#the FUCK away so jakes like ahhh oh well hell be back i hope and bro is like ILL KILL YOU but jake actually like manages to get him back to

[dirt-str1der]

Cant believe i ran out of fucking tags hello whats with this measly bitchass limit fuck you if youre gonna cut off everything after the first ten tags in the search bar anyway you might as well let me eviscerate someones dash when they click the see more button

[snarkwrites]

FFT: One Day More

Ahhh, as soon as I realized what musical this might be from, I immediately went Angst in my mind. And honestly, I had something entirely different written up already, but then I found an old flashdrive in some stuff in my apartment and I plugged it in and... Cue the internal cringe for the most part. A lot of older shit I wrote was on it for whatever reason. And this thing I’m about to share now, well... It was one of them.. Probably the only really GOOD ones of them. This was back when I wasn’t sharing my fanfiction, I just spent hours writing this shit and saving it to read on my own time later... So.. I spent an hour or so reading over it, tweaking bits and pieces and editing to adapt to my writing style currently and ahhh... here we are. I’m about to put myself out there.

I hope you like this. I think this is one of very very few I actually found on that flashdrive that I liked and like.. yeah.

Warnings: Angst. So much Angstttt. Younger me apparently really knew how to mortally wound herself with words, oops. Oh... I should warn, this doesn’t really have an ending. I mean, it does, but it’s kind of open? I think I meant to go further with it, I just kinda... never fucking did. So. Unhappy cliffhangers ahead. Canon divergence in the form of an original character who has no name.

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“This isn’t how I want to live my life. Look.. I love you. I’ve always loved you, okay? And on some level I know you love me but I…” I trailed off, shuffling my feet against the hardwood floor of Jacob’s bedroom. I didn’t dare look at him because I knew if I did, I’d crack and I’d never be able to go through with this. I’d never really know he loved me on his own. That wasn’t what I wanted. I couldn’t live like that. I refused to live like that. I saw what the whole imprint bond did to my parents when suddenly, one day, my father was leaving my mother and I to run off with some stranger because the animal inside of him got final say.

“But what, Lilith?” Jacob was tensing up all over, I didn’t have to look at him to know. I could feel the tension in the air between us. I could feel him staring a hole through me, waiting.

He wasn’t happy. Damn it, I found myself thinking, why did I have to hurt him too? Hadn’t that Bella girl in Forks done enough damage? Why did I have to push. Why not just be content and let the chips fall where they fall?

“Damn it, Jake, don’t make me say it. We’ve talked about this before.. That day you took me in our clearing and showed me what you.. What you were.” my voice cracked and I stared down at the floor, willing it to open and swallow me whole.

“Oh.. So you think this is just an imprint thing. Thanks for clearing that up, Lilith. I hate to break it to you, you are not my imprint.” Jacob sounded so hurt and angry towards the end of what he said. Almost like he wanted to hurt me like I just hurt him and he thought that me not being his imprint was the surefire way to go about it. 

I wanted to look up at him right then, to at least try to own up to what I was doing with some shred of common sense, make him see reason, but I didn’t dare. I couldn’t. Because again, I was just breaking his heart all over again. 

“Jacob, don’t you dare get angry. Weren’t you the one who was completely against having the choice taken away not even two years ago? Now suddenly, you can’t wait to find whoever your inner animal wants to dick down and make babies with, regardless of whether you’re actually compatible?”

“It’s not that simple.” 

“No, it’s not. And honestly, I can’t just keep sitting around and holding my breath, waiting on the day it happens. Watch you lose that light in your eyes that you look at me with. I can’t fucking live like that, Jake. My mom tried. She fought like hell for my dad but that fucking bond was… It was too much, okay?”

“So you’re just gonna what? Run off to El Camino? You’re not even willing to try and see what could happen?” Jacob was clenching his fists at his side, pacing his room. I sighed and muttered quietly, “That’s the only way this ends. If you were going to imprint on me, you would’ve done it already, we know this. I just… I hope whoever does wind up with you realizes what a good guy you are. And I hope you never change that, okay?”

Before I could cry or change my mind, I bolted out of Jacob’s house and across the grassy lot separating his from mine. I threw myself across my bed once I was inside and I finally just broke.

I cried until I was dry heaving. And then I got up. I showered and I got the rest of my things packed for the movers who were coming to pick it up.

And that night was the last night I saw Jacob Black… 

[allthingskiszka]

Longing

Jake Kiszka x reader

it’s kinda long, and maybe sucks. I haven’t posted in a while. I had it sitting in my drafts and wanted to finish it! So here you are.

I stuck my hand out the window as I drove down the road on my way back to Frankenmuth.  I was going to visit my aunt for the summer, I use to do this every summer but I stopped after high school graduation. It was my last summer before my final year of college, I needed to clear my mind and get away. She invited me down she needed some help with her record shop, figured some extra cash wouldn’t hurt. One of the reasons I stayed away for so long was after misreading all the signs thinking Jake Kiszka liked me and confessing said feelings and him doing nothing I stood there embarrassed until running home. The next day I left with no explanation and haven’t been back in 2 years, I was nervous, to say the least. I kept in contact with everyone but talked to Jake the least. It was impossible not to see him because he lived across the street from my aunt, I missed his brothers, sister, and Danny a lot, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss him the most. Passing the Welcome to Frankenmuth sign I couldn't help but smile it brought back so many good memories. I parked in front of the record shop and hopped out. As I walked in I could smell the familiar scent of the vinyl and instantly smiled. The bell caused the girl at the counter to speak while looking up “Welcome in is ther- No fucking way Y/n is that you” Ronnie ran around the counter and engulfed me in a hug “Sue didn’t tell me you worked here Ron, I missed you”

“I missed you too, it’s been too long. The boys are gonna freak when they come back”

“Back? Where are they?”

“Touring the US they get in tomorrow”

“What, no way. I had no clue it was taking off, that’s awesome. Where is Sue?”

“She's home, I work in the evening she works morning. So what have you been up to?”

“summer before my last year of college, so I figured I would blow off some steam before then”

“Still digital arts”

“Yep the whole nine yards, what about you?”

