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sugarpopss · 2 years ago

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Something i think about a lot is that if someone took a photo of me nude and cut off the head and edited out my very distinctive birthmarks, I'd probably find that person really gorgeous. Like it's literally just the knowledge that this is my own body that makes me dislike it. idk im having a moment

#i always get into weird weight headspaces while im at school because I dont eat properly here #Bc i cant eat when im stressed out #and when i notice myself losing a bit of weight i have to actively stop myself from thinking 'this is a victory' bc its literally not #me @ myself: girl you had two bangs and a bag of microwave popcorn yesterday #flashback to my first OBGYN appt when I had to ask the nurse to not read me my weight bc it will make me fucking spiral #the gynecologist: hmm so youre overweight thats interesting #me visibly shaking in the seat: can i please have an sti test #lol sometimes i think everythings chill but then i realize hey. maybe there are actually a lot of weight/food based issues i have #that I havent dealt w bc they only rear their head when im 'on my own' more #when im at home my mom is a woman who has done the therapy and self work to mend her relationship w food and her body and i can kinda #siphon off of that #ALSO: the breathing problem my mom got told for YEARS was just bc she was fat turned out to be fucking severely deviated septum #all it took was an outpatient surgery bitch her NOSE WAS FUCKED UP #okay im rambling #oops did a personal

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