#thank u theyre curing my depression :]

[ask-mrxmts]

//uhHh gunna go on a small hiatus due to not having internet+other (ill expln in the tags c/tw vent/rambling)

[ionozoned]

"Nyohoho, is that a CHALLENGE? Cuz I bet I could be way brattier if I tried! Nyahahaaa! It could be a HOT new tiktok trend." If that trend was getting your girlfriend to dump you as fast as possible. "JK JK. But you're totes magotes super cute too, k? And don't you dare forget it 'else I'll havta to SHOCK YA until you remember. Bzzzt!" She gave Roxie a very light pinch on the arm as if to simulate the aforementioned shocking.

She let out an excited "eeee" as Roxie pulled up some examples for her. She still didn't like the idea of conforming to normal fashion standards, but this stuff was super cute. She'd definitely have to work some of this into her outfits. Maybe one of those cute headbands with eyeballs on them? That would fit great with her stuff-

Her excited, spiraling thoughts were brought to an abrupt stop when Roxie chimed in with a final comment, and she gasped melodramatically. "PAUSE. REWIND!" Iono was soon back to her antics, lightly tugging on her girlfriend's arm with an expression that resembled a sad yamper pup. "You are SO MEAAANNN!!! I could TOTALLY pull off an epic Roxie cosplay if I tried! Your clothes are sorta baggy too, I could make it work! Hmmph!" She made a little pout before quickly moving on with a little laugh.

"You wanna come with BT Dubs? I can probs squeeze a plus one outta the production staff!" By which she means the could threaten to refuse to go unless they'd let her bring a date. Hopefully it wouldn't come to that though, management seemed pretty chill so she didn't foresee it being any sort of huge ordeal. If anything, the band would probably be even more excited to have Roxie attend than Iono, considering their whole emo style.

"You're lucky you're cute, you know that Iono? Cause the whole brat act is hard to work on me." Roxie had been trained in show business from a young age. She had tried to be an aspiring pokemon coordinator after all, before her family drove her passion into the ground. Iono was one of the few people she had openly trusted with that fact even.

While she didn't have any fashion magazines handy, most of her reading material was either boring novels, stuff she got from Shauntal as preview copies given she was a member of the league, and drafts of an autobiography she had started to pen but had stopped on multiple times, she did at least know the proper websites to scrounge through to get the info her girlfriend needed.

"This is all the basics on pastel goth. But there's still the option of going as me with a chest if you wanted." Roxie teased, always eager to see what Iono's overblown response to her suggestions would be.

[mousemannation]

thank u for the tag @clayvedevs :333

a little get to know me tag game!

1. Do you make your bed?

... no but in my defence i have a loft bed so its very difficult to do

2. Favourite number?

hmm 3, 4 and 7 r my favourite digits. im a big fan of i hashtag complex numbers. grahams number and tree(3) r fun, oh -1/12 is a classic, pi as well... gosh so sorry i am a mathspilled nerd so,,,

3. What's your job?

never had one hashtag disabled

4. If you could go back to school, would you?

i never finished high school and i have thought about trying (for the like fourth time) to get a hsc (high school certificate, there r ways to get an equivalent qualification for mature age students) but idk. im at TAFE for fashion/costume and i dont really need an hsc for that. i have thought about eventually going to uni for maths though, and i would definitely have to take an entrance exam for that since i dont have an hsc. i do qualify for loads of exceptions though so its not all losses (yay disability?)

5. Can you parallel park?

never tried (have driven a total of 8 hours)

6. Do you think aliens are real?

in some form, yeah

7. Can you drive a manual car?

see q5 (no)

8. Guilty pleasure?

hmm... i believe cringe is dead and i also do/interact with surprisingly little.. i guess maybe like blind boxes? i dont get them often but theyre so expensive so i do feel guilty every time i see a kirby one and cant resist.

9. Tattoos?

nay, although now that all my friends are getting them i have been thinking about it. its not like. really on the cards bc i cant make decisions for the life of me but if i could id be so basic and get an ouroboros. and probably a guinea pig.

10. Favourite colour?

sage green, marone

11. Favourite type of music?

i'll listen to most kinds of music but i definitely gravitate to like emo, post hardcore, rock- that sort of thing

12. Do you like puzzles?

like jigsaw puzzles or? i mean i like jigsaws and i also like other kinds of puzzles. always my go to genre of game. riddles and cryptic crosswords and escape rooms my beloved

13. Any phobias?

hmm well ive got social anxiety disorder but other than that i dont think so?

14. Favourite childhood sport?

i deliberately was on every sports team in primary school at least once (except cricket lol) bc i actually did enjoy sports, but the aforementioned anxiety disorder made actually pursuing that difficult. i also did dance, gymnastics, acrobatics and trampolining at some point during childhood. i do miss acro, that was the last extracurricular i did before i got mucho depressed and my life basically stopped circa 2016. the only sport ive ever followed as a fan is tennis!

