#that he didnt even wish for his Hikaru back

[banditoswift]

so let me get this straight… “hikaru” wouldve granted yoshiki any wish, and yoshiki just wished for “hikaru” to come back to him when he literally could’ve wished for ANYTHING including even asking for hikaru to be alive again?

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Thank me later

Pairing: Kaoru x Reader, Hikaru x Reader (platonic)

Pronouns: he/him

Content: cheating but not actual cheating (just a misunderstanding), angst to fluff

Description: while it was only a misunderstanding, Hikaru tried to comfort you as best as possible.

Note: cheating isn't really my thing buT this was lowkey fun to write. Request on wattpad :D

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There you sat, under a large tree, a few tears slipping down your face.

Reason for your tears was your boyfriend Kaoru.

Even thinking about him made your stomach turn. The only thing coming to mind is the sight of the girl oh so close to Kaoru and them kissing as if you werent there.

Why? You ask yourself, just why?

Maybe you were being delusional, maybe it was a misunderstanding.

But it sure broke your heart to see your boyfriend so close to her when he usually didn't like you being that close.

He said it was because if you both talked about your relationship, bad things could happen to the clubs business. While Kaoru didnt really care as much, Kyoya didn't like the idea.

So you just went on in your day without visiting the club as much, even though you had been invited as a host many times it wasn't your type of thing.

Sometimes you wish you had joined just to make sure things like what you just saw, werent something regular.

While you tried not to get pissed off in the school courtyard a hand was placed on your shoulder.

As you look up you see Hikaru, Kaoru's twin, smiling at you.

Just as the smile set on his face, he suddenly frowned.

Seeing the small tears welling up in your eyes and permanent frown set on your face.

"Whats wrong?" He says while sitting beside you, hand nearing your face to place a lock of your hair behind your ear.

"Kaoru...he-" you try to say but it gets hard to let out any noise.

Hikaru's facial expression turned sour, eyebrows furrowed and eyes glaring. He had known about your guys relationship and he loved you dearly, he was very happy you guys got together but he didn't like how Kaoru immediatly tried to keep it a secret.

"What did he do?"

"A girl, I saw a girl kiss him. At the host club"

At your words Hikaru got even more tense then you thought possible.

"Im so sorry...thats not something very common at the club but sometimes some of them like to do that. I'll talk to him okay? I know he loves you very much, he just doesn't express it well and I know thats hard for you as well"

"But- what if he liked it, what if he wants to be with her instead?" You question, it was something that you knew wouldnt happen but your anxiety got the best of you.

Hikaru gave you a big hug and a warm embrace. He sighs before he starts talking again, "Kaoru loves you, ive never seen him love like this but, its very noticeable that he cares for you so much. I dont know why he wants to keep it a secret any more at this point"

You let out a small sob at his words, you know Hikarus words were true but it still hurt so much that he seemed to prioritize the club over you. You wished he could put both on the same level.

"Come with me okay? We'll talk about it together, I dont want to leave you here alone"

And so after that he helped you up and you both walked over to the clubs location. You taking smaller steps to delay the inevitable while Hikaru took big steps, striding almost.

As you walk up to the doors you see Kaoru frantically looking around.

"Thank me later" Hikaru says and Kaoru looks up.

And thats when you see the tears building up in Karous own eyes.

He yells out your name and runs up to you.

You fall back, almost hitting the ground, but Karou holds onto you.

He immediatly starts babbling, you were only able to understand a few words out of the million that he says in just a few seconds.

Saying stuff like 'im sorry' repeating it over and over again.

As you look for Hikaru for some sort of explanation, he isnt even there.

Suddenly Kaoru grabs your face softly, making you have steady eye contact with him.

As he sees the tear tracks on your face he starts sobbing a bit.

"Im so sorry, please forgive me, ill even leave the club. Please, I didnt want her to kiss me, I pushed her away as soon as I could. I love you so much"

"Wait, you pushed her away?"

He looks at you as if you were crazy, "of course I pushed her away! Tamaki even told her to leave right after. I tried looking for you but I didn't see you anywhere, all I know was that I saw you enter right before she decided to kiss me"

So...it was all a big misunderstanding-

You stood there shocked, you really thought he had almost cheated on you.

Now that you look back, why were you even crying, Kaoru loved you so much. Even Hikaru said so himself.

Gods you were a bit of an idiot-

You smile sheepishly at him as you let out a nervous chuckle, and he looks at you confused.

"I thought, you had cheated on me-"

"Baby, I love you so much. You're my boyfriend, and I am your boyfriend. Nothing is going to change that, and you know what I'm going to talk to Kyoya. He either lets me tell everyone about our relationship or im leaving the club"

"Are you sure? You don't....have to do that"

That was a bit of a lie, he should.

"Im doing it, nothing can stop me"

Kaoru leans in to give you a kiss but you stop him by putting a hand on his mouth.

"You are not kissing me when that bitch kissed you like twenty minutes ago"

He deadpans at your words, sad that he isnt able to kiss his boyfriend and be able to finally make up with you.

Kaoru quickly swipes his lips with the back of his hand, aggressively trying to wake away any lipstick left from her mouth.

As he finishes he dips in for a kiss, not letting you hold a hand to his mouth this time. Letting out a small noise of happiness since he finally gets to kiss you again.

"You're gunna have to thank your brother later" you say in-between kisses.

