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makeupbychio · 5 years ago

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to our baby // C.H

Pairing : Calum Hood x Female Reader.

Words : 7.9k

Summary : You’re a makeup artist from Brazil, and by accident you met Calum on Christmas Eve in a Uber. The question is whose Uber was it? Yours or his? but one thing is for sure, he believes in soulmates. A glimpse of your pregnancy in a video.

Warnings : Fluff, fluff and fluff. Angst, mentions of miscarriage and blood.

Inspired by : Kylie Jenner’s pregnancy video. I don’t know if you like Kylie but Stormi is the real goat. Classic rom com movies. Love for Brazil and the family that I have there. Blue music video by Beyoncé. Kehlani’s pregnancy. Baby fever.

a/n : hi babies, so I love dad!sos more than myself. I poured my heart on this one and hope you like it. Feedback is more than welcome and love y’all. Happy reading. Also this give me such rich vibes because, duh, successful parents. Also I did the moodboard and it’s the first time I did one.

2 months

Your best friend Natali decided to start recording this moment, and that’s how your video starts with a soft piano melody that Calum created for the entire video.

“Are you recording this?” you said looking at your bestie’s phone.

“Yeah, cause’ it is official” your bestie said pointing at the doctor’s monitor. A little peanut of 7 weeks growing inside you. Your doctor is rubbing that cold gel in your belly and your eyes are looking at the monitor with bright, shiny, sparkly eyes but inside you are afraid too. “Hi baby, this is your mommy”.

3 days ago…

You’re in a cafe with your best friend, it’s almost night time when you decided to go for a cup of hot chocolate and a good slice of cake that you’d been craving the whole week. Calum, your boyfriend is on press tour promoting the last two singles so you’d been hanging out with your best friend.

Once you’re walking back to your place, suddenly you started to feel like crap and disgusted by the smell of coffee that a stranger was drinking and passed by you. Your best friend noticed when you gagged and told you to hold on till the next shop.

“Hi Marcela!” your bestie said to the cashier of the shop. You should have say hi too but you ran to the bathroom. “Sorry, she ate something” she said waiting for you in the other side of the door. Once you were done you were still feeling like trash.

“Hi Marcela and don’t worry I didn’t spot anything” you said. Marcela’s your best friend’s cousin. They’re from Brazil, so do you. She works in a big pharmacy, that the owner’s her brother, Pablo. “How is that pretty boy who plays the guitar?” she asked you, and you laughed that she didn’t ask about how are you.

“You just saw him a couple of weeks ago” you said. “How are you tho?”.

“Ya’ know, excited for the surgery” she said referring to her breast surgery and you’re so happy to see her finally in the process of a trans woman. “Well, before you go you should go back to the bathroom with this, on the house” she said giving you a pregnancy test. Before you refused, Marcela interrupted you. “Your boyfriend’s birthday party was wild so I’m just sayin’” your best friend gave her a look to behave. “I mean I don’t judge you with that hottie and a wild night” she said pushing you back to the bathroom.

You didn’t give her an answer, because she was right of what happened that night after you and Calum were alone. Ugh, in that moment you wanted him in the other side of that door and not your friends that are just making you more nervous.

“I would like to have his babies too if I could” Marcela tried to break the ice of this moment with a joke and your best friend punched her to be quiet. “What?! I’m just trying to make her laugh”.

“Y/N? U okay? 10 minutes have passed” Natali said knocking the door.

“I’m too coward to look at the result” you said in a shy voice in the other side. Your friends looked at each other and encouraged you by telling you that whatever the result is they are going to be with you and support you.

You left the bathroom to show them the two lines in the test. It’s positive. You’re pregnant. It wasn’t the first time tho, but that story’s for later.

“This is how I found out about you” your best friend said to the camera. “Your mother and I were living our lives having fun and working hard when she met your father”.

“I think that the story of your parents is unique, your dad loves to tell how he met your mother” Mali said to the camera.

“Once I saw in a well known tv show that you met your soulmate three times before being together. I didn’t believe it cause’ I used to think that love is a scam but one day…” Calum said to the camera. He remembered when he listened that line while watching this tv show he said ‘fuck off’ but kept watching it. Two days after that he finally met you.

3 years ago…

It was Christmas Eve, and your biggest opportunity in your career as a makeup artist. You won this with a lot of effort. You had 5 clients that day, everyone wanted to get all glam for the day by you. You were late because there was no taxi or Uber available until one driver accepted your call. It was snowing and the Uber arrived outside one of your client’s house and you ran with your suitcases full of makeup.

Once you sat in the back of the car, a guy entered the car too, hurry like you.

“Excuse me?” you asked him. “This is my car, you must have another car plate”.

“Hell nah miss. I’ve been waiting for twelve minutes” he said showing you his phone he noticed your accent and your beauty.

“I have the same one!” you showed him your phone. “Please, I’m late for work” you begged him.

“I’m late too!” he resisted.

“Can you please tell this man that I called you first?” you asked the driver.

“Sorry, the app is crazy today so maybe the system gave to me your calls” the driver said through the rear-view mirror. “But I got her call first, sorry buddy”.

“Ugh thank you! Why you don’t go on your car? For sure you have a car if you live in this neighborhood” you said at the strange man of the leather jacket.

“My car is in the mechanic" he said. “Please please I will call your couple to explain why you are late if you let me take this Uber”.

“Excuse me?! I said I’m late for work!” you were tired and you have two clients left and one of them is a billionaire, so you started to get angry at him who didn’t understand that you’re in a hurry.

“Work? You must have a boring life” he said before leaving the car. You were not going to tell him your life and explain yourself. You thought to gave him the middle finger but it’s not the day for that, you just told the driver to go.

Two months after that episode you were doing a beautiful gold eye look on a tall and handsome guy. He’s so nice and you found cute when he asked you about makeup, skincare and your career.

“So if you want more intensity with the pigment you have to spray setting spray directly to the brush and then take a little of the shadow” you told Luke when you are done with his makeup.

It was the day when they were recording Valentine’s music video.

“Dude we are waiting for you, what the hell?” Calum asked Luke when he arrived the set.

“Sorry the makeup artist is so cool we were talking a little bit. She told me she’s from Brazil and her skin looks amazing. I’m going to say to call her again for the next videos” Luke said showing the guys how amazing he feels with his gold makeup.

Calum wanted a little bit of glitter on his cheeks, but when he went to the room where you did Luke’s makeup. He didn’t find you. Another makeup artist told him that you had to do Lady Gaga’s makeup for a magazine cover when he asked about you.

Calum was going to ask how she ended doing Luke’s makeup if she does biggest celebrities looks because he was surprised and realized that she (you) must be a talented MUA. But he forgot to ask.

Two months after again. 5sos were going to Coachella but not to perform. They were excited for the weekend to have fun and to see all their favorites musicians on stage.

This festival is all about outfits, makeup, accessories, influencers, etc. But also to get to know upcoming good artists from different countries and music genres.

“Ashley how we end up here? I don’t speak portuguese” The boys said to their friend who wanted to see a brazilian artist.

“Me neither! But I love Pabllo so much” Halsey said. “Please, come on! It will be fun I promise”.

Once in the VIP section, Luke hugged a girl that Calum didn’t recognize.

“Look Y/N” Luke said showing you to rate the glitter he applied.

“It looks amazing!” you said. And after that Luke introduced you to the rest of the boys telling them about the makeup you did on him for Valentine’s video, and Halsey recognized you since she’s a fan of makeup and to be honest you should be the one who is glad to meet her.

“Hey I think I know you from somewhere” Calum said trying to remember your face and before you said something and before the boys said a dirty joke, Calum remembered. “You stole my Uber! It was my Uber”. After a couple of jokes, and you clarifying that you didn’t stole anything, the show started.

Pabllo is the first brazilian drag queen to perform in this huge festival. You were Pabllo’s makeup artist, Calum didn’t need to ask you that. He saw you enjoying the show.

“This look is amazing” Calum said about the pink look you did on Pabllo. You thanked him for that compliment because it took you almost two hours.

