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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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do you think ... the iudex knows how beautiful he is.
#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜.#large image /#FINALLY GOT THROUGH MORE OF THE FONTA.INE AQ TODAY ( a year later everyone literally playing nat.lan rn ... )#but seeing neuvi during this bit? a.) cinema. b.) you know if you need someone to hold your hand ... im right here .... i could take u out#crying at the fact i think him being the hydro sover.eign is a bit of an open secret rn. esp to cl.roinde and wriothes.ley.#them having that bet was everything to me. esp bc neuvi did NOT have a clue.#he would have given them to you both if you needed him to. literally 5 seconds away#also can i just say i loved fur.ina and arle in this chap? arle REALLY standing up for fonta.ine#and fur.inas. TAKE THAT BACK was amazing. i love to see a nervous girl stand up for herself. SHE IS MY ARCHON!#i said today i would do some time gaming and give myself a rest from writing and honestly it's been nice.#i did some more of the wuw.a main questline first ( up to where we search for jin.shi...#then did some of the fyxe.stroll garden event. and then onto this#i will probs make a post tomorrow on where i plan to go from here because honestly i am being a bit self indulgent rn :')#hope you all had a good sunday everyone <3
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I'm sorry for my posts today, I guess the stress from the entirety of September was piled too high and is collapsing onto my head. I'm just so tired y'all....
#the dentist office in town offers walk ins so i COULD go tomorrow but two peoblems#i cant afford to do a payment plan. after sending rent and bills im left with barely enough for any groceries needed.#i can get maybe 5 things if im lucky#also im scared. im scared to go alone. its too short notice to ask my friend to pick me up and take me. i cant do that to him.#so do i just wait until i can afford the 120$ insurance plan and risk the infection getting worse or spreading#or do i go and risk not beinf able to pay the bill and get into yet another debt#i dont think i even wanna do this for me#all i can rhink about is my niece and how is she supposed to have a good like when im the only one with decent credit#thst could get a house with a yard and her own room#whos gonna be the one to take care mom amd dad if i bite it yknow? because thats my biggest responsibility#taking care of two disabled adults bc one cant works bc hes legally blind and the other cant get approval to work from her heart dr#their ssi could decrease or lower at any point in time as demonstrated multiple times this year alone#so yeah im only doing the right thing and at least TRYING to see a dentist for their benefit and not mine#my benefit is i continue to live with slightly healither teeth? no because id rather let myself deteriorate into nothing#but i dont the choice because i have people depending on me financially and i cant fail because if i fail things worse for them#and if things get worse for them its just another one of my fuck ups#sometimes i wish i just burned in the house fire in 2008#talkies#vent
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hi i haven’t been on here for a bit bc things are crazy but… i got my learners permit today 🤓
#purrs#well yesterday technically bc it’s after midnight now. but i did it!!! i passed and only missed one question. and ive been awake since 5 and#im so tired and i was SO scared studying and taking the test but it was worth it. and now i get to start driving :D#im kinda annoyed bc the question i missed technically had 2 correct answers and it was just like question logic ghat was the reason i got it#wrong not anything abt me not knowing smth… it was like ‘what is an example of something you could do to prevent aggressive driving’ or w/e#and one option was like always intend to use ur turn signals and another one was like don’t compete w other drivers. and i thought well the#turn signal one is a concrete action whereas the competition one is like.. what does that even mean bc it could be a lot of things. so i#picked the turn signal one but i was wrong :( oh well#anyways tomorrow i might get behind da wheel for the first time sooooo 😳 guess i actually can make progress in my life… lole!#also one year ago today (technically yesterday) i graduated….. 😳
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i only know two Ni doms irl but they're both driving me crazy
