#the amount of times ive had to just lay on my stairs bc i fell up or down them-

[the-tiniest-demigod]

I hate physical therapy until i remember I haven't been able to run, skip, or jump in 4 years

[ifridiot]

🌲 🏺 🌳 🌱 ⭐ 🔥!

🌲 woods somewhere - have you ever saved a life?

i tried. she died anyway.

🏺 still and discreet - what is the closest you’ve come to death?

I can think of 2 times.

when i was eight, i fell out of a friend’s mom’s moving car, grabbed the door to keep from being sucked under the wheels, and was dragged for over a quarter mile down a dirt road. my right leg did end up under the tire, crushing my foot and snapping my ankle. I didn’t tell my parents what happened, but the inability to walk clued them in to there being an issue, and i was taken to a small clinic where a cast was put on me. i was allergic to the cast, but due to the frankly terrifying amount of yelling at i’d already endured, i didn’t want to make a fuss, so i tried to deal with the swelling, burning, broken skin under the cast myself. i lost a marker cap in the cast like three days in the six weeks of cast wearing, it tore open the already fragile, damaged flesh, and i got gangrene, which i didn’t tell anyone about despite the horrific agony i was in. I had massive blood poisoning and when they removed the cast (six weeks later) i made one nurse faint, one nurse puke, one doctor refuse to see me, and another tell me that most likely my leg would have to be amputated but they would save as much as they could. 

the second time i was fifteen and i got tonsillitis. really acute, horrible tonsillitis; it looked like there were teeth growing down my throat (these were pockets of infection that would break if i tried to swallow more than my spit). I couldn’t eat or drink, and for two weeks i had to go to the ER every three days for IV fluids bc i was dehydrating but was too sick to handle the surgery. At one point i was so dehydrated and out of it that i lay on the hospital bed unable to cry, half conscious while five nurses tried desperately to get a line in me, but my veins were so hard and kept rolling that it took the better part of half an hour. it was very scary but i also sort of hoped i would just die bc i was so tired lmao.

🌳 blackthorn tree - if you were a tree, what sort would you be?

either an oak bc im a slut or an apple bc i bear fruit ;]

🌱 almost you - what is the song that describes you best?

Give Me an Answer -- Low Roar

A simple response would make this okayIt's foggy but what do you wantI'll keep running; the faces and placesRemind me of who you are

⭐ risin’ - what is the most powerful you’ve ever felt?

there was a bully in high school who used to harass me a lot. one day, i walked to school in the rain, a guy drove through a puddle and i got splashed, completely soaked, by the spray, so i had to run home, shower, change, and run back to school. I’m a big guy, i have asthma, and my first period is on the second floor. I’m grumpy, i can’t breathe, and this girl (the bully) is cutting class sitting with her boyfriend in the stairwell. I make it to the top of the stairs and i’m wheezing and red faced and she gets between me and the door to the hall and says something like ‘fat bitches like you deserve to choke’, so i grabbed her by the throat and hoisted her over the stairs like i was going to drop her. I’m not proud, really, of this, but i felt. powerful.

🔥 gasoline - if you had to burn one item in your life, what would it be?

any of the things my grandmother has given me.