“I also did chilean and argentinian artists makeup” you said proud of your work for this two weekends. After this song Pabllo is performing you have to go backstage to touch up the makeup. So after you said bye to everyone and before you went back to work Calum invited you to their place where they are staying for an after party when Beyoncé closes this festival’s day.

And after that, you two have been inseparable.

Today your career’s immensely different. Today you’re one of the most famous MUA in the industry. With a lot of famous clients, most of them billionaires including people from music, films, fashion industries, etc. You also opened a makeup studio in LA. This took you years, hard work, tears, sweat and blood to be who you’re today, always proud to be an immigrant. Nobody believes you when you told the story how you get into makeup. You come from a poor town in Brazil and every single night when you were in highschool you ran away from home to go to bars and do drag queens makeup, since then you’re friends with Pabllo and every brazilian drag queen.

“Like I was saying this is how she told your father about you” your best friend said while in the video that moment’s playing. You and Calum are in Arraial Do Cabo beach, your favorite since you have memory. It was sunset time, you were standing in the water holding hands when you told Calum the big new. The 35mm video shows how Calum lifts you up and kisses you so tenderly with the beautiful crystalline water as the background while he kneels to kiss your exposed belly in your bikini.

Of course you asked your doctor if you could travel to Brazil, your homeland. This was a trip that you planned with Calum for so long, you missed your family so much and also you didn’t want to cancel it since it was also Calum’s vacations. Once you arrived back your parents house you told them and your brothers (you’re the younger sibling) the big new. All of them cried and hugged you and for dinner your mom did all of your favorites brazilian dishes and desserts that you missed so much and you have to eat for you and the baby.

It was summer in Brazil and that night there was a storm but hot as fuck, as always. You were looking at the beauty of the city during night while you waited for Calum for bed time after an amazing day. He showed you the pictures he took during the day, he didn’t know if your glow was because you were at home, like when he visits Australia, or if it was the pregnancy.

The next day you decided to go for a picnic with your family, a tradition you have. You went to the same place that is close to your old house. The picnic area has multiples simple grass courts where kids play football. You filmed the moments when Calum and your brothers started playing with the kids of the neighborhood including your nephews, your heart melted to that view of the children laughing when Calum failed a goal and Calum’s heart melted at the view of you playing with your nephews in the grass and then dancing with them. They love to show you what they had learned about samba and capoeira. The only thing on Calum’s mind was that it feels just right with you and that he can not wait to live what he’s watching, with you. With each of them holding your hands you came back to picnic table.

“Baby you’re going to have amazing avós, tios and primos” you said while filming your family members that picnic day. Your parents kissing your forehead and your brothers filming you playing carefully with them the match.

“She still has it” your eldest brother said to the camera and then filming the picnic day. You can’t explain how much you love your family. You bought them a house in a good side of the city when you became rich. You were dreaming that your whole life because you came from a really poor part of Brazil but with the hard work of your mom, as a hairdresser, and your dad as a fisherman, you always had food and a house full of love. You consider your step dad like your real father, because he’s been there for you since day one and he taught you almost everything of life.

The first time Calum went to Brazil to meet your family, he already knew about your step dad. He and your brothers were harsh with Calum. The three of them have been always protecting you. When they realized how much Calum loves you, they treated him like family. Calum admires that coming from your step dad, and more than ever he has to show you that he would never do what your biological father did to you. He’s going to be the best dad in the world because he always wanted this with you.

Your last night in Brazil you found yourself looking at the balcony. You were sad for leaving again and for an specific memory. Calum noticed you were not sleeping and he knows you better than himself.

“Why you told me that you were scared to tell me the big new” he asked you. You told him that you didn’t know how he was going to react. And also because you didn’t know if he still wanted a family with you after your miscarriage you had last year.

1 year ago…

You never understand why the brain always remember the bad moments or the traumas. Sometimes you feel like this happened yesterday and some nights still haunts you. It was your mistake even when everyone told you that it wasn’t your fault. But it was.

You were back from Europe after all the fashion weeks in different countries. You travelled a lot, with no stop doing tons of makeup looks to tons of models to almost every designer that called you. Back in LA you continued with your clients and your studio.

You remembered that night, Calum was back too from the shows they did in Australia and New Zealand. Both of you were exhausted. In the middle of the night you started to feel feverish and thirsty so you went for water downstairs. Before you passed out you felt a strong ache in your back. The noise your body did against the floor got Duke in a second running where you were. He started barking when his help didn’t work which woke up Calum. He knew something was happening because you were not in bed and Duke was desperate. When he found you in the kitchen floor he called emergency when he saw blood in your shorts, he waited the ambulance next to you and holding you all scared because he had no idea what was happening.

In the hospital when the doctors did all the exams and gave you the medication you needed, your doctor went outside to talk to Calum explaining him what happened. You didn’t know you were pregnant until the moment you woke up and your doctor explained to you the same. Your doctor told you that the cause was the non-stop work you did, without eating well or drinking water, sleeping less than 4 hours, too much flights and the baby couldn’t make it. After a couple of days in the hospital to recover, your doctor told you to stay and rest at home all the time you needed. Calum was there for you all the time, taking care of you and letting you know he loves you, even when you felt guilty and barely could look at his eyes. You always thanked him for what he did because after that you thought he was going to break up with you. Your family, the guys and friends were there for you too and until today you go to a therapist.

Despite all the sadness that brought you the hardest time you had ever lived. It taught you to take care of yourself, to put your health first and to slow down with work even when it’s your passion. So now when your doctor said that you were pregnant, you decided to keep this a secret until your baby is born. You want to live to the fullest this pregnancy, taking care of you and your child, so that’s why you don’t want any paparazzis following you everywhere or things that damage your mental health because you don’t want the baby to feel your anxiety or panic over unnecessary scenarios.

You told your loved ones your plan, you told just the right amount of people that you were pregnant, people who you can trust. You told your clients the secret and that you were going to work and keep doing their makeup until you start to show.

“He just told us like ‘hey look at this’ and for our surprise it was the first ultrasound scan” Michael said to the camera while a video of that moment plays. Calum telling the boys that like if it was a simple meme on instagram, their faces, reactions by jumping and screaming were priceless. “And we were so confused and I remembered I said ‘wait this a baby’”.

“Come on guys!” Luke said when you and Calum were goofing around the arena during soundcheck playing like kids and hugging each other. Then in the dressing room waiting for the show cuddling in the sofa laying your bodies in the limited space, Calum’s kissing your nose and the rest of your face and you’re caressing his cheeks and stubble softly with your nails. You promised Calum that you’re going to be careful every single show you will come to see him.

“Every single picture or video you find about your parents, you can see the chemistry” Andy, who is the director of this video, said to the camera and then a video he did for Calum’s birthday party is playing. “Everybody say happy birthday to Cal… one, two, three!” Ashton said through the microphone when it was time to sing at Calum. Then you two kissing and partying, and then leaving the club with all the flashes directly to your faces and other cool little moments of you two playing in the video to show how could your baby’s parents are.

3 months

You were in your first trimester when Calum found himself stepping into the elevator for the ultrasound which is going to reveal your baby’s gender. Andy’s filming everything and zoomed to little details that showed that Calum was nervous and anxious to see and hear his baby for the first time. He’s waiting for you that you’re on your way after doing a client’s makeup.

Your style have always been so urban and grunge. You always wear baggy shirts with cool designs on it or bands/singers merch or vintage shirts. And now it’s even more comfortable to you wearing that.

Luke was waiting for you to drive you to the clinic. It wasn’t a surprise when you saw paparazzis pictures of you arriving with Luke and rumors were already on social media but till the end everyone denied your pregnancy. But it was funny but crazy some of the rumors.

Plastic surgery, that you were cheating Calum with Luke, that you were expecting a baby, etc.

“Please guys, leave her alone” Luke said to the paps when he got out the car. He had to lie but he wanted to scream at them to give you space because of the baby but he couldn’t. Everyone was so protective with you and you understood because none of you wanted you live another miscarriage.

If it depends on Calum, he prefers that you don’t lift heavy things or anything that requires too much effort. “How are you feeling today baby mama?” he asked knowing about your morning sickness. You told him that you were perfect that you just want to know the gender of your baby.

