#that is NOT good for me as an autistic black demiaroace lesbian aquoigender girl

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I’m So Nervous Now 😞

My excitement has turned into fear and anxiety. My entire life and routine are going to change for the next 2 weeks and I have to tough it out or my parents are going to be livid they wasted sm money, im scared to be away from home for so long since I’ve never done this before. I’m anxious on if I’ll make any friends bc im honestly not that good at it, when I was a kid it was just “hi my name is ___, what’s yours? Oh that’s cool how old are you? Oh im ___. Wanna be freinds? Okay yay” but now it seems more complicated than that and I haven’t caught up. I won’t get a break and I can’t escape that place im just so scared, and I’ll be on my period bc I have SOOO much good luck. I have to manage my period and all these feelings all on my own for the first time WHILE in a whole new environment. The only sense of stability I’ll get is my cup of green tea every morning (I packed packets of it hopefully they give me the hot water) I wish I could have my phone so I could at least text ppl abt my experiences and how I feel but instead I’m all alone. Help I wanna cryyy