#thank you again nonny!!! this was genuinely so sweet n amazing to read

[dadsbongos]

praise to oxy for reblogging you because I have become obsessed with your writing, the variations on minimum wage Laios im so in love with him getting to cum on and off the clock 💞

hehehe thank you so much!!!

big praise 2 @toxycodone genuinely such an inspiration to me writing-wise. he captures every character so well (laios to kabru to chilchuck to chimera falin), always managing to write them in a new angle i never even considered before but find absolutely enthralling!

and like, this is gonna sound so weird, but i'm genuinely so motivated by the horny status(TM). not to sound like a puritan but it's strangely freeing to be like "yeah if i post my full freak there's gonna be an audience" cuz his writing is so immersive and sensational

(i got excited to talk about oxy heh :3 i'm so normal)

also @hhoneyhams has a minimum wage laios fic that's so so good also very yummy

[screampied]

hi vegas how are u!!!!!! i was curious, are there any fics (like porn WITH plot kinda fics) that you would DIE ON A HILL for? i've been on this fanfic kick lately and after reading every single one of ur DELICIOUS works i need more!!! love u and ur writing sm i hope you have the best day/night <3

hi nonnie im doing okay !!!! i hope you’re doing well also 🙂‍↕️🫵 ack ur so sweet thank u sm u too :’) FUCK YEAHHHHHH. i probably don’t have many but i can name a few of my fav pwp driven fics for yew !!!!

AU REVOIR, O HEAVEN by @satoruhour is literally chef’s kiss. noooo joke reading that entire fic from start to end was like i was watching a movie. YOU GOTTA READ IT. veryyyy immersive, and there’s a follow up part two which tops the cake !!!!! this is literature right here mmmngh

DYING FOR YOUR LOVE by @staryukis was an INSANEEEE READ. i love a good zombie! au ‘n if ur into stuff like that this is totally up your alley. also the ANGST IS TOP TIER. i genuinely read this in one sitting and it DIDNT DISAPPOINT. logan has a masterlist i believe for more works like these id rec also !!!!

HEARTSTRINGS & BULLETS by @sttoru IS A MUST READDDDD. i literally got hooked on the first chapter, the tension build up is amazing. toji ‘n reader getting introduced to each other — the difference in personalities, I LOVED IT. literally once you start, it’s immersive and the flow is YUM. again, also felt like i was watching a movie / netflix show. karina also has a masterlist for this series i’d rec checking out for more !!!

FIVE HUSBANDS by @kingkonoha are you kidding. the way the endings of each chap would have me off the edge of my SEAT. this is an attack on titan! au and i think tay said it’s based off the book ‘the seven husbands of evelyn hugo’. this series is soooooooo good, i literally live for the drama. it’s completed, and i can’t wait to give it a reread bc it’s AMAZING.

these are all i can think from the top of my head for now !!! 🏌️‍♀️

[goldenkirstein]

hello raf!!! first off, I wanna say that I love your blog and your fics. tysm for sharing them with us you are incredibly talented!

second, do you have other blog/moot recommendations for users who write for jean x reader? I wanna follow all of you you're all so amazing!

only if you can! :) have a nice night!

hi nonnie !! ty for the kind words!! yes i do, some of these are my moots, some are not but regardless they are all incredibly talented writers. there are so so so many writers that have jean fics, but i chose these ones because they have more than a few jean x reader !! these are also just based on my preferences, so if there is a writer not included here, i apologize !!

Please read all of these authors rules/dni’s as ik a few of them interact or post dark content and are 18+ blogs !! respect writers and their rules !!

@whats-her-quirk - what can i say that hasn’t been said, literally the reason i write on here and responsible for the first jean x reader fic i ever read, i love june. Absolutely phenomal, so fucking cool and talented. her writing makes me happy, to put it simply.

my fave fic: midnight ride & below freezing

@jean-does-not-have-a-horseface - the username speaks for itself, again i read her fics when i still was a ghost blog so i am quite sentimental lol, i think she might be working on a jean rockstar au series, im not sure tho, but regardless just a super talented writer !!