15. Do you talk to yourself?

yes lol mostly in my head but also out loud sometimes. born to be a yapper fr

16. Tea or coffee?

im a tea truther (earl grey with soy milk !!!!) and also a bubble tea fiend, BUT i will fuck up a mocha (or an iced coffee with enough milk and sugar to cover the bitterness)

17. First thing you wanted to be when growing up?

i was a veritable horse girl from a VERY young age so probably something related to horses?? like a showjumper maybe.

18. What movies do you adore?

love a good (or laughably bad) horror movie. a cure for wellness, orphan, killing of a sacred deer r all movies gave 5 stars. also love a good children's animated movie! unironically a big fan of the secret life of pets movies, ferdinand, that sort of thing. g-force remains the best movie of all time.

i am tagging: @soronya @tennis-kittens @nick-cassidy @shapovalovvs :33

[slowtraincumming]

hello how r u today? just read ur intro n wow weve very similar music taste! ^^

r yellowjackets wasps? omg hope ur alright now

don't reckon if i answered to the other ask, sorry, so ill answer now

st is an alternative story of b&j from trhps (always by richard o brien). while in trhps they get married and go tell dr scott but they end up at fnf's castle instead, here it is implied they made it, they never met fnf, they got married n live together but theyre not so close anymore so they take part in a tv show where a group of neurosurgeons has to perform a shock treatment on brad to make him feel luv 4 janet again, while she becomes a self-centred spoiled diva bc.. idk.. -.-'' but in reality its all fake, the docs r just actors n the shock treatment is just the flash of a camera, n in the end we find out its brads evil twin bro (a showbiz magnate, names fay farley sth like that) who planned everything, he wanted to marry j instead so with a strategy he made b his prisoner, paid actors to act as docs n made a diva out of j cos he wanted her all 4 himself (like biff n lorraine from bttf1-2)

then cant reckon theres bert the tv host who is said to be blind but hes not, just uses shades as filter bc tv n spotlights f*k ur mind, actors crew n audience always stay there never go out, its like the truman show n he uses glasses for not to be blinded, n if I'm not wrong he wants to help j escape, he remember he goes to tell her but one if the docs (pat queen my deeear pretty sure it was she!) "catches him red-handed". But then they break berts shades during the main performance (best performance best part n best scene imo) n blind him with a flashlight they say to cure his blindness but after that i guess hes englobed in the falsity of tv shows in fact in the end b&j n find a way to escape n save themselves n Bert remains there :'c i ship bert n janet since day one bc there's chemistry theyre always together touching smiling dancing hugging theyre a very nice duo ^^ i guess the actress actually liked him but he didn't care bc he was depressed bc his then wife wanted to divorce, read somewhere he phoned her between the takes to tell her to think about it but cant remember where its been a long time i was in high school now i finished university havent watched the movie in a lifetime ^^' it was on yt now idk

st is a nice movie but trhps is way better is pure perfection 1 of my fave musicals ^^

sorry 4 the long mex luv talk w u + when im anxious n stuff i talk talk talk -.-'' sorry hope i didnt bother u

HIIIII I'm doing good how are you :D yayyyy that makes me very happy !!! Yes they are thank you

Wow that's really interesting I might watch it sometime I had no idea they were connected thats so cool thank you for telling me about it

Thays alright I love talking !!! And I do the same when I'm anxious. You're not bothering me in the slightest I really enjoyed getting this message !!!

[sapphoherselz]

#11/10 as always i love u#andrew definitely has a whole folder with those wolf memes on his phone#and he says it's ironic but he actually loves them#neil gets him t shirts with them and they're his favourite#also kevin is the only one who's allowed to criticise his foxes fr#they might be losers but they're HIS losers <3#also also thank u for mentioning that sapphic andreil art it has changed my life#cured my depression fr

hehe thank you so much babe!! love you too 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 love that the general thought is "yk what actually yes andrew is a shitposter and has weird memes on his phone that he loves and adores"

omg i LOVE sapphic andreil theyre the wind beneath my wings the blood that pumps in my veins the oxygen i breathe........im Normal about Them...........

the first one is heavily inspired by this one aftg artist that I follow pretty much everywhere (on social media I feel like that phrase was misleading somehow) and that I ADORE once they made a lesbian andreil where Andrew was doing some gym stuff w Neil on his back and I don't remember fainting but I do remember my life doing a lot better ever since that day so if I find it I'll link it!!