“I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, ya know”

“Oh how could I forget the free spirit of Ronnie Kiszka”

“I’m texting the group chat that I have a surprise for them, they are gonna freak” I hung out with Ronnie for a couple hours and decided to head to my aunts. When I parked the car I saw Sue, Kelly, and Karen on the porch. While getting out of the car Sue ran to hug me she was so happy, I grabbed my bags and made my way to the porch where Kelly & Karen greeted with big hugs

“Long time no see little one, How have you been?” Karen asked with a warm smile “So good and how are you guys”

“We have been so good, we are so proud of you, by the way, Sue told us your top of your class, and you won a prize for one of your projects. That's so awesome, it seems you and my sons are gonna take over the world, and our free-spirited Ronnie is going to fly by the seat of her pants” Kelly said laughing

“Ahhh Ronnie part of me wishes I was more like her” I smiled brightly “Don’t we all, we plan on having a little get together tomorrow when the boys get in, they will be so stoked to see you” Karen said “Yeah they would come over every summer to see if you were here for the last 2 years, they miss you” Sue spoke

“I miss them too, Sue I love the garden it’s so pretty”

Sue-“Thanks, Jake helped build it last summer, that boy is a blessing”

“That was nice of him”

Sue- “He is always asking about you, I think you may have an admirer” 

“No, I don’t think so” I said rolling my eyes trying to cover the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach 

Karen- “I always thought he liked you too, Oh how cute would that be. He did break up with that girl before the tour, we weren’t fond of her”

“Well as fun as this has been I’m gonna shower and Ronnie and I are gonna have a sleepover and get Chinese food”

“Okay sweetie” Sue gave me another hug

I face planted on the bed fighting the sleep that wanted to take over my body, finally, I got up after 20 minutes and jumped in the shower. When I arrived at the Kiszka home Ron already had the food and was sitting on the couch with Netflix open. we ate and talked, losing track of time next thing I knew it was 2 am Ronnie yawned and spoke

“What are you doing in the morning”

“No plans, Why?”

“You want to pick up the boys with me, they land at 11am”

“Hell yeah I can’t wait to see them”

“Who do you think is going to have the best reaction”

“I have no clue, Sam talks to me the most” she busted out in laughter “I bet you anything Jake will cry”

“Probably not, Ron we barely speak”

“That’s because he is a nervous shit around girls he thinks are pretty, and last time you spoke in person he froze and fucked up”

“He told you” I felt the heat rise to my cheeks

“Of course, he said he didn’t know what to say, he thought it was a dream”

“Yeah, Yeah Ronnie” she rolled her eyes “I’m being dead serious, he mopes around every summer, but we should go to sleep we will head out at like 9:30 so we can get coffee, you can take Jake’s room it’s got fresh bedding. You can probably sleep in one of his shirts”

“Yeah, Okay” I made my way into Jake’s room, it immediately smells him. It warms my heart I missed him a ton. We were the closest before I ruined it. I grabbed a t-shirt out of his closet and threw it over my body, it smelled like him, and in a weird way, it felt like him. Laying in his bed I could tell the bedding wasn’t fresh it suffocated me with the sent of him. I let a few tears fall worried about tomorrow, eventually, dozing off.

~Time skip to the car ride to airport~

I was still wearing jakes shirt because we were running late so I just threw my leggings back on and ran out the door. Ronnie wanted coffee so we're going to be like 15 minutes late to get the boys. Reaching for the music volume I turned it up. We dance and sang the whole way to the airport. When we were 5 minutes away I turned the music down and faced Ronnie

“For some reason, I’m super nervous”

“Don’t be y/n the boys love you and miss you”

“Yeah but it’s been so long”

“you’ll be fine” we were interrupted by a phone call. 

“That was Sam he wants us to park and meet them in front of the airport, the bags are taking a long time” 

“Okay, but why can’t we wait in the car”

“Sammy is a dork he probably wants some kind of epic reunion with me, little does he know it’s going to be the craziest reunion ever when they lay their eyes on you” I smiled at Ronnie as we made our way in the airport. We stood there for about 15 or so minutes looking for the boys when I made eye contact with a very tall Kiszka. His jaw hit the floor, I saw Danny follow his line of sight and his face light up with the biggest smile. Jake and Josh were to busy talking to notice me. As soon as the boys stepped off the escalator Sammy ran with open arms picking me up I heard Ronnie giggle sam whisper/yelled in my ear “Holy shit, this can’t be real. I missed you so much, so much y/n” He sat me down and made his way to Ronnie next Danny engulfing me in a hug “It’s so good to see you, I’m glad you came back” he let go. I finally looked at the twins who were now right in front of me. Josh was first he smiled brightly and came in for a hug when he pulled me in I took a look over his shoulder at Jake. He was in pure shock I couldn’t make out what he was feeling. My thoughts were interrupted by Josh whispering “I’m so glad you here love, we missed you dearly. Some way more than others. He missed you a lot ya’know” I smiled at what Josh he let me go and walked towards Ronnie leaving me in front of Jake. I looked up at him and smiled he walked up and gave me a quick hug and shuffled his way towards Ronnie he said nothing. I was gutted, my heart shattered, What the hell was that I knew it would be a little awkward but that was just embarrassing. “Hey all I’m gonna run to the ladies room really quick” I caught the eyes of Josh, Danny, Sammy and Ronnie and they looked at me with such pitty, I didn’t dare make eye contact with Jake. I walked fast to the ladies room trying not to overthink what just happened. A little part of me hoped he would hold me and not let go. I got in the stall and let a few tears fall down staining my cheeks. I was pulling myself together when there was a light knock on my stall

“You okay?” I could hear the concern in Ronnie’s voice

“Yeah, How do I look” you said opening the stall, Ronnie frowned 

“Like you’ve been crying, Here let me help” Ronnie lead me to the sink she takes concealer out of her purse and rubs it on my cheeks to cover the redness. “I think it looks less like you’ve been crying” she softly smiled

“Yeah okay, are we getting breakfast I’m starving”

“You bet your fine ass” We walk out towards the guys

“Hey loser, we are getting breakfast, you guys hungry?” there was a serious of nods and yeahs. “Good because you had no choice, I drove to pick you guys up and we’re starving”

“You may have driven here, but you aren’t driving back, Ron” Josh spoke, I giggled because Ronnie does drive like a manic 

“Well, in that case, I get shotgun next to my favorite brother” Ronnie said while laughing. We got to the Van and the boys stuck their stuff in the back and jumped in. The only spot left was next to Jake in the back I felt my heart sink climbing back as Josh hit the gas forcefully sending me into Jake.

“FUCK JOSH” I yelled as I pushed myself off of Jake and sat in the seat 

“Sorry love I thought everyone was seated” he said with a giggle

“I’m so sure, asshole” 

“Come on y/n you’ve been trying to get in Jake’s lap for ages” Sam piped in

“Watch it Sam” Jake snapped, Ronnie chimed in “Yeah Sam shut up” I rested my head against the window watching the passing road signs. I let out a deep sigh and closed my eyes I wanted to be at breakfast so bad. Next thing I knew my body was being jerked forward as Josh came to a stop “Josh I’m beginning to think you can’t drive either, Can anybody in this Van drive?” I spoke I felt a soft chuckle come from beside me I looked at Jake and he was smiling to himself. 

“Y/n are we gonna eat or complain?” Sam spoke

“What is with you Sam you’re super feisty” I questioned

“I’m jetlagged and hungry”

“Well we better get you some food, I can’t deal with a bitchy Sam all day” I rolled my eyes getting out of the van. We were sat at a circle booth we filed in and somehow Jake sat right next to me. The booth was kinda snug so Jake’s knee rubbed against mine through the whole meal every time it connected I got chills. After the meal, we piled back in the van I began to drift off as we made our way back to Frankenmuth. Jake nudged me right before sleep took over I looked at him “You can use me as a pillow if you want, you don’t look very comfortable” he whispered “Yeah, okay”

“Hey y/n, I missed you”

“I missed you too” I felt my heart skip a beat, Laying my head on his lap. 

