of relationship, not just romantic

77. i dont know!!!! romantic stuff is confusing and telling the different between liking someone and liking someone is sometimes fucking difficult

78. oh hell yes. one hundred percent

79. wanting to study orcas as a tiny child. its given me something to always look towards and work for

80. 8-91/2

81. i don’t want on. mix my ashes with glitter and throw me into the ocean

82. Sonder, its a pretty boring word but the meaning is cool. “ The profound feeling of realizing that everyone, including strangers passed in the street, has a life as complex as one's own, which they are constantly living despite one's personal lack of awareness of it. “

83. blood

84. *screams are heard in the distance*

85. You and Jennifer apparently

86. blue. but like a Logan Sanders or Tuesday blue

87.

88. my dad

89. situational. there are ones i don’t want to answer, but nothing i can think of where im scared of the truth

90. kill all but one and strap that one on a table and unwrap and dissect it

91. shapeshifting (gotta love that definatly creative answer from a trans person right there)

92. seeing orcas

93. my fucking childhood trauma

94. what the fuck. do people actually wanna sleep with them???? thats creepy as fuck man

95. Tofino, BC (no surprise there, its really easy to see orcas off the coast)

96. Its my fatherrrrrrrr

97. uhhhhh, no, but i did right after getting out of the car once

98. many times! real fun! i quite like plane rides if i get my own space

99. Fuck terfs. Trans rights

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answers (16)

Anonymous said: A lot of these secrets are really serious and sad so heres a lighter one: me and my sister are knitting christmas socks for the whole family as a surprise. Ive never knit a pattern before but im really good!!

Amazing!! 

Anonymous said: idk if your still doing this but my secret is I fear im a terrible person who only acts nice to rick people into liking her and ik that actually does make me an okay but i still feel im doing it for the wrong reasons and someones going to get too close and find out the truth and hate me

That’s very self aware of you, I think-- probably too self aware. You’re absolutely right to say it’s the trying that matters, but I’m not gonna blame you for worrying about it. I have similar concerns about myself sometimes. I’m aware that for me personally they’re partially justified. Some of my kindness is self motivated. 

I think though (and it seems like you already know this) it’s the effect of the kindness that matters. Maybe it’s better for me if I have “pure” intentions, but if I don’t, I should still do the kind things anyway, right? Because at the end there’s still going to be good. And there’s nothing bad about actively trying to be good, which is all we’re doing. 

Anonymous said: my secret is that ive been chasing after a dream my whole life but im not sure ill ever achieve it. times running out and i dont know what to do if i cant. i feel like my whole life has been put on standby and i dont know the way out. i know ill be okay in the end but i dont know what the end will be and that scares me.

Shit that’s relatable. You really will be okay, but it’s terrifying in the meantime, isn’t it? To have those turning points bearing down on you?

Things will happen. You can’t stop that. Time is gonna continue, but you’ll still be there at the end. Your head’s already in the right place. 

Anonymous said: My secret is that I really, really like one of my friends, but he has a girlfriend and slept with one of my best friends when they were both super drunk. I want the feelings to stop and go back to being just friends, because I honestly think I don't have a chance, but there is a small part of me that doesn't want to let go. I don't know what to do.

Well that’s a bitch of a situation, isn’t it? Romantic feelings aren’t really my area, but I understand holding on to things you consciously want to let go. Emotions always feel like part of me, you know? I don’t want to tear them away. Sometimes it’s better to do it, though. I don’t know from a few sentences if that’s the case here, but I hope you find the way that’s the best for you 

Anonymous said: My secret is I used to be suicidal, in my pre/early teens. I had realised I was lesbian in a small, largely Catholic town and hated myself for it. I was awful at social situations and couldn’t make friends. I hated myself for having baby fat because I danced part time. Then as I got older I slowly got more confident until one day a friend died I realised that holy shit I used to be suicidal and I could have killed myself. I’m terrified that I might get like that again and actually do it

Honestly, and I know this is gonna sound cliche, but I’m always in awe of folks like you. I don’t handle my own mental health issues super well most of the time, and to hear about someone growing? Changing? Getting better? Amazing

Anonymous said: If you're still taking these... my secret is that I don't want to give birth to children ever, and would consider adopting instead (when I'm older), but if I were to voice that to any family member or even an acquitance, they would shun me for it and make sure they try to talk me out of it. I really hate how conservative people put so many expectations on my shoulders

Heyyyyyy same. I’m not planning on birthing any kids, but my parents have come down pretty heavily on the single-women-should-not-adopt-children thing, which is.... bullshit. I’m gonna adopt some kids one day, whether they like it or not. 

You know your own mind and your own plans. Other people don’t have to be happy about them, even (maybe especially) family members. 

Anonymous said: My secret is that I’m a bad friend. I don’t make time for the few friends I have and spend most my time working or being in my room. They deserve better than me.

I don’t think you’re a bad friend. Not being around isn’t bad-friend behavior. You’re not hurting anyone. You’re not doing anything wrong. And I certainly don’t think that it justifies the idea that they should leave you. Relationships are always kinda a difficult balancing act, but you don’t have to be perfect at balancing it, you know?

