#thanks for asking bella!!!!!!!

[potato-lord-but-not]

hello !

oh am i about to tell you my woes.

your art of oscar and bella together has claimed a vice grip upon my psyche oh my goodness-

i adore bella saltzman so so much and don’t even get me started on how much i adore oscar. those two together, interacting, delightful 🤌✨✨

im so tempted to write something about those two.

the idea of oscar knowing bella long before he knew/met arthur, talking with bella and listening to her tell him about thjs new man she’s been talking to/spending time with.

just like,, the idea of oscar knowing *of* arthur and then years later actually meeting him, is so wild/pos

i just imagine blindfaith, further along, oscar talking to arthur and arthur opening up to oscar about bella. the slow realization for oscar that this is THE man bella was telling him about, all those years ago. realizing that arthur and him were walking on similar paths years before they even knew each other-

thank you for the wonderful art as always.

have a bella saltzman spectacular rest of your evening/day !!

NO LITERALLY !! MAKES ME GO CRAZY !!!! just like imagine….. Bella telling Oscar she wasn’t ready, Oscar reassuring her this is the right choice, because that’s apparently what god wants and he has no choice but to trust. the way Oscar would take her death more personally than Arthur…. Another life he couldn’t save… The way he would’ve been an amazing friend to her the way Arthur was never allowed to be…..

AND LIKE !!! IMAGINE HOW HIS VIEW ON ARTHUR WOULD CHANGE !!! after realizing t h i s was the man that Bella loved so deeply yet complained about him more often than not, the same man who abandoned her and left her to die alone. how could he forgive him? would Bella want to forgive him? SORRY ANYWAY I need to go to bed

[yayll]

Hiii i hope you're feeling better soon :(( I was wondering if I could request a Dazai x reader fic where the reader has PTSD? Specifically, the beginning of autumn kind of triggers her (sorry if it's a confusing i dunno how to word it lol) Could it be fluff/comfort? Btw I love your writing style so badly so pls tweak the idea if you think it would work better! And no worries if you'd rather pass :33

hii angel i genuinely am sorry that this took me a while! (work and life happened a little more than usual, GOT SICK and barely had time to sit down and write.) it was so ivover but i am fine now thank u so much bub!

i REALLY hope you like this and that it's what u wanted, i've never written someone w PTSD before and i was just rlly hoping i didn't mess this characterization up for ur request ahhh. i had such a nice time writing it and i rlly wanted to explore the impact it could have around reader and dazai and him going out of his way even if it could be a little goofy and sappy to make u feel at least a little better even if u can't talk abt it.

i love uuuu thank u again! <3

~ a little something about Dazai noticing harmful patterns and loving you through them ~

He's been watching you sit by the window for the past half hour as you stare at what seems like the beginning of the new season outside. You were quieter than usual, more withdrawn and jumpy, which could only mean that you weren't sharing something with him- or rather having trouble processing something to the point where you didn't realize he could tell something inside you was on high alert.

Dazai would rather die than see you in such a state, especially during what's supposed to be such an exciting time of the year that's full of the things you usually love to do. Whatever is impeding you from enjoying the leaves falling has to be dealt with the most delicate of methods, but especially with love. If you taught him anything about the past haunting you to the point of mental distress, something he suffered bouts of every now and then when memories made days grow dark, it's that all you need is one person to truly witness you. Just like how you've seen the ugliest parts of him time and time again yet you still look at him with all the stars in the sky, stars he consumes like a black hole waiting to be filled.

Luckily for you, he has an arsenal of things he can try to soothe you with, because he wouldn't be a good detective AND boyfriend if he didn't keep all those context clues in his pocket for a bad day. Mainly though, he was just completely attuned to your every need. You are his happiness, and your wellness isn't up for debate: It's mandatory. He stands up from the loveseat with a deep exhale as he walks over to you, his lips curled in a lazy smile as he tests the waters to see what you could need from him without asking.

"You know, if you stay any more still I could probably paint you like one of those fancy paintings. What do you say, be my model?"

You look over at him from the window, and he can visibly tell you haven't been at ease lately. He suddenly realizes he's just fallen even more in love with you. That there is nothing in this world that could ever let him see you as anything but his heart.

You murmur, a faint smile decorating your serene face.

"Mm, I'm not sure. I don't think I could pose for that long, you know? It would probably be hard to catch my likeness, heh."