“No, I really missed you” he said as he ran his fingers through my hair “Oh and love, I really like your shirt” I felt my face heat up “Oh wipe the smug look off your face, Jacob”

“No can do” 

“Whatever, I’m shutting my eyes, so I won’t see your dumb look” 

“Well, at least your in my lap” 

“Awh fuck off, sam is full of shit”

“I’m so sure”

“I'm taking a nap now” I shut my eyes but I can’t help but smile, Jake is still running his fingers through your hair. I missed this feeling more than anything. We got back around 3pm I went home to shower and got ready for the cookout at the Kiszka's. It was around 5 when Sue and I made our way over, we walked towards the back yard when Sue was greeted by a hug from Jake. He let go of her and made his way to you, Sue continued to the back yard leaving us alone. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in. “Sorry for the shit hug I gave you at the airport earlier, I was in shock and I freaked out a little” he whispered while rubbing small circles in my back  “It’s okay Jake I understand” 

“It’s not okay, I really missed you and I panicked”

“It’s okay I’m sure it’s not the last time one of us will fuck up. oh and Jake I missed you the most” he chuckled against my neck “That's impossible, also y/n I’m sorry for two years ago to I also panicked then”

“Jake we don’t have to talk about that”

“No we do” he spoke as he broke the hug and looked in my eyes “I don’t know if the feelings still stand but not a day went by that I didn’t want you. Doll, I’m completely in love with you.” I’m shocked as the words left his mouth, I don’t know what to say I’m speechless. I feel his grip start to loosen as his eye move to the floor. I tighten my grip with one hand and bring the other to his face tracing my thumb down his jaw his eyes catch mine and he gives me a small smile. I wrap my hand around his neck pulling him towards me as our lips meet we smile against each other the kiss deepens. We were interrupted by the clearing of a throat we pulled apart and looked in the direction of the noise Sam and Josh were standing in front of us with the biggest grins on there faces

“Wow Jake, you wasted no time fixing your mistake” Sam giggled

“THIS IS THE GREATEST NEWS EVER” Josh yelled “I’VE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY” I giggled at Josh and Sam hiding my face in Jake’s chest 

“Oh and food is almost done lovebirds” Sam said in a sing-song voice

“We’ll be out in a minute” Jake spoke the boys went back outside. Jake looked in your eyes “I’ve been longing for you to kiss me ever since the first time I laid my eyes on you y/n” Jake says just above a whisper “Same Jacob” he took my hand in his and lead us to the back yard. Jake Kiszka was finally mine it looked like the wait was over.

[survivormanhattanbeach]

Episode 1: “...too early to be shady?”-Ryan

There....are so many men and I'm overwhelmed. Also Keaton shading me during his intro is a whole ass mood 

I’m so excited to be playing with majority of this cast... too early to be shady? 

Oooooooofffff what the hell did I just get myself into. Julian’s here. He always finds some fucking way i swear to god... and then there’s Keaton who i pissed off in a prior BB game... which literally ended like 3 days ago for me.... and then i ahve Andreas form Kuang Si and Billy from IdlM.... what the fuck is wrong with my life right now I mean...... i’ll figure this out, let me stop having a heart attack right now

I am SO OVERWHELMED right now! All these messages from people that I think hate me, this is going to be fun! As of right now I'm most nervous about Sarah because I LOVE talking to her, she's so easy to talk to but we always do each other wrong and have never made it far together in anything SO yeah. I'm really hoping that I get on a tribe where I connect with a majority and/or two of them don't like each other so I'm not the first to go! I guess it's time to now... go and be social haha! 

When did talking to people become so hard??? Idk if it's because I've been away kind of for awhile and not talking to people but I feel like I'm the most boring person in the world AHHH. Hopefully things get better soon. I'm about to ignore that annoying red number two by the skype icon and play the game for a bit to maybe give me something to talk about with these people!! 

http://atleastyoumadejury.tumblr.com/post/182902334923 That’s me in this challenge. 

First night = first opinions! Let's go. -called isaac immediately to form a bond with him. He seems super stoked to have me in the season and we agreed to form a f2 deal. Honestly he is funny, adorable and iconic so I am not mad if I go to f2 with him. I will be loyal to him as long as I know he is loyal to me -mark is very social and I know he uses this to his advantage. Every cute thing he is saying, he is definitely saying to the other players -I can easily bond with basically everyone on this season so I feel like this is going somewhere. I can tell ppl are liking me so honestly I am fucking excited to play --went on a one world call with ryan, tom, madison, dani, isaac and myself and they are cool af. I know ryan and tom used to work together from the beginning of mykonos so I am kinda scared they are a definite power duo. Tom has already proven to be a good player in terms of strength and I can tell hes strategic. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO BE HIS #1 SO I WILL WORK ON IT. fuck I need to get on his good side to get far. i can tell. I just dont want him to screw me over - Junior is playing and I guess he is the shadiest person in the game? SO I will be on the lookout for that. -Ruthie needs to leave. -Keaton hates madison so I can use that to my advantage somehow ? well see. -I am going to continue to talk and be social but honestly I dont want to give away too much. Im back after a year so I hope I can go far this time. Fingers crossed

I’ve smelled some fake shit before, but nothing quite as fake as Ryan trying to squash the beef with me. I’m flutter my lashes and play stupid for a while, but in all honesty, I want him gone as early as possible. I don’t trust him, at all. Also, Dan is sneaky as fuck. So I don’t trust him either. Plus I’ve hosted him and I know he’s only in it for himself. He’s vote himself out if it meant he’d win the game. But then there’s Mark, who has played with and been burned by both Ryan and Dan. Between the three of them I’m just not feeling him. I don’t want to be his demise, but I wouldn’t be sad to use him to kill the other two then dump him before he gets farther than me. Kill three birds with Mark’s stone. As for y’all hosts, thanks for dumping me with Madison, Joey and Keaton. Who will keep me around just as a number. They think I’m stupid and I have no idea what I’m doing. Same goes with Brandon. Like I love “OH MY GOD HEWWO”ing my friends. Another main, another season where I’ll just do whatever I can to make it far. Here’s to a good season. 

VL Confessional: This is my greatest chance to FINALLY make an impact on Tumblr Survivor. The minute I was casted, my ranking average went up. What I want to do this season is to take advantage of the time that I have. I want to do well, I want to finally prove how good I CAN be. This is my opportunity to bond with a ton of other players, and I’m READY FOR IT. My mood rn: https://youtu.be/roJ5NSfmxvs

I feel like this game is lowkey a test of Madison and I’s relationship...

VL CONFESSIONAL I’m sitting here on my couch watching the TV They’re picking all the numbers of my favorite lottery I am so excited when fortune calls I’ve never been so happy with someone picking my balls.