[1119 words; feb/9/21]

[cottoncandyjester]

Your blog is an absolute delight to browse through <33333

I adore your OCs. They all have their individual quirks and seeing you write them is a treat.

If you are accepting requests, I was wondering if you could do some reverse comfort for your OCs? Where they're not having a good day and their s/o comforts them.

I love yandere content but I am still a sucker for that good wholesome stuff :).

I absolutely love this

Also Was unsure if I should add salem in this cause a lot of people sent hate about him since i Introduced him cause he's disgusting but i did add him cause I love him and he needs love and support

Story contains: some angst, talk of self harm, fluffy fluff, soft boys

Theodore

You've never seen theo angry ever since you two got together but today he seemed to be stressed out, he was studying for a test and from the sounds of it he was going crazy. You walked towards the room only to hear a loud crash which made you jump and you rushed in

Theo had thrown his glasses across the room now sitting in the chair with his head in his hands a shaky sigh escaping him.

"im never going to get it, damn it.."

You looked at the papers scattered about and it looked like some intense stuff, you walked towards theo and hugged him from behind.

"take a break.."

Theo chuckled lightly before he leaned back looking in your eyes, it was clear he hasn't slept in a while.

"you know i can't do that angel, you get to bed though it's late"

You moved onto theo's lap which he allowed, he shivered lightly at the stern look in your eyes since he never seen you look this serious. He tried to settle your worries by giving you soft kisses on your neck but it seems you weren't easy to sway.

"theodore, I want you to get into bed with me and sleep right now."

The male sighed and looked at the clock on the study desk seeing it was about 2am, he did want sleep but he was far too worried about not passing to even think about it.

"sweetie, I have to study. How will I be a good husband if I don't finish college?"

"who says you arent already a good husband?"

Your words shocked him and he stared at you with a confused look before you lovingly wrap your arms around his neck and planting a soft kiss onto his lips.

"you're perfect theo, you don't have to constantly prove it okay? Don't ever doubt that."

Theodore was silent after that and he buried his face in your neck with a low hum, he truly didn't deserve you.

"you think I'm perfect?"

"of course I do, I love you so come and get some rest"

Theo decided to give in and lay down with you and for some reason when he did all those worries drifted away.

Hikaru

Hikaru didnt have time feeling sad, he was a model not to mention a public figure. He never lets you see that side of him unless it's to lash out at you but he onky does that in anger. Today was different, he was quiet today which Definitely wasn't like him

"hey, [y/n]?"

You looked up from your phone to look at the male who just got out the shower his hair still damp and he only wore sweatpants

"what's wrong? Want me to dry your hair again? You should put on a shirt before you get sick"

Hikaru said nothing and simply walked towards you and hugged you close making you both fall back on the bed, the shocked you and you started to pat hikaru on the back trying to get him off.

"h-hey! Are you okay? Are you sick?! Hikaru?!"

"I'm..sorry I'm really sorry, [y/n] dont leave cause I'm really sorry"

He was making zero sense and it only concerned you more but you heard sniffling which made you now freaked out so you softly pulled him back seeing tears rolling down his face.

"hey, why are you crying? What's wrong hikaru?"

The male sat up now sittinf on his knees and he kept his head down letting his hair cover his face as he tried to stop crying.

"I know you dont really love me, I'm mean and cold and awful. You want to leave don't you? But- but I don't want you to go! Im sorry I don't know how to love you i just don't know!"

Hikaru sounded an absolute mess and you didn't know where this was coming from but he simply out the male close into a hug letting him nuzzle his face into your chest as you played with his slightly damp hair.

"yeah, you are mean and cold..but I love you. You can be so sweet and really fun to be with, hikaru Im not going to leave no matter what"

"r-really? No matter what?"

"of course! After all without you my sense of style would be a mess!"

You heard a muffled chuckle escaping him as he hugged you tightly now resting his head on your chest

"you're an idiot."

With a cocky grin you poked his cheek earning a hushed whine of discomfort from you which you found adorable

"but I'm your idiot, so you're stuck with me!"

Axis

Axis is the type where he will tell you when he's sad, he's a crybaby so he will absolutely let you know when he needs comfort. So when the male popped up while you were thinking about what to do for dinner you figured he was feeling down

"what's wrong ax?"

"artblock..I have to come up with a new piece but i have nothing"

You gave a small hum before stopping and turned around wrapping your arms around him.

"well, how about we go on a date tonight we can go out to eat and do a bunch of fun stuff.."

"like fireworks?!"

You sighed loudly at your boyfriend's obsession with fireworks and decided to please him and his wishes

"we can get sparklers and small stuff okay?"

Axis smiled brightly and kissed your cheek over and over.

"date night date night!"

He started chanting like a child and you couldn't help but laugh at his antics but you were glad he wasn't sad anymore.

Prince

Prince hides his insecurities very well with flirting and smooth words, he likes you to think that he's all okay. you noticed he was far more clumsy today with things, it went from simply dropping things to full on tripping and falling.

Prince winced as he tripped and fell ontop of you earning an annoyed huff from you as you glared up at him for of his weird behavior that he brushes aside like its nothing

"prince what the hell is going on? You're being weird today"

Prince looked down at you before letting out a loud groan before nuzzling his face into your neck feeling quite embarrassed

"I'm scared..of our future"

"why would that scare you?"

Prince picked his head up and had a slight pout before he glanced away being unsure of how to put his words together.

"you're my first real serious relationship..what if I screw up?"

"oh princey.."