Anonymous said: My secret is that I'm extremely self-sufficient, I've always had to be. But because there's no one else taking care of me it's so hard to invest my time in others because I'll neglect my own mental state. It make sit hard to develop stable relationships. Every once in a while I re-realize that I'm no one's priority so I have to be my own. And it just sucks.

Shit anon that’s really really rough. It makes me sad with you. I’m not going to tell you you’re wrong, because I don’t know, do I? But I hope you are. 

Anonymous said: My secret is I imagine myself as OCs I create for certain fandoms like Young Justice or Castlevania, and I spend all my time daydreaming of how I would act in episodes and how I would interact with the characters. I think it’s because I’m not satisfied with my life, and I’m also afraid that this makes me either weird or crazy.

Oh biggest mood

I do that too. I’m not in a position to say whether that’s a good or bad thing, but I like to think it just makes us creative. For me, it eventually found an outlet in writing, and that’s been a big source of joy in my life. I had some unpleasant experiences sharing that stuff with people in the past, but for me? I don’t worry about it anymore. I know a lot of people that do similar stuff.

Write some fanfiction, maybe :) You might be real good at it

Anonymous said: My secret is I’m secretly attracted to people who are better than me at stuff

That’s not really my area, but seems to me that’s a pretty good thing to be attracted to. One of the sweetest things I hear around school is people talking about how their partners are going to be such good lawyers. It’s cute. 

Anonymous said: My secret is that my anxiety is crushing me. I don't want to feel this way anymore.

Oh, anon. I just.... feel you. I’ve been really struggling lately with the idea that other people move through life without that handicap, and it amazes and angers me. Why don’t I get that? Why am I like this? It isn’t fair. 

And it isn’t. It just isn’t. You didn’t ask to death match your brain every second of the day. You’re not any worse than everyone else, so why do you have to suffer? I don’t know. I really don’t.

The only happy thing I can say to you is people do heal. It’s bullshit that it takes so much time and effort, but it is possible. I’m better off now than I was five years ago, even if it did take five years and a whole lot of therapy, medication, and energy. You shouldn’t have to fight like this, but you can, and you can win. 

Anonymous said: My secret is Im so bitter most of the time that I cant be happy for others. Me and my best friend are both singers but I can never be happy for her when she gets compliments or any success bc im jealous and im scared I'll never learn to be selfless and happy for other people

You’re only human. You have human emotions. You have every right to feel them. The only thing that matters is your choices, because that’s the only thing you can control. 

I’m so sorry you’re scared. That’s another emotion you have every right to feel 

Anonymous said: My secret is that sometimes I hated myself for not express what I felt because I thought they'll hate me or make distance of me but I'm learning to express my feelings to others and try to be more confidence :) I hope you'll be brave too and do whatever you want to do 💜

I wanna be anon when I grow up 

Anonymous said: My secret is that my hands hurt all the time but in different ways, and I’m scared to get help because I’m scared they’ll tell me I’m making it up or being dramatic.

Man do I hate the shit people put you through to get medical help. Everybody’s entitled to ask, aren’t they? So why are we all making that difficult? Why are we making people feel bad about their own pain?

I understand your fear, but I hope you start asking questions anyway. Other people’s opinions about it aren’t your fault

Anonymous said: My secret is that my dermatillomania has gotten way worse since I got to college, so I’m having to wear headscarves again to keep myself from picking my scalp. I smuggled my scarf collection out of my room without telling my parents.

I’m sorry, anon. That’s difficult. That sucks. That’s bullshit. 

Anonymous said: my secret is that when one of my family members says something homophobic I'll laugh and agree because I'm afraid that they'll disown me if there's any shred of proof that I'm LGBT and it makes me feel like such filth

That’s not your fault. It’s theirs for making you feel unsafe, because your safety really should be your first priority! That’s okay! You’re not being a bad person by doing it. You’re just protecting someone. You’re allowed to make that someone you

[low-budget-mulan]

Hi! How often do you run into psychiatric patients during work as an EMT? I'm doing psych right now and we had a 12 yo girl whose mom had her in porn at 6mo-9mo and I just want to scream at 1. these people who are pro-porn and 2. the mom is clearly mentally ill, but still what the effffff. So how do you deal with these patients?

I'm going to start this off by saying that those parents should be reported to CPS. That is absolutely disgusting and I would not let those monsters anywhere near a child. If you have not contacted the proper authorities yet then please do so now because their child (children?) Are being abused and absolutely nobody deserves that. Especially an innocent child. If you have actual evidence of the abuse and the evil things that the parent did then those kids should be taken away and locked up never to see the light of day again. Pieces of shit.

We run into psych patients on the regular. Whether it is a person who is having a psychotic episode, a person who is suicidal, a person who cant take care of him/herself, or a person who just has some sort of addiction where they are self medicating to forget about their problems (either drugs or alcohol. Sometimes both). It is all part of the job. Each patient is different. I've had psych patients who wanted complete silence. I've had psych patients threaten to harm/murder/rape me. Hell, just a couple days ago one tried to attack me in the back of the ambulance on the way to the hospital. I've had psych patients who just wanted someone to talk to. And I've had psych patients that I didnt even realize were potential psych patients until after the call was over. You have to be able to assess the situation and from there you can move forward in patient care. I'll give you a couple examples of times situations were handled well and times they were not and how I decided to act/treat my patient.