Oh god, I shouldn't write any of those weird and unsettling oneliners that I have in mind right now, so.... Hello! Just hello! I'm back for another Tumblr Survivor fun time and I have no idea what to expect from myself for this season. Will I have motivation? HELL YEAH! Will I have the time to back it up? NOPE!!! So... let's start with a little cast assessment, shall we? I already know that I am lucky to have LUCY around, because I know her from another community. That being said, she is a great player, so if she is active this time around, she'll definitely make it further than last time... So far though, it doesn't look like that... :sadface: I am also THRILLED to see RUTHIE playing. I love her, and we only got to play once (in a BB game that ended after 2 weeks) and I happy to see her and I really hope we can work together this season!!! I have mixed feelings about MARK and BRANDAN rn, because I've played in TS with them previously. I pissed off Brandan a lot in Kuang Si when I told him that I wanted him out. I hope he's gotten over that, but I feel like he's not the type of person to forget. But I think he'll be willing to give playing with me another try, but he'll keep me on a short leash. Mark, I voted off in Flops, and then I flipped him to vote for me in the worst FTC of TS history. But the guy is strongheaded and idk how well I can work with that. I've had great conversations with TOM and KEVIN and I feel like they're people I can talk to a lot more, and maybe build a relationship with. I had some decent chats with SARAH, DANIELLE, ISAAC and MADISON. I can't place them yet, but I think I can get along with them. I got off the wrong foot with ISAIAH and RYAN a little, but they seem fun and I can see myself working with them in the future. Or maybe I am just imagining things here? Who knows.... KEATON, JOEY and BILLY, I tried talking to, but I am really not sure yet if we're on the same wavelength. But they seem active enough and open, and it's not even been a day yet. ;) JUNIOR, DAN, JAKE and JULIAN, I haven't spoken with at all so far. rip? --- Let me tell you that I really like it being 4 Tribes of 5 to start the season off (at least that's what it looks like). I don't care too much about being a top-placing player here. I don't think I'd be immediately at the bottom right off the bat, so I don't need that unneccessary potential challenge threat target right away. I think I've spoken to enough people and got a little bit of that Andreas personality across, so I at least have a foot in peoples doors, you know? Let's see how things shake up! I am confident for starters, but that's the point of it, isn't it?

I’ve only talked game with a few people which kinda scares me. I also think a lot of this cast has previous relationships and I only know like 2 people. I love Isaac, Jake, Ryan, and Mark. I need to start socializing more.

hellurrrrr we're back and better than ever! first tumblr org since like... July so I'm feeling pretty rusty. Thankfully I have a couple familiar faces in this cast so I'm not too nervous. I was pretty excited to see Dani cast... we literally went to middle school together LOL. I want to keep that a secret, but Joey already knows because Dani has her location set to my city UGH. So now I gotta hope that Joey doesn't blow that cover. I know Kevin from Zwooper but idk how loyal he actually will be to me. I know Dan, Ruthie, Isaac and Madison from previous games but I don't think we worked well together in them so whoops. RYAN is here which I'm excited for. I want to work with him, he seems sweet. I also know Sarah because she made Eddie cry so I already love ha. But Eddie told me she's crazy in games so maybe I should tread carefull with her for now. I think everyone else is a fresh face to me? So this should be interesting. Half of them haven't even added me yet though so they need to step their pussies up. I'm here to win since that's the only placement I could get that will beat my last placement LOL. But I'm not trying to let an ORG make me go cray cray like Crossroads did... but it probably will <3

Ok, so. This whole picking tribes thing, has just got to go. I have multiple people telling me they are putting me first and although I love being first for once, this might not be the best thing for my game. If a random person I haven’t played with picks me, that looks shady. If one of my MANY previous allies picks me, that looks shady. Oh and there’s that thing where Billy and I squashed beef, and hopefully that can stay because I don’t need a giant target on my back for billy being my only enemy in all of the games I’ve ever played. If this tribe swap is 4 tribes of 5 then I need to make sure my people pick wisely and make sure that they have the 3 they need to keep a majority. The only issue with that, is I’m essentially in the middle of 5 groups: Mykonos, Bermuda, Unova (Pacific Island), Guyana, and then anyone I haven’t played. Take the union of those sets and you have the entire cast Manhattan Beach (yes I did just use math language, no I am not ashamed).

Imma make Jake think im his bitch. “Oh Jake, ill vote out my best friend, and someone who I respect as a host to boost your ego!”

Alright, Day 1 is nearing its end and I've made some progress I feel? So to get right to it: I've spoken a bunch with Danielle and Kevin and they've spoken a lot with each other too, so we're trying to get together on a tribe of 3. The plan right now is to hopefully get one of us in the top 4 (me), I pick Kevin, Kevin picks Danielle, and we've got an easy majority if it's tribes of 5. Now, we don't know if we actually split up in 4 of 5, or 2 of 10, or 4 of 5 but we have Tribal Councils with 2 tribes together. It's impossible to call right now. As a small addition to my first confessional, some final cast assessments: JUNIOR: A very friendly guy. I feel like he's genuine, but he's definitely VERY friendly, and I am not used to that level of friendliness in TS. But I think we good rn DAN: We spoke about Germany and that's about it. We have a little basis. JAKE: We spoke a little about politics, so at least we spoke and have a basis. Not much more than that. JULIAN: Dude... you seem so nice, but you are giving off no confidence in yourself. I don't have much more to say than that right now. I fear that he'll be used as a number by someone rn --- I got some good chats with KEATON and ISAAC going. And that's about it! I hope that I get put on a tribe with KEVIN, DANI, LUCY, RUTHIE, TOM, KEATON... and maybe SARAH. Just bring on the tribes, so I can finally start playing this game. One World is too big for me.

I'm pretty confident with my score for this challenge, I think it's enough to at least show my future tribe that I can do my part in the challenges, and hopefully I get somewhat of a say in who will be on my tribe. For my social game, I'm definitely planning to use me being the first boot on Guyana to my advantage. I've heard from Andreas and checked a bit as well that there's some fierce competition in this cast, and I think I can slide by for quite a while as long as I make some good connections. I know Dani, Andreas and Ryan from outside of this season, and those will be some people I could rely on from the beginning (not sure about Ryan though for that one since we don't know each other that well). Also I don't know what it is about Ruthie, but she seems so sweet and I'd love to get to work with her further down the line.

I love my tribe so much! It is PERFECT! Literally they are all people that I've talked to since the game started and I don't have any issues with any of them. I'm really glad especially that Andreas is on my team and I think that all in all we will have a strong tribe going forward! I don't want to get too cocky but I do feel confident in my position on this tribe! Nowwww if only we can win and stay away from tribal council! 

