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1, 4, 5, 9, 20, 25, 29, 31 for the character development questions meme, for hannah! (pls take your time i know i sent a fkn lot im sorry i was curious)

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1.  How do they move and carry themselves? Pace, rhythm, gestures, energy?

hannah can behave noticeably differently depending on who she’s with and her comfort level with them. she’s not always the most confident in new situations, and she can get nervous: lip biting/nervous smiling/hair twisting/leg jiggling when sitting. in those cases, her motions tend to be pretty quick, as if to just get them over with. there’s a lot of energy in them, but it’s nervous energy. she tends to talk quickly and can say some pretty inane things just for the sake of saying something, which then compounds her anxiety. BUT. with people she’s comfortable with, this changes. she’s not nearly as fidgety. in fact, her overall energy changes to calm and welcoming warmth. there’s still definitely an undercurrent of something else underneath that, but it’s like a pleasant hum of energy. she still moves a lot, even in little ways. she had a habit of playing with her quill during classes, for example. at the leaky cauldron, she’s always doing something. 

4.What is their size and build? How does it influence how they use their body, if it does?

hannah is of pretty much entirely medium build, in height and weight, though she did run toward roundness as a child/young teenager (a fact that didn’t do wonders for her self esteem). there’s always a sort of softness to her - - - she’s never any sort of angular or anything even bordering on toned. she loses a good deal over her sixth and seventh year due to various circumstances (loss of appetite after her mother’s death, seventh year being what it was) without really meaning to, and she’s actually not very happy about it. over that time she’d tend to carry herself with arms folded across her middle, shoulders sort of curved forward, hands always pulling the sleeves of her sweaters down over her fingers, etc. her body language became very much about self-protection. after the war, when she’s had a little time to heal, she gains a bit of that weight back. she hits a fairly average size and maintains that as she runs the leaky cauldron. as she puts weight back on/has the exercise of running the leaky, her expressions open up and her body language becomes much less self-protective, kind of an unfolding. there’s still the nervous/shy distinction of her general energy, but nothing like war-time levels. 

5.How do they dress? What styles, colors, accessories, and other possessions do they favor? Why?

her clothes tend to walk a border between moderately fashionable and entirely practical. she doesn’t follow fashion as closely as some of her friends do, but she picks up elements of it. she tends to favor earth tones like these or pastels. she doesn’t go in for prints very much, but she does have a taste for more understated florals. her preference as far as jewelry goes runs to the simple: mostly just the necklace her mother gave her on her last christmas and simple earrings. she wears a couple of thin bracelets on her right wrist, and a simple, pale-leather banded watch on her left. as far as shoes, she avoids heels like the plague, but loves canvas shoes. she’s not much for “things” when it comes to favoring, but she does love anything soft. texture is huge for her - - - she can’t wear anything rough or scratchy, and when it comes to her living space she likes to surround herself with soft knits, comfy pillows, thick blankets, etc. 

9.How do they manifest energy, exhaustion, tension, or other strong emotions?

to be honest, hannah is terrible at hiding anything. most of these can be read pretty easily on her face and in her body language. exhaustion, disappointment, and even sadness tend to register in a lot of the same ways. her movements slow down, her smiles are smaller, she tends to sort of curl in on herself in minor ways. she’ll try to hide these things and just push right through them, and she usually manages to do that...but she doesn’t do very well at the hiding. tension i’ve pretty much already described in her nervous reactions: quicker movements, fidgeting, etc. they’re manifested pretty much identically. anger, frustration, and embarrassment can be read very clearly in her face (it tends to scrunch up a bit, she blushes easily, etc) and also tend to show up in what she’s doing with her hands. when she’s angry or frustrated they tend to curl hard into her palms, when she’s embarrassed she tends to fold them up or tuck them away, somehow. she’s basically an open book when it comes to emotions, though she tries hard not to let the negative ones show (she really doesn’t want to make anyone else feel badly just because she is!) 

20.What kind of individual relationships do they have with others, and how do they behave in them? How are they different between intimate relationships like friends, family, and lovers versus more impersonal relationships?

hannah tends to build very strong and close interpersonal relationships, but they tend to be fairly few. her closest friends at school were ernie, susan, megan, and justin, and they were more or less a small family. she tends to gravitate toward people who make her feel secure in one way or another, and while she’s friendly with everyone, she’s really only truly intimate friends with a select few. she’s actually more quiet and more settled with people she knows well. she’ll open up more, easily confides in them, uses affectionate touch, etc. in more impersonal relationships, she tends to display a lot more nervousness in a do-they-like-me/i-really-hope-they-like-me sense. she talks more without saying much, avoids touch, etc. 

her general behavior around close friends vs. a romantic partner would be pretty much the same and only vary by degrees of intensity. she’d be the sort to really give her all to a romantic relationship, and that would include building a solid friendship at the core of it. 