Your soft cooing made him even more embarrassed and he groaned while laying his face in your chest.

"you're amazing and great and I'm just..me!"

You simply messed with his hair finding his remark to be pretty dumb but you excused it cause he looked far too cute when pouty.

"prince, I love you forever and ever you aren't going to screw it up"

After a few minutes of silence he popped up and hopped to his feet with newfound energy

"you're right! I mean I'm pretty great! I bet you wanna marry me cause I'm so handsome!"

Well he was definitely back to normal

Yuki

It honestly took you weeks to figure out yuki was upset cause he is the master of hiding his emotions. He never shows many emotions besides a smile when around you or a glare when around strangers.

of course he doesn't talk about his feelings at all either so you are blissfully unaware of how he feels, until he slipped up and finally broke.

You had come home from shopping when you noticed how quiet the house was which was normal but it had an eerie feeling to it.

"is he taking a nap? Hmm.."

You went to the room and opened the door to see yuki curled up in the bed, the light were off and he was pretty quiet so you assumed he was sleeping but as you started to get ready for a shower when a muffled sniffle made you turn back to yuki and you walked to him before softly moving the blankets only to get a slight sight of tears before he buried himself deeper into the pillow to hide.

"y-yuki?"

"go."

You sat on the bed now fully invested in helping him but you had a feeling you knew what was wrong, you softly rubbed his back seeing that he was sweaty and slightly shaking.

"you have a nightmare?"

There was silence before he nodded and you simply laid next to him facing his back and softly touching his back your gentle touch being enough to cheer him up.

When he turned to face you his eyes were puffy yet had bags under them, his hair was a mess and he was breathing harshly from fear.

"wanna talk about i-"

"no."

You gave a sigh and simply cuddled against him and closed your eyes, his body stiffened but quickly relaxed before he held you close and closed his eyes

"just rest then. I'm here now okay?"

"mhm.."

Yuki smiled as he buried his face in your hair taking in your scent and feeling his body settle against yours. He didn't need words of comfort or huge signs of affection this was all he needed..you being here helped him far more than any words can.

Salem

When salem breaks down it's heartbreaking and intense, he gets into these PTSD triggered panic attacks to the point where he just loses it.

You had left the house and left him alone, it was only for a few hours but when you came back the bedroom was trashed and salem was freaking out curled up in the corner.

"b-bad boy, very bad super bad..I've been so bad I'm so sorry sorry sorry sorry"

"salem!"

You rushed to him and sat on your knees infront of him seeing fresh bruises and marks on his face, he probably hurt himself again.

"salem, baby look at me"

"b-bad boy..bad boys deserve death"

He was definitely not listening and you totally needed to snap him out of it so you did the one thing you could think of...you slapped him.

It wasn't too hard but he definitely looked up at you in shock now focused on what you had to say.

"you're not in that dark place anymore salem, you're here with me and no one is dying okay?"

"b-but I'm a sinner, I'm disgusting, revolting, i-"

You cut him off by selling your lips against his roughly kissing him and settling him down.

When you pulled back you gave him a stern gaze not letting him spill anymore degrading words out.

"listen to me salem. I love you and all your weird quirks! I don't care what anyone else says you're my boyfriend and I love you more than anything okay?"

"y-your lips t-taste like sugar.."

With that he leaned forward trailing his tongue over your lips with a shaky laugh

"thank you, [y/n]"

[startingtodayyouareahost]

Dragon Trainer verse for Tamaki and Hikaru "Welcome back!"

DRAGONS!!! YAS! THIS IS MY FAVORITE AU!! GUYS I LOVE DRAGONS

Hikaru smirked as his feet dangled off the cliff face. A hatchling sitting in his lap. The others have already taken flight, enjoying their new freedom. "Come on little guy, you'll love it! Promise." He gave it a small pat warning a growl in response. "Hey now, dont be like that. Look, your mom and siblings are over there waiting for you." Hikaru pointed at the cliff where and adult blue dragon sat, calmly watching her young. She was used to Hikaru's presence and didnt fear him having her child. He was her partner after all. They were matched at his birth.

Sensing Hikaru's actions she gracefully turned her head and let out a low rumble to call her child. The hatchling squawked nervously and looked up at hikaru. "No I cant go with you. I'm waiting for someone. Plus your mom is kinda my ride so. . . .no can do bro." The hatchlings scales bristled up as it hissed. Causing a low growl from his mom. "Its ok Usona. Hes just scared. But everyone's gotta leave the nest today." Hikaru stood up taking the tiny dragon with him. "Sorry buddy but I gotta do this now. You ready big girl!" He called out, watching Usona stand and stretch her wings. "Time to fly!" The hatchling squawked as he threw it over the cliffs edge. From an untrained strangers eye, they would have panicked. But Hikaru has done this before. He peaked over the edge, watching the hatchling tumble through the air before stretching its wings and successfully start flying. "Heh, told ya." He mumbled to himself.

"Hikaru, did you have to toss that poor thing?" Hikaru grinned as he turned around to see a tall man walk toward him.

"Well if it isnt the prince of all dragon trainers!" Hikaru walked toward him, pulling the man down for a hug. Tamaki peppered kissed on his neck picking him up enough to swing him around.

"I missed you my love."

"Yuck! Sappy nickname!" Tamaki smirked and snapped Hikaru's goggles.

"That's rich coming for that sappy, I miss you so much please come home letter you just sent."