He clicks his tongue and rolls his eyes with a playful smirk. Oh how he wants to lean in and worship your likeness with his loving touch, but he decides to take it easy on the physical affection for now, not until he knows you're feeling up for it. He can be a good boy, something he usually isn't.

"Well, I wouldn't mind being the brave young knight who tries~ Shall we take this outside for better lighting?"

You instantly don't give him a good reaction to that. You shrug, seeming conflicted and unsure of yourself, but unable to really bring yourself to explain with words, something uncharacteristic of you.

No problem! Dazai thinks to himself. If you don't want to go outside, he can bring outside to you in the comfort of home. He'll enhance your safe space, and tailor it to just what you need. He hums, tapping his temple in an exaggerated manner as if he were thinking really hard and when he sees that it gets a small giggle out of you, he knows he's on the right track.

"Hm, I know what we should do instead. Wait here, angel.~"

He disappears into the hallway and you sit there as the sound of cabinets opening and rummaging around fills the air. You smile to yourself, and shake your head at the mental image of Dazai becoming a tornado to find whatever he's looking for right now, hoping he doesn't make too much of a mess. You fidget with your hair, twirling it in between your fingers as you take a deep grounding breath while you wait.

A moment later, he comes back with what seems like art supplies and a ton of mini candlesticks.

He knows you're intrigued when you tilt your head in confusion, but then again that's probably just the confusion... Dazai sets down two canvases along with the candles, flashing you a mischievous grin. If you couldn't process your feelings through words, art was always there! You look over the activities he's laid out for you both, awaiting his silver tongued explanation.

"You know when I want to be the little spoon but I don't say anything?"

You laugh softly, and nod.

"Mhm, you get all moody and weird."

He nods back, a half smile on his face as he rests his hands on his hips. He wants to tell you that the only reason he even knew such intimate luxuries is because you showed him that he's worthy of it, of being loved, but he doesn't say anything. He lets the sweet memories between you swim through his mind as fuel for the day he's trying to create for you. His voice sounds more like he's talking out loud now, lost in a thought..

"You make me moody and weird. You also make me want to grab your soft little face and just..."

He then snaps back to the moment, and his tone picks up.

"... But alas, there is no time to waste! Come, sit, I'll get the other things ready.~"

He zooms off to the kitchen, and your heart softens at how much he fusses over you, though you also hope you aren't being too much. You know he'd hate to hear that, so you simply sit down and look over the supplies you had honestly forgotten you had.

Dazai makes tea, because he knows it helps with your fidgeting and you like how the mug feels in your hands, he also begins to set the candle sticks all over the living room, lighting them one by one. You flash him a look of faint concern.

"Feels like Dracula's castle. You sure this is safe, Osamu?"

He simply grins impishly.

"It's called 'mood lighting', cutie. There is an atmosphere to be created!"

"Yeah, and possibly a wildfire."

"Boo, you're no fun. Besides, that sounds like a problem for future us. We live in the moment."

Dazai would never risk your safety and you know that, which is why you don't push the topic any further.

You two settle in, the candles illuminating you both with a warm flame that feels more comforting than you'd like to admit, you feel yourself becoming more immersed in the random little doodles and brush strokes you create as you both talk for hours about literally nothing while sipping on your tea. Nothing feels nice, for once and Dazai can see it in the way you slowly become less and less tense. So mindful, so beautiful.

After you fill your canvas, you set it down, and peer over at Dazai's.

"What'd you paint?"

He smiles sheepishly, and hides his.

"Not finished yet. No peeking!"

He stands up and in one swift motion, runs outside, while leaving you bewildered at the spontaneity of the situation. A few moments later, he runs back inside, huffing with his arms behind his back. He sits back down on the floor with you, criss crossed. He grabs his canvas, and puts something on it as he slowly unveils his work to you.

It's a single crisp leaf he must have plucked from the grass when it fell, the orange and reddish hue placed on the canvas that shows a cartoonishly painted tree as well. He murmurs, eyes trained lovingly on you but with that familiar playful tone.

"I wanted you to get a little air. It's good for one's mood, you know."

You slowly take the leaf, and twiddle it in your thumb as you begin to smile to yourself. You mutter back.

"The weather changes, moods change, it's so overwhelming sometimes..."

He slowly leans in a little closer and places a hand on the small of your back, inching you closer to him too. He wants to distract you from those thoughts affecting you, but it's getting harder when all he can think about is how much you affect him. He whispers.

"My mood never changes, you're the most precious thing I have ever seen all year round."