Honestly, what is wrong with me? Another main season and it's One World? Negative. This is how I will die. I would rather eat glass than have to fucking message 25 people I don't care about. On another note, I love my tribe high key. Aesthetically, we're a really great looking tribe. We could all be models tbh. We all get along really well so if we go to tribal, I'll probably just tell everyone to vote me out, for my mental health and theirs hahahaha save them the trouble. Nah, jk I'll fight, but I don't want to think about like voting any of them out? I def feel closest to Mark, but I really enjoy Dani and Ryan's banter. Junior is so cute too ugh haha. I'm just happy I'm not with the other ugly asses on other tribes

ugh i hate doing these things but im gonna try and be better if i flop this season im deleting skype tbh. This cast is going to give me a solid chance to go deep i feel like. Ryan Billy Dan all want to be my F2, madison is close with me, dani and sarah have both expressed interest in going deep together tribes were picked and holy frick is this tribe incredible. Ryan and Dan and Dani all were in my top 5 of who i wanted to be in a tribe with and junior is actually dope as fuck. i just hope we dont lose and have to vote someone out. especially the first round bc junior is safe so id have to decide between dan dani and ryan and id probably self vote if that was the case

So now I’m like 200% not even gonna try to work with Mark or Dan or Ryan. They’re all on the same tribe. Which means they’re gonna make a final three and that’s something I don’t want to be anywhere near. That’s a dumpster fire that I do not want to be a part of. What sucks even more is, Mark told me I was number one of his list. But Dan was picked by him before I was. So clearly he lied to me. But to add insult to injury, I was picked last for a tribe. So I was literally no one’s number 1. So that sucks, a lot. I guess that’s a fun way to start the season. “Way to go! No one likes you enough to be your #1!” Always a bridesmaid, never the bride. It just makes me have the “anyone but me” mindset even more than I already have. 

Hello new tribe. I am content with the outcome. On one hand, it sucks that I ended in 5th or 6th place, but on the other hand, the draft was rather revealing. I planned to pick KEVIN while he picks DANI, but Dani is soo fucking popular, that she was the absolute first pick - and then she picked Ryan over both Kevin and I. That definitely alerts me, but oh well, I don't blame her or anyone, she's lovely. I am happy that I wasn't the last pick of my tribe, because that would have sucked a lot. Instead, I get to be around BRANDAN, who I actually want to work together with for the time being. RUTHIE picked me, which I am really grateful for, but there is no guaranteed to know how far up I actually was on her list, but at least 6 others were behind me. Now I picked LUCY. Which is a good thing. She rocks at challenges. But she's definitely on the bottom of the totem pole here. I would prefer to vote out JULIAN first if we ever go to TC as this tribe, but for that, Ruthie needs to like Lucy more than the guy who picked her... Either way, let's win challenges somehow and not worry about that. The people I care for should be okay..? Dani will be safe. JUNIOR will be safe by default. Orange tribe will be fun to watch, because I care about everyone but BILLY on there (sorry honey). I am actually scared for my #1 Kevin rn, because JOEY and MADISON are together, which is scary, and neither of them picked him... So he could go first :( Either way, I need to stay on Brandans good side and I need to build up a strong bond with Ruthie, so I can keep Lucy around...

VL CONFESSIONAL HOLY MOTHER OF GOD NVGHHYGCSZAAAWSDDXF I’M SAFEEEEEEEEEE. I’m honestly so happy about it. I gave it my all and I’m honestly shook. And then I realized Madison and I are on the same tribe... Welcome to the plotline of the season.

I have the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair

VL CONFESSIONAL So yeah for this challenge Pussydestroyer69@yahoo.com is taken. Fun.

I'm not really sure how I stand with my tribe. Currently my main connection is Andreas, but I know I can't just rely on him. He was picked before I was and he could easily just let me go if I'm in the way of him getting to the first tribe swap. We seem to be doing well in the challenge, and I hope we do win. I personally at least kind of feel like the outsider, and I don't know the connections the others have with one another, so hopefully this gives me time to build a connection with them before we go to tribal.

alright so first off, fuck y’all for giving us this challenge. you’re gonna make me sit here all day reblogging a post because i’m competitive, but we’re probably going to lose because my tribe sucks. like i was the only one doing it for 2 hours. kill me. let’s talk about my tribe real quick. i think kevin is genuinely with me with is good. but when i got put on this tribe, dan messaged me saying that joey, madison, and isaiah are a friend group. i knew that joey and madison were “dating”, but the isaiah thing worries me because if it’s true, then um they have the majority. i’m trying to stay close with joey too since we played zwooper together before. i just really need to bank that him and Kevin would stick with me over the others if we go to tribal. um but i wish i was on a tribe with my same city sister, dani, or with Ryan. let me just say something about Ryan... yo why he gotta do me like this? when i saw ryan in this cast i thought omg that’s the cute ryan but he probably won’t pay me much attention... flash forward to last night when we ditched the main call to call one on one and basically called all night. ummm, are we about to have a survivor showmance? probably not, boys like to ghost me all the time so i don’t expect much but that boy is about to have me WHIPPED i just know it. anyways let’s hope i don’t lose the first challenge because i literally ALWAYS go to tribal first in orgs 

YAY! My tribe pulled out a win. I wish we would have gotten an idol clue but a win is a win and I will take it!! In all honesty it seems like Brandan, Andreas and I did all the work, but maybe Julian and Lucy did things too and just weren't... vocal about it. Lucy has talked to me one on one a bit but I don't know if she knows what she's doing haha. As for Julian, I really like him but he's been SO quiet, not talking in the tribe chat and not being very talkative via PM so we'll see. Right now I feel the closest with Brandan and Andreas and I hope that the three of us can maybe form some kind of alliance. I really hope that Kevin and Jake will be safe! I like Madison and Isasiah (I spent five minutes trying to remember how to spell that name and I still can't get it GRR) but I haven't talked to them as much as the others. I guess we'll see what happens haha! 

so julian can talk in the one world but not our tribe chat... interesting... although i can't talk. i BARELY ever talk in the one world aSLFJLSF

Well we came in first for the first challenge! I tried sooooo hard and I have never reblogged so much in my entire life. The tribe that came in last has two of my allies on it and I’m pretty sure they are in the minority. Madison, joey, and isiah have an alliance apparently. But Jake did tell me that Joey came to him and wanted to get Isaiah out. I really hope he isn’t fucking with him because I need Jake and Kevin to stay in the game!! So far I really love my tribe. I wouldn’t even know who to get rid of if it came down to it. I think Dans the least person I’ve talked to on my tribe. I should probably keep talking to people who aren’t on my tribe aside from jake/Kevin/Tom/Sarah. And I should probably start talking strategy but I like where I am so far social wise. 

My tribe is so fucking united it’s scary. We all just gel really well and literally called for an obscene amount of time this weekend. I really love Dani, we haven’t connected too much in pms yet, but she gives off such good vibes. I feel like she’s definitely a social threat, but maybe by aligning with her she can bring up my social game a little. I desperately need to talk to more than just my tribe mates, but honestly the only other person who attempts to talk to me is Tom, and he’s just kind of forward and weird. Like he asked to share idol clues and I was like....okay sis out of the blue. Idk just seems kinda shady. Pennekamp, or as I like to call them Pasta tribe, losing is honestly my kink. I really hope that someone from the friend group goes home, but honestly it might be Jake or Kevin going. Madison and Joey are for sure an alliance bc of hos22, and then I know Isaiah is friends with Madison bc she was talking about him on call one day in another game, so. Let’s hope one of them flips and one of those 3 gets the damn boot. 