THIS ONE!!!!!! omg it's even better than I remember imma kms

[chiyohsrifle]

@ my parents, give me time and space to actually focus on my hw so the next time you yell at me and call me lazy, you have a fcking valid reason to be pissed challenge

[yeehawvamp]

no one is doing it like jj project

[heroin-antiheroine]

ive not been on here for a while. but yea i’m still clean. 2 months now. i’m less excited & happy about it then i was throughout the 1st month. the 2nd month was long & hard....went thru depression, misery, intense cravings blablabla. all the dumb shit that u would think happens in the 1st month. fuckin wild. still getting intense cravings almost every day but yknow whateva. ive been drinking almost every day instead & been getting onnit & doin k at weekends. kinda reverted to bein a wreckhead instead of a smackhead hahaha. no uppers tho....there’s no better comedown cure than h after all. lately ive been goin thru a phase of boredom with being clean & my current routine & life. being on h wasnt terribly interesting but there was an incredible camaraderie between me & the other h addicts in my life. bc everyone understood each other & didn’t judge. my other friends also dont judge me now & theyre all rly proud of me so that feels good. but damn if they dont understand half of it...& i mean thank god they dont bc i would never want them to go thru it. but there was nice in being part of something bigger & all the mad adventures we went on to score hahah. BUT one of my best junkie friends is now clean too!!! so that just makes me soso happy that i can still hang out with him. things are alright basically. im fuzzy headed as fuck from doin a lot of k on friday & sat tho soooooo that’s it rly <3

[misterbitches]

- sun’s advice was terrible tho that’s y u followed ur dreams so if mork has any dreams besides being cute and confused encourage that 

i cannot express how much i enjoy their dynamic. it’s usually all the things that i think i need; someone who can keep up, who’s probably more outgoing and outwardly personable, a little older since sometimes it seems like you’re operating on 50 yr old levels of stress, and someone that will support you and make you laugh. that could give way to co-dependence but when done slowly and when you don’t have absolute insanity carried with you it’s soooo cute. 

i always love when the more quiet/reserved/probs sadder lmao person is being helped and theyre like uh no but then their Bae is like “no srsly”

“no” “no but really” “i can carry these 5000 bags by MYSELF” and they just stare at them til they’re like ohuasfojifa OKAAAY

i’m rly not in2 not having free will, but it’s easier to relinquish control or calm down and notice people have ur back too when u let them care 4 u! wow ! i dont want any angst...

it’s also nice how like...outwardly cute sun is (sunny...ahahahhahahahha...) and mork is like >:O or >:? but he’s not really grumpy, cos i hate mean grumpy ppl esp men, just more to himself and up in the clouds. he and rain are one of my fav friendships i��ve seen in a while. how nice is it to know that you have a friend that will always listen to you? protect you? cover for you? and he doesnt really expect much in return, but that’s rain’s boy!!! x___X 

x______________x

gna keep upd8nng as i remind myself:

- when he (mork) was like “lemme help u” in kma moving the table cos he’s #cute and sun was like ?word? and also when he came 2 Fite those dudes in the cafe with Rain and also when he saw sun staring at kao and he was like aw that’s sad huh - podd looks a lot older than he actually is lmao (if that is indeed his real age) and it floors me every time that he’s younger than me, he doesn’t look ancient just legit in his late 20s/early 30s (thank god he nor sun is cos rme) but i digress - sun obbbvvvvsssssss thinks he’s cute but im like do u always nag ppl u like so much? i know they like each other and sun probably knows more abt his feelings cos mork is 404notfound but i wonder when it will like hit him fully cos rn i dnt see it just like oh wow ur cute and i like staring in2 ureyes - i am increeeeddddiiiiibllllyyyy curious as to what mork’s like in love (anticipating i will come back 2 this 2 c wat i thot) like hes probs more ok with sun taking care of him, im sure he likes to be touched byhim, he’s obvs sentimental so he’ll probs(if he doesnt) have a folder of Sun Stuff idt he’s not forthcoming with his feelings it’s just hard for him 2 think ppl care? and obvs he is v reckless to a fault but when he asked sun about the rent on the cafe and let him talk about why he started it and then told him about how much his dad loves him (fiiiirrstable wow cute u love ur best friend, his dad, n his bro *_*) he’s proven to be a caring person and friend and will def b a caring bf. i wonder if it hurt him when he pushes sun during FenceGate - the scene where mork is cleaning up sun’s injuries i thot the earplugs were a cochlear implant, i rewound it a trillion times and then i was like wait those r..earplugs LOL but u ever think abtwhy u wanted 2 clean his injuries huh mork??!!?!!?!??!??!  - ik im not rly a power dynamic person so i prefer an equality in the give/take, i think theyre both tooooo stubborn to be able to relinquish control but there’s a diff in just letting someone be with you and not needing to be on all the time. like for once mork can relax - when mork got ready 4 sun (”work”) cutest shit ever lmao im positive he knows that he obvs feels diff abt sun to rain but he’s like rly working hard to get thru it lmaoooo and sun’s like bitch ill wait - uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh looking in2 each other’s eyes...idk how they’re moreromantic than what we get with petekao and theyre not even together but (upside smiiley face emoji)  - the smiles during the  apron tying and the lolz at the kitty stuff. first of all, this is why i think theyll be smooth sailing once they get their shit together cos that was so nice! genuinely just like a mutual luv/understanding~*~** but i guess mork is rly fond of that family - i have more things i ned to come back 2 iahsughaj lots of fun might rewatch their stuff, cure my depression and be acne-less - sun would defffff fpush mork’s hair out of his eyes

cool

[my-one-love-is-music]

rolls in FINALLY THE KEVIN/DICK WE’VE BEEN WAITING FOR BLESS i would read an entire fic just about dick and kevin. i love them theyre so good and wholesome?????? a+++++ my crops are watered my acne is cleared my depression is cured. thank u for my life

Yes it has happened! Kind of crazy since I never intended them to get to this point when I first introduced Kevin, but yolo right?