You look up at him, your eyes communicating what you feel, and he picks up on it with a silent confirmation. You hold each other's gaze for a long quiet moment and when you feel ready you lean into his chest, nuzzling into him. He envelops you in a hug that feels like the remedy you've been searching for this whole time, and it almost brings you to tears. You don't know it also does the same to him. He gives you a soft squeeze and leans down to your ear, his warm breath feeling like the way life is supposed to feel. You mumble, your voice slightly muffled against him.

"Thank you, Osamu. Love you."

He smiles at that. To be something so soothing to you, to be of use for once in his life, it's a feeling that he could never describe. He'll have to find the words when he covers you in kisses from head to toe later, when he makes sure you feel the full extent of his devotion to you through thick and thin. He exhales deeply.

"Change of season, change of mind... It doesn't matter to me. It's still you. It will always be you."

[laurasbailey]

I’m old. I’m satisfied. And you were my purpose.

THE LAST OF US LONG, LONG TIME (1x03)

[sunny-and-the-flowers]

hey, remember that conversation we have about what boomer listened to. Do you think he listens to man at work because i saw a lot of edits of him with that song and i think it suits him.

[pushing500]

Hello, me again X'D Just finished reading through the Children of Ecthuctu (god, choosing a favorite is difficult...I think the starting three are up there, though, Bella and Vasso in particular) and it was a lot of fun as well, though I do find it kinda sad that Vasso got to be a sanguophage but without the fun part (surviving the rim as one. the amount of shenanigans hemogenic pawns can get up to, especially with VRE...). I can now wait for the updates on our favorite mechanitors with a clear conscience and lots of impatience (no pressure of course, take it at your own pace, I'll be there)

Looking forward to Kwahu opening an all-out orphanage while Mechi lurks in his research shack X'D

Vasso and Bella are a lot of fun! I bet they're causing all sorts of mischief on whatever planet they ended up on.

I was also very sad that I didn't get to play with Vasso's sanguophage powers, but I've got "sanguophage" written down on my list of potential next colonies after I'm done with Mechi and Kwahu. I'll definitely have to do another poll to choose between them all. There are too many fun ideas, lmao.

Never fear, though! Mechi and Kwahu's story looks a long way away from ending yet. We haven't even got the first piece of the Archonexus map, so there's a long way to go and a lot more to look forward to. <3

[queeenpersephone]

rules: make a poll of your favorite ships and see which your followers like the most. (thanks for tagging me @jeaanmoreau this is super fun!)

did my rarer ships because i know msr or rose x doctor would destroy everyone else lmao (also this made me realize i tend to either ship completely normal ships or completely unhinged, nothing in between)

tagging (if you want!):

@themorganapendragon, @katebishopofearth, @littlemsstark3000, @limnsaber, @baronessblixen

@orchestrated-chaos, @swinging-stars-from-satellites, @euphcme, @bornmuggle, @forever-and-almost-always

[bellcza]

i saw your tags and remembered this…..

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeAjyYmq/

I DIDN’T REALIZE THERE WAS AN ACTUAL EDIT WITH THE SONG FUCK ;_____;

[threebooksoneplot]

Thoughts on the latest midnight sun:

yeah we've been laughing about this nonstop for 48 hours

[big-idiot-wolf-boys]

jake/bella headcanons???? pls???

Hoe about some late summer/early autumn vibes for our favorite pair??

There is a drive in theater about 2 hours away from Forks. Bella and Jake load the back of Bellas truck up with pillows and blankets (and snacks snuck in under the blankets). They take the long drive and commit to a double feature at the theater, backed into the parking spot, sharing the blankets in the bed of the truck for warmth. The stars twinkle overhead, the vintage corded speaker hanging over the side of the truck blaring the movie's score so loud they don't even have to whisper to heckle the movie

One of the farms past city limits sets up a hay maze, complete with scare actors dressed like scarecrows ready to jump out at passersby. Bella's unphased, she's seen far worse than a raggedy scarecrow. But Jake? Who would have guessed that he would be so jumpy? He claims it was more due to anxiety surrounding losing his sense of direction, but the scare actors would disagree.

For Bella's birthday, Jake arranges a surprise bonfire party in La Push. He collects pine branches fallen from a recent storm. Billy and Charlie provide snacks on a large fold out table Charlie borrowed from the diner. A cooler is filled with sodas for all the attendees, but Jake keeps two aside, warm like they're used to drinking in the garage. Bella hates surprises, and parties, but its really not that different from the other weekends out there, so she lets it slide. Until gift giving time comes, and she lets out a dramatic groan and protests. She's rendered nearly speechless when Jake gives her a beautiful handmade cutting board, and instructions on how to take care of it.