#internet people be like “oh ni doms are so mystical and clairvoyant” no they're not#lemme tell you what they are they're ANXIOUS#and they're making me ANXIOUS TOO#i love you ni doms but pls stop predicting your life in 20 years you could die tomorrow#i'm sorry but it's the truth the future holds so many possibilities that can ruin your “vIsIOn”#pls use your inferior Se once pls i beg you i promise you won't die if you live in the moment for 5 minutes#“Bat you don't use Se you can't complain about them” i know but at least i can switch between my Ne and my Si sometimes#one of them (INTJ) says EVERY SINGLE DAY: “i'm gonna do this i'm gonna do that and i also have this project for next month and-”#but he never does anything which translates to “what the hell happened to his Te?”#his Ni must want to choke his Te#and then there's my mother (INFJ) who not only keeps telling everyone what she's gonna do ignoring the fact that Stuff Happens (inf Pe agai#but whenever smth bad happens she always think it's “meant to be” and “part of the process of people's soul growth”#i vent to her and she's like “this is what g0d chose to you as a mission for your soul to evolve"#no wonder jesus was an INFJ as well their Ni-Fe is so pUrPOsE oF LIfE#mom i just wanted to tell you my day sucks idc about my mission on earth i just wanted you to comfort me#i know we all should be kind and avoid being superficial but sometimes shit happens and it's not bc of our spiritual growth or whatever#sometimes life sucks and we don't learn anything with that and sometimes we have to be mean with people#bc they suck or bc they're mean to us#well aNYWAY#tio morcego tá azedo#every cognitive function is amazing on their own way but each one of them will drive you crazy#there's no better type or function: everyone will drive you crazy#today i'm pissed with ni doms tomorrow i could be pissed with se doms which are their opposite types so who knows?#you can't escape it you will want to choke people of all types#if you only hate one or a few types only you're not studying mbti right you have to be pissed off with all types#same with the opposite if you only like one or a few types you're not studying mbti right#you have to love every type with a passion that no one can explain#if you don't get why a type is so special and so annoying at the same type you're not studying mbti right#i just complained about ni doms but i could write why i also love them in two minutes after i post this#ok i'll stop now i'm rambling too much
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I'm starting to see ppl talk abt updating their artfight pages and at first I was like what why it's still months away and then it hit me that by months it was two months and now I'm just silently sweating as my anual side project to remake the eternal gales refs and give them all icons comes back to haunt me
#rat rambles#oc posting#well I mean the good news is that all the staliens are already done and Ive already started on the human kids#the bad news is that theres still 5 more refs for me to remake and 9 icons if I decide to commit to that#the only one Ill probably force myself to do is sprinkles since shes the only stalien that doesnt have one and I dont want to leave her out#the human kids might just not get them tho especially since theres other characters Id like to make refs and icons for too#not as many newbies to the field this year which is a good thing since I do not have a lot of space left for new characters lol#Im probably going to take it easy this year in terms of my goals for artfight since last year I crashed and burned Hard#hopefully Ill have the time and motivation to draw a decent amount but if I dont Ill try not to be too broken up about it#especially since Ill probably burn myself out a bit doing the last minute ref rush lol#its not necessary especially since all the guys who needed the new refs most got theirs but Id like for them to be on the same page#I also went ahead and cleaned up my page a lil bit to make my life easier in the future#I should probably update bios and stuff but I dont feel like it Im too tired#tomorrow Im definitely going to need to clean some more as I have been for nearly every day#I mean guess thats why Im here in part#last week of pet sitting tho so soon Ill be back home again#Im not sure if Im excited or dreading it cause while I miss my family I also have been rly enjoying a house to myself#like its not necessary easy to do all the chores and stuff but it's a lot easier to do said chores when Im alone#and Ive actually been waking up at reasonable times too like not having my mom floating around is doing wonders#its almost making me rethink my insistence that I couldnt live alone but I definitely think itd get to me in the long term I need people#I just wish there was a better middleground since having people constantly in the house stresses me out so bad#it leads to me hiding out all day in my room and that's just not good for me#but its not like I could live by myself even if I wanted to#at this rate I dont think Ill ever move out but lets not think abt how much worse that could be for me thats future me's problem
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just submitted a payment to pay off all of my student loans I feel sick
#i have been denying myself so many things for the last like 8 years so i could save up enough to pay off my loans#and the interest pause for covid really helped me get there#so like on the one hand it's a relief to not have to stress about that anymore#but also i've just guaranteed that i won't be able to buy a home for at least another 5 years while i save up for a down payment again#so that's kinda devastating#hopefully i'll feel better about this tomorrow after my payment is processed#tomorrow is also payday so that helps a bit too#r.txt
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sleepy...