And would you really read an entire fic about Kevin and Dick? That just...feels too powerful. Too powerful indeed. I’m not sure the internet could handle something like that.

I do agree that Kevin is a precious bean who needs to be protected and Dick wants to fawn all over him and give him the world.

[uniformbravo]

dolichomorph replied to your post:*blows on a dandelion* i wish microsoft would...

fyi i just saw on twitter that theyre not Killing paint its just not gonna be on a new computer by default!! but its a free download thru the windows store DW DW

oh my god thank FUCK im so relieved i think u just cured both my depression & anxiety forever im Dead

[richard-the-bowling-ledge-blog]

Red lol

wow i can see right thro you also this is way cheesy so sorry everyone else i just love them so much its just a bit like wow (jk i hope u die)

Red: 5 facts about my best friend

well firstly they’re like insanly hot and attractive and so fucking cool and like sometimes im just watching them like um im best friends with you??? how tf did that happen??? and i’ll like see them talking to other people and people are such a beg to them its so funny they dont even realise it they just think that people are rlly nice but theyre just so effortlessly like ...cool and i just sit there like yeah get jell he’s my best friend hon

secondly, they’re like the most calming person in the world like seriously even being around them like not even talking to them its like the same feeling as sittting u sitting in the rain and all your emotions its not like they drown out of you but everything seems managable and reasonable. literally their hugs are the best thing in the world its like if everythings closing in on you and then they just like stop it and ground you down and you’re warm and its not like yay u cured my depression its like yay you made everything okay for a minute

thirdly their mind. fucking hell their mind. theyll just talk about the most random shit thats in their brain and its like how are you this beautiful person that is gracing me with these things. every conversation that goes on til three in the morning about apocolyptic sunrise worlds and fucking stars and all that shit like i feel so fucking greatful to be a part of that? like i could fill a book with all their theories and imagery and sell it to a million people and theyd all be so inspired but i wouldnt because its their mind and i feel so special and thankful that each time their giving me a little part of thier mind and i wanna keep that special in my heart 

fourthly linking to their mind, their words. all their poetry and prose and fucking every letter that they write is some like work of art. like 2 oclock ramblings are one thing but then they manage to put it into the most fucking gorgeous poems and sentances and youre just sitting there like this. this is art. everything that you read is a fragment of themselves and its so beautiful to seee ive laughed and cried so many times because that raw emotion is just so incredible. like sometimes theyll write things and im like yes thats what im feeling. like i wont even know mmyself what im feeling and theyll write something and its just like of course thats what it is

finally just how comfortable they are to be around. ive never laughed so much than when im with them literally since the first day we went out on a trip to london to earlier today its actually crazy how fucking funny they are and how safe they make me feel and you can just say anything around them and its okay and they validate you and never isolate you and the love that they have for their friends is so fucking beautiful and tbh i love my best friend so much and im a firm believer that theyre like the best person in the world. 

[blackthornass]

Do you have any art tips?

Uhhhhhh Funk im not The Greatest Artist ™ but I’ll try to bestow some Wisdom on you. Keep in mind Art is Subjective and I’m no expert and all that so take everything with a grain of salt but that being said I’ll try to give u Tips and Tricks

-listen so if you have a boring class at school just draw in it. School is great because you have 1. Access to paper at all times 2. Incredibly boring lectures. If you have a study hall that’s the Drawing JACKPOT. Basically what I’m saying is practice all the time when you have energy but like that’s such boring art advice. It’s important but “practice! uwu” is like what people with Natural Art Talent say when they didn’t have to figure everything out from the ground up so it’s kind of aggravating

-There’s gonna be people better than you. Chances are you have a friend who’s better than you because this is Tumblr we all draw. Try Not To Compare Yourself ™ which idk how to do but it’s bad don’t do it

-unless you find a terrible person with worse art than you in which case FUCK DUDE COMPARE YOURSELF TO THEM! THEYRE HORRIBLE AND THEY CANT DRAW FOR SHIT LOOK WHOS LAUGHING NOW!

