#thats just your man hating brain speaking and telling you that male anger can only be violent

[whiskingskin]

Something I've heard over and over and over again from my genderqueer friends about testosterone is that they're terrified to start, cause it'll make their anger?? Worse?? Maybe it was me finding myself In a body more comfortable, or me already being in therapy and conscious of my emotions and their impact but. Being on testosterone made a lot of my emotions feel more manageable.

Testosterone doesn't make you angrier. Testosterone doesn't transform you into this man-beast that yells at everybody and is suddenly horny all the time. Testosterone doesn't affect your problem solving skills, your people management, or your lack of foresight into your own anger like?

If you're routinely blowing up at the people in your life then yeah. Yeah, testosterone might make that action feel a bit easier and wilder. But if you, you know, acknowledge your emotions and allow yourself to experience them without taking them out on other people... then that. Won't. Happen.

You will never be able to control your emotions. Never ever ever. But you CAN and WILL control your reactions to these emotions.

Idk where my rambles were supposed to go but. Testosterone doesn't make you an angry person. You might BE an angry person, just on your own, and that's fine. What's not fine is taking that anger out on others and blaming it on testosterone. You're not the victim, you're just a dick.

[chibinekochan]

You /MC  go shopping with a friend you end up dressing something too sexy and a RFA member happens to see you

I need some fluff lol

 Works for all genders -use males the term too sexy for clothing thoe o-o? -

spoiler free

I hope you enjoy it anyway

Common story

You want to go on a date with someone from the RFA you yet have to ask them out. You feel like you need something special for the date too so you ask a friend. You go together shopping sadly the friend is a bit too much on the naughty side and recommends you something really sexy. You try it on and step out of the cabin just to stand in front of your potential date.

Zen

You step out standing right in front of him

He greets you surprised

you happily greet him then he notices what you wearing

Zen is blushing nervously asking why you wear that

You assume he does not like it even when its very sexy

somehow it makes you sad you feel like you nothing compared to his handsomeness anyway

Your friend pokes at you and says its for a date

He then notices that friend being like WTF you have a date

With who -already ready to punch someone-

Not with that friend of yours their -looks doubtful at your friend even when its a same gender friend he can not be too careful-

You tell him no that's just a friend your date is someone else

Then somehow hoping your friend asks him if he likes the outfit

-your friend knows you want to ask Zen out but you had no courage to do so just yet-

He gestures a bit around then tells you that that outfit is not good for a date

You are a bit sad over that and ask him if it really looks that bad on you

Zen says that not the issue while avoiding to look at you

That makes you suspicious so you wounder out loud if you not looking pretty

Zen stats thats not the issue at all while slightly looking at you

You are like huh? somehow end up standing in a way that reveals even more of your skin

Then Zen breaks tells you Nooooooooooo never ever wear that in public at all going on a date dressed like that will cause a commotion and all men are wolves after all

He dramatically covers you with his coat

Zen blushing at you

You say you will thing over what else to wear now but you also wonder if it makes sense now when Zen had no showed no real interest -you accidentally mumble that -

Zen is like wait a second

You want to go on a date with him , that is why you are dressing that

You quietly agree

Well now you have a date you will dress something cute and you still buy the outfit for private use

Yoosung

In front of you standing now the blushing mess mess -formally known as Yoosung

-Rip Innocent Yoosung-

He stutters a hi and asking you what you up too

your friend telling him you here to get a outfit for a date

A d-d-date ? -with someone else -

Yoosung stares at you not wanting to but he is unable to move

He trys his best to not die again he needs to know

With who ? He asks, he is kind of angry now.

You think he hates the outfit so you try to play it off

You tell Yoosung that you are just trying outfits on for the future

He is kind of relived

You ask him what he is thinking over the outfit

It should be obvious but you are blind

He trys to tell you as polite as possible that its not good for the public but manages to make it sound like it looks bad on you

Your friend then comes with something even more sexy to you

-how your friend found that you dont know-

Your friend asks Yoosung if he would like that one more

The image makes him unable to speak again

lucky for him you refuse

You pretty much say its useless to be even more sexy if he does not like the current one

-whoops you hope Yoosung did not hear that-

Yoosung wakes up from his trance

Huh wait what – his brain is putting the clues together he comes to a conclusion-

You dont mean the one you wanted to date is him o.o is it ???

Dressed like that... with him... … focus Yoosung …. focus...

