#the ability to unstan has never been hard for me until now cause this one cut deep

[jiaraendgame]

When an Internet personality you’ve been a fan of and following for 8 years turns out to be one of the bad ones, that shit hurts. I waited until the official proof and statements were verified and man I was so fucking hoping it wasn’t true. I’m sad, devastated really, but I’m also fucking angry and sorry to everyone it affected. I will say his wife and kids SHOULD NOT be attacked or harassed as they have that is NOT okay. Ryan is the one who cheated on his wife and had sexual interactions with fans. His family is innocent and greatly hurting over his actions. My heart goes out to his family and the community members he has affected, as well as AH since they will be dealing with the backlash of it. No one saw this one coming, it was such a fucking shock and so much to process. He was one of my favorite members (not my number one but still up there as a fave personality in the crew) and to unstan someone you’ve followed and trusted for years is heartbreaking. I’ve unstanned people so easily before in the past but this one hits different for me since I’ve been in the RT/AH community for easily 10 years. Fucking 8 years of content has been tainted now with this coming out. I don’t know if I could ever watch the old content again and feel the same joy as I once did and that sucks. This really cut deep man, I just can’t believe it. Just a daily reminder you do not know your famous faves as well as you wish you did. This fucking sucks and I’m still processing all my feelings about it.