my fave fic: sketches of you

@welcometotheclubhoe - jay, oh my god, i love them and their blog, all of their jean fics are so. fucking. amazing. like chef’s kiss, have me sweating, screaming and crying, genuinely need to take a five minute break to walk around my room and contemplate the meaning of life. so yeah, jay’s a jeanius (shhhh i know its cringe)

@bakugohoex - a fellow jean simp, ria is not only the sweetest but just so fucking good at writing jean, fluff, angst and smut, her brain is so big because she’s responsible for one my favourite jean series and playlist tbh ahem:

my fave fic: stay & put on a show

@mikaberries - Mika is also one of the first aot writer blogs I followed, I found her first on tiktok and then followed here. super fucking talented, idk how she does it tbh. also just an all around good person and very sweet, I have nothing but respect and praise for her and her work.

my fave fic: innocent & car quickie

my fave fic: unrequited series

@fiaficsxo - i love fia and her writing, she is so talented and just an absolute gem. she also happens to be another fellow jean simp, which i love ffhkjhg. but fr her jean smut leaves me sweating. 

my fave fic: jersey girl

@seraphdreams - title of blog: jean love club. thats it. what more can i say. ceo of jean simping and being just remarkable, like honestly, seraph was the first one who popped into my mind when i read ur ask nonnie. do me a favour and read all of their jean fics, you will become enlightened.

my fave fic: mornings w/ jean & face sitting

@alert-arlert - genuinely adore ryn, for their writing and their presence here, i really love their headcanons for jean and honestly aside from fics, i really do get happy when i see them on my dash, coolest person ever omg, follow them for the vibes and the amazing writing

my fave fic: jean relationship hc’s & nsfw alphabet

@odmlevis: riz my loveeeee, so talented and so amazing, top notch writing and top notch person, i admire her so much, made me fall in love with fuckboy jean what more can i sayyyyy

my fave fic: jean + friends to lovers & falling in love w/ fuckboy jean

@dancingazaleas - crazy fucking talented, i cannot believe that i can just go to their blog and read for free. like i astral projected when i first read their work, transcended planes, i was dr. strange for like three minutes, thats what sorrels writing did to me. so go forth nonnie, unlock the secrets of the universe.

my fave fic: primrose & obedience (includes eren n mikasa)

@jarmeen: i love jas, they are sooooooo cool and their writing is just next level. just a super sweet individual, and helloooo read the title of their blog, and then read it again because they are right and everyone should go read their works !!

my fave fic: see you again

@valxeren: dilf jean. thats it. two words. deserves the nobel prize just for writing those fics, tbh tht shit changed my life, i was wandering my dashboard lost and unmotivated and then val graced me with dilf jean and im a better person now

my fave fic: clandestine

@kirschtienz: aman makes me happy, i love her, and her writing so much, if i were to choose a piece of writing to hug, it would be hers. i could go for days just praising her and still wouldn’t be enough, like the way she writes is just incredible

my fave fic: frats with benefits

@emepe: i thought to myself one day, hmm it would be nice to have friends to lovers fics for jean, and then tumblr said raf, baby, let me show u something and they pointed me towards mimi and said here is the answer to all your prayers. idk how to thank tumblr but fr only two chapters in and IM HOOKED. go read nonnie, goooo.

my fave fic: you and me and nothing more (includes eren)

i have realized that a good handful of these are smutty bshdsbhbf sorry not sorry. again, im so sorry if i missed anyone these are the writers that i could think of at the moment, and if you yourself are a writer then know that i love you and respect youuuu !!

happy reading nonnie :)

[seijorhi]

asks :))

what i have learned today is that y’all wanna get fucked by some monsters...

What does nostos mean? What language is it in? 🤔 also I of course loved it, mind blown as usual queen

it’s ancient greek! it means homecoming, the idea of a triumphant return home for the hero after a long journey. i found it through looking at the root of nostalgia. in this fic of course it’s kind of a grim tongue in cheek play on it. the reader’s coming back to the mountains, but she’s running away after a bad breakup, and the welcome she gets is... shall we say less than ideal haha

Just read nostos-

First of all as a person who reads monster shit- hell ya. Mhm. That’s some good shit right there. That was DELICIOUS horror. It actually had me a bit nervous and afraid to read what was gonna happen next 😳

Secondly- omg I wanna know what happened next (at the end) 👀 know what I mean??? 😼

ANYWAY AS ALWAYS you never disappoint and your writing is fantastic (if/when you write horror yandere stuff again I’ll be there- frothing at the mouth. A+++++ work ILY💖)

you want me to write the monster porn, just say it bby ghfjdkshgfjkd but ty

Omfg that fic was so good!