1.)

We had a 911 call for a behavioral overdose. Sheriffs were already on scene (good). We get there to find a high school aged girl. She was alert and oriented (AO). Her whole family was around plus the sheriffs, plus the fire engine, plus the fire medics, plus me and my partner. There were too many people. We are trying to talk to our patient and figure out the whole story but she isnt really talking. I turn to the fire medic (they technically are in charge of medical calls, so what they say goes even if it's wrong and stupid) and say let's get her loaded up and he agrees. We walk her to the gurney and load her into the ambulance. Typically we allow one family member/friend to ride along with a patient especially if the patient is a minor. Unless the patient is a psych patient. And heres why. Once the girl was in the back of the ambulance and away from the hoards of people she started answering our questions. She told us everything that happened leading up to this point and why she did it and how she was feeling. I gained her trust by talking to her and separating her from what was causing her anxiety and other feelings that werent good. During the transport I realized she just needed to be distracted. I was monitoring her closely with the medic and got all the medical information I needed. So we just talked about school and plans for college. We talked about her favorite tv shows and how I spelled my name wrong for 13 years. That's all she needed. But not everyone needs that. This is an example of a good call.

2.)

I will start this off by saying I can be sarcastic. Which is not always a good thing. Okay so. This was a transfer call for a man on a legal hold. We were taking him from an emergency room to an actual psych facility where the remainder of his hold would be carried out. This guy was extremely tall like over 6 feet and used to be in the military and still worked out a ton so he was pretty muscular. I just so happened to be driving this day. While my partner was getting his report I went to go get a set of vitals to make sure he was stable and nothing was wrong. Before I can even get them this dude is making all sorts of racist remarks and how he doesnt want to go to whatever psych hospital we are taking him to because "its associated with a certain kind of people if you know what I mean." Then goes on to say hes not going (which tbh if you're on a hold it doesnt matter if you want to go or not. You have to go until you are psychologically cleared). I explained that because he was on a hold he had to go and I wasnt the one who set up the transfer. I literally am just the driver and I go where my dispatch sends me. He then responds with "well what if I fight you" I realize I wasnt going to get my vitals and that this guy was going to be a problem. I walk over to my partner and tell him what's going on and that we need to use restraints (which I rarely use because who wants to be restrained?). At this point we now have sheriffs there to help us get the guy on our gurney and to protect us if this guy freaks out. We get him on our gurney and I put the restraints on. After putting on restraints you have to check for a pulse in the extremity and make sure they can still wiggle their fingers/toes. So I ask him to wiggle his fingers and he flips me off. Me being the sarcastic person I am and without thinking I responded with "oh thanks. I havent had that in a while. Could I get another?" The dude then threatens to rape me and becomes very agitated. I messed up. We de-escalated the situation thank goodness. But I could have handled that situation better. I knew he was already agitated and a dumb comment like that could have easily been the breaking point for him. Dont do something stupid like that.

3.)

We had a transfer for a woman who was on a hold. This was out of one of the worst hospitals I know. Literally the hospital that killed my grandpa. I already hated being there, but how the staff treats patients both medically and professionally (if you can even call it that) was absolute shit. I hated this hospital even before my grandpa was a patient there because of how incompetent and rude the staff was. Sorry I got distracted and ranted, but the backstory is relevant. I go to try and get a report from the nurse who knows absolutely nothing about this patient. Cant give me any history. Doesnt know what meds (if any) were even given. And gets annoyed when I ask for an actual report. Not just the "oh yes that lady is on a hold. She can talk but is being selectively mute. And you're taking her to this place. K bye." At this point I realize I'm going to get nothing from this 'nurse' and I just look through the packet. I go over to the patient who is just sitting there on the bed staring off into thin air. I realized that any loud noise or sudden movement scares her. So I slowly inch my way to her and introduce myself. I tell her I'm there to take her to a different hospital where the staff will be able to take care of her better and where she can get the help she needs. In that whole interaction I got her to say maybe a couple words. And they were basically what's going on. I realized the staff at this shit hospital did not tell her what was happening. Nobody told her she was being transferred. They literally just left her to sit in her own feces because they couldnt be bothered to do their job. Before I even touched her I told her everything that would happen. I walked her through the entire transfer process and let her know what was going on. Then once we were ready to actually start getting her onto our gurney before I made any movement I told her exactly what I was doing. She was completely fine with me. Once we get her to the psych place we finish up our transport and are about to leave she grabs my partners hand says "are they going to be nice and take care of me here?" My heart broke. I told her that yes she would be taken care of and that she wouldnt be ignored here as I know this hospital has great staff. She smiled and let us go.

By assessing the situations and the patients you are able to figure out how to handle your patient. Ive learned from my mistakes and I've learned from my coworkers who have been around longer than me. But always be cautious as a patients mood can change at any time. Even if you dont do anything to trigger it. A patient will go from happy and smiling to trying to punch you in the face. Know your surroundings. Be ready to react because things can change in an instant.

Addition: any sort of illegal activity I will report to the proper authorities. I have reported hospitals, families, and nursing home for neglect and other forms of abuse. If you are sure then ask someone who knows more. I usually ask the supervisor I trust or my coworker who's been doing this for 20 years.