#back from hampton beach. technically i've been back for a while bc it's not like i've been staying up there i've just been going up#for the day and then coming back but. i'm done. i'm finally done. i don't have to go back for another year. it's been 5 long days of#waking up at noon. logging in just to check on the figure blog. driving up there. setting up sound equipment. scanning tickets and managing#tshirt sales (bc the one thing hampton beach needed more of was ppl trying to sell fucking tshirts). breaking down sound equipment.#fried dough. driving back to [redacted] massachusetts (which is No Where near the nh border btw). watch tv w my dad bc he won't go to bed#at a semi-reasonable hour otherwise. go to bed at 2. repeat.#(with a few small detours of 'going to order an airbrushed shirt' 'staying up til 4 bc i was resorting the tshirts' 'going to a wake'#'rushing home after the wake bc i forgot to bring a change of shoes' and 'picking up said tshirt')#which doesn't sound like a lot but. holy shit babes.#n e ways. remind me tomorrow to show off the sakura shirt (srry kireination but the og intention of the saber shirt was to get all three#heroines and while this year rin b4 sakura wasn't rlly in the question bc i uhm am not immune to favoritism <3 love and light <3 i still#wanted to stay somewhat on track. rin will be next year's and then kirei will probs get his time to shine) (also the sakura shirt looks sic#as hell btw) + post a couple more hampton beach things. specifically the uhm. landmarks that you pass when driving up there bc i genuinely#think that they alone do a better job conveying Exactly what hampton beach is like than anything i could ever say)#romeo.txt
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#here's to my last good night's sleep for the next 5 weeks haha#so many exciting things happening but it's also pretty stressful#not allowed to complain tho since I brought this upon myself#could have missed out on heidelberg and LBM/ karaoke night right before going abroad#but noooo#anyways#i dreamt last night that käärijä came second at the esc this year#for some reason i was part of the finnish bubble and sat in the green room next to him#tbh he took it really well but i was kind of upset :/#even though i knoww that second place is pretty good for finland but i want y'all to win#manifesting for you guys#anyhoop#i also dreamt that i was at VIP for BC but it wasn't in the venue but in their tour bus???#and then me and my friend fell asleep there and no one bothered to wake us for the show???#when we finally went inside the venue it was only tommi doing a drum solo and then the show was over#so weird#afterwards we were back on the bus and i had some long ass philosophical convo with joel#i swear that man is slowly turning into a manifestation of my inner self in these dreams and i'm not happy about it#welp gtg#it's my friend's bday tomorrow and i'm going back home to my parents today after my last class ends to bake some muffins for her#and then taking the first train to her's tomorrow morning#in the evening we're going to a restaurant/ bar and i hope i won't be too drunk to figure out where my seat on the ICE back home is :)#tho tbh I already have problems with that while sober so I probs shouldn't get my hopes up#AND THEN DRESDEN ON SUNDAYYYYYYY#sorry for being so chatty but aaaaaaaaah
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girlies it just hit 11 pm and the zoomies (human) r setting in WHAT the fuck is this shit
#pk;m electrochemistry🔴#what's worse is tHe thought blocking. i have words to say dammit!!!!!!!#i wanna ramble abt the headspace i wanna talk abt the systme i wanna talk abt my .#i want to VERBALIZE!!!!!!! and yet‚#sitting here rotating our headspace layout & my love 4 my sososo fast in ym half a brain. !!!#also i want food.#is it too late to make pizza rolls will oir family think I'm Weird. probably.#i crave 🅱️izza. dammit.#i want . m e a t s.#. i want to. Chew. on thinfs. with my Human Mouth.#i will instead . chew on things. in the headspace.#. i could make a sandwich. would rhat be weird.#idk we had a phase a few years ago where we'd make a 5 am pb&j.#soemtimes we just enter Sandwich Mode. rn is Sandwich Time it feels like.#i wan tto run in circles like a rabid dog. im going insane i think tomorrow i will Go On Walkies.
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guess who wrote down homo instead of hemo when breaking down the latin and greek words for describing things (in this case blood) and learned the word spermatozoon is actually a correct word and not a fucked up pokemon
#if you knew that spermatozoon was a real word already good for you but i had no idea. to be fair i only took biology 1 like 5 years ago#finished my first day 👍 i think i took too many notes on things i probably didnt need to#also i need to make flash cards with these words lord help me#i cant remember the name of the website i used in highschool#anyways it went ok. the medical field likes to keep you on your toes with abbreviations that have the same meaning but its kinda fun so far#today was just one class i have 2 tomorrow#and i messed up when i take anatomy bc im not ready yet until i take this class i thought i could do them at the same time oops
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Literally what am I supposed to do now lmao
#she got on the bus to go back home and I had to immediately leave so she wouldn't see me crying#and then I had to sit down and cry for 20 minutes in public before I could even walk to my bus#I went home and have laid in my bed for the past 5 hours :^)#also the fact that my cat hates literally everybody but he didn't even hiss at her#HE LET HER PAT HIM???#HE HATES EVERYONE#And when I got back he went to the door like he was looking for her#and then he wandered around meowing sadly and when I said she wasn't here he just looked down at the ground and walked off#what the fuck???#I've spent almost every day for the past 2+ years waking up in my bed alone but I feel like tomorrow is going to be unbearable lmao#what the fuck am I even supposed to do with all these feelings lmao#this is just meant to be casual but I don't think there's a casual bone in my body#larsposting#anyway I literally can't stop crying I hate this so much
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Feeling very proud of myself for continuing to push for the medical screenings I needed even though doctors repeatedly brushed me off for years but also fucking hell now I have to have my second colonoscopy before I turn 40.