-“work until your idols become your rivals” is absolute bullshit because your idols are working at it at the same time you are. You fool. You imbecile. I feel like this works better for writing when your idols can become irrelevant or straight up die between you being an aspiring author 8 year old and a tired 30 year old who just wrote The Great American Novel ™ or just kind of. Leave the fandom if you’re writing fanfic. Anyway

-ok that’s all the preachy shit, time for Real Art Advice ™. Keep in mind I do digital cartoony shit with Strong Lineart and cel shading for the most part and I pretty much only draw people so my knowledge is limited to that. if you wanna be a professional artist maybe do other things and Expand your Abilities ™

-Ok first off if you’re using Gimp or Photoshop please love yourself and download Firealpaca or illegally torrent Paint Tool Sai or something. I swear by Firealpaca it cured my depression but like. Photoshop is Trash for drawing. Get Firealpaca it has Line Correction ™

-Keep Line Correction ™ at like. A 5 when you’re sketching and at a 19 (the maximum) when you’re lining, coloring, shading, highlighting, doing literally anything that isn’t sketching

-Sketching digitally can be hard if you’re used to sketching on paper and I find it easier to do a sketch on paper, take a picture of it on my phone or scan it, and line/color it digitally. You do you and figure out what works best

-speaking of which I refused to use sketchbooks until I was Worthy ™ of not drawing on notebook paper and uhhhhhh that’s dumb just get a sketchbook they cost a little more than a notebook at Target it’s not super expensive. Although if you’re not financially in the position to buy a sketchbook anyway, just hoard notebooks from school that you didn’t use much. Bam, that’s your new sketchbook

-the Head Circle Cross Thing and the Spheres For Shoulder, Elbow, and Wrist Thing are good and important and will save you

-hands are hard so use references but bullshit your way through it. eventually they’ll look good (I haven’t gotten there yet)

-HAVE FUN WITH NOSES OH MY GOD. Noses are super fun and cool because there’s, like, infinite variety with them, they can be as long or short, thin or thick, rounded or pointy as you want, you can make them be, like, triangles or circles or more squareish or diamond-shaped, the base of the nose can be about as high or as low on the face as you want, you can make the nostrils prominent or not really there at all, they can add another Layer to a character’s design, oh my goodness noses are so fun. They’re like, severely underrated and oh my god I could gush about how fucking fun noses are

-same with facial expressions. Where you put the pupils and how big they are, how much of the eye is covered by eyelids, the way the eyebrows are, the mouth, tons of other shit. There’s loads of variety and so much you can do and honestly having fun with the facial expression is The Best Part. There’s tons of Face Art Chart Memes floating around, you know the ones, save it to your phone/computer and practice those on your own time it’s fun

-if you don’t know how to do something, avoiding it won’t help you. Just kind of draw around with it in your sketchbook or in a “I’m not posting this” file until you feel confident enough to do it in your Real Projects ™.

-Ok for lining did you know..… it isn’t illegal to erase parts of the lineart to clean it up.… just be careful and draw it back in to the best of your abilities if you erase too far and use a smaller eraser brush/lining brush for this… I know it’s tedious nobody likes lining it’s okay you can do this put on some good music

-use mcfucking references

-eyedrop character’s official colors but adjust said colors based on the color of your background to make them look less funky is my general rule for clothing, I usually pick the hair/skin by myself or from something I’ve already drawn though

-for flats, make sure your lineart is all closed off and there aren’t any “holes” cuz that’ll mess up your coloring

-so how I do flats is I use the magic wand tool to select whatever I want to color, expand selection 3 pixels (in firealpaca you can set it to do this automatically), pick the color I need, turn up the brush to as big as possible, and color it in. It saves the time you’d spend with cleaning up where the color gets outside the lines

-you can do the flats on one layer, but I personally like to do every Object on a different layer so when I do shading, I know what goes on top of what

-if a color is darker than the lineart it looks ugly so pick your line color with caution (or just use black! Unlike shading black lineart tends to go with pretty much everything)

-SHADE YOUR GODDAMN ART. Like, what makes people go “wow holy shit that’s good!” is the shading + highlights, don’t be lazy ya fuck.

-I’d take a break before shading to Refresh Your Eyes ™ but also I constantly forget this is a good idea

-don’t shade with black oh my god. Unless you’re doing Strong Punchy Dramatic Stuff or monochrome black and white stuff, don’t shade with black, and if you’re doing that it’ll probably be drawn into the lineart. Don’t shade with black please we can tell you’re doing it and it looks bad

-highlighting with white isn’t too bad though, especially with the eyes, but it might look too strong in some places

-As a general rule, shading is darker and more saturated, highlighting is lighter and less saturated. Whether it gets warmer or cooler depends a lot on what color or thing you’re shading or what you want the feel of the picture to be and I’m not 100% sure how to do it myself so uh. Trust your gut and change the color if it looks wrong I guess.