[kaleidoscopeminds]

aw hell yeah hit me 🐮 xoxo bella

hell yes hi bella 🥰 some vibes for u

send me a 🐮 for a pinterest moodboard

[theicarusconstellation]

HI HI HI PLS SHARE YOUR JEGULUS THOUGHTS RN !!!! are we thinking about aus or headcanons or happy things or quotes or your fics??? or all of the above? tell me everything 🫶

HI BELLA HI BELLA

i am so in love with domestic and though i burn, how could i fall? jegulus and they are all that has been on my mind recently. them and their little baby girl [name redacted]😭

like. james listening to the baby’s heartbeat because he’s a god with enhanced hearing. regulus calling her “little star.” him putting his hand over where she is and james putting his hand on top of his and they just😭feel her and talk to her😭and sing to her😭and james (being apollo) composes his own piece that highlights regulus’ countertenor and his baritone in a duet and regulus plays his lyre😭and it gets to the point that once their baby is born she only goes to sleep when they sing to her😭and she only stays asleep when regulus holds her against his chest so that she can hear his heartbeat😭

and you know that regulus refuses to let go of her.

“regulus baby you’ve got to put her down so she can learn to nap by herself”

“👹ÑŒ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️👹”

god they’re just SO SWEET😭and they really just. they go THROUGH it. but once they’re out of all the angst, they end up with the sweetest life, and their little girl is so, so loved, and i just cannot wait to write it all <333

[wildpeachfarm]

if it helps anons i had to read a political science study that focused on interacting with content and for the study they chose facebook rather than twitter because only 23% of the general public uses twitter. so they don’t feel it accurately represents the general public to take samples for studies on engagement with political content from there. so just remember how deeply twitter is not real life.

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[edwardsvirtue]

Okay... but... an AU where it's Edward deciding between Bella and Jacob! There is no Jake in Twilight--that part is easily cut.

When Edward left Bella and his family in NM, he found a new found family with a pack of werewolves. It's there he finds healing, not only from heartbreak but from his self-hatred. For he sees himself in this beautiful boy struggling with his own inner monster. And if Edward could love him... if Edward could see the good in him...

He would have to leave Jake when he found out Bella was trying to hurt herself back in Forks.

Bella is not ready to forgive him, but she clearly can't be without him. He's torn as he has to linger, for her sake. But for Jake's sake, he should go back to the wolves... after all, she doesn't really want him anymore.

Until she does.

And he realizes he still loves her. Just when he thinks of ending things with Jake, the wolves come to Forks to help with the Newborn problem, not for Bella, but for Edward.

And as Edward is forced to decide who holds his heart, Victoria is lurking, asking herself the same question. For, she will kill one for retribution!! And either way, it's lose/lose!!

now THIS is the kind of love triangle drama I can get behind!

one thing I know about edward is that he has 2 moods: "this is the happiest I have ever been" or "I am a miserable monster full of self-hate who deserves no happiness whatsoever." so for edward to go through the experience of ALMOST finding love and happiness and healing, only to lose it all, not once but twice (first with bella, then with jake), puts him at the lowest of lows. he does not deserve to keep either one of them, because he is constantly putting them both in danger.

but maybe... bella and jacob deserve each other. after all, they are the most beautiful and deserving souls edward has ever known (he is such a simp), all he wants is for them to be happy.

so edward hatches his stupidest scheme yet. as they work together to take out victoria and the newborn army, edward is trying to play matchmaker with bella and jake, all along secretly planning to take himself out of the equation as soon as everyone is safe again. (maybe he's just going to leave and hide somewhere, or maybe he's desperate enough to go to the volturi, idk.) the only problem is that bella and jake CAN'T STAND each other; we know they both have possessive and jealous personalities, so they can only see each other as rivals vying for edward's affection. but what happens when they find out about edward's plan to leave them? maybe they can find common ground? maybe all three of them can heal and learn to love themselves... together??

[edwardsdeathcabcd]

Omg yes finally someone else whos an autistic bella believer LOL. Im reading twilight for the first time and im on new moon. Im autistic and find Bella to be really relatable at times and honestly hate that so many people dislike her because she seems a bit awkward but ive always seen it as shes autistic. What made you also come to this realization?