“You’re fifteen weeks now” your doctor said rubbing again the cold gel against your belly. Calum was in a chair next to you rubbing your leg focused watching the monitor just like you.

“Hey chief u are putting too much pressure on” Calum said on the defensive watching how hard the doctor was pressing the gel in your belly.

“Don’t worry, Calum. It’s just the skin. There she is” the doctor said once finally found the perfect take of the baby checking every detail and told you both that everything is okay.

“She? Can we hear the heartbeat?” Calum asked already covering his mouth and he can feel the chills going down his body tearing a little bit. Andy who was inside the room, zoomed to the monitor and also the only one who knew the gender before the reveal party.

4 months

Make it last forever

Come on, baby, won’t you hold on to me, hold on to me?

You and I together

Come on, baby, won’t you hold on to me, hold on to me?

Blue

Calum till the present day after your baby was born, he sings this song to her at nights. His voice activated your baby, she really loves her daddy’s voice and she showed her joy with shorts kicks in your belly. She demanded when she missed Calum’s voice or warm touch or when she was having a really good time after he sang or talked to her.

“Babe I think your daughter’s having a party in there” you said feeling her feet. You also had your mom and daughter quality time, you talked to her most of the times telling her typical brazilian stories your mom told you once, or giving her a couple of wise words or you also sing to her even when you can’t compare your voice with Calum’s with brazilian or typical lullabies.

“Hi baby, I know you love this private concerts at night but mommy has to sleep too” he said closer to your bump. Calum helped her to go to sleep by telling her stories or how he can’t wait to have her in his arms. “Well, as I can see you want to be awake I’m going to tell how I met your gorgeous mother” he started. He keeps telling that story too, you always tease that she’s going to get bored of the story but Calum tells the story every single time with more love.

5 months

Short videos of yourself in sweats and your bra showing your growing belly of five months in the backyard taking the sun of LA and the spring that is left. Then in the pool, next with Duke aka your partner of naps when Calum was in the studio, who at the first months he laid his head on top of your belly but now that is bigger he just lays next to it.

Since you got your doctor’s confirmation, you did mini videos in the mirror of your bathroom to see the progress. Filming from different angles with different clothes like underwear or bikini, short or long dresses, thigh or loose, etc. Calum loves to appear in the take behind you kissing your neck and landing his hands in your belly. Now talking about bathroom, he also loves to help you to get into and out the shower, wrapping you with towels, putting your socks or shoes if you can’t reach your feet, zipping up your dress and if you had a rough day he prepares you a bath with bubbles and candles and joins you. He loves doing all of the previous thing before you got pregnant. You do by yourself your makeup, of course, but he teases you about he’ll be an amazing makeup artist.

“Not after what you did to me that time” you said at him remembering that funny video when he did your makeup.

When Andy isn’t around you’re in charge of filming like early in the morning when you wake up before Calum. Every morning he woke up with his head near your belly and his warm touch around. He looks so at peace sleeping because you know that the previous night he fell asleep late talking with the baby, it’s been his routine lately so in the morning you take the camera and film your view, you take the opportunity to brush Cal’s messy morning curls with your fingers for a while.

6 months

Calum had a surprise for you since you couldn’t travel to Brazil or neither to Australia because it was too risky as your doctor said. He told you that today you two have Ashton’s birthday lunch. He wasn’t lying because it was Ashton’s birthday but also the surprise he had so he was filming since early in the morning.

“Babe can you help me, please?” you called him from your shared room. He went upstair with his camera.

“Damn look at you! Baby mama slaying!” he praised you looking at you with troubles with the unzipped dress. You blushed but gave him a pose with your belly at the camera.

“Please help me, next week I have to buy clothes and underwear that can fit me” you turned and he slowly helped you because he didn’t want to damage the dress that barely was fitting on you. “You can say it” you said with a pout since you noticed that any piece of your clothes were fitting you.

Calum knowing about your hormones and how you’re feeling with the shape of your body, which he thinks that you can’t look more precious but understand your struggle, he just wanted you to feel good. “You look amazing honey and you know how much I love this dress” he said with a smirk and hugging you to kiss your neck and grab your ass.

“Okay Hood, let’s go if you don’t want to have twins…daddy” you teased him before he got more horny. You winked at him and grabbed your bag to go downstairs but he stopped you.

“I think that with this you’re going to look even hotter” he gave to you a luxury package ready for your reaction. You opened it and found the shiniest gold heavy chain, you looked at him shocked. “I got a similar one too, it represents the name we choose for our baby” he said and you were already tearing up and told him that it’s beautiful and he told you not to worry knowing that the next thing you were going to say that it wasn’t necessary because of the price. Once outside you kissed him before he helped you to get into the car.

“Still don’t understand why Ash’s going to celebrate his birthday two days before” you asked Calum while he’s driving.

Calum’s a really bad liar but he did his best to keep his surprise. “I told you babe, he’s going to be in Australia for the next weeks”. Lie. And you remembered how mad you were at Ash when he told you because he was going to miss the baby shower.

But once you arrived Ash’s place and went to the living room and saw a bunch of people jumping and screaming ‘surprise’ at you, you got scared and hid your face on Calum’s neck and he can felt a few tears because your and Cal’s families are here. You hugged everyone and thanked Calum once again for this. “I love you so much”.

“Love ya’ more” he said smiling down at you and kissed your crown. And the next day both of you and your families, the guys, close friends like your MUA’s friends and from the music industry were at your place. You’re wearing a more comfortable outfit than the day before, it was a black fitted midi tank dress and a rainbow tie-dyed hoodies that you and Calum ordered for the baby shower theme because you don’t like that thing that pink is for girls and blue for boys so everyone’s wearing the colorful outfit.

You’re posing in your garden full of beautiful flowers of different colors as everyone’s taking you pictures.

“More to the side” Mali said to have the perfect picture of you and your baby. Andy was filming every moment and zoomed it when you waved at his camera and the other hand on your belly. Then pictures with Calum, then the families, the guys, and everyone who was invited. Every single person can noticed your happiness and pure joy, you were glowing and even more with your soft peachy glowy makeup you did.

In the video the zoom’s now on your and Calum’s matching chains that you were wearing minutes before the reveal.

“Goddammit just say it!” Michael screamed impatient.

“Yeah, I bet Michael that it’s a boy” Luke said. They actually did bet five hundred.

“Why would you do that?!” Ashton stole words that Calum was going to say.

“Cause’ Y/N has two brothers and two nephews, maths Ash!” Luke said confident about his prediction.

Duke was hiding inside a box with the truth. When you both opened the box, Duke came out with a mini billboard hanging on his collar that says ‘It’s a GIRL!”

“YES!” Everyone screamed but mostly Michael because now he won those five hundred dollars.

“Definitely I’m going to be her godfather” Michael said looking at the guys. Andy asked them to say something for the video, they were sitting in the couch.

“Hell nah Michael… Focus! We have to say something to our niece” Luke said at him. “Hi kiddo, unfortunately we’re also your uncles, I’m uncle Luke and just wanna to let you know that you have the coolest family ever and you can count on us for everything”.

“Yeah, I hope you guys have clear that we’re going to spoil this baby a lot” Michael said looking at you and Calum, you nodded at him and he with his partner made it clear by bringing tons of gifts for the baby shower. “Cool, I’m just going to say that never be ashamed of who you are or your dreams and I know I’m going to be your favorite uncle because your birthday’s going to be near mine”. Michael said to the camera while he did his thing with his hair of always adjusting it.

“Hi dear niece, uncle Ash here, you’re so lucky to have your parents and they’re lucky to have you. Hope you have your mother’s features cause’ she’s hot…” Calum slapped his head from behind due to the comment. “Okay! your dad isn’t that bad tho…being serious live to the fullest cause’ life’s beautiful, especially if you play drums” Ashton laughed and you rolled your eyes at how all of them including Calum had been discussing which instrument the baby’s going to love most.

7 months

“You have to exercise, you gained ten pounds that weren’t planned” your doctor said. “Something light of course, and Calum, by the way you’re looking at me all scared, don’t worry cause’ everything’s going to be okay”.