#the chance of getting a pass for 10 years was slim but i still had hope#please please PLEASE let them come up with a less awful prep method in the next 5 years#or possibly the next 3 years depending on what comes back from histology#also turns out there IS stuff going on in my left side that could account for the fact that is always where the pain is#there’s not much to be DONE about it but it’s a relief to know it’s actually there and relatively harmless#instead of just hurting and having no idea why and also no one believing me#anyway i’ve slept most of the day and i’m still exhausted and i wish i’d asked for tomorrow off work
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Already regret not buying Corinne's little sister Gwynn :/ It feels so wrong! Like buying Nikki and not getting her twin sister Isabel! (which I also did back when they first came out #oops)
#Look I'll eventually go back and buy Isabel too!#But they're not in danger of being discontinued anytime soon#So yeah I will be buying Gwynn tomorrow along with matching Christmas pajamas for her and Corinne to match#Apparently I stress buy American Girl dolls when I'm facing round 2 of the medical crap I went through in college okay#(I'm fine! Not in danger or anything. Just stressed)#Side bar: With Corinne arriving today I now own 5 American Girl dolls (and 1 Wellie Wisher)#And 10 year old me drooling over the American Girl catalogs knowing we could never afford any of the pretty dolls is ECSTATIC#(but also crushed to learn they either rewrote or discontinued all of their orignal historical books)
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Stepbrother's Room.
Erick never liked the idea of going to live with his stepfather and stepbrother, but his mother thought differently, So here he is, living with his stepbrother and stepfather for 1 month now.
The ideas he had about James (his stepfather) changed a lot since he started living with him, he no longer found him stressful or grumpy, But Gio (his stepbrother) made his life difficult, whenever he crossed paths with him he would make fun of him, calling him a faggot, 4 eyes and all those cliché insults.
But that was not the worst, Erick endured all the insults, the worst was yet to come when his mother and stepfather said that he was going to stay with his stepbrother since they were going on their honeymoon, Erick didn't want this to happen. now just imagining that it would only be the two of them alone, Erick began to tremble.
The day arrived, his mother and stepfather packed and left the two boys at home, Gio turned to look at Erick while smiling at him and giving him a grimace.
"They're really crazy if they think I'm staying with you, you f*ggot freak"
Gio commented as he got up from the couch and walked out the door, leaving Erick alone watching TV.
"Better for me, home alone and without having to put up with you"
Erick commented in a low tone while Gio closed the door.
The hours passed, Erick finished watching TV, ate alone, washed his dishes and that's how he went to sleep knowing that tomorrow he wouldn't see Gio either until his parents arrived, He went to bed with a smile and closed his eyes.
The night passed and the day began to shine, the sun began to set through the window as the clock rang, Erick yawned, wiped his eyes and got out of bed and headed straight to the bathroom, It was time to take a shower since he didn't do it yesterday because he was lazy.
Once he finished showering, he went to his closet to put on his favorite outfit, a blue shirt, his short red shorts, and his boxers, but when he looked for his clothes he couldn't find anything and wrinkled his face.
"Mom must have made a mistake and put my clothes in that idiot's room... Damn it" Erick cursed as he went to Gio's room, when he opened the door the smell of hormones, exercise, and sweat invaded his nose.
But what surprised Erick the most was that there were no clothes lying around and everything was in order, Erick knew that Gio was the typical dumb straight jock so why was his room so clean and tidy?
He shook his head, he didn't come for that, he just came to get his clothes, but something was calling his attention, on his bed there was a transparent male thong and a toy, so Erick approached.