25.What do they need and want out of relationships, and how do they go about getting it?

security tends to be a common theme with relationship needs. it manifests in various ways: ernie was very secure in himself and his ideas, and she liked that - it tended to anchor her - but it’s not the only kind of security. in fact, the security she’s looking for tends to be more security within the relationship. she needs to know that the person isn’t going anywhere and isn’t going to just stop liking her for reasons she can’t explain. she doesn’t really do much to get this, actively, unless it’s in recognizing that she’s not comfortable around a certain person/in a certain relationship and distancing herself a little. (she’s rarely ever able to fully distance herself, she’d always continue to be friendly, etc, but she also wouldn’t pursue a deeper relationship.) 

29. What kind of activities, interests, and hobbies do they have? What significance and impact do these have in their lives, both positive and negative?

hannah has always loved plants and animals, particularly flowers. she likes taking care of things/helping them grow. there’s really no purpose to this: she doesn’t grow flowers for anything, she just likes that they’re flowers. i wouldn’t say she has very many hard-and-fast hobbies. most of her time at hogwarts was typically spent sitting around and talking with her friends, going on walks through the grounds with them, studying with them. she loves people, and she loves being around people. positively, all of this means that she makes a great owner of the leaky cauldron and turns it into a place of welcome. she gets to push all of that into the ability to take care of the people that walk through the door. but it also means that, at the end of the day, she doesn’t tend to know what to do with herself. once she’s outside of a school environment/not living in a dormitory anymore, she has the tendency to succumb to a good deal of loneliness. to avoid this, she’ll find tasks to do even if they don’t need doing: the floors were just scrubbed yesterday, but she’ll scrub them again just to distract herself. ironically, this is an isolating cycle more than it is anything else. she doesn’t want to “bother” anyone with her loneliness, so she finds ways to distract herself from it instead of finding ways to fix the problem. 

31.. Is there anything that counts as a “dealbreaker” for them, positively or negatively? What makes things go smoothly, and what spoils an activity or ruins their day? Why?

there really isn’t much that i can think of as far as “dealbreakers.” for the most part, if she’s with a person/people she trusts, hannah can just go along with things pretty happily. i do think hannah can be a bit oversensitive to people’s reactions to her. brusqueness can crush her, as can moments she perceives as a failure, socially. anything that causes her anxiety to spike and manifest itself, particularly in magic-related ways (flock of flamingoes in the exams, for instance) can shake her for days. 