Did the readers mom know about monster kuroo?? Or was she just worried because of the previous murder? And did Kuroo somehow manipulate reader into coming back to the forest or was it just a big coincidence? (👁👄👁 there's no such thing as a coincidence)

Looking forward to your future work <3

ty nonnie!! i didn’t have the right space for it, but after kohsuke was ripped apart and eaten kuroo stayed by the reader’s side until late in the night, only disappearing when he heard the reader’s parents/search party approaching. they found her lying in pools of blood (and scattered half eaten body parts), shaking and unresponsive – they knew no animal could’ve done something like that. so they knew something lurked in those woods, but considering the reader had repressed the memories, her mom couldn’t just come out and say it <33

You are an AMAZING horror writer!!!

The uneasiness I got from the conversations with the mom is just *chefs kiss*

A+++++

ahh thank you!! horror is such a hard genre to write because i’m never sure if the suspense and everything’s gonna hit right haha

I read Nostos before going to sleep last night and at the time I was like “sure hope this doesn’t give me nightmares” and thankfully it didn’t lol. But I think I’m willing to take that chance again because it’s so GOOD and I think I’m just going to have to relive it – @ohno-otome

fhdjgbfhjkdfn i’m glad it didn’t give you nightmares bby!! but i also appreciate that haha, i’m an absolute wimp with scary movies and stuff but i just can’t stop watching them haha

I just wanna say that I was listening to "You're a psychotic villain playlist" on youtube while reading Kuroo's oneshot and I can't explain the emotions I felt, but I'd let Kuroo do things to me asdfghjkl – @itishebihime-samaforyou

ooh nice! sometimes the right playlist makes things doubly as fun haha

OH MY GOD!?!?! Nostos was soooo GOOD?!?!? Like it was so creepy (but in a good way), and scary and suspenseful!! And the ending!?!? Omggg honestly one my fav fics from you!! You did my mans Kuroo justice 🥺💖💕

TYYYYYYY i was genuinely concerned i was gonna scare everybody off haha

Ah! The new fic! Chiefs kiss! Magnificent! Bravo!🧚‍♀️✨🧞‍♀️🦖🦭🌹💫

tysm nonnie!!! <33

i’m pretty sure i’m in the same/similar timezone as you? and i do be staying up late to be one of the first to read your fics (i usually stay up late anyways). so imagine my surprise when i see you post in the afternoon. in conclusion, whether you post to align with your european and american readers’ timezone, my gmt+10 arse will still be one of the first to read your fics. also nostos sjdufigyyjf i have to admit, i recently just found out about monster fucking and nostos scratched the itch😫 i feel bad for kohsuke though

bby i always post at like 2-4 in the morning please get some sleep!! the fics will be there in the morning lmao. i kinda low key forget about my aussie/gmt+10 followers because i think there’s like... 3 of you haha

Honestly if i could give u a dollar everytime i got off to your fics, you'd probably be rich by now

lmao the idea that people find my fics hot enough to get off to still blows my mind lol

your newest kuroo fic was so SO good!! its totally okay if you dont want to answer this so you can keep things ambiguous but is monster kuroo planning on killing the reader after he's...done with them

thank you, bby!! but no, monster kuroo isn’t gonna eat her – he’s had plenty of chances to do that if that’s what he wanted, but he has other plans for the poor reader

RHI, I WANT TO STATE FOR THE RECORD THAT I AM OKAY WITH MORE MONSTER FUCKING IN THE FUTURE. i also want to say im not a monster fucker, but that just feels like a lie at this point. okay, now that that's off my chest, i love it. the mystery, the connections of kuroo to a cat. kuroo's probably gonna go and batter around his prey once they're under his grip like my cat does. hopefully the reader will come out somewhat unscathed, if they are ever allowed to leave 😌 love this, love how different it is, the way kuroo just tries to weasel in. very monster and yandere vibes, very you. have i said i love this yet?? id willingly let him get me drunk on his cock, maybe never leave the peace of the mountains again

‘i want to say that i’m not a monster fucker’ bby the denial will get you nowhere haha. just lean in and embrace it hgfjkdlkfgjnkdl ahh but thank you this is such a sweet ask ILY!!!