“I’ve been craving a lot lately, I’m going to start again” you said swinging your legs like a child sitting once your doctor finished cleaning the gel of your belly. So the next morning you started again with yoga, you stopped for a month and that happened. You did yoga every morning with your personal trainer, since you can’t go to her studio because the secret will be revealed. Calum was also there encouraging you and sometimes Ashton, who assured you that he wasn’t there because he finds your trainer attractive.

@enews: Is Y/N pregnant? She’d been seen attending at 5sos shows this week and fans took pictures of her enjoying the show in the middle of the arena with friends and family in the restricted space. In the pictures we can see that she gained weight by her cheeks. In the picture you can’t see if there is a baby or not due to her outfits. She, with her husband Calum also are the last ones to leave the arenas asking the bodyguards to make sure there is no paps. What do you think? It’s confusing because she and Calum have been posting a lot lately and you can’t be sure about a little 5sos member coming BUT fans are saying that maybe they’re posting old stuff to confuse us and also fans called to respect their decision after what happened to the couple last year. Link in our bio to see the pictures.

“Do you want to say something to your granddaughter?” your brother asked with the camera to your parents and you melted at how cute your family looked with the hoodies on.

“Ugh, I can’t wait to hold you, kiss you, hug you, teaching you things that maybe your mommy can’t teach you” your mom said all emotional.

Your dad said to the camera that they can’t wait to have your baby visiting Brazil and teach her all about your culture and country. And you couldn’t be more agree with them. You want to show your daughter her roots, teach her portuguese and bring her to the carnivals in Brazil, spend all day in the beach walking with her in the seashore holding your hand and a lot of things that you have in the list. The same that Calum has in my mind since he found out about his baby but visiting Australia.

“I know you’re going to be smartest and most beautiful baby in the world and as you can see you got us wrap around your finger and every single person that loves you” Calum’s mom said to the camera.

“I’m going to be the best auntie I promise” Mali said to the camera and her dad joked about she and your best friends are the only aunties, because your baby has more uncles that aunties and that’s going to be fun.

“A doble vegetarian cheeseburger with caramelized onion and fries, please” you said from the passenger seat ordering your food to the worker of your favorite place for your cravings. Not taking risks to leave the car. Since you stopped working when you were five months you’ve been wearing baggy clothes to go outside and your designer friends have been sending you all kind of clothes from baggy and comfy dresses but still elegant and chic to pants and underwear that are the pieces you needed since every day your belly grows. Your best friend was driving and Mali was filming from the back. “And two portions of fries and a strawberry vegan milkshake, please… thank you!” you said with a guilty look to the camera. Later you’re going to ask why your doctor told you to lose weight.

In another occasion that Michael invited all of you guys for dinner and you had in your plate a lot of things you took. “What do you have here?” Andy asked filming.

“Well we have mac n’ cheese, french fries and sweet potato fries, two cheeseburgers of course one for me and one for the baby and a lot of salad because why not?” you said raising your shoulders.

But it hasn’t always been this way with your cravings and just beautiful things during your pregnancy because isn’t the truth.

Your cravings were so crazy and even things you didn’t like before that suddenly you want to eat that Calum reminded you that you hate that but doesn’t argue with you because you were going to get mad. It started with a lot of sweet things like cake or pies, fruits or chocolate and a lot of ice cream. Then peanut butter with watermelon, yeah, gross. To food that you love but hated being pregnant. Also food that one day you loved and the next morning you were disgusted and the next one loved again. And it ended with a lot of salty food like cheeseburgers, pasta, nuggets, etc but your loyal friend during the 9 months was ice cream.

“Babe I want to eat feijoada!” you pouted at Calum with a huge crave of your favorite typical brazilian dish. Calum couldn’t believe what he was hearing, it was 2 am and you were hungry and not in the best mood. “And also passionfruit ice cream, please”.

Calum did everything but the brazilian restaurant you love was already closed and he didn’t have idea how to do it. “We have the ice cream tho” he suggested if you changed your mind but that didn’t happen. You were going to start crying, the hormones were doing their thing that day.

Calum really wanted to spoil you but he had no idea what to do. He tried to facetime your family but he would have understood if they hadn’t answered because it was 6 am in Brazil. Thank God, your middle brother already started his day and when Calum told him what he wanted to do, your brother really realized how much he loves you. So he told him the steps, the recipe and the special secret of your family tradition, Calum told himself for the next one to pay attention when you or another person cook this dish.

“K’ thank you man, say hello to the rest, bye!” Calum waved through the phone once the feijoada was done.

“You are going to be a good dad, Cal. Now go to spoil your girls!” your brother waved at him too. And Calum really appreciated that comment.

“Sorry babe for being a pain in the ass lately” you said to Calum while you eat the ice cream laying against the headboard of the bed. He didn’t let you apologize for that because you’re doing something majestic and it was more than normal the things you had been through.

Even when those moments aren’t going to appear in the video, Calum’s going to for sure telling your baby your crazy cravings. When you cried more than once watching puppy videos on Instagram and Calum asking you “babe what happened?” and you just told him “it’s just that the puppy’s so cute” and he comforting you every time you cried when the hormones were crazy.

When you struggled with clothes. “Baby I’m doing my best” you said almost holding your breath and Calum trying to zip up your blue dress but in the middle of the night still end up broke. That night was a mess, you were out with Calum celebrating Tyler’s birthday, a friend of yours and you were half undressed that Calum gave you his jacket to cover the mess and then you started to feel sick when you caught the smell of a strong cheese.

How to forget how you feel with your body. The pain in your back, your feet, your breasts or when you felt so tired sometimes. How some days you were feeling yourself and other days you felt the most horrendous person. Some days the sexiest woman in the world and others the most unwanted one when you found a new stretch mark or how big your breasts and butt are, the pounds you gained.

“I promised that I used to be sexy, look baby” you said at Calum showing him a picture of you when you were 18 years old, you were in Copacabana with your friends in a party. Calum every day letting know how much he loves you and told you that you’re always going to be the prettiest woman in the world even when you had chocolate all over your face. He helps you too with your body issues because for his eyes all of these new things are a reminder of your little peanut and he loves every single inch of your body.

8 months

“I’m thirty four weeks today, just a month left” you said to the camera showing your belly. “Look baby, your daddy’s painting your room” pointing at Calum applying the peachy paint in the walls and later you were going to add with black paint some trees and other things like clouds, sun, the moon, etc.

Calum was already a 24/7 daddy. He called the guys to help him with the crib and the rest of the furniture. He had ready the bags for the hospital and the plan for that day.

Since you decided to keep your pregnancy a secret and to stop working and stay at home and not be in the public eye, you still had fun doing puzzles, playing with makeup, inviting your friends when Calum had to go to work. And every day you worked from home too, you still had to manage your makeup studio and your clients glam.

Tonight you prepared dinner, a brazilian night. You invited everyone and after you were goofing around in the living room with music in the back. The guys made you laugh at their attempt to dance samba. You decided to join the baby mama dance flexing your pregnant dance moves so you started filming with the front camera of your phone and dancing with the rest to ‘All Me’ by Kehlani.

“What if she isn’t into makeup?” Andy asked you in the baby shower. This is the first time you speak for the video.

“It doesn’t matter. She can do and choose anything she likes, I just want to teach her that she as a girl that girls can. To empower her if she likes science, art or sports or whatever I’m going to be there for and with her. Baby just remember that I’m going to love you every single day of my life and I’m sure that you’re the coolest and prettiest Maori-Brazilian girl in the world and you should be proud of that. We with your dad are waiting for you, love ya’”. you said to the camera.

“Hi princess, well I’m going to try not to cry while I say this but I can’t explain how much we love you and can’t wait to finally have you in my arms and sing to you and have fun with you. You’re my sunshine and your mom’s my soulmate, that tv show I saw was right about soulmate but the truth is that Uber was mine” Calum said to the camera smiling so big that his eyes crinkled and you giving him a look because that question about if that Uber was yours or his is going to be forever a topic, but one thing for sure is that moment changed everything.