"Hm, I sent a letter? I don't recal?"

"Uh huh, very cute." Tamaki smiled as he pulled the ginger into a kiss. "Its true though. I missed you very much. Wish you came with me." Tamaki let his hands travel up Hikaru's side teasing the hem of his shirt. Before a growl came from the cliffs.

"Usona said wait till the evening." Hikaru snorted patting his shoulder. "Later, I promise."

"Fine but I'm holding you to that!"

[hellreads]

For anyone who saw this, i urge u to read Right of Way. Okay io, my heart. First, as a jk stan, i feel like a several punches hit me from every direction. I'm the kind of reader who easily immersed into the character especially w the pronoun 'you' i feel like someone is reading me a story of my life, so yes i am bawling, usually it took me a few fluff or smut fic to simmer down the emotion but not this one. I went to bed with swollen eyes. I couldn't read a shit after that.

I will put all my answers under the cut because this is RoW and my emotions for this fic has no end T_T | 🍒

❤️ Rara | 🍒 Io (I decided to answer it as if we’re just chatting and not hurting rip our weak hearts for RoW Jimin, Jungkook, and OC)

[AN EXCHANGE FULL OF SPOILERS]

❤️ : For anyone who saw this, I urge u to read Right of Way. Okay io, my heart. First, as a jk stan, i feel like a several punches hit me from every direction. I’m the kind of reader who easily immersed into the character especially w the pronoun ‘you’ i feel like someone is reading me a story of my life, so yes i am bawling, usually it took me a few fluff or smut fic to simmer down the emotion but not this one. I went to bed with swollen eyes. I couldn’t read a shit after that.

🍒 : Rara, I feel you!!! I am the type of reader who hardcore immerses herself even if the main character gets killed or is a ghost because the best way for me to relate and feel everything to the core is to immerse, I can never read something as an outsider, okay maybe there’s a few I started out as an outsider but eventually caved in (even named OC fics lol, it’s fun to be someone else), sorry to break it to you but NO FIC CAN EVER HEAL THE DAMAGE RIGHT OF WAY HAS DONE TO YOU, NO FIC CAN MAKE YOU FORGET OF THE EVENTS, THE MISTAKES, THE REGRETS, THE PENANCE, THE ACCEPTANCE, THE WEIGHT THIS FIC WILL HAVE ON YOU IS TOO HEAVY YOU NEED A SUPPORT/SUFFER GROUP. 

ONCE YOU READ RoW YOUR HEART WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.

❤️ : RoW jk is childish, to me. But maybe he is just naive or confused. For him to fall for oc but still care about sohee is kind of dick move to me, but someone once told me “we cannot choose who fall in love with, and we certainly cannot choose how it will happen either”. That’s their fates. I’m pretty satisfied w the ending bcs there’s no bad person in this story, just bad decisions. What saddens me is, it seems like only OC who pays the price.

🍒 : That is true that he seems like a childish one but isn’t that the beauty of being a child? loving without limits, with all your heart? no hesitations, just trusting that love will be kind, good, untainted even, he saw something in OC that’s why he opened up himself to her and fell for her even if we cannot fully understand the set-up they agreed to have, I hated him for staying with Sohee, I could never understand that part but then again have you seen how feral Sohee was for Jungkook? the girl would kill for the boy, she snaked her way to get him and she’d do anything for history to not repeat itself, but the gods said fuck you Sohee we’ll let the boy stray, he cheated once, he’ll cheat again, what makes you think you’re special hun? you’re right nobody is a bad person here since they’re all humans, something led them to commit the sins they’ve done in this lifetime…

Sohee’s Fault was stealing Jungkook from Seulgi, she was head over heels for him she didn’t think twice, she just wanted to get him at all costs even if it means karma will find her sooner or later, she lusted after him and eventually loved him so there’s no way she was letting go, hence, she carefully planned everything so she gets pregnant with his baby, sick right? but the reality is she’s not the only one who did this thing to their partner, she just didn’t fucking care as long as she keeps Jungkook.

Jimin’s Fault was trusting and loving OC too much he shrugged every sign of her infidelity under the rug, what a libra thing to do Jimin (I am a Libra and I can attest to this Libra trait especially when in love) he was too blinded by love that he gave her every benefit of the doubt whenever she skips dates, goes home late, always tired, even asking to be fucked dog style, sigh, he lost the love of his life to his best friend (well he lost his loves twice to the same boy) she was nothing but an empty shell pre-programmed to respond to him like a lover would and that fucking hurt, I think among the four characters here he received the most damage cluelessly, what a poor loving soul, my heart shattered for him, he only wanted to give her the world but she decided to run to a different planet.

Jungkook’s Fault was being weak and not opening himself up to Sohee, if he only opened up to her the way he did to OC then this wouldn’t have happened,  she’s always been there but something is still missing but he should’ve talked things with her instead of finding solace in the arms of OC, because of the secret class they shared they had to write something together which I think could’ve been written minus their drunken state but whoops this is their fate, maybe in another universe they belonged together and they’re trying it as well in this one? (coherence fucked up my mind so I keep thinking of alternate universes) also, Jungkook did nothing to stop the sins they’re doing, he’s into deep inside her in every sense and there was no going back, he was willing to ruin relationships and friendships but fate was cruel, he only had a taste of his euphoria before everything came crashing down.