Being on the Robinson Riptides tribe is lit af. Why? Mark and I are on the same tribe, so I have my number one, and then Dani picked me and I know she is a close ally as well. Plus now that we won the first challenge, Junior does not have immunity in the next round and in the event we go to tribal next round, he would be my first target on our tribe. I like Dan, but def not someone I want to take deep in the game, seems like a large threat. Who knows, could easily use him for a number. Also, I love Tom. I am so happy he is back with me in this game after playing in Mykonos. I don't think people understand how close we are, and I want to down play that as much as possible. He is my secret go to persona and I'm going to keep that hush hush for now. We are trying to get our sides to merge into an alliance while the one world business is still going on. Goal: Tom gets Sarah to want to make a chat with either myself, Dani, or Mark. And if this happens, then we have five people with great connections outside but also people I would want to work with for this portion of the game. Also, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS THIS IDOL CLUE BEING USELESS AF? CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN? LIKE ACTUALLY EXPLAIN? HOW IS THIS CLUE SUPPOSE TO HELP ME? CUZ IT DOES NOT!

Yay, Immunity. The Pacific Panthers are so boring as a tribe. The chat is dead. Is it because of timezones? Is it because of age diversity? This tribe has it all! Lucy is still new to TS, Ruthie is busy most of the time when I'm around. Brandan and I don't mean too well rn.... And Julian? He is wearing Harry Potter's Cloak of Invisibility! Either way, I hope Kevin survives F20 TC, as he is a valuable pawn and friend to me already. I'd expect Isaiah to go here, even if Madison might be the smartest move, but it's too early for big moves I feel. See ya next round!

Okay this game is NOT back to basics Johnny, it's back to hell. Schoolyard pick tribes, messy players, ONE WORLD, it's just an absolute cluster truck. I'm doing well for myself though. Getting 4th gave me the opportunity to set myself up well with Sarah and getting lucky with Billy should make me safe on this small tribe for awhile. How I'm not happy to see Madison here though. I'm afraid there's going to be a gun pointed at me by her the entire time, so I'm thinking I'll be forced to go after her before anyone else when given the opportunity. I just have to keep conversation high, keep game level talk at a medium, and eventually get taken out by an idol/twist

https://youtu.be/wpsiisk5lQQ

So big surprise, I'm going to tribal first. Joey is getting on my nerves idk why he even signs up for these games if he's always working but anyways. He's safe so I have to play the role of the devoted housewife to save face. As of now the vote is on Isaiah which sucks because he is definitely an ally for me, but at the end of the day our tribe and the game in general needs strength and commitment. Ugh why must my tribe be so iconic. 

OK SOOOOOOO Basically my paranoid ass has convinced myself I’m going home already, but let me walk you through why SO Isaiah is just super inactive, not to the point where he is NEVER here but just considerably less when comparing him to myself or others and so me jake Madison and joey all talked among ourselves and in various 1 on 1 and came to the conclusion we are voting him out, ALLEGEDLY! but ever since this tribe started the rumor of Madison Joey and Isaiah being friends has been brought up SO many times so that is just engrained in my head, now I’m probably over thinking this part but it makes sense to me, if Isaiah purposefully was being less responsive to provoke the instinct in me and Jake to vote him out, perhaps he has an idol or perhaps he is just fine being the decoy vote among the three and it helps that friend group manage the votes if they know who/how we are voting and it makes me and jake feel “safe” which could lead to the not playing of an idol SHOULD either of us have one and get suspicious. THEN after we have this “set” plan I guess Isaiah told Madison that he was voting for Jake, and Madison told him to continue the lie of being open and honest to the 2 of us so we don’t suspect anything, now if he WERE voting Jake and Jake had an idol I think he’d be impulsive and paranoid (like me) enough to play it and THEN those 3 would in all actuality be voting me, leaving me defenseless and alone, flushing Jakes non-existent idol (it exists theoretically though) and then I go home first boot 3-2. So yeah I don’t feel good but I’ll never feel good I also just scarfed down from chick fil a and now I have to poop. Anyways I will be casting my vote was Isaiah later tonight because that is the only move I can make and pray that my show watching, self loathing attitude has made such a positive impact on Madison and Joey that they want to keep me around ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

apparently isaiah wants to vote me out after being inactive for 2 days... bitch suck my taint. everyone else says they're voting isaiah so umm fingers crossed?? a bitch is nervous af regardless bc i will cry if i flop and get 20th

[ask-readyplayergaymers]

((Mod post!! Gonna answer some questions for me that have been sitting around for a while, sorry the response is so late ;w;

Everything’s under the cut to save space 0w0 ))

Anonymous said: Okay but totally loving the concept of Michael as Gil and Jeremy as Oz??? Like, freaking Alice is Christine (even tho its totally a personality clash apart from the childish aspect but shhhh) and just yes

YEAH MAN...any type of PH crossover is good hhh but GOSH imagine Michael like. After growing up and spending ten years looking for Jeremy like Gil did ahh my heart aches!! And Jeremy coming back pouting like “You’re taller than me now that’s totally not fair, M” Christine would make a really cute Alice I think, just seeing her dress up like Alice and having her kick ass as the B-Rabbit?! Hell yeah!

zekromztk2 said: Out of all of the Pandora Hearts characters, who is your favorite? Mine is... probably either Alice or Oz

HELL I LOVE GILBERT I’D DIE FOR THAT MAN LEGIT;; I love Oz and Break a lot too and! RUFUS BARMA AS WELL I ADORE HIM

Anonymous said: did I hear Harry Potter?

Ye man talk to me about the Marauder days any time I love talking about Sirius, James and Remus getting into shenanigans at Hogwarts hoo boy

Anonymous said: (Hey mod, so basically Jake and Rich are just gonna be background characters with kind of their own stories?)

Yes! Jeremy and Michael are the main focus here, but Jake and Rich sort of have their own thing going on in the background as more minor characters to the overall blog! I want to make a more developed backstory for the treasure hunter girls and Christine as well, so we’ll see how that goes~

Anonymous said: Thank you so much for introducing the novel this AU is based on to me!! Now that I've finished reading, I understand a lot more about this AU and now I want to ask... Would you consider Mr. Heere/Reyes as Morrow?

You’re very welcome, it’s a great novel so! I’m glad more people are reading it after having run into this blog, I must spread the pureness that is Aech to all of humanity //shakes fists And yes! Mr. Reyes is Morrow, I can imagine him sort of contributing to the hunt with lots of theater related things, which Christine specializes in! Book!Squip is Halliday, and there’s actually a little more about that and his relationship with Jeremy that I want to get into later.