“Calum!” you screamed from the living room where you were resting after dinner with Duke in the couch. Calum arrived in a second running from the backyard. You were suddenly scared. “Don’t know if Duke peed in the couch or…” and the next thing you saw was Calum taking the bags and helping you to get up to lead you to the car. He was freaking out inside but he tried to keep calm and always reminding you to breath when a contraction hit you.

Andy filmed when he arrived the maternity floor in the hospital. Everyone was waiting outside the labor room. He gave your mom the camera as she was inside the room with Calum next to you.

“Five centimeters left” the nurse said. For the video you decided to cover the screen so everyone will see just a black screen.

“Everyone’s here” your mom said while you wait. “We, Cal’s family, the boys, Natali, Marcela and Andy with Sarah”. And all of them were nervous waiting with fingers crossed with shuddering legs and feet against the floor waiting for Calum to go outside to say that the baby’s here and that you are fine.

You didn’t put in the video the ugly side of contractions and the pain you were feeling. The word you heard a billion times was ‘breath’, ‘take a deep breathe’.

“You’re going to meet your little girl” your doctor said to you and Calum once you were ten centimeters ready. You wanted to scream at your doctor for everything that the nurses put on you. How painful the epidural shot was and the every 3 or 5 minutes the contractions were. Till today you’re more than grateful that you had Calum supporting and helping you and also that he didn’t pass out. He’s going to be forever amazed at how your body and mind really did that and carried your little princess.

“Okay, eight, nine and… ten. Go, push” you heard. “Good job Y/N, keep going please take a breath”. “One more and you’re done” your doctor said and in that moment you felt how Calum held your hand with all of his energy.

“You can do this baby” he said encouraging you. You were tired and all sweaty but your reminder was that one more to hold your baby.

Cries filled the room letting you know that she’s finally here. “Open your eyes mama” the nurse said to meet your baby before you fall asleep.

“You did it baby, congrats” Calum was crying while he kissed your forehead, so do you. “I love you mama” he said. He couldn’t believe that years ago he didn’t believe in love but getting into that Uber that Christmas Eve was, is and is going to be forever the best decision of his life.

To our baby

Ema Kara Hood

October 26

8 lbs, 9 oz

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rhinoswriting · 5 years ago

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A Life On The Road - Part 1 (A Luke Hemmings FanFic)

Overview: Elizabeth and Calum have been best friends since they were 15/14 respectively. Elizabeth is from and lives in the UK, but her family lived in Sydney for a brief 2 year period which is how the two met.

With Calum’s band, 5SOS, embarking on their biggest and most ambitious world tour to date, he has invited Elizabeth along to work as a photographer/content creator for their social media. This is in the hopes that travelling with them and getting to explore so many new cities will help Elizabeth achieve her dream of becoming a full-time travel writer.

Elizabeth is acquainted with the rest of 5SOS but doesn’t know them tremendously well. Obviously that changes as they are all forced to be in one another’s company for the duration of the tour. As the tour progresses and new friendships blossom, Elizabeth feels the connection between her and Luke grow more and more.

A/N: This chapter is a lot of story set-up and introduces you to the protagonist.

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I lent my upper back against one of the work kitchen walls and peered out of the window beside me. Any other day, the grey curtain of drizzle would have perfectly matched my work mood. But today was not a normal work day for me. Today was my last day in this hell hole. I was finally getting out of here to pursue my dream of becoming a travel writer. I hugged my mug of coffee closer, content in the knowledge that nothing was going to step on my good mood today.

“I cannot believe you are leaving me with these people.” Drew complained as he walked over and lent some of his weight onto my shoulder while cradling his own steaming mug.

“I am sorry that I’ll be leaving you here. I truly am.” I told him, and I meant it, “But you know as well as I do how much this place can drag a person’s mental health down. So when a best friend offers to let you piggyback off their career to help launch you own, you take it and make the sacrifice of abandoning your work husband.”

“I hate that you have a famous best friend.”

“Don’t be a bitter bitch,” I laughed nudging him in the side with my elbow.

Drew and I chatted for a minute or two more before making our way back to our desks at opposite ends of the office. When I got to mine I noticed that someone (probably my manager or Josie, the company busy body) had taken my second coffee break of the morning as an opportunity to place an envelope and small gift bag by my keyboard. As I placed my coffee down I noticed that the people on my bank of desks had swivelled their chairs, and thus their attention, in my direction. I also heard the tell-tale sound of high heels on cheap carpet tiles that indicated Josie was making her way over.

“Elizabeth,” Josie cooed in her usual fake friendliness, “I can’t believe it’s your last day here already! We did a small collection for you in order to say goodbye and give you something to remember us by. It’s been such a great three years and eight months working with you. We’re all sad to see you go.”

“Thanks, Josie. I certainly will miss how precise you are with details.” I said trying not to make my sarcasm too obvious.

I rummaged in the tissue paper hoping to bring this moment in the spotlight to an end as soon as possible. First I pulled out a small, sleek rectangle. Through the plastic window of the box I spied a matte black fountain pen -it was a genuinely lovely pen which surprised me. Next I pulled out a small bottle of Kraken rum -my go to with Coke on work nights out- which was followed by a second, identical bottle. The fourth and final leaving gift was a new 10 shot pack of film for my Instax Mini camera.

“Thanks guys...” I awkwardly addressed the room, “These are all really thoughtful and nice. I love the pen. Uhh, yeah, thanks again. Stay cool and all that cliche stuff.”

I promptly sat down and unlocked my PC to indicate that the show was over and I should now be left the fuck alone.

The company’s internal IM program was flashing at me in orange, indicating I had an unread message.

[Drew Clarke - 10:47 am] I am so sorry they are putting you through this. You look so awkward. I can see you blushing from here. It is hilarious though :’D I made such a big deal about the stupid pen they wanted to get you having to be matte black Also my leaving gift to you is that I have done everything in my power to ensure Josie knows nothing about your leaving drinks tonight

I responded with a simple gif of some character I didn’t know mouthing ‘thank you’ to acknowledge his last message and then went back to work trying to complete as much of my remaining work as possible.

The rest of the day dragged on as it would any other day of the week. The only difference was that I had the occasional desk visit from a colleague to wish me luck or let me know they’d be at the leaving drinks Drew had arranged for me that evening.

And then Drew was at my desk before the clock had even hit 5 pm,

“Start packing your shit up then. We’ve got a bar to get to.”

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My leaving drinks were actually surprisingly fun. Which was as much of a good thing as it was a bad thing.

It was good because who doesn’t love people buying them either shots or rum and cokes? Plus Drew and I had had a beautiful drunken moment where we gushed over how much we treasured each other’s friendship and would definitely, definitely stay in touch always, and who doesn’t love those moments?

It was bad because I got in at 3:30 am, set an alarm for 6 am and left my house for the train station at 7 am with a hangover headache already brewing.

My morning then got worse when I remembered I had to change trains at Sheffield. Non-direct train journeys are enough of a pain without a hangover, rucksack, camera bag and 2-wheeled large carry-on suitcase to slow you down.

When I finally, and ungracefully, settled myself on the platform at Sheffield I glanced around to locate where I could get myself a coffee and some form of breakfast. I had a 50 minute wait until my next train so there was plenty of time to try and nurse my hangover with coffee and carbs before getting crammed into another train and eventually reuniting with Cal in Edinburgh.

I spotted a place on the next platform over with indoor seating and made my way to it. Once inside the warmth of the glass rectangle I grabbed a twin pack of almond biscuits from the counter display and ordered a large cappuccino as well as a breakfast bagel. I then went and dumped all my luggage (promptly followed by myself) down at the nearest table and waited for my name to be called over the mellow jazz music.

Once I had returned to my table with my breakfast order, I opened my phone to check my messages and view the photographic damage from the night before. As I sipped my coffee I opened my photos app and was pleased when nothing embarrassing immediately jumped out at me from the 50+ square icons of photos and boomerangs that I had very little memory of taking. Most of the photos were blurry and every single boomerang was a fail, so I deleted them to save storage space on my phone. There was a super cute selfie of Drew and I, with his fiance, Adam, photo-bombing us in the background. It made me smile so much that I set it as the lock screen on my phone.