Omg omg the monster thing kuroo was in ur latest fic is so familiar to me abdhdmfnjfjf. I remember being told abt a monster with VERY SIMILAR characteristics to it (aka the not being able to go inside a house unless invited and using fire to lure ppl out) AND JFC IT TERRIFIED ME. Esp how when i told ppl around me and they didnt recognize what it was, but it was somehow known to the kid that told me abt it.

(Some ppl thought it was familiar but still didnt know what it was)

Do u know what im talking abt? Hopefully u do

-🥚

GHFJDK so the monster in this is kind of based off the nekomata spirit in japanese folklore - they can appear like people, torment victims by reanimating the corpses of their loved ones, they’ve been blamed for forest fires, so it was just fun to use that as a basis and then go buck wild haha. anyway thanks for the ask bby!

Rest In Peace Kohsuke, you would’ve loved Haikyuu season 5😔✊– @joyvstheworld

poor kohsuke deserved better, i’m just mean to the oc’s i throw into fics haha

Monsterfucking ❤❤❤❤❤❤ a little annoyed you're making me simp for yan Kuroo though (a vibe tho tbh). You're so extremely talented!!!! &

This is probably a stupid question, but how did Kageyama react when he couldn't find y/n? How is life with yan Suga? I imagine probably awful BUT yknow maybe the stockholm syndrome set in fast lmao. Sorry, I'm going on a binge reading your stuff. - @oracleofdin

i will not apologise for making you simp for kuroo he deserves it the man’s a snacc. and as far as your second question, suga’s a very caring, very smothering kinda yandere, so i guess in some ways it’s better than what the reader had with kageyama but... pick your poison haha

That was so good. I’m so shook rn I can’t comprehend anything but how good that was and how good a writer you are

TYSM NONNIE!!! <33

Ok, so, I just read Final Girl and the lil' ticket addition to it and just---

Well, ok I've been playing Dead by Daylight a lot lately? And I'm just picturing Tetsu as the newest killer "The Trickster" and I'm positively RANDY.

Your writing is ALREADY thirst inducing and just as satisfying, but this has SENT ME- If you're not familiar, please...

https://youtu.be/iowkiPobYYQ

Understand my thirst. (I'd also like to clarify, I use a different skin for him that gives him black hair and he looks like Kuroo with an undercut.)

~ @the-casual-hedonist 🌸

i love how feral y’all got for final girl kuroo. like bo and akaashi had his fans, but i put a spiked bat in kuroo’s hands and y’all lost your goddamn minds and i love to see it. fghdjkvhfjdkls thanks for the ask bby

idk why but I love preggo reader as long as I don't pretend it's me 😢✋ I hate babies n pregnancy anywhere else other than horny haikyuu fics

i think that’s a valid thing for a lot of fans. the idea of breeding is sexy, the actual getting pregnant and having a kid thing... not so much. but especially with non-con scenario’s, it’s more about the aspect on control than the actual desire to have kids. but yeah, i feel you

Sorry to bother but uh was just wondering in fracture did Osamu kill his wife or was it actually an “unfortunate event” ? Love your work btw!!

he most certainly did :))

LMFAO RHI i totally get not liking cheating/infidelity fics (towards reader) bc IT HIRTS ME SO BAD I CANNOT HANDLE THOSE.

id be reading fics those fics like: tf you mean my yandere aimt gonna baby me and only want me??🤨🤨🤨⁉️‼️

EXACTLY! listen i get that it’s a fucked up fantasy, but in my fucked up fantasy you damn well better have the decency to be loyal smh

Finders keepers is the most beautiful thing I've read by you: I read it twice like I normally do and here's what I figured out the second time (that's when I analyze it and find the little tidbits of things that are much darker than they appear (: )