-where exactly the shadows or highlights fall depends on lots of things, just kind of. Look at how things work irl maybe? This is the kind of thing that you just have to practice, and it’ll look like shit until suddenly it doesn’t sorry I’m not sure what to say

-One Medium Sized White Dot on a layer above the lineart where the pupil borders the Iris (or the whites of the eyes if you’re like me and you make the pupil and Iris one thing) works for a glint in the eye that makes a person look less dead and more cute. How big you’re gonna make it depends on how adorable you want the person to be

-SMOOTH BORDERS FOR THE SHADING ARE REALLY IMPORTANT IF YOURE DOING CEL SHADING which is why firealpaca is my best friend thanks line smoothing. If you’re doing like. Soft shading or painterly shit or other kinds of shading it’s less Super Important but like. Still be sort of neat. Unless being really messy and sketchy is what you’re going for but even then you still need to be sort of careful

-for simple backgrounds, it’s like. Easy to make it interesting. Add polka dots to the background or a big old square or a gradient or a cloud filter or something the possibilities are endless. Another option is to straight up make it transparent and write a secret message in white on the side. But uhh never do a blank white background at the very least fill it with a solid color

-ok style is kind of hard because I never had to struggle to find my style? I just “drew in my handwriting” so to speak and then if along the way I realized something looked shitty I just changed how I drew it slightly? I guess a thing you could do if you’re in tune enough is look at the styles of things you do like and things you don’t and figure out why you do and don’t like it. “I like how *2010s cartoon* does Eyes!” great take that general concept. “I hate how this shitty yaoi has enormous hands!” great then don’t do that. It’s all Personal Preference my dude style is Your Own Thing

-notes aren’t everything but fuck do they feel nice. Self reblogs are fine but don’t overdo it, I’d say reblog it Twice to account for time zones and tag it as self reblog so as to not be a dick

This got long whoops. That’s all I can think of but I hope this helps it’s All I Know

[tumblunni]

HEYO! oh man now my friend helped me get all inspired again for working on my Cathedral Tower Defense game so WOO lets have another long post of miscellaneous ideasies for storyness! may not be very coherant tho cos i am super tired and ill! but happy!! THANKS SUMMON-DAZE FOR BEING MY ULTRA BESTIE

* Okay now I am super sure that I’m gonna let you choose the gender of the protagonist! And I wanna keep it so that their name is Amity either way, cos that’s kinda stuck in my mind. Surname Amity, player gets to decide the first name, but people will still be calling you Amity a lot at first cos you start off all awkward and formal with everybody. You’re a newcomer to this cathedral town and nobody knows whether to trust you, from their perspective you’re this dangerous person theyre forced to accept just because they need you to help protect them, whether you’re good or bad. They’re all worried what price they might have to pay for this, trying to figure out how to minimize the damage if you turn on them... and its not like they’re bad people for being untrustworthy, they’re just scared people huddling in a church and trying to keep their families safe at any cost. So try and prove your worth to them, and help them learn to protect themselves too, and make this ramshackle settlement into a real home! ....anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, gender selection is a good! And it could be relatively easy to impliment too, cos of the situation. Doesnt even necessarily have to be a menu or anything, it could just be like sir amity/lady amity/master amity. Cos you’re this paladin knighto, itd make sense for them to ask for your title. And it could just be like a shot of protagonist’s badass silhouette in the gateway of the cathedral and then you get the dialogue choice to pick your identity, and its all Super Cool~!

* It also actually gives me more of an idea of what i could do for their design, like I dunno maybe they have some sort of face-concealing helm or headdress or something. I was just thinking of them being dressed like a generic nun or princess but maybe emphasize more on the knight aspect instead of the holy part? So like anyway, maybe they have a very all-concealing outfit and that could be the framing of the first scene instead, its like *pulls off the mask and you’re into the character selection screen* Orrrrrr maybe there doesnt need to be any magical setup for a gender selection and it can just be a menu before the first scene starts XD Or maybe you have a cool face-concealing helmet thing anyway, like all three gender options just have a different one, lol

* More random magical names i got via the cool name generator site summon-daze linked to me! Dunno if I’ll actually use any of these but im writing them down here so i dont forget. Berebath, Betnia, Amurziz, Jetre, Miemahl, Semdach, Batxahl, Sidefarch, Botolohn, Vausach, Thammoch, Droibhal, Lekonach, Zeidhal, Tieloch, Rabrohm, Maesur, Smoiroch, Baelbuhr, Axoth, Jige, Chushou, Hukru, Nejeget, Roucu,  Jinah, Aujus, Yekoth, Nugresah, Israfel, Jabriel, Tabris, Douma

* Also I’m remembering Jade Cocoon and how I liked that the different ‘families’ of monsters shared naming traits. Like how all those weird snake/slug cutiepies that i loved best were nushab, rashab, etc etc. And tamatoch and somethingtoch and so on. I think there was at least one where the modifier was a prefix too? I dunno why i’m talking about this, but there you go. I just think if i wanna do full original made up names for demon species then i wanna make em stuff that just... feels like that. I dont actually wanna make like five different elements of each one tho, i wanna have only one per element and then they have like two different higher level finalized forms. Like, the human characters can have two job classes each and the demons can have two specializations within an element. That helps me think about how to limit it down to four or five elements, if we can combine common fantasy elements together! And yeah I was thinking it’d be cool if the demon ‘job classes’ could have their own evolving appearances and new names!