OC’s Fault was thinking she was strong enough to fight her strong feelings and urges, she thought she was not capable of doing such thing, she wasn’t a bad person, maybe the stable relationship really got to her (long-term relationships can get boring and it isn’t pretty) and having a taste of something or someone new is titillating, also, it wouldn’t be bad right? because it’s the worst, just like Jungkook she gave in to lust, god their sexual chemistry and actual chemistry off-sex is something every lover should have except they aren’t lovers but sinners trying to milk each other everything they got before the world reveals their secrets, she knew it was wrong but she always kept coming back for more, as much as she tried to stay away and forget about everything she keeps spiraling down with Jungkook, it was no longer a mistake but a choice. ultimately, she had to pay the price because that was her predicament, she got the short end of the stick, everything was ruined for her, her relationship with Jimin, Sohee, and Jungkook.

❤️ : If i could wish for a different ending i would say a happy ending but that is unreal. I would want oc to end up w jk, sohee didnt ended up pregnant. (Thats the thing isn’t it, when u’re pregnant u’re bound for life, for the sake of the child). Maybe oc can end up w jimin, she will live her whole life as jimin wife and also as a liar. Point is, the ending is “this is bound to happen, someone have to take the bullet” n i think it’s necessary rather than satisfying,

🍒 : You’re absolutely right about somebody taking the bullet and that’s obviously OC, this is why it fucking hurts, you know for a fact that she didn’t do all of this on her own, it’s not like she forcefully had her way with Jungkook, I’m just so appalled because he was a fuckboy and suddenly lost all knowledge and imagination on this exact position “It’s actually pretty shimple… The girl is straddling the guy, her back facing him while her face is turned to the side so he can kiss her.” imo, he tricked her by playing dumb, maybe it’s true they’re tipsy but he constantly bugged OC after which means he remembers everything they’ve done that one sinful night…

~ the first ending I hoped for was Jimin and OC getting back together, I prayed so hard that he’ll have the heart to forgive and take her back but this the reality of cheating and getting cheated on, no matter how much you try to mend and put the pieces back together it will never fit perfectly again, edges now cracked and torn there’s no way their perfect relationship will ever be the same, as one of my favorite songs said “with each passing day the pain still stays the same” no matter how hard Jimin tries, his trust and love for her will never be the same, he will always doubt her and be reminded of her infidelity, it will not be a pleasant ride for them so it’s better that they didn’t end up being together because even if time heals all wounds the scar she gave him will always hurt like a salted fucking open wound.

~ the second one I hoped for was that Jungkook gives up everything even if Sohee was pregnant, this is brutal I know but if he truly loved OC he would keep his promise and be with her, with or without a child growing inside his girlfriend because it’ll never be the same for them but unlike Jimin, Sohee was willing to try and forget because he loves Jungkook too much, I applaud her for trying but I believe she will never be truly happy, she will be constantly reminded of stealing Jungkook from Seulgi, forcing their child into this world as a trap to keep him, and the devastating fact that Jungkook was willing to give everything up for OC, and that for a short period of time he loved her like the world was about to end, and end it did, Sohee won in this lifetime, suffering is a small price to pay to be with Jungkook ig, they can try but reality will come checking up on them once in a while and it won’t be fun, their relationship is damaged but for Hikaru their innocent angel they will try. 

~ the last and ultimate ending I prayed for was OC ending up alone, another savage wish because I love suffering, but this was the only way for her heart to be free from all the pain and guilt, she suffered long enough by keeping secrets and coming back to Jungkook’s arms, she wasn’t a bad person, she was just weak and lost the battle in holding tightly onto her morals because love is something you can’t run away from, yes, I believe that she and Jungkook fell in love it was evident in the incriminating poem he made her “the tiny islands of your birthmark leading me to your center like a happy trail” he paid attention to every part of her and you don’t do that to a random fuck, it was hard not to love the pair despite the sins they’ve done because fuck I’m crying again, my chest now heaving from too much pain ugh, they were perfect (these lines should’ve been on my second ending but whatever I’ll get to my point) if only Jimin and Sohee didn’t exist or sure let them join the picture except they’re just random friends, but they’re not, and that’s why it sucks that she had to endure all of this losing a lover, losing a friend, and losing a soulmate (because fuck the way Jungkook loved her screams soulmate to me except he’s tied to another T_T)

❤️ : My favorite moment would be when jimin found the poems, man it went down like I’m falling from a cliff straight into the coldest sea on earth. U know when u ride a rollercoaster, on the falling part, u feel like ur heart is at ur throat? That how i feel as jimin reads the poem. Now imagine being jimin. Imagine being cheated on in the worst way anyone could possibly imagine. He was ready to propose to oc, jk is his bff, she fucked jk while he was away, on the couch next to their photo…

🍒 : RARA, I FELT THAT, I RECENTLY VISITED A FAMOUS THEME PARK AND FUCK THE ROLLERCOASTER RIDE THERE TOOK MY SOUL, ALL I SHOUTED OUT WAS LOOOOOORRRRRRDDDDD AND I DIED ~ anyway, that poem part fucked me up, I was literally bawling my eyes out, I have been cheated on but if I happened to discover the affair the way Jimin did I would die, when I discovered my boyfriend of almost 8 years cheated on me my heart froze, literally fucking freezing cold and not a single tear dropped that day, the following days were hellish, that’s when I wanted to cry and release all my pain but still no tears (I knew it was coming I guess) ~ this is why the length of a relationship doesn’t really matter because it’s never an assurance that your partner will be faithful to you, maybe things got boring okay I admit to that but what I can never understand is, why stay and cheat and hurt your partner if you’re no longer happy.

no one owns anybody nor is anyone entitled to own anybody or have them as a back-up in case your mission to cheat or flirt fails, that is just fucking sick.