To start I LOVE THE DETAILS OF THEM NEVER TEACHING READER ANYTHING- at first I assumed "oh they might see her as a little sister or child or something" but realized thAT WAS THE ISSUE!! they infantilize her and isolate her from everyone but her group. the small details like that are what make the story amazing 😎💅

ahh thank you so much, nonnie!! pls this is making me soft 🥺

I just wanted to stop by and say that I love your writing and I hope you're doing well!!! Drink plenty of water and keep up the amazing work :) but seriously you're one of the best fanfic writers I've seen on tumblr! I read your "Imitation" piece about kuroo and i keep coming back to it, it's so good! I did want to ask if you think it'd be possible for the reader to ever escape with the baby (or at least attempt to). Or if Kenma would "help" at all just to put an end to kuroo's antics lmao

kenma would in no way help the reader, and tbh by that point if kuroo did get her pregnant, she’d be far too emotionally dependant on him to actually even want to leave, but thanks for the ask!

You know who I think would be a perfect Yandere in the JJK world? Choso.

🚨Spoilers Ahead🚨

After being locked in a glass jar for however long he was, and all that happened with his brothers, I feel like he would absolutely never let his darling out of his sight. He would be possessive. Obsessive. And Oh So delusional. Sure he’d be your anything - he truly is a softy - but to what end?🤤

choso would make an excellent yandere, ngl 😌

what au/troupe of your fav character(s) that you have written do you like the most?

(rlly hope this makes sense🙏)

i am always a slut for soulmate au’s :))

[mirclealignr]

alright dudes. I’m emotional, what can i say? it’s post lady time and coming back here with all the positivity you’re giving me it’s GOD DAMN it gets to me. And guys i do NOT appreciate you all enough. so freaking watch me. b l o o d y watch me.

ready? coz this is gonna be big and probably hella annoying for all of y’all but watch me do it anyway

ALRIGHT LETS BEGIN!

@approved-by-dentists Clarissa god dammit. I freaking love you dude. You’re god damn hilarious and you brighten my day. I’m not even kidding. I LOVE YOU 😡💘 your writing is perfect, your beta reading is to die for, you are ✨ amazing ✨

@im-a-writer-right Ria i love you. You’re my affectionate drinking buddy and one day, we will be in sync. you’re so freaking supportive and i love it. Your shit posts are hilarious and gah you’re so funny. I love your writing and you’re hella goofy and i live for it.

@dreamer821 jesus did someone say the sweetest piece of pie? because good lord that is what you are! Girl i am here to remind you of how amazing you are no matter how much i gotta say it. I love you and appreciate you AND your incredible writing sweetie!

@firewhisky-kisses omg ITS YOUR NUMBER 1 FAN HYPING YOU UP! bruh, talk about an underrated blog. I can’t even like? bruh i bloody love you and the positivity you spread. your FO DAMN reblogs give me life!!!!!

@remibarnes22 hey sweetie! been a while but i love you and your chaotic energy! god damn you’re soooo sweet!!! ily girl! 🥺

@kitkatd7 boo, ily! your writing? chefs kiss. You’re so sweet and supportive and UGH you’re amazing!!!!! basically for me, you were there from the beginning and i can’t thank you enough!

@masterofthedarkness hey boo :))) you’re just the sweetest little thing with these huge bursts of chaos and i bloody love for it! you’re like that mom friend who’s hilarious and ends up in the shit with all her friends anyway. Ugh anyway, i adore you and you’re writing and you’re growing 🥺 as you should be!

@leahstypewriter omg boo, we’re new to talking but you seem freaking AWESOME! gah i can’t wait to learn more about you! and your writing is incredible you need and deserve way more credit for that!

@potterverseimagine BOO omg you’re so awesome! gah you’re like so supportive and positive and you make this community so much brighter! And your writing is so adorable like holy crap the fluff content is to die for!

@chaotic-fae-queen hey boo! gah i’ve been so flakey lately, sorry bout that! but omg i love you and how the heck you balance all your writing and original ideas and fandoms and uni is incredible! You are a m a z i n g! Ily sweets 💘

@dearspacepirates OMG my first tumblr friend. I love you honey, i’m rooting for you in the hollywood universe. SHUT IT DOWN WITH YOUR TALENT! can’t wait to see you on the big screen and walking those red carpets honey!