You admit it telling him if he is not interested it okay for you -friend glares at you like wtf-

Their is nothing in the world he wants more but still like that no that will not work

You will dress something cute and still kill him on the date

will have sleepless nights because of that sexy outfit

Jaehee

Jaehee is rendered speechless

She asks politely why you dressed like that -some sort of costume maybe-

You try to avoid the answer your friend strait out tells her its for a date

You defend yourself right away since Jaehee is really not happy hearing this

You are only trying outfits on after all

She strait out tells you that would be not good for a date at all

You agree and ask her what she would recommend

Jaehee tells you it depends on the person and the place of the date.

She asks you about the person you want to ask

You avoid telling her any details but pretty much vaguely describe her

She does not get it she seems a bit upset for some reason

She tells you that something more classy would fit you then

You wounder why she sounds kinda cold now

She still offers you her help and your friend gets a bit shoved behind remarking how sexy suits you better.

Jaehee is not disagreeing but she is not comfortable with it either

Together with her you pick something else out you try it on and she likes it better

She hopes that your date will also like it

You spill the beans since she looks so sad now

You tell Jaehee that you wanted to ask her out and you say that you are sorry for not saying that right away

She agrees on having a coffee date with you

Jumin

Your friend convinced you he would loosen up with a sexy outfit

But as you now stand in front of the man he seems really not interested

He is actual even more distant now how was that possible

You know how he is regarding gold diggers and such people

He asks why you are dressed like that

You tell him you only trying some looks out

Your friend says its for a date

Is their anger in Jumins eyes oh shit how bad have you messed up -find out next episode lol-

You tell Jumin its only for future dates not now

He asks if there is someone you like then

You nervously try not to admit anything but he is very suspicious

Somehow you feel like you committed a crime

The more you talk around it the more the air feels with tension

Your friend trys to help you by telling Jumin that its more just in case of a date

That only confuses Jumin so you try changing the subject to cats

that works usely after all

but not this time he tells you that you not have to say anything he just concludes there is someone

He suggests that you change and dress more appropriate before more people notice you like that

You are agreeing not that was room for saying no

So you go and change back in your normal outfit

meanwhile Jumin talks – interrogates- your friend to get information over your potential crush

Your friend does its best but Jumin can be quite scary after all

So it comes down to a basic loose description of Jumin but since its pretty much how you see him he does not really get it

– I mean funny, generous and cute is not really what people describe him as -

So he is thinking really hard who fits to that traits …. Luciel maybe or Yoosung or that pretty boy no ... your taste is not that bad

After you are done he is still thinking you ask him what is up

Her is kind of relived to see your normal outfit

Jumin says it suits you way better

You ask him half joking if that was a compliment

He says it was -the world stands still -

You are so surprised that you say it was not even necessary to get a new outfit for him then

Jumin looks at you half absentminded -processing data-

Wait you wanted to go out with him why did you not just asked then

You say you where afraid since you out of his class and all

He waves that off and invites you to dinner right away

You wounder if you really are dressed good enough for that

He says you are very nicely dressed so its all good

707

He blushes turns slightly away avoiding eye contact

You greet him and wounder right away if you look that bad

He makes awkward jokes that have nothing to do with the current situation

Also saying you should have a license to wear such thinks

He asks if you plan to go to a party dressed like that

You say no , your friend adds its for a date

good- wait whaaaaaaat he is confused

“a date you why, how ,who.... “

looks at your friend drawing wrong conclusions

before you can even say anything he looks away from you checking your friend out

He feels like that person is much better for you then he is

You tell him you are only trying some different thinks on with the help of your friend

So you don't like that friend in that way ??

You say you don't its just a good friend

is it good or bad the vote falls on good

707 is kind of relived but now he needs to know more

but then again does he really want to know...

He is conflicted he is overheating so he just asks anyway if you are liking someone

You don't really tell him since you are too embarrassed  

Your friend sees that this will lead no where at this rate so your friend just flat out says there is someone but that person is an idiot

You tell them to stfu that's not true at all 707 is no idiot he is really smart

707 just looks at you -707 error-

-Processor error must restart. Restart fail blue screen error. -

What... wait.. him  ...no way there is no way you would like him

You must be joking you are broken......

After a heavy breath you admit its true you have a crush on him but you where to shy to ask him.

He still can not understand he tells you he is dangerous -insert 707 route here-

You say he is not and you really want to go out with him

707 knows better but agrees anyway but you have to wear something else

You are agreeing