* Thoughts for the ol elemental groupings! The only one I really have finalized is grass + poison = same thing. Florin, why u always the character that gets developed faster than everyone else XD And I’m thinking giving them their own made up names would make it easier! Like how in SMT you have spells being stuff like ‘media’ and ‘agi’ instead of cure and fire. But here (hopefully) it’d be easier to memorize cos its just the element names that’re fantasy words, and the attacks themselves would be a little more self explanatory. i just think it’d work cos like... the idea i had of rock and fire being one single demon type, you could just call that magma. But i mean, what can you call plant + poison? Except.. like.. plant. Cos poison is reasonably often a grass type skill anyway. And i mean, game creators dont often worry about making sense, what with how ‘grass’ is the common element name when thats just one plant in a million. I cant stop thinking about that now I’ve noticed it! I legit thought grass was a synonym for plant when i was a kid, i learned to read from pokemon yellow... ANYWAY IM GETTING OFFTOPIC AGAIN The other idea I had for groupings was fire + non-elemental together? I was just thinking like... aura. Non elemental/physical attack as a ‘magic’ could be fighting spirit! And thematically speaking it tends to be shown as fire effects in anime, i guess XD But then i couldnt put fire with rock and that means I’d have to redesign malachi again. his design ended up looking more firey than rocky :P Another idea is maybe darkness + non-elemental together? like, interpret non-elemental as ‘void’. Or light and dark could be together actually, that could be an interesting way to do it, instead of having them opposing. Like maybe the elements could be colours! Grey element, able to specialize into white or black but neither is any sort of ‘good and evil’. And then the rest could be like green or like.. instead of red maybe fire could be bronze and thats why it has rock skills too? or man, maybe rock and metal could be one element and fire could be grouped with something else. And would water and ice be too ordinary and boring? do they already kinda count as one element? should I throw in something else? GAHHHHHHH

* Ideas for the multiple religious groups aligned with each element! I’m thinking I want one of them to interpret the setting’s absent god as two deities. like, every perspective on this deity is a wildly different character, this one is just even more so! they’d see malahat (tentative name) as two people, but kinda more like a shared soul that can manifest as either a male or female form. But there’d be ambiguity and debates in the mythos over whether this is actually a genderfluid god, or if its ‘twins who were cursed to never exist at the same time’, or various other variations on the story. I wanna make it like real life, where even within (for example) catholocism, there’s different sects and different translations of the same text. And where there’s predjudice against minority groups and people like to twist their faith to ‘justify’ it, even when parts of the original tale could easily justify treating those people with kindness too. So there’d be some followers of the twins religion who are very openminded to LGBTQ people, and historically anyone trans was able to hold a unique position as a priest, being treated as someone blessed by god. But like in norse mythology, this wasnt necessarily a sign that society was 100% okay with LGBTQ people. Its kinda depressing to read about how trans women and gay men were considered the only people able to become a specific kind of witches, but also how you kinda HAD to take this one safety net in society to stop people from making you an outcast. It was like ‘make them fear me so they dont fuckin kill me’. You had to become a medicine person and at least claim to believe in these magic powers, you had to be blessed by the gods to prove you were like.. one of the good ones. Otherwise its like youre saying the gods made a mistake when they made you, or youre choosing to be a deviant against nature. i can only imagine how terrifying it must have been if you believed in that religion and had to like.. be forced to go against it and leave society, or be forced to lie about being chosen by a god for a higher purpose, while believing that any moment you might get struck down for lying. And then I read in other history books about how the concept of homosexuality was far different in that old society too, how male-on-male sex was accepted at sea as long as you were the dominant one and you were forcing something unwanted onto a lesser shipmate as punishment. Like ugh, rape being more socially accepted than consensual LGBTQ relationships! I guess the only solace is that we can never be 100% sure how much of historians’s theories are correct and what might have changed in retellings of history, but honestly I can believe the past is this fucked up when the present is already fucked up in different ways. BUT ANYWAY I wanna explore those themes in my story maybe. And I wanna do more research into the subject to make sure I’m doing it justice, even though its a very sad subject that might be quite stressful. Maaaaan, I remember how I used to obsess about researching norse myth as a kid, it was one of my first Special Interests and I really wanted to see all the different reinterpretations of Loki and write my own fanfic/adaptation/vaguely inspired original story about What If He Stayed A Good Guy. Man I had soooo much sympathy for the poor sod. I mean it depends on the retelling whether he was always evil or whether he was like a comedic neutral ally to the gods who just abruptly becomes evil and gets killed off without remorse in the final story. And gahhh he’s like the biggest LGBTQ bastion in the whole mythos, and how can I not feel sympathetic?? When we get all these stories about him being a literal genderfluid shapeshifter and giving birth to half of his children and just like seriously its like The Story Of the One Trans Man In Homophobic Transphobic Valhalla and he was probably meant to seem Bad and Funny and whatever but im gonna sit here and grumpily cling onto the idea that he was deliberately written as trans, or that if these gods actually do exist out there somewhere then Loki would support me. *pout* I just have a lot of good memories of how this was like the first sign of me realizing my own gender, back when I first learned about Loki in school and then devoured every damn history book about the dude. And got in a million internet pissing matches about how innacurate the marvel version was XD Also it sucks that we like to believe that modern times are always 100% more enlightened in every way, yet its modern adaptations that always censor out the bits about him shifting gender identities and getting pregnant once. ... man this has gone offtopic too much, im really tired but seriously its funny how teenage bunni had NO CLUE they were nonbinary, no clue why they got so obsessed researching gender-defying mythological figures and historians who created gender neutral pronouns in the 1800s. i was so supernaturally oblivious, holy shit...