@harrysweasleys wth you’re so sweet and wholesome and i will never get over that. You’re writing talent is out of this world and I STAN! share the talent 🥺

@peachesandpinks HOLY GOD DAMN CRAP! this site would be darker without you. You’re just a little ray of sunshine and i can’t even 🥺 you and your writing are wonderful GAH! I LOVE YOU SWEETIE!

@lunar-nonnie to my nonnie who brightens my day with every interaction. I love you sweetie, MWAH! keep spreading that positivity!

- and i’m just gonna give some appreciation to all those that i don’t interact with as often but still appreciate.

@summer-writes you’re a god damn queen.

@summergoldenrze omg you’re so fun! i’m still waiting for us to get into Edinburgh.

@teheharrypotter you seem god damn awesome! like hella living for your energy, i love it!

@lupins-sweater omg you’re so sweet! i love talking to you, it’s so engaging and interesting!

@with1love1anu god damn nothing can bring you down and i am here. for. it. you’re amazing and i love your supportiveness.

@bl597 you just don’t get enough credit for how sweet and talented you are!

@cap-n-stuff haven’t talked a lot but you seem amazing!!! from what i’ve read of yours, it doesn’t stop there! QUEEN!

@eleven-times-lively hey :) i don’t think we’ve hardly talked apart from on the gc but hi i appreciate you <3

@kalimagik you’re so talented what the actual heck??!?!??

@fablesrose omg hey boo! you’re awesome and i love seeing you on my dash <3

@johnmurphyisbisexual hey!!! you’re so positive and i hope no one ever gives you a reason not to be! you are amazing and never forget it :)

@iliveiloveiwrite hiiii! it’s been a while but omg i love your writing! i know i’ve been behind, but i will not waste anytime catching up! QUEEN!

@lokis-amazing-fighting-skills eheheh hello!!! i love your writing and i adore talking to you! gah you’re so fun to talk to 🥺

@marauderswhisperer boo! hey girl hey! how are you hunny? been a little while! don’t ever forget that you are incredible and your writing is amazing, sweetie <3

@hufflefluff-writer omg you’re amazing wth? writing, personality, vibe, aesthetic, all of it. I love it!!!!!!

@parker-potters we don’t talk a whole lot but i appreciate you and love seeing when you’ve tagged me in some of your amazing writing!

@mischiefsemimanaged HEY SWEETIE! i love you and stay strong and positive! I hope you continue to thrive, honey!

@nebulablakemurphy again, hello! really don’t think we’ve interacted much other than the gc, but! i’ve been meaning to binge your masterlist 🥺 ugh anyway, just- i appreciate you!

@slytherinquill HEY!! i’m getting to your series, i promise. Anyway, you’re awesome! genuinely amazing.

@mysterioustruffle you’re adorable and amazing and i stan. i freaking stan!

@theweasleysredhair screamed when you followed me. You’re amazing, your writing is impeccable. I god damn STAN!

@ickle-ronniekins never met anyone who can write this twins as wonderfully as you. It’s freaking amazing. AND YOURE SO SWEET!

@thou-crusty-batch-of-nature YOIRE SO SWEET AND DESERVE SO MUCH MORE CREDIT ILY!

@willowbleedsonpaper omg sweetie! you’re amazing, you’re so awesome! i love how sweet you come across, it’s wholesome.

@slytherinwriter618 omg boo! you’re so amazing, as is your writing (which so sorry i’m behind on) and ugh keep being WONDERFUL!

@emyyjemyy god damn you’re just a bundle of joy and i love wheneve we interact! you’re such a sweetie!

@poppin-potter ugh you seem like such a sweetie and aww so squishy 🥺 you’re amazing!

sorry for the hella long post and the spam but also i’m not. Ya’ll deserve more love and appreciation and i hope i’ve given you some! MWAH TO YOU ALL!

(i know i’ve missed some, just know if you’re reading this, i love you)

[sotheywrotestories]

I Love You Either Way

Request;

Weird request but could I please get a story where the reader is dealing with really bad scoliosis complications? Reader x herc if at all possible? Thank you!

-Nonnie

Pairings; Hercules Mulligan x Reader

Warnings; If scoliosis triggers you, I suppose this could be upsetting. Also some bullying.

PLEASE NOTE THAT I DO NOT HAVE ANY KNOWLEDGE ON SCOLIOSIS. I AM MAKING A STORY BASED OFF OF WHAT I DO KNOW. 