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COVID19 Updates: 10/01/2020

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OP/ED Piece from Web: We are officially in October. The winter is coming, and jokes aside..."The winter is coming". The developments in the last 10-12 days are not exactly what my model predicted, but are damn close. Like 90% fitting what my model is predicting. The discrepancy might simply be because my model is actually built on a 10% error, and I hope it is so, because the other explanation is much worse. I was expecting that the authorities would do everything in their power to hide the reality until the reality cannot be hidden anymore. But I did not expected them to ban information regarding cases in schools, or ban professionals in the education and medical system to divulge what should be public information : school clusters, hospitalization data, ICU being filled, overworking of medical stuff. Most people and most politicians are simply unable to project bad scenarios, simply because they don't want to believe that bad things can happen. Until the bad things happen, and their reactions are anything but constructive. From the start of this pandemic, people who could see what will happen, also realized that sacrifices would have to be made in order to diminish, or at least stagger the impact of this pandemic. Personally, I hate talking about the past, because the past cannot be changed. But in this instance, to understand what will happen in the future, we have to look in the past. I argued in favor of a full stop of all international and national travel, by February 5-6th. Planes, trains, buses, ships, everything should have been parked in early February. The tourism industry would have been hit hard, as well as travel industry. But this should have been done, not because it would have avoided the losses of the total lock-downs in March-May, but mainly to postpone the moment when the virus will be endemic. We haven't done that, because the economic impact would have been huge. Due to this "bad things can't happen to us", when the virus hit us in March, we got scared (and for good reason) and locked-down everything. The economic losses were 10 times greater. When the lock-downs started, I argued that they should stay for 3 months. Well, we didn't, and the lock-downs were lifted after 2 months. Where I am going with this, and what is the relevance for the future? Well, the answer is simple : the world economy cannot be shut-down for more then 2 months, or we're fucked. And this is what we have to take into consideration for the next 4-6 months, the months where the sun doesn't shine as much, the temperature is low and seasonal flu is up. Among these next months, there is the month of December, a critical month regarding the economy. The economic boost of December cannot be disregarded. Now, since we cannot shut-down for more then 2 months, and since December is NEEDED for the economy, we can understand why total lock-downs are avoided like hell. Any nation-wide lock-down must consider December. Sadly, December is bang on the middle of the next 4-6 months, where things will get really hairy. When we consider all this, what are the options, if second round of nation-wide lock-downs is coming? If the second round of lock-downs is coming, and December has to be lock-down "free", the second round of lock-downs should have started already. Since it didn't, it can only start in January. Now, this is the biggest problem we are facing : if a second round of lock-downs is needed...the governments will either lock-down after December or lock-down before December, but INCLUDING December. As always, I hope the worst case scenario won't happen, but damn, it seems that the governments are hell bent on making it happen. Before I get into what I expect to happen in the next weeks and months, I have to say that I was wrong in some of my assumptions, and not because I misinterpreted the data, but because of lack of data. First, is reactivation/reinfection. When first cases of reactivation/reinfection happened, they were recorded in South Korea, early in the pandemic. At that point, South Korea had very few Covid-19 cases, in the thousands (officially) or tens of thousands (in reality). Looking at the numbers (tens of thousands of cases in a country of 50+ million) and 2 cases of reinfection/reactivation, mathematical probability show that it was highly improbable to have reinfections (early in the pandemic, very few cases in a big country), but highly probable to be reactivation. Since then, my personal belief was that it is reactivation, but I didn't knew how and when it will happen, and how spread it is going to be. So, I decided to dismiss reactivation as a potential quantity that would have required model adjustments. You all know that I said that the Spring epicenters won't be epicenters in the Winter. My belief was that even if the life of antibodies is short (3-4 months), the former infected people would at least have an immune response when facing a second reinfection. Cities like Madrid, where I believe to have reached 20% infection rate in May, should at least be partially protected for the second wave, and while still being hit by the second wave, would not be epicenters again. In the last 10-12 days, the number of so called reinfections has simply skyrocketed (compared to earlier figures), and this is because those are not reinfections, they are reactivation of the virus. I wish I would be right, and reactivation is a minuscule part of this pandemic, but what is happening in Madrid shows that reactivation is pretty damn important. The hard part is quantifying the reactivation in modeling what is going to happen in the next weeks and months. I can't put a hard number on it, but I can add it, in certain figures, to scenarios. Another possible failure on my part, and I say possible because the official numbers cannot be fully trusted, is measuring the impact of the second wave. My model showed that the second wave would be 3 times bigger then first one, and in order to be so, we should have seen sustained official cases in France in the range of 12-13k cases / day for the last 2 weeks, and in Spain, 13-15k cases / day in the last 2 weeks. We are below these numbers in Spain by about 20%, and in France we are just under 5%. It is a big difference, but not unexpected. Spain was hit harder then France, so they should have a higher proportion of the population with some resistance to the virus. Spain also started local lock-downs earlier then France, this time. However, I expect Spain's numbers to be "corrected" in the next days, to closer match my model, and I expect this to happen because reactivation is no longer a small variable, but a big one. Big enough to push Spain’s official numbers in the next days, to sustained levels of 13-15k cases. If this will happen, if Spain will either commit to a full lock-down in the next 2 weeks (because they know that reactivation is going to count), or their daily cases are in the range of 13k-15k, I am afraid we are facing a very grim, and possibly, the worst case scenario. Why I am talking about sustained daily cases, instead rising in cases? A pandemic is not growing and growing and growing, until it burns out. Masks, restrictions of gatherings, travel limitations, etc. all contribute to a plateau of infections. Once we reach a plateau, due to measures in place, we can expect either a decrease , either a plateauing in cases. There is a chance to see a rise in cases, and I will address it later, but if we see a plateau of high numbers in the next 2 weeks, in countries like France and Spain, paired with sustained increases in other countries in Europe, the U.S., Russia and Canada, we are in big trouble. If the above will happen, and we don't see a significant decrease in France and Spain (they are the first countries to explode in cases in this second wave), while witnessing increases in other Northern hemisphere countries, middle of October is going to be our "make or break" moment, as my model is predicting to be. When we look at virus reactivation, lesser and lesser strength of the immune system in the next months, governments decision to keep the schools and universities open and the devastating impact of a longer then 2 months lock-down, I am afraid that we will witness what a pandemic REALLY looks like. They will avoid locking-down until there is no other option left. And I believe that if the lock-down comes after October, we will face a massive economic loss (much bigger then Great Depression), that will affect us for many, many years. If the lock-downs won't be in place by January, but after, to save the economy and December revenues, my model shows very, very scary numbers. Without breaking down the numbers, and considering schools will remain open through October, and disregarding reactivation and a possible mutation of the virus on the younger hosts (due to schools), we can expect up to 7% of the population in Europe, U.S., Canada, Russia and other countries on or above 40 latitude, to be hospitalized in the next 3 months : October, November and December. To put this into perspective, this means up to 23 million hospitalized in the U.S. in the next 3 months, or twice that number for Europe (the continent, not the Union). And these hospitalized will be on top of the normal hospitalizations. Let's just hope this this won't happen, because this pandemic will easily surpass Spanish flu. We can potentially see 1-2% of the population of the countries in the Northern Hemisphere dead in the next 3 months, just from Covid-19...and there is still January, February and March left, to add another 1-2%. I know this sounds really extreme, and it most likely won't happen, because we will 100% lock-down before this happen. The economic losses from a 4 month lock-down will be much smaller then the economic losses of close to 100 million hospitalized and 10 to 20 million dead people in Europe, U.S., Canada and Russia, not even counting for the massive disruptions that will come in such scenario. And that is not counting for a potential more contagious mutation or for a bigger rate of reactivation. The good part is that we won't have to wait too long to see if such scenario is on the cards. Just another 2 to 3 weeks. France and Spain will show us (by locking-down or seeing sustained daily cases in the range of 12-13k for the next weeks, with no significant drops) if we are facing a second Spanish Flu-like (or worse) pandemic.