❤️ : I love it that I major in literature study, bcs i can keep my mind sane instead of just blaming myself (oc), i see it from each characters’ pov and god, the author deserves a standing ovation. This is so many asks hehe, i feel like i still have a lot to say but I couldn’t think straight right now, too clouded by the angst smoke, hehe p:s i love u more!

🍒 : ohhh that’s an interesting fact, my major and my profession has nothing to do with literature or anything, in fact, people who studied my major probs hate English ghasdjfghjdsagfhjsadgfjksd, I’m just used to seeing both sides of the story and trying to understand why they are like that, did something happen to them to end up in the situation they’re in? what is missing in their lives? what are they craving for? what tipped off the balance? nobody wanted to be in the predicament they’re in, Sohee, Jimin, Jungkook, and OC were victims of time and circumstance, just because things didn’t turn out the way you want them to doesn’t mean life or fate or destiny is cruel, this is the nature and balance of this universe, if they give everything to us freely even if we tried taking it in the most inappropriate or evil way there would be nothing but chaos, I just hope that somewhere out there our girl OC is happy and having the time of her life, I’m no longer wishing for Jimin to come back, I just want all of them to heal and learn from their experience, it’s sad and painful but they were just never meant to be, Jimin nor Jungkook was never meant for OC, OC wherever you are my love, I hope you’ve healed and loved yourself well and put back the pieces of your broken self together, love will find you and it will be beautiful.

[thefandomsurfer]

My top anime couples

Before I start my list heres some honorable mentions because I love them almost as mush as the people in my list! I cant bare to leave them out >,<

Honerable mentions:

Taiga and ryuuji

Momo and Toshiro

Hinata and Naruto

Ulqiuhime

Kousei and Tsubaki

Gajeel and Levy

Ed and Winry

Now on to my list!

10.  Kousei and Kaori

What can I say? While I do love some of that childhood friend action I cant help but see a certain spark for these two. She helped him when no one else could and kept pushing him to be happy. And when the time came when she needed a push he did. This ended tragically but The mark she left on him will forever be there and he will always love her. 

9.  Hikaru and Haruhi

This might be because Im a huge twin fan or that I find Tamaki kinda annoying but I almost shipped this since day one. I cant see Haruhi with Tamaki sense all she seemed was annoyed by him the ENTIRE time. Now she was also annoyed by Hikaru as well but they had a lot of tender moments. She can tell the twins apart, they had a date that ended in comfort, they spend a lot more time together as a whole then she and Tamaki. But I will still ship it even with how it ended and always will.

8. Sakura and Naruto

Naruto and Sakura have actual history together and make a wonderful team. They share the same pain of losing a teammate and have seen each other at their worse. He loved her for most of the series and I feel like she had a deeper, not to mention healthier, bond with Naruto then she did with Sasuke. These two didnt end up together, i know, but I still ship it. I just like their dynamic much more and think they deserved each other after all they went through together.

7. Hiyori and Yato

These two have a undeniably strong bond. He needs someone as light and kind as her to guide him and remind him of who he wants to be. They bicker at times and joke around other times. But they both want to protect one another. She will do whatever she can to keep him with her and he will go to the ends of the earth to keep her safe. He wants to keep her as safe as possible and almost cut her ties with him but Hiyori wants to stay with him even though she could be in danger because of it. This is one of the strongest relationships in this list and will stay one of my favorites for years to come,

6.  Shizuo and Vorona

Shizuo and Vorona are adorable. Im sorry But they just are. I know this is a hated ship but honestly? I dont care. Its cute-Its even developed. They have a chemistry that others with Shizuo dont have. And they bring out the best in each other. Vorona-While she still kills im assuming-Has gained the courage to confront her father and Shizuo stopped trying to kill Izaya-The person he hates the most-To get her not to kill him because he doesnt want blood to stain her hands. They are seen together a lot and its just so cute to see the two act the way they do together.

5. Kyo and Tohru

They do so much for each other without even trying. He lets her know its okay to tell others how you feel and she helps tame him when he gets out of control. They accept each other for every thing they are and do it with a smile. I love their moments together they are also so much more heartfelt and tender because of how brash Kyo normally is. You know when he says something it means so much and that he also takes what she says to him to heart.

4. Inuyasha and Kagome

Another extremely deep bond is that of Inuyasha and Kagome. They are constantly at each others necks arguing about one thing or another. But they are also the only ones aloud to do that. They save each other and do anything possible to make the other happy. Inuyasha even going as far as trying to send Kagome away to keep her from the pain he brought her. She didnt want to leave his side so she came back and continued to do so. They have been a favorite couple of mine for so long and will continue to be forever I think.

3. Natsu and Lucy

Now these two constantly comfort each other. Weither its a back hug or forehead touch they are always together. Witch makes their moments all the more sentimental. They have their funny moments as well as sad moments but in the end they come back together and help each other. Shes in need of saving?-Hes their to help his princess-He needs to calm his temper?-She’ll help her Dragon find his state of mind. They are truely unforgettable together.