Summary; The reader has suffered from scoliosis her whole life. She was always bullied. But today would change that.

I’m not ashamed of it. It’s just a curve if my spine. And who is ashamed of how they look?

I really hope that you can read my sarcasm. 

I hate it. I hate it so much. I’ve had it for as long as I can remember, but I’ve learned to deal with it. 

The bullying on the other hand....

That too has been going on forever, but it still hurts. No matter who it’s from, or what they say. It hurts. 

I had this best friend. And, she was great. I mean, amazing. She was always there for me and she constantly told me not to worry about the rumors she was spreading about me. 

Except she was the one who was spreading them behind my back. 

That brings us to where we are now. Well, where I am now. Sobbing in the library.

“Hey, are you okay?” someone said.

I looked up to see a big guy standing there, awkwardly fiddling with his hands. I gave him a shy smile and wiped my eyes. 

“Yeah-yeah I’ m fine,” I lied.

“Are you sure?” he asked. “Those rumors are pretty nasty.”

“Oh, yeah. It’s no big deal,” I said with a fake smile.

The guy gave me a real genuine smile and turned around. I felt a little bit of disappointment growing in the pit of my stomach. I thought that maybe he’d stay. 

I was turning around to grab my stuff when he spoke up again. 

“Uh, hey,” he said nervously. “Would you like to eat lunch with us?”

“Uh, yeah. I’d love that.”

His group of friends was actually really nice, and he actually cared about how I felt. One of the girls looked at me weird at first. But it turned out she just wanted to know where I got my shirt, it’s evidently the “cutest thing she ever saw”.

It was nice to have actual friends.

I had actual fun hanging out with them. There Lafayette, who’s heavy accent made him had to understand but fun to listen to, then there was Alexander, who was very passionate about everything he said, his girlfriend Eliza, who was the sweetest cinnamon roll ever. Of course, there were her two sisters, Angelica who immediately acted like my own big sister, and Peggy, the one who loved my shirt. Oh, and John Laurens who overall just loves turtles. 

And of course, Hercules Mulligan. The tall shy guy who was incredibly loud.

And sweet. And sooooooo good looking. 

Yeah, I may or may not like Hercules, but he doesn’t like me back. 

Maybe I should just stay away. 

I still hung out with the group, but I was more and more distant as time grew on.  I talked to the girls daily, and occasionally I would talk to Alexander, but I didn’t talk very much to them at school.

The rumors got worse, and at first, I didn’t think the group cared. I sat down with tears on my face, and of course, Peggy asked about what happened. 

“I-It was Thomas. He was m-making fun of me again,” I sobbed.

I saw Alexanders face get red, and I was afraid that he was angry at me, and then he stormed off. 

“I-I didn’t mean to make him upset,” I cried harder, it suddenly became hard to breathe. 

Scoliosis already made it hard to breathe for me sometimes, and now crying made it even worse. 

“Hey, hey hey, he’s not mad at you,” Hercules said, scooting closer to me. “(Y/N), look at me.”

I looked over at him to see genuine concern in his eyes. 

“He’s not mad at you,” he repeated.

My breathing was still erratic.

“Okay, here. Can I touch you?” Hercules asked. 

I barely nodded. 

Hercules reached over and grabbed my shoulders with his hands.

“Pay attention to my breathing, okay?” he asked.

I nodded and focused on how fast he was breathing.  I tried to match it and after a while, I could breathe again.

“There you go, see? Alexander isn’t mad at you, he’s mad at Jefferson,” Hercules said and Peggy nodded along furiously. 

I stopped distancing myself from the whole group, but I was still hesitant about Hercules. At this point, it was just out of pure embarrassment. 

And it was happening again. Some rumors were being spread, but this time, they didn’t hesitate to do it around me. 

“FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST SHUT UP!” Hercules yelled. “There is nothing wrong with (Y/N). She’s amazing and the way she looks has nothing to do with it! She’s sweet and she has the best personality. She just shut up!”

Everyone looked at Hercules and then looked at me. I dropped my head and blushed. Once I could feel nearly everyone’s eyes off of me, I looked back up.

“I really like you (Y/N),” Hercules admitted.

And that was the start