#the animal in me

[socially-awkward-skeleton]

WIP Music Whenever (cause it definitely ain't Monday anymore)

tagged by @inafieldofdaisies @cassietrn @simplegenius042 @clicheantagonist @adelaidedrubman @ghastlyrider @chazz-anova (thank you all!!)

I'm super late to this so not tagging, but if you have a song for your wips that you want to share please consider this me tagging you!

A little ditty that works for both American Beasts and The Animal in Me for different reasons:

I hear music in the air tonight One familiar fading tune Something pulls at my infected soul I think I remember you

I burned your world away Devoured by my conviction

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But it breaks my heart to say No one will save you now I could be your own avenging angel But this dream is ending soon Don't you scream when all the wolves come find you Underneath this bleeding moon

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I have never seen a night this haunting In these streets of blood and bone I can't hold the beast that crawls through my veins Sacrificing my own eyes No confessions left to purify me Something's watching from the skies

[inlovewithquotes]

"Some nights, the wolf inside of me shrinks to nothing, she bares her teeth and runs away. The dragon in my chest rejects me, she's so tired of being slain. There are nights when the lioness cowers, says she can't fight it another day...."

"What about the phoenix?"

"She sits with me in the darkness. She whispers 'we'll rise. Just you wait.'"

[maerenee930]

🎶✨️when u get this u have to put 5 songs u actually listen to, publish. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)🎶✨️

i am truly so sorry it’s taken me so long to reply to this! Thank you so much for sending me this, Joz!! 🥹🥰💙🖤🫂

alright, 5 songs i actually listen to:

1. Got My Mind Set On You by George Harrison

2. Five Years by Bo Burnham

3. I2i by The Animal in Me

4. Nonsense by Sabrina Carpenter

5. Famous Last Words by MCR

thank you so much again for sending/asking me this and i’m so sorry i didn’t do this sooner 💖 (my head has been all over the place the past few months 😣🤦‍♀️)

[heartxshaped-bruises]

It’s me. Hi. I’m the problem. It’s me.

[solreefs]

“oh I’m too old for stuffed animals” skill issue. sorry you can’t appreciate little creatures made to hang out with you, I on the other hand am full of joyous whimsy and therefore vastly superior.

[dr-rato]

GET ROTATED

[elliejaybird]

my drive home from work yesterday

[climbingthefloors]

moo deng vs the world

[socially-awkward-skeleton]

ooooooh can i get director's commentary on animal in me? (and if you wouldn't mind talking a little bit about ch4 specifically? I really liked that chapter because it really enforced the sheer gravity of what's going on in hope county, and I'd really like to hear your thoughts behind writing that chapter :)c)

I figured you meant "Howling at the Moon" when you said Ch. 4 ;) I'm so glad you really liked that one

So "Animal in Me" is of course the FC5 werewolf au that was always bound to happen. Werewolves are my favourite horror creature and of course there is a giant mountain man who is obsessed with wolves in game (I am a simple woman, when I see the low hanging fruit, I pick it) Anyways, this is my self-indulgent fic to the extreme including many of the time honored tropes of some of my fave werewolf movies, plus things that just make me genuinely happy to write and read (plus also playing with the ideas of A/B/O which I have never written before so fun experiment for me).

Generally when it comes to writing, I am a pantser and it was only in the process of editing that chapter that I realized I'd forgotten to add any plot threads about Dutch and Eli after having just introduced them a chapter previously (I was getting very sucked into my OT3 lol) and so adding in the pack being hunted and the mutation with silver bullets was an idea that sprung to mind in the shower that just needed to be written.

I have never been fond of silver bullets meaning instant death for werewolves, I think it’s an easy way of ending a story and I like the body horror imagery of being stuck between human and animal so I added in the silver having a mutating effect for the wolves in this case. I also didn’t want Jacob and the Seeds to be the only problem. It was one that I could resolve by having Kit join up with Dutch and Eli and to me that just felt like retelling the game story but with added supernatural elements, I wanted to change things up enough that it really was an AU. I also like the idea of having multiple antagonizing forces coming at Kit from all sides and this was an interesting way, at least for me, to do that.  I think the game did such a good job of making the Seeds sympathetic while still being monsters and I wanted to flavor both sides in that same way for this story. Yes, turning people and having them join your werewolf religion isn’t very nice, but neither is going out and hunting them for sport, which is the big reason why I chose to have a mother and son be the ones to show the effects of the hunters weapons on the wolves. There are always innocents on both sides of the war and of course it will have a big effect on plot points further down the line for Kit.

Kit becoming a werewolf and having two opposing sides to her was always going to be the end game, but I wanted to give her the added threat of someone thinking they are being righteous and good while gunning for her and the men she's fallen for.

[pinkpunkdotpng]

I CAN'T STOP THINKING OF THIS STUPID FUCKING DELETED SCENE

THIS ONE

[scuba-divers]

'fairies dont exist' WRONG❗❗cyerce elegans

[seagiri]

you're okay

[io-lu-art]

A tale of Ba Sing Se.

[cometiny]

you can shake him. he enjoys it