Next I moved on to my messages. There we unread messages awaiting me from Drew, Cal, my mum and weirdly my now ex-manager.

Manager Si: Didd u mange t geet home ok?/?. Gd luk w everythin

Work Hubby: I miss you already. Hope you got home safe! Text me by midday so I know you’re still alive x

Mum: Good luck on this big new adventure of yours! Do not forget to call us when time zones allow. Your Dad and I will always b here to support you and cannot wait to see you succeed. Say hi to Calum for us. Mum & Dad Xx

Cal: Hey, hey! So stoked to see you later and have you come oN FREAKING TOUR WITH ME!!! See ya in Edinburgh! X

I responded first to my mum, because I was raised right. I flat out ignored my old manager’s drunk text. I assured Drew that I was still alive because if I was dead it wouldn’t feel like there was a gremlin hammering away inside my skull. I followed that up with a screenshot of my new lock screen. Finally, I replied to Calum:

Morning :) Feeling rough after my leaving drinks last night. Have I already begun my new rock n’ roll lifestyle?! So fucking excited to see you again!! You are not prepared for the hug you’re gonna get! X

With everyone replied to (or ignored in Si’s case) I put my phone face down on the table and tucked into my breakfast bagel. Then as I still had 20 minutes to kill I thought what better place to slap some make-up on than the middle of a train station coffee shop?

Looking and feeling more human, I made my way from the coffee shop to platform 4 as they announced my train was about to arrive.

I hopped on carriage L, placed my luggage in the overhead rack and settled into my seat for the next 3+ hours. I quickly shot a text to my parents and Cal, letting them know I was on my last train. Then I pulled my noise cancelling headphones on, opened up a relaxing Spotify playlist and promptly fell asleep.

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yoongiandchiminie · 7 years ago

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P R E S S U R E { 9 }

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{Part 1} {Part 8}

Pairing: Reader X Yoongi

Word Count: 5,196

Genre: Romance, Smut, Fluff

Warnings: Cursing, Smut

Summary: After dating for almost 3 years, the armys and Yoongi’s label have found out about your relationship. Now you have to deal with it in your extraordinarily normal life.

It’d been a year since that day. A year since I’d signed that contract and everything had changed. Everything had been okay in that year. Slow Burn was doing fairly well in America and in South Korea as well. We were doing so good that we’d even been invited to an award show. According to our manager, we’d been begged to be in attendance. We were all aware it was due to our relationship with BTS, but we didn’t mind. It was an excuse to see them.

Our American tour had wrapped about a week ago and we were preparing for the international one in a few weeks. The American one was full of surprises. Along with the crowds that made our eyes light up, it was full of things I wished we’d never had experienced. On the second to last show of the tour, in California, a “fan” had gotten through security and onto the stage. I didn’t notice until he was trying to pull Julianna off of it. The bass line had stopped and the crowd was full of gasps.

I was closest to her on stage and knew I could get their first to help her. So, I dropped the mic and run over, pulling her away before he could drag her off and threaten her with the knife he held in his hand. It was a terrifying moment and I was truthfully surprised I acted within it. I guess it was just the mom instincts I held that came out- but I really did something important that night.

Other than that scary experience, touring was truly fun. We even ended up writing while on the tour bus too and as much as I never wanted to be stuck that close to Anthony again, I was looking forward to the next one. He’d chosen the bunk above me and his tossing and turning (Along with snoring) kept me up through the night. He knew it bothered me too and that I was a light sleeper, so he was happy.

Slow Burn had been in South Korea for about two days now preparing for the award show and there was still no sign of BTS. I’d gotten a few texts from him saying how excited he was to see me and such, but I hadn’t seen his face other than from his selcas on twitter. So, I knew I had to look good tonight. I knew we all did. We were to act with the utmost respect and be very thankful to have even been invited.

So, we did. We looked fucking beautiful and now we were in the van on the way to the red carpet. I hadn’t gotten this nervous in a while, but here were butterflies in my stomach about this whole event. Especially seeing Yoongi in person after three months.

“You look gross.” Anthony bothered me, picking up on my nerves from my leg shaking the slow moving vehicle. We were currently waiting online to get out of the van. From my secret twitter account where I followed BTS fan accounts, I could see they’d arrived and Yoongi was looking around. It was presumed he was looking for me.

“You don’t really mean that, do you?” My face dropped for a second and Luke shook his head from next to the asshole.

“He doesn’t, that’s just his way to get his nerves out.” Luke sighed, leaning forward to pat my shoulder.

“I wish we could get him out.” Alicia groaned and Anthony shot up to defend himself. He opened his mouth, came to a realization, and then shrugged it off. “Wow, he gave up.”

“Surprising.” Julianna’s small voice added. Her eyes were glued to the window, watching the hundreds of people screaming and running around outside. “There’s gonna be so many cool people here tonight… Seventeen is supposed to be here!” She was super excited as all three of us had recently got more into listening to K-Pop. Seventeen was Julianna’s favorite group and knowing her she’d pass out if she made eye contact with Yoon Jeonghan.

Everything with her and Taehyung had died down about a month after that night in the city. They’d ended up having a talk and decided not to tell Jungkook in the end. They figured it would crush the bunny, so they just went back to being friends with no benefits. It was mainly his idea. Then to bury her depressed self, she got into Seventeen and when we weren’t working on the band, Jeonghan was her life.

“I’m going to throw up.” Alicia spoke to all of us as our van was the next one in line. I shook my head at her and she nodded, affirming her notion. “Why am I more stressed about this than performing?”

“You were stressed about that too.” Luke added.

“Because we can’t understand half of these people.” Anthony sighed, leaning forward and fixing his jacket. “I mean- you three can with your- Ugh. You guys are a mess.”

“Shut up.” I cleared my throat and our car slowly began to move, “We’ll be okay, like we always are. Let’s just stick together, alright? You already know that’s the motto.”

“Yeah. Like we always do.” Luke nodded. We all smiled and looked around through each other. I took this as my chance to move to the opposite side of the car. I realized I was sitting in front of the door and would be let out first. “What the fuck are you doing?!” he called me out, but it was too late. I was victorious.

Luke reached forward and opened the door, stepping out first. The moment I could see the red carpet without a screen between us, my ears were overwhelmed by yelling for the attractive man. Julianna came out next, Luke reaching forward to help her out. He helped out Alicia as well and then Anthony jumped out. When it was my turn, Alicia helped me. Luke had this fear that if he was seen even touching me, rumors would start; especially here in my boyfriends castle.

My eyes scanned the place ahead of us and I made sure to keep a nice and sweet smile on. I was desperate to even catch a glimpse of him. As I spotted his raven colored hair in the distance, I could feel my heart pick up the pace. He didn’t notice me yet and I couldn’t easily run over. So, I had to stay put and talk to everyone that approached me. Easy enough?

My Korean had gotten better, but thankfully there was a translator with us for every interview we were brought into. I tried to speak without him, but it was tough at the volume and speed everything was going. My nerves were calm, but they got worse once I managed to get separated from everyone.

I was dragged off to talk to someone separately while they were caught up in an interview. I stood off to the side, waiting for them to be done, but it didn’t seem like it was ending anytime soon. The four of them were caught up in some conversation, so I turned my attention to the hundreds of screaming fans off to the side. A few of them called out to me, so I waved and sent small finger hearts that I’d learned were important here.

My attention was so focused on them, that I didn’t feel a presence creeping up behind me until he tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around hoping for it to be Yoongi, but instead it was someone I’d never had the pleasure of meeting. I was face to face with Kwon Jiyong, aka G-Dragon. I truthfully never thought I’d get the chance to meet him, but the smile on my face made it clear I was happy for this.

“Hey.” he led off with. “I know we’ve never spoken, but I saw that clip of you helping the other girl from your band. I wanted to commend your bravery and saw you alone so- I figured it would be the perfect time to do so. So, good job.” he smiled and extended his hand to me. Something inside told me not to, but of course I did anyways.

“Ah, thank you so much!” I exclaimed, smiling my cheeks off. “It’s nice to meet you! I love your music.” I complimented.