I don't know if there was a specific thing that made me realize Bella can easily be read that way, I'm not sure if it's something I came to on my own or if I just saw others online point it out and agreed with that take? I think I just have a tendency to notice autistic traits in a lot of characters I like, it gives me a new lens to analyze her character & relate to her through. Or maybe it's just projection lol

It wasn't a headcanon I had when I watched the movies, but a lot of the way she's characterized in the books just really stood out to me, I was surprised at how much more relatable I found her in the books. It's especially apparent to me when the other characters are making comments about her behaviour that she's not conscious of, like Edward in midnight sun making note of her constant fidgeting. Also beyond her behaviour, she thinks a lot about how she constantly feels like she's observing her peers' teenage behaviour from the outside and how she's not in the mood to be human, and it's meant as a nod to her being Destined To Be A Vampire (She's Not Like The Other Girls) but thoughts like that really resonated with how I felt about my own peers a lot of the time. I think Bella's inclination toward the supernatural can be read metaphorically as a lot of different things (which is why I also like queer readings of twilight).

idk, it just makes sense to me! it's just about her vibes. I see weird girl I say Oh You're Going To Be My Favourite and then I hit her with the autism beam.

[fuckmeyer]

this idea is plaguing me, I’d love to know your thoughts! so renesmee develops, but bella doesn’t, therefore the best case scenario is mommy issues from hell, in which bella eternally views her daughter as the unborn child whose life depends on her… please feel free to ignore this if you need to stay in the eclipse headspace!

hi bestie! thanks for the q, very intriguing :)

this is another one of those questions that really boils down to the fandom debate: "what does it mean to be 'mentally frozen?'"

the Illustrated Guide says:

One facet of the absence of aging is that vampires do not develop emotionally or mentally past the age at which they are transformed. A transformed child would remain childlike forever, unable to mature in any aspect.

it also says:

Once they fall in love, that feeling never fades.

to me, this implies that external forces/bonds can change a vampire but internal processes cannot. i subscribe to the idea that even if a vampire can't mature in the biological sense, their experiences still provide them with a way to mature

for example, though he retains the emotional immaturity of a 17-year-old, we see Edward learn he has a soul through his connection with Bella. if you subscribe to the theory that vampires through their bonds & experiences can change, you might think Edward will, from this point on, believe he has a soul. in that way, vampires can grow & develop, even if they can't really develop.

how does this apply to Bella?

first off, girl has a lot of fuckin baggage. not only did she spend the last few weeks of her human life (& the first few months of her vamp life) fighting for her daughter's life, but she never overcame her childhood trauma of having to care for everyone in her life. the hill Bella needs to climb to overcome all this is steeper than Sisyphus'. baseline, she will always consider Ravioli as a child who must constantly be protected from a world that wants to kill her. (though she may have good reason considering Rotolo's existence may have kicked off a cold war with the Volturi lol whoops.) to me, that is less a result of the conditions of her change & more a result of how Bella emotionally developed as a person.

if you subscribe to the theory that a vampire's relationships can change them, her bond with Rigatoni may evolve as her daughter does. that relationship might be the only way Bella can experience permanent internal growth. in the theory stated above, we might see Bella getting past her "my unborn child needs me" mentality, though i could see her having a more difficult time ever getting over her parentification.

her ability to get over this trauma will also depend on what the future holds for the Cullens. i.e., if the Volturi return to whoop some vegetarian ass, Bella doesn't really have the mental/emotional space to give up her protective caretaker trait.

moving on. some in the fandom believe that mentally frozen means mentally frozen. sure, they can fall in love, but all that means is they're in love, not that they learn anything from being in love. going back to the Edward example, we may have seen Edward "learn" he has a soul, but post-BD we would see him return to his depressive, "soulless" state.

applied to Bella: she will never overcome her parentification regardless of how Ragù develops. lil baby will always need protection from others, will always be a lil baby, will always be in mortal danger. Bella is a fucking eternal helicopter parent. yikes, girl

BONUS: ultimate lol would be Bella being CONVINCED Ravioli is trans because in the weeks leading up to the birth she was sure Ravioli was a boy. trans!Resume fanfic WHEN

[episodes-without-incident]

They may not have referenced cats for a while but lemme tell you being named Bella during the past month-ish of drawfee while they work through the twilight movies has been JARRING

I CAN IMAGINE I love that they decided they needed a new movie to make jokes about for four years, and I love that that movie accidentally ended up being Twilight of all things.

It also reminds me of the episode where they chose a random name and explained all of their jokes in detail to them. Got to be one of my favorite Drawfee bits.