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I’m powering up

Loser alert

Horny for this

Love it. Live for it.

This is incredibly my shit

Having the time of my life

I’m on board

Real ones will do this.

Here for it

I’m saying

I am shaking with fury & envy

You have what I want

This astral link...

Game recognize game

literally just vibing

finally some good news in this world

nothing good

the word pervert should be a celebrated term

are they making this specifically for me

Me? Listening to the Postal Service in 2019

Butt ugly

I’m in a state of awe.

I die.

I’ve been saying this.

This is the type of psychic torture that gave birth to the opioid crisis.

I retire

whoever gets the ball rolling honestly

Look at this to die instantly

Saving that for my memoirs.

I feel unchained.

Spirits are high.

Hello to my friends who are haunted and still awake.

stress overwhelms executive function

terrible day folks

still a horrific assault on the eyes

Pause

I’m laughing really hard

Fit check number 500000000. thank u

You’ll burn in Hell for this.

I trust your taste

The langoliers

I’m telling u snowboarding will cure my depression but no one wants to go w me

Misery misery

I’m comfortable resorting to violence.

So brave

I don’t talk during sex, I just let him beat me black and blue and I love it!

I still listen to that song “Riptide” to remind myself of the nervous breakdown I had in 2014

Ball too hard

insanely high level swag

Mood, as they say.

Kiss my dad on the lips

600mg ibuprofen lifestyle still in play

"What motivates you at your current job?" money and fear

Trader Joe’s seems like food people eat when they’re living in an underground bunker city

thank you for speaking truth to power

My most illogical fear is that I'll develope a severe peanut allergy halfway through a Snickers.

i love to fall over the side of a cruise ship into the endless pitch black ocean far below

Anyone I know who was only allowed to listen to Kidz Bop growing up is now a violent pervert.

That’s so interesting . This is about the horse who has sex with women right. I’ll be sure to check it out on the LCD screen I’m going to have installed in my coffin

The communist gene

If I ever take my own life it’ll be over post nasal drip.

Having a fun day with my work wife and remembering why I love her.

i have a condition it’s called porn star pussy

Thinking about becoming insane

it's so disgusting, but hey, I gotta be me

I like when we have fun online

Spilling that tea and refusing to clean it up

What part of “I RESPECT AND CELEBRATE SHOPLIFTERS” do u not understand

I'm bipolar sun, retard rising, and autisitic moon

If I was a fish that anglerfish light would work on me

2 be respected and feared for sure

it clouds my third eye

Feeling my eyesight deteriorating in real time but let me make this clear I will never put my phone down

as Confucius once said, before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves. one for the person you are going to kill and another one for their friends and family

a superhero who can see vibes

see the devil every time I take melatonin.

we have to stop pretending ivy league people are smart

I went to the pharmacy and picked up all of my little pills and potions for the upcoming holidays.

worst behavior winter

The highest compliment

High praise

Gemini mindset

quick fit check

here i am. come on guys heap on the praise

Stunna

Too hot pls delete

No one talk to me or my cold winter prairie ever again

I have made rice on a George Foreman grill before

Tea!

Doing the work

What do we think of this

Come over here and pop that pussy for me

it just resonates

just vibing

faulty metaphors do be abounding to me

Self awareness and an apology, very nice

sometimes people speak languages i don't understand. this is peak comedy

i know i don’t have to be so public about my politics, can’t say i respect people that are private about theirs either... but i will say right now that there is no fucking way i will ever vote for pete buttigieg. this is my promise to the american people

Mamba mentality

I’ll never, ever be able to unsee this

trying to explain to bf that actually it’s wrong and sinful that he had girlfriends before me but he doesn’t get it smh

theyre soooo retarded it’s crazy