When he grabbed the toy he was surprised, it was a rubber sex toy from a woman's intimate part, he grabbed the thong and smelled it, it had the smell of Gio, Even though he was his stepbrother, Erick began to fall in love with Gio, and how could he not? Gio was tall, muscular, bearded, and had just turned 25 years old.
The moment Erick smelled Gio's thong he head started to spin and a heat began to grow in him while his small 5-centimeter cock became erect and hard, His head moved on its own as Erick looked at Gio's toy, he climbed onto the bed and sat down as he began to insert his cock into the fake rubber entrance.
His hands began to rise with the toy between them as Erick moaned in pleasure but he knew something was wrong, He would never get excited by seeing a sex toy, much less a p*ssy he was homosexual, not heterosexual, He tried to stop but it was as if his hands were moving on their own.
""Fuck... No, this-this is wrong... But.. DAMN IT, this feels so good" Erick commented between moans and gasps.
While Erick had his eyes closed, his body began to change, his feet began to grow in size until they reached a large 16 size, while a masculine smell came out of them and hair too.
His legs and thighs also underwent a change, his once thin legs were now full of muscles, they looked like trunks, capable of breaking a watermelon, A layer of hair also came out on them.
His buttocks, which were of a normal size, began to enlarge as his hole began to close, No one would ever put a cock in his ass again, now he had two buttocks like bubbles, big and firm.
His stomach started to burn as all the baby fat he had started to disappear to make way for a well-worked, firm and desired 6-pack of abs.
His chest, which was thin and flaccid, began to expand outwards as two large and sensitive pectorals began to emerge, he now had 2 large pectorals created by the gods.
His torso began to expand as well to give him a more masculine, more jock look.
Erick wasn't realizing this, the only thing he had in mind was feeling that toy p*ssy around his hard cock.
His back began to expand to give him a more manly and mature look, while muscles also began to emerge on it, his shoulders also lengthened.
His biceps and arms began to change, his biceps began to enlarge to look like the size of balls and his arms began to fill with hair while now his veins were more noticeable.
His hands began to grow larger as he held the toy, his fingers lengthening as they now looked more masculine, while veins also popped out.
His Adam's apple became more noticeable, making his moans more manly and masculine.
Next was his face, it started to change and his bones started to crack as his whole face changed, His jaw became slimmer and more defined, his lips grew a little in size while his nose was now cuter, his eyes that were green changed to a brown color, A 5 o'clock beard started to appear on his jaw making him look hotter and more handsome.
His hair that was almost blonde in color began to lose its shine as a new color began to bloom in his hair, a brown color, His haircut also changed, giving it a more masculine and jock cut.
His Adam's apple stood out, making his moans sound much more mature and masculine, when he heard his new voice he opened his eyes, he recognized this voice as Gio's voice.
The moment he saw the mirror in front of him, he was surprised, there was Gio jerk off in his bed, but... Gio was not at home, there was only him.
"What the fuck!? Gio? What's going on?" Erick commented while continuing to jerk off.
But before Erick could react, he saw his cock grow larger and thicker as he was about to break the toy.
"No... It can't be, I can't be Gio, I can't be that idiot!
But just then he came inside the fake p*ssy, causing his past self to come out along with his c*m.
"FUCK... That felt so fucking great... Ryan didn't lie to me that a fake p*ssy was better than a real one, good thing that freak f*ggot isn't here, house to myself"
gio took his cock out of the toy, he cleaned and got out of bed putting on his thong, Once he put on his thong he sat back down on his bed waiting for his stepbrother to arrive so he could continue harassing him.
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stopped fasting for cottage cheese lmao
#ed tw in the tags#I could have gone for longer I'm kinda upset I ate so early#I was thinking about fasting again tomorrow but I think that probably isn't the best time#so maybe just do Saturday then maybe go for a few days next week#I usually don't fast btw idk why I'm so obsessed now#also can you believe I've been like this for over 5 years? crazy#time flies when you don't eat ig#except I did eat today#I have made good progress tho. not saying what that means but I'm sure you can tell#I don't talk about numbers or weight or calories here and I never have but idk I still just avoid being descriptive#that's why I haven't been ed posting in forever. the ed isn't new I just decided to stop posting about it at some point#I feel like I've been posting too much recently. gotta restrain myself and post detailed suicide posts instead#jk jk I always avoid anything too graphic#anyways. I love cottage cheese but its numbers are not ideal unfortunately#Sera
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