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On Men, Women, Misogyny, Feminism

In relating it to long rooted gender role which shall be maintained to uphold balance, each of man when he is born, he is born with strength and when a woman is born, she is born with beauty.

Now when i said beauty i dont mean it as beauty standard, and it does not actually literally mean as that, but weakness. In which weakness is not a bad thing, and i would not want to even say i made this up by myself, but even biologically and with two eyes we can see ourselves that women are weak and men are strong.

Why i said beauty relates, again, to the root of gender role which shall be maintained (and why it should be maintained would lead to another explanation), and these roles as they go on it puts women in position of that she adores grooming and being seen as beautiful, she likes being paid attention and being valued, she likes taking care and maintaining of herself.

Now i am in full awareness that not all women like to put tons of makeup on her face or use tons of cream on her arms, but the possibility of a woman taking care of herself more, even though it does not mean makeup or excess skincare, is higher than the man to take care of himself (with exception). In a point of her life a woman will either put a cream on her face or powder and lipstick.* But once again i will never say that beauty means beauty standard, for every woman i think as they are born just as that, it means she is already the best version.

So i have mentioned the important premise from before, in which a man is born with strength and woman is born with beauty (rooted from weakness), and these two things are neither absolute bad nor they are absolute good, but instead they are responsibilities. For a man with his strength he bears responsibility related to that, and woman with her beauty she bears responsibility related to that also.

When i said that woman is weak, i will not say that i meant mentally or like this, but more to about physically, even though i will not deny that man has mental strain higher than that of woman, but women are also mentally strong because her role requires her to be so.

Now with these two things owned by each women and men, there are two options that someone can choose to use it for, in its relation to each other—women towards men and men towards women—and that is nothing but either goodness or badness. We will say that both these things, strength of men and beauty of women, as privilege of each, and with privilege comes responsibility, and specificly with this privilege also someone can choose to do good with it or bad. In the case that a man uses strength to dominate over woman injustly, that is when he uses it for bad, and when he uses it to lead over woman justly, that is when he uses it for good, and that he fulfills his responsibility.

In the case of woman, in the other hand, when she does not look after herself to not spread her beauty to men, that is when she uses her privilege for badness, and when she preserves her beauty only for the person who is deserving, that is when she uses it for good, and that she has fulfilled her responsibility.

The explanation as to why for women it is beauty is mere social construct, but as i have kept mentioning before, it relates to balance maintained by gender role, which i will discuss another time (if i remember and care enough). For sure it is a social construct, but this social construct has been examined carefully to create the balance needed, that if the balance is disrupted, it will give disadvantage towards people involved, and i am not saying just men or women, but that it includes children, which is unneglecible. And it will lead to chaotic order of living environment.

So i have seen many women in this world using their privilege for her own benefit, or probably unconsciously idk, and this creates disorder and disadvantage for the men. Some people will say, why then the men just not look at these women, and instead of that the women are blamed for “embracing” their beauty. The answer to that lies in fact that this beauty is privilege, just as strength for men is privilege, and it is very disturbing that a man would hit a woman, or abuse her, and in that i would assume of course the woman will want to let free from all the “abuse of privilege” and that she will defend herself, but, putting aside the fact that since start it is the fault of the man, we keep in mind also that if she defends herself already and tries letting go and still the man abuses her, we will say it is the fault of the man. Similar type of premise can be applied to the case of women doing her “abuse of power”, in which a man would already try not looking or try all he can, but if he is still tempted to look at the woman then it is the fault of the woman, neglecting the fact that since start it is already the fault of the woman.

It might seem so weird, how is it even an equal type of premise from these both, how is it hitting someone can be equalized to looking at someone, but it is just the fact that i did not make up. It is just apparent but hidden, under complexity of the contemplation of patriarchy, under double standards, that it is very hard to see, if a man was born with strength, naturally, then what is a woman born with? Is she born with nothing? Nothing at all?

“Nothing” is what misogynists will want to say, and that is why they treat women like object, cause woman is born with nothing, but men are born with strength.

That is why woman must born with something, not in the essence of wanting to have something similar to man, but in the essence of that if one is born with strength then someone that is not born with strength, born with weakness and with that weakness it must create something that the one can depend on. In the case of women, along with naturality of being civilized human of that a man stays with a woman, and they have descendant, these types of roles constructed at its best once again put women in position that she will depend on beauty as majority, and major trait.

Now keep in mind that beauty, once again, is not beauty standard. Nor does it mean it is the ONLY thing a woman has, nor is it the only thing she can use as a characteristic, nor is it something that she has to maintain so much, nor is it the only thing she can and should use to “attract” partner, these are all incorrect. When i said beauty i just mean how she is comfortable with it and what the term means, and a man chooses her, and a man will not be more care taking than her towards ownself, and even in that meaning she is already dependant on the “beauty” i meant. It is just in the equal case that no matter how strong a woman is (without effort and exceptional cases), a man will be stronger than her, beauty is like that in the same sense, that no matter how caretaking a man is (without exceptional cases), a woman will take care of herself more compared to the man.

