#thats a kinky ace if ive ever seen one

[flutterbruttershy]

yall cant go 5 minutes without sanding down laios's autistic freak nature huh

infantilizing ace headcanons, smoothing over his shitty social skills, ignoring how he pouts over most people being uncomfortable with what they feel counts as cannibalism, acting like his interest in monsters is purely pragmatic. what are you watching/reading with someone named laios whos like that and can you stop conflating it with the guy from dungeon meshi

[jerek]

not even Ace Pride is fucking safe like if i wear an ace pride flag out people are gonna assume im like anonymous asexual and im into some weird shit on the side like.

you know how many times ive gone into the fucking asexuality subreddit thats SUPPOSED TO SUPPORT PEOPLE LIKE ME and seen some fucking post about "my girlfriend is ace and she doesnt wanna have sex with me" and all the comments are 'ACE PEOPLE CAN STILL ENJOY SEX DONT WORRY THERES STILL HOPE' except for the one yknow. 'incompatible break up with her now she'll only be able to ever find happiness with like .2 people on this fucking planet.'

i don't wanna learn to enjoy it. i don't wanna be 'liberated' and keep finding myself in the same cage. i don't wanna be unlovable but i can't help being unfuckable and i've tried so hard to embody so many different fantasies for so long that now i can't even stomach who i really am.

i'm not sex positive. i'm not live and let live. i am so god damn tired of Sex Positive Kinky Feminist 'oh don't worry i'm aspec too i'd never date anyone in real life' people asking me what i can put up with instead of opening their god damn eyes and realizing that i never enthusiastically consented, i was never into it, i never wanted it for any reason but because THEY wanted it

and that doesn't make me a loving and accomodating partner to their Needs. it makes me a liar and a self-harmer.

i wish i was everyone i ever pretended to be. failing that i wish i wasn't such a frigid bitch. i wish i were just a warm body that couldn't feel.