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luxraydyne · 2 years ago

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lmao i may never be wanting for horror writing material when with almost humorous timing. i begin thinking permhaps being so restless to move into my own home and private space to the point i can barely concentrate through the fog is actually a detrimental idea when living w my family is all that prevents me from being completely alone. when on cue parents once again resume trying to goad me into becoming a pet grandchild incubator so my sibling’s child doesnt end up lonely whhat teh fuuuck dude. we’re back baby to doomscrolling extortionate private rental cost of tiny studio flats in a cost of living crisis

#like now i am pretty publicly openly out as aroace and uber prepared to out argue anyone on that a change of tact is needed #so naturally my mother threatens to artificially inseminate me instead. as a joke. of course #ol reliable 'making me give birth to+care for a baby in my precarious mental+physical state wld be tantamount to abuse of that child'#clams em up real quick lol like 'oh that's awful' like yeah i can be. yeah it is. isnt it.#Also someone gonna have to translate what 'it'll give you something to look after' actually means tf now i'm now hearing it repeatedly #it reeks of all kinds of phobias and isms but cant exactly pinpoint why im quite so hurt by it #and like i feel so bad for this hypothetical infant i do not and will never want like carrying the burden of both my own inadequacy And #that of my ghost baby i cant help but pity but also want desperately to fuck off #we need ponder no longer why grotesque body horror appeals so much to my perverse psyche lmaooo cission momplete gimme a phd #cw pregnancy #vent #sorry phantom babby! from yr deadbeat mam who despises you lol

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