Now that it is already clear about this how i didnt make things up about “dependance” not in literal sense, of men and women towards one thing, it paves way of observation, of that these two things determine how both of the gender from a place interact and which of the gender shows corruption. I have seen a place, western society, where the men do not abuse privilege but the women do, and i have seen in middle east, of that the men abuse privilege while the women dont, and in indonesia commonly neither the men nor the women abuse power (with exceptions.. it is rather dynamic in indonesia but im talking majority).

Moving on to the topic of misogyny and feminism. Misogyny is the cause of feminism, it is clear enough (but not to some), of which it all starts with patriarchy as natural way of living, for men are stronger than women, it is just something happening naturally.

Talking about patriarchy, we will want to define it as that since men are stronger than women, men will have to go out to work for search of allowance, and with that the workplace will be naturally dominated by men, they will have to use mind and physics in workplace, and women in the other hand, just as same they use mind and physics to take care of things at home, the only difference is that the women dont go out and dont have to deal with the workplace people to have allowance. With this naturality, it then is established a system in which the man rules in workplace buildings, ruling the country, and his responsibility, with his extra strength, is to rule justly. And i will not say ��just” is an easy thing to attain, it is a very big responsibility, and nature puts it as burden on shoulder of the men.

Now misogyny, they are the men who have hatred towards women sincerely. I have not quiet understand the reasoning of misogyny, i think, simply put, they are just dumb, but one thing i understand of them is that they see women, as i have stated above before, as people inferior to them caused by that women are born with no strength like how men are, and with that they feel their strength as something superior, and someone inferior should listen to someone that is superior, and thus the logic of the misogynists. When the inferior does not want to listen to superior, then the superior shows how he is the superior, and thats why they hit women, and have hatred towards women.

For mysogynists, they dont understand the “role of women and men” like this, they think that women are there to serve them. They think when they marry a woman, they are marrying a house assistant. I did mention that woman stays at home and does home works, but it is merely given the fact that men are stronger so they go out to work, instead of the women doing that, so they stay at home and if the husband is very busy then any woman would then volunteer to make food, to do chores. But if the women themselves are busy, for example the children are very naughty and hard to take care of or like this, then food or chores or like this is responsibility not just of women, but of men. In other hand if the mans work is easy, then he should do chores. Misogynists dont understand this, that what happens around husband and wife is the work of the two, they think that woman should be the one doing every home work.

Misogyny is one of the stupidest thing on earth, of which someone summoning this characteristic has defect in their reasoning, they fail to reason, and with that they are nothing but a walking mindless.

The thing people confuse about are difference between patriarchy and misogyny, or the mixing of both two. Patriarchy in its essence is not wrong at all, any sane person can see this, thus if someone is defected enough in their sanity to think patriarchy is unfair, they are just hateful, and mindless. Patriarchy is an option, the other one being matriarchy, and if someone does not want patriarchy, then they want the other one. If they dont want the other one then they want the mix of two, in which it might disrupt balance, but that needs to be observed. The point is, patriarchy is not wrong at all, as long as,

As long as,

The patriarchy system rules justly.

When it does not rule justly, that is when the system is corrupted with misogyny, or men who lead badly in general, and with the injust characteristic of them i always call this kind of system as “injust patriarchy”. So there is patriarchy, and then theres injust patriarchy. Both are different things.

So the whole story starts when the men failed to rule justly, long ago, misogyny ruled in some ways in which they disadvantaged women a lot (in which in islam world it happened also, and even until now in middle east it still happens). Some men might have just failed to rule justly, in which it means they were just failing in their responsibility bearing the strength they were given, and some men might actually be misogynists ruling over. Both might disadvantage women, for women were ruled over, and they needed constant justice just how everything did, but the injust patriarch system failed to fulfill this, and to some extent, different cases in different places, women fell to great disadvantages.

In modern world where many things happened already, in the middle of disadvantages towards women in many places in the world happened in prolonged chain of events, feminism finally arose as an antidote for injust patriarch. The feminism, the women wanting their rights, itself, was caused by the failure of men, either misogynist system or mere mindless men unable to rule justly.

I have no problem with women wanting their rights. Women wanting to study, women wanting their partners to stop beating them, women wanting to let free of their stupid husbands who, as leaders, dont and cant rule justly and they think to be leader of women means they can do and tell women as they want without basic reasoning. No, that is not how you lead, you first have to be smart, you first have to be reasonable, understanding logic, understaning moral values, understanding what to do and what is right and wrong, this is the responsibility men should train themselves to lead a woman, to lead a household, let alone leading a system.

But, well, majority of people in this world, men and women, are mindless anyways.

But in this case, the stupidity of men caused women to riot, and after that women got their rights back. And so ok, but then appeared post modern feminism, consisting of a bunch of women who just want to inverse roles, of they want women to be leader of men, and they want to be fully equal to man, even when in basic observation men and women are not equal and can never be. And so this post modern feminism is a joke. They let women objectify themselves and they call it empowering, in other words, they let women use their privilege freely towards men, just how men used to do towards women in the past, and they call that normal.

It is not normal.

