#that mother fucker will do the reat

[whereisthedamndaddymanual]

That guy in the van has more of a social media presence than he realizes.

[watercolourferns]

I just found out my mum is in HUGE debt in part because my lazy, irresponsible, asshole cousins didn’t pay back what she spent in my aunt’s hospital, medicines, funeral, and cremation. My aunt was sick for YEARS, like, we all knew she wasn’t gonna get better, that it was degenerative. Yet these fuckers spent NO fucking time preparing for it!! I haven’t gone to Mexico’s City and Mexico State for like what? 7 years? Maybe 8 years. My aunt was already sick back then. Guess what my cousins were doing? Bumming on their asses all day long and spending money they didn’t have, on top of stealing from my aunt. My aunt is and was a fucking saint, they should canonise her. The level of patience and love she gave EVERYONE, not just her children, is not human. She was an angel here on earth and wherever she decided to go she’s still an angel, and what did these lazy asses do for her?! NOTHING. They never went beyond elementary school or freshman in junior high, they have never seriously worked ONE day of their fucking lives, the girls got pregnant in junior high freshman to fuckers who don’t support their families... The man is insanely talented, but he’s an idolent  dumbwit who spends money on frivolous things rather than save for his future... And let’s not talk about the slothful fat ass my aunt’s boyfriend is... I’m no one to talk when it comes to education, I didn’t finish college, but at least I don’t sit on my sorry ass all day, asking my mother for money. And guess who’s reated like a sorry, idle ass? Me. And my mum can harp on how she did it all for her aunt but the one who she made a favour to was to my cousins, not my aunt... my other cousins (who are FAR MORE responsible) and my other aunt and uncle were already helping... She could’ve helped without going into debt, and I’m sure she helped more than the others did, because that’s how my mum operates. Plus, and I told her this when she was over there and my cousins overheard me and I’m SO FUCKING PROUD of finally being open about it, SHE’S MY MOTHER NOT HERS AND SHE HAS NO OBLIGATION TOWARDS THEM. They should gotten on their fucking useless feet and worked four jobs, like my mother now has to do, to pay for everything. They are capable, they don’t have mental illnesses, and they aren’t stupid. They are pretty smart, specially my cousin Israel. He’s fucking smart, witty, cunning, and he’s shameless and charismatic, he would’ve been a GREAT street singer, graffiti artist, anything like that, specially over there where there’s more artistic opportunities than in my shitty city. But NOOOOOOOOOO. And you know what’s worse? My mum still doesn’t understand THEY OWE HER. Not my aunt, my aunt is cremated and resting in a pretty urn in someone’s house, I think my other aunt’s house. She doesn’t owe my mum anything, and had she survived she wouldn’t either. IT’S MY COUSINS WHO DO, YET MY MUM STILL DOESN’T SEE IT.

Bunny and I have a policy: you ask for any type of loan? You pay it back. Doesn’t matter how you do it, but you pay it the fuck back!

Know what this fuckers did just recently? Called my mum asking for a loan because one of my second cousins (we call them second nephews here in Mexico) needs a laptop for school. BULLSHIT, the kid needs JACK. We know the public education system because Buns is a teacher, and we told my mum in no uncertain terms: 1) the govt gives the kids very basic laptops, all the way to high school if they are needed, 2) no school EVER asks for laptops if it’s a public school, because they know the kids can barely afford to eat, let alone to have a fucking laptop. Kids are given everything in public schools here: from uniforms complete with shoes, to books, to notebooks, even backpacks... They are not the best quality, but at least kids get that. Some schools even offer free meals to kids!! AND THIS FUCKER ASKS MY MUM FOR MONEY FOR A FUCKING LAPTOP?! Do you know how many years I had to BEG for a fucking laptop to be able to work on my digital art and then to take it to classes because notebooks are a nuisance (I lost the too often, or got them stolen or ripped by bullies)? And this fucker calls and thinks he’s gonna be handed one?! Luckily my mum FINALLY said no to him, I wish I had been there to laugh at his face... 

But yeah... Buns and I talked to my mum for like two hours about it, I’m not ashamed I shouted, cried, raged, etc. Do you have any idea what we could’ve done with that money?! It’s been three years since my aunt has died, and my mum has NOT one penny of that money, NOT ONE. And all her efforts have gone into paying her debt, nothing else. Buns and I buy what we can of food, mum buys what she can of food, we all pitch in to pay certain things, Buns pays certain bills, mum pays others, I stay out of the way as much as I can and never ask for money... But imagine how less stressful it would’ve been if those shiftless imbeciles had had a bit of fucking ethics and said “Auntie, I’m gonna pay you what you spent on my mum. It’s the least I can do after you did so much for her.” And I’m not saying my mum shouldn’t’ve done it selflessly, I’m saying she should be conscious for whom it was done in reality regardless her intentions: it was done for my cousins, they didn’t have to worry and still don’t have to worry about a thing... while my mother drowns in debt... and she still won’t call their bullshit out...

As her son I have a right to, but I don’t because I respect her... But let me be with them fives minutes in a room alone... Please, give me just five minute and they will not just how much of an awful trio of cretins they are... The best thing my mum could’ve done was put the debt on them... 60-70k pesos on their listless shoulders, that would’ve set them right...  And it hurts, because I know she will never acquire that debt for me, and then she turns and says that she doesn’t do that for me because she loves me more than she loves them... I don’t doubt it, but I don’t buy that excuse either...  Ugh... I’m so SO pissed!!!