“Same as well. Your voice is very nice.” he nodded, “I was wondering if you’d like to sing with me tonight? I’m doing a stage for my song Black and the woman that was supposed to sing the vocals came down with the flu and can’t be allowed here tonight.”

“Are you- Are you joking?” I was at a loss. This couldn’t be real, but here it was. He shook his head no. “Yes? I’d love to? Am I even allowed to-”

Before he could open his mouth to respond, an interviewer came over and asked if we had a moment to speak to her. Of course he quickly said yes and I was at a loss for what she began to say into the camera. I was so caught up in the conversation we were in the middle of that I was only brought back into it when he placed his hand on my waist and began to speak in english.

“For a last minute change of events, Y/N will be performing with me tonight!” he smiled a shy smile, but his eyes read for ages into the camera. The interviewer cheered and they began to speak in Korean again while I shook his hand off of me. I felt eyes drilling into the back of my head and simply knew he was close. I excused myself from the interview and turned around to see my band ready to move on.

Once I’d told them about what had just happened, they were in complete awe. The guys were confused about him touching me, but the girls were so caught up in the stage that would be happening later. Anthony and Luke eventually dropped it, getting excited about the extra expose Slow Burn would be getting from this. It was insane.

As soon as we were done getting pictures taken of us, I saw him. I saw Min Yoongi walking into the building and this time I couldn’t stop myself. My heels took off before I had enough self control and he only noticed me as I tripped over myself and stumbled into his back. His arms reached around his body to steady me and he let go, turning around to see me.

Yoongi’s face didn’t have the smile I expected, but the rest of BTS did. Everyone else jogged over and began to converse, as I store at my boyfriend’s blank face. “What’s with you?” I questioned and he cracked a slight smile.

His long fingers reached up to cup my face for a moment, knowing he couldn’t kiss me right here with so many people around. They dropped down into my hair and played with the curls at the bottom. “Hey.” he said in english, leaning over to place a soft kiss on my cheek. “I gotta go.” Then he left, the rest of BTS trailing behind him.

“Did you see that?” I asked Alicia before we stepped over to talk to someone else. She nodded, still smiling from being reunited with Jimin. I hadn’t seen my own boyfriend for a while, but it’d been even longer for her to see her best friend. Or whatever they were. I didn’t even want to ask at this point. “Maybe he’s stressed. They’re up for a big award tonight, you know how he gets.”

I shrugged it off and put on my best smile for our final interview on the red carpet. My thoughts were distracted during it, but they got even worse once we were led to our seats inside. We were seated right next to BTS and the moment Yoongi saw me walking over to sit next to him, he switched spots with Jungkook who was on the exact opposite side. I sighed and wasn’t too sure what I did wrong.

To play into his game, I took the seat furthest away from BTS so he could get whatever distance he was praying on. Were my texts too clingy? Was it the facetimes? It was burning a hole into my chest and I found my face faltering, distancing myself from talking to anyone. My bandmates got caught up in conversation with each other and my feeling sorry for myself ass decided to sit them out.

I just found my eyes lost in the distance at the waves of people behind us, until I was pulled out of my thoughts by the same man of earlier. G-Dragon had taken a seat next to me and waited for a moment before saying hello, hoping I would notice him. Before I even said hello, I glanced at the eyes I could feel heavy on my being. Yoongi was staring me down but the moment I met his beautiful brown hues, he looked away.

“Were you serious earlier?” I asked G-Dragon and he nodded.

“Well, I already announced it so there’s really no backing down now.” he chuckled and I joined in the slight laughter. “So, I’ll come and grab you about a half hour before. There’s no dancing or anything. Do you know the ly-”

“Yes.” I quickly interrupted him and we both laughed it off.

“I’ll see ya’.” he waved to me and walked off.

“So you weren’t joking.” Anthony elbowed me and I regretted sitting next to him. “Ah, I can’t wait. You’re gonna do so great, Y/N.”

I jokingly gasped and he elbowed me again. “A compliment from you? Must mean business.”

“Hey!” Namjoon yelled from down the line to me. “What’s that about?” In any other instance I would have stood up and walked over, but seeing how he was next to Yoongi I didn’t want to do that. I motioned him over and he gladly got up. He took the empty seat next to me and before I explained anything, I asked him not to be a spy and tell Yoongi. After I told him, his face lit up like a proud father. “I- Wow.” He was in awe.

“I was just- taken back.” I smiled and the two minute countdown for the show to start when off. He was about to stand up, but I grabbed his wrist to stop. “Why is he mad at me?” I questioned, sounding a bit sad when I spoke.

“I truthfully have no idea. He’s been like this for most of the night, so I’m not too sure if it’s you.” he shrugged. “You’re gonna do great tonight, Y/N. I’ll keep it between us so everyone is surprised.” he winked and walked back over to his seat.

The minute countdown began to tick and everyone around us hurried to their seats. On my left was Seventeen, who tended to sit near BTS. Mingyu sat next to me and we smiled and nodded at each other. He was probably confused on why this American girl was sitting next to him, but he seemed all about it. Even greeting me with a small “Hello.” before turning to his left to speak to who I recognized as Joshua.

Almost simultaneously Alicia and I looked over to Julianna, motioning to the group sitting next to me. I saw the moment she saw how close Jeonghan was to her and her heart was in her throat. She averted her eyes to the stage in front of us for the last ten seconds while Alicia and I giggled at her response.

“They’re so close!” she whispered as the last ten seconds started, “Oh my god, he’s so close!” she was just simply delighted by this and it was adorable.

As soon as the timer ran out, we knew it was time to be serious. We had to put on our best smiles and just look thankful. Even if my mind was completely distracted by my boyfriend sitting 12 seats away. I’d like to think that he saw how nice I looked tonight, as I worked super hard on it. I knew I looked amazing but- I just wanted him to see.

All of the performances that were happening were amazing. Korean award shows were done so much nicer than American ones in that aspect. From the vocals to the visuals to the dances, it was so captivating I almost lost my sad train of thought. That was until it was time for the Best Male Group category and I had high hopes BTS would win. As the nominees were being announced, I couldn’t help but to cross my fingers and look over to the group as a way of silently cheering.

Yoongi was still, but I could see that his leg was bouncing up and down. It was a bit of a nervous tick of his sometimes to shake. I just wished that I was able to be next to him to calm him a bit and show my support, but here we were on opposite sides of the spectrum. As the announcer began to tease the winner, all of us tensed up with nerves.

Then it happened and they won. The seven of them won and were on their feet in their famous group hugs. A few seconds after the five of us stood up to cheer and exchanged hugs as they began to walk up towards the stage. When it was time for Yoongi to give me a hug, I opened my arms, but instead he just… high fived me?

We’ve been dating for over four years and the love of my life just gave me a high five on live television. He just rejected me on live television. I tried not to let it be shown that it was affecting me, but oh boy it was. Normally I would think he just didn’t want to show pda, but he hugged everyone else. I tried to block it out of my head as they began their thank you speech.

I couldn’t keep up with the Korean all too well and once I felt a tug on my sleeve, my attention was away from Yoongi who was speaking in this moment. It was G-Dragon who motioned me to follow him and I stood, right on his heels. As Yoongi’s speech finished, the man who was leading me away right now whispered. “That was cute don’t you think?” I furrowed my eyebrows and he laughed at my lack of understanding of their language. “He said ‘I want to thank the very special someone in my life for supporting me for the past few years and forever more’. I’m gonna guess that was towards you.”

“Knowing him it was about his dog.” I rolled my eyes at the situation and he laughed about it as we went backstage.

It was completely overwhelming as I was led away by a stylist to get me ready. She spoke minimal english, but I was able to communicate with her well enough. She brought out a floor length shimmery black dress for me to change into that hugged my body in a nice way. As they touched up my makeup and hair, I just looked up the words to the song again.

I knew them by heart and it said I should do the english version. Before I was whisked away, he told me all about how excited he was for this stage. He wasn’t exactly happy that the other woman couldn’t make it, but instead of excited about this experience. It was going to be a stage full of different collabs, but our song was ending the three of them. His stage had begun already and I was being rushed to get into position.