These women they want to be equal to men, they want no separation from men, but in the essence of doing it they let free their privilege of showing themselves towards men, taking advantage out of that just how men used to, just how the misogynists used to do, and in this phenomena i figured that many men are really against this. They think that women are using their privileges as women, and these women, instead of acknowledging, they will call the men as misogynists. They are not misogynists, but if “post modern feminists” or these women do not stop taking advantage from their privilege, these men might become one (mysogynist). They might become men who think in order for the women to understand that what they are doing is wrong, they need to be abused.

In other words, these post modern feminists, instead of creating equality, they create further division.

It might sound weird, impossible, and insane how i write it that equation of privilege is strength for men and beauty for women, and that when men abuse women the women are in great diasadvantage, whilst when women “abuse” their privilege, men are not in equal disadvantage, it is almost like the equation does not fit, but my points are two. That one, it was not meant to be equal since the start, but i kid you not, that to men, this beauty of women is somehow a very great deal for them, that if they fall trapped to it, it is that they have lost their mind, for a man. For a man, his common sense is defined as when he does not give in to his ultimate desire of wanting women. This is specificly not even something social, or a kind of fitting-logy, it is in fact, science. It is biology. It is something that comes naturally with men, that when they have fallen trap towards women (as object of beauty), their reasoning in life becomes questionnable, they have failed to fulfill moral duty as a human being. With that when they fall trapped towards women, noting that the women dont “mind” about what they are doing, they are, actually, in a very great disadvantage themselves. In the construct of the balance, it is a requirement for men to have mostly just 1 woman, with exceptions. And exceptions are always rare. The point number two is that, for the men as leaders, when he falls trap to beauty of women, it disadvatages not just him, but people that come along with him, especially his wife and kids. A man should know what is wrong and what is right, that when he fails to do so, he becomes mere questionnable individual, someone that has partial failure in him, someone that disadvantages others. Thus the explanation on how big womens beauty is in contributing to the balance of the world, and how it is in assurance to put it in equality as mens privilege which is strength. No matter how someone will want to deny this, they cant. Because it is truth in real life, no matter if its not truth in their mind and opinion.

Women will think they are empowering, when in fact, they realize just as how they open their eyes after being awake from sleep, that out there men are seeing her, bad men are seeing her, men who are tempted are seeing her, and just as much as i want to blame these problematic men, it is so hard to not understand that for men, scientifically they are like that, they are like that naturally, and so they shouldnt be tempted ever, and that they should refrain themselves from being tempted. The naturality of men itself which decides its a two sided thing, but women, people, want to believe and pretend its not. That it is just responsibility of men. This is defective belief, cause it is not the truth.

I am a woman and i acknowledge the above matter, but i do understand that many women in this world choose not to see it as so, even when they realize they are in fact in advantage when they show off their beauty, but they dont want to acknowledge it. Thats why for me i am not a person of gender stance, i will neither stance for women nor do i stance men, i have group of men which i hate and group of women which i also do, so instead i stance the people who manage their privilege/responsibility rightly: the men who use their strength for goodness and justly lead women, the women who preserve their beauty for the right man, instead of spreading and showing it to everyone.

I think that, since feminism is caused by injust men, it is better for men to keep in mind that even though they rule, they need not to forget to put women in just always, and with that the women will feel comfortable and undisadvantaged. The women, meanwhile, have to acknowledge that their role is not to lead men or system, and therefore should stop pretend that women are equal to men in ways that they arent.

In the case that a man has beauty, his obligation to not show it mindlessly to others and take advantage with it is same as how women should not, because just as when a woman happens to be stronger than man, she shouldnt hit men as abuse of power, the same applies to men when they have privilege of women.

I do not have expectation that the world will have the balance needed, for people lack intelligence and reasoning, and they are controlled mostly by desire, and desire, and desire. I have no expectation, but i do know it is what is right, for i have observed fully, relation between what men have and what women have (by social construct, whilst for men its naturality), and how it impacts the world, and how it makes the world works. It is a proven relation that no one talks about, for it is hard to see in the middle of the complex situations currently happening in the world.

[violetzane]

Why Blood Drive SYFY is SOO IMPORTANT to us Bleeder Blood Drive Fans!