Canada:  Quebec unveils how partial lockdown rules will be enforced in COVID-19 red zones LINK

UK:  Covid-19 outbreak at Sunderland car parts plant - with 14 confirmed cases. LINK

France:  #BREAKING French health minister warns Paris may go on maximum virus alert from Monday

UK: Text of apology from MP Margaret Ferrier after knowingly traveling by train after positive COVID results. LINK

Italy:  Italy's Daily COVID-19 Tally Tops 2,500 For First Time Since Apri

UK:  UK: 6,916 new cases. 4% increase in new cases on last Thursday (6,634) 2,276 currently hospitalized. 45% increase since last Thursday (1,562)

Sweden:  SWEDEN  UPDATE—Sweden registered 752 new #COVID19 cases on Thursday, highest daily rise since June, the latest in a steady rise in infections in recent weeks.

Spain:  Spain: 9,416 new cases12% fewer cases than last Thursday (10,653) 10,559 currently hospitalized 4% fewer than last Thursday (11,041)

France: 13,970 new cases. 15% fewer cases than last Thursday (16,496). Those who are currently hospitalized: 6,634. 10% increase since last Thursday (6,031) . 35% of intensive care beds are occupied in Paris. #COVID19

UK: Covid cases doubled under most local lockdowns in EnglandExclusive: Confusing rules blamed for rise in infections in 11 of 16 towns and cities under long-term restrictions LINK

West Virginia: Gov. Justice addresses lawsuits over map, decries politics and defends changes as necessary. LINK

Spain:  Madrid will observe central government’s new coronavirus restrictions, but plans to challenge them in the courts LINK

World:  Researchers call for loss of smell to be recognized globally as a symptom of COVID-19 LINK

World: Pfizer CEO told employees that vaccine development is moving “at the speed of science” and that the company would not succumb to political pressure. LINK

China:  Beijing's streets during and after Covid lockdown – in pictures. LINK (Having been there, I can say that the “after” pics are nowhere close to “normal” levels)

World:  COVID-19 antibodies in blood plasma donations appear to drop within just months of symptoms emerging, warns study LINK

China:  China holiday: Millions on the move for Golden Week LINK

Georgia:  Atlanta Falcons to use drones to clean stadium after games LINK

World:  Amazon says more than 19,000 workers got Covid-19 LINK

Massachusetts:  708 confirmed Covid19 cases in Massachusetts today. The state is heading in wrong direction with 36% increase in positive tests over 7 days and 6 hospitals near surge capacity.

Israel:  Netanyahu: If coronavirus lockdown doesn't work, we'll make it stricter LINK

Greece: 411 more coronavirus cases; two new deaths

California:  San Diego City Employees, Elected Officials in Quarantine Following COVID-19 Exposure LINK

World:  Tracking Economic Relief Plans Around the World during the Coronavirus Outbreak LINK

US:  N.Y., N.J. Unveil New ‘COVID Alert’ Apps That Notify Users If They’re Within 6 Feet Of Someone Who Has Tested Positive LINK

US:  House approves $2.2 trillion stimulus plan, but bipartisan deal unlikely LINK

District of Columbia:  Smithsonian lays off 237 as COVID-19 continues to limit operations LINK

New York:  NYS Comptroller Audit: Up To 50% Of NYC Bars And Restaurants Could Close Permanently In Next 6 Months LINK

Macau:  Macau Sees Little Sign of Recovery as Gaming Revenue Falls 90% LINK

World:  Expert looks at how COVID-19 problems can turn into lifelong chronic diseases LINK

North Carolina:  Frustrated Wake County parents hold reopen rally outside school district headquarters LINK

Argentina:  Argentina | 14,001 new cases and 3,352 deaths were reported in 24 hours LINK

US:  Jacobs reports White House aide Hope Hicks is experiencing symptoms of the disease and was in close proximity to the President and mask-less this week. No comment yet from the WH on the exposure risk to POTUS.

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