Anonymous said: ((I had literally never heard of ready player one but I lov this blog so much I actually went out and bought it. Consider me murdled dead))

Yeah man like;; I didn’t read the novel until this past summer and after that I just got so into it and BMC at the same time so? I combined the two and here we are! Aaah I’m so glad!! Like I’ve said before I love it when people come tell me they went out to buy the novel and read it because of me, it makes me so happy :’) Hjrhjd please don’t die lol

emibeani said: ((I just finished reading Ready Player One, and thank you so much for this blog.))

I’m glad to hear it!! And you’re very welcome, I honestly didn’t expect so many people to get into but I’m super appreciative of all the interest you guys have shown so far so?? Thank you!!

Anonymous said: THIS IS NOT A ASK, BUT, OMG, THIS AU IS FUCKING PERFECT.

Glad you like it, ty! ;D

aslyn-is-artsy said: Your art is absolutely amazing

Hrhrhgfh I’m blushing thank you wow;;

aslyn-is-artsy said: Thank you so much for showing me this amazing book. I now aspire to become the real version of Art3mis. Just with short blonde hair instead. ;)

No problem!! It’s such a fantastic read and I was honestly blown away by it, so yeah...! Haha yeah I love Arty! She’s such a badass character and she doesn’t put up with any of Wade’s shit, which is great, she’s so empowered and I adore her

theitalianscribe said :I don't remember if this was answered, but is Michael trans male in this au?

Nope! I mean if you want to headcanon him that way that’s fine, I won’t stop you! I’m not going to endorse that since I myself don’t see him being that way, but you all are entitled to your own opinions so! And even if he were trans that wouldn’t be the main point of the blog anyway, I’m focusing more on their actual relationship, not their sexuality or gender or anything like that ^^

Anonymous said:i checked the book Ready Player One out from the library just because of this blog! are there any other books you recommend? (i havent finished the book but i like it so far i think!)

Oh nice!! I hope you enjoy it as much as I did! Ahhh hmm well if you like supernatural teen stories, there’s a series called Darkest Powers by Kelley Armstrong about this girl named Chloe who finds out she’s a necromancer after being sent to a “troubled teens” home, and she meets these boys named Simon and Derek who also have special abilities and then all sorts of crazy things happen! I first read it back in high school and I still love it a lot, so yeah it’s a trilogy and all of the characters are really great so! (I looooove Simon like. So much.) Check it out if you have the time, it’s a good read!

kitikat101 said: Random potential song parodies: I Love the OASIS (I Love Play Rehearsal), Find That Egg (Be More Chill, pts. 1 and 2), Two-Player Game (but with Joust), Oases In My Head (Voices In My Head)

Kit can I say how much I adore these song titles they fit so well I’m really tempted to make parodies for all of them, absolutely brilliant

geeklychic1012 said: So are we allowed to send in fanfics based on this blog? (Cuz I submitted one but my wifi is shit and I think Tumblr might have eaten it haha)

YES!! Please do I’d highly enjoy reading stuff from you guys! And yes I saw and it breaks my heart like. Why. I’ll post it soon for everyone else to see too! They must all suffer as I have hfhdjhgjg

Anonymous said: Who would be I-r0k in this au? Or would I-r0k still be his normal jerk self?

I’m actually...not sure :0 There aren’t enough characters in BMC to properly cross over with all the rest of the RPO characters so;; I might have to go through the BMC novel and find some obscure background character to sneak in as I-r0k lol, because I would like to have all of the RPO characters replaced by BMC counterparts, if that makes sense!

theitalianscribe said: Does someone else take Halliday's place in this au? Also, do the gunters have a shared obsession with pop culture from a certain time period? What time period?

Yeah, I mentioned that up above! But Book!Squip takes over the role of Halliday, and musical Squip is Sorrento, of course~ Honestly I’d say like, probably the early 2000s, since that was when I was growing up and I can actually make references back to that time lol? I mean I love the 80s as well, just as it is in the book, but I feel as if I don’t know enough about that time period to actually. Make proper references and constantly. (I mean I could ask my parents who lived during that time too but;; haha.) Most of the stuff on here are me self-projecting, like with video games, books, and anime, that’s all me lol

Anonymous said: " “You don’t need to sell me on anything, Wade,” she said. “You’re my best friend. My favorite person.” With what appeared to be some effort, she looked me in the eye. “I’ve really missed you, you know that?”My heart felt like it was on fire. I took a moment to work up my courage; then I reached out and took her hand." aka perfect au is perfect how does it fit S O well

!!! yEAH MY DUDE I LOVED THAT PART and just imagining Michael saying that to Jeremy I wanted to cry;; I don’t even know but the INSTANT Aech was introduced I was like “Ohhh man. I’m getting major BMC vibes here” and bam, a week later this blog was born lol

Anonymous said:Would you be okay with cosplay of your character designs? I can't do one anytime soon, but they look really cool (and jerm's hair honestly looks fun to do)

YES!! OH MY GOD I’d probably die of sheer happiness if you guys cosplayed these dorks! If you want I could draw a character ref sheet so you actually get a proper look at their outfits! But yes I’d highly enjoy that;; like the cosplay doesn’t even have to be accurate I’d still love it anyway, and doing things like acting out some of the asks here (I’ve seen it be done before and it’s so cute!) would be totally okay too! But yeah as always TAG ME or submit it here so I can see it aaaa I’d love love LOVE that! ^^

Anonymous said: SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL B

YEEEEEAAAAA IT’S ABOUT TIME I MADE AN OUTFIT FOR RICH RIGHT I LOVE HIM SM

maysurprisedyou said: Hi! This isn't quite an ask, but!! I started reading Ready Player One because of this blog and it's really interesting so far so thank you!! All of your posts seem to make my day ahah <3

Oooh I’m happy you’re liking it so far, I’m glad my blog inspired you to read it! And aaAAAA that’s so sweet I’m?? Hhhhfh thank you! :’)

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Um um will you write rich with an upset tummy and Hes sad and Maybe emeto idk do what you want I believe in yoooouuu -Rae

I swear I tried my best…it’s not *amazing* because I suck at writing emeto, and I didn’t read the sad part until the end and had to go back and add that in ahhh I’m sorry Rae, @godhelpthesickies

Jake started off the day by thinking, “got a physics test today, time to fail it…in style.”

It was a big thing he and Rich did, they both struggled to keep their grades up. It wasn’t that they weren’t smart, but there was so much going on in their lives, stress, after school activities, family. School didn’t compensate for these things though. So they decided to just try their best and brush off their stress with doing it in “style”. Lately he and Rich had basically gotten no sleep, so they were basically dying in style.

He searched for Rich during all of homeroom, but couldn’t find him. He thought it was strange that he never got the usual morning demand to drive Rich to school, but brushed it off. He sent the by a few texts, asking where he was and if he was ok. Looks like today he was going to be worrying in style.