Blood Drive SYFY is THEE BEST SHOW ON EARTH!     I would like to chat a bit about this new awesome show called Blood Drive. Blood Drive is on Wednesday nights at 10PM on SYFY. If you haven't seen this show yet I highly suggest you tune in as it will be the best decision you have ever made. Blood Drive is a show about a death race where cars run on human blood led and hosted by professional killer and lunatic. The show is in a genre of its own. This show is revolutionizing television and setting the bar and new standard. Blood Drive has all the elements of a juggernaut show from the solid storyline to the exceptionally talented cast to the amazing action. Creator and Producer James Roland with Producers Fredrik Malmberg and Mark Wheeler, Director Gregg Simon along with the cast Colin Cunningham(Julian Slink), Christina Ochoa(Grace), Alan Richardson(Arthur/Barbie), Darren Kent(The Scholar), Andrew James Hall(The Gentleman), Thomas Dominique(Christopher), Marama Corlett(AKI), Jenny Stead and Craig Jackson(Domi and Cliff), Brandon Auret(Rib Bone), Carel New(Rasher) and Sean Cameron Michael(Old Man Heart) and writers Nick Zigler, Daniel Zucker, Nina Fiore, John Halvin and Harrison Weinfeld have created and brought the perfect masterpiece. But even with all of this awesomeness there is one very important and special thing that stands out about this show above all others and that is...THE COMMUNITY OF FANS!      In just a few short months that Blood Drive has been on TV the show has made a huge impact on the fans of the show in a very special and unique way. Blood Drive has gathered fans from all over the world in solidarity and support of the show but for each other as well. Who would have thought a show about a death race where cars run on human blood could have brought so many of us together? But it did. No matter where we found each other whether it was on Twitter, FB or Instagram we have all formed solid friendships and have found extended family with each other. The fans of this show are truly some of the most beautiful and wonderful people on the planet. If one of us is not well, struggling or something happened we all come together as a family for our Bleeder brother or sister showing our support, compassion, love and solidarity. No matter where we are in the world we support each other and are there for each other through thick and thin. There is nothing we wouldn't do for our Bleeder brothers and sisters. We all look forward to chatting and hanging out with each other every day on social media. Blood Drive has created instant friendships and family. There is no other fandom on this planet like the Blood Drive Bleeder Community in the world. But it doesn't end with the fans. THE CAST AND CREW ARE APART OF THE BLOOD DRIVE FAMILY TOO!      The Blood Drive Cast and Crew are some of the most down to earth wonderful people ever. They really extend themselves out to the Blood Drive fans taking time to interact with their fans making the fans really feel like their really apart of the show. They engage with us like no other cast and crew of any show has ever done before. They always take the time to answer our questions, recognize us for our fan art, tweets and contributions to Blood Drive. Some of the cast and crew have even followed some of us fans which is just so absolutely amazing and wonderful. Us fans are honored, thankful and appreciative. Blood Drive also shows their appreciation for their fans by sending the fans cool Blood Drive stuff too. The cast and crew of Blood Drive to us fans have become like our older brothers and sisters. Thank you so much for everything you do and for being wonderful to us fans. WE WILL NOT STOP FIGHTING FOR A SEASON 2 AND BEYOND OF BLOOD DRIVE!      In closing it is absolutely critical and important to get Blood Drive a Season 2 and beyond. It is a very scary critical time right now for Blood Drive, cast, crew and fans. We need this show to continue. We want this show to have the chance it rightfully deserves to shine, grow and prosper. We want the cast and crew to be working for the next 20 seasons as they bring joy to all of us fans each and every week. We want the Blood Drive fandom to grow bigger and to keep the party going. To NBC Universal, SyFy and the big corporate executives if you ever read this please renew Blood Drive. This show is more important than you realize not only for the cast and crew but for our Blood Drive Bleeder family. Please be kind and RENEW BLOOD DRIVE NOW! Blood Drive owns our hearts. PLEASE DONT BREAK IT!   SINCERELY...OMNIPRIESTESS/LISA MARIE. 

[diaboliktheology]

Shipping Info!

Answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog. REPOST. Don’t reblog.

WHAT’S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSE?: any combination of Yui x Happiness or Yui getting every bit of good wholesome love in whatever form it comes in cause she deserves it. I also do ship every one of her canon ships to varying degrees with the exception of my notp from Diabolik Lovers.

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO RP WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING?: Literally anything and everything! I mean fluff, angst, smut, hurt/comfort and everything in-between. There’s obviously a few things that should be and would have to be discussed before I’d be comfortable writing such things out but if I’m comfortable enough to ship with you and the chemistry is there I’ll write just about anything.

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?: lmao well give actual canon I could easily joke and say Yui has a thing for older guys since all the diaboys got at least a couple hundred years on her at their youngest. But joking aside I’ve done another one of these shipping dossiers before and was asked this and the answer hasn’t changed. Aside from adding in a factor of immortality or hella long life the eldest I could see Yui dating or being interested in a romantic way is probably 5-9 Years her senior and this varies depending on verse. The youngest I could see her dating is maybe someone a year younger than her and even then depending on what age we’re talking about Yui would be reluctant in regards to certain things till her s/o was of age.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?: I...think I was more so before I started writing Yui but really I don’t think I am. I mean I’m a ship hoe and I can guarantee that I probably ship the thing in one way or another but... ultimately its not UP TO ME. As much as I love ships and all the fun stuff and feels that happen with them chemistry is key. Just because I ship something doesn’t mean Yui will be interested in something romantic, and this is especially so in her main/canon verses for a few reasons. That being said though Yui is nothing but love and if she gets along with your muse there is ALWAYS a chance of chemistry.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY’RE CONSIDERED NSFW?: If anything happens that wouldn’t be permitted in a pg-13 movie I’d say it's NSFW. Ex: Exposure or touching of naughty bits.

WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE WITH?: I don’t have many romantic ships that have progressed far at all aside from my lovely and wholesome ship with Yui’s werebae and wife to be @ironwiill . The only other one currently is my shuyui ship with @ofnocturnes and that’s still in the very first stages of things. However Yui is very fond of her friends and I do have a few hella brotp ships that I absolutely adore via @brxken-piano , @shxujobrave , Kiki’s boy Paris, and Luka on @cfdualities

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?: nah my dudes. I mean omg you do not need to come to me all formal like with a laptop in hand, kneel down all proposal style and go ‘will you do me the honor of’. Like none of that nonsense, its unnecessary! Some discussion is appreciated and sorta needed just to make sure we’re on the same page but you don’t need to ask! If you ship the babs or think they could be hella good together in some way come and discuss it with me. The worst thing I will ever say is that I can’t see it but I’m up to seeing where it goes.

HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP?: as often as it happens to occur?

ARE YOU MULTISHIP?: yeeeeeeep. every ship happens in its own separate world unless we’ve discussed something different.

ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?: omg fam ‘obsessed’ makes it sound so bad ><. But honestly, I like shipping. its arguably the biggest part of rping. And I dont mean just romantic ships but really any relationship your muse happens to build with other muses while plots, threads, and stories are written together with your partner. The writing is awesome but I think one of the most enjoyable things about rping is seeing where ships go and how they develop with time. That and if we’re talking romantic ships they’re just fun man and I enjoy seeing how all my muses react to different people and how these people’s influence on them and in their life make my babs grow and change. So yeah I’d say I’m OBSESSED if that's the term you wanna use XD.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?: noooooooooope |D nuh uh, m’ not telling you that.

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?: So long as our characters have interacted at least once via thread or ask/memes and we’ve talked a little the only thing you need to do is come to me on IM and tell me that you could see yourself shipping the cuties with a little more interaction cause chances are I’m probably already thinking about it and I’d love to actually talk to you about the possibility.

tagged by: @solisaeternum cause they’re a cutie! tagging: EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS AND WANTS TO DO IT IS WELCOME TO SAY I TAGGED YOU.

[girlfriendgear]

Hi, I've been reading your personal posts recently and I hope it's okay that I ask you for advice. I've been going through a break-up recently and I dont know how to get over it. :( what helped you?

putting this under a read more bc it’s gonna be long af!!!!

baby, let me start this off by saying that i am so sorry that you are going through this. secondly, i apologize for letting this sit in my inbox for weeks on end–truth is, i didn’t feel like i was in a place to give anyone advice, especially not on breakups, because i’ve been stumped myself. today, though, i had the misfortune of running into my ex while i was out with a friend, and, despite the impulse feeling of wanting the earth to swallow me up, i managed to calm myself down, (my apple watch tells me to breathe when my heart rate goes up lol) and came to the realization that i don’t feel anything for him anymore and i am okay. seeing him solidified that he is, in fact, just a man who hurt me and that’s all. he’s not the god i was making him out to be in my head, and let me tell you, your ex isn’t either. because of my run in and how i managed to survive it, i feel like i have the confidence to answer this ask. here’s some things that have been very helpful to me as of late.

throw yourself headfirst into things you’re passionate about

for me, it was school, skincare (lmao), and literature. lose yourself completely in whatever it is you enjoy doing–dance along to your favorite song, make art, take selfies! wake up everyday with a plan to do at least one thing that you enjoy. make a good breakfast and coffee, make yourself look hot af, put on your fav outfit. volunteer somewhere! i’ve been volunteering at a farm that offers therapeutic horseback riding for people who are mentally and/or physically disabled. it’s a joy to work with the people there and the horses!

surround yourself with people that DON’T invalidate your feelings about the situation and support you wholeheartedly

i cannot stress enough how important solidarity amongst friends is. i have friends that continue to interact a lot with my ex, and whenever i tried to talk to them about how i was feeling, they would make me feel like my pain was invalid. it doesn’t mean they’re shitty people, but do NOT let these types of people get under your skin or invalidate your feelings. you deserve better than that right now, so shroud yourself in positivity, light, and love from people who genuinely care about your feelings and how you’re doing. go out and do things with them, have fun, laugh loudly. allow yourself happiness. do not push away those who love you.

work on building your self confidence back up

whether i wanted to believe it or not, my self image was shattered after my breakup. i had never felt more ugly, more undesirable, or more unattractive in my entire life. obviously, i am none of those things, and neither are you. a silly thing that helped me was sending selfies/sometimes underwear pics (body image was hitting an all time low as well) to my best friends and having them shower me in compliments. it sounds so silly, but feeling love from your friends and just general positivity can be very nice and that’s nothing to be ashamed of!! hell, send selfies my way and i will compliment the shit out of you.

do not reach out to your ex in anyway

admittedly, i did this quite a few times, and it ended with my teeth getting knocked in every time. i know it’s tempting but it will get you absolutely nowhere, and the only thing it will do is leave you even more heartbroken than you were before. the only time i didn’t regret my decision to confront my ex about something was recently, and that’s only because i’ve been in a really solid spot and i’m not easily knocked down by him anymore (and i was asking for something practical, unlike the other times.) avoid contact with your ex at all costs.

unfortunately, there is no magic cure-all for heartache. there is nothing that you can do but push through the pain, and remind yourself that you will be okay. stress that to yourself. you will be okay. you will be okay. things won’t stay this way forever. the feelings you have are temporary and will pass. remember that it’s okay to be a mess somedays, it’s okay to still miss them, it’s okay to cry sometimes. what’s important is that you try to continue to dig yourself out of the pit. claw your way out if you have to, but never stop. you will be okay. please don’t hesitate to reach out to me again if you need anything, (even off anon if you’d like!) i am more than happy to be a friend