I’d be sitting on a beautiful ivory chair to contrast my dress and would be lifted from underneath the stage. As I took the seat in the position they carefully moved me into, my nerves began to act out. This past year had been a rush for me. It was so different from my normal life and actually saying yes to this was so far out of my comfort zone. On top of my jittery performance nerves, I had my relationship ones as well. Did I finally push Yoongi far enough away that he didn’t want to be with me anymore?

I couldn’t get caught up in these thoughts right now. I had to sing this song with all of the emotion I had buried within me. The lyrics of this song were special and I knew I had to get caught up within them to make this the best performance I could possibly put on right now. I took a deep inhale as the platform began to move as my part was about to come up within the song.

From the top of the stage, this entire arena was bigger than I had realized. I looked over at G-Dragon and he completely in his zone. The somewhat shy man I was with earlier had become this stage monster presence. I hoped I could even match up well enough, but from how in the zone I felt in the moment I could do this. As I began to sing and move, I felt a wave of euphoria wash over me. I was truly happy.

The entire audience basically looked like blobs, but I could make out the figures of my friends. They were all sitting front row and they looked to be really into it from the bits I could see. Instead of focusing just on them, I threw myself into the music and got really into the song. My movements were fluid and if I could have an ego for a moment, I sounded fucking good. I was impressed by how good this was.

As the song neared the end when we sang together, G-Dragon made his way over to me, looking me straight in the eyes. I looked back to fill in the moment and found myself reaching for his hand. He obliged, in the moment as well. As I finished my vocals, he moved closer to me, the cameras zooming straight into the lack of space between us. I was captivated by the way he sang to me and as he got into the fade away portion of the ending, the two of us separated, moving to separate ends of the stage. The song ended and we met back up in the middle, taking a small bow together before the cameras were gone and we exited the stage together.

“Holy shit.” I whispered to him as we descended down the steps.

“A beautiful feeling, yeah?” he responded, giving me a half sweaty hug, “You were great, your stage presence was awesome. Watching you get really into it was pretty cool. Thanks for doing me this favor.” he chuckled and I smiled. Once we got backstage again, I changed back into the dress I’d arrived in and was escorted back out. The show was on a commercial and there was a loud roar as I appeared out in the open again.

I couldn’t help but to bow and smile as I made my way back over to my seats. Everyone had shifted their seats. Julianna had ended up next to Seventeen. Actually next to Jeonghan who had also shifted. Watching her try to hold herself together was hilarious. Alicia was next to her and then Luke, then Anthony. BTS had shifted in the opposite way, Yoongi moving over next to the seat that was now left for me.

As I approached them, the eleven of them stood up to give me a small standing ovation. I had this corny smile on and waved them off. “Please just- uh sit down.” I spoke pretty loudly so they could hear me, but it still came out as a whisper. I walked over to Alicia and silently asked her to switch with me.

She pulled me down so she was whispered to me. “He asked everyone to move so he could sit next to you. You should’ve seen him dude. I’m showing you fancams when we get back to the hotel. He was so happy, I swear I almost saw him shed a tear.” My mouth was gaped open at her words and I tried to shake the feelings that came along with it.

I made eye contact with Joshua of Seventeen and he congratulated me on a great performance. I was too shell shocked to say anything to I just repeated thank you and bowed like five times. His laughter afterwards found it to be charming and I made my way to my seat. Yoongi was lost in conversation with Hoseok next to him and as he noticed me coming over, he greeted me with this smug smile.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked as I took my seat, directing his full attention towards me. He reached his hand out to grip my thigh. It was something he enjoyed doing. His thumb rubbed circles on my skin.

“Well, you weren’t really speaking to me.” I responded, copying his facial expression to annoy him a bit. He scoffed at my response, but he didn’t end our conversation. He looked out in the crowd for a moment and then made direct eye contact with me. All at once he leaned into to give me a long, lingering kiss. Knowing him his petty ass just looked around for his fan site to make sure he got nice pictures of this.

I didn’t exactly reject his kiss, but I didn’t continue it like I probably would have at any other time. “Let’s get back to that.” he smiled, but his words were basically vicious and then he moved his hand and didn’t speak to me for the remainder of the award show. It was so fucking annoying.

He stayed seated next to me the entire time, but not a word was spoken directly to me. I didn’t quite know what he was playing at by doing this, but all I knew is that I was pissed. I wanted to get up and walk out of here and just kind of go to cry in the hotel room. I knew I couldn’t do that. I even cheered like he hadn’t just stopped speaking to me during their end of show performance. I was good at pretending.

“Ah, that was a great performance!” I complimented them as they walked back over, sweating their asses off for the final award they were nominated for.

“Thank you!” Jungkook responded and I pulled him to sit next to me before my boyfriend could take a seat. Yoongi scowl for a moment but then he carried on and sat next to Jungkook like nothing had just happened. “What are you guys doing after this?” he questioned and Anthony joined in the conversation.

“The after party, of course!” Anthony cheered and him and Jungkook high fived over me.

“Ah, I’ll be heading back to the hotel room.” I added in just to let them know before I ended up roped along into this.

“You’re gonna leave this handsome guy alone at a party!?” Jungkook exclaimed and put his arm around Yoongi, tugging him into the conversation. “Someone might come and scoop him up, you know!?”

“Yeah, I know.” I rolled my eyes and Yoongi let out a breathy chuckle. “I’m just not really in the mood.”

“Y/N, you’re coming.” Anthony almost scolded me, “That’s final, missy.”

“Don’t-”

“That’s final.” Yoongi said in a smug tone as he mimicked my bandmate. I shook my head and made eye contact with him for the first time since he’d spoken to me last. “Why won’t you come?” he questioned, teasingly knowing the answer. He was such a dick when he wanted to be.

“You’re speaking to me again?” Of course I had to be bitter. Bygones weren’t bygones here, no way. “I hope you don’t treat any of the ‘ladies’ you meet tonight at that party like this.” I rolled my eyes and looked away from him, completely turning my body to face my group. I heard shuffling in his direction as if he was maybe going to stand up, but the show was back on so it’d have to wait.

It was the final award and it was Artist of the Year. I was hopeful and I knew were all were. Again, we all tensed up as the nominees were announced and this time even held hands for it. We really loved these boys, it was crazy. When they won the entire arena went crazy. Everyone was on their feet and screaming and cheering and I found myself caught inside my boyfriends arms for a brief moment. He spun me around once (Probably for the cameras) and then let me go instantly without a word to me.

Then they were over. The most stressful award show of my short career had ended and I had to figure out a way to escape to the hotel without being stopped. I tried to sneak off from my friends but a tight grip on my wrist from Alicia stopped me. She shook her head no and wouldn’t let go for the remainder we were in the award show. The fourteen of us walked out together and of course Yoongi walked in the front while I trailed behind. We split by group into our respective vans on the way over.

“Can I please go back to the hotel?” I groaned to everyone and was met with a chorus of no’s. “I’m not staying for long then, I’ll leave as soon as he upsets me.”

“Yeah, whatever you say.” Anthony waved me off and closed his eyes.

“You’re not gonna get through this if you avoid him.” Luke sang, already knowing my reasoning.

“He can come to her!” Julianna sided with me, completely lost in a daze over her Seventeen meeting. Once she realized the aggravated looks she was getting from everyone but me, she began to stutter. “I mean she’s gonna go enjoy this party and he can come to her there!”

“You guys are the worst.” I groaned and tossed my head back onto the seat, closing my eyes for the remainder of the ride. I started listing through exit strategies in my head and I just figured I’d leave after I confronted Yoongi again. He’d probably try to avoid me, but I wasn’t going to take no for an answer.

“So what happened with you and Jeonghan?” I asked with my eyes still shut, trying to change the subject.

“Well- uh- He’d heard about my problem with him and- We ended up speaking in Japanese to each other.” We all burst into hysterical laughter at the thought alone of it, but she didn’t take it personal. She knew we were all proud.

At least she was making advances.

A/N: Hey! Thanks for reading, hope you enjoyed!