2. Maka and Soul

He’d do anything to protect her, she wishes to get stronger to protect him-Theyd do anything for each other. They are bound to each others souls and understand each other much more then anybody else.They bicker more then Inuyasha and Kagome but they also have a deeper bond to each other. Shes the meister hes her weapon. Without one another thay are incomplete.  I dont think anyone could ever rival the deepness of their affection to each other in my mind.

1. Ichigo and Rukia

These two will forever be my favorite of OTPs. They, just like number 2, 4, and 7, Have an incredibly deep bond and It will stay that way forever it seems. She dried the rain in his soul and he brought hope into her world when it was thrown into chaos. Their bond goes beyond that of love almost like they are soulmates. They understand each other more then anyone else and often prove it when one of them needs cheering up. Rukia is not afraid to slap Ichigo around when he needs it and knows just what to say to get him to be himself again. They are with no doubt my Favorite coulpe in anime so far.

[upsetokaiba]

i beat kh3 and oh boy do i both love it and am kinda just :/ towards some of it

thoughts under the cut (and its gonna have spoilers so pls dont look if u avoiding them)

first, my gripes:

the story is fukin wild, which i expected from kh3 dont get me wrong, but u can rlly tell what parts nomura was just like “what do i do with this”. KAIRI AND NAMINE IN FUCKING GENERAL are the biggest damn example of this. i already dont like how theyre written in kh, but my god nomura had a chance to fix it and he didnt, its now objectively a lil worse. kairi is reduced to a damsel in distress AGAIN after showing some potential of improving that with her training with lea/axel, which rlly fuckin stings. shes in ONE on screen battle actually fighting, the other battle she’s in? doesnt fight, sits on the sidelines protecting a knocked out axel and then getting whooshed away. she’s always been the implied love interest for sora, and nomura rlly just reduces her to tht in the end on top of the damsel in distress. namine is in the game, but its p much a blink and ull miss it. the most interaction she has with someone is with sora in the final world as a star. the next time shes shown is being waking up and being whisked away by riku n then playing on destiny islands. she had no plot relevance and she also doesnt have a reunion with her friends like everyone else got, which is p sad to me. these girls deserve better smh.

the gimmicks in some worlds are p meh, the one i hated at first was the ship battles in the carribean, but it grew on me during my trophy hunting. the hundred acre wood mini games are so boring and forgettable, and i would argue that the world is too. u literally pop in, help them gather food, then pop out after reassuring pooh tht sora will always be in his heart. they dont explain why their bond got weaker at all. 

the ultima weapon in this is stupid to get bc its locked behind annoying minigames for most of those orichalcum+ materials. theres also one locked behind a long gummi ship boss battle so that sounds horrible and im not looking forward to it lol

i played on proud and i found it isnt really....difficult. aside from me not using block bc i always wanna be hitting things, it was fairly easy to beat. its a shame really.

let me play as the other keybladers other than sora aqua and riku thanks

enough with my gripes, now for what i love about it:

I KNOW I WAS SUPER CRITICAL ABT NOMURA’S WRITING IN THIS ONE BUT I STILL LOVE IT. EVERYONE REUNITES WITH THEIR FRIENDS AND IM SO FUCKING HAPPY ABT THT IT MAKES ME TEARFUL!!!! MY GIRLFRIEND AQUA IS BACK AND HER HAPPY FAMILY IS (mostly) WHOLE AGAIN!! THE SEA SALT TRIO LIVES AGAIN!!!! ISA AND THE TWILIGHT TOWN GANG JOIN IN ON IT!!!! I CRY!!!!!! THEYRE ALL BACK AND IM SO HAPPYYYYYY

the music in the game is just so SO SOOOO GOOD. yoko shimomura did another excellent job with the themes and the arrangments, her music just makes me so emotional ;;;;;;

i rlly wish i was kidding when i said i was up at 4am crying bc of the ending. the implications it has left me with an immense sadness and the whole thing was bittersweet, so im glad the secret movie might be implying that theres much more after this. nomura u put him back now or i swear to god ill find u and cRY REALLY LOUDLY UNTIL U DO

NEW OUTFITS!!! xion’s new outfit is my fave its so cute

the game is rlly pretty, like holy shit. it runs fairly smoothly for looking like it does, i only rlly got frame drops in the carribean air boss. the nice models for pre rendered cutscenes look so cute

NEW UTADA HIKARU MUSIC, the orchestra version of dont think twice is so pretty, cant wait to hear it during the world of tres concert in june

the worlds were pretty enjoyable,  i adored the toy story monsters inc and san fransokyo worlds so much. the trio were rlly cute in the carribean too even if tht world was rlly meh to me. all these disney characters having no clue what any of the darkness villains are talking abt keeps me young. the way sully and mike deal with vanitas is hilarious, the way sora and co are just kinda THERE during elsa’s let it go song, hiro please i beg of you let me have a baymax PLEASE

riku’s reaction to mickey saying aqua was like sora is hilarious as well

the combat feels so GOOD, the keyblade switching is so fun, and how magic works in this game is soooo good and apparently broken lol

THEY GAVE SORA A PHONE. THEY TOLD HIM COMPUTER STUFF AND THE POOR BOY DOES NOT UNDERSTAND ANY OF IT. “I don’t computer.” -Sora 2019

there is so much snark and im absolutely loving it

axel looks so good in this game, i have never been an axel lover as much as i am after playing kh3, i am now a newly inducted axellover69

im glad this wasnt the end for kingdom hearts, bc while yes its been a while, kingdom hearts is one of my favorite series, and i couldnt imagine it stopping with 3 even when 3 was announced. I know itll end one day, but im glad today isnt that day.