Jake went on his day as usual, attending classes and such. He talked to his friend groups and any other kids who wanted to talk the incredibly Cool Jake Dillinger. Throughout the day he had to keel that cool and chill look, trying his best to not show how worried he was. He wondered why Rich wouldn’t show up, maybe he was just being a cool tough guy and skipping school, but for some reason it felt worse than that. Hell just yesterday the two went on a date to the mall, screwing around in various stores. They ended up being kicked out of Claire’s when they decided it was time to eat. Usually they went to Sbarro but Jake just kept insisting for some reason, but that day Rich convinced him to go and eat at a seafood place. As far as Jake knew, the date went incredibly well. But with Rich it was hard to tell.

He shook his thoughts out of his head when his phone buzzed, a text from Rich.

“I’m fine, I’m literally in school.”

Jake frowned at that, he had this class with Rich, “then where r u??”

After that there were no more responses. If he had been in school this whole time why wasn’t he showing up. Was it because of Jake? Was he avoiding him? He ignored his texts again, not even reading them. Jake bit his nail, and the kid next to him asked if he was ok. At that Jake quickly nodded before asking to use the bathroom, ducking out of the classroom with style.

He sighed as he went into the bathroom, he just needed to clear his head for a second. He was being overprotective, later he’d tell Rich about all this and he would laugh in his face. Jake sat up on the sink counter, pushing his face into his hands.

Then he heard a shuffle come from the handicap stall. Jake flinched, about to stand up and walk out when he heard a gag, heave, and the sickening splatter of wetness. He cringed, about to ask the person if they were ok when he heard a familiar sob.

Shit.

Jake ducked his head down to see under the stall. Those are the kind of army rip off boots only one person would own…

“Rich?”

There was silence, besides for the labored breathing puking brought up. There was a spitting noise, then his cracked voice spoke, “Jake..?”

“Holy shittle man I’ve been looking all over the place for you! I thought you were mad at me!” He ran up to the stall, then shook his head, that didn’t matter right now.

“Are you ok??”

“Oh yeah I’m just…fucking peachy-keen. Loving life…” rich growled out , his voice slurred, that combined with his lisp made it difficult to understand him. But Jake knew, he never had much trouble understanding him.

Jake knocked on the stall, “hey…come on bro, let me in.”

There was a bit of silence before the door unlocked, Jake flinched when he saw Jake. His entire body was pale, his freckles and burns stuck out from the contrast.

“Holy sh- yo, what happened to you?”

Rich shook his head, cringing as he held his stomach, “I don’t know I-my fuckin’ stomach hurts…”

Rich’s face was filled with a flush, his eyes uncomfortable and half lidded. His whole body shook as he broke into a cold sweat, he swayed on his feet. He was the very definition of a sick mess.

He didn’t mind Jake being here though. Anyone else he would have fought them to leave. Rich had woken up that morning only feeling pain in his stomach, he almost didn’t come to school, but he assumed it was just period cramps and made his way to the bus stop. This quickly turned out to be a huge mistake, this was much more than his period. He had been throwing up since he got to school, unable to leave the bathroom. Every time another wave bubbled up he whimpered, he would sputter up bouts of liquid. The foul taste left him in tears every time, his throat practically ripped from all the violent heaving. His nose stung from both the stench and the occasional bits of liquid that rushed through it. Needless to say he was a huge mess.

He didn’t even realize Jake was rubbing his back until he felt the gross feeling of his shirt sticking to his back. He would have questioned if Jake was ok with it, but Jake was a fairly calm guy. It didn’t take nearly long enough for him to forgive Rich for the whole fire thing, sure he was mad at first but he got over it. He had to question why he was like that. His hand had to have been sticking to gross warm fever sweat. Rich leaned against the hand nonetheless, the cold feeling grounding him.

Jake frowned, “You’re feeling real crappy today aren’t you?”

Rich shook his head, “something’s wrong.”

Jake rose an eyebrow, “what do you mean?”

Rich was holding a fist over his mouth, bending over. His throats and stomach felt an uncomfortable amount of fuzzy. He felt like someone had tossed him into the driest sauna ever invented. Heat shook his body from head to toe, his stomach tied up in twists. He felt his stomach slosh and grow in pain.

“Rich are you gonna be-”

Rich cut him off by throwing himself back in front of the toilet, his knees violently digging into the floor. Jake cringed at the gasps and heaves. They sounded so…painful. Like he couldn’t even breath. Then with one final heave there was the sound of water splashing, the liquid clear with a tinge of light green, nothing left to throw up.

“Shit man lets you to the nurse, ok?”

“B-but-”

“We’ll take the little trash bucket, don’t even worry about it.”

Rich looked over to him, a trail of spit lined his parted lip, falling down with the rest of his stomach contents.

“I don’t need the nur-” rich cut himself off though when he made out the eyes of his boyfriend. He had never seen him so concerned. He’d seen him pissed off, laughing, sad, stress, embarrassed, maybe a little worried. But to this extent? It was as though Jake was having a mini panic attack in his mind, and god Rich hoped that wasn’t true.

Rich didn’t even realize tears were rolling down his face. “I-I’m sorry Jake.”

“What’s wrong…?” He felt arms hug him, he brought his hands up to tug at the sleeve of Jake’s hoodie.

“I’m…it hurts so bad, fuck.” He tried to hold back tears, and failed ultimately.

“Hey..hey it’s ok-”

“I fucking deserve it too…I caused everyone so much pain…I-I was such a bully even before the attempted SQUIP apocalypse thing…fuck I’m so useless”

“Don’t say that ok…you know none of that is true, you haven’t done anything wrong-”

“I burned your house down.”

“That wasn’t you though..come on Rich, it’s gonna be ok…” he gave him a quick kiss on the forehead, Rich looked away from his eyes, wiping his tears and nodding.

He allowed Jake to loop an arm around him and lift him to his feet, holding all of his weight. A trash bin was pushed into his hands, and the two boys made their way down the hall. There wasn’t much talking between the two, they both knew exactly how the other felt. They could talk about this later, what was important was making Rich feel better.

Rich couldn’t help himself though, every few glances to Jake told him that Jake was just too worried. They two had to keep stoping to let the shorter one throw up, Jake’s back rubbing gradually sped up each time. He told himself to talk. He couldn’t leave his big bean pole bae hanging.

“Hey…at least I vomited with style, am I right?”

“Yeah,” he sighed with a shaky laugh, “about as much style as a 70s garbage can”

They boys held hands as the nurse took his temperature and gave him Tylenol. He had a fever of about 102.4, and was going to be sent home.

Rich sighed, “home sweet home.”

“Yeah. Where you should have been in the first place.”

Well…that couldn’t be argued against really. It was true. But now Rich could cover up his constant misery with the joy of going home, saying he got to skip for free this time. Jake offered to go with him, but Rich made him promise he’d go back to class. They had settled for texting each other the rest of the day, and Jake would visit him as soon as he could. Hopefully he wouldn’t be at the urgent care by then.

And once they found out he had food poisoning Jake knew he had a lot of sick cuddles to give out. Especially when rich was sending him about 20 “:(”

It’s alright though, Jake still loved him, in style.