im sure i missed a bit but all in all, even with its flaws, i love kh3

[movefowardalways]

Music Hurts More Now

The music I listen to

It all reminds me of you

You introduced me into almost everything I listen to today

I listened to EMINEM because of you

As well as 50 Cent, not that I listen to him anymore, but when I hear his songs, it makes me sad

What a sad reminder of your existence

You were loved by me, I wish you knew, but how could you, 

I did you wrong many times

I was young

Unstable and I didn’t know how to fight for a place in life either

Utada Hikaru I know of her music because of you

You played Kingdom Hearts and you are the reason I still love and will always love those games, because of you

Linkin Park got me through many tough times in life, I want to thank you for introducing me into them

I am sure at one point in life they helped you as well, or maybe Fort Minor

I remember the day you told me about them, you were so excited that Mike was in Fort Minor as well

You knew he was so skillful, I know you looked up to him and Eminem

You had a love for Taylor Swift, no I never got into her music

I do remember your love for Bad Blood and you always played it on repeat

You just adored her

I do give you kuddos for liking her, she is a wonderful person and fights for all the rights that people deserve to have

Simple Plan I cant even play now, everytime I hear any of their songs, I start to cry

I miss you so much I wish I could see you one more time

I wish we could forgive each other

I do forgive myself, I do know I hurt you, hell our whole life was a mess

I wish you could see where I am in life

You would be so proud of me right now, you would be happy for me

Music just hurts now, it’s never hurt me as much as it has since. you been gone

Any song with a slight reminder of you, really chanhges my mood to sadness

I am more sad of your sadness then you not being here anymore

I know now, you can finally rest, you can be at peace, no more struggles, no more sadness, no more hate you have

I am glad in a way because i used to cry at night to not know where you were

To not know if you were ok or not

You played it off, always acting cool, like nothing was wrong

I knew you were hurting and I knew I couldnt do anything about it

We used to hum songs together and we each would have to guess who was humming yet. That was agreat childhood memory we had

I didnt have much words at your funeral, but I will slowly figure out the wrods to say to you here

I was in shock, I couldnt understand how you passed

It was unbelievable I couldnt comprehend it

I couldnt believe it

I seen your body and just looked at you waiting for you to wake up, hoping it was all just some huge prank that you were playing.

Reality kicked in when i had to leave, you were gone

I still cant comprehend it

I still cant believe that it is true

I havnt been able to sleep proper in months and I keep having nightmares, these will go away one day

I have to try to ignore a lot of what happened as I am in school, work, and have to take care of Damon

If I let your death get to me, I will lose control, I will ruin everything that I have worked so hard to accomplish in life

Yes ignoring it is not right either, but if I felt distant at your funeral or didnt talk a lot because I dont know how to handle it

I don’t know how to be ok with it

You are my brother, my older brother, I really looked up to you everyday.

You are gone and you be missed forever by me

No one will miss you as much as I do I hope you know that

My heart is breaking for you

To know your struggle, hell we both went through it in our own home, at school, growing up and being lost in the world was so hard

I figured it out, I got better, I got a job, went back to school

I am sorry that you cant be here today to see it and to see your self value.

I do LOVE You.

Rest in Peace, until we meet again brother.

#missyou #bigbrother #brother #tooyoung #toosoon #dontdodrugs #drugskill #ridtheworldofdrugs

[startingtodayyouareahost]

21 for all 😳😳

Forgive me for the typos and long post! I wanted to go into some detail.

Haruhi would try her best to remain strong. Let's say her father got sick and lost his job. But, She was at one of the top schools on scholarship, how could she let that slip by! She wouldnt tell her friends. She would work after school. Cut coupons. Everything. Her father respected her wish on not telling the other host, even if he wanted to. They would find out by how often she started falling asleep during host activities. Naturally they would become involved until she eventually broke down from being so tired. It would be hard, but she would make it.

Honey and Mori are cousins. So let's say their family suffered a major incident involving the military/ government causing everything they have to dissapear overnight. They arnt dumb, practically graduated at this point. But due to whatever happened they cant practice martial arts or open a studio with out major "accidents" they would probably finish out the school year with dumb luck and go to universities to start up again. Losing their wealth is just an inconvenience.

Tamaki would be extremely shocked to the point he would kinda blank out. Let's say he didnt fix the relationship with his grandmother (unlike in the manga) and she somehow cut him off completely. His father while trying to figure out what to do, would probably send him to Haruhi's. In hopes that perhaps they would help? He would probably enjoy the whole "commoners lifestyle" after he came around. He would bounce back quicker then most.

Kyoya would have a mental breakdown after he came to the realization of what happened. Let's say his mother had an affair and he was a illegitimate. Of course he would have anxiety after everything he knew was taken from him. Even his own last name. But hes smart so what saved him was his own company that he was building up. But it's still new and it was only enough to pay his education expenses. But nothing can stop the shadow kinflg. He would use his misfortune and build from it.

Hikaru and Kaoru would have a hard time. Let's say their family has their assets bought out from underneath them. Leaving then high and dry. Hikaru would be a very angry person whose temper cant be curbed at this point. Kaoru, trying to calm his brother would get exhausted from it and they would have a big argument. Their parents arnt dumb, their building up. But patience is not a virtue in the twins. Losing their